What is on your mind

[kannon]

allergies and sinus congestion is kicking my BUTT.

[1QuirkyKiwi]

That some members of my Scottish family maybe finally accepting the fact that I'm gay. ....I'm forever the optimist. :)

One black spot in the rest of my amazing and wonderful Christmas Day...

... Its one thing to know and understand your parents dont and wont accept you... or support you for who you are... Its possible to look the other way as long as they do the same...

... however, it hurts... when they throw it back in your face...

... Talking to my mom today, about the idea of moving out of the country... and how difficult it is to get a work visa as a teacher in Canada... her response was, well marry some rich, kind man... that would make it simple... I said, actually mom, in Canada I can marry a woman if I want to... and she just right out says... "You need to marry a man." ... *blink* and the conversation ends there... This is nothing new... I have been out for a while now, I am not changing my mind, or going back in the closet for them... *sigh*

but... maybe I do need to stop letting the intolerance slide... maybe I need to put down my foot and put up some barriers... I deserve to be loved by my "family" and if the one I was born with cant do that unconditionally... Maybe its time I concentrated on the one I'm building that does...

I come from a family of Homophobes too. In my immediate family, all thats left is my sister. She officially disowned me after my brothers funeral. Life became a little easier. Sad but true. If no chosen family is left when I finally croak off, animal rescue league will be heir to my estate.

Anyhow, the standard line I am subjected to, be it a funeral, wedding or a run in at a grocery store is *Will you ever lead a normal life?* To which I reply *Tsk, Define Normal, like yours you mean?* Just once I'd love to be asked *How are you?* or *So, what are you doing now?* I found out long ago, life goes on...without them.

Still on that river in Egypt! ….De-Nile!

It seems I was a little too optimistic and mistook their, what appeared to be ‘acceptance’ of my sexuality, when in fact it was their choosing to ignore (yet again!) the obvious truth about me and clinging on too school playground prejudices!

I’m staying with them over Hogmanay in Scotland until the 2nd January….Oh the joy!

[ruby_woo]

I hope I can find an apartment that allows cats. I might get a cat, and name her Lucy.

[Bard]

reading all the posts about families that refuse to except you as you are it makes me very sad ... Desd and I are both very lucky in that respect both sides of the family take us and love us as we are. We spent Christmas with her folks and they treat me as if I was one of their own and they love my daughter. My dad and Jen love Desd and are coming for the wedding from AZ. It never made a bit if difference to Dad that I was gay he takes me and loves me just as I am and her adores his granddaughter and make no mistake she is his even if my EX is her Bio mom Goose is still his granddaughter and he would fight anyone who said different:cigar2:

[Logicaly]

Very sad today. Can't stop thinking about the fact that I got laid off from my job and now I once again have to enter the job search. I really loved what I did, and the company I did it for. It makes me sad that a previous CEO walked away with millions and screwed the rest of us.

[1QuirkyKiwi]

reading all the posts about families that refuse to except you as you are it makes me very sad ... Desd and I are both very lucky in that respect both sides of the family take us and love us as we are. We spent Christmas with her folks and they treat me as if I was one of their own and they love my daughter. My dad and Jen love Desd and are coming for the wedding from AZ. It never made a bit if difference to Dad that I was gay he takes me and loves me just as I am and her adores his granddaughter and make no mistake she is his even if my EX is her Bio mom Goose is still his granddaughter and he would fight anyone who said different:cigar2:

I’m very fortunate that my Maternal Grandparents were accepting, as was my twin brother and my English cousin and his parents. I’m closer to my English cousin than my Scottish ones and on my first time in the UK to study, he and my Aunt and Uncle were here and offered support….it was my first time away from my family and I was on the other side of the world and very scared. My cousin was there to show me London and get me accustomed to the city (….in the early 90s, London had just under twice the population as the entire country of NZ. I was used to a traffic jam of 15 cars and a million sheep! LOL!).

My cousin is protective of me….I’m like the little sister he never had and he is like another older brother (in no way does he replace my late twin brother). I was living in Scotland trying to spend time with my family; only, I constantly kept getting why wasn’t I married to a MAN and the various other comments. I was offered a job in London, again and took it! Nope! That didn’t go down well at the time, but, I said it was a promotion of sorts (it wasn’t an untruth, lol!).

I accept that my Scottish side of the family will most likely never accept that I’m gay and that is OK! ….even though it hurts. I see them once a year, less when living over seas and we email and chat on the phone.

[Dominique]

I accept that my Scottish side of the family will most likely never accept that I’m gay and that is OK! ….even though it hurts. I see them once a year, less when living over seas and we email and chat on the phone.



Take me as I am...or don't. I no longer explain myself to anybody. I DON"T care what they think. It's my life, and I will live it my way.

Yet, when I am thrown onto the mix of the *family* I stand around and make a mental inventory of those who judge me. Let see, the laundry list goes like this. You stole from your employer, you have been married 4 times, you over eat and over drink, You used to do drugs, Wonder if you still do. Every time I see you, you have a different car and its always wrecked. Why is that? You cuss too much. You need to go to charm school. Another Boyfriend? But still not married what is that, 6 kids now?
blah blah blah...so really Do you think I care what they think?

[Julien]

What's on my mind? So much stuff that I don't know if I can multitask today. :thud:
Maybe I should make a list to organize it by importance and relevance.then I can concentrate on the things that I need to concentrate on and file the other stuff in the compartments in my mind:glasses::deepthoughts:
Easier said thank done :writer::scared:

[1QuirkyKiwi]

Take me as I am...or don't. I no longer explain myself to anybody. I DON"T care what they think. It's my life, and I will live it my way.

Yet, when I am thrown onto the mix of the *family* I stand around and make a mental inventory of those who judge me. Let see, the laundry list goes like this. You stole from your employer, you have been married 4 times, you over eat and over drink, You used to do drugs, Wonder if you still do. Every time I see you, you have a different car and its always wrecked. Why is that? You cuss too much. You need to go to charm school. Another Boyfriend? But still not married what is that, 6 kids now?
blah blah blah...so really Do you think I care what they think?

My Scottish family are an insular lot and all except my eldest Scottish cousin, they live (as far as they are concerned) a near perfect life….and, good on them! As I said; it’s OK! That they don’t accept me for my sexuality, and I’m the only girl out of 5 boys born of Norwegian Grandparents….it doesn’t stop me from feeling hurt, but, neither does it stop me from living my life the way I want.

We each live our lives as we feel is right and I realise that I am fortunate to still have the support of my family.

[UofMfan]

Breakfast, and how absolutely delicious is going to be.

[weatherboi]

http://jessicaw22.files.wordpress.com/2011/01/harlem-globetrotters.jpg

[starryeyes]

Tomorrow closes a HUGE chapter in my life. It is very bittersweet, but I am finally living my life how I want, and I am happy. I will always cherish the past, but I am SO excited about the possibilities of my future.

Smiles and Hugs
Starry

[JustLovelyJenn]

things change slowly in life sometimes... and at others do a 360 in a day... but they always change... lately I have been thinking about how comforting that change is... and how when i expect it, and watch for it... I am the one to decide how and what that change is... and it gives me control, something that is also a comfort... I like the changes in my life right now... and the ones that I am planning for in the future.

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

things change slowly in life sometimes... and at others do a 360 in a day... but they always change... lately I have been thinking about how comforting that change is... and how when i expect it, and watch for it... I am the one to decide how and what that change is... and it gives me control, something that is also a comfort... I like the changes in my life right now... and the ones that I am planning for in the future.


you know yourself best.....and i know what you mean about change....it can happen so suddenly....and look back as if it happened in slow motion.....it can be comforting to know that you can shape changes u make in your life...esp the positive ones! ....im soo happy you like where you are .....

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind... how bad my freakin' foot hurts right now. I went home for my lunch break, decide to be a responsible adult & bring the trash can back up to the house, and my graceful self somehow twisted my ankle on a rock. *disclaimer, yes I was wearing flip flops*

The longer I sit here, the worse it is starting to feel. I really hope I didn't break something in my foot.

*OUCH*

[Leigh]

Looking foward to 2012 :)

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

whats on my mind....dinner....how awesome it is to see my dear ones smiling...your voice in my head....and wondering what it is you have planned

[Vlasta]

everything , I am trying to be positive , but I also have to be realistic . What if ? What am I going to do ?

[JackMcGrath]

So very much is on My mind.. yet, I am at peace with it all. I am loving the feeling.. and it will only get better.. I will make it so.

[JustLovelyJenn]

whats on my mind....dinner....how awesome it is to see my dear ones smiling...your voice in my head....and wondering what it is you have planned

All the things I have planned are on my mind... AND... you will just have to wait and be surprised!!

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

All the things I have planned are on my mind... AND... you will just have to wait and be surprised!!

*smiles* .....well...i can wait....even tho it might be on my mind too...im gunna love it....i know i will....and i have yours on my mind too...

[1QuirkyKiwi]

I woke up this morning feeling a little rattled and unsettled from a dream….that feeling has stayed with me most of the morning. I still feel a little off kilter, so, I'm hoping a walk this afternoon will help to restore my inner balance….

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

napping with my dear ones....*is content*

[Sassy]

It's New Year's Eve. I'm at work. Strangely, it's OK. At least my feet don't hurt right now from the high heels and no one is spilling beer on me. *LOL*

[Wryly]

amen Sassy!

I just got done work a little while ago & am now on the train headed home. never liked the NYE bar scene - too loud, too expensive. Just wish that I had someone special to welcome the new year in with.

