What is on your mind

[nicetgurl_30]

I have an HP mini 110/1046 notebook and for some reason it will not boot to windows any ideas?

:seeingstars:

[WolfyOne]

I have an HP mini 110/1046 notebook and for some reason it will not boot to windows any ideas?

:seeingstars:


Linus has a thread that might be able to help

http://www.butchfemmeplanet.com/forum/showthread.php?t=78&page=3

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Getting to know new people...added a great monologue to my book...Enjoying being single cause I am nobody's option :)

[Bacardi]

...to not go numb.

[Gemme]

I'm not liking how, b/c I live in a border city, too many channels are playing USA sports...WHY are sports so valued in your country?

We're a bunch of violent meatheads that are only concerned with bettering others to prove our worth to ourselves?

*shrug*

I'm not a sports person, so I can't really say.

[Diva]

There is not enough NyQuil in the world to solve my issue.


<sigh>

[MysticOceansFL]

There is not enough NyQuil in the world to solve my issue.


<sigh>







((((((((((( Diva)))))))))))) I hope you feel better soon!!!!!

[Miss Scarlett]

From my meditation this morning:

"If an individual has a calm state of mind, that person's attitudes and views will be calm and tranquil even in the presence of great agitation." ~HH the Dalai Lama

My counselor has been helping me work my way through things from my childhood. Most recently we worked with something that happened when I was about 7. It was the first (and by far the worst) incident of abuse experienced at the hands of my Mom. Since Thursday evening I have been extremely unsettled; having flashbacks and nightmares. Feeling a lot like a child trying to make its way through one of those Halloween haunted houses - never knowing what was going to pop up around the next corner or in the next room and the exit nowhere in sight.

During my meditation I was once again reminded of the owls who remained calm and steadfast as they waited for the strong winds to pass. Also of the bison in Yellowstone that stand patiently, belly deep in the snow as a blizzard rages around them.

Then I saw a stream of water winding its way along in that typical "S" flow pattern. Floating atop the water was a small feather. When it encountered obstacles the water stopped and pooled. The water only remained there long enough to accumulate the exact amount of energy it needed to surpass each obstacle, resume its course and carry the feather along.

How I wish I could say I was suddenly filled with some sort of instant peace/immediate resolution and now all is well with my world but that is simply not the case.

Rather there is a lesson to be learned. The water represents my life, the feather is me and the obstacles are my past, present and future. The obstacles will always be there and must be faced but are only temporary delays on my journey. For the moment my life is in one of the "pooling" phases and soon will move along.
The feather remained afloat and so shall I.

[UofMfan]

A lovely Lei, sigh...

[Blade]

my list of things to do today.........hmmmmm where do I begin.................

[bigbutchmistie]

Cowboy game today

Long hours at work this week

My friends committment ceremony in July

How happy I am to see all my friends happy with partners living a full complete life...

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Wasting time....in a great way :)

[Miss Scarlett]

my list of things to do today.........hmmmmm where do I begin.................

Start with the pink curlers... :tease:

[Blade]

Start with the pink curlers... :tease:

:rofl: We actually looked thru a bunch of albums Friday night and didn't find any pink curler pictures so they must be at Mom's.

[Miss Scarlett]

:rofl: We actually looked thru a bunch of albums Friday night and didn't find any pink curler pictures so they must be at Mom's.

Don't you fret now Punkin', if you are unable to locate them I will be more than happy to supply a few curlers for modeling purposes... :eyebat:

[Bella~Vita]

Memories ... good and bad

Lessons in my life

Embracing it all

Knowing in the end it will be ok

That we are ALL the same

[asphaltcowboi]

had to double check during half time that i still lived in az... looked out the window and there snow on the mtn down the road.. sheeez and right now my outside thermometer says its 37... and the wind is blowing like crazy!

[Cowboi]

the Holidays......I really dislike them.........
I can feel that old familiar feeling starting
to haunt me.

[Bacardi]

That some things are better left unsaid.

That sometimes the best things for a person are what hurt the most.

That I am stronger today than I was yesterday.

[lipstixgal]

had to double check during half time that i still lived in az... looked out the window and there snow on the mtn down the road.. sheeez and right now my outside thermometer says its 37... and the wind is blowing like crazy!

You must live in the northern part of Arizona huh??

[Blade]

chuckling....thank you Ma'am, I know I can always count on you in a pinch

Don't you fret now Punkin', if you are unable to locate them I will be more than happy to supply a few curlers for modeling purposes... :eyebat:

[Miss Scarlett]

chuckling....thank you Ma'am, I know I can always count on you in a pinch


You're welcome. Always happy to help.

BTW -resistance is futile... :eyebat:

[JustJo]

...that some just need to be the center of attention

...that I should never allow myself to get that tired again

...that feelings count...mine too

...that I've never dealt well with anger, but that my "recovery time" is getting longer rather than shorter

...that some think they've done a great job when they haven't....while others take things as criticism that aren't meant that way

...that my sister (who I have cut out of my life for good reason) just tried to hack my Facebook account...it's amazing what they can tell you about the location of a would-be hacker

...that just when I can stop worrying about my mammo results, I start worrying about Scoote's

...that diabetes sucks, period

[Kenna]

:eyebat: :eyebat:
http://t3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRRMd6076ea1sbib-RYGrIpZvWDSoUeHZTDhcRZTM8hnXCYJLqM

[Miss Scarlett]

:eyebat: :eyebat:
http://t3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRRMd6076ea1sbib-RYGrIpZvWDSoUeHZTDhcRZTM8hnXCYJLqM

Oh yeah! I do love a good conspiracy - hy'd never know what hit hym!

[Blade]

Thinkin about putting my black boots on and shaving my head:sunglass::byebye:

[Miss Scarlett]

Thinkin about putting my black boots on and shaving my head:sunglass::byebye:

Bring it, Darlin'! You know me well enough to know that would do little to thwart my plan!

Never, ever underestimate a determined femme!:eyebat:

[MysticOceansFL]

This has been on my mind off and on all day , a friend of mine who has helpped me through my time of need her brother of 60 years of age passed away last week and she called me on my cell phone wanting me to come by her place that she wanted to give me a painting that it was her brother , I had only known her for a year but she had seen me wear a t shirt with wolves on the front and that was the picture of wolves she gave me, I told her I was sorry that her brother passed away and that I couldnt be there physically for her but I prayed we both hugged each other and I placed the picture in the truck and left. I know this sounds crazy but I feel for every life that passes away theres another one being born.

[Kenna]

If it wasn't so chilly out tonight... I think I'd take a LONG walk to enjoy the moon light. After breaking the shower, I feel cabin fever coming on!

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Wanting to enjoy the night!!!!!!! I rarely get the time off...and it feels wonderful outside!!!

[Diva]

Mucinex is good.
It dries everything in Your sinuses right up.





And everything else, too.
And I mean EVERYthing. :|

[morningstar55]

wondering how does Diva do it?? up so late and then up so early?? lol ..
hmm i tend to do the same thing at times..... hehe..

[~Bo]

Mucinex is good.
It dries everything in Your sinuses right up.





And everything else, too.
And I mean EVERYthing. :|










:shocking:



_________

[~Bo]

Justin Bieber wins Entertainer of the Year. You gotta be kidding me. :annoyed:

[JakeTulane]

Justin Bieber wins Entertainer of the Year. You gotta be kidding me. :annoyed:

*blinks*

:|

[little_ms_sunshyne]

GOIN TO WATCH HARRY POTTER!!!...Yes I am a total nerd for Harry Potter, even read all the books! My excuse to go is that I "have" to take my little brother! SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[Daddy Raven]

My mom and dad saw a Facebook picture of me getting a kiss on the cheek from a pretty femme and gave me a very hard time about it. I didn't intend for them to see it but my Father was spying on my Facebook account and saw it.

My family is very homophobic. I'm butch and my Mom & Dad and one of my brothers just hates it; they're always giving me a hard time about the way I look and dress. My Mom calls me "ugly" all the time and my brother says, "why do you have to look like that?! You're embarrassing me!"

I'm supposed to go to Colorado for Christmas but I'm nearly sick on my stomach about it. I love my family but they put me down and make me feel pretty bad about myself. Stress!! I can't decide on what to do. Should I just go and suck it up or should I cancel my plane ticket and stay home. I hate the idea of losing nearly $600 on a non-refundable plane ticket but I'm beginning to think it's better than spending 10 days with my family and having a lousy Christmas.

[Kobi]

Justin Bieber wins Entertainer of the Year. You gotta be kidding me. :annoyed:

I dont even know who Justin Bieber is.

But I am glad the entertainer of the year did not go to the antics of Charlie Sheen.

:blink:

[asphaltcowboi]

spent the day here yesterday goofing off and flirting .. but today the suns out and i need to go spend some energy!!

[WolfyOne]

Just finished 2 more online job apps.........staying upbeat and hopeful

[Soft*Silver]

I put up lace curtains in my LR and DR. It makes my house more mine. I never lived anywhere that was Mine that didnt have lace up in those rooms. It reminds me of homes where I didnt have them and realize now how significant it was that the lace was missing.

trust in your symbols. They are there for good reasons.

[Apocalipstic]

Wondering at what age one is considered a grown woman by the in-laws.

[Just_G]

I got EVERYTHING done on my to-do list this past weekend! I LOVE being so productive like that....makes for a great weekend that consisted of no social interaction...except with the dude that helped me load up the water heater that I had to install.

Short work week then a 4 day weekend!

One final tomorrow...two next week, then off to start the 4th quarter!

I am REALLY hoping either Jennifer Gray or Kyle Massey wins DWTS tonight!

Oh, and one of my best friends here in KC had a baby girl today...Sophia Paula....with a head full of hair and all her fingers and toes! I can't wait to meet her tomorrow night!

I am thankful for all the blessings in my life!

[Random]

Justin Bieber wins Entertainer of the Year. You gotta be kidding me. :annoyed:


no...

what the HELL is wrong with the world...

[asphaltcowboi]

happy about the side jobs i just got but dang.. they are burst pipes under mobil homes... i hate crawl spaces ... to many critters live under there!
lol thanks friend for giving me these!

[JakeTulane]

Is it Thursday yet? I want My Mom's stuffing.

[lipstixgal]

My mom and dad saw a Facebook picture of me getting a kiss on the cheek from a pretty femme and gave me a very hard time about it. I didn't intend for them to see it but my Father was spying on my Facebook account and saw it.

My family is very homophobic. I'm butch and my Mom & Dad and one of my brothers just hates it; they're always giving me a hard time about the way I look and dress. My Mom calls me "ugly" all the time and my brother says, "why do you have to look like that?! You're embarrassing me!"

