Grieving

Andrew, Jr. · 04-04-2010, 01:53 PM

I hope everyone is doing well this Easter & Passover Holiday.

Namaste,
Andrew

Tommi · 04-04-2010, 04:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Andrew, Jr.

I hope everyone is doing well this Easter & Passover Holiday.

Namaste,
Andrew

A season of reflection, and rebirth, a time to give thanks for all I have and all that is to come..

The dormant trees are giving birth to new branches and fresh tiny buds and leaves unfold before my eyes. Like me, a time to grow, and to replenish my soul and give thanks to being cancer free for almost 6 years.

"Don't screen to-days sunshine with yesterdays clouds"
Scottish line

Jedi · 04-08-2010, 06:14 PM

I always thought I had this awesome handle on grief and death. Having grown up with a terminally ill parent and having her die when I was 11 gave me a unique perspective, I had always thought. That is...until my ex killed my dog. There's a part of me that won't forgive myself for ever trusting her (my ex). As all the woulda, coulda, shouldas toss themselves around in my head...I'm left in a limbo I never expected. For the longest time I got drunk to numb the pain. As that isn't the healthiest way to deal with loss...it did what it needed to until I was ready to look at it like I am now. As my life has moved on and I have had several months to numb over and ponder and remember and recover...I still am not ok with it. Xena was my best friend. I had moved all over the place with her and fought for her life in a city that banned her for looking like a pitbull. I had been through several gfs with her and still can't believe that she didn't survive this last one. For the longest time, it was Xena who kept me going when I would lose my hope. I still can't believe she's gone and so callously. I still cry when I think about it...as I am right now while writing this post. Xena, I miss you friend. I have no way to avenge your death...so please forgive me. I didn't mean for any harm to come to you. I know I promised to protect you and always be there and I just happened to go to work that day and well...I came home and you were gone. Life hasn't been the same without you. I moved into a house where I could have had you. All I can do is think about you being gone and shake my head. It wasn't fair. You died a senseless death and I can't help but feel responsible. Maybe one day I can forgive myself but it isn't today.

Andrew, Jr. · 04-08-2010, 06:20 PM

JediMaster,

There are evil people in this world of ours. All I can say is that I will pray that you find inner peace. No matter where it is, or how you find it, but that you find it.

Namaste,
Andrew

Spirit Dancer · 04-08-2010, 06:55 PM

Today my father took his last walk along the red road, he's now at peace;
In a better place so they say, but grief consumes those left behind,
even when we expect it, there's never a preparation for good bye.
Pain sears and tears blind, grief... there is no time limit for when it ends.
RIP Dad

WolfyOne · 04-08-2010, 07:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Spirit Dancer

Today my father took his last walk along the red road, he's now at peace;
In a better place so they say, but grief consumes those left behind,
even when we expect it, there's never a preparation for good bye.
Pain sears and tears blind, grief... there is no time limit for when it ends.
RIP Dad

I've never been to this thread, but saw your post my friend. I've come to support you. When you need someone to lean on, I'm as close as a call. I feel your pain because I understand it. I'm just sorry that I'm not closer to you in your time of need.

Today this one is especially for you

Tommi · 04-08-2010, 08:32 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Spirit Dancer

Today my father took his last walk along the red road, he's now at peace;
In a better place so they say, but grief consumes those left behind,
even when we expect it, there's never a preparation for good bye.
Pain sears and tears blind, grief... there is no time limit for when it ends.
RIP Dad

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Sending shade and lemonade under a big tree. Hoping the sunshine kisses your cheek, the winds of time carry away the pain, and loved ones hold you close

04-08-2010, 09:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Spirit Dancer

Today my father took his last walk along the red road, he's now at peace;
In a better place so they say, but grief consumes those left behind,
even when we expect it, there's never a preparation for good bye.
Pain sears and tears blind, grief... there is no time limit for when it ends.
RIP Dad

My Dearest Spirit Dancer!
My heart aches for you. May you be wrapped in love, strength and comfort as you walk this most difficult path. Thinking of you and always here if you need anything...

Thinking of you!
Angel~

Passionaria · 04-08-2010, 09:27 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Spirit Dancer

Today my father took his last walk along the red road, he's now at peace;
In a better place so they say, but grief consumes those left behind,
even when we expect it, there's never a preparation for good bye.
Pain sears and tears blind, grief... there is no time limit for when it ends.
RIP Dad

My heart goes out to you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss. Wishing you all be surrounded with much love and support. This song is to honor of your DAD. Pashi

Spirit Dancer · 04-09-2010, 01:07 PM

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Originally Posted by WolfyOne

I've never been to this thread, but saw your post my friend. I've come to support you. When you need someone to lean on, I'm as close as a call. I feel your pain because I understand it. I'm just sorry that I'm not closer to you in your time of need.

Today this one is especially for you

Thank you very much Wolfy, for friendship and an ear, it's appreciated always.

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Originally Posted by Tommi

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Sending shade and lemonade under a big tree. Hoping the sunshine kisses your cheek, the winds of time carry away the pain, and loved ones hold you close

Tommi, As always thank you, yes in time....all things are suppose to be better. My friend thank you.