[Dominique]

GIEH7fZS2vs

[ruffryder]

Getting to work and getting out. 4 hours. :p

[JustLovelyJenn]

Dynamics... interwoven layers of attraction and affection... and the pure joy of the picture they create...

[WolfyOne]

Had a migraine yesterday
Didn't want to go anywhere today
Cooked 2 meals for myself today
Breakfast was fried matzo pancakes
Lunch was baked chicken legs, stuffing and corn
Leftovers later when I get hungry again

Funny thing about a really bad migraine, the day after, I'm really hungry, yet drained of energy

[uglyboi]

Alrighty, I knew there was a reason Beasley made us fried chicken tonight. She just informed me that at 8:00 pm "Mob Wives" is on.

I am going to hide.

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

Dynamics... interwoven layers of attraction and affection... and the pure joy of the picture they create...

its such a beautiful thing....a feeling that can shake you to the souls core...

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

our family.....dorky moments from the last 24 hours.....missing your voice...seeing your face lit up...

[VintageFemme]

disappointments & let downs.

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

you ...previously conversations....and future ones....that small act of creative kindness that made me sink deeper......

[Logicaly]

Just applied for quite a few jobs, however two in particular that I would be AMAZING at! Good energy and positive thoughts being put out, especially for the last two that I know I can rock!

[Vlasta]

So many things it's feeling like 100 Lb on my shoulders .

Stress! I am under it's getting to my body . My hair started falling out like I am going through a round of chemotherapy . My hair just coming out like crazy . After shower or not they are falling out . I went and bought Biotin and a jar of protein . I will see if that's help since I don't have a time to make an appointment with dermatologist right now .

Chest pain , but not a typical one , I am pretty sure it's anxiety .

My daughter in law , has pains in her pregnancy that she never experience before , I worry for her and baby that nothing bad happen .

My son's hearing coming up this Monday , I am having nightmares when I get some sleep , I stop taking Benadryl since I realize it doesn't help to get more sleep .

My ex and BFF a medical issues related to hys diabetes . Hy lost so much weigh it's scary and I am so far away I can't support hym or do anything right now .

there is more , but I will not annoy you with my negative posts . Yet , this it's a place when I can open myself up , regardless what people are thinking about me . As stated before , we are keeping quite from a local people for a several reasons . Keeping his business going and not ruin his reputation over something that happened so long ago .

The ones they have been supporting me online or off line thank you .

[1QuirkyKiwi]

Getting my passport renewed before May of this year….all the paperwork, then having to, too and fro between the NZ Embassy and the Passport Office, but….more importantly trying to fight the urge to pull funny faces in the wee photo booth! LOL!

[Julien]

What is on my mind? She is. :rrose::wine:

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

a dr appt tomorrow......nervous n excited to find out what might come of it

[JustLovelyJenn]

a dr appt tomorrow......nervous n excited to find out what might come of it

This is on my mind too... I so wish I could go with you... I want to be there, and hold your hand... and hear what they have to say...

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

This is on my mind too... I so wish I could go with you... I want to be there, and hold your hand... and hear what they have to say...


i wish you could be! ....but i know youre always with me....and i promise ill keep you posted on what they say.....

[dixie]

Lots of things going on in my mind.
~The new semester starting on Monday. It's gonna be a rough one and I am NOT looking forward to it.
~My job interview in the morning. I have a feeling it's gonna be one of those jobs where I would be cussed out on a daily basis (financial services "complaint" dept, from the way it sounds) yet the money and benefits are wayyyy too good to pass up.
~special Valentine's plans already in the making
~end of Feb/first of March (hopefully), which will keep me smiling for a longggg time

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

plans for the future....and the plans to make those future plans happen...

[Sassy]

amen Sassy!

I just got done work a little while ago & am now on the train headed home. never liked the NYE bar scene - too loud, too expensive. Just wish that I had someone special to welcome the new year in with.

Just once I'd dig a really great, awesome, special, romantic, fantabulous New Year's Eve with someone who cared, or at least kissed well ;) ... I have a long line of NYE's in my past that sucked. Just. Sucked. The way I see it, until I get an offer for that really great, awesome, special, romantic, fantabulous New Year's Eve, I'm not bothering. I'll work and someone else can have a great evening. At least I won't waste money on high heels and time on shaving my legs, for nothin' ;)

[Trey339]

101 Things

[WomenMoveMe]

On the 'user profile' page...where it shows the last ten people who visited your page...why do some people's names have a + by them? What does that mean?

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

just...all kinds of happiness.....and our secret garden

[PinkieLee]

On the 'user profile' page...where it shows the last ten people who visited your page...why do some people's names have a + by them? What does that mean?

The + by someone's name means they are on your friends list :)

[Sassy]

My horoscope today:

Sagittarius: It's all about relationships today with the Moon's presence in your 7th House of Companions. Other people can either be a source of exciting fun or irritating distraction. Or, more likely, someone is both pleasant and bothersome at the same time. You don't want to be alone so you enjoy the company, yet it's difficult to maintain a steady pace when another person keeps pulling you off track. There's no simple solution to your current dilemma, but being adaptable enables you to keep a positive attitude all day.

[Honey]

Its 10 pm in London....

[tazz]

On the 'user profile' page...where it shows the last ten people who visited your page...why do some people's names have a + by them? What does that mean?

**it means they or you have added them as a friend :)

[tazz]

January is a hard month fiscally... but i know i'll get through it... :praying:

[smouldering]

This seems to be a bit of a difficult month financially.. but it'll be okay..

[GPS]

waiting for the hours to pass by ;)

[clay]

Just once I'd dig a really great, awesome, special, romantic, fantabulous New Year's Eve with someone who cared, or at least kissed well ;) ... I have a long line of NYE's in my past that sucked. Just. Sucked. The way I see it, until I get an offer for that really great, awesome, special, romantic, fantabulous New Year's Eve, I'm not bothering. I'll work and someone else can have a great evening. At least I won't waste money on high heels and time on shaving my legs, for nothin' ;)

maybe ya ain't "dating" the right one....jus' sayin'...smiles

[Sassy]

Nearly 1AM and I'm stuck at work because of technical glitches in our crappy/cheap online content management software. This blows. I need wine, dammit.

[Vlasta]

Next door a new family moved in as a renter . They moved in with a pit bull, this poor dog it's in cage and chained in the cage . There is so much stigma about pit bulls . It's not a dogs , but mean and greedy people they breed and train these dogs to fight and being mean and dangerous .

I can't step out of house that he/she it's barking viciously at me . I feel so sorry for this dog since he is belong to rednecks , I don't mean to insult nobody , but I have been living in the south and see too much .

It's so sad he/she its chain up in the cage . It's against my covenants of my HOA to own pit bull .

I am sad for a dog since I know he/she will be out off here at no time and most likely go to an another breaded and dog fights just to abuse him /her .

I wish I can do something about it , but my HOA association will get him out of here .

Simply it's sad how peoples abuse the animals they are so fait full to you .

[smouldering]

Seems like the bills are never ending.. thinking of taking on another job.. hmmm ponders..

[Rook]

A friend of mine passed away Jan. 3, I found out this morning.
Funny how a simple birthday card can start a warm friendship.
I would wear funny t-shirts, to make him laugh before our Dialysis.
In return, he'd tell me when a good b&w Classic was on t.v., since he knew I enjoyed them.
He would tenderly admonish me that I had to hurry and get a transplant to enjoy my Life.
I would tell him I'm doing my best.
I dread going to treatment today.

R.I.P Patch (http://www.athensmessenger.com/obituaries/article_c9016316-3869-11e1-9c82-0019bb2963f4.html)

[JustLovelyJenn]

How cold my feet are

How happy I am all the time anymore

How even when its tight, we always seem to get by

How much I love you

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

How cold my feet are

How happy I am all the time anymore

How even when its tight, we always seem to get by

How much I love you



and how mutual those feelings are.....we will always find a way...and always make time for this.....us...as a family ...*tosses u socks*

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

how i can warm u up.....

[Sassy]

My horoscope:

Sagittarius: You may believe that a new strategy is required now to take a relationship to the next level or to revitalize it with fresh energy. Nevertheless, you still might resist the necessary changes unconsciously if you aren't certain which way you want to go. Don't let confusion stand in the way of truth. Rather than tapdancing around the edges of confrontation, be direct and say exactly what's on your mind. Even if your opinion creates dissension, resolution will be possible once everything is out in the open.

[RockOn]

How thankful I am to have peace of mind. It happened sometime last year when I finally totally let go. This feeling of renewal is refreshing. Thank you, Good Spirit.

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

.....your scent.....and that feeling i get everytime you give me that look and giggle...

[JustLovelyJenn]

too many things to do... not enough time...

[GPS]

harmless flirting

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

too many things to do... not enough time...

we will always make the time to make sure things get done....

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

coffee.....laundry.....secret gardens

[Massive]

I live in an old slate roofed bungalow (small, four roomed single storey cottage kinda deal) and right now, cos of all the monster storms that have been hitting us, my roof's starting to fall off :| I live alone, I have no way of being able to do a damn thing about this ... and it's scary hearing the grating noises above your head at night...

[Miss_J]

wondering if the people I love most are really worth the effort half the time. Kids keeping me on my toes and their not even mine but mine none the less.

[nicetgurl_30]

WOndering how long she will give me before I find the courage to say things out loud

[dixie]

Things that make me cringe and things that make me wonder....

[JAGG]

I am loving this beautiful, mild winter we are having in T-Town. Makes my heart happy.

[WolfyOne]

Today I decided to clean the cobwebs out of my head and open up my heart,
so I can start the next chapter in my journey...a little scarey, but
I honestly think I am ready...bring it on and let me start living life again

[Sachita]

how nice a good bourbon would taste right now next to this toasty fire. Do I want to drive and get it? No. Hmmmm but I have hot chocolate! Bourbon buzz or sugar rush? That is the question.