I'm supposed to go to Colorado for Christmas but I'm nearly sick on my stomach about it. I love my family but they put me down and make me feel pretty bad about myself. Stress!! I can't decide on what to do. Should I just go and suck it up or should I cancel my plane ticket and stay home. I hate the idea of losing nearly $600 on a non-refundable plane ticket but I'm beginning to think it's better than spending 10 days with my family and having a lousy Christmas.

Stay home and be happy my family was the same way only thing I look straight so there was no problem about the way I looked except for the weight gain which I eventually lost but was never good enough for them. Don't give them the satisfaction and they shouldn't be looking at the fb page either!!

[Random]

that I'm trying to be a grown up and not pout....

When my son was growing up, I tried to be very fair and mindful of the fact that other people loved and wanted to spend time with him...

So.. summer vacations, christmas, thankgivings... I tried to be fair and let him spend them with other people who loved him and didn't see him every day...


Pout....

Now I still have to be fair and understand that there are other people who miss and love him and want to see him... EVEN when I'm one of those people...

But I told him.. Christmas is MINE... he can have who ever he wants over, but by all that is holy... I will have christmas dinner with my family

[lipstixgal]

happy about the side jobs i just got but dang.. they are burst pipes under mobil homes... i hate crawl spaces ... to many critters live under there!
lol thanks friend for giving me these!

They have mobile homes in ARizona I didn't know that!! its good you have side jobs that's work and money I wish I had side jobs..

[asphaltcowboi]

They have mobile homes in ARizona I didn't know that!! its good you have side jobs that's work and money I wish I had side jobs..

lol yea just about my whole town is mobile homes me included.. i have a pink and white one!! but its not like mobil parks they are lots people buy some put massive beautiful mobil/ modular homes on on there lots.. or some people save and eventually build or have built a custom home..there are alot of side/cash jobs here .. im usually picky about what ill do or wont do but i have some stuff i want to buy so im taking all work.
(being the local crawl space hoe i guess)

[DomnNC]

Lol at local crawl space ho ... that just cracked me up Cody!

[scootebaby]

They have mobile homes in ARizona I didn't know that!! its good you have side jobs that's work and money I wish I had side jobs..

i'm pretty sure there are mobile homes in EVERY city in EVERY state....

and Cody i hear ya...i cant imagine having to crawl under ANYTHING that is tight quarters and unseen critters live

[Gemme]

Justin Bieber wins Entertainer of the Year. You gotta be kidding me. :annoyed:

*agast*

I'm afraid for future generations.

My mom and dad saw a Facebook picture of me getting a kiss on the cheek from a pretty femme and gave me a very hard time about it. I didn't intend for them to see it but my Father was spying on my Facebook account and saw it.

My family is very homophobic. I'm butch and my Mom & Dad and one of my brothers just hates it; they're always giving me a hard time about the way I look and dress. My Mom calls me "ugly" all the time and my brother says, "why do you have to look like that?! You're embarrassing me!"

I'm supposed to go to Colorado for Christmas but I'm nearly sick on my stomach about it. I love my family but they put me down and make me feel pretty bad about myself. Stress!! I can't decide on what to do. Should I just go and suck it up or should I cancel my plane ticket and stay home. I hate the idea of losing nearly $600 on a non-refundable plane ticket but I'm beginning to think it's better than spending 10 days with my family and having a lousy Christmas.

That's a decision only you can make, but....is the ticket transferable? Can you still use it but for a different location? Is there somewhere you've always wanted to go?

The holidays are hard enough without being bullied and put down.

[Spirit Dancer]

:ohm::praying:Digging deep to keep it.

[asphaltcowboi]

My mom and dad saw a Facebook picture of me getting a kiss on the cheek from a pretty femme and gave me a very hard time about it. I didn't intend for them to see it but my Father was spying on my Facebook account and saw it.

My family is very homophobic. I'm butch and my Mom & Dad and one of my brothers just hates it; they're always giving me a hard time about the way I look and dress. My Mom calls me "ugly" all the time and my brother says, "why do you have to look like that?! You're embarrassing me!"

I'm supposed to go to Colorado for Christmas but I'm nearly sick on my stomach about it. I love my family but they put me down and make me feel pretty bad about myself. Stress!! I can't decide on what to do. Should I just go and suck it up or should I cancel my plane ticket and stay home. I hate the idea of losing nearly $600 on a non-refundable plane ticket but I'm beginning to think it's better than spending 10 days with my family and having a lousy Christmas.

im very sorry to to read this and feel for you.. thats a tuff one during the holidays.. maybe not showing will give them some time to think and feel there is someone missing from there family.. i dont like anyone to spend the holidays alone.. do you have another friend that you can use your ticket to go see? most airlines if you call and tell them your ill will hold your ticket credit for another time.. they would rather not have a contagous passenger.

[~Bo]

I dont even know who Justin Bieber is.


But I am glad the entertainer of the year did not go to the antics of Charlie Sheen.


:blink:





LOL.....nawwww.....it was at the American Music Awards last night. Music only.


I was wrong about it being Entertainer of the Year. It was Favorite Artist. Acckkkkk!!!

[WolfyOne]

LOL.....nawwww.....it was at the American Music Awards last night. Music only.


I was wrong about it being Entertainer of the Year. It was Favorite Artist. Acckkkkk!!!


I think this means the world as we know it is about to come to a halt :|

[~Bo]

I think this means the world as we know it is about to come to a halt :|




I think you're right. :(

[Soft*Silver]

cat urine and how to get it out of carpet

[asphaltcowboi]

cat urine and how to get it out of carpet

oh good luck with that!! i was thinking tomato sauce but that for skunk on dogs.. hope its not threw to the padding...itsnt there a site like ask.com or something that might have an answer?

[Soft*Silver]

its actually on a rug that lays ontop of a carpet. I dont think its soaked thru. Banging head on keyboard...cats with anxiety disorders...

oh good luck with that!! i was thinking tomato sauce but that for skunk on dogs.. hope its not threw to the padding...itsnt there a site like ask.com or something that might have an answer?

[Oiler41]

R.I.P. Lupe L., my employee who had a massive heart attack at work on November 11th. He passed away early this morning. He will be buried at Fort Sam Houston with full military honors in the near future. Wishing peace to his family.

Glynn

[WolfyOne]

cat urine and how to get it out of carpet


Try one of these: http://www.scoe10x.com/scripts/prodList.asp?idCategory=17
http://www.urineoff.com/

We've used Urine Off before, seems to work well, but the other product claims to work better than it.

[little_ms_sunshyne]

In sooo much pain!!! Just got back from ER :(

[Random]

cat urine and how to get it out of carpet


There is a product by Bissell called ewwww

It works wonders..

Also.. for kitty anxiety.. I recomend feliway...

You might know that we have five kitties..

I came with two and michele came with four.. (we lost mr. diego)

All grown cats in 1000 sq feet... One level..

They get along well enought most of the time, but we occasionally have territory issues...
We occasionally have pee issues (we have a baby kitty who has some nerotic, social issues)

I use the feliway spray in areas that are territory problems... Litter box, food, hidey holes, (It's amazing how one will decided that one of the others has a perfect hideaway and want it.)and on the furniture that they lay on... It really works.... To deal with the stress of the move, I'm going to get a couple plug ins and flood both floors with it...

The ewww really does work better than anything I have ever tried... Just follow the instructions to the letter....

[JustLovelyJenn]

some people in my house need to realize that they... as adults... just need to learn to deal with the KIDS being kids... and NOT adults... not to mention... ummm... my son does not always have control over what he is doing... its part of his diagnosis folks... DEAL WITH IT.

[JustJo]

that I'm trying to be a grown up and not pout....

When my son was growing up, I tried to be very fair and mindful of the fact that other people loved and wanted to spend time with him...

So.. summer vacations, christmas, thankgivings... I tried to be fair and let him spend them with other people who loved him and didn't see him every day...



I hear you on this...I have to share my son with his father, and it's going to be tough to put him on a plane the day after Christmas and not see him for over a week.

Tougher still will be summer vacation, which is split 50/50...trying not to think about that just yet... :|

[Leigh]

On My mind right now is why things can't be different, and why I'm always on the outside looking in when just for once I wanna be on the inside looking out

[Soft*Silver]

thank you all for your tips about getting rid of cat urine! I am going to try them all!!! I have plenty of opportunity and space to do so!

[JustLovelyJenn]

The Thanksgiving Menu....

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Someone that shouldn't be...

[MsTinkerbelly]

Things and people that shouldn't be, but there you go......

It will be helpful to be away from the computer for a while.:praying:

[JakeTulane]

Getting My "Monopoly on" with My niece tomorrow. (f)

[Leigh]

I'm just tired of always being hurt, of always being the other person in someone's life and I'm also tired of being an option in people's lives ~ I'm just tired, and I know that I deserve better

[katsarecool]

I'm just tired of always being hurt, of always being the other person in someone's life and I'm also tired of being an option in people's lives ~ I'm just tired, and I know that I deserve betterYes you do!!!!

[Daddy Raven]

Sorry to hear it...are you okay? Hope you're feeling better soon.



In sooo much pain!!! Just got back from ER :(

[Random]

where the hell did I put gemme's phone number...

grrrr

[AtLast]

Ugh! Getting one very stinky little French Bulldog in the sink for a bath! He has family to wiggle-up to tomorrow!!! He loves our gatherings at the ranch- little kids to run all over with and lots of food to try and bump-and-spill (he totally has the technique down with the toddlers, even if he is short)!!

Hoping Thanksgiving is the best of your traditions tomorrow, no matter how you celebrate it! And please, have our troops in your mind!

[Soft*Silver]

you are not an option unless you give them that option....

I'm just tired of always being hurt, of always being the other person in someone's life and I'm also tired of being an option in people's lives ~ I'm just tired, and I know that I deserve better

[Soft*Silver]

I am too tired to put the clean sheets on the bed so I am sleeping on the couch tonight.

[naturlover_52]

I'm just tired of always being hurt, of always being the other person in someone's life and I'm also tired of being an option in people's lives ~ I'm just tired, and I know that I deserve better
I have lived this part for sooo long that I didn't know that I deserved any better...also been living w/ toxic family and getting the whole OHHHH Can't give you real love only Tough love.....BUT I will make U dependent on me for money and Rent....so ur not on the street. thing And we all Deserve Better and to also be loved...JUST because we are human and ALIVE....:hangloose::bunchflowers::vigil: and hopefully in time Matt you get what ur looking for

[asphaltcowboi]

that i took to long of a nap this afternoon.. hope i can sleep tonight

[asphaltcowboi]

I'm just tired of always being hurt, of always being the other person in someone's life and I'm also tired of being an option in people's lives ~ I'm just tired, and I know that I deserve better

your one step ahead of alot.. you are aware you deserve better.. is it time to take the next step and not allow that in you life?

