What is on your mind

[QueenofSmirks]

Arizona State Ladies Poker Championship tournament this weekend!

[girl_dee]

my Daddi not feeling well, i hate that. :hk27:

[Kelt]

I think there are some things I will never fully understand

I think I am pretty glad about that

[sierragirrl]

people who seek attention of any kind, negative attention..its draining and annoying..i have more pressing matters in my life right now..:seeingstars:

[Duchess]

Cottage cheese w/ blueberries and roasted sunflower seeds.

[Bard]

Desd is freaking out with me being in the boot again and the drive to LR is 12 days I told her with PT I should be in the brace very soon and be A-OK by then cause I just gotta dance with my Wife at the prom:moonstars:

[bright_arrow]

Desd is freaking out with me being in the boot again and the drive to LR is 12 days I told her with PT I should be in the brace very soon and be A-OK by then cause I just gotta dance with my Wife at the prom:moonstars:

I am quite right to freak out, it's a bloody fucking 20 hour drive one way and it is your driving foot :fastdraq:

[RockOn]

Met a friend for what turned into a 2 hour and 45 minute lunch today. Had such a wonderful time! She is "nice people". :)

[Sassy]

Digital Domain closed its doors in Port Saint Lucie, Fla., this past week. A friend of mine was working there. He was the paycheck for his family and now they have nothing. No savings. No income. They rent, so soon, no house. Ouch. The closest family they have is in Missouri. I'm worried about them. I know my friend and if I call and ask him he'll say he's ok. But I've heard from friends just how bleak things are. worry worry worry ...

[Novelafemme]

My first lit review and just how much I have to learn.

:::watching as new information and understanding goes wizzzzzing over her head:::

:blush:

[Tony]

Her. (where you at, darlin'?). ;-)

[Blue_Daddy-O]

So much needing, bleeding in the world. For now on, when I see someone bleeding, I will say to them... Hello, how are you today?

[Leigh]

Realizing that no matter what size that I am, I'm worthy of being loved and cared for; I won't settle for anything less this time :)

[Kätzchen]

Digital Domain closed its doors in Port Saint Lucie, Fla., this past week. A friend of mine was working there. He was the paycheck for his family and now they have nothing. No savings. No income. They rent, so soon, no house. Ouch. The closest family they have is in Missouri. I'm worried about them. I know my friend and if I call and ask him he'll say he's ok. But I've heard from friends just how bleak things are. worry worry worry ...

I hope your friend finds another job soon. Very soon.

I went on an un-paid vacation (lost my job) for about a month and recently just found another job - not the best I was hoping for, but I have a job again.

[DMW]

They Might Be Giants - Spider - YouTube

[little_ms_sunshyne]

So much to do before Thursday! Lesson Plans, PowerPoints, Copies, Subnotes....The list goes on and on!

[bright_arrow]

I need new headphones, mine only have sound in one earbud now.. and watching Disney movies via headphones with a buzz in one ear is hella annoying :|

[DamonK]

I izzzzzz sleepy. I don't know when I get to sleep.

[MissItalianDiva]

More like what isn't on my mind..

[WingsOnFire]

there's a lot on my mind tonight.
Had a wonderful night with Daddy. Sucks I won't see him for 2 weeks.
Lots of preparing for my vacation next week with DamonK. I haven't packed a thing yet.
Wondering if my pups will behave while we are gone. Which they don't always now so that's not gonna happen.
The two wonderful guys in my life and wondering how I got so lucky.

[Abigail Crabby]

On my mind.....

This hellacious cold :|

Wondering if it's going to be over so I get to go to the Reunion....

[CharmingButch25]

Too much is on my mind tonight, I cant sleep,
I dont like feeling vulnerable, its not a familiar feeling
I dont like how im feeling, not in like a omg im gonna kill myself depressed way cuz thats totally not it, its like a good feeling but its unfamiliar, and im not sure where to go with it, or how to understand it,

[Nomad]

what's on my mind is how much i can make myself believe that anything is possible if i just work hard enough and have faith and how wrong i turned out to be.

[DamonK]

Many things.

Much needed time away.

School.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

There are not enough threads to cover everything on My mind the last oh month or so. Especially the last two weeks. Right now this second what is on My mind is the same thing that was when I awoke from My 4 hour slumber (more hours then most lately btw). If I honor someone with the knowledge of My name and that person disrespects Me enough to bring it into a situation where 1 it does NOT belong and/or 2 they did NOT ask first. That person has lost all rights to the knowing Me. Especially if it has happened before.

[CharmingButch25]

On my mind tonight is her... Its keeping me from sleep,
Also tomorrow is on my mind and feeling sick !

[Kenna]

I need a little cabin with a tin roof....

[DMW]

I am a kickin ass! and if i kick ass in this...what about the other stuff i wanna do? If i am good at this cause i have to be...what about what i want to be? Time to just be grateful that i am doing a good job for where i am at. Revival...revival...

[jac]

What's always on my mind the day I have to head back to my cave dwelling and she remains here to be strong and brave and continue on with her General. The fact that we had another amazing visit and packed SO much into 3.5 days. The idea that THIS is what our lives consist of for now... short meaningful visits together till our lives are murged into one and never again will we have to leave the other behind. The romance, the passion, the laughter, the meaningful conversation, the time held in one anothers' arms, looking into each others' eyes, sharing hopes, dreams and our future together.

What's on my mind is her... the woman I have grown to love so very much and love so very deeply!! Yeh that's exactly what's on my mind... My sexi beautiful Spritz!! I love you :heartbeat:

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[morningstar55]

Newly weds
makes me jealous with envy......sigh.......

[DMW]

They Might Be Giants - The Guitar (The Lion Sleeps Tonight) - YouTube

They Might Be Giants-The Statue Got Me High - YouTube

[Greyson]

My mom, my sibs, old family friends and the upcoming service.

[Leigh]

Newly weds
makes me jealous with envy......sigh.......

I hear You on this one hun, so many of my friends and even one of my cousins have gotten engaged lately and its good for them but it bums me out cuz then i realize just how without a partner i truly am :(

[DMW]

Thinking about how much i have to do and how i would like to have 2 of me
today. Wondering if i should just do the easy stuff instead...
Hair cut
Shave
Laundry
And get to some more important stuff later...

[MsTinkerbelly]

These 12 hour work days are killing me!:jester:

[starryeyes]

I am wondering if I can walk into Apple on Friday and get the iPhone 5...

Also, I am wondering if I am ever going to find those dang Diane Von Furstenberg Zia platform sandals in RED size 10 on a site other than Ebay *cringe*

Things that make you go Hmmm...

Anyways... onward!

[Leigh]

This is now on my mind ........

Many years ago, back in the early 80's when I was only 4 or 5 years old, my mom was in a car accident and almost died. If it wasn't for a tow truck driver who stopped and took her to the hospital, I wouldn't have a mom right now and I certainly wouldn't have my sister either. So yesterday my mom was on facebook and saw that two of her friends (people I know also) had a man as a mutual friend ~ a man by the name of Michael. He had the exact same name as the man who drove that tow truck all of those years ago, the same one who saved my mom's life. She sent him a facebook message asking him if he drove a tow truck back in the 80's; he responded back that yes he did and wondered why she was asking. She's responding to him now ............

All I can say is, if this is indeed the man that saved my mom's life all those years ago then I need to meet him someday and thank him for saving her when no one else would stop to even make sure she was okay. How do you think someone like that, the one who gave me the gift of having my mom with me all these years? I don't know, but I hope one day I get to find out :)

[morningstar55]

This is awsm my truck still smells like fresh pikd apples

[Kenna]

some bosses just aren't meant for leadetship roles....
come on 4pm!!

[DMW]

Self respect and the need to give out some space.
Respect for others that i care for here.
Gonna check out of this space for a spell and take a step back.
Got some serious reflection and thinking to do.
No worries for any worriers that may be here.
Honestly, i had to come back to add to this post and let
those that don't know me well that you really don't have to worry.
I am a pretty stable dude.
And for the few that do know me well from here and care for me.
Don't you worry either. I won't be away long.

[Leigh]

On my mind right now .........

My mom got a message back from the gentleman who may have been the tow truck driver who saved her life ~ it is indeed him! :D

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Had a whole long list of everything going on but now all I can think about is your wonderful news leigh!!!! How amazing is that and thank you for sharing it!!!

[Leigh]

Had a whole long list of everything going on but now all I can think about is your wonderful news leigh!!!! How amazing is that and thank you for sharing it!!!

**huggles You**

i know, isn't it amazing? if not for him finding & helping her, she would never have made it!

[Kenna]

I'm trying to resist going to get a messy bacon cheeseburger and crispy tater tots...
it's been the kinda day where that's calling my name ....

I did however get two large bags of clothes together to donate...feeling productive

[Leigh]

Stalking a certain person's posts ~ because its fun & i can *grin*

[spritzerJ]

:moonstars: When hy goes it is so sad. And then I think but that hy was here and we experienced our peace and joy is priceless. I ache when hy is gone and I choose to see this as a blessing. To know and long for what was so much that it drives/focuses me on what will be is a gift. The path to our future together is clear. In our moments together I live the choice of building with hym. In our moments apart I live the choice of working us toward together.

