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In other news, yesterday was a struggle for me with working a 10 hour day and being so tired, literally exhausted at the end of the day and I had obsessive thoughts about eating sweet things. My HP works in great way though, I have to say! I got a text from someone else in my home meeting telling me she had a good day and stayed away from sugar! We text back and forth until I felt better and was actually laughing. I had a healthy dinner and went right to bed....my 5th sugar free day completed! Thank you for being here my friends!Today will be better! |
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![]() "What I truly fail to realize is that in the process of trying to hide my faux pas and fumbles; what I show you is my controlling ass. Backside bare I moon you with my freak show trying to hide my humanity." Yay! ![]() ![]() I've been working hard on remaining surrendered in the way I need to remain surrendered to the programme. It's sure paying off. Although I'm waiting on a call from my sponsor so we can talk about the feelings that bubbled up at last night's meeting...........oh noooo feelings ![]() Looking forward to taking a young member up to an 'illness in recovery' meeting tonight. Having flagged up to the chair that we'd be coming along, I got roped in to share. Oh dear. It can only be better than last week's birthday drivel. ![]() “A new idea cannot be grafted onto a closed mind... Open-mindedness leads us to the very insights that have eluded us during our lives.” basic text p.96 |
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April 12
My Experiences with Tennis I have held the racket, I have hit the ball, but I have never played with a partner. I have slammed the fuzzy orb against the wall for long years now, but I have never had a mate. There were times when I had opponents; yes I’ve had a couple of those, a collaborator though, that I have never had. I have learned to overcome opposition either through wile or guile. Slugged my way toward some inevitable outcome, I never expected you on my court. The game we play is for keeps and the muscles required I have never used, I ache from the pain of ending an atrophy imposed on me by isolation and misunderstanding. Often I don’t know how to stand, don’t know how to act; don’t know how to be the equal to your service. I play chase, running after the thing I didn’t see and only faintly felt. I have come to the place where I know, you and I are a team; you will not be leaving looking for someone better equipped or with greater experience. It is time for me to lay out in front of you my host of tendencies and inclinations. I’m in the habit of overwhelming with my strength to hide my weakness; I must expose this all to you, the strength and the weakness, and work together for the resolution. I will no longer pretend that I know what is right and wrong in this un-played game. I fear that I will lose the old game by making this change, all that is familiar put up for grabs to the uncertain outcome of paired sports. All I truly know is that with you by my side I can never lose and I will learn to do whatever it takes to be your wife. Dream with an open mind * SOLIDITY Apprehension stands in the archaeological site Which is my life -----listening Listening for the rumble of a cement truck to come And help solidify the shifting and tenuous nature of my existence A wet and sloppy solution A solution to be raked and smoothed, covered and cured Something to build a monument on Or a place to park my car The nearby grass looks lush and green But I dare not leave apprehension alone or it spreads I stand with it on bad days And against it on good ones I pray for the mixer to arrive Or at least the gravel spreader I need to fill this hole so it can be a life And stop being a grave.
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Once again, Sherrie, you did it. You touched my very inner self that I do not share easily with anyone with today's post. Thank you so much for sharing with all of us.
There is a reason why all this time since I've been registered I was not really reading/posting on the planet, and all of a sudden I started up about a month ago...in that time I have joined two 12 step programs, worked most of the steps, become a much better woman, and actually feel so much better about my life in general. I was not ready to be here when I registered, but I am now. This thread is where I feel good, and have friends who get it, get me. To those that read this thread, thank you for being here. I feel so blessed. ![]() |
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April 13
Neither Frog nor Fish I was falling and my Higher Power caught me in a net called AA, all of which was a pretty neat trick, but the strangest consequence of this is now I somehow think it shouldn’t be possible for me to drown. Defying gravity 24 hours at a time doesn’t make me aquatic or even amphibious for that matter. I still have all the corollary restrictions of anyone who is me. I still need sleep and water, food and warmth just like a mere mortal. How silly I am. I dodge a bullet and suddenly I think I am waterproof. Don’t exchange your trinkets for your tools * WHAMMO I have been hopping on one foot With a ball of hope shoved under one arm And a ball of hysteria under the other I wish I could tell from the outside of the ball Which one is hope- I worry I will put down the wrong one So I hold onto both My life is sorely limited by the baggage And I fear I am losing life with every hop A lack of information is my problem I don't adequately know the properties of either And suspect my every interpretation Finally I stand before my sponsor To ask the question of my life- That's easy Honey Hope is the one that bounces back Is all she had to say
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April 14
Who to Ask “You ask good questions and you ask the right people,” said my sponsor. “I ask questions because I need answers,” my reply. “Do you know how many people need answers and never ask?” she quipped. “I ask my friends, no stroke of genius there,” I continue. “You ask your playmates, you ask the people you trust enough to have fun with. You don’t realize how clever that is. You know lots of folks who work hard and you could ask your questions of these, but instead you save them for those diligent ones who still know how to play and that, Sweetie Pie is proof that you are no dummy.” You may mute your horn, but don’t soap your bow * CRUMPLED PETALS IN MY POCKET I can't bring back the bloom Cohesion, lost ripeness Is left only to memory I carry home the parts Folded, petite, fragrant bedding For my wistful desires I put these colored remnants into a jar of salt I make an aromatic rub For the sweetest wounds Transforming the parts to useful duty Doesn't restore the flower It doesn't pay tribute to the past, it is survival I have a mind filled with roses but I must make hay Today I live, today the rose is dead Its pieces in my pocket I don't die with the blossom Though my head blows in the wind The rose runs its course, I run mine.
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I gots me some spiritual malady all over the place today.
Uncomfortable feelings up the wazoo! Feeling nuts! |
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