[AtLast]

your one step ahead of alot.. you are aware you deserve better.. is it time to take the next step and not allow that in you life?

Yup! And Mathew, you just go out there and demand what you deserve! I don't mean be a jerk, just let that deserving character of your's flow- they will see this, really!!!

[bigbutchmistie]

On my mind :

A Co Worker:

Last Friday she and I had a long conversation about the death of parents, and how when your mom dies it rips out a piece of your soul you never get back. And I was sharing with her, how it changed me for both good and bad. With tears in her eyes, she stated she and her mom were great friends and how she couldnt imagine losing her. She would lose her mind. I said, " " I hope you never have to find that out. But when you do, you find within yourself as I did a strength you never knew you had. But also when you do you will know the kind of hollow emptiness I am talking about. Sure, you live your life. But you are never the same...

Then, I received sad new from my boss to day in regards to her. She lives between her grandma and her parents house taking care of her mom and grandma. Young girl. After work the other night, she went to the grocery store for her grandma. When she got home, she found her mom and dad shot to death from murder/suicide. Her dad shot her mom and turned around and shot himself. :(

http://www.star-telegram.com/2010/11/24/2656266/shooter-in-arlington-murder-suicide.html

Im so heartbroken for her. At this time of the year. In this season when its about family.

[Blade]

Actually going to put my Christmas tree up this year. Didn't put it up last year. Wasn't in the Christmas spirit as all. Hoping to have a redneck tree this year. With a John Deere theme.

[Maria]

Still haven't figured out a birthday gift for the woman who asks for nothing and deserves everything -- my mom.

[storyofmylife]

Actually going to put my Christmas tree up this year. Didn't put it up last year. Wasn't in the Christmas spirit as all. Hoping to have a redneck tree this year. With a John Deere theme.

Glad to hear you have Christmas spirit this year.

I am debating if I should put one up. Every year I put my Christmas tree to see how long
it takes for my cats to climb,play with the ornaments and knock the tree down. Lol
They are still so adorable and well loved!

[JakeTulane]

Glad to hear you have Christmas spirit this year.

I am debating if I should put one up. Every year I put my Christmas tree to see how long
it takes for my cats to climb,play with the ornaments and knock the tree down. Lol
They are still so adorable and well loved!

chants.

Tree... Tree... Tree...

(even if it is the kitties play toy)

:smileyXmasTree:

[asphaltcowboi]

was kinda blu yesterday.. yikes!!! good nites sleep and already having a better day... sure am glad for my friends on here... i can dump, i can laugh, and sometimes even help others and make them laugh when there are down!

[Miss Scarlett]

I get to drive to the mountains in the rain this morning...rats!

[Blade]

laughing...yeah I've experienced all of that too. About 17 yrs ago I bought a tree and new ornaments and all that stuff. Was Bladie homemaker picking out all things that I thought matched for my tree. Had Apples instead of balls, red and gold beads and garland. Red and white and green candy canes and lights. Put it up Sunday night after Thanksgiving and when I got home from work Monday evening the tree and every apple on it was in the floor.:| and that is what a 4 month old kitty will do for a Christmas tree

Glad to hear you have Christmas spirit this year.

I am debating if I should put one up. Every year I put my Christmas tree to see how long
it takes for my cats to climb,play with the ornaments and knock the tree down. Lol
They are still so adorable and well loved!

[WolfyOne]

7am it was 70 degrees and now it's raining with a whole lotta wind and the temperature is dropping
I knew the weather was going to change, supposed to drop to 40 soon and overnight in the mid 20's
As long as the rain doesn't freeze and we don't get snow here, I could live with cold and windy

[Soft*Silver]

two cats, huge half blind demented dog, one revolving tree. LOL...

[girl_dee]

"You've met your match" :|

[DomnNC]

I have???? where????:|

[Kobi]

I'm thinking, when you go to someone else's home for a holiday,
you dont have leftovers to munch on later....
when you're hungry.....
and there is no food......
and it kinda sucks.

[Jet]

I'm thinking, when you go to someone else's home for a holiday,
you dont have leftovers to munch on later....
when you're hungry.....
and there is no food......
and it kinda sucks.


That's just wrong. If anyone is a gracious host, they would offer you a plate for later. Now, if you were at my house today, you would have taken home a couple of plates.

[Gemme]

I miss Oreo. She was the best cat ever. She watched us put up the tree and investigated the ornaments, but never pulled any down. She would whiff at the icicles and watch the lights blink and change directions but she never climbed the tree when it was decorated. Now, when it was naked...that was another story. We pulled it out a couple days before we put it together and left it up naked a couple of days after the glitz was taken down. She loved to hide in it then. :)

[Random]

How lovely it was to have my son and his sister both under our roof..

Then the added bonus of my son's platonic life partner.. grin... the one who would have been my daughter in law if only my son would cooperate and be gay..

lovely.. just lovely

[Midnight Blue]

That it's 2:30am and my Butch is out shopping the Black Friday sales with me...

Clearly, I have an amazing Butch. And I love him with all my heart.

[Cirrus]

I'm thinking about how cold it is outside and how my family wants to venture off to cut down a live tree. One that will no doubt be the largest, heaviest, and furthest from the car on a path hampered by stumps, tall sticky weeds, and mud. Oh what the heck, it's only once a year.Off to find my boots!

[LipstickLola]

I'm thinking I seriously need to shut this &&^%^&* computer down and open a book!!
The inner Lola is screaming....."get a life woman!!!" :blink:

[Blade]

why does my back hurt every morning when I wake up? It works itself out shortly after I get up so why even bother to hurt to start with?

[Cirrus]

Was woken up this morning by a coyote trying to play with my dog, Max, through the sliding glass door. I sorta knew that they had a casual aquaintence but don't want them to get too close. That poor coyote has fleas and gosh know what else. On the bright side, I'd rather have him talking to the coyote than the resident skunk.

[Sparkle]

My body got all stupid on the jetplane; it seems to believe 12hours of sleep every 36-48hours is sufficient. My brain does not agree.

It is 50degrees colder than where I left. :| I do not like this one bit.

My dog is ecstatic that I am home; but he rolled in poo & proper stinks; a bath is in our gay-agenda today.

Should I make coffee and face this day OR pull the duvet up higher and hope for more sleep?

[asphaltcowboi]

that im only going to answer my phone every other day

[Kenna]

http://www.perfectplaces.com/prop_image/1/14892_1_lg.jpg

[MaggieBluIze]

My Mom is on my mind today. It is her birthday today. We lost her to cancer 16 years ago.

Miss you Mom, but you're always in our hearts.

[WolfyOne]

http://www.perfectplaces.com/prop_image/1/14892_1_lg.jpg



I would live in one of those in a heartbeat

[Cirrus]

I would live in one of those in a heartbeat

A heartbeat? Your slow. You must have one of those fancy SUVs to unpack
heh heh

[storyofmylife]

laughing...yeah I've experienced all of that too. About 17 yrs ago I bought a tree and new ornaments and all that stuff. Was Bladie homemaker picking out all things that I thought matched for my tree. Had Apples instead of balls, red and gold beads and garland. Red and white and green candy canes and lights. Put it up Sunday night after Thanksgiving and when I got home from work Monday evening the tree and every apple on it was in the floor.:| and that is what a 4 month old kitty will do for a Christmas tree


too funny!

[WolfyOne]

A heartbeat? Your slow. You must have one of those fancy SUVs to unpack
heh heh


LOL, heck no, a little compact hatchback
Are you saying I need to bring things with me?
Looks like it may be furnished and all I need is my clothes and cats

[storyofmylife]

chants.

Tree... Tree... Tree...

(even if it is the kitties play toy)

:smileyXmasTree:

Tree it is!

[storyofmylife]

http://www.perfectplaces.com/prop_image/1/14892_1_lg.jpg

Nice hideaway!

[storyofmylife]

why does my back hurt every morning when I wake up? It works itself out shortly after I get up so why even bother to hurt to start with?

maybe it could be your bed? Or it could be signs of aging? :confused:
I know when I hit my 40's I started to feel every aches! :seeingstars:

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Back to work on MONDAY:( Countdown to Christmas vacation begins NOW!

[Cirrus]

LOL, heck no, a little compact hatchback
Are you saying I need to bring things with me?
Looks like it may be furnished and all I need is my clothes and cats


Nah I was thinking that it looks like my kind of cabin. It wouldn't even take a heartbeat to unload the jeep and move in.

[Just_G]

I just watched the movie "Eat Pray Love"....OMG, loved it! That movie really makes you think.

So now I am all up in my head about love, relationships, and all the worms that are in that can.....that I wish had not been opened in my brain!! OY!

Now, where is that switch so I can shut off my mind for the evening!?

[katsarecool]

I just watched the movie "Eat Pray Love"....OMG, loved it! That movie really makes you think.

So now I am all up in my head about love, relationships, and all the worms that are in that can.....that I wish had not been opened in my brain!! OY!

Now, where is that switch so I can shut off my mind for the evening!?I would love to see this movie. Now I will!!! thank you for the reviews!!

[Random]

That this has been the 24 hours from hell and I don't ever want to do this again...


In the last 24 hours...

Our mr. poodie was hit by a car and killed... I didn't want Mitmo to see what happened to her baby, so I took care of him before I even told her what happened... I can't get the pictures out of my head... I took him over to our new house and buried him this afternoon... There was a lil trama to add new pictures in my head... I can't talk about it with her because I need to keep her safe and let the last picture of him in her head be him going to sleep in her arms the night before this all happened...

My storage unit was tampered with... Everything was locked up, but things are missing... Like all the fucking boxes that my son's toys were in... The damn barbies that I collect are still there... But my christmas stuff and my son's toys are missing... My desk was knocked over and the wood splintered and goudged to the point that I just tossed it...

My son's best friends car was broken into and his stero stole... In my parking lot...

My son is packing up his room... what to donate, what to keep, what to take... It's as it should be, but it's feeling like he is leaving all over again.. (which he is)... This new house will be the first house in almost 20 yrs where he doesn't have a room with all his stuff set up...

Then.. my mother has issues with my son's status on his facebook and she calls ME... ugh...

Please tell me that our three is done for awhile... Please?