[girl_dee]

how cute a Hello Kitty manicure looked on a little kid I know!

[Massive]

Really worried about my Mum right now, haven't seen her this unhappy in a long time and there's hardly anything I can do to help her other than by being an ear and shoulder to cry on whenever she needs it. I feel so inadequate, she's always there for everyone else and now she needs help, where are they all?? People need to stop and take a damn good look at themselves and really see how their selfishness hurts others. I love my Mum more than I can ever say and right now I want to grab these feckers by the scruffs of their necks and give them sucj a bloody good shake. Mess with Mum and you're messing with me ... Being an adult can really fucking suck some days!

[Skittlesluver]

The weekend lol:byebye:

[smouldering]

Looking forward to getting back on track after a small financial upset due to a mandatory unpaid weeks vacation.. Slowly bur surely...

[scootebaby]

skipping

socks

[JAGG]

I think I figured out why I dislike cold winters so much. Aside from the obivious reasons, poor driving conditions, frostbite, high energy bills... its much deeper than that. I have been sitting here thinking about it and I realize,how much I love this mild weather. And why. I feel free! When its bitter cold and snow, ice I feel trapped. Even in fall I feel the great weight of impending doom. Like a dog tied up on a very short chain. Stuck. Trapped. Restrained.
Hmmm very interesting. The gypsy and the Sag in me needs to feel free . Unless I chose the short chain of my own free will. Makes no sense to anyone I'm sure, but it makes all the sense in the world to me.

[girl_dee]

How cool it was to list Syr as my next of kin at the hospital!

[Elijah]

Today I am 10 years clean and sober. I was awake and present for every single moment, good and bad. What a blessing!

[Sassy]

What's good about a mandatory week off with no pay? Well, let me see if I can find something positive to say:
I have a job to return to when the furlough is over and I have some savings to float me through the future half-paycheck.
I get a week off w/my SO when we really need time together to reconnect and communicate.
And... I finally have time to get my hair done, put up the rest of the holiday decor, repair the dining room table, install a closet system and organize the shed so we can put together that table saw. *laughs*
If I'm lucky the rain will stop and I'll be able to spend time at the park on a blanket with a good book or walking the li'l dog. (Never a long walk w/those short, arthritic legs these days. But she gets SO excited :) )
oh, Ima be a busy bee! :)

[foxyshaman]

I think I just cracked the bone in my neck that has been hurting me and limiting my movement since boxing day. Two trips to the chiro... nope not fixed. A good solid hour on the phone getting stressed over a stupid program that worked BEFORE they installed updates... three IT's later... and a bend of the arms behind my back, a tilt of my head... and yup I can turn my head left... thanks stress, you rock... <insert sarcastic smiley here>:blink:

[Massive]

Operation Cheer Mum Up.
It begins later today, going to get her out the house, to our local old book store, keep her in tea as long as she wants, get her cookies and get her talking to distract her and make her feel better :)
I keep telling her I love her, on the phone and via text.
Mum's my best friend in so many ways, I hate seeing her like this.
No matter what's going on in my life right now, making her happier is my main goal.

[politicalboi]

I have stumbled upon a petition.

Petition to support LGBT youth in schools. Federal bill


http://www.dccc.org/pages/bullyingfbbox

Thanks

[RockOn]

I am wiped out ... Thinking about crawling in bed early and how nice it will feel. :koolaid:

[spritzerJ]

I enjoy being visible. But I am not clueless. The visibility goes both ways. I know and I am aware.

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: Others see you as a go-to person to get things done today because you currently won't take no for an answer. You can untangle knotty problems and overcome seemingly impossible obstacles because you know how important it is to succeed now. Although your optimism might result in performances beyond your own expectations, you could take your enthusiasm too far. It's a gift to feel so confident, but your self-assuredness might backfire if you act too boldly. Thankfully, toning down your exuberance prevents alienating your allies while still allowing you to make your point.

[Honey]

how am I ever going to make it til June to be with hym ????

[princessbelle]

Warm cuddles and lots of laughter on a very cold day. Fire is going, soup is simmering on the stove. It makes the cold temps tolerable on the outside when it's so wonderful on the inside. :cheer:

[Maria]

If gewurztraminer cured mittelschmerz, I'd be set.

[dixie]

More shit than I feel qualified to contemplate today...:confused:

[tapu]

If gewurztraminer cured mittelschmerz, I'd be set.


You're just a short two weeks away from relief.

[Kenna]

Really worried this nasty wind storm is gonna blow the house off the foundation and all the way to Kansas! !.... I don't have cable or and way to get weather warnings... and no basement to hide in... no room without any windows for a safe room and with LOTS of huge trees around house and over car port.... I HATE WIND STORMS!!! more than any other weather storms and hate floods. The house is cold tonight because I cut down heat before leaveing for work....I'm gonna go cuddle with the dog and pray that they don't issue a tornado warning!

[Ryobi]

Really worried this nasty wind storm is gonna blow the house off the foundation and all the way to Kansas! !.... I don't have cable or and way to get weather warnings... and no basement to hide in... no room without any windows for a safe room and with LOTS of huge trees around house and over car port.... I HATE WIND STORMS!!! more than any other weather storms and hate floods. The house is cold tonight because I cut down heat before leaveing for work....I'm gonna go cuddle with the dog and pray that they don't issue a tornado warning!

Sweet, looks like you're almost done, it will be colder than usual, wind is from the west. Can you sleep on the east side of your house? Have extra blankets to cover the windows in that room?
Thinking about you, trusting you will be ok.

[Kenna]

I'm in the middle of a wind storm, perched on top of a hill... with a Verizon tower just a stones through away... yet my weather app says "wind ---MPH"... I wonder if the tower got blown to Kansas?

[sharkchomp]

I just watched Betty White on Jay Leno. She's having a special on tv Monday for her 90th birthday party. Talk about beauty transending the ages. I absolutely adore her. She did Saturday Night Live last year and I think it was the best SNL I've seen in over a decade. She is such a pro at comedic timing. She's truly an icon :)

~~~shark~~~~~~~~

[Morgan]

I do not understand why people have pets, when they do not take care of them....For the past 2 weeks we have been feeding the neighborhood cat, who cries at our door. Tonight he brought his buddy along and well the temperature has dropped down in the low 40's, so I found 2 boxes cut holes in them and put blankets inside. Fed them both, gave them water and a catnip toy for each. I sure hope they climb inside and stay warm tonight. I so hate to see these beautiful animals neglected, if I could I would take in all the stray and neglected animals I could....

[RockOn]

It is 24 degrees outside at 4:30 a.m. and I cannot find my beanie! :(

[Tawse]

In the middle of what I consider bad news and impending doom on the gay rights / marriage issues... we get this ray of light:


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[Miss Scarlett]

Conversations with doctors at appointments this morning...lots of good news...

[Vlasta]

hello planet !

update from the monster house . Since Monday we won the case , we are still not relax . It seems we all falling apart with a little , but annoying things after all the stress we have been through .

My son it's overwhelmed with everything with his business ,his costumers and his family. . Also , the immigration lost his drivers licence and of course he is paranoid driving with a piece of paper from DMV ,
My daughter in law found out from her OBGYN she it's a high risk pregnancy( a long story) .

Today my son took me to the dentist which I am religious to go on regular bases . My dentist send me to specialist since was more complicated . We did accomplish the care , but my mouth feels like a 18 wheeler ran through . Antibiotics , prednisone and Tylenol # 3 for the pain . I tried just plain Tylenol , but it feels my half face its just not functioning too well .

We scheduled my son's and his family move to my house in two weeks . We are giving away couches , washers and dryers which we have a four of them. I myself have two laundry rooms . WTH I need it for . we are giving away much more . I wish planet people would come and unloaded me from a lot of stuff . I don't even think it's worth it to ship stuff to other states for ones they loss they jobs and they are in need .. Since I really didn't adopt a family in this holiday season , I will donate to people in need . .

Also , which it's so much important to me , I want to support planet people as they supported to me while I was thinking it was end of my life if my son got deported . I am sorry and I apologizes that I am not on Internet as I used to be right now . I don't care if you like me or not , but if you post something that hurts my heart , I will be there for you . Please , do not take my actions on the website as selfish , just to take and don't give a back . I honestly will as a soon I get my life in order .


Right now I am not into fluff threads , my life has been disturbed over something of 17 yrs. ago and I need get myself together and even understand where is a difference from a communist country and the dream country of the USA .


much love to you all

Vlasta

[Sassy]

Made homemade marsala sauce last night with (Yum!) baby portabellas and some nice mushroom and 4 cheese ravioli. (Ravioli came from the store. LOL.) Got the spare room cleaned up and prettified. Back patio has been de-leafed. *laughs* I got to use a leaf blower for the first time yesterday and it was entirely too amusing :) Wine is chilling in the fridge and premaking the lasagna tonight. Now to tackle the floors in the house. Nearly set for tomorrow's evening of relaxation. :)

oh yeah ... and ...

Sagittarius: An ongoing domestic disagreement may be temporarily set aside today as an amicable agreement is reached. However, the underlying tension could still be present and will need to be handled eventually. Placing your differences of opinion on hold doesn't mean that your current conversations have to be superficial. Establishing sufficient common ground allows you to make steady progress on other issues of concern that can be resolved at this time.

[~Bo]

I am not happy about what happened to the Saints today. :(

[sharkchomp]

I went over to my best pal's today. She has that Band Hero game, or whatever it's called. She had a guitar and drum set. I payed the drums. I thoroughly sucked at it but that was so much fun!!!!!!!!! Especially the drum solo's!!!! What a blast :) I so felt like a 5 year old - no coordination at all but I didn't really care either lol

