Why lipstick lesbians have to keep coming out of the closet

[mariamma]

Originally Posted by rustedrims

I had no idea what your day was like..I thought your lifestyle was hidden because " you dont look gay".. Then as you go about your daily business people dont look-stare at you because your lifestyle isnt written all over your appearance..Every time i leave my house i out myself..{Like today,went to the gas station..I put on my dirty jeans cut off t-shirt baseball hat on backwards in my 4x4 truck..How much more can i do to get the looks or stares..Guess i am asking for it}..Anyway i always thought that was a good thing like flying under the radar then when you get home you can be who you are..I see now getting asked out by bio males can be overwhelming at times..I do get asked by a guy at work to go out all the time..Always have turned him down..He is a nice guy and i do like him but cant do it..Guess he doesnt see it..The agervation also that a butch doesnt take you serious when asked out has to get a little discouraging to..I live in little town USA and if a pretty girl asked me out i would think she was setting me up for something uncomfortable and i might turn her down..I had no idea..
I tell ya if you were walking with me down any street any where people would know whats up and that we were together by my apperance. I would be attentive to your needs like opening doors and stuff like that..Funny as i wrote that my mom and sister always step back so i can get the door..Just habbit for them and me..

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Thank you for your kindness and understanding. When we reach for each other, try to understand how each other think/feel, we make our hearts more complete and whole. I honor and respect the place in you that honors and respects me.
I do energy work, meaning I work on understanding and knowing hormones, neurotransmitters and the other trace protein structures that make us think/feel/do everything we think/feel/do.
We live in a world where T is more respected that E so when a woman is being her normal self, she is seen as making a man be attracted to her. His T is being normal, making him have that surge in energy (which often will initially manifest as a desire to fuck or fight). But one needs to be responsible for their own T reaction. Men are often let off the hook. And some feel offended when a woman doesn't want their T (or body or whatever).
This is the hardest part about being a femme. I am very maternal, I'm told I am radiant and men and children stop and stare at me often. Straight women my age or younger hate me. Older women love me because I talk about deep things they feel now that they're menopausal. The part about straight women hating me makes no sense since I'm missing teeth and you see it when I smile (HEY! I'm 1/2 English!). I feel not that beautiful. But beauty comes from the action of E. The markers of beauty in the body (soft, fair skin, long silky hair, big breasts and wide hip to waist ratio, that swaying walk, large luminous eyes, etc.) are expressions of the actions of estrogen from in utero to now. It is normal for T to react to seeing those expressions of E. It's how you handle it that makes you a man or a douche (which you obviously know already rustedrims).
I guess what I really wanted to get across is that we all have our struggles in dealing with emotions and other people. I appreciate gaining perspective and hearing about how others deal with life.

[nycfem]

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