[Mindy]

I haven't been in for quite some time, but I just wanted to come in and ask everyone to keep my nephews, their dad and grandparents in their thoughts. My nephews (ages 8 and 11) live with their dad and grandparents. Thanksgiving evening we got a call from the grandparents saying the house was on fire and the fire department was there. The kids were with us that day, thankfully. They ended up losing everything. HERE (http://public.fotki.com/MissMindy/thanksgiving-day-fire/) is a link to the pictures. Thankfully a lot of people are stepping up donating clothes and such. There is a benefit dinner Monday night for the family and my son is a cage fighter and they are doing a fundraiser on Dec 10th for them. It's been stressful, and we have 5 adults, 2 kids and 9 animals all crammed into this tiny house. Monday the grandparents are meeting with Salvation Army to get help for housing, etc and with some agency that deals with family emergencies like this where a family is left homeless and with nothing but the clothes on their back after fires, etc. Hopefully they'll be back to normal soon.

[katsarecool]

That this has been the 24 hours from hell and I don't ever want to do this again...


In the last 24 hours...

Our mr. poodie was hit by a car and killed... I didn't want Mitmo to see what happened to her baby, so I took care of him before I even told her what happened... I can't get the pictures out of my head... I took him over to our new house and buried him this afternoon... There was a lil trama to add new pictures in my head... I can't talk about it with her because I need to keep her safe and let the last picture of him in her head be him going to sleep in her arms the night before this all happened...

My storage unit was tampered with... Everything was locked up, but things are missing... Like all the fucking boxes that my son's toys were in... The damn barbies that I collect are still there... But my christmas stuff and my son's toys are missing... My desk was knocked over and the wood splintered and goudged to the point that I just tossed it...

My son's best friends car was broken into and his stero stole... In my parking lot...

My son is packing up his room... what to donate, what to keep, what to take... It's as it should be, but it's feeling like he is leaving all over again.. (which he is)... This new house will be the first house in almost 20 yrs where he doesn't have a room with all his stuff set up...

Then.. my mother has issues with my son's status on his facebook and she calls ME... ugh...

Please tell me that our three is done for awhile... Please?I sure hope things get better for you! And I am sorry about your dog!!!

[RainbowCookie]

For those who aren't in the best place right now, it's always darkest before dawn. Just hold on :)

I am thinking about love or what we perceive as love. How some days I want to run away and start anew. Don't be afraid to be myself . Do things how I want to do them.

Sometimes the door unlocks, but I am too shy to push it open.

I am glad I am surrounded by family this holiday season. It has been a rough year. 2011 has to be better !

Much love and thanks for reading this mini vent .
:praying::deepthoughts::twitch:

[WolfyOne]

Just got a phone call
I haz job interview tomorrow
Butterflies fluttering around inside of me now
Ever so hopeful because I was wanting this call

[Cirrus]

Just got a phone call
I haz job interview tomorrow
Butterflies fluttering around inside of me now
Ever so hopeful because I was wanting this call

Good luck man, I'll keep positive thoughts for ya. Let us know how it goes.

[Laerkin]

We are redoing the floors in the entire house this weekend and I'm stressed thinking about ALL the furniture and closet-crap we have to move out of the living space before Friday. And then the hard work to come this weekend.

I just have to chant "new floors...new bamboo floors" over and over again to remind myself it will be worth it.

Right?

@_@

[katsarecool]

Just got a phone call
I haz job interview tomorrow
Butterflies fluttering around inside of me now
Ever so hopeful because I was wanting this call

Oh good luck!!!!

[Strappie]

What's on my mind.....

How truly blessed I am... I have an AMAZING and FUN family and my friends well there are no words to describe them, I love them so much!

I am Truly Blessed!!!!

[JustLovelyJenn]

not what....

.... but who!

[Rockinonahigh]

Just got a phone call
I haz job interview tomorrow
Butterflies fluttering around inside of me now
Ever so hopeful because I was wanting this call


Good luck Wolfy,crossing my fingers for ya.

[ravfem]

Decisions..... big ones.

:deepthoughts:

[little_ms_sunshyne]

How nice it is when things are not complicated :) *Le Sigh*

[Miss Scarlett]

While I'm on vacation next week I will finish rearranging my living room. The only cable outlet in that room is in an impossible location. This means I will have to run a looooooooooooong cable. It also means I will have to get creative with my computer connection. Do they make something I can use to run 2 TVs from the same cable outlet? This would make life easier and I could run a cable from my bedroom instead - much shorter and less likely to be tripped over.

[Mindy]

Just got a phone call
I haz job interview tomorrow
Butterflies fluttering around inside of me now
Ever so hopeful because I was wanting this call

Hope you get the job!

[asphaltcowboi]

While I'm on vacation next week I will finish rearranging my living room. The only cable outlet in that room is in an impossible location. This means I will have to run a looooooooooooong cable. It also means I will have to get creative with my computer connection. Do they make something I can use to run 2 TVs from the same cable outlet? This would make life easier and I could run a cable from my bedroom instead - much shorter and less likely to be tripped over.
you can get a spliter from radio shack or a hardware store.. just make sure where you plug in the cable from your wall that it goes into the input on the splitter. you can get splitters with many outputs.. but you do not want to leave any of them "open" or unused. is this the type of thing you asking about? or are you looking for more of a wireless feed?

[bigbutchmistie]

Ive lost 10 pounds !!!! :)

How much I am truly blessed

How cold it is this morning...

How sleepy I am and wanna go back to bed

[sylvie]

thursday, i'll be getting these stitches off of my back.. FINALLY!
i cant wait because theyre irritating as heck!

[WolfyOne]

While I'm on vacation next week I will finish rearranging my living room. The only cable outlet in that room is in an impossible location. This means I will have to run a looooooooooooong cable. It also means I will have to get creative with my computer connection. Do they make something I can use to run 2 TVs from the same cable outlet? This would make life easier and I could run a cable from my bedroom instead - much shorter and less likely to be tripped over.


Buy a wireless stick to put into your USB port and you won't have to run a long cable. It's what I have in my desktop because I didn't want a cable sticking out where someone could trip over it.

[Glenn]

Someone in Russia told me they bought one ounce of marijuana for $350.00. Back in the sixties, I bought a whole pound for $250.00.:|

[rlin]

Someone in Russia told me they bought one ounce of marijuana for $350.00. Back in the sixties, I bought a whole pound for $250.00.:|

around here the kids give sometimes 40 a gram! remember 15$ lids??? and... they name it now... cuz that makes it better... shrug?

[katsarecool]

While I'm on vacation next week I will finish rearranging my living room. The only cable outlet in that room is in an impossible location. This means I will have to run a looooooooooooong cable. It also means I will have to get creative with my computer connection. Do they make something I can use to run 2 TVs from the same cable outlet? This would make life easier and I could run a cable from my bedroom instead - much shorter and less likely to be tripped over.

Or a wireless router for under $40 at Wal Mart!!!

BigBuctchie; that is amazing and congratulations for the weight loss!!!

[amiyesiam]

Christmas cookies
I will be baking thurs and fri(and freezing them)
mentally starting to plan
some kinds of cookies are a must
but I like to do new stuff each year

[Leigh]

Christmas, a brand new year and plans to move out in the new year ~ time to start making an actual life for Myself :)

[Tcountry]

The only way to Truly live is to live vulnerable...without emotions you are only existing...

[apretty]

i made my coffee, i was drinking it and now i've lost it.

--wondering if one of the dogs is enjoying a cuppa.

[Deborah]

The meaning of life...."what's it all about Alfie?"

[lipstixgal]

Christmas cookies I wonder if there's such a thing as Hannukah cookies I think we have donuts because its fried and the oil for eight days...

[WolfyOne]

Well, today I went for my interview only to walk away confused. Thanks to the corporate world of online applications, somehow my application was caught in a shuffle. It wound up in another state at a store location I didn't apply for. I just looked at the last email confirmation I was sent when I did the app and it shows the only store I applied at as being the one I wanted to work for. Anyhow, I sent off a short letter to them to make sure it gets put in at the proper store and attached the previous email they sent me with the store confirmation. I am by no means defeated and still very hopeful that something good will come from this.

Which reminds me of a little quote I used to read at the VFW I used to volunteer at.....if it is to be it is up to me.

[katsarecool]

Good luck darlin'!!!

[Leigh]

The future is very uncertain and holds alot of things that can only happen if I put My mind to them and simply go for it ~ very enlightening indeed :)

[fiercegrrl]

I want to go out on a date so badly. And then have a second and a thrid date with that person. But its impossible to find someone who can overlook that I'm battling cancer and will continue tp do so until it takes me down.
This makes me want to punch holes wallas ansd cry for days.
I need the holidays to be over. I find them such a huge reminder of this hole in my life.

[lipstixgal]

I want to go out on a date so badly. And then have a second and a thrid date with that person. But its impossible to find someone who can overlook that I'm battling cancer and will continue tp do so until it takes me down.
This makes me want to punch holes wallas ansd cry for days.
I need the holidays to be over. I find them such a huge reminder of this hole in my life.

Me too I would love to go out on a date but with who and where?? There are no butches here in NOrthern NJ there are a lot of femmes here that want to be with other femmes not for me...

[Cirrus]

you can get a spliter from radio shack or a hardware store.. just make sure where you plug in the cable from your wall that it goes into the input on the splitter. you can get splitters with many outputs.. but you do not want to leave any of them "open" or unused. is this the type of thing you asking about? or are you looking for more of a wireless feed?

Hey thanks, I was having the same problem, don't know jack about this stuff.

[Jet]

Me too I would love to go out on a date but with who and where?? There are no butches here in NOrthern NJ there are a lot of femmes here that want to be with other femmes not for me...

don't feel bad, my life is gone. because of what i am dealing with i will probably never date again. everything, and i mean everything-my person is gone.

[Blade]

waiting on the storm and hoping I don't have to drive to work in it in the morning

[JustLovelyJenn]

He is...

... in a million ways... and I just have to get them out...

... for too long I have thought I wanted the instant relationship. I was wrong. I was only scared of being alone. I'm not afraid anymore. I know who I want to be and what I want to do with my life. I know I can do it, even if its going to be hard, and long, and stressful. But, I want all that... FOR ME, not for anyone else.

So, what exactly do I want out of a partner? I want date nights, outings with my children, someone to go to when all the stress and strain get to me, someone to support when the same happens to them. I want... "Your place or Mine?" and "Are you free this weekend?". I want anticipation and excitement, passion and contentment. I want to be with someone else and still be myself. I want flowers and candle lit dinners. I want a true courtship...


... and yes, I think that is what He wants too. It makes me excited to think about. I can look at the future and wonder what possibilities are ahead of me, without wondering how much I am going to need to adjust to accommodate it.

That's a very big deal to me.

