What is on your mind

[DamonK]

For you....

Yes, you...

I already had a beautiful life...an amazing life, even with all the trials in it.

But... know this...

...like sunlight burning at midnight, making my life something so beautiful, beautiful....

It's even more amazing being surrounded by even more unconditional, intense love.

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind...

for the first time in quite awhile, I've got a sick feeling in my stomach. Anxiety you are not welcome here.

[Sun]

What's on my mind...

for the first time in quite awhile, I've got a sick feeling in my stomach. Anxiety you are not welcome here.

(((((((((((((((PinkieLee))))))))))))))))))))))))))

You, my friend, are a burst of sunlight that radiates all over everyone that can even sense your sweetness.

So I am going to envision you surrounded in beautiful golden light today and I join others to do the same with me.

May any anxiety melt away as the presence of love energy that you put out into the world mirrors back at your one hundred fold. May you feel only peace, joy and love.

[PinkieLee]

(((((((((((((((PinkieLee))))))))))))))))))))))))))

You, my friend, are a burst of sunlight that radiates all over everyone that can even sense your sweetness.

So I am going to envision you surrounded in beautiful golden light today and I join others to do the same with me.

May any anxiety melt away as the presence of love energy that you put out into the world mirrors back at your one hundred fold. May you feel only peace, joy and love.

What's on my mind...

No matter what happens throughout my day, I have some amazing friends that love me. Thank you for the kind words of love and golden light :)

[Talon]

Self-censorship. I feel a pull within to hold back what I want to say to someone. :ballngag:

[dixie]

*Wondering...waiting...hoping...and worrying. (w)

*Learning how to re-motivate myself in the areas that I really need to work on.

*Making mental grocery lists that never seem to make it onto paper, therefore never really remembering everything I need.

*Photo edits that are taking entirely too long, because I can't seem to "see" how I want them to go, to fit the current client's wants/needs.

*Financial stressors.

*Hating the holiday stress.

[clay]

What's on my mind...

for the first time in quite awhile, I've got a sick feeling in my stomach. Anxiety you are not welcome here.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{pinkielee}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
Sending you warm, aqua blue energies...calming like the sea...and warm white rays..to fill your soul....and yellow sun rays...to warm..you
you are a rainbow of love, hope, sunshine, goodness, and all things pure in this world...your heart is amazing.
Let us wrap you in our collective energies & light here...and hold you up....it will be all okay.....we love you....feel the love and energies....love you Pinkie....you are always such a ray of light to everyone else...so let our little beacons light you honey....xo...Clay

[DamonK]

Trying to clear my head
Homework
Laundry
Tomorrow
Dark thoughts

[Blade]

How powerful the spoken word is.

[WolfyOne]

Tonight I smile, just got a text from a childhood friend (since we're 12) and it was so nice to see the words HAPPY THANKSGIVING from her. You see, a couple months ago, we didn't know if she'd live or die while waiting on a donor list for a liver. She's been in a nursing home recovering and 2 days ago, she took 18 steps on her own. I was in awe and am so grateful the powers that be had plans for her that didn't include leaving us yet. She's like the sister I always wanted, always been there for me whenever I needed her. I think it'll be that way until the end. We're exactly a month to the day apart in age. If we don't talk for months, it's just like we can pick up a convo like it was yesterday. I am certainly always going to be in her corner pulling for a full recovery and celebrating via the phone when she gets to leave the nursing home.

[DamonK]

I'm hoping someone figures out food. And relatively soon.
I just realized I've not eaten today. I'm quite sure I will be in trouble for this.
I'm contemplating an idea.

[Breezy]

I'm hoping someone figures out food. And relatively soon.
I just realized I've not eaten today. I'm quite sure I will be in trouble for this.
I'm contemplating an idea.

Damn straight you're in trouble for not eating. lol.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Friends
Family
lack of sleep
fact that I have not eaten yet
tonight
tomorrow
sad dark thoughts

[clay]

beautiful thoughts.....mmmmm

[WolfyOne]

Today, not only am I thankful, but I was blessed to have the company of a 15 month old boy with a whole lot of energy. He made me laugh, run around with him, feed him and share my Kool Aid and ice cream with him. I so enjoyed seeing his little smile and high energy. The tumbling he did for me as I helped him and the book he brought out for me to read with him. I didn't realize just how much I missed having young ones around me even though I knew I missed it. My co-workers grandson made me forget, if just for a little while that I wanted to be somewhere else for this holiday.