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Originally Posted by angelswhisper

My Dearest Spirit Dancer!
My heart aches for you. May you be wrapped in love, strength and comfort as you walk this most difficult path. Thinking of you and always here if you need anything...

Thinking of you!
Angel~

Angel, Thank you for the kind words, they speak volumes.

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Originally Posted by Passionaria

My heart goes out to you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss. Wishing you all be surrounded with much love and support. This song is to honor of your DAD. Pashi

Pashi~ what a beautiful video, my guess is there's a smile on his face. My friend you are so very special

Sybelle · 04-17-2010, 08:05 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Spirit Dancer

Today my father took his last walk along the red road, he's now at peace;
In a better place so they say, but grief consumes those left behind,
even when we expect it, there's never a preparation for good bye.
Pain sears and tears blind, grief... there is no time limit for when it ends.
RIP Dad

So sorry for your loss. Hope today goes ok for you and yours. Many hugs!

Andrew, Jr. · 04-17-2010, 11:46 AM

Grief has no time limit. And there is not a thing anyone can say or do to take the pain away. Nothing. In fact, it is paralyzing at times. Some people take it with a grain of salt, and others it is like waves crashing on a beach.

I am still grief stricken over the loss of my sister, Jo. She was such a beautiful woman, inside and out. Her husband took down the Caringbridge Website. Thank God. If he didn't it would be me, and his sons going there on a daily basis.
For now we have the disk that was used for her viewing. I am hoping to be able to put that away one day...when I am ready to do so.

The one thing I cannot stand is when someone says something rude or stupid to me like "it was her time" or "get over it" or "move on - she's gone". UGH! I hate it when people say that. They have no clue.

Yes, I know Jo is in Heaven. Yes, I know Jo has recovered fully from her disease. Yes, this is my hope for her, but I miss her. My heart is crushed. That is just how it is. One day we will be reunited. It is my faith, and belief. I just ask people not to take that from me. It gives me hope.

Namaste,
Andrew

04-08-2010, 06:55 PM	#5
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Jedi Member How Do You Identify?: Butch Preferred Pronoun?: she Relationship Status: they are my world Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: In a galaxy far, far away Posts: 959 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 1,002 Thanked 1,729 Times in 544 Posts Rep Power: 12678953	I always thought I had this awesome handle on grief and death. Having grown up with a terminally ill parent and having her die when I was 11 gave me a unique perspective, I had always thought. That is...until my ex killed my dog. There's a part of me that won't forgive myself for ever trusting her (my ex). As all the woulda, coulda, shouldas toss themselves around in my head...I'm left in a limbo I never expected. For the longest time I got drunk to numb the pain. As that isn't the healthiest way to deal with loss...it did what it needed to until I was ready to look at it like I am now. As my life has moved on and I have had several months to numb over and ponder and remember and recover...I still am not ok with it. Xena was my best friend. I had moved all over the place with her and fought for her life in a city that banned her for looking like a pitbull. I had been through several gfs with her and still can't believe that she didn't survive this last one. For the longest time, it was Xena who kept me going when I would lose my hope. I still can't believe she's gone and so callously. I still cry when I think about it...as I am right now while writing this post. Xena, I miss you friend. I have no way to avenge your death...so please forgive me. I didn't mean for any harm to come to you. I know I promised to protect you and always be there and I just happened to go to work that day and well...I came home and you were gone. Life hasn't been the same without you. I moved into a house where I could have had you. All I can do is think about you being gone and shake my head. It wasn't fair. You died a senseless death and I can't help but feel responsible. Maybe one day I can forgive myself but it isn't today.

04-08-2010, 06:20 PM	#4
Andrew, Jr. Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Me Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: Unavailable Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Over the Rainbow in a House Posts: 5,072 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 16,004 Thanked 5,249 Times in 2,216 Posts Rep Power: 0	JediMaster, There are evil people in this world of ours. All I can say is that I will pray that you find inner peace. No matter where it is, or how you find it, but that you find it. Namaste, Andrew

04-17-2010, 11:46 AM	#12
Andrew, Jr. Timed Out How Do You Identify?: Me Preferred Pronoun?: He Relationship Status: Unavailable Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Over the Rainbow in a House Posts: 5,072 My Photo Gallery Thanks: 16,004 Thanked 5,249 Times in 2,216 Posts Rep Power: 0	Grief has no time limit. And there is not a thing anyone can say or do to take the pain away. Nothing. In fact, it is paralyzing at times. Some people take it with a grain of salt, and others it is like waves crashing on a beach. I am still grief stricken over the loss of my sister, Jo. She was such a beautiful woman, inside and out. Her husband took down the Caringbridge Website. Thank God. If he didn't it would be me, and his sons going there on a daily basis. For now we have the disk that was used for her viewing. I am hoping to be able to put that away one day...when I am ready to do so. The one thing I cannot stand is when someone says something rude or stupid to me like "it was her time" or "get over it" or "move on - she's gone". UGH! I hate it when people say that. They have no clue. Yes, I know Jo is in Heaven. Yes, I know Jo has recovered fully from her disease. Yes, this is my hope for her, but I miss her. My heart is crushed. That is just how it is. One day we will be reunited. It is my faith, and belief. I just ask people not to take that from me. It gives me hope. Namaste, Andrew