[katsarecool]

I want to go out on a date so badly. And then have a second and a thrid date with that person. But its impossible to find someone who can overlook that I'm battling cancer and will continue tp do so until it takes me down.
This makes me want to punch holes wallas ansd cry for days.
I need the holidays to be over. I find them such a huge reminder of this hole in my life.

I am so sorry that you are dealing with cancer and wish you lots of luck to beat it good!!!!! And it sucks you are dealing with being alone while doing it. I do hope you have a good support system. Well you do then!!! Take care!!!

[bigbutchmistie]

On my mind :

A Co Worker:

Last Friday she and I had a long conversation about the death of parents, and how when your mom dies it rips out a piece of your soul you never get back. And I was sharing with her, how it changed me for both good and bad. With tears in her eyes, she stated she and her mom were great friends and how she couldnt imagine losing her. She would lose her mind. I said, " " I hope you never have to find that out. But when you do, you find within yourself as I did a strength you never knew you had. But also when you do you will know the kind of hollow emptiness I am talking about. Sure, you live your life. But you are never the same...

Then, I received sad new from my boss to day in regards to her. She lives between her grandma and her parents house taking care of her mom and grandma. Young girl. After work the other night, she went to the grocery store for her grandma. When she got home, she found her mom and dad shot to death from murder/suicide. Her dad shot her mom and turned around and shot himself. :(

http://www.star-telegram.com/2010/11/24/2656266/shooter-in-arlington-murder-suicide.html

Im so heartbroken for her. At this time of the year. In this season when its about family.

My co worker still... :( I saw her on Friday and again today at work she was back up there letting us know she would still be out awhile...

Wishing there was some way I could help her... And the only way to help is just be there to listen..

[JakeTulane]

Unexpected kindness.

Taking the high road and expecting nothing in return.

Remaining strong, no matter the storm.

(thinks, no wonder I have insomnia)

[SimpleAlaskanBoy]

Still worried about one of the cats who is acting quite out of sorts...keeping an eye on her...
Hoping we get the tree up tomorrow
Excited for Xmas, but miss my parents and younger brother and aunts and uncles and cousins..
Wondering if I can get the girl to trim my hair tomorrow...it's way too long and it's bugging me!
~SAB

[katsarecool]

Still worried about one of the cats who is acting quite out of sorts...keeping an eye on her...
Hoping we get the tree up tomorrow
Excited for Xmas, but miss my parents and younger brother and aunts and uncles and cousins..
Wondering if I can get the girl to trim my hair tomorrow...it's way too long and it's bugging me!
~SABHealthy thoughts and wishes for your cat!!! I have an older guy who is not doing to well either and he worries me too.

[Soft*Silver]

I spent the night at a sleep clinic last night because I have had months of problems not being able to fall asleep. Once asleep. I can sleep well, but falling asleep is a problem. I stay awake until 8, 9, 10 AM. So I go there and the dr gives me ambian.I explain I have been prescribed this before but it doesnt work. He says to just take it. I shrug.

Next thing I know I am waking up and the nurses are looking at me warily and asking me if I know where I am and who I am. Puzzled I answer appropriately and wonder why they are backing up as I climb out of bed.

hmmm...seems I hallucinate in my sleep. And what I think of as not falling asleep is me actually hallucinating. I go "elsewhere". Its like a blackout. I didnt know where I was nor why I was there. I pulled all the wires off of me several times. I was not combative nor violent, just difficult but in a playful giggling way. THey said it was like I had been drinking or the life of the party. I was dancing and saying "I bet you never saw anyone dance like THIS before". Trust me..I NEVER dance..I am very very shy about dancing. But there I was, bellydancing around the room! When they got close to put the wires back on I was wide eyed and amazed that the figures on their scrubs were moving and telling a story. I also reached into their pockets and took out their personal possessions. Sighing...so not me. I ran down the hall, skipping sideways. I sang to them, pressed my face against the windows, tried to undress, and did all kinds of similiar uninhibitive kind of things. It took them quite some time to get me to settle down in the bed. Eventually, I left the wires on, got quiet and did do the normal sleep.

funny thing is...my brain wave patterns showed NO difference between those times and the sleep time.

My Dr has to get the report and then I have to go see him. No one has ever told me I behaved like this when I sleep. To be honest, it sounds very similar to who I acted like when I relapsed. If this is what happens to me when I sleep, no wonder I dont want to fall asleep!

I am so unnerved....and wonder how if at all, this plays into my breathing problems...

[WolfyOne]

I spent the night at a sleep clinic last night because I have had months of problems not being able to fall asleep. Once asleep. I can sleep well, but falling asleep is a problem. I stay awake until 8, 9, 10 AM. So I go there and the dr gives me ambian.I explain I have been prescribed this before but it doesnt work. He says to just take it. I shrug.

Next thing I know I am waking up and the nurses are looking at me warily and asking me if I know where I am and who I am. Puzzled I answer appropriately and wonder why they are backing up as I climb out of bed.

hmmm...seems I hallucinate in my sleep. And what I think of as not falling asleep is me actually hallucinating. I go "elsewhere". Its like a blackout. I didnt know where I was nor why I was there. I pulled all the wires off of me several times. I was not combative nor violent, just difficult but in a playful giggling way. THey said it was like I had been drinking or the life of the party. I was dancing and saying "I bet you never saw anyone dance like THIS before". Trust me..I NEVER dance..I am very very shy about dancing. But there I was, bellydancing around the room! When they got close to put the wires back on I was wide eyed and amazed that the figures on their scrubs were moving and telling a story. I also reached into their pockets and took out their personal possessions. Sighing...so not me. I ran down the hall, skipping sideways. I sang to them, pressed my face against the windows, tried to undress, and did all kinds of similiar uninhibitive kind of things. It took them quite some time to get me to settle down in the bed. Eventually, I left the wires on, got quiet and did do the normal sleep.

funny thing is...my brain wave patterns showed NO difference between those times and the sleep time.

My Dr has to get the report and then I have to go see him. No one has ever told me I behaved like this when I sleep. To be honest, it sounds very similar to who I acted like when I relapsed. If this is what happens to me when I sleep, no wonder I dont want to fall asleep!

I am so unnerved....and wonder how if at all, this plays into my breathing problems...


This is interesting and alarming at the same time
Do you think the Ambian has something to do with it?
Would you do the sleep clinic again?

[Soft*Silver]

yes, I would do the sleep clinic again.

yes, ambian could have something to do with it. One of the side affects is hallucinations. But I cant rule out I havent been having these for awhile.

The Dr who sent me to the clinic is a pulmonologist and he is the Dr I think is full of shit so I am going to hunt down a sleep Dr.

I am fascintated by this now. It makes so much sense why I strain not to fall asleep, even tho I desperately want to. And it explains why even tho I have taken sleeping pills (ambian) they havent worked (or so I thought)

when I woke up this morning I thought I had slept thru the night uninterrupted, that they had simply slipped in and put the probes on me while I slept. I guess it was a good two hour struggle with me!

I do get to watch the video on Tuesday ...

On other news, I went to the eyes ears and nose Dr that the stupid Dr sent me to, who said I was anxious and had vocal cord dysfunction. The specialist scoffed and said nothing is wrong with my cords and my cords arent affected by anxiety. He laughed. He asked why the Dr said this. I wanted to say because I have a vagina but I caught myself....I figured I had already raised enough hell in the sleep clinic...

[lipstixgal]

I spent the night at a sleep clinic last night because I have had months of problems not being able to fall asleep. Once asleep. I can sleep well, but falling asleep is a problem. I stay awake until 8, 9, 10 AM. So I go there and the dr gives me ambian.I explain I have been prescribed this before but it doesnt work. He says to just take it. I shrug.

Next thing I know I am waking up and the nurses are looking at me warily and asking me if I know where I am and who I am. Puzzled I answer appropriately and wonder why they are backing up as I climb out of bed.

hmmm...seems I hallucinate in my sleep. And what I think of as not falling asleep is me actually hallucinating. I go "elsewhere". Its like a blackout. I didnt know where I was nor why I was there. I pulled all the wires off of me several times. I was not combative nor violent, just difficult but in a playful giggling way. THey said it was like I had been drinking or the life of the party. I was dancing and saying "I bet you never saw anyone dance like THIS before". Trust me..I NEVER dance..I am very very shy about dancing. But there I was, bellydancing around the room! When they got close to put the wires back on I was wide eyed and amazed that the figures on their scrubs were moving and telling a story. I also reached into their pockets and took out their personal possessions. Sighing...so not me. I ran down the hall, skipping sideways. I sang to them, pressed my face against the windows, tried to undress, and did all kinds of similiar uninhibitive kind of things. It took them quite some time to get me to settle down in the bed. Eventually, I left the wires on, got quiet and did do the normal sleep.

funny thing is...my brain wave patterns showed NO difference between those times and the sleep time.

My Dr has to get the report and then I have to go see him. No one has ever told me I behaved like this when I sleep. To be honest, it sounds very similar to who I acted like when I relapsed. If this is what happens to me when I sleep, no wonder I dont want to fall asleep!

I am so unnerved....and wonder how if at all, this plays into my breathing problems...

I had two sleep studies and didn't think that you could pull the wires out but I was on meds so it didn't occur to me. How the hell did you get the wires out? There in there pretty good I think with some goop they put on your scalp. Interesting and would you do it again with out the ambien, maybe try lunesta instead and see if yo have sleep apnea its lifesaving to get the machine I have one and its getting better each night that I use it. It just takes time to get use to the mask that is all. Good luck!!

[Soft*Silver]

Lipstix...I cant answer your questions because I wasnt there...lol. I am only telling you what they told me I did. I feel the goop they put on me in my head. Nasty snotty crap. I am sure they are going to put me thru another round at the sleep clinic. I called there today and when I said my name the person said "oooo we heard about you today!" ooohhh jeeezzz...lol. I am infamous at the sleep clinic! Honestly. I took the pills. Then the next second I woke up and it was morning. Just like that. No memory of any of it. Like an alcoholic black out.

[Jet]

I just had an MRI on my left shoulder. I haven't been able to use it in about 3 months. That means no workouts which mean everything to me. I'll know results this week I think. If I don't get this fixed i'm going to f••king lose it.

[LipstickLola]

Lipstix...I cant answer your questions because I wasnt there...lol. I am only telling you what they told me I did. I feel the goop they put on me in my head. Nasty snotty crap. I am sure they are going to put me thru another round at the sleep clinic. I called there today and when I said my name the person said "oooo we heard about you today!" ooohhh jeeezzz...lol. I am infamous at the sleep clinic! Honestly. I took the pills. Then the next second I woke up and it was morning. Just like that. No memory of any of it. Like an alcoholic black out.