The General moved closer to us all and opened up to hym in her own way this visit. She wanted to know how to describe and tell others about Stoney. I just really feel the overwhelming peace and ease of us all in our time together is remaining consistent and constant so that she flows, we grow and glow.

I love hym and know. :candle: We are family.

[BrutalDaddy]

For the first time in a long, long time I can honestly say that the only thing on my mind is peace and quiet. Yea some random thoughts but nothing frantic or worrying. Just a nice feeling.


Going With The Flow,
Brute.

[WingsOnFire]

there are several things on m mind.... Finally had to give in to the headache and leave the BFP suite....

Something I have been pondering for a very long time. Wondering when does it change? When do the feelings of inadequacies that creep in when you doubt yourself stop creeping? Do they ever? One minute life is great... The next your on an emotional roller coaster. It can really drain you. I am hoping I am on the upward climb of the last rung of the roller coaster. I have made the right decisions lately that benefit my life. Moving to Oregon was the best thing for me. I didn't have to jump that hurtal it just fell away.

When I got my job here I was blown away at what a wonderful job it is. Life is starting to definitely move in the right direction.

Now....to get rid of those creeping feelings of inadequacies that I have had all my life. I am worthy.

[CharmingButch25]

Whats on my mind is pretty sucky right now,

I miss her, I want her here,She is too busy for me, the whole attitude changed and I dont know what I did

Im feeling sick, and really wondering what to do about the future of my health

My little one is on my mind its like she senses i am upset she keeps running over and kissing me

[ruthie14]

Thinking about our friends in Little Rock and remembering our time (some of them) in Vegas! Have fun friends... I sure miss you!

[nycfem]

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[morningstar55]

Bojangles

Cajun chicken on biscuit and a coffee .. yummy

[Random]

My job has lost that new car smell...

Blink

[Nomad]

This is now on my mind ........

Many years ago, back in the early 80's when I was only 4 or 5 years old, my mom was in a car accident and almost died. If it wasn't for a tow truck driver who stopped and took her to the hospital, I wouldn't have a mom right now and I certainly wouldn't have my sister either. So yesterday my mom was on facebook and saw that two of her friends (people I know also) had a man as a mutual friend ~ a man by the name of Michael. He had the exact same name as the man who drove that tow truck all of those years ago, the same one who saved my mom's life. She sent him a facebook message asking him if he drove a tow truck back in the 80's; he responded back that yes he did and wondered why she was asking. She's responding to him now ............

All I can say is, if this is indeed the man that saved my mom's life all those years ago then I need to meet him someday and thank him for saving her when no one else would stop to even make sure she was okay. How do you think someone like that, the one who gave me the gift of having my mom with me all these years? I don't know, but I hope one day I get to find out :)

something along similar lines

my dad was required to use an oxygen tank for about 12 years (COPD). he was driving on the highway once and ended up with a flat tire. being himself, he decided to change the tire despite the summer temperature, the remote location and the addition of a largish O2 tank "following" him around. needless to say, he was affected by the heat and the labor and passed out behind the van, not in full sight of drivers passing by. a Schwann's driver noticed his van and pulled over just in case anyone needed help. that's probably the only reason i got to spend 5 more years with my father. when i finally met the Schwann's driver i couldnt decide whether to hug him or put in an order for a lifetime supply their chocolate peanut butter ice cream.

hey! they work on commission ya know!

[Leigh]

something along similar lines

my dad was required to use an oxygen tank for about 12 years (COPD). he was driving on the highway once and ended up with a flat tire. being himself, he decided to change the tire despite the summer temperature, the remote location and the addition of a largish O2 tank "following" him around. needless to say, he was affected by the heat and the labor and passed out behind the van, not in full sight of drivers passing by. a Schwann's driver noticed his van and pulled over just in case anyone needed help. that's probably the only reason i got to spend 5 more years with my father. when i finally met the Schwann's driver i couldnt decide whether to hug him or put in an order for a lifetime supply their chocolate peanut butter ice cream.

hey! they work on commission ya know!

LOL I'd be in HUGE trouble is I put in for a lifetime supply of ice cream! But that's absolutely amazing that the man found your dad and gave him five more years with you ~ thank goodness for heaven's guardian angels here on earth :)

[bkisbutchenuff]

Changes....seasons change...routines change...most people change and grow with time...some don't...I see this with my family, friends, acquaintances, and at work...

[Leigh]

The Reunion, knowing the true significance of the weekend and how truly bummed I am that I'm missing this :(

[Daktari]

Filling in forms
Reading books
Eating
Dr.Who

[Holly.88]

Leaving and not coming back. It's days like today that make me realise how miserable I am here. It's bad enough that I'm 200+ miles away from Ariel, but when my family pull their usual shit, it reminds me of how desperate I am to be away from them. I just can't handle it anymore. The only time I feel the least bit at peace is when I'm away from here and with Ariel. I need to have that peace all the time and there's no way I'll get it here. I love my family, but I just can't do it anymore.

[WingsOnFire]

I have the most wonderful soulmate. Some days I am not sure how on earth I was ever given the gift of his love. We have had our ups and downs but through it all we have maintained the communication and trust that was needed to overcome any obstacle. I still remember the moment he proposed to me on a quiet star filled night on a street corner under a tree...

I love you baby and I cant wait until the day comes that I get to marry you. I know it was supposed to be this year at the Reunion... and I know that the universe had lots of other plans for us... but just know that the day I walk down the isle with you will be the happiest day of my life... with Unkle Tommi by my side and Unkle Bard at yours...

Baby, have I told you lately that I love you

[CharmingButch25]

Leaving and not coming back. It's days like today that make me realise how miserable I am here. It's bad enough that I'm 200+ miles away from Ariel, but when my family pull their usual shit, it reminds me of how desperate I am to be away from them. I just can't handle it anymore. The only time I feel the least bit at peace is when I'm away from here and with Ariel. I need to have that peace all the time and there's no way I'll get it here. I love my family, but I just can't do it anymore.

I totally understand where your coming from, I love them too, but it's hell some days, the only peace I've felt in years was with her :) so I get it, im thinking of moving also, ill know by Monday if I an

[CharmingButch25]

What is on my mind?? Other people's happiness its so beyond amazing to see :) I love seeing people happy.

What else is on my mind keeping positive hoping I get to move, nothing is keeping me in Oregon anymore!

[sierragirrl]

what is on my mind: all of the doctors appointments that i am going to have coming up..
i am sure my anxiety will kick in for a couple of the tests..i will breathe thru them hopefully that works..
in the long run it is so going to be worth it..i am worth it..

what is also on my mind: knowing that money is so squeeky tight and my dotter is needing fall and winter clothes.

What is also on my mind: is my body still mad at me for sitting <driving9+hrs > and sitting in the docs office waiting over an hour for my appt.my lower back is mush

im old :vigil: :peacelove:

[RockOn]

Just read an Ann Coulter article on Yahoo News. Sometimes I do not understand me at all. Guess I will have to chalk Coulter up as being like a train wreck. To me, she is horrible but like the train wreck, I cannot look away.

[Leigh]

I have the most wonderful soulmate. Some days I am not sure how on earth I was ever given the gift of his love. We have had our ups and downs but through it all we have maintained the communication and trust that was needed to overcome any obstacle. I still remember the moment he proposed to me on a quiet star filled night on a street corner under a tree...

I love you baby and I cant wait until the day comes that I get to marry you. I know it was supposed to be this year at the Reunion... and I know that the universe had lots of other plans for us... but just know that the day I walk down the isle with you will be the happiest day of my life... with Unkle Tommi by my side and Unkle Bard at yours...

Baby, have I told you lately that I love you

Maybe it'll be at next year's Reunion so I can be there? *giggles*

On my mind is the weird phone call I just had; my ex of 2 years ago just called me out of the blue! He tried earlier today and I looked at the number thinking wait I recognize this phone number, dawned on me it could be him but I thought nahhhhhhhhhhhh yeah right it can't be ~ but when he called back a second time and actually left a message, it was exactly who I thought it was! Talk about a shock; he wanted to see how I was doing and it was nice but I was surely reminded why we broke up. He wants to one day meet up for coffee but isn't comfortable doing it yet; I left the ball in his court and told him if he ever wants to meet up I'll leave that choice upto him.

Weird to get that blast from the past, but the conversation closed up a few holes that were left gaping when things ended ~ finally a chance to close that chapter of my life and truly move on :)

[DamonK]

I'm hoping I don't have to turn around and make an emergency trip to Texas. I'm worried. And sad. And hating my training, knowing what to expect. I don't want her to have to watch this again.

[WingsOnFire]

thinking about how sometimes I can do something or say something in a frustrated moment that really hurts someone I care about and how it really sucks that you can't take it back.

[Leigh]

People from the past coming back into my life & wondering why.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

How much I miss asking..Drakar, Polo, Axe, or just me to that special someone when this guy just can not make up his mind. So which should it be... decisions decisions....

