Were you adopted in a closed adoption?

[Apocalipstic]

Originally Posted by christie0918

Jen - I hope you dont think that I was saying that this isnt a place to discuss this or any other issue one might have... You mentioned that I seemed centered around my adoption issues and I was just putting out there what my experiences to this point have been in coming to that centered place.

Its a LOT of work... hard... and I would hope that you know that I am not dismissing nor trivializing your pain. If anything, I would rather wrap you in a hug and tell you that I understand just how deep the hurt is... just how dumbfounding it can be to try and understand how birth parents could inflict this pain and then carry on with their lives as if they never gave us another thought.

Please don't stop posting on this thread. Jess was just telling me last night how touching its been for hym to read my experiences here - we've never really spoken in detail about my being adopted... it just never really came up.

I've probably been more personal about very intimate details of that part of me here than I ever have on any other thread. For the first time, it didnt feel too vulnerable to put details of all that compile Christie out there to the general virtual public.

I think that if we can find some sliver of something that resonates with us from sharing our experiences, its worth it...

I'm sorry that my words weren't taken as I had intended. It certainly wasn't my intent to silence you.

Christie

Thank you for your quick response! a hug would rock!

I think my Dad's death has me thinking about all sorts of things I have pushed down over the years. I was focusing on work and life and just did not have time of desire to dig all this up. Now it's affecting my health so I need to take care of it.

I totally get what you and Dean are saying about not making excuses for myself beacsue this happened, and I don't. I do think that things ignored weigh on our health and it's good to process it.

Thank you so much for sharing what you have and everyone else for sharing what they have too.

I remember before I met my bio-parents I looked at people when I walked down the street and wondered "is she my mother?", kind of like in that DR. Seuss book. Now I have met her and though I wish she had been sorry I have to look at the situation she was in. I was still a total kid when I was 17 and have no idea what I woud have done if I had been pregnant. I was frightened to death of my father, and would have done anything to keep him from finding out. Luckily I am not into sleeping with men.

I know it is really easy for me to say that I would not put a kid up for adoption. It is pretty damn unlikely that I would have ever gotten pregant. laugh. (picturing really corroded star in the East)

Our society is so incredibly judgemental, it really freaks me out.