[Hollylane]

Today I am thankful that my Gaige and her family opened up their home to me via Skype, and allowed me to feel like I was not alone for the Holiday. I met her mother, father, nephew, her brother and his fiance. I got to watch her nephew, Thomas, dancing around and wrestling with Gaige. I felt like I watched the football game after the meal, and got a real kick out of the sound affects Gaige made as she took her full stomach to the recliner to veg and watch the game.

What a wonderful day, and I still haven't eaten my vegetarian own dinner and pie! I am a very lucky, happy, grateful and satisfied woman. Thank you Baby! :aslIloveyou:

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Today although I spent the day alone I am grateful for many things. I am grateful for friends I met here and I am grateful for my girl that spent the morning with me before she went to have her dinner. I am also grateful for that I have a place to live and food to eat many people do not even have those small things in life. There are many things I am thankful for on this day and one is that I know next year will be better than this year.

[girl_dee]

My client who brought the family kitten in to get spayed. She was fine until 45 before he was due to pick her up, she died suddenly. Everyone was shocked of course.

He didn't want the cat but she grew on him. So he had to tell the wife and kid.

Kinda sucks.

[Tcountry]

...fixing things
...starting things
...warming things up
...talking to the folks about some things
...finding things
...cocoa& coffee

....oh & how good of a (not so little anymore)puppy my Stella is...makes me proud

[WintergreenGem]

Thinking of my new friend. Enjoyed our visit and look forward to another. We probably could have talked all day. Hope you are doing well as you can.

[Rook]

yesterday I realized something...After *years* rejecting turkey{regardless who made it, and how, dry...}...I lost my immunity...How'd I find out? I caved in and tried it yesterday, being grateful and all{I stuffed my yap}...I go online, well...I thought I did.
I get nudged and asked "are you ok?"
"hu..?....Ouch" realizing half my forehead was on the laptop keyboard, and the 'wrong' arm slightly twisted, I looked like an impression of roadkill on the bed..My best guess? I figured I would stretch, relax a moment on the bed, and dozed off...
Oh, 2 hours had gone by....

I need a haircut...
:blink:

[Kenna]

my mind is wondering on many things and taking its own trail today ...
reflection on the past
wondering on the future
desires for the present
chore list
wish list

the beauty of a crisp morning and wanting to share quiet moments sitting on the deck just relaxing
my mind is wondering and if I keep rambling it will get me in trouble.

[Miss Scarlett]

I'm sitting here in the kitchen of the home of my friend and her family. Lingering in the air is the perfume, if you will, generated by breakfast...a combination of pancakes, syrup, bacon and coffee that is as delicious as the meal itself.

Looking out the window I see the mountains to the east, the early morning haze slowly burning off, they are beautifully back lit by the sun...it is breathtaking!

Something deep within me always connects with these mountains...today is no exception. I feel the haze of my life slowly burning off...my spirit gaining strength as my soul is backlit by the healing winter sun...Breathing deeply, slowly...inhaling not only the sweet fragrance of breakfast but inhaling the calming energy of this place...I find myself at peace....

[Talon]

Someone that I really care about...been on my mind the past several days.

[Ginger]

On my mind... watching Play Misty for Me on cable, a movie from the seventies, and remembering a poncho I had when I was a little girl.

[laruss]

If a broken heart will stay that way forever...
How difficult will it be to let someone else in.
Do I want to bake or write today.
Home.
My Grandbabies.
My daughters.

[DMW]

I don't want to go shopping.

[Talon]

How truly ~*bright*~ the future is. :candle:

[Blade]

All the time I've wasted this week. I should have gotten more done. Oh well since I plan on living to be 110, I have plenty of time to catch up.

[JustLovelyJenn]

I hate being sick...

[ruffryder]

The Holidays.

[firegal]

That this time last year, my then GF and I had ended our relationship and were still living together....

I am thankfull I live alone right now.

