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Old 01-27-2013, 04:08 PM   #1
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594 hours: 04 minutes: 51 seconds
since my last cigarette


Still craving them pretty bad most of the time, but am determined not to smoke. I was on Chantix but I just could not handle the side effects, primarily the extreme nausea that would last about two hours after each pill. I decided to take myself off of it and just go it alone. (Am allergic to patches and not a fan of gum...had one of the e-cigs but it just makes me want a real one.) Now I carry around a lil box of tic tacs, and every time have a craving I pop one in my mouth. So far, so good!
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594 hours: 04 minutes: 51 seconds
since my last cigarette


Still craving them pretty bad most of the time, but am determined not to smoke. I was on Chantix but I just could not handle the side effects, primarily the extreme nausea that would last about two hours after each pill. I decided to take myself off of it and just go it alone. (Am allergic to patches and not a fan of gum...had one of the e-cigs but it just makes me want a real one.) Now I carry around a lil box of tic tacs, and every time have a craving I pop one in my mouth. So far, so good!
Way to go..so happy for you!
Keep it up..step through the hard moments..each nicci last 5 minutes ..remember that..it makes it easier..and don't forget to breath and take your moments still to re group.

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I am doing it with e cigs.
For two weeks I've been weaning myself down off the real shit.
If all goes well today will be my first day of no real ones.
I learned the hard way that I cant have emergency cigarettes around .Period.
That would be like quitting drinking and having an emergency
bottle up in the cupboard I would have never got sober like that.
But I had to try it, yes I did.


Sooo much harder than quitting drinking.
The e cigs are taking the edge off but
the emotional
( OMG Your best friend, your constant source of stuffing
emotions is fucking outta heah?!!!!REALLY?)
stuff is surfacing.

I am also worried about my personality changing
because I don't feel "right".... snort
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I am doing it with e cigs.
For two weeks I've been weaning myself down off the real shit.
If all goes well today will be my first day of no real ones.
I learned the hard way that I cant have emergency cigarettes around .Period.
That would be like quitting drinking and having an emergency
bottle up in the cupboard I would have never got sober like that.
But I had to try it, yes I did.


Sooo much harder than quitting drinking.
The e cigs are taking the edge off but
the emotional
( OMG Your best friend, your constant source of stuffing
emotions is fucking outta yeah?!!!!REALLY?)
stuff is surfacing.

I am also worried about my personality changing
because I don't feel "right".... snort
I am different with the "emergency" stash. I have the rest of the last pack of Marlboros I bought before the hospital (about 9 cigs) in my purse. My personality is a bit off. If I do not have any, then my mind tells me that the only reason I am not smoking is because I am out. Since I DO have some in my purse, my mind is telling me that I am not smoking because I CHOOSE not to smoke. (See? Odd mind I have lol)

As for personality, I understand about not feeling "right." I have been one cranky cruel bitch, and I still don't recommend looking at me the wrong way. LOL Needless to say, I am hoping it's just the lack of cigs and that I am not really this much of a bitch and just never noticed it before lol




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I am doing it with e cigs.
For two weeks I've been weaning myself down off the real shit.
If all goes well today will be my first day of no real ones.
I learned the hard way that I cant have emergency cigarettes around .Period.
That would be like quitting drinking and having an emergency
bottle up in the cupboard I would have never got sober like that.
But I had to try it, yes I did.


Sooo much harder than quitting drinking.
The e cigs are taking the edge off but
the emotional
( OMG Your best friend, your constant source of stuffing
emotions is fucking outta heah?!!!!REALLY?)
stuff is surfacing.

I am also worried about my personality changing
because I don't feel "right".... snort
Way to go!!!
Yes this is as hard or close to it as heroin..wow huh...but it is truely doable.

Keep it up and stay busy..but don't forget to breath.
Stay with your method don't stop it to early.
And I suggest reading all posts for great ideas.

Welcome to being a non smoker..smiles

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Like Dude I'm using e-cigs.

Since I started with e-cigs (Dec 22nd) I've had 4 tobacco cigarettes total. So far so good.

Over the years I tried gum, patches, Zyban, Chantix. I'd quit for a period of time (as long as 8 years, as little as 6months) but the craving never really left. I'd not smoke by just force of will, often berating myself whether I gave in or not.

The e-cigs taught me a lot about my addiction. I'm not entirely sure it's the nicotine for me. When I smoked I was a 1/2 pack a day smoker, often less. So there wasn't much of a nicotine hit throughout the day.

What I did need was the goodies that came with smoking: the ritual of it, taking a break from work with smoking buddies, the feeling of heat in my mouth, the throat hit, the rolling of something in my fingers. There's also a psychological 'time out' for me as well.

Many times not smoking felt unkind, but then, so did smoking. It's very much a no-win.

With the e-cigs I don't feel like I'm punishing myself when not smoking, nor am I berating myself for 'giving in'.

I don't know if this will be the silver bullet for me, but I'm hoping. That and now I have a bunch of lighters for fire play

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triggers

I'm ok ...I'm ok

geezuz

mornings are hard
nighttime is hard

I'd like to just sleep through the next few weeks
wake me when it's all ovah please
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triggers

I'm ok ...I'm ok

geezuz

mornings are hard
nighttime is hard

I'd like to just sleep through the next few weeks
wake me when it's all ovah please
Mornings are hard
Nighttime is hard
After meals are hard
After chocolate is hard
Arguing with idiots is hard
Being bored is hard
Driving is hard
Tuesdays are hard
OMG-what-am-i-going-to-wear is hard
Seeing random strangers with cigarettes is hard
etc
etc
etc

I have discovered so many freakin triggers it drives me nutssss!

I stop, I take a few deep and calming breaths, I pop a tic tac or peppermint in my mouth, and I repeat my mantra of "damn it feels so good to breathe and not hack my lungs out every morning" LOL

I certainly hope it gets better, because I loved smoking and did not want to quit. BUT I've already discovered so many advantages to it, that I really hope I can stick with it.

You can too, my friend. It's worth it. Hell, just imagine...we don't stink no more LOL


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