~~~shark~~~~~~~
ps GO PACKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Licious]

I went over to my best pal's today. She has that Band Hero game, or whatever it's called. She had a guitar and drum set. I payed the drums. I thoroughly sucked at it but that was so much fun!!!!!!!!! Especially the drum solo's!!!! What a blast :) I so felt like a 5 year old - no coordination at all but I didn't really care either lol

~~~shark~~~~~~~
ps GO PACKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



that is lovely. good for you. some times just a nice visit with our friends remind us of simple joy of life. :)

[luv2luvgirls]

all that I am missing and how i am getting it back :D :P

edited to add... I really wanna got to that BBQ and hang with the two of them and celebrate her BDAY!
how lucky I am to have made that friendship! will be thinking of them all day :)

[smouldering]

The assumptions that people make, and why? Can people really be that self absorbed?

[Mr Nice Guy]

Wondering if I'll ever meet my dream girl. She's hot, brunette, Latina or Italian, happy and has the nicest smile. Now that's a dream. :)

[sweetfemme247]

hello planet, whats on my mind, i got the internet back, im living between palm springs and landers..... i cant come on often but i miss you all.

[Dominique]

upper cervical subluxation

[sanee66]

Wondering how you would get to know people better here without sounding like a fool?

[Kenna]

Closure ... grief... loss....

[sylvie]

Getting through this day.. In the past, i have had emotionally challenging days such as today & have used them as an excuse to set myself up or to be hard on myself .. Today i grasped at everything i possibly could and found ways to pick myself back up..i even pampered myself this afternoon, something i don't take time to do enough.. That shows so much more strength & determination than i've ever had - & proves such growth.

i'm deserving --- & because of this, i feel joy, all the way down to the tips of my friggin' cute lil' toes..

[Honey]

I get to be with hym in June...

[1QuirkyKiwi]

My life is good! It’s not perfect (that would be boring). I’ve got opportunities and possibilities waiting for me….I just need to decide on which University to do my Masters….nothing too major. I’m happy in myself and with my life and my choices….so why then, does life/the universe/fate have to throw in a ‘blast from the past’ to unsettle everything?! Why? To see if I’m really wanting to walk this new chapter in my life! ….Well…. I DO and I AM! Even if I have to walk it alone; no dating for a while, that’s fine! (I won’t like it, but, I’ll deal with it).

I will NOT succumb to those from my past who want another chance when THEY were the ones who walked away…. I said there was NO going back, I meant it!

Why do people think/believe/expect to be able to come back into my life again and pick up where ‘we left off’ as if nothing has happened? If I wasn’t good enough for you before, TOUGH! I will NOT be treated like my feelings and life don’t matter because I have ‘it all together’ ….do I? Maybe I do! Because I choose to deal with my feelings and emotions and the pain given to me by others AND move on with my life….living my life for me!

Don’t come crying to me when your life falls apart, expecting me to sort it out for you and pick up the pieces, because I WON’T! That’s for you to do….if you can’t, I suggest you seek professionally help!

[smouldering]

A lot of things really but mostly bills that need to be paid.. blah!

[JustLovelyJenn]

This happens every quarter... Classes are back in session and I just don't have the time like I used to. I don't get to post every day and when I do get to come in... My control panel is overflowing with unread threads and it makes it hard to post...

*sigh* I enjoy posting, its therapeutic, and relaxing... I will try to keep coming in, and just... pick a couple to check and post...

I need this place, I just have to stop expecting myself to check everything everyday...

[VintageFemme]

new england

[starryeyes]

9 days till I get to go on vacation to Maine and hang out with an awesome person! Ya :-D

[Sassy]

Heading back to work today. Been on furlough for the past week. Had some nice times w/friends. Got some things done around the house. Looking forward getting back to work, I guess. At least, I'm glad I have a job to go back to. But I'm annoyed at the level of uncertainty I face. My department staffing is at a critically low level and has been for some time. I have staff that's going to get screwed on vacation time. And we're all going to be working some long days/weeks to make up for the lack of people. All for a job that won't be here in July. I'm pretty divided as to what to do about the situation. One of my higher ups told me there is a job waiting on me when all of this is over. Do I believe him?

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

This happens every quarter... Classes are back in session and I just don't have the time like I used to. I don't get to post every day and when I do get to come in... My control panel is overflowing with unread threads and it makes it hard to post...

*sigh* I enjoy posting, its therapeutic, and relaxing... I will try to keep coming in, and just... pick a couple to check and post...

I need this place, I just have to stop expecting myself to check everything everyday...

dont be hard on yourself.....it is very relaxing.....and you're really busy...post as you need to....or browse through randomly when you have some time....ive been gone a week and ive missed it ...

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: You might think that it's better to stay quiet now if you don't have something positive to say. However, your current silence communicates more than you realize because others can't help but notice that you're withholding your feelings. There's no need to pretend that everything is okay just so you can avoid making an emotional scene. Instead, be as honest as you can and just tell the truth as you see it.

[WolfyOne]

Some days sadness seeps in, yet all I can do is keep moving forward
I try not to process the sadness because when I do, it puts me in a depressive state of mind
Work, eat, sleep, computer time and TV seems to be life these days
Wishing I had friends nearby that I could do things with every now and again
Heck, just hanging out and doing nothing would be nice
Knowing someone is in the same room/house would make my day

Can't wait for the cold to leave and scout out a fishing hole around here
A lady I ran into at a store told me of a place I can river fish on a pier
I also found out besides a state fishing license, I need a city permit, too :|

[Blue_Daddy-O]

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[StoneOne]

or lack of it

[Sassy]

Why do I keep beating my head against my desk? Because it feels so good when I stop.

[girl_dee]

Bedtime! Nite Nite Planet!

[Skittlesluver]

Looking forward to a great weekend! :rainbowAfro:

[apretty]

i got new toms today and a big bra--from nordstrom.

my toms are actually also big as i have a large back paw.

also, i initiated e and me reading 'hunger games' together but then, e fell asleep and read ahead about 20 chapters so now i'm not sure if i should let e know--since last time we tried to read something 'together' i did the same thing--read it all in one night and e said that i'd do that this time and i swore up and down that i would not--i was even a little (pretend) insulted that he thought i couldn't control my greedy-reader ways.... poo. e came up behind me and read this.

:(

[GPS]

I never realized that I would love my new iPad as much as I do. Now I'm looking for a new Mac lol

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

all amazing things....love....plans....all the little things.....

[sylvie]

Mr Mtn watching local news tonight, and hearing of a woman and her baby being carried off in a flood there in Northern Oregon.. The image of that is in my mind still, and is so very heartbreaking.. =(

It makes me think, of how precious each day is - how things should never be taken for granted.. Enjoy each day , each moment, the people we love surrounding us because truly, our time together is a blessing.. One just never knows what tomorrow brings..

Definitely keeping that family in my thoughts, how tragic it must be for them & hugging these children snuggled in their beds tight tonight for both Mtn & i.. Such a special family we have, between us - all Our children combined, two cutiepie furbabies & friends we love so.. i count my blessings, indeed tonight.. ♥

[JustLovelyJenn]

all amazing things....love....plans....all the little things.....

All the little things... and the big things too... so many plans... and so much joy...

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

All the little things... and the big things too... so many plans... and so much joy...


the compass knows the direction :)

[Library_girl]

Friendship....assessing friendship. Evaluating relationships with long-time friends is a tough thing. Why do I feel closer to someone I've known for a few months, than I do to my "close friend" who I've known for 7 years? Something is wrong with that picture. Seriously wrong. I don't feel happy or good when I talk to her, and sometimes it's even a challenge to have fun when we spend time together. She takes forever to return my calls & texts (if at all). So I've started to distance myself just a little. And I don't think she has even noticed. I want to have good friendships with positive, wonderful people. But ending a friendship is a drastic step.

So this is what's on my mind. :thinking:

[Kenna]

I feel claustrophobic today....(nothing negative, just bothers me some days and not others)... and, I have a love hate thing with water (my uncle used to try to smother us when he washed our hair)....my bath water didn't feel good this morning, so I didn't soak long... wonder what it would be like to soak in a chocolate spa at Hershey? Or a mud bath at Hot Springs? :)

[smouldering]

A lot of things, worried about if in the next few months will i be able to move where i want to move, and getting everything caught up.
On the upside I am glad it is the weekend and tomorrow I get to sleep in and relax.

[Daktari]

...wondering where my mind has gone :sunglass:

[JustLovelyJenn]

How am I supposed to keep a seven year old ninja stealth specialist out of goodies and sweets at 4:30 in the morning when I was up doing homework and trying to wind down till midnight?

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

How am I supposed to keep a seven year old ninja stealth specialist out of goodies and sweets at 4:30 in the morning when I was up doing homework and trying to wind down till midnight?

we have what it takes to get through this.....i hope the new plan will start soon and you'll start noticing some improvement.....for the record though...i love staying up with you and just ...talking about whatever comes 2 mind

[grenade]

I'm on a work appointment and my tricep is spasming. It's driving me nuts.

[Sassy]

My newest staff member just gave notice, sort of. Tomorrow is his last day. I don't blame him for bailing. The job he is leaving is only temporary through July. He's taking a 3 year contract job in a different part of the state and his start date for his new job is in 2 weeks, so he has to find a new place and move. I get it. I'm just really annoyed. I just got him trained to the point he's reliable. ... Pardon my pity party. It's a helluva way to start the work day. :(

[Gemme]

My newest staff member just gave notice, sort of. Tomorrow is his last day. I don't blame him for bailing. The job he is leaving is only temporary through July. He's taking a 3 year contract job in a different part of the state and his start date for his new job is in 2 weeks, so he has to find a new place and move. I get it. I'm just really annoyed. I just got him trained to the point he's reliable. ... Pardon my pity party. It's a helluva way to start the work day. :(