[Nomad]

i watched a little girl dressed like a princess, gold sparkly top, pink skirt and pink leg warmers and matching ballet flats and a tiny little tiara, dancing in circles and singing at the top of her lungs, "a dream is a wish your heart makes....." i barely made it away from her before i burst into tears.

Walt Disney is lucky he's dead. if he were alive i'd force feed him every single script that bore his name and then pay someone to stuff him into a big big hole, under a big big rock, with a hundred zillion big big BIG scorpions . and maybe a hungry badger to drive my point home.

"...no matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true."

WHAT was that guy THINKING?!?!

[girl_dee]

How much fun i had shopping with Daddi!

[WolfyOne]

Football
It's the cure for most things that ail me
And my writing cures the rest

Will be working on a good night's sleep later :)

[lilapache]

my mind is always a cluster***k....
whats on my mind is..trying to figure out what is best for me and not fall back into old habits

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Sleep and how I have not had any in the last three days. I am tired and need it but my body just hurts to much to allow for any good sleep to happen, *sigh*

[PaPa]

My mind is filled with thoughts about the rapidly nearing end of the semester and all of the outstanding internship hours I have yet to complete. This will be the first time I have ever received an Incomplete in any college course since I normally have maintained a 4.0. My mobility continues to decline due to the pain in my legs. The tendons are deteriorating and I keep getting major charley horses from hell too. I just wish I could have one day without the pain and the ability to get out of the house other than for a doctor or physical therapy appointment. I guess I shouldn't complain because my life still has so many blessings. I just need time to work through the changes in my life I suppose...that is what is on my mind.

[VintageFemme]

After five years of being together, my son is finally taking his girlfriend to the Virgin Islands next week for a week, to ask her to marry him. First he's going to her parent's this week down south to ask their permission. Who raised that kid??? They did a good job! *snicker* Oh wait, I did! *snort*

[Blue_Daddy-O]

McKinney, Texas... Let's make it an LGBTQ town. :)

[Katniss]

Walt Disney is lucky he's dead. if he were alive i'd force feed him every single script that bore his name and then pay someone to stuff him into a big big hole, under a big big rock, with a hundred zillion big big BIG scorpions . and maybe a hungry badger to drive my point home.
"...no matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dream that you wish will come true."
WHAT was that guy THINKING?!?!

Um...(cough, cough)...I still believe in dreams...and hope. Granted the outward landscape of what I believed my dream would look like is vastly different from reality. But the core concept and feeling of that dream is still there. I have to keep hope in my dreams alive otherwise things will never get better. From personal family issues to social and civil rights, etc. We can't let the Cruella deVilles, Maleficent, and Sea Witches win.....

Lest you think all is stardust and sunshine here...yesterday was my nephew's funeral. He was only 18 and died of bacterial meningitis. He went from healthy/happy to life support in 48 hours. I say this not for sympathy, but it drove home yet again two concepts dear to me; 1. Life turns on a dime 2. Make the most of every day and no matter what, keep moving forward and never lose hope in your dreams.

Big Hugs!

Katniss~~ (going off to find a crowbar for that rock, scorpion spray and a stick for the badger....)

[DamonK]

.....now wouldn't you like to know...

[WolfyOne]

.....now wouldn't you like to know...


LOL Damon...maybe, maybe not or it depends.

[Breezy]

.....now wouldn't you like to know...

Heh!

Seriously, pm me with those musings.

[WolfyOne]

How many times can a person take their tee shirt off, turn a fan on, cool down put tee shirt back on.
It's like lather, rinse and repeat.
Hot flashes and sweet tea do not go hand in hand :blink:

[LeftWriteFemme]

knII3S0MZtY

[clay]

how beautiful the afternoon was....anytime I can spend at my fave place, with the scent of salt air, sun, and my beloved dolphins...always, always brings me peace.
Heidi & I enjoyed a picnic dinner there..as we dined on good old KFC....love that stuff....
and had a beautiful sunset...with all those beautiful hues....
always makes the smaller insignificances even smaller...like a distant, fleeting wind...
I own my power...and I refuse to give my energies to that which does not matter...today I am the power...I always was....that is what is on my mind.,...