That's very unprofessional, I'm sorry that happened to you.

[Leigh]

Reading this story, and wanting to cry ~ how could someone do this to a helpless child, and for no apparent reason?

http://beta.ca.news.yahoo.com/grandmother-charged-allegedly-throwing-toddler-her-death-off.html

[lipstixgal]

Lipstix...I cant answer your questions because I wasnt there...lol. I am only telling you what they told me I did. I feel the goop they put on me in my head. Nasty snotty crap. I am sure they are going to put me thru another round at the sleep clinic. I called there today and when I said my name the person said "oooo we heard about you today!" ooohhh jeeezzz...lol. I am infamous at the sleep clinic! Honestly. I took the pills. Then the next second I woke up and it was morning. Just like that. No memory of any of it. Like an alcoholic black out.

Oh wow that is too bad I wish you luck and yes it is unprofessional that they said anything about your status as a patient in a sleep clinic. They are definitely going to test you again!! There must be something going on there...good luck

[Leigh]

Looking ahead to a new year, the chance to move forward and starting to live My life as I see fit

[katsarecool]

Am missing a certain someone who only posts on weekends. A nice new special kind of friend!!! :)

[lipstixgal]

Am missing a certain someone who only posts on weekends. A nice new special kind of friend!!! :)

Oh how nice for you kats!!

[miss entycing]

I was thinking that if I weren't as sick as I am,
that I would steal the gorgeous SD-
and run away from home for some girl time.
:vigil:

[bright_arrow]

What the future may or may not hold.

I know what I want, but it's not only my decision. So.

[katsarecool]

Oh how nice for you kats!!Ssshhh It's a secret!!! LOL Thank you!

[Billy]

I forgot , it slipped My mind and I don't remember :)

[JustJo]

http://flyinureye.files.wordpress.com/2010/03/delusional.jpg

[Julien]

I just wish the various doctors taking care of my dad would talk with each other and give the family consistent information. So many doctors, so many conflicting messages. It is difficult to know who to listen to and what to do.

[Gemme]

Reading this story, and wanting to cry ~ how could someone do this to a helpless child, and for no apparent reason?

http://beta.ca.news.yahoo.com/grandmother-charged-allegedly-throwing-toddler-her-death-off.html

This is disgusting. Absolutely heartbreakingly disgusting. :(

I was reading an article about Libby, Montana today and the asbestos poisoning that's been going on for generations there. So sad. So very sad that no one, not the plant in charge (Grace), not the medical community (except for 3 (THREE!) EPA agents) and not the government has helped them willingly until just recently.

http://www.hcn.org/issues/292/15302

http://earthfirst.com/americas-top-10-worst-man-made-environmental-disasters/

http://www.aolnews.com/killer-in-the-attic/article/libby-montana-declared-public-health-emergency-after-decades-of-asbestos-exposure/19733491?icid=maing%7Cmain5%7C1%7Clink2%7C28821

[Ebon]

You think you can trust people, the ones that smile in your face but then you find out you have to "be careful" what you tell them. I think that's lame.

[Miss Scarlett]

Am completely stressed out this morning - likely a product of my own imagination.

Why am I stressed? Next week I will be on vacation. This is my first actual vacation from work in about 5 years. My last 2 vacations were tied in with losing my job either immediately before or shortly after my return. Both times my job was being eliminated - because one firm was closing and the other decided to move away from my area of expertise.

My current boss has gone through many assistants over the last few years. I have been there for 1 1/2 years and can do far more than past assistants. But I am far from perfect. No major screw ups but minor errors and mistakes - some from ignorance or lack of clairvoyant abilities, and others from my lack of diligence. But my work is not behind and I have been double and triple checking everything to make sure nothing that she needs next week is left undone.

My boss is not much of a communicator and I am not much of a mind reader. I hope to talk with her today, confirm my time off next week and see if there is anything else she needs me to do before the end of this week.

I'm fighting this stress and trying to keep it from having a negative effect on my job performance, but it is very distracting.

I wish I could talk with my Mom about it - this is adding to my stress too.

Jeez!:seeingstars:

[Miss Scarlett]

You think you can trust people, the ones that smile in your face but then you find out you have to "be careful" what you tell them. I think that's lame.

Totally agree with you. I learned this lesson may years ago and have the occasional "refresher course"; often after letting my guard down.

[Tommi]

Am completely stressed out this morning - likely a product of my own imagination.

Why am I stressed? Next week I will be on vacation. This is my first actual vacation from work in about 5 years. My last 2 vacations were tied in with losing my job either immediately before or shortly after my return. Both times my job was being eliminated - because one firm was closing and the other decided to move away from my area of expertise.

My current boss has gone through many assistants over the last few years. I have been there for 1 1/2 years and can do far more than past assistants. But I am far from perfect. No major screw ups but minor errors and mistakes - some from ignorance or lack of clairvoyant abilities, and others from my lack of diligence. But my work is not behind and I have been double and triple checking everything to make sure nothing that she needs next week is left undone.

My boss is not much of a communicator and I am not much of a mind reader. I hope to talk with her today, confirm my time off next week and see if there is anything else she needs me to do before the end of this week.

I'm fighting this stress and trying to keep it from having a negative effect on my job performance, but it is very distracting.

I wish I could talk with my Mom about it - this is adding to my stress too.

Jeez!:seeingstars:
Good morning Miss S
Glad you were at least able to write about it here.

Is it that fear of the unknown grabbing you by the throat due to being shot at in the past? Is a zinger going to hit me when I am not looking, if I don't have my radar on?

Being a past survivor of many wars, battles, and just misunderstandings I say two things to myself.

1. I am only in control of Myself, and my thinking. I cannot control what others think or do (They). What can I do is be the best I can and undo this garbage thinking.

2. This is the moment of a new day. It is not the day and time that something horrible happened in the past. I can breathe in and out on my own, and stop thinking about what THEY may be or do. :bunchflowers:

I miss my Mom too, so come here to chat with ya'll.

RIP Mickey Mom

[katsarecool]

Am completely stressed out this morning - likely a product of my own imagination.

Why am I stressed? Next week I will be on vacation. This is my first actual vacation from work in about 5 years. My last 2 vacations were tied in with losing my job either immediately before or shortly after my return. Both times my job was being eliminated - because one firm was closing and the other decided to move away from my area of expertise.

My current boss has gone through many assistants over the last few years. I have been there for 1 1/2 years and can do far more than past assistants. But I am far from perfect. No major screw ups but minor errors and mistakes - some from ignorance or lack of clairvoyant abilities, and others from my lack of diligence. But my work is not behind and I have been double and triple checking everything to make sure nothing that she needs next week is left undone.

My boss is not much of a communicator and I am not much of a mind reader. I hope to talk with her today, confirm my time off next week and see if there is anything else she needs me to do before the end of this week.

I'm fighting this stress and trying to keep it from having a negative effect on my job performance, but it is very distracting.

I wish I could talk with my Mom about it - this is adding to my stress too.

Jeez!:seeingstars:Sorry that you are still having to deal with this Boss From Hell!!! I bolded a part of your note here and it is very telling. It tells me something about a person I do not even know. It tells me she can't keep employees. Probably has trouble keeping friends too.

No one is perfect!!!! Everyone makes mistakes from time to time. I strongly feel the problem is not your or your performance. I feel she is the one with the major problem. I hand it to you for sticking around this long.

I think if she was thinking about firing you she would have done it a long time ago. So don't worry!!!!! And Tommi is so right!!! Have a great vacation. You deserve it. Most certainly you EARNED it working with her!!! Hang in there sweetie!!!

[WolfyOne]

No matter what kind of day I have....I always know, life is good :)

Find that happy place and sink right into it

[bright_arrow]

My sister telling me she is going to move to TX to be with a boy. A boy who has been in jail once already. She's looking at going to a college down there that isn't near enough to walk to (she has no vehicle and it's 22 miles away), and she has no job or money right now.

I don't like this idea, but it's her life, and if she's like me, she's stubborn and won't let anyone change her mind.

[katsarecool]

My sister telling me she is going to move to TX to be with a boy. A boy who has been in jail once already. She's looking at going to a college down there that isn't near enough to walk to (she has no bike and it's 22 miles away), and she has no job or money right now.

I don't like this idea, but it's her life, and if she's like me, she's stubborn and won't let anyone change her mind.

Ah oh!!!! Not a good move on her part!!!! Perhaps you could sit her down and get her to make a Pro Con List and discuss it? How will she live with no job and no money? And the guy doesn't sound too reliable. I hope she changes her mind.

My sister did the same thing; moved from NC to Chicago with a man she had not actually met face to face and took her twelve year old daughter with her. I begged her not to do this. I even offered to pay for a plane ticket back for them both when it started going south. She stayed there with him for two years until he was caught peeking in her then 14 yr old daughter's bedroom window. That did it.

Good luck to her!

[bright_arrow]

Ah oh!!!! Not a good move on her part!!!! Perhaps you could sit her down and get her to make a Pro Con List and discuss it? How will she live with no job and no money? And the guy doesn't sound too reliable. I hope she changes her mind.

My sister did the same thing; moved from NC to Chicago with a man she had not actually met face to face and took her twelve year old daughter with her. I begged her not to do this. I even offered to pay for a plane ticket back for them both when it started going south. She stayed there with him for two years until he was caught peeking in her then 14 yr old daughter's bedroom window. That did it.

Good luck to her!

My sister has met him - he lived here for awhile. When they were 15 he stole a gun from his grandparents and pulled it out on some guys that had teased him, while my sister was with him! He was in jail beginning of this year for stealing and she told him no more.

I think she intends to move in with him and work down there and get her dental assistant diploma via financial aid. I know she wants out of our parents house and that's part of the reason why she doesn't want to stay living with them (aside from the fact that they are moving into the country and about an hour North of where they live already). I moved out when I was 18 with the person I was dating to get away from my family as well. I'd hoped it'd changed, but I guess not.

I can try and get her to think about this more but we'll see. She's only 17 :( If nothing else, she should of learned from my multiple mistakes when I was that age.

[katsarecool]

Wow 17 is so young. If she only knew that living with your parents isn't so bad especially when living away from home under doubtful circumstances. I left home too at the age of 17; marrying to get away from home. I ended up jumping from the frying pan into the fire. I survived but it took years to make up for lost time. Time I could have used living at home and getting an education. I hope she makes the right decision! And she is lucky to have a older sister who cares so much!

[Cirrus]

Today wasn't the greatest of days. I hope tomorrow is better.

[JustLovelyJenn]

I don't think she thinks I'm serious.

[Blade]

If I'm not mistaken tomorrow is Friday, and I'm glad about that. I'm not going to be very happy if I am mistaken though.