I'm in the midst of training someone. Someone's who's just not getting it and when the dots are connected one day, they are completely forgotten the next.

*sigh*

That sucks for you. I hope you find someone soon.

[adorable]

I went to dinner tonight with my BFF of 20 years. I love her more than words. She was diagnosed last year with breast cancer. It's amazing to me how for so many years, I never knew anyone with cancer and then - I literally lost three people I cared deeply about to cancer last year and four friends were newly diagnosed all within a matter of months. Somehow buying something pink just doesn't cut it. It's a powerless feeling.
A diagnosis of fear. Truly.

[Legendryder]

I am a bit nervous about my interview tomorrow. It has been many years since I have had to look for a job and I am out of practice. I am glad it isn't until 3pm, so at least I will have the time to sleep in if I can't drop off tonight.

[girl_dee]

How good my reality feels.

[Honey]

How to get Mr. Bob Villa to come and fix This Old House

[1QuirkyKiwi]

You can tell a lot about a person from their home décor and the things adorning their walls and display cabinets; my walls are covered with various tribal wooden carvings and artworks from NZ (ancestral), Africa and Asia, along with decorative plates and hand embroideries….my cabinets with ornaments from my travels, etc.

My home looks like a small Museum entwined with feminine Shabby Chic and what seem like a gazillion cushions and hand embroidered blankets. My dinning room looks more like an Arts and sewing studio than a place for actually eating! LOL!

Ks’ home is a complete contrast to mine; nicely decorated in white (it felt a little like sitting in a posh snow blizzard! LOL!), and the walls have pictures hanging symmetrically. Her ornaments placed almost regimentally (it’s easy to see hy was an Army Medic for 25 years! LOL! No wonder the patients don’t give her any hassle, lol!). I felt a little nervous having lunch there yesterday in case I accidently spilt my tea, lol!

We are complete opposites of each other, yet, we share, believe and feel the same about things, only, we come at them from different perspectives….maybe opposites really do attract!

[~Bo]

Hearing that JoePa's condition has worsened. :(


JoePa :candle:

[Random]

I'm in the midst of training someone. Someone's who's just not getting it and when the dots are connected one day, they are completely forgotten the next.

*sigh*

That sucks for you. I hope you find someone soon.

You should have hired me... I'm sure the communte isn't as bad as everyone says...

:|

[Random]

So....

Over the years, I have had a lover or two allude to the fact that I present a bit more butch than they would like.

Frankly it's fucked with my head quite a bit... (Cause in my head I am a lil raggamuffin doll with yarn hair and drooping sox... I don't feel butch at all.)

I've been working on it NOT fucking with my head for years....

I think some of the work is working....

So... I'm doing some banquet service for cash until I get a full time job...

What does one wear when doing white linen service?

You wear a tux... (no vest thank goodness, all those clothes are hot)

I generally don't do mirrors, but I needed to make sure my bow tie was correct and my shirt things were not all twisted...

I looked into the mirror and saw

Short, short, short, hair,round body, andro glasses, tux, no make up.... and I was ok with it... I saw a woman...

I don't know if it's just I don't care right now, or if I'm finally comfortable with who I am and have stopped wishing to be a carbon copy of my mom...

But it was nice... to see myself dressed like a guy and still feel like a girl...

[JustLovelyJenn]

Lately, what has been on my mind is all the stops along the way to where I am.

August of 2005 I moved in to my parents house with my two kids. My daughter was almost 3 and my baby son had just turned 1 that June. My husband, I had just found out, had been skimming our paychecks to pay for drugs. He was clean again... and the plan then was to find a new job, then send for us.

By October of 2005, I knew I didn't want to go back. I started back to school, and looked for ways to build a new life.

I came out that year as a lesbian. I think I was more surprised then anyone.

I started my first relationship with a woman that spring. I loved her dearly, and to this day we are still close friends. I lived with her for 2 years, she taught me many things, about myself, and about the new world I found myself in the middle of.

Since then there have been a steady stream of wishful possibilities, and all ending with the same result... Wanting me to be someone I wasn't. And in the end I was always too much or not in enough.

A year ago, two people came into my life. They became my friends quickly. Friends with a complicated history and obvious feelings for one another. I talked to each as they expressed their doubts of turning to one another again and I watched as they found the balance they didn't find before.

What I didn't expect was the jealousy of what they had... not because I didn't have it, but because I wasn't involved in it. I had grown to love them both, and in many ways... that love was stronger then the love of a friend.

I said nothing, started dating someone... Someone I shouldn't have. I ignored the red flags about this person, both from my friends, and from my own mind. These two dear friends never left my side, not when I ignored them, accused them, and started to turn away from them...

I finally saw what I was allowing to happen, and ended the manipulation I had not seen was there... and again I had back the wonderful friends that were so much more...

I kept myself at a distance, but found my feelings growing stronger. Not wanting to spoil the love between my friends or the friendship I had built so strong... It was them who broke the barrier... and once the curtain was drawn... I was amazed to see the space in their happiness where I fit perfectly.

Its been more than a month now since my Pirate made me realize that "as you wish" meant "I love you". I have never felt more at peace, or more confident about my life... And not just my relationship. I feel in control and confident in every area of my life. I found balance and joy in this relationship. The three of us, fit perfectly, stronger twisted together, then any of us could ever be alone.

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

Lately, what has been on my mind is all the stops along the way to where I am.

August of 2005 I moved in to my parents house with my two kids. My daughter was almost 3 and my baby son had just turned 1 that June. My husband, I had just found out, had been skimming our paychecks to pay for drugs. He was clean again... and the plan then was to find a new job, then send for us.

By October of 2005, I knew I didn't want to go back. I started back to school, and looked for ways to build a new life.

I came out that year as a lesbian. I think I was more surprised then anyone.

I started my first relationship with a woman that spring. I loved her dearly, and to this day we are still close friends. I lived with her for 2 years, she taught me many things, about myself, and about the new world I found myself in the middle of.

Since then there have been a steady stream of wishful possibilities, and all ending with the same result... Wanting me to be someone I wasn't. And in the end I was always too much or not in enough.

A year ago, two people came into my life. They became my friends quickly. Friends with a complicated history and obvious feelings for one another. I talked to each as they expressed their doubts of turning to one another again and I watched as they found the balance they didn't find before.

What I didn't expect was the jealousy of what they had... not because I didn't have it, but because I wasn't involved in it. I had grown to love them both, and in many ways... that love was stronger then the love of a friend.

I said nothing, started dating someone... Someone I shouldn't have. I ignored the red flags about this person, both from my friends, and from my own mind. These two dear friends never left my side, not when I ignored them, accused them, and started to turn away from them...

I finally saw what I was allowing to happen, and ended the manipulation I had not seen was there... and again I had back the wonderful friends that were so much more...

I kept myself at a distance, but found my feelings growing stronger. Not wanting to spoil the love between my friends or the friendship I had built so strong... It was them who broke the barrier... and once the curtain was drawn... I was amazed to see the space in their happiness where I fit perfectly.

Its been more than a month now since my Pirate made me realize that "as you wish" meant "I love you". I have never felt more at peace, or more confident about my life... And not just my relationship. I feel in control and confident in every area of my life. I found balance and joy in this relationship. The three of us, fit perfectly, stronger twisted together, then any of us could ever be alone.


i love u so much....we both do...and we're never leaving your side.....we will always be family....and you deserve every bit of happiness you found....the past made you stronger....i'll embrace every moment we share with gratitude...true love...and hope for the future we will build together.....YOU are amazing...thank you so much for the love ...and support you have given us in the last year.....you're worth it all....

[Lady Pamela]

Hoping all those in the storm path are safe.

[moxie]

Is it February 16 yet?

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

just a lot of random little thoughts.....about time...family....doctor appts....wishing i could go shopping with you both at the moment....how intense this book is....and that i might need chocolate by the end of the night....

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

..and of course....how it would feel to have your hand in mine...that thought has stayed all day...

[Kenna]

Thinking about all the kids in the program I work for, my son and his half brother that all suffer from abandonment issues... I wonder if my son and his brother can ever get past what their father did and how he dumped them for his selfish agenda... young kids are so impressionable. Every day I take care of kids that make an impression on me... I share hope with them and let them know that they are not alone... I remind myself that I'm in it for the kids....

[asphaltcowboi]

Remember: Cell Phone Numbers Go Public this month.
REMINDER..... all cell phone numbers are being released to telemarketing companies and you will start to receive sales calls.

.... YOU WILL BE CHARGED (from your minutes) FOR THESE CALLS

To prevent this, call the following number from your cell phone: 888-382-1222.
It is the National DO NOT CALL list It will only take a minute of your time.. It blocks your number for five years. You must call from the cell phone or home phone number you want to have blocked.
You cannot call from a different phone number.

[adorable]

Lately, I find myself going to bed thinking, and thinking while I'm lying there and then I get up when the alarm goes of, still thinking. I have no idea if I actually slept or not.

[Vlasta]

hmm .... today I found very small lump in my breast and I have a little pain in my armpit . I am sitting here and I know , right now I can't tell my son and his family . We just have been trough a traumatic situation and they would go crazy , chase me to a doctor and I am sick and tired of doctors since my health haven't been so good for the past two years .
I know this sounds selfish , since I have grandchildren and I would love to be in they lives , it could be really nothing, so I will just monitor , keep my mouth shot and see .