[DamonK]

I finally got over being sick last night, which kept me up until 3:45 AM. Thus, I slept until almost 1. I can't recall the last time I slept solidly like that, no waking... none that I can recall. I didn't even know MBE got up. Nor the dog. And that dog makes sure we all know that I am hers and she will NOT appreciate having to leave me sleeping alone, and she'd be more than happy to cuddle with me until I woke up.

I disagree with her, but I digress...

As a result of all this sleeping, I suspect sleep won't be occurring for me tonight. I'm hopeful that within the next 3 hours, I will be entirely done with one class, and at least another chapter in the stupid law class.

I keep telling myself Dec 3, Dec 3, Dec 3....

I told Bear I knew what my consolation prize could be... I won't miss much of the 25 days of Christmas on TV. I love that.

And it's about time to hang up the calendar he got me.

As usual, I'm thinking of how I'm a lucky guy. Chosen family that loves me. Two fantastic partners.

And the other.... who doesn't even truly realize what she is to me.... She's getting it though

[LeftWriteFemme]

IiYdFbH4nNw

[JustLovelyJenn]

This song...

I was reminded how much I love it today... and I need to listen to it more often...
QecqDVDwh0U

[Beloved]

I want cake.

[WingsOnFire]

Sleep and how I have not had any in the last three days. I am tired and need it but my body just hurts to much to allow for any good sleep to happen, *sigh*

Now you had sleep the night before last.. It will happen Daddy.. keep taking your meds to help the pain and hopefully you will sleep tonight.

Babygirl hugs.

[Kenna]

nightmares about my son. too vivid

[Gemme]

I had disturbing dreams about an ex.

Must be something in the air.

[jac]

What's on my mind...

I just found another student loan bill(s) that were hiding out in my stack of unread mail. There's just no way I can start paying over 200.00 rght off the bat this December...

I have calls to make this evening but, damnit man, this kind of stuff makes me sick to my stomach!

Then I get another one in April :worried:

[WolfyOne]

I put this on my FB wall, but because of my prior post here, I thought I should put it here, too.

I iz home sick today. What I thought were hot flashes yesterday, perhaps were the beginning of something bigger. Even though I got a flu shot, I think I still got a mild case of the flu. Working retail, always means somewhere, someone walked in with icky germs and passed them on throughout the store. No coffee for me today, just tea and whatever else is easy on the stomach to get down. Too bad the rescues haven't been trained to take care of me. Living alone with no one near, sucks when you're sick.

[NJFemmie]

Max and I are watching some roofers working on my backyard neighbor's house. I'm thinking that Hurricane Sandy has become such a blur over the past few weeks for us, yet some people were not as fortunate. His house is relatively close to ours, and he's had to deal with two downed trees and a ripped up roof.

I need to spend a little more time thanking my Guardian Angels.

[lilapache]

having to leave my daughter here in Oklahoma tomorrow
still trying to decide whether to move here or not
then having to leave my son in TN on Wed
trips trips and more trips.... then i'm hibernating through winter
*song rollercoaster running through my head for different reasons*

[clay]

thinking about how kind & compassionate the close friends I have are...always so supportive, offering kind words, lending an ear, or sending a hug..at just the right time...
Knowing when I found this PLanet, I found home....and love from so many....it is the RIGHT place to be....I wouldn't want to be any other place.
It is incredible to be able to be in this beautiful space...I heart you, my chosen family!

[GraffitiBoi]

Just wondering if it's possible to love/fall in love with someone you've never met in person... random thoughts...

[Bèsame*]

Hmmm, my air must be different...

I was dreaming of kisses. And, as much as I wanted, they weren't anywhere near the palm of my hand ;)

And then the rooster crowed somewhere out there!I had disturbing dreams about an ex.

Must be something in the air.

[Talon]

Thoughts about a sweet friend of mine, how she always makes me laugh and feel good whenever I talk to her. I hope she knows just how appreciated she is.

[PinkieLee]

Last night we cut open our first pomegranate. Dang, that's a pesky lil' fruit to get the goodness out of.

http://www.totalwellnesscleanse.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/12/pomegranate.jpg

I couldn't really decide if I liked it or not... but I couldn't stop eating it :) Pretty addicting!