[Ebon]

If I'm not mistaken tomorrow is Friday, and I'm glad about that. I'm not going to be very happy if I am mistaken though.

Yep today is Friday!

[Pixie]

How much I really despise the holidays....I can't even reference the grinch or mr.scrooge because well....they ended up turning into christmas lovers anyways. Lol.

Ready for the cheery music, inflated prices, and red/green/white to go away...

bah hum bug
:blink:
:seeingstars:

[katsarecool]

Pixie, I do not care for the holidays either! I got burned out many years ago; worrying about making sure my kids had enough presents that they loved under the tree. I drove myself nuts from Sept. to Dec. 25th!!! Now I am watching my kids do the same thing. It is crazy I tell ya!!!

If it were me I would like to have a holiday mean once a month for the family with a present or two for the little kids. And birthdays of course. I think that is why I love Thanksgiving so much family dinners and quiet time after. Time to play games with the little ones while some of the grown ups watch football...

[Just_G]

Have you ever just let shit build up in your head for like a week or two at a time....and you just want to grab someone by the arms, look them dead in the eye and telling them exactly how you feel....no holds barred?!

Yeah, I am in THAT kind of mood today! I am in a fantastic mood....but a fightin' mood because someone makes me feel like crap! Shit might just hit the fan tonight! :blink:

[Pixie]

Pixie, I do not care for the holidays either! I got burned out many years ago; worrying about making sure my kids had enough presents that they loved under the tree. I drove myself nuts from Sept. to Dec. 25th!!! Now I am watching my kids do the same thing. It is crazy I tell ya!!!

If it were me I would like to have a holiday mean once a month for the family with a present or two for the little kids. And birthdays of course. I think that is why I love Thanksgiving so much family dinners and quiet time after. Time to play games with the little ones while some of the grown ups watch football...

Right!
That is my goal when I have a family of my own. To make once a month events so appreciated that thanksgiving/christmas are just any other time, and our time together doing what we can, when we can is more sought out and desired.

Have you ever just let shit build up in your head for like a week or two at a time....and you just want to grab someone by the arms, look them dead in the eye and telling them exactly how you feel....no holds barred?!

Yeah, I am in THAT kind of mood today! I am in a fantastic mood....but a fightin' mood because someone makes me feel like crap! Shit might just hit the fan tonight! :blink:



Oh ya been there! Good luck!:rrose:

[WolfyOne]

Believe it or not the mix up with my online application in this corporate world actually turned into a phone call yesterday with the store I was at the other day. I went for an interview today, but the process is more than just one interview. So, if they liked me today, they will call me in another week for a second interview. Once again, staying ever so hopeful. This job is for a lead position in an area of sales I know nothing about, but willing to learn.

[LipstickLola]

I'm still sick, don't wanna really do the holiday thing this evening, BUT my kidlets are counting on me (their dad with his other family) and so I'll fake it.......again. At least there are cupcakes :)
I feel guilty saying this, but hurry on January 2.

"Big deep breath Lola....you can do it!!" :praying:

[moonfemme]

Feel better soon LipstickLola :~)

[moonfemme]

I want to start a thread... can someone help me out ???

[WolfyOne]

I want to start a thread... can someone help me out ???

Yes, it's easy ... go to the forum you want to start the thread. At the top left of that forum, you'll see new thread, just click and go.

[girl_dee]

that I find it odd and tad bizarre when someone asks people on a public forum to define them by just blurting out that they like "pussy"....

:|

[Syr]

that I find it odd and tad bizarre when someone asks people on a public forum to define them by just blurting out that they like "pussy"....

:|

You said the 'p' word.......:blink:

[girl_dee]

You said the 'p' word.......:blink:

Yes but does that count Syr?? I was umm well you see umm that is ummm :help:

[fiercegrrl]

i'm super stressed cause i'm moving tomorrow. i hate change. it freaks me out. and i know for the first few days i'll be very weepy cause that's what change does to me. blech.
but i need to move. i need to eliminate stairs cause i have days where getting up them is hard and at some point i'll be in a wheelchair. and i've been living in an apartment that my grandmother has attached to her house and she has not taken my cancer diagnosis well at all so not being around her so much will be better for me. and my mom has been living on my couch for the last month as she's kind of homeless. but she'll take over this apartment when i leave. but, still hate change.

[JustLovelyJenn]

...... how long???

[bright_arrow]

We've decided to turn in our huge glass jar of loose change and the money we get from our recycling to open a savings account for our future home, and then put some of each paycheck and each winning lottery ticket/casino winnings we'll put it into the account. Worse case scenario, we'll have an emergency fund... or money for a cruise one day ;)

Here's to us babe ♥

[Cirrus]

How much I really despise the holidays....I can't even reference the grinch or mr.scrooge because well....they ended up turning into christmas lovers anyways. Lol.

Ready for the cheery music, inflated prices, and red/green/white to go away...

bah hum bug
:blink:
:seeingstars:


I know the feeling. It gets lonely up here from time to time. I helped with the family tree and I keep telling myself that I should put one up in my place but I just can't quite force myself to do so. Something around here should be holiday-like shouldn't it?


I'm still sick, don't wanna really do the holiday thing this evening, BUT my kidlets are counting on me (their dad with his other family) and so I'll fake it.......again. At least there are cupcakes :)
I feel guilty saying this, but hurry on January 2.

"Big deep breath Lola....you can do it!!" :praying:


I really hope you feel better soon


that I find it odd and tad bizarre when someone asks people on a public forum to define them by just blurting out that they like "pussy"....

:|


Odd. Don't it kind of go without saying around here?

[bigbutchmistie]

On my mind :)

The weight Im losing... :) YEA for me...

Going to get a different style of haircut today.. Gonna try out the fohawk :)

[bigbutchmistie]

How much I really despise the holidays....I can't even reference the grinch or mr.scrooge because well....they ended up turning into christmas lovers anyways. Lol.

Ready for the cheery music, inflated prices, and red/green/white to go away...

bah hum bug
:blink:
:seeingstars:


Im the same way Pixie :) I told co workers yesterday dont put ANYTHING near my cubicle with christmas stuff on it LOL So they made my stocking and put The Grinch On it for me LMAO I loved it

[asphaltcowboi]

i wondering...if i put another 2" lift on my truck.. maybe i should add those lil electric single bar steps that that come out when the door opens.

[Sparkle]

work on a Saturday.

pants.pants.pants.

[pajama]

That I loathe this weekend and Little Dyke Rebels (what The Boy thought LDR stood for) with a seething passion.

[girl_dee]

why do I let my bio family HURT me so ??

[dixie]

Top 3 Reasons Why This Weekend Sucks:

~ I ache for her and am not able to be with her this weekend. Damn fate.
~ The snow plow trucks are laying a heavy layer of sand/salt/whateverthehellitis on the roads in preparation for the now 6+ inches of snow we are supposed to be getting.
~ No one wants to go to the Christmas parade with me. Not even the kiddo.


Could this weekend get any more depressing? Purely rhetorical. I don't want it to be proven otherwise... :blues:

[WolfyOne]

why do I let my bio family HURT me so ??


I used to let that happen when I was younger with my mom and 2 older brothers until my Dad and I had a talk. He told me if I don't let them see they've gotten to me, eventually the thrill they got from it would go away and they'd stop. He also told me if what they said or did bothered me, rather than confront them on it and give into their little game of hurt that I should write it all down on paper. He then proceeded to tell me to read and reread what I wrote until I get it out of my system. After I felt like it was gone, I should crumble up the paper and throw it away. Honestly, it worked and the game they played called hurt me, stopped when they finally got that they couldn't get to me anymore.

[Soft*Silver]

having a friend over to move my bed so I can put an night stand on each side...

[dixie]

Top 3 Reasons Why This Weekend Sucks:

~ I ache for her and am not able to be with her this weekend. Damn fate.
~ The snow plow trucks are laying a heavy layer of sand/salt/whateverthehellitis on the roads in preparation for the now 6+ inches of snow we are supposed to be getting.
~ No one wants to go to the Christmas parade with me. Not even the kiddo.


Could this weekend get any more depressing? Purely rhetorical. I don't want it to be proven otherwise... :blues:





Update: actually did get to go to the parade. Me and mom went. Froze my arse off cause it started pouring the snow right when we got there. Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

[WolfyOne]

My friends in and around Chicago are digging themselves out from all the snow they got

One of them sent me a pic of it with a tape measure showing almost 9 inches where he's at
Another told me he had to go get another shovel, the one he had broke

I do not miss that much snow and will never move back to Chicago

Yesterday I didn't even have a jacket on when I went outside :blink:

[JustLovelyJenn]

On my mind :)

The weight Im losing... :) YEA for me...

Going to get a different style of haircut today.. Gonna try out the fohawk :)

Do we get to see pictures of this new haircut????

[lipstixgal]

How much I really despise the holidays....I can't even reference the grinch or mr.scrooge because well....they ended up turning into christmas lovers anyways. Lol.

Ready for the cheery music, inflated prices, and red/green/white to go away...

bah hum bug
:blink:
:seeingstars:


I really don't care for the holidays either they depress me!! I don't want anything to do with them, no one in my family calls or sends cards or anything to me, so screw them!! I'm ready for Janurary 2011 to come already!!

[JustLovelyJenn]

People from my past have been on my mind.... and even though we didn't part on good terms.... I still wonder about them, and hope they are well... and for some reason, I still haven't deleted their numbers from my phonebook...

[girl_dee]

I used to let that happen when I was younger with my mom and 2 older brothers until my Dad and I had a talk. He told me if I don't let them see they've gotten to me, eventually the thrill they got from it would go away and they'd stop. He also told me if what they said or did bothered me, rather than confront them on it and give into their little game of hurt that I should write it all down on paper. He then proceeded to tell me to read and reread what I wrote until I get it out of my system. After I felt like it was gone, I should crumble up the paper and throw it away. Honestly, it worked and the game they played called hurt me, stopped when they finally got that they couldn't get to me anymore.

Thanks Wolfy.. I need to get myself in a headspace that this doesn't happen anymore..

Maybe writing then burning it will make it better. Glad you are good now..

[lipstixgal]

On how cold its gotten in the past days and wishing I lived in a warmer place like the south and how I have to go out in it for Chanukah dinner at the Temple!! sigh

[Cirrus]

My friends in and around Chicago are digging themselves out from all the snow they got

One of them sent me a pic of it with a tape measure showing almost 9 inches where he's at
Another told me he had to go get another shovel, the one he had broke

I do not miss that much snow and will never move back to Chicago

Yesterday I didn't even have a jacket on when I went outside :blink:

Ohhh that explains it. I was wondering why you had a Bears logo up. The Packers are not doing as well as I'd like. Those darn Bears are in 1st place!!