Back in 90's I used to go to help on oncology unit, since I am certified to hang a chemo and back then I promised myself, I wouldn't go through radiation or chemo. It was really sad , emotional when you get attached to patients and they passed . As I said , call me crazy , but I am firm believer after all my life in medical field when it's your time to go , you will no matter where are you or what you are doing .

I couldn't post this on the Czech boards or tell my friends, because they would act the same and I am not going to a doctor . I can't even think to have other surgery . So , right now it's not big deal and I will see .

thank you for reading my post , it feels like I needed to get it out somewhere .

Vlasta

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: Although you are often restless at work and in love, you may want to have quiet time away from the maddening crowds today. However, the Moon's visit to your 4th House of Home and Family might not be sufficient to completely take your mind off the greater world of possibilities. Although you like the idea of pulling back socially now, you aren't eager to isolate yourself or alienate others. Acknowledging that your current dilemma is temporarily irresolvable enables you to enjoy your day for what it is.

... so what I just heard the universe say was: "Accept and embrace the discomfort that is life. PS Have a nice day." *laughs*

[smouldering]

A lot of things really, just some random thoughts, realizations you name it...

Things go on sometimes that we aren't even aware of until it slaps us in the face.
I have learned to let go of the things that I cannot control, and concentrate on me.
2012 is supposed to be a year for change.. I am going to embrace these changes and surround myself with positive energy. I have made a lot of mistakes over the past year, trusting in people I shouldn't have, not saying no or enough when I should have, I have experienced things I would rather not have to go through again.
So this year I am going to let go, I am going to work on bettering things for myself and my family and I am not going to allow anyone to drag me down or pull me into their drama.
I am going to live my life as positive and as authentic as I can and not worry about the past, It is done and it cannot be changed. I have to live for today, tomorrow and the future. :rrose:

[VintageFemme]

Pinky: "Gee, Brain, what do you want to do today?"
The Brain: "The same thing we do every day, Pinky—try to take over the world!"

[girl_dee]

How good it feels to be up outta bed...

[Leigh]

I've done alot of thinking about things that have happened over the past two weeks, from starting to lose weight to losing 10 lbs in almost two weeks to losing two supposed friends who decided they would stab me in the back. Its taken me awhile to finally realize that I cannot control everything or change things that are not able to be changed, so my attitude is that right now its my time to shine and those who do not fit into my life need not be there. Going to the gym and losing those 10 lbs already are showing me that if I put my mind to things I can do anything that I want to, and to never doubt what I can do - I can do anything, I've just gotta do them.

Reading the post that my friend smouldering made earlier really hit a chord with me - I've always put everyone first and worried more about them than I did about me which is a big reason why I am the way that I am. I've made more mistakes in my life than I can count and I'm not nearly perfect, but I'm only human and I will make mistakes for as long as I am here. I am learning to accept my flaws and realize that the mistakes that I make will only make me stronger in the end - I am not responsible for what other people think of me, I am only responsible for how I think of myself. Others opinion of me are theirs and theirs alone, I can't change that but I can change how I think of myself and be more positive about myself.

I've learned alot about myself in 2 to 3 months of soul searching, and especially these last two weeks through everything that I've had to deal with. I can finally look in the mirror and see someone that I am becoming proud of; I'm seeing someone who is taking responsibility for her actions and becoming a healthier human being. I'm alot stronger than I ever gave myself credit for and even though it took almost 32 years to figure all of this out, there is obviously a reason for it and I will embrace that proudly. This is my year to truly break out of my shell and create my own life, its about time and I know now that I can do it where as before I had the belief that I couldn't do it ......... see how much you can learn about yourself in such a short time? :D

[starryeyes]

All the stuff I need to do today! Ugh!

[1QuirkyKiwi]

I was highly recommended by the manager of the Disabled Arts Studio to a facility that cares for the terminally ill. The facility was eager to meet with me from the recommendation and after chatting with me on the phone.

Both the manager and I were open and upfront about my SB. At the meeting today it was obvious that they hadn’t paid any notice to this and were a little taken aback by it….I’ve never let it stop me from living my life.

I also faced, to a slightly lesser degree, discrimination because I’m a BBW. This niggled me because many of the staff there were also BBWs! I was asked where I bought my clothes; they all said how they would like to wear more elegant clothing….I explained that I make most of my own clothes. That didn’t appear to go down well!

At the end of the meeting, I was told that I’m: “Perhaps too overly qualified for the position and they didn’t want me getting bored there!” My motivation would have been encouraging the patients in their Arts and Crafts activities and seeing them enjoying themselves as they create things for their loved ones. In the 12 years I’ve been volunteering as an Arts Co-ordinator, I’ve never been bored, yet, I’ve always loved seeing the artworks created and spending time with the people.

So much for them being an equal opportunities employer! The hypocrisy was blatant!

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

what i am always thinking of...you...us...all of us together.....
the little things i have to do...
the big things i have to do so i can see you.....
unconditional love.....
holding your hand just as im now holding hers...
weekends with movies and cuddles with the kids in bed....
reading time together...... i now need a new book...
what to make for dinner.....and how your day has been/appt has gone....
how long it will take our little one to make a list from the flyers ....
*smiles* ...how ...over this last yr...for the first time in a really really long time...ive felt alive....sure....loved....accepted....embraced.... ..ready...

[Sassy]

Today I was reminded that some people really aren't capable of being decent human beings. They can pretend politeness if they're trying to get something from you, and that's the extent of their capacity for decency. As soon as they get what they want they revert back to their pattern of belittling your intelligence and general f#ckwaddery. Thank you Universe for that reminder. :)

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

valentines day.....and how special it is this year....not that every other day isnt just as wonderful....but its def a first...

[Sassy]

Counting down the days to potential unemployment made me nauseous today. 5 months. 10 pay days. Just 10 pay days left to try to pay off all of my debt and figure out what the hell I'm going to do with my life.... My mind started to spin a little mantra that went something like this: ohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakoh frakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfr akohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrak ohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakoh frakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfr akohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrak ohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakoh frakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfr akohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrak ohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakoh frakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrakohfr akohfrakohfrakohfrakohfrak................

[chrisbutch]

are you just with me to be with a woman?? is it just sex? or do you really want to be with ME??

[luv2luvgirls]

there is a reason for everything and I just need to let go. Stop looking for it and just accept it :)

like the quote says it is what it is

[Dominique]

The custom car show comes to town tonite. I love those muscle cars of yester-year. I enjoy this more than the auto show.

Want to talk about being *out of place?* oh well.

[Kenna]

Breathe ....relax.... breathe ....relax.... chant to self " you will make it through today
...you will make it through today...".... damn I hate yearly employment evals.... breathe .... relax.... breathe ... before passing out from turning blue ...

On another note... it's a beautiful sunny day and I can't wait to blow outa this place!

[girl_dee]

selling photos.... gonna get busy with it again.

[Legendryder]

Why is it that when you do FINALLY find a job, you get a bunch of other places trying to give you a job, which you already now have? WTH!!!!

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: You might get so excited about breaking out of your normal routine today that you completely forget about fulfilling a previous promise. Take time to quiet your mind so you can hear the meaningful message that's coming from your subconscious. Don't be so cavalier that you disregard the symbolism of a dream or fantasy. Everything that enters your awareness now contains clues about your life's purpose. In the realm of love, dreams aren't just romantic flights of fancy, they can hold important clues today. Pay attention to the messages you get from your hidden realm now.

[smouldering]

What is on my mind is meditation, so there isn't so much on my mind lol

La de da!!

[sylvie]

A situation that happened to me yesterday.
As a single mother of two over the years, i fell into a rut.
i didn't work, i was on the system, & life was difficult back then.
Finding my way OUT of that rut, was even harder. But i DID it!
Today, i work full-time, and am pulling my life together more & more each day.
i feel blessed, & life is good.. i still don't have much, but i love & appreciate the things i have as though they're the most precious treasures in this world.. i'm always grateful, everyday!

Yesterday, i got upset - SO upset..
As an honest woman who's made so many changes to her life, to pull herself up (without ANY encouragement or help from the system) - i want to pay it forward and help women in poverty, but also i need to pursue what made me angry, because it simply isn't fair.

They really pick on the wrong people, just sayin'.. i was simply a single mother of two, who was trying to feed her children each month and maintain a warm place to live.. We didn't have a lot, and i didn't ask for much.. And i did everything fair & honest .. This was a mistake of a case worker, but regardless of who's fault it was, it's me who pays.. & dearly at that.

i'm really disappointed & doing what they want of me - but i am working on a way to make this change... Something needs to change for someone one day in the future !

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

bedtime...and hearing your voice

[Vlasta]

hmm .... today I found very small lump in my breast and I have a little pain in my armpit . I am sitting here and I know , right now I can't tell my son and his family . We just have been trough a traumatic situation and they would go crazy , chase me to a doctor and I am sick and tired of doctors since my health haven't been so good for the past two years .
I know this sounds selfish , since I have grandchildren and I would love to be in they lives , it could be really nothing, so I will just monitor , keep my mouth shot and see .