[Leigh]

Alix ~ I'd say Drakkar, its my favorite men's cologne besides old spice so I think that's the one You should wear :)

[Talon]

Saying something that I should have kept to myself...Not like me...and I hope I don't live to regret it.

[Nomad]

on my mind right now is wishing i had less to do for other peeps and more time to do for myself. also on my mind is whether or not that makes me selfish? and also also on my mind is the idea that i should get back on the road somehow. i cant shake the pressing urge to cut and run before i can establish any roots. i dont feel at home here. i wasnt even supposed to come to Massachusetts. i was supposed to be in Maine. i keep kicking myself for getting off track. Oregon to Maine, Nomad. Portland to Portland, remember?! what a schlemiel!

i feel like a shark: keep swimming or you run out of air.

[CharmingButch25]

No it doesnt make you selfish, maybe its time to start saying no and put yourself first. always here to listen if you needon my mind right now is wishing i had less to do for other peeps and more time to do for myself. also on my mind is whether or not that makes me selfish? and also also on my mind is the idea that i should get back on the road somehow. i cant shake the pressing urge to cut and run before i can establish any roots. i dont feel at home here. i wasnt even supposed to come to Massachusetts. i was supposed to be in Maine. i keep kicking myself for getting off track. Oregon to Maine, Nomad. Portland to Portland, remember?! what a schlemiel!

i feel like a shark: keep swimming or you run out of air.

[Nomad]

No it doesnt make you selfish, maybe its time to start saying no and put yourself first. always here to listen if you need

hey! thanks "Crazy"!

[CharmingButch25]

hey! thanks "Crazy"!

lol crazy isn't always bad just means I won't be told what to do by others,

[tazz]

my interview for the personal training position is next week tuesday.

this enables me to save~not only for moving out of state up north~but also for the reunion of 2013.

[starryeyes]

A letter that I missed a court date over my toll violation (which was 50 cents, and there was no where to pay it!!) back in 2009... ummm.... does this mean I am wanted in the state of Colorado!? LMAO.

*biting fingernails*

[Nomad]

lol crazy isn't always bad just means I won't be told what to do by others,

who said it was bad? i'm just quoting YOU! :D

[MsTinkerbelly]

How tired I am, and it's only Monday!(w)

[Leigh]

my interview for the personal training position is next week tuesday.

this enables me to save~not only for moving out of state up north~but also for the reunion of 2013.

Yup you gotta be there next year cuz I said so *smirks w/ a giggle*

Kidding but hope you'll be there Tazz :)

[CharmingButch25]

who said it was bad? i'm just quoting YOU! :D

lol alright than crazy isn't bad :)

[Leigh]

lol alright than crazy isn't bad :)

Crazy can be pretty cool, atleast in my opinion :)

[tazz]

Yup you gotta be there next year cuz I said so *smirks w/ a giggle*

Kidding but hope you'll be there Tazz :)

***i WILL be at the reunion 2013 next year!

[Leigh]

Tazz ~ that's a good answer :p

[MissItalianDiva]

Thinking about how sometimes what we need to do and should do is not always what we want to do...interesting how we conflict ourselves sometimes

[jac]

this is just one of those days where i really just need to keep things simple or i may very well rip somebody's head off their shoulders and sh*t right down their neck.... off to bed i go.

[tazz]

A letter that I missed a court date over my toll violation (which was 50 cents, and there was no where to pay it!!) back in 2009... ummm.... does this mean I am wanted in the state of Colorado!? LMAO.

*biting fingernails*

***just means that you have a forever fine... you can either pay it... or don't drive in Colorado... OR next time you get a letter~don't open it... instead cross out your name and put "no such person at this address return to sender" and put it back in the mail.

this happened to me before for a stupid fine i got in NJ...

[Nomad]

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[DamonK]

We are in Phoenix.

Our last flight has been delayed 45 min so far.

[starryeyes]

***just means that you have a forever fine... you can either pay it... or don't drive in Colorado... OR next time you get a letter~don't open it... instead cross out your name and put "no such person at this address return to sender" and put it back in the mail.

this happened to me before for a stupid fine i got in NJ...

Yes, my $.50 toll turned into $47.00. It's all good and I am not a fugitive. Yay! Which is good because I plan on going back to Estes Park at some point in my life :-)

[Leigh]

Lots of things are on my mind but mostly good things! I got a job offer today, which means back into the real world I go :D

[ruffryder]

Reunion memories. All the great people of the Planet! :)

[WingsOnFire]

knowing how badly he is hurting and knowing there isn't a thing I can do about it.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

New beginnings with hym.

[Leigh]

Reading memories from the Reunion, seeing pics from last weekend & exchanging smiles with Planet peeps :)

[DamonK]

My head hurts. I'm nauseous.

I have a ton of homework.

I've not been this unhappy in over 3 years. I was hoping she would be right, but I didn't wake up feeling any different. I hope she rested.

Hiding sounds good.

[Leigh]

Next year's Reunion :)

[Electrocell]

Contemplating if I wouldn't be better off selling my place and moving then none of my exes could find me.

[WingsOnFire]

balance and how best to achieve it....

[asphaltcowboi]

im thinking the the extreem humid weather has finally gone!! time to start ridding again before winter hits.
trying to make my plans for the holidays.. little confusing right now

[Kenna]

how good it feels ... happy and relieved ... to purge so much stuff that i hadn't touched in a year.. to see BUNCHES of empty boxes (some I reused for kitchen glass stuff)... how good it feels to see clean, uncluttered floor in my spare room...to feel those "ugly feelings of memory boxes" get released as I process them and dispose of them as I purge the physical clutter and mental clutter.. how I know when I get set up in my next place that unpacking will be less work/less clutter because of all the work I've done now... how good it feels to be ready to make changes in how I keep things in the future (like be more organized with my papers and important things, rather than letting it build up)... how good it feels to NOT live in a house like my mother kept (where the kitchen was so awful that you couldn't get to the appliances or sink because of all the trash)..my house might be cluttered on times, but never the stressful mountains of trash my mother couldn't let go of..

right now, the amount of work I need to do is stressful and the level of pain in overwhelming ... but I am making progress ...

I've used this as a self discovery time.. a place of bad mental space to transitioning to positive decision to make changes ...

... Now.. I am ready for a walk in the apple orchard and then next spring in the cherry tree groves in D.C.

[Leigh]

Already starting to plan things for the Reunion next year :)

[CharmingButch25]

Falling asleep alone.
Not wanting to be alone
Needing something so badly that's out of reach currently
Trying to be as understanding as I can
Knowing life happens
Waiting for my life to ge back on track
Damn a lot on my mind lol

[DMW]

Coffee...need more and almost lost it out my face cause of Electrocell's post.

Wondering if that dude....is a friend of mine from awhile back?

And ah...mmmmm...some other things. I shouldn't have to ask to have my coffee refilled.

and...all work and no play makes Jack a dull man

[spritzerJ]

Morning routines...
so fragile and yet so important.
the entire day is built upon them and i find it ultra annoying/laughable that we struggle with them so much.
seriously child... it goes like this...
wake up
dress
eat
do hair and teeth
relax until mom is ready (with some cartoons)

I have made it as simple as possible. play along and you will be very happy!

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

The every day things I miss. That person that knows I take my coffee two different ways depending on the time of day. Not being able to sleep but because I am busy watching her sleep. That person that knows that while I am a damn good cook and even enjoy doing it sometimes it is just nice to have my favorite meal waiting for me. The person that knows that I would rather be talking to her then typing this. The every day things that I miss is on my mind. These and others but yeah the every day things maybe then I might be able to sleep.

[RiverRunner]

That I really do appreciate kind people, and it keeps hope alive for humanity just knowing those people still roam this Earth.

[Scuba]

...so many incredible things :)

[Daktari]

Errrm! Fisting workshops and NA meetings. Yeah, go figure huh? :|

[Talon]

Not being able to sleep last night, and what that could mean.

[Two-spirit]

Im a truck driver looking for a local truck driving job..

I was out on the road for 14 months and it was very stressful..Now that I have exp under my belt I was hoping I wouldn't have a hard time finding a job closer to home..I was wrong,everybody either just hired a few new drivers or they want more exp..
I reallly don't want to go back Over The Road..but it looks like i might have to ..

Keep well people,

[MissItalianDiva]

The fact that is is currently 58...cmon sun it's 10am did someone forget to set your alarm clock

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Communication...choosing the right word or words to express myself and not always succeeding at that.

[Tony]

Communication...choosing the right word or words to express myself and not always succeeding at that.

Jeez, I can relate to this. A constant struggle for me.

[Leigh]

I'm always fumbling words or tripping over them ~ its like my brain can't function with my mouth lol

[DamonK]

I'm discovering if I don't think, I don't feel and... That suits me just fine right now.

[spritzerJ]

So much on my mind right now. Work is trying. Folks need to just focus on the kids and it will be so much simpler. I am finding that when I stick up for myself and I am assertive or appear to be assertive then they overreact.

My favorite co worker is having a hard time. She is pregnant and needs folks to give a little room to move. I want to help but I am being stymied. Still trying to come up with ways to be a help.