[WolfyOne]

Ohhh that explains it. I was wondering why you had a Bears logo up. The Packers are not doing as well as I'd like. Those darn Bears are in 1st place!!


Yes indeed....you can take me out of Chicago, but wherever I am, Da Bears come along, lol.

[WolfyOne]

On how cold its gotten in the past days and wishing I lived in a warmer place like the south and how I have to go out in it for Chanukah dinner at the Temple!! sigh


This is where I come in and tell you it's not really cold here yet. Not saying it doesn't get cold, but won't get as cold as where you're at and the snow when it comes here never lasts long at all.

Wolfy....who doesn't miss Chicago winters at all :)

[shadows papa]

I will be adding one of these to my bike collection in the next couple of years....it's on my mind BIGTIME!

http://www.cyclecityusa.com/images/thumb/Trek_Soho_S.jpg/540px-Trek_Soho_S.jpg

[katsarecool]

I saw teeny tiny snowflakes early this morning. Wondering if I imagined them. Alberta Clipper headed this way and will stay for ten days or so. Very very cold weather coming and I hate it!!! I know hate is a strong word. But extreme temps do me in with the fibromyalgia and I spend time in bed when that happens. Plus it knocks the hell out of my utility budget....

[Miss Scarlett]

The beautiful, young calico cat who showed up outside my apartment friday evening...I don't know if she is lost, a stray or was abandoned. I wish I could bring her inside but my cat is 14, not used to other animals and I am fairly certain things would not go well at all. Also I have no idea as to her health.

But this poor creature just broke my heart yesterday, especially since we have some really, really cold weather approaching. She was outside my windows meowing and climbing my screens. After some thought I decided to provide her with food, water and shelter. I fixed up a box, covering the exterior bottom to keep out moisture, closed 3/4 of the open side to hold in heat but also to allow a little entrance and put one of my old fluffy sweaters in there for her. I took an empty Clementine crate and placed dry food and water dishes in it. Then I set everything up under the stairs outside my apartment. It's protected from the wind and rain - two of my neighbors are storing things there: a grill and a bicycle - so she is more or less out of the weather and out of sight of hawks and owls.

When I put out the food, she fell on it so I added some more. She seemed to calm down a bit after that and stopped the meowing and climbing. I did pet her and talk with her after she ate. She is very sweet and not at all feral.

Before going out I refilled her bowl and when I came home she had eaten most of it. I presume she was in her little house because she was nowhere to be seen. I didn't top off the food last night because the raccoons, opossums or other wilidlife would likely eat it.

I haven't seen her yet this morning and I will go outside in a little while to give her some more food and change out her water.

[DapperButch]

I will be adding one of these to my bike collection in the next couple of years....it's on my mind BIGTIME!

http://www.cyclecityusa.com/images/thumb/Trek_Soho_S.jpg/540px-Trek_Soho_S.jpg

Details on bike, please.

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Getting a new tattoo in 2 weeks :)

[katsarecool]

The beautiful, young calico cat who showed up outside my apartment friday evening...I don't know if she is lost, a stray or was abandoned. I wish I could bring her inside but my cat is 14, not used to other animals and I am fairly certain things would not go well at all. Also I have no idea as to her health.

But this poor creature just broke my heart yesterday, especially since we have some really, really cold weather approaching. She was outside my windows meowing and climbing my screens. After some thought I decided to provide her with food, water and shelter. I fixed up a box, covering the exterior bottom to keep out moisture, closed 3/4 of the open side to hold in heat but also to allow a little entrance and put one of my old fluffy sweaters in there for her. I took an empty Clementine crate and placed dry food and water dishes in it. Then I set everything up under the stairs outside my apartment. It's protected from the wind and rain - two of my neighbors are storing things there: a grill and a bicycle - so she is more or less out of the weather and out of sight of hawks and owls.

When I put out the food, she fell on it so I added some more. She seemed to calm down a bit after that and stopped the meowing and climbing. I did pet her and talk with her after she ate. She is very sweet and not at all feral.

Before going out I refilled her bowl and when I came home she had eaten most of it. I presume she was in her little house because she was nowhere to be seen. I didn't top off the food last night because the raccoons, opossums or other wilidlife would likely eat it.

I haven't seen her yet this morning and I will go outside in a little while to give her some more food and change out her water.


That is so sweet of you!!! My guess is that she is lost. If she were a stray or feral she would not have let you pet her so quickly.

I have a black male un-neutered cat that I care for but cannot bring inside because of my other furr babies. It breaks my heart every day. His ear has been lacerated repeatedly over the past two years and it keeps re-opening. Makes me so sad! If I come into some extra money I will take Tom Tom to the vet to be neutered, vaccinations and then try to find him a home!! I keep playing the lottery in hopes of being able to help him!!!

I hope you find her owners!!!

[Miss Scarlett]

That is so sweet of you!!! My guess is that she is lost. If she were a stray or feral she would not have let you pet her so quickly.

I have a black male un-neutered cat that I care for but cannot bring inside because of my other furr babies. It breaks my heart every day. His ear has been lacerated repeatedly over the past two years and it keeps re-opening. Makes me so sad! If I come into some extra money I will take Tom Tom to the vet to be neutered, vaccinations and then try to find him a home!! I keep playing the lottery in hopes of being able to help him!!!

I hope you find her owners!!!

Her dish was empty when I put food out for her earlier this morning. About 30 minutes ago I checked and half is now gone. I still haven't seen her nor have I checked her box - it's her safe space and I don't want to disturb her if she is in there. I'm going to top off her dish here in a minute. There haven't been any dogs, etc. out there today so she must be eating.

[JustLovelyJenn]

:detective:

That's classified.

[ravfem]

The coming week...

"playing house"...

talks...

:hangloose:

[moonfemme]

Why... When you no longer choose to speak to certain people, and you haven't for 2 years and counting and and having a very very very good reason why I shouldn't... Why do they continue to try ????????? arghhhh

[JustLovelyJenn]

Why... When you no longer choose to speak to certain people, and you haven't for 2 years and counting and and having a very very very good reason why I shouldn't... Why do they continue to try ????????? arghhhh

AND... why do other people continue to tell you how they are doing???

[Cirrus]

This is where I come in and tell you it's not really cold here yet. Not saying it doesn't get cold, but won't get as cold as where you're at and the snow when it comes here never lasts long at all.

Wolfy....who doesn't miss Chicago winters at all :)

I've been to Chicago several times. It's about a 7 hour ride from here though so it does not happen often at all. I am actually a lot closer to Duluth, MN. Only an hour there depending on the weather. It's pretty cold here right now, but I am prepared for it. Usually our biggest challenge in the winter is keeping out eye out for drunken snowmobilers, people ice fishing dangerously, and lost skiers.

I get what you are saying though. If I went anyplace else I'd still be a cheesehead

[moonfemme]

AND... why do other people continue to tell you how they are doing???

Jenn... I wish I knew... sometimes family(and some friends) are just hang-er on-ers... maybe it's being blood related and those bonds are hard to break... All I know is I need sometime away... I need to process, then figure out how to deal with a family issue... I hate ultimatums, when I was younger I would do the opposite out of spite... but now... I just think that if you need space and time ... the request should be honored. If not then LEAVE ME THE F%^K alone will be my answer :~)

[JustJo]

...that I used to laugh all the time, and lately feel like I've lost that

...that I am truly sick and tired of arguing and anger

...that I miss my best friend more than I thought I would

...that I am bone tired, and frustrated that I can't sleep

...that whatever I do or say never seems to be right, or enough, or whatever

...that every time I feel like things are turning around in life, they hang a U-turn on me

...that I'm fighting that same old depressed crap...ugh

[Miss Scarlett]

I'm on vacation this week...since I am a bit of a workaholic it will only be a matter of time before I start getting on my own nerves. Trying very hard NOT to check the work email, court calendars or bank accounts - I do this every morning after opening the office.

There is so much to do around the house - move furniture around and sort through boxes from my move about 2 years ago. Let me elaborate - my former apartment building was sold and everyone was given a couple weeks to move - we were more or less evicted. This happened about 3 weeks before Pride - I was Co-chair of the Board and had absolutely NO spare time. Also I was working for someone who confused the duties of a paralegal with indentured servitude. And my Mom had died a few months earlier. Shelia took time off work and packed my apartment - she packed everything, except the garbage. After the move I was still consumed by Pride and my job. Then Dad started to clear Mom's things from his house because he decided to remarry. I ended up rescuing a lot of things and my living room became a warehouse. When I moved my home grew from a 640 sq ft apartment to about 1,000 but because of the extra things from Dad's I actually have less living space now.

Even with the change of jobs last year I was still not interested in going through things here. Thanks to my counselor I have been able to work through my Mom's death and thanks to the addition of 5HTP/Carbidopa the mild depression has lifted - I am ready to tackle this. By the end of the week there will be many things ready to go to Goodwill and/or the dumpster.

I am looking forward to being able to use my living room again - something I haven't been able to do since the stuff arrived from Dad's.

[weatherboi]

George is on my mind!!!

[little_ms_sunshyne]

the unexpected...

[JustLovelyJenn]

Jenn... I wish I knew... sometimes family(and some friends) are just hang-er on-ers... maybe it's being blood related and those bonds are hard to break... All I know is I need sometime away... I need to process, then figure out how to deal with a family issue... I hate ultimatums, when I was younger I would do the opposite out of spite... but now... I just think that if you need space and time ... the request should be honored. If not then LEAVE ME THE F%^K alone will be my answer :~)

WOW, don't I know this feeling. I feel the same way. I need time away.... away from family, from pressure, from fighting... I need time to remember who I am. And getting that may just be the hardest decision I have ever had to make in my life.

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Strong arms holding me...melting into a warm body...I may have a fever for different reasons now ;)

[Leigh]

Sometimes just sitting around all day when your on disability will give you too much time to think. What hasn't been on My mind lately? Seems like all I've done lately is think ~ about life, My future, what I want and pleasing others. My mind keeps getting wracked with things bombarding My thoughts to the point where I just wanna shit it off ~ like where is the automatic "off" switch? Some of the things I've had on My mind include:

~ My transition

~ Coming out to the rest of My family and friends

~ Going to school (either physically going or taking an at-home study course)

~ Moving out on My own, and how to do that

~ Work, should I or shouldnt I?

~ Love, and whether or not I'll ever find it

~ Figuring out My sexuality and where I fall in the gender spectrum?


There is alot more, but thats just the basics ........... no wonder I don't sleep properly most nights :|