Back in 90's I used to go to help on oncology unit, since I am certified to hang a chemo and back then I promised myself, I wouldn't go through radiation or chemo. It was really sad , emotional when you get attached to patients and they passed . As I said , call me crazy , but I am firm believer after all my life in medical field when it's your time to go , you will no matter where are you or what you are doing .

I couldn't post this on the Czech boards or tell my friends, because they would act the same and I am not going to a doctor . I can't even think to have other surgery . So , right now it's not big deal and I will see .

thank you for reading my post , it feels like I needed to get it out somewhere .

Vlasta



Since everyone was thinking I am crazy , lump it's gone . I have been slacking on my estrogen and started back on . I have a fibrocystic breast anyway , so it was just flare from lack of not taking my medication . I am happy I didn't riled up my family and friends . I am sick of my own drama rama things . It seems to me one thing ends and something else it's coming through my door .

[girl_dee]

Since everyone was thinking I am crazy , lump it's gone . I have been slacking on my estrogen and started back on . I have a fibrocystic breast anyway , so it was just flare from lack of not taking my medication . I am happy I didn't riled up my family and friends . I am sick of my own drama rama things . It seems to me one thing ends and something else it's coming through my door .

this happened to me too, you aren't crazy, it is SCARY.

My *lump* dissolved during the biopsy, but up until that point it scared me greatly :(

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

....lots of little things....vday...budgets....errands to run....what to do first.....you....us...family...laughter....holding you tight....coffee.....cleaning.....spending time with our little one.....all of the little things we wanna do.....all of the things we WILL do *smiles* ....your scent.....the kids funny faces....big changes....dr. appts ....our date night...

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

those 3 words...

[girl_dee]

How much i love old typewriters

I saw one somehwhat old today and i remembered an old Royal that
I got to play with for a while, coolest piece of machinery ever.

[Mr Nice Guy]

It be really nice to find a down to earth Femme. Someone who's sweet, kind and just an all around nice person. :)

[Sassy]

It never occurred to me that it was possible for a human being to complain that much ... But evidently if you put your mind to it, anything is, indeed, freaking possible. *grumpgrumpgrump*

[girl_dee]

How good this decaf is with a wonderful shot of Baileys!

[Mr Nice Guy]

I don't want to walk the dog out in the cold. But she has to go and I love her. Heck, if I can work out in it then I sure as hell can walk her. I'm just being lazy.

[spritzerJ]

Thinking about doors. Thinking about those who have held open doors for me quietly, held them open with a flourish and bow, those that surrounded doors and cheered me through them. Those that walked through doors without me. Those that will walk with me through doors yet to come to.

[Skittlesluver]

About a hundred different thoughts lol :) too much to deal with today :|

[Countyfem]

Moving. which means going thru 13 years of things, separating mine from hers, As I'm moving to my new home (hopefully next week!) she is moving back into this house I now consider it just a house, it has not been a home for a long long time. I'm not sad about it, it feels good to finally be done with it all. We plan on putting it on the market in March I hope it sells quickly, this house is the last link between us. We parted as friends and there have been no hard feelings on either side but I have still felt in limbo for the past year.

[SoulShineFemme]

So many things looming on the horizon....

[ruby_woo]

My moving day is February 1- my movers will be here at 8am, Ikea will be delivering my new furniture the same day between 1-5pm, and the cable/internet company will be coming between 4-6pm. So much to do still...

[AtLast]

I just found out that a close friend is very ill. I'm numb at the moment. I know I will come out of the numbness and be there for her throughout. But, tonight I just need to be numb so I get the courage up to face this outside of myself to be as good of friend as she has always been to me.

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

mmm...wondering how your day is....what you're thinking of....how our kids did in school today....if the monster will want food soon.....

[Mr Nice Guy]

Bruised, battered and tired. Damn!!! My job is killing me. Lol

[ButchEire]

It takes a lot, but i'm pissed. My best friend,attempting to provide advice on how to dress for a job interview, suggests that I try to look "pretty" and wear a "blouse." First off, i've never blown a job interview. Second, i've never given him the slightest impression that i'm even remotely female. I'm pissed and yet, can't really say much right now until this job is in the proverbial bag, I have insurance and can begin transitioning. I don't throw f-bombs around, but this evening, I am.

[Ryobi]

Death and Birthdays. I didn't realize until a few days ago, the 3 deaths in my life in 2011, were people that had birthdays 3 days in a row in 2012. Today, tomorrow and Thursday. Yes, it happened every year, b-days in a row. They're still in a row, none of them are here to have the celebration. Just feels really weird.

I'm still too pissed off at 2 of them to wish them happy anything.


I love you, mom. Happy Birthday.

[smouldering]

I am thinking about all the stuff that needs to be done, im thinking about moving and hoping its some place where we can just settle down, in 4 years i have moved 3 times and i am just ready to find a place i am confident in calling home.

[SnackTime]

My first major test on Friday

[Gemme]

Moving. Bah. It's right up there with death and divorce in terms of stress. The ironic thing is that I help folks who are moving and/or relocating in one way or another. It's my job, but I. don't. want. to. do. it. for. myself.

Bah.

Luckily, there's less 'stuff' than in previous moves and, this time, it won't be cross country or even cross 'coasts'. It will be within a few miles of the old and new place, thank goodness.

I still don't like it.

The cleaning and sorting and filing and disposing/donating/tossing of one's collected 'things' is a tedious and long task (unless you're a minimalist, which I am not) and then there's the sentimental stuff. The stuff that you start to pack into boxes and totes and whatnot, but the memories are faster than your hands and then you're smiling or crying or both and you realize you've held that one photo for several minutes now.

Rinse, lather, repeat.

I hate moving.

Almost as much as I hate the final cleaning of the old place, which is why we're getting a maid service to do that. Even if it eats up our refunded deposit, it's worth it not to do it.

*me looking on the bright side of a very annoying and dark cloud*

[Massive]

Just one week of not feeling like shite, one week where I can sleep for longer than four hours a day. If it was just having to deal with being sick for most of this year it would be fine, but I've got to deal with all the bullshit the british government's put in place to get all the wasters who are claiming disability back into work, when I've already spent years telling them that I would be working if I could, bunch of fucking wankers...
Thanks, needed that rant :cheesy:

[Rockinonahigh]

I feel for ya,im up at 2:15am cause my back and hip is keeping me up with throbing pain.Im dealing with the medicaid system hear thats really bad about throwing more pain pills at the problem insted of doing something about it,the pain and spazzims have been going down my sciatica from mid back to my tail bone right on down my leg,it burns something awfull and I cant take another pain pill for hours,I try real hard not to take any more meds than I have to..everytime I take a step its like a bear is chewing off my leg and hip the more I walk the worst it is.I hope you find some relief from your problems,we all deserve better from the folks who are suposed to keep us in good health.

[Mr Nice Guy]

What to do about my lost W2's. :(

[Mr Nice Guy]

Ok all set with my W2's. Thanks everyone. On another note, I need help. I never ask for help but I'm doing it now. This is how desperate I am. I need something to ward off all this negativity and help get my chakra in line. I'd look myself but I really want to do this right. I know I can order stuff online but I want to deal with a real person who lives their lives with this kind of stuff. Just something on a rope to wear so I can stop having all these problems. Of course it would help if my mom would move but that won't happen until she finds housing. My year started off not good. I'm tired of being stressed and falling down stairs or losing stuff. Please help. I'd rather it be something made from a Wiccan or someone who knows that stuff So if anyone could help then thanks.

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: You could feel a bit uneasy as the changeable Gemini Moon visits your 7th House of Partnerships. You're not trying to offend anyone, but your need to be honest outweighs any other desires today. If you're not walking your talk now, you'll end up diminishing your spirit. As long as you remember to act compassionately to others, your journey of self-discovery will continue to be a source of inspiration.

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Ouch. Just, ouch. OK, thank you, Universe. I needed that knock on the noggin' ... *sigh*

[Massive]

I feel for ya,im up at 2:15am cause my back and hip is keeping me up with throbing pain.Im dealing with the medicaid system hear thats really bad about throwing more pain pills at the problem insted of doing something about it,the pain and spazzims have been going down my sciatica from mid back to my tail bone right on down my leg,it burns something awfull and I cant take another pain pill for hours,I try real hard not to take any more meds than I have to..everytime I take a step its like a bear is chewing off my leg and hip the more I walk the worst it is.I hope you find some relief from your problems,we all deserve better from the folks who are suposed to keep us in good health.

Thank you my friend, I totally understand where you're coming from there, I've had the same thing too. Have you tried using heat packs or those wheat sacks you heat up in the microwave? They both help me when I'm in pain, so does using those sprays that warm the skin too, or a hot bath/shower when it's easing off when the painkillers kick in? Not sitting or standing for too long can help too, I know it sounds insane, but walking can help even when it's really painful, you seize up completely if you can't stay mobile.
I hope you start feeling better soon too, there's nothing worse than being in chronic pain.

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind right now...

D's mom's test results in less than an hour. We will find out if the radiation worked and what the next step is gonna be. Any & all positive thoughts could really be used right now y'all.

[Novelafemme]

What's on my mind right now...

D's mom's test results in less than an hour. We will find out if the radiation worked and what the next step is gonna be. Any & all positive thoughts could really be used right now y'all.

Sending lots of love and light your way, PinkieLee. I know how stressful the wait can be. :bunchflowers:

[clay]

Sending lots of love and light your way, PinkieLee. I know how stressful the wait can be. :bunchflowers:




Warm white light of energy coming your way, Pinkie...and to D's mom...BIG hugs all of you...Clay

[luv2luvgirls]

life is full of unexpected surprises.. some good and some not.. but its worth the ride!

[Dominique]