[luv2luvgirls]

how much I enjoyed reading my poem thread, I havent been in there in awhile and felt good to read those words again

thinking I need to write more, feels good

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Trying to decide if I should decide my own thread...just so I do not have to find the perfect thread to post my thoughts, writings-both erotic and non-erotic. Some where I can gather my thoughts and writings. Communications...again is on my mind...I most be moving into a communication area of my life.... decisions decisions and it is a full moon ugggg

[jac]

The crap that goes on with my disability benefits for my vision or lack thereof and how even when I do what I am supposed to do they still find ways to screw me over. How is it I can report my earnings monthly and I am still having to pay them nearly $200.00 back (out of pocket) for their mistake and they are withholding my check for October? Actually I know how, I had a mediator person that helps to bridge the gap between the little people and them explained it all to me. What I don't get and never will is how it's always two-sided and never ever is it in favor of the little guy. Never! I am so over them and how they operate and especially how they don't...

Thanks to the mediator woman I have working for me. At least none of the letters, notices, and warnings will come as a shock or surprise when I find my P.O. box has blown up with all their crap!

No, this will definitely not be me in the next several days >> :gotmail:

[RiverRunner]

The list I made last night of things I need to accomplish and the timeline they fall in. I have promised Myself that I would not think about all of that on My days off (starting today). But, already I am fighting it hard. I need distraction.

[Scuba]

I'm a hard one to put down but this continual lack of sunny days and overwhelming smoke is starting to take it's toll on me. I'm feeling like a prisoner in my own house these days....

[Leigh]

The future and moving forward :)

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Words... the ones people choose to use with me...the ones I choose to use to communicate my thoughts...perception and how it makes me laugh....words are on my mind right now...and how I rarely regret the words I choose..accept if they hurt someone and then I apologize...words are on my mind and the power behind them....yup moving into a communication phase....thankfully there are more then one way to communicate...

[CharmingButch25]

She is on my mind, I cannot wait to see her tonight!
My little one is being so calm and quiet today she just brought me her blanket and we cuddled and fell back to sleep
That felt so very good!!
I love morning baby cuddles
And a little nervous since I am between doctors and pretty sure I have a kidney stone and know I will most likely end up in the Urgent care by tonight but at least we are lucky enough to have those places to go to and get help

[Miss Scarlett]

An unexpected phone call from my doctor this morning...for some reason i was on his mind and he wanted to check on me...he is absolutely one of the sweetest, most compassionate people i know...so full of encouragement and genuine concern for his patients...a rare find indeed...

[Teddybear]

Im a truck driver looking for a local truck driving job..

I was out on the road for 14 months and it was very stressful..Now that I have exp under my belt I was hoping I wouldn't have a hard time finding a job closer to home..I was wrong,everybody either just hired a few new drivers or they want more exp..
I reallly don't want to go back Over The Road..but it looks like i might have to ..

Keep well people,


There are local or regional jobs in the area and after you have had more then a yr of experience you should be able to find one. Remember that sometimes you have to work shifts that odd with no weekends off to start however getting your foot in the door is the best thing to get off the road

[Leigh]

Good things happening to me :)

[Semantics]

how much I love dark, rainy, secret-filled days.

[Kenna]

thinking I have enough time to rest an hour before busting ass on the last few boxes before my hired help gets here at 5pm...
thinking I pulled my hip outa whack again ..
thinking I just might spike my tea tonight ...

[Ms. Meander]

...because I am cold enough to turn on the heat.

Only yesterday my shoulders were a little sunburned while harvesting flowers. It was hot, working in the sun.
Today it's cold and raining, and my toes are freezing despite wool socks.

I shall now attempt to transport myself, in my mind, to warm flowery days -- and to stay there until April.

http://i1179.photobucket.com/albums/x385/Ms_Meander/harvest.jpg
Be here now.
(I think I'm doing it wrong)

[DamonK]

Homework.
Homework.
Homework.

[WingsOnFire]

Homework.
Homework.
Homework.

hooray for a great score on your first quiz!

[Ginger]

What's on my mind?

All the minutia of moving. Counting, listing, imagining my objects compressed for movement and then expanding in their new space. My new space.

[Nomad]

Contemplating if I wouldn't be better off selling my place and moving then none of my exes could find me.

Coffee...need more and almost lost it out my face cause of Electrocell's post.

Wondering if that dude....is a friend of mine from awhile back?

And ah...mmmmm...some other things. I shouldn't have to ask to have my coffee refilled.

and...all work and no play makes Jack a dull man


maybe you could find a place together and back each other up in fending off the ex's.

[jac]

what is on my mind...

is that girl that comes in periodically here lately and has oh so much on her life plate. i have to say that her story is, by far, the worst i think i have heard since i have been working with the shelter... and i have heard some doozies.

this is where it gets hearbreaking...
they really don't deserve all this suffering :sigh:

[Daktari]

Recovery
Friendship
Family
Compassion
Humility
Honesty
Love
Gratitude
Insomnia
Acting out
Righteous indignation
Blokes allowing themselves to show deep emotion in public even when they try not to ...Go you Rob, go!!


Think that's it for this evening.

[bkisbutchenuff]

Stuff, stuff and more stuff....did I mention stuff????

[Electrocell]

maybe you could find a place together and back each other up in fending off the ex's.

LOL sorry was in a bad state of mind that day. As far as I know I don't know DMW.

[laruss]

What do I want to be when I grow up.
Why have I not finished my degree.
What next.
Where to.

[Nomad]

LOL sorry was in a bad state of mind that day. As far as I know I don't know DMW.

i was thinking that you could arrange a team approach maybe. take turns coming up with strategies for avoiding unwanted types and keeping one another out of the clutches of the ex's.

[Electrocell]

i was thinking that you could arrange a team approach maybe. take turns coming up with strategies for avoiding unwanted types and keeping one another out of the clutches of the ex's.

LMAO that just might work.

[RockOn]

I talked with a dog trainer this past week. He told me specifics on what I need to do. My female mixed bully acted the ass last Sunday at a park festival for dogs. Found out she is terribly aggressive and hostile towards other dogs. It was scary. I unhooked the lease coupler. My friend took my other dog, Kevin. A toddler could walk him. We left in thirty minutes. I am a strong person but I was totally worn out - especially my back, arms and shoulders.

Kelly is loving and affectionate towards people. And it is a blessing she loves Kevin. Kevin is a gentle giant mastiff-bully mix and twice the weight of Kelly. Not tall but massive. Kevin worships Kelly. He has a "whatever" personality, is happy and well-behaved regardless of circumstances. He always immediately does anything I ask of him. We are so lucky to have Kevin. His disposition blends perfectly with Kelly's.

This has been heavy on my mind since last Sunday. The trainer told me it will take a long time and probably the improvement will not be 100% but can be a great deal better. Scott said I must be consistent and patient over this long haul. I'm willing. I want us to be a happy family unit at the dog events. No one had fun last Sunday.

We'll get it worked out. :)

[RiverRunner]

That I am truly trying to keep the thoughts of next week at bay and it is not working. After I logged off last night, I looked at My daunting lists. Then a friend caught Me on the phone and we started talking about it and brainstorming ideas. sighs. I swear to the gods above (or below), I am NOT going to go there in My head today. I need a day to let all things flow in and out and just have fun for a change.

As the Cranberries once sang "today is the greatest day I've ever known"
(atleast I think it was them)

[GreeneyedMe]

How good this coffee tastes....must have more.

The trees are stunning....fall is in full bloom here.

Thinking it's time to go get some apples....warm Apple Pie with Vanilla Ice Cream melting all over it....mmmmmmmm.

Would love to be taking a walk with the leaves crunching under my feet...... and......with a hot handsome butch holding my hand......

[DMW]

Nah, i don't think i know you Electrocell. I was talking about someone else in my post...but, that is very funny. What both of you said.

I think i know why this little piggy does the wee wee wee all the way home.... cause i am pretty sure i just broke mine on the damn card table....can't bend it at the knuckle.
So,
this little piggy went to market...this little piggy stayed home...this little piggy had roast beef...and one little piggy had none...and this little baby DMW...goes OMF :seeingstars:how could that little wee wee piggy toe keep hurting so bad when i walk? amputate... cut it off now. like a bad tooth.
I have broken other stuff and a big toe before. this one is odd. it is what it is...can't do nothin' for this...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7lu81z2E6pE&feature=player_embedded#!

Hell, at least it is just a toe and i can walk. I walkin' a little like a jive talkin' ... do a little dance, make a little love, get down tonight...

[RiverRunner]

To keep rubbing the stone.

A kindred spirit.

Let Me get through this coming week.

Self exploration should be a given. even in the smallest of things.

[Medusa]

Today = More studying, food menu planning for this week, drinking tons of water to get the crud worked out of my system, listening to an audiobook, and snuggling with the doggeh.


I need me a plate of crab rangoons and some comfort.

[Hollylane]

I'm just sitting here sipping my coffee, enjoying the memories of a wonderful day yesterday, and I am feeling immensely grateful for our love.