[macele]

Last night we cut open our first pomegranate. Dang, that's a pesky lil' fruit to get the goodness out of.

http://www.totalwellnesscleanse.com/blog/wp-content/uploads/2010/12/pomegranate.jpg

I couldn't really decide if I liked it or not... but I couldn't stop eating it :) Pretty addicting!


a neighbor would give me pomegranates when i was a child, and my mother loved them. i loved them then. i still do. every child should be introduced to a pomegranate, ... i think most would like.

[Lazy Daze]

A truly lovely weekend..all the way to the very end :)

[Electrocell]

Sitting in N.LR waiting on a load . Beginning to wonder if I will get one out of here today.

[PaPa]

My Mother came home at lunchtime to say that Dad has a blood infection. He is also very worried. She came home so he could nap and she could eat lunch. Glad because a couple weeks ago when he was in the hospital she wouldn't even come home to do that!

[Tcountry]

spill proof container does not mean dog proof...especially when it holds the last monster cookie ..lol

[JustLovelyJenn]

Too many things on my mind today... its actually kind of hard to get them down in words...

... need to focus on my "gifts" a little more... my whispers are after me again
... slow... slow is good... remember... SLOW
... lyrics time... "i just cant fight this feeling anymore"
... I am so darn proud of my daughter for starting to learn the violin
... bounce, bounce, bounce
... i need to hang those shelves I found
... i wonder if there are brackets in the garage
... mmmmm... chinese...
... time to put up christmas decorations...

ok, thats enough for now.

[DamonK]

I can feel you. Don't worry. I'm fighting my way out of a migraine is all.

[QueenofSmirks]

Vegas in 25 days!!!!

[Gemme]

Vegas in 25 days!!!!

Bring something good back!

[DamonK]

Vegas in 25 days!!!!

Bring something good back!


Like money..... Please n thank you. And let's throw in some of Daywalker's koolaid

[Breezy]

I ended up on Prednisone and I won't sleep tonight.

[PaPa]

I ended up on Prednisone and I won't sleep tonight.

Sorry you are not feeling well. I hope you get well soon. <3

[bigbutchmistie]

A discussion among myself and some co workers and friends. We were talking about how I like to meet people over the internet and then in person. When Im looking for a partner. How shy I am in person until I really get to know someone.

I'd never be able to approach a femme in person. I'd have a heart attack from being scared... LOL

It was a good conversation. But they understood I guess cause they really know me.

[JustLovelyJenn]

Today was an amazing day overall. I feel accomplished, upbeat, and optimistic. I love those feelings... Now, to keep it that way... new outlook... here we go!! Lots to do tomorrow... my son really wants that Christmas tree up.

[Soft*Silver]

I am never feeding the new old dog left over meat loaf again. She is full of gas!!!!!!! :|

[Sunny]

There is nothing good on my mind........LOL

[jac]

I am hungry... and this chocolate cake with BRIGHT pink icing is not doing it for me. :cigar2:

[Ms. Meander]

Have you ever been so excited and happy that you're vibrating in such a way that feels like anxiety? It's a luxury problem, I know. I am going through a cycle of growth where a lot of positive things are coming my way all at once and I'm just a tad overwhelmed - especially because it comes on the heels of a rough patch. But I did the work to get here, and I am so grateful because I have gone without and gone it alone A LOT in my life. So I don't take my blessings for granted.

But I do need to bring myself down a notch or two in order to enjoy it better.

[Lazy Daze]

Thinking about my fellow officers in Indiana today (they will Always be my family)...sending healing thoughts their way as they say goodbye to one of our own who lost his battle with Cancer (w)

[falloutmk]

I am polyamorous and thinking about that femme girl who makes my heart feel butterflies that I just met recently. I am also thinking/wondering why I usually fall for Trans Women :) :tea:

[WolfyOne]

This week is not starting out good for me. Sick yesterday and today my car wouldn't start. Battery replacement time, but have to wait for my only friends out here to get off work. So, more time missed from work that I really can't afford. I am keeping a positive attitude that everything will work out and there is a reason everything happens.

[DamonK]

3 hours sleep....
Woke up with thoughts of....well, Nevermind those...
I have a dog clinging to me
I'm cold
I'm considering going back to sleep

Or... Thinking.....

[jac]

Feeling like a dog chasing my tail...