I like thinking that I bought a new home, so I wouldn't be bothered with many of those pesky home repairs. It's just shy of twenty years now, and it's no longer new. The pesky repairs are popping up and I'm not nearly as patient as I used to be.:sunglass: Over the weekend, I decieded to investigate why, periodically, the toilet would run. The rubber flapper was all distorted and needed replaced. While at Home Depot, I bought a two tier flush system to install.

The first step to the installation was to turn of the water supply. No problem. Except, I snapped the valve stem right off! Now that needs replaced. I was so ticked off and calling it nice french names, I some how
snapped the bottom of the toilet seat half off. My attempt to remove the rather nice toilet seat (now broken) encountered faux brass bolts that had rusted and the plastic nut is on so tight, the faux brass bolt has to be sawed off with a hack saw blade with barely any room to work....and I really should saw from underneath to avoid scratching the porcelain bowl.

Why didn't I just buy the $4.58 rubber flapper and leave everything alone??? I'm afraid to touch anything right now for fear of what it will lead to next. My ego will not permit me hiring a professional for these pesky repairs..

That bathroom is closed until further notice.

[Soft*Silver]

well, this is a really sensitive topic. I have been having a D/s relationship with a male. His name is Christopher. Christopher has his own apartment. Well, he did until recently. He moved in with me to tend to me while I recovered from my shoulder surgery. While I loved him dearly, I would not commit to being in love with him because I had been hurt one too many times. I wanted a tender D/s relationship and that was all. We negotiated the terms and found what suited us both and agreed upon it.

but while he was tending to me this time, something softened inside me. He had helped me during my stumach surgery as well, but he wasnt living with me. I think because he was here around the clock and because we had developed such an intense D/s relationship, which you know is founded in trust, I felt myself release....

part of me is very puzzled because he is a genetic male. But he is also a budding MtF. He charms me like no one ever has, in a feminine way. Which then compounds the puzzlement. And in the mist of this puzzlement, I have admitted to myself, I am falling in love. Well no, I Am in love. Not what I ever expected but hey....

I still consider myself a lesbian. Many will not consider me as such. And many will not approve of me falling for a man. But, I dated FtMs. I as a lesbian when I dated them. I was a lesbian before I ever had a relationship with a female. In my core, I am a lesbian. I just happened to have fallen in love with a man. A man who is a budding MtF...a damn femme MtF too. Everything about me has turned upside down and inside out. Funny thing tho, if you do that to a pair of pants, they are still a pair of pants. They dont become a shirt. So i am still a lesbian no matter how I turn me.

so...this is what is on my mind. I softened. I am in love. I probably will marry him. We are both poorer than church mice but its better to be poor together than to be on your own and feel vulnerable and anxious on your own...

this too is what I meant when i said my life changed for the better when I turned 55, in a different thread. I have always cared deeply for him but its official now and I can share it with you...I am in love and i am going to get married....but, not in any hurry to do that. Probably not for a few years. Maybe 5. I tend to have cold feet....thats no surprise now is it?

[dixie]

More things than need to be. :seeingstars:

[Massive]

Sleep, I really wish I could be asleep ...
Not sure how long I've been awake now, but I've got to hold out for a little longer yet, why do people arrange meetings early in the morning with insomniacs??

[smouldering]

As of this Friday we will have enough money saved up to move.
What is on my mind is where? Keeping my fingers crossed that a house in my price range either on the outskirts of Cleveland or Akron (preferably in the surrounding country area's) come up for rent around spring time.. If not, I may very well consider a completely different state...

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind right now...

D's mom's test results in less than an hour. We will find out if the radiation worked and what the next step is gonna be. Any & all positive thoughts could really be used right now y'all.

What's on my mind today... continuing positive thinking!

Doctors said that the radiation stopped the growth of the tumor on her throat! As for the spots on her lung & liver, they are wanting to wait a couple of weeks for her to build up some more strength, and she will go through a biopsy program to determine what kind of chemo will work best... all options will be in pill form and won't require her to travel to Houston for treatment!

**thank you for all the reps, comments, & text messages... we appreciate the thoughts, prayers & well wishes more than y'all will ever know**

[ruffryder]

life ..

[TheDreadPirateRoberts]

not a whole lot...but little things.... like how her day was....or what shes thinking.....wonderin if my monster will be out of the bath before dinner gets cold lol....how much i love my family.....how bad i want to visit....knowing im going in the right direction.....your hand in mine....forever...and still being in awe of ow things came together....the intense ...but calm....and completely comfortable nature of our relationship

[Just_G]

My mind is fried and I am so. burnt. out. but ohhh so close! :blink:

Calgon take me away!!

[justkim]

How is it a 19 month old can have us all doing silly dances? So much laughter and love...

[luv2luvgirls]

my poor puppy Delilah... she has been missing for 2 nights now and it snowed and is still snowing.. is she cold I wish she would come home.. my daughter is crying so hard and I cant stop worrying that the pup is cold and hungry.. what if someone finds her that fights dogs.. she is a pit bull and very big for her lil 6 months of age. everything is going thru my mind im so upset over the pup

[smouldering]

Right now finding a place to move seems to be on the forefront of my mind. I want to thank those of you from the bottom of my heart who PMed me or repped me with some really awesome suggestions. Ya'll rock!
Although we do want to stick close to where we are now just now IN town anymore (School and work reasons) Definitely will keep options open if something doesn't pop up around the time that we want to move.

In a way, kind of wanting to start over, Things are so much more positive now then they were last year, and I am looking forward to what the rest of the year brings :)

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: You know where you stand in the world today now that the Moon is in your 10th House of Public Responsibility. You have more confidence about what you're doing at work, but this doesn't mean you should hide any feelings of uncertainty. In fact, sharing your vulnerability now might open a doorway to a beautiful experience with someone very special. Don't let an opportunity get away from you; tell a friend or loved one how important he or she is to you when you have the chance.

[Mr Nice Guy]

Just tired from the day. Going to relax and watch tv. Hang with my pets.

[spritzerJ]

I am thinking what a strange place to be in. all the in betweens and unknowns. the strange struggles of what I think I've figured out not being figured. Yet I am finding more love, more faith and more contentment. I just have no idea what to make of the current life dichotomies.

[Mr Nice Guy]

Why cant I see my friends online? I must of pressed something. Sheesh!

[sylvie]

Not something that comes easy, especially forgiving myself.
Looking back, i am not proud of many things .. Looking back and dwelling is certainly "not" on my list of things to do anymore - however, moving forward for me right now involves revisiting many parts of my past & finding forgiveness for myself & releasing it to the Universe..

i also have amends to make with people i pushed out of my life for unfair reasons.. i was a selfish being and stuck within my disease of being a compulsive overeater/food addict - and isolated myself from reality and i know i have hurt people in the process.. i feel a tremendous guilt for that and know that the roadblock i have hit is because i need to take it to the next level..

So, i'm overwhelmed with emotions, and i know i am in the right mindset about this because i am dealing with the hard honesty with myself and struggling for ways to do this.. to reach out, apologize, explain and even if i get a royal F.U in return, i know that i have done what i needed to release it because i need the peace of mind to move forward again..

This is the maybe the most difficult part of my journey.. And of everyone i know, i am the hardest on myself - earning my own forgiveness will be one difficult task, and when i receive it i'll know i earned it and earned it well..

i want my life back.. ♥ doing that one step at a time.

[ruby_woo]

Work- seeing a position that I really want and have basically been doing for the past year on the 2012 new hire/promotion report.

Life- coming home to my new apartment, and the fact that I will never again be in the one I lived in with my partner for 7 years, still feels surreal. I keep expecting to wake up.

[girl_dee]

Fishing !.............

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: You may feel as if you're climbing the walls today, especially if your creativity is being restrained in any way. You are so eager for action that you could overlook your responsibilities in order to pursue your original ideas. Unfortunately, you are still expected to perform according to the rules; if you don't measure up, your brilliant efforts won't have a chance to shine. Don't quit; your persistence enables you to meet your obligations while also expressing your unique perspective.

[Skittlesluver]

Trying to get over feeling ill today :blink:

[Dominique]

charging starvation indicator :phonegab:

[jac]

Having a hard time containing my excitement :clap:

[Mr Nice Guy]

Trying to decide if I want to retire in 8 years.

[greeneyedgrrl]

my ma....

my apartment inspection that took place this morn sans yours truly...

the work i'm not doing at the moment.... :p

[girl_dee]

How cool it was to walk around town with my well behaved pup in tow both of us enjoying the sun.

Syr relaxing in the car while i got a walk in for my pup and me.

[sylvie]

That i like my gentle spirit..
i don't compliment myself often, but as i walk this journey, i'm finding out i'm not all that bad..*smiles*

i like the way i walk this path, my genuine heart & that i don't lash out when i feel bullied.. i rise above, and wish people peace within, regardless.. & turn my cheek .. Because life is frigging wonderful & dwelling in negativity would be time i can't get back..

It feels great, to be living life again & loving things about me.
To feel worthy, and have some confidence.. And to be passing that on to my daughter - she's loving the confident mom, and learning lots from it too.. Look at her grow!! Loving it.

That makes my heart smile , BIG.

[luv2luvgirls]

ahhh.. I think I can take a deep breath now. My eyes have been opened even more and wow. I am glad for someone who can just tell ya like it is . Makes me really look and its so appreciated

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: Even if you're very upbeat today, you don't seem able to get a handle on what's directly ahead. It's especially challenging if your friends appear to resist your progress instead of encouraging you along. Keep in mind that their real motivation may be to help you get your life together. Listening to the advice you receive now can be just what you need to get your plans back on track.

[Finn]

a certain someone and all that has aspired...

[ruby_woo]

An Amtrak trip down to San Francisco. Hmmm...

[Massive]

It's so cold I can't feel my feet, and I can't work out what on earth my cat is doing to be making so many odd noises :|