[clay]

Just how precious life is....yet how fragile it can be at times...yet always smiling, seeing all those beautiful people here...who all danced as one huge CHOSEN family of love at the Reunion...THAT gave me goosebumps and made my heart smile...they found love in that hopeless place...yeah.....THAT is what I am thinking about! You all are so beautiful...you touched me and my soul..way down here...I heart you each and every one!!

[Tony]

This absolutely beautiful weather. My favorite time of year. Wish I could live somewhere with this current climate year round.

[laruss]

I just sat through a 3 hour board meeting that really should have scared me off of joining, but in reality I just want to get in there and fix them. Oh my god they need my help.
Yesterday I went through their bylaws (18 painful pages) and every page had scribbles of revisions.
How did they stay running for 30 years?

[Leigh]

Just thinking about the future & plans for eventually moving out

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind...

Our first early fall cool front finally moved into Texas yesterday. The sun is shining bright & the breeze feels so good. All I wanna do is play hooky from work, go home, open my windows & put out all my Halloween decorations :)

Since the boss man likes to keep me at work, I'll just enjoy another cup of pumpkin spice coffee!

[starryeyes]

What's on my mind..

The fun weekend I had... Getting together with some amazing BF peeps, the great dinner and conversations!

Seeing the work that my best friend has put into getting our field unionized. Her amazing heart and soul and dedication to the field. Signing my name on the union card and taking that first step. Knowing that my terp family isn't going to suffer and injur themselves trying to meet unrealistic/cruel expectations if/when we get this union formed. I want to be like her and make changes like this. She is an admirable woman. <3

Being with my babe at the Jason Mraz concert, and *finally* (it was the last song) danced to our song. Well, tried to anyways. The grass was uneven and our feet kept getting stuck. So, we gave up ( to the song "I won't give up" lol) and just hugged. It was a memory for the bank :)

[bkisbutchenuff]

Looks like the closing will happen this week on my Dad's house I inherited....what a roller coaster ride it has been for the last 6 yrs. Can't believe I will have closure as of Thursday...I think I'm going to feel a burden lifted off my shoulders that I can only imagine right now....

[Talon]

Just the joyous weekend that I spent with my neice...I cooked her favorite meal and dessert from scratch. We hung out and talked about everything under the sun, all weekend long. It felt so good to have that quality time with her, we are alike in so many ways...
She's my darling sweetheart...:sparklyheart:

[Bard]

fixing up our home to be just the way we want it doing all of this with my lovely wife seeing the sparkle in her eyes when she talk about how we can decorate the house for Christmas.. cuddles with Jules at night and playing with Phoebe an Gracie in the morning when I take them out.. I am such a lucky guy

[cinnamongrrl]

Trying to figure out if we move south before or after I'm done with school....

Missing my nearly 3 years gone doggie today....a lot...guess it's the weather and all the hikes we used to take...seeing her in the passenger seat was such the norm....and today I heard a song...and it just made me feel like she was there...for 3 seconds...and then I looked over...and of course she wasn't. I bawled nearly the entire way to work....

Greatly looking forward to our trip to Salem later this month....and to NY in a couple weeks....I've been longing for the open road. I have a gypsy soul that cant be quieted....

Wondering if Teddy's idea of going over the road as a driving team would satisfy that traveling urge....one day I long for roots...the next day I want to fly...if I were Freudian I would wonder what Freud would say.....but that's a big IF

I'm very worried about a friend of mine....she's having a rough time and I feel helpless to be of any good to her....one minute I feel her reaching out and the next I feel her pull away again...nothing to do but love her no matter what....I just hope she realizes that....

[DMW]

toe doesn't hurt as bad as the rest of a wacked out body from limpin and walkin around like a fuckin weeble wobble... why the hell am i so fucking NICE..



not you 2 ...you wouldn't know the answer to that ? in that thread if it smacked you in the face...
seriously

[MaggieBluIze]

Lots ...

Going to try my best to shut them down ...
Will read for a bit and hope that takes the thoughts away so I can sleep.

Sweetest dreams to everyone!!!!

[Leigh]

Thinking about my new job tomorrow and how i'm lucky to have gotten this knowing earlier this year my uncle applied at the same store and never even got a call for an interview so i am blessed for sure :)

[deb0670]

Seeing how my friends are suffering in one way or another, whether it be due to sickness, finances or what have you and not having the means or ability to help them, really hurts. I know i am not Wonder Woman, but, it still would be awesome to help somehow.

[jac]

What's on my mind....

Dowloading new music for my ipod this evening.

Sleeping in those new flannel sheets tonight. Hey, don't hate, a gy's gotta keep warm somehow when hys girl's not around.

Printing off "great-grandbaby" pictures and mailing them out to that great-nana today along with a Halloweenie card!

Desperately needing to do laundry and wishing the machines on-sight didn't rip folks off. Then I could just do them here in my apartment building.

Getting some good uninterupted sleep tonight.

Wanting to buy some boots

Going scrounging at Goodwill

Not enough time in the day to do half of these things.................

[deb0670]

finally getting the opportunity to sleep for a few hrs without interruption.. When my mind chooses this time to run rampant. So much to do and so little time to do it in. Shhh mind just rest for now.. Please?

[PoeticWitch]

Thinking about the homework that is due tonight for my Computer Logic's class

Tired of trying to be everything to everyone, but when I am in need, I get nothing.

Wish I could work on my art today instead of doing homework.

appreciating how wonderful my life is

enjoying petting the kitten who is laying in the hammock of my nightgown

[jac]

Getting really flippin tired of feeling stagnant. I'm a freakin athlete. Have been most all of my life. I miss the action. I want to get back into something and yet the "fear" of reinjuring my knee seems to be boss and the deciding factor. I really can't allow my mind to trip on this so damn much anymore. I know it hurts, and aches and swells when I do exercise or sports but freakin A, it does all those things when I sit at work all day too.

I haven't gotten "back in the ring" so to speak because my biggest fear is that I can't use that leg for support and balance and I don't want to twist it or damage it again. I've been through two surgeries already and the talk is that I may be going back in January for round three. The initial surgery was to repair the torn ACL and damaged meniscus. They have been fixed. I have the ability to build and strengthen again, I'm just letting my mind play tricks on me. I think right now is the perfect time to check it out, challenge it. Going back into surgery in January.anyway so why not use this time to do what I have been fearing for some time now.

Okay I convinced myself! I'll start out slow of course. Work on some stamina, strength and endurance. Some limited amount of speed rope, pick up the pace walking to and from work, stretch routines and light weights... I'm going to get back into what sustains me. I need it. I know I will feel better about myself and maybe eventually get back into martial arts, perhaps to the level of competition again... :praying:

[Ginger]

I know it's not the same, totally different activity, but have you considered or would you consider swimming?



Getting really flippin tired of feeling stagnant. I'm a freakin athlete. Have been most all of my life. I miss the action. I want to get back into something and yet the "fear" of reinjuring my knee seems to be boss and the deciding factor. I really can't allow my mind to trip on this so damn much anymore. I know it hurts, and aches and swells when I do exercise or sports but freakin A, it does all those things when I sit at work all day too.

I haven't gotten "back in the ring" so to speak because my biggest fear is that I can't use that leg for support and balance and I don't want to twist it or damage it again. I've been through two surgeries already and the talk is that I may be going back in January for round three. The initial surgery was to repair the torn ACL and damaged meniscus. They have been fixed. I have the ability to build and strengthen again, I'm just letting my mind play tricks on me. I think right now is the perfect time to check it out, challenge it. Going back into surgery in January.anyway so why not use this time to do what I have been fearing for some time now.

Okay I convinced myself! I'll start out slow of course. Work on some stamina, strength and endurance. Some limited amount of speed rope, pick up the pace walking to and from work, stretch routines and light weights... I'm going to get back into what sustains me. I need it. I know I will feel better about myself and maybe eventually get back into martial arts, perhaps to the level of competition again... :praying:

[Spirit Dancer]

Messages for others...Fresh starts, new beginnings and new horizons only a decision away.

[Canela]

Messages for others...Fresh starts, new beginnings and new horizons only a decision away.

TAKE A LEAP OF FAITH!

[Hollylane]

I've got myself back on track this morning...Heading to work in a bit...but, right now, how do I choose to spend my last hour before reporting to duty? Boot shopping on ShoeMall...I am blaming this one on Gaige. Your fault, that's right Baby, it is all your fault. ;) :stillheart:

Maybe I can rope you into shopping for boots with me this weekend...After all, it will be well into jeans and boots season by the time you get here! Hmmm?

[DamonK]

Girl. Mom. Doctors. Homework. Labs. Peppa.

[Leigh]

Well nothing was until just now, but its alot at the moment ...........

Well I just got off the phone with my boss, and we had a long talk. I knew I was doing well at my job and the two people I worked with had nothing but good things to say about me, however I was told that he didn't think that this job was for me. Retail, long hours on your feet etc is not a job for everyone and with this particular job because usually only one person is working ~ there are no real breaks. He wont let you sit down, even just for a few mins at a time when there are no customers and after standing for 6 hours at a time my feet become very sore no matter how much I walk or pace or try tricks that others have recommended (and I did). He was willing to cut down my hours and had given me 5 hours yesterday instead of 7, but still felt that this job probably isn't one for me.

I'm pretty bummed and disappointed that it came down to this, but maybe it is for the better. I was doing good and am glad that I stuck it out even if it only lasted 3 days; he said to me if I can get myself to feeling better and want to try again down the road he's more than willing to let me come back but for now its best if I find something more suited to what I can do physically. I guess he's right, atleast I tried and even he said that ~ luckily he's a nice guy or else I think this would be worse. I've gotta keep my chin up and remind myself that everything happens for a reason; I will just start putting my resume out to office jobs and call centres and possibly see if I can get funding for school. I will NOT let this get me and and I WILL make it to the Reunion next year come hell or high water; not this or anything else will get me down and I certainly won't let this knock me down.

Got alot on my mind right now, just gotta breathe and think.

[DMW]

wait a minute now....first things first...compression stockings? good shoes?
do you have these Leigh? pardon me for being so forward.
Do keep your chin up. it is better to have tried and it not
be a good fit ...than to have not tried at all. Not trying is worse.
Sounds to me like this could be a case of not having good shoes for that job.
Hell, i know for me, when i started a new job...one which entailed me to be on
my feet all day long... it took some time to get used to that!
You keep your chin up. Seriously.

I was just going to post that i am grateful for my integrity and courage among the crashing waves. and for the strength to handle my various difficulties and make progress. also, grateful for the new people, in my life that, have assisted me in that progress.

[DMW]

You need these shoes...they are called Dansko


http://l3.zassets.com/images/z/1/9/1/6/1/7/1916173-p-MULTIVIEW.jpg

[Duchess]

I am so blessed. I'm surrounded by wonderful people, on and offline.

I have a career that I love, even though it's extremely demanding. Don't think I would have it any other way.(f)


Duchess

[WingsOnFire]

enjoying the cool weather and wondering what fall is like in Oregon. Excited that my 6 month probationary period ends next Tuesday. I really love my job and that makes all the difference in the world.

Wondering how Hy is doing tonight. This week has been so very hard for Hym. One thing after another. I'm trying very hard not to be a burden. I just want to support Hym in what Hy is going through.

Also on my mind is how everyone in the house including DamonK now is sick. I feel like a rerun of Snow's week of the reunion. I'm hoping I feel better soon. One day I start feeling think I'm feeling better and the next I'm wiped out again

Hoping I feel good in the morning cause I'm going in for mandatory overtime.

[Soft*Silver]

that I would whore myself out (or chrissy for that matter) to have a doggie door put in the house

[Leigh]

Pardon my rant for just one moment ..........

Ok so I just read this story on yahoo, and the darn thing simply boggles my mind. Alright so let me explain the story as best I can; a television news anchorwoman in Wisconsin named Jennifer Livingston received an email from a man named Kenneth Krause; now the nature of this email wasn't a very nice one let me tell you that much. You see, Jennifer is what Kenneth considers "overweight" (and believe me I don't see it) and his email was nothing short of rude and unacceptable. He sends her an email, firstly telling her that he questioned whether or not she was a suitable example for the community's young people (mainly girls) saying that *quote* "obesity is one of the worst choices a person can make and one of the most dangerous habits to maintain."

Choice?!?!?!?! Does he honestly think we "choose" to be fat? To be ridiculed constantly? To be looked at by society as less than simply because we are not smaller? I don't see how we "choose" to do that to ourselves. Jennifer went on tv to talk about bullying and and how it is not acceptable but Kenneth refused to take back what he said; he didn't see how he had said anything wrong. A picture along with the story shows Mr. Krause posing with a bike showing off his biceps (which is fine, no harm there) but the fact that he criticized her weight and then circles a picture of him looking all buff etc just seems like a slam to me. Then, as another slap in the face, Kenneth then issued this response to Jennifer's on tv speech:

"Given this country's present epidemic of obesity and the many truly horrible diseases related thereto, and considering Jennifer Livingston's fortuitous position in the community, I hope she will finally take advantage of a rare and golden opportunity to influence the health and psychological well-being of Coulee Region children by transforming herself for all of her viewers to see over the next year, and, to that end, I would be absolutely pleased to offer Jennifer any advice or support she would be willing to accept."

WTF are you serious? He's basically telling her in order to be a better role model she has to lose weight! Maybe she IS already being a role model, by letting children know that its okay to be who YOU are no matter who that is and be proud of yourself. Isn't she showing others that you can be anything you wanna be in this life regardless of your looks (or anything else)? Apparently he says he has been fighting obesity since he was a child; okay I get that but then to go after her like that when HE more than most people should know better? What sort of example is HE showing to the children in their community (including his)? None obviously.

Sorry but this just gets to me ~ no one has any right to do what he did; yeah okay he issued an apology BUT his apology began with these words and I quote "If she is offended, I truly apologize to Jennifer,". Wow *IF* she was offended? How the hell could you not be? Ughhhhhhhhhhhh what the hell is wrong with this world today? :|

Anyways I'll end the rant now but this bullying shit has GOT to stop, and it begins with us adults setting a good example for our children and the younger generation!

[DMW]

NO doubt and ditto on the needing to exercise again. a regimen again. weights and all. I broke my toe on a table and that screws things up a bit.....
Got my punching bag up and ...damn my toe was sore. so annoying.
trying not to do certain activities so it will heal faster and then wondering...does it matter or not if i try to take it easy. And then, not able to.
grateful that it is just a toe. very grateful.

Like today there is so much to do and college football sounds good.

and if that is all someone can do is pick on someone for their weight and not see the person for who they are then ....they have serious issues and it is that person's loss.
judging a book by it's cover is not a conducive method to understanding what is inside the book.
and if one judges...one will never find out...what is inside
when those kind of people voice their shallowness and blindness...i consider myself fortunate to know what they are truly like...so, i know not to waste energy on them. (it is a gift from the universe)

i got shit to do and i want coffeeeeeee

Oh, and i was thinking that putting in a doggy door would be a good thing to do today instead..

[spritzerJ]

:candle: My mom. I am hoping she will recover. Again. It is asking so much. I just don't want to consider the alternatives.

[asphaltcowboi]

oh i wish i could make the half way reunion... the reunion looked like so much fun i told myself i would make the next one!!! but the half way reunion dates are already taken.. its the bigest yearly motorcycle rally here, my family and friends will be coming in from all over the states so guess i better be here!! but i will defentely be at the yearly reunion.

[girl_dee]

my needing to pick a date to start teaching.

Why am i scared to death?

[FeminineAllure]

Where I want to move to in PA. Close by hopefully.

[WingsOnFire]

on my mind tonight is how much I miss hym. It's been a long week and I'm finally feeling better but being away from hym this long really sucks.

[femmsational]

Mind? I've lost mine!!! I want it back!!!


:blink:

[luv2luvgirls]

a conversation Sat..
my stomache hurts

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

My backbone seemed to have misplaced and whoever finds it if you could kindly return it to me I will be very appreciative. The pain I am feeling is also on my mind.

[DMW]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3RLJwCT7BDA&feature=player_embedded#!

You got the wrong score card sweetheart...you are not the ONLY judge. HUGS
And that is not how everyone else sees you...HUGS
"Tell Yourself"

I know what you tell yourself, you tell yourself.
Look in the mirror, look in the mirror what does it show?
I hear you counting
I know you're adding. adding up the score.
I know, oh yes I know what you tell yourself,
Tell yourself.

Ever since Eden we're built for pleasing everyone knows
And ever since Adam cracked his ribs and let us go
I know, oh yes I know what you tell yourself
Tell yourself

Who taught you how to lie so well
And to believe in each and every word you say?
Who told you that nothing about you is alright
It's just no use, it's just no good you'll never be O.K.?

Well I know, I know that wrong's been done to you
"It's such a tough world," that's what you say
Well I know, I know it's easier said than done
But that's enough girl, give it away,
Give it, give it all away

Tell yourself that you're not pretty
Look at you, you're beautiful.
Tell yourself that no one sees
Plain Jane invisible me, just tell yourself

Tell yourself you'll never be
Like the anorexic beauties in the magazines
Just a bargain basement Barbie Doll
No belle du jour, no femme fatale
Just tell yourself

Tell yourself there's nothing worse
Than the pain inside and the way it hurts
But tell yourself it's nothing new
Cause everybody feels it too
They feel it too ...sometimes

And there's just no getting 'round
The fact that you're thirteen HUMAN right now

[DMW]

However, your score card is...
the most important one...
the only one that matters...
so....baby your a firework
so....tell yourself the truth of
what you are really worth.
Give that Gift To Yourself Please

http://video.search.yahoo.com/video/play?p=baby+your+a+firework&tnr=21&vid=&turl=http%3A%2F%2Fts3.mm.bing.net%2Fth%3Fid%3Dv.45 17494617145362&tit=KATY+PERRY+-+FIREWORK+LYRICS

[jac]

Still baffled with the maintainance guy at the shelter for locking away the large 50 gallon garbage bags. He's out for the remainder of the week due to medical procedures that he had to have yesterday and the place is in an uproar over the lack of garbage bags. I mean really... You do not have a monopoly on the damn things!! Well, actually he did but staff had to run out and buy an extra box because the bulk amounts of bags are MIA. He does the same thing with the freakin' toilet paper and paper towel dispenser rolls... Not cool buddy... We will be having a talk when you return.

Ummm not by my choice but other staff figured out that when I ask for things to happen around the place it happens immediately!!

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

With the holidays approaching and after a day spent in the hospital family is on my mind. I have always been family oriented. I was always taught family came first and as the eldest that was how I lived my 45 years. I came back to my home town in Feb of this year and see my bio-family only when they choose, want something from me, or need something from me that only I can provide. Oh let's not forget to get in my face about my sexuality. Yet I still hold out hope that it will change. That it will at least go back to the way it was when my grandmother was alive and we had holiday family dinners together. Instead of spending them alone. My grandmother had 12 children and each of those had at least 5 adn each of those at least 5 we are in our 7th generation here so I have a very large extended family here that supposedly believes in family first blood first yet I know I will be spending the upcoming holidays alone or with strangers. Okay done with my humbug thoughts.

[Tcountry]

wondering ...
Noticing friends can be blatantly honest sometimes ...hmmmm
Trying to figure out my next step with the given information.
Realizing the stupidity of certain choices
One day at a time...

[ruffryder]

my girl and how awesome and sweet she is. :)

[asphaltcowboi]

how i woke up with a smile this morning after a quick ride into mexico.. the weather wasnt the best the wind was crazy. it wore my azz out an felt great. slept better then i have in weeks!

[GreeneyedMe]

Any volunteers to drag me kicking and screaming to my eye app't today?? I don't wannaaaaaaa gooooooooooo:watereyes::hiding:

[cinnamongrrl]

I took my oldest (18 going on 19 in Dec) to cash her check....and brought her to her BFs....she turned back to me as she walked up to the door...because I wait till she gets there....like I always have...and probably always will...she smiled at me...and I saw a glimpse of her as the little girl she used to be....and it made me wonder...where did the years go?? It seems like only yesterday she fit in my arms...my hand could hold her little feet...and now she works....and is thinking about buying a house with her boyfriend....it's so beyond me.....

[DamonK]

The hard conversations. The results of them. The emotions caused by them.

[jac]

What's on my mind...

Another busy work weekend ahead. This night is on the downslide... coffee pot is preset, lunch is premade and I am prerelaxed. Errr ummmm, scratch that... I'm chillin' with last night's Survivor on cbs.com.

Missin' my girl wicked bad and looking forward to seeing her in two weeks. I really dislike rushing through my days for something in the future but.... but, I just want to be in her presence, in her space. I want to be home with her...

[DMW]

This body pain sucks...it's one of those sunday mornings...still groggy and need more coffee. I would much rather be in bed with her crawling on top of me or vice versa...kisses and snuggles and taking care of my hard cock cause it is her job. I miss that sunday morning...stop the world, in bed, for each other time.
There were other things on my mind. Not anymore. ...And the day is overcast and a warm front
has moved in. No excuses to not get out there and pickup some leaves and other work. No more day dreaming.

[StoneOne]

do I help my daughter in her quest or do I let her achieve it on her own.......
I want her to be happy and live her life......
If I do help am I helping cause it is the right thing to do or I can see her fall
:deepthoughts::watereyes::wallbreak:

[DMW]

Damn 009 distributor and timing the damn thing with just a tachometer and an ear and angles...be nice to have a timing light and a tach...it's all good though..i am such a perfectionist and a stickler to detail and correctness that it isn't really a good thing to be so much of a perfectionist to a fault. At least i have learned this and to live and let live and give it to God and to chill the f*** out and to learn that i am not in control...ew..blah...yuck

[StoneOne]

as I stood looking at the view as the sun comes up it hits me that this is one of the last times I will see it

over the years I have come and gone I have always returned to look out and take in the morning view

It hits me ....I will be sad
for me I am headed to a place I never dared to dream
for my daughter it is a loss of years building a life ..... she plans to stay and build another
she will always have a home with me as I have more than one dwelling
I want her to be happy and fly

The view holds more than anyone could ever know.....
for her I can not speak as I could only guess what the vew holds for her

I go into the future I tread lightly as the future unfolds

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

There really is a lot on my mind lately however, it all boils down to wanting to be worth it. Worth pursuing her. Giving her all she deserves. Yes I am a perfectionist and this has kept me quiet on how I feel well this and a touch of shyness that no one else seems to see in me. It is okay though. When the time is right for me I will tell her and it will either be just the right time or to late and I will have no one to blame but me. Yet because of who I am at my core I want to be worth it I want to be all she deserves. At least in my eyes and it is my eyes that count in this matter.

[JustLovelyJenn]

I can't sleep tonight.

Someone told me to call if I couldn't sleep... but it wouldn't be right.

There's a lot in my head these days... but a couple things weigh heavier then most. My daughter is moving out of my home... She is ten years old (well, almost, only a few more days) and shes moving to live with her father an hour away from me. Its so hard to let her go, but its the right thing to do. Her brother, my eight year old son, has some special needs. He doesn't always understand what hes doing, or have the ability to stop himself from doing things... and now, hes becoming more aggressive. He's playing when it happens... having fun, or trying to get her attention, but he can hurt her... He never means to, and I don't blame him... but it's not fair of me to keep her here either. Not when her father can take her, and she wont have to worry about that happening.

I don't know how any mother can make a choice to send their child away without tears... Its taken a while for mine to come but they are certainly flowing tonight. I know I will get to see her often and I know she will be safe and happy, but I will miss my little girl. I wish she didn't have to go.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

My doctors appointment today. I have had to wait a month for it and it is suppose to be a step towards finding out why I am in so much pain yet I really do not want to go. Mainly because I know I will have to deal with transphobia and a bunch of idiots. I will go because I need an answer to why my body hurts so damn much. Four hours and counting.

[Leigh]

Hoping to find a job, the future & upcoming events

[MaggieBluIze]

My beautiful daughter, the Divine Miss Miranda, is 19 today ...
Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so proud!!!


I'm still a little :blink: that I could have a 19 y/o. LOL

[StoneOne]

The move and what it means
wow I guess this karma thing is real
had my doubts but karma has it's own timeline
the timing is .... well let's say perfect is a huge understatement

Paradise ...............
what can I say that would hold some weight? Thank You.......
dont think so say it 100 times help me here.....
paradise for the rest of my days

World
yes This Stone Butch is humble so very humble

just putting it out to the world and Higherpower:praying::blush:

[WingsOnFire]

feeling really good about my job right now. I'm happy with my life here with DamonK and my pups. It is amazing how having peace in your heart changes your Outlook on life.

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind...

I really need to buy new bed pillows. But I HATE standing in the aisle, looking at all the different kinds, trying to decide what the hell I need (firm, medium, soft, side sleeper, down, feather)... there are way too many decisions!

[laruss]

Moving and what I need to do to get ready for it.

Also, the two books I am working on. Starting research for one non-fiction one that I will start once November is over, and putting together some character outlines for another fiction one I will write during NaNoWriMo in November.

and... Online survey sites and which one to use for some of my research.

and... that I have only told a handful of people that I am moving because I do not want to be talked out of it again. I will be in Kelowna by the end of the month, I am so relieved, I need a new start.

and... my kids and grand kids.

and... how to repay the great friends I have been staying with for the past couple of months.

and... friends far away.

and... well my brain as usual is going all over the place, maybe I need to go get ready to go to yoga and find some peace for this frenetic brain of mine.

[RockOn]

I do not understand why people at work get so grumpy acting over asking them to reset a user's database password. It takes all of a minute. Users will always lock themselves out by mis-typing in their user id or password more than the max allowance of tries here. I am tired out today of trying to explain how our main app logs on to Oracle. Why does this woman have to tell me my guy at the main building has his password embedded elsewhere in the app when she knows nothing about the software? When speaking with her, acting ingratiating (spelling??) has become old. It is her job to service my users. In three years, this is the only time I have asked this of her.

Ok, better now.

[spritzerJ]

difficult (comparative more difficult, superlative most difficult)

hard, not easy, requiring much effort
hard to manage, uncooperative, troublesome
from wiktionary

[Duchess]

I'm laughing at myself because I'm too lazy to get up for another cup of coffee. :)

[Kent]

I'm laughing at myself because I'm too lazy to get up for another cup of coffee. :)

I'd bring you a cup of coffee..

[Duchess]

I'd bring you a cup of coffee..


You are the sweetest gentleman.:kissy:

[ruffryder]

the work week. the awesome team I work with, so accepting and supportive. funny how I worked one day and not even with all of them and they already feel like a family that have each other's back and best interest at heart.

[cara]

I'm feeling incredibly emotional today. Hoping it doesn't last too long and my fears are unfounded. Some reassurance from a few particular someones would help. A lot.

[Gemme]

I'm feeling saucy tonight.

[Soft*Silver]

I think I have the hot spots on my newf under control. I HATE this time of year!

[jac]

difficult (comparative more difficult, superlative most difficult)

hard, not easy, requiring much effort
hard to manage, uncooperative, troublesome
from wiktionary

Thinking hmmm far from the truth... and I am oh so grateful.

Have I failed to mention how much dictionaries are just so damn attractive to me? Don't dare let it rest on the shelf for too long... :reader:

[JustLovelyJenn]

Thinking hmmm far from the truth... and I am oh so grateful.

Have I failed to mention how much dictionaries are just so damn attractive to me? Don't dare let it rest on the shelf for too long... :reader:

I happen to agree! I keep one on my night stand table to have with me when I read... I inevitably come across a word that I want to understand in greater detail.

[StoneOne]

Date is set
here we go
Smiles

[Reader]

On my mind? Where I should look for another job. Not in a hurry, but looking around for somewhere to move. I dig Jersey, but I want to see what's doing out there. Any suggestions?

:)

[Electrocell]

Lot of things on my mind and heart tonight. Not usually one for putting much of my business on the internet but here goes. I went to see my most recent ex today apparently the only lie she didn't tell me is she does have cancer. She lied to me about other things figured this was a lie too. Guess I will be there for her as much as she will let me. She has a teacup chihuahua( think that's how it's spelt) that loves me and I'm very fond of too. L considers me her daddy and apparently so does the dog all you have to do is ask her where's her daddy and she will come right to me.So when the time comes I will take our fur daughter lol my cats may not like it much but oh well she is part of my life too. Sorry about the babbling on but my heart is really hurting tonight.

[bkisbutchenuff]

Whats on my mind? The usual...work, home and personal...I tell myself - things happen for a reason and everything will work out...however, often times _ you have to make things happen. What do I want and ask for? Inner peace....

[bright_arrow]

Joined 750words.com, as I have seen it talked about. I will make an effort to use it more often, if for no other reason than to empty my mind. :bunchflowers:

[MaggieBluIze]

What is on my mind?????
:deepthoughts:

Today being My Friday!!!!!
:happyjump:
The day I will have with my beautiful daughter tomorrow!!! (f)

Heading to Dallas tomorrow night!!!!!!
:carride:
The fun and wonderfullness that will be had this weekend!!!!!

I need to remember to get a :perv: camera. :)

I'm just super excited!!!!!! :cheer:
:waitinggirl:

[Leigh]

Just thinking about how fucked up my family is, how they all know where me and my mom are when they want something but the moment we try and be a part of their lives we get told to eff off ~ WTF kind of family is that? Seriously I just wanna disown 3/4 of my bio family and be done with it :blink:

[Daktari]

Just thinking about how fucked up my family is, how they all know where me and my mom are when they want something but the moment we try and be a part of their lives we get told to eff off ~ WTF kind of family is that? Seriously I just wanna disown 3/4 of my bio family and be done with it :blink:

Do it. No-one says you have to treat them as family if they don't return it.

[bright_arrow]

I want a nap! Essay done and submitted, critiqued two essays. Everything will be a breeze after this. Right? Right! Now I need to type up the wife's resume :praying:

[Talon]

A pretty scary and intense work assignment.

[starryeyes]

My ferret Smokey. He went blind in his left eye a while ago, but last week I noticed he went blind in his other eye too. He also has a tumor on his tail that has been bleeding frequently. He went to the vet last Friday, where she confirmed he was completely blind and needed surgery to remove the tumor. He is kind of adjusting to his blindness, we just have to be careful he doesn't fall off the bed. We also have to remember to call his name before picking him up, or he gets scared. I will bring him in for his surgery tomorrow and hopefully we won't have anymore issues for awhile. Now, I have a deaf dog, a blind ferret, and a bitchy chihuahua. Quite the combination.

I love my little guy, it's hard seeing him age and have these issues. :(

[QueenofSmirks]

Soooo much going on right now! Nothing bad, just a lot to juggle!
School - finals week! :: scream!::
Vegas trip - might postpone, which kills me to wait but later is better, timing wise
Writer's retreat - was planned for December, might have to change to different date
Travel plans for next year
Keep my car or start planning for a new one?
Changes at work, including an office move! Ughhh
Dr appt next week - I'd be happy with physical therapy, I don't want surgery!

[JustLovelyJenn]

Just thinking about how fucked up my family is, how they all know where me and my mom are when they want something but the moment we try and be a part of their lives we get told to eff off ~ WTF kind of family is that? Seriously I just wanna disown 3/4 of my bio family and be done with it :blink:

Do it. No-one says you have to treat them as family if they don't return it.

I agree, family is made from love not blood!!

[WingsOnFire]

what is on my mind..... Difficult conversations. Crying so much last night that my eyes were puffy this morning and still are a little. Wondering why I allow my heart to lead before my head sometimes but glad they caught up with each other in time.

Wondering what do you say when there is nothing you can say to make it better? How do you stop the thoughts of guilt swirling in your brain? The answer.... You can't. And that sucks today. But I will be ok. We will be and are ok.

Some days I don't know why I deserve his unconditional love.

The girl....

[Nomad]

afraid that i'm losing it, afraid that history is going to repeat itself, afraid that i'm opening doors that should have remained closed, tired of hurting the person i love most in the whole world, really hating that i allow myself to have that thought because if i were really so unhappy about it i'd just stop doing it!

on my mind is the fear that i suck and that my suckage will make the lives of others suck as well

[ruffryder]

trying to catch some zzzzs but my new position has been consuming my mind. I'm so friggin excited! LOL :canadian:

[jac]

I'm about to dump a big ol' rant down here so bare with me...

So, my daughter has been with concerns about a health issue with her youngest (my newest grandbaby). Seems she felt it important enough to research and then bring it up to the pediatrician. It was confirmed today that the baby has what's called Pectus Excavatum, otherwise known as, funnel chest. It's where the breastbone grows inward instead of outward and can (in some cases) cause heart and/or lung issues later in life. Right now the baby has a mild case of it and may only have this level but it can increase in seriousness as she begins to go through puberty and adolescent growths. I did a little research into it through the Mayo Clinic's site today while at work and, yes, I do have concerns... of course I would, but where I am really concerned is with my daughter. She tends to get so into the negative of things that it brings her into depressions. Yes we will keep a check on the baby and keep up with the doctors if we notice things changing and they haven't made efforts to do anything but right now... it's my daughter that is my main focus. Ugh! :sigh:

Then I come home to a note wedged in my mailbox. First thought... the landloard! Nope it was from a complaining neighbor with poor timing and a pathetic attempt at sarcasm. It went something to the affect of:

"Dear 202,

I am asking that you control your need to stomp on the floors. I am a hardworking tenant and I am unable to sleep when this is happening. And, your role-playing is also too loud! Might want to try to control that!

Thanks,
102"

My reply was something to the affect of:

"Although I appreciate your efforts to maintain a quiet atmosphere, you may want to research who you are complaining to first of all. See, my apt "202" is NOT above your 102. In fact my apt is NOT above or below any other apt. I have a two-story apt and it's located over the stairwell and foyer. Furthermore, I am rarely on my first floor and I too am a hardworking tenant so I would appreciate that you get this matter tended to OR we can all take this up with our landlord. Oh and btw we really need to find out who it is that cranks up the crappy music!

Thanks,
202"

Not a good day to be messing with me when my thoughts are with my babies and grandbabies!!
:mohawk:

[MaggieBluIze]

CIJS ...

I wanna tonight ...
Can't till tomorrow night ...
Being told to wait till Friday morning ...

I don't think I can do this ... I'm ready ... NOW!!!!!!

[BrutalDaddy]

Chocolate.


That Is All,
Brute.

[femmsational]

Chocolate.


That Is All,
Brute.


Speaking of chocolate.....did you take the chocolate that my mom bought?? I can't find it. I'm also a little worried it's gonna melt all over your truck.


Sorry, derail!

[Martina]

And, your role-playing is also too loud! Might want to try to control that!


These sound like interesting neighbors.

[Duchess]

How a seemingly charming Butch can turn into a total ASS when turned down for a date.:|

[Gentle Tiger]

The fact that I am still up goofing around here knowing that that alarm is going off at 4 am screaming at me to get up. :pirate-steer:

[DamonK]

Slowly finding a healing place

[AnnRkey]

Oh not much. I do think that ive been sleeping in way to late. That Harry Potter collectors chest has been on my mind a lot. I love Harry Potter stuff.

[jac]

These sound like interesting neighbors.

Maybe so but truth be told, I never hear anything. I think the person downstairs has several neighbors' activities and noises confused. I am beside 4 neighbors. One on each side of my downstairs and one on each side of my upstairs, and the only annoyance I have is with the "crappy music" guy. And really he plays it during reasonable hours... It just bugs me cause I have a rotating/revolving shift duty kind of position. That's why I haven't filed an official complaint to the landlord and instead just grumble and rant on here.

[FemmeBibliophile]

The fact it's way too early in the morning.
That I am tired of dealing with caseworkers.
Sometimes being a foster parent really sucks.

[laruss]

Moving and all that needs to be done before I go.
Where my life is gong.
Plans for the future.
My kids and grandkids.
My art and writing.
Friends.