Time to payback loans from school but I called to get a couple of them deferred. Instead they offered me an Income Based Rpepayment plan. Sounds great but since I never did Tax Returns because of disability with my eyes, I have nothing from the IRS to give them... and they don't want any information from SSI because it's tax exempt.

Ugh, I'm clueless now. I'll get the paperwork printed out, sign what I can but them what............?? Crap!! :worried:

[Bard]

My interview is today and it is very very important there is BS at work and now all the supervisors have to reapply for our jobs AND the posting is open to any officer with more then 3 years on the job not just current supervisors.. ANYWAY I am ready but now my stomach is acting up wonderful I really can not be running to the bathroom during the interview FFS

[clay]

secretly coveting more of those super yummy "buckeyes" my neighbor has..
one of our other neighbors makes them every year at Thanksgiving & Christmas for neighbors.
My friend across the way shared some of hers with me the other day..
OMG she had BOTH maple ones and PB ones...I just HAD to indulge a few of each...yummm..these are so much better than the commercially made ones...

[lusciouskiwi]

Was chatting online with my American ex and asked for dating advice. She suggest I include photos with more boobage. :blink:

[lilapache]

secretly coveting more of those super yummy "buckeyes" my neighbor has..
one of our other neighbors makes them every year at Thanksgiving & Christmas for neighbors.
My friend across the way shared some of hers with me the other day..
OMG she had BOTH maple ones and PB ones...I just HAD to indulge a few of each...yummm..these are so much better than the commercially made ones...

my daughter put in her order already cause i make them and cookies and banana bread every year...

[jac]

Was chatting online with my American ex and asked for dating advice. She suggest I include photos with more boobage. :blink:

Thinking this must be one of the reasons she's an EX!! No need to advertise the goods... Leave it for the imagination!

[lusciouskiwi]

Thinking this must be one of the reasons she's an EX!! No need to advertise the goods... Leave it for the imagination!

Thanks Stonie :) But, that's not why we're exs. We were talking about how to get attention.

[clay]

my daughter put in her order already cause i make them and cookies and banana bread every year...

omg....I am so jellyosie...tell her she has to share....:).
These my naighbor makes, are so decadent. She uses a thinner coat of the chocolate so as not to overpower the PB.
Funny my neighbor who always gets me to take her places, came just after I posted above, for a ride on an errand. She said I have a small bag of buckeyes for you, as Ashley made me a huge tin more of them.
So I was able to get a couple more...snagggggggg...:)....score

[QueenofSmirks]

The desserts I need to make for this weekend... I still haven't decided yet! Maybe banana cream pie. Definitely Magic Cookie Bars :)

The possibility of buying a new car in the Spring

The very last 2 gifts I need to buy for the holidays, then I'm done!

[Talon]

This dinner with hym tonight...what will hy want to tell me? What does hy want to talk about? *deep sigh*
...I must admit that I am quite nervous about it. :twitch:....:nailbitin:

[JustLovelyJenn]

Food... I'm hungry.

HURRAH for leftover Chinese...

[DamonK]

....quite a few things....

[jac]

Thanks Stonie :) But, that's not why we're exs. We were talking about how to get attention.

Well, when it's the right one... they won't need a visual for you to have their attention. Just my perception on the thought.

What's on my mind...
The EMG hurt like a mofo and yet the readings came back showing less damage than two years ago. Impossible when my hands numb out and tingle on a regular basis.

What's on my mind...
I'm super irritable with the medical profession and their stupid toys they play with!!

[JustLovelyJenn]

I don't usually watch The West Wing, but I ran across a graphic today that made me look this up.... And now its on my mind... we need more people with power who are willing to stand up for whats right... I am glad to see a TV show that's willing to express themselves in a positive manner against bigotry.

S1-ip47WYWc

[Breezy]

Thank goodness for Prednisone. I find it suppresses my appetite. It makes my mind race but the I can live with it. I can breathe! I feel better.

[BstlMyhart]

Way too much...not good. Head is pounding.

[spritzerJ]

The efficiency of love. What makes a love most effective? hmmm...:blink:

[DamonK]

....pictures....
....conservations....
....various thoughts....

[Ginger]

I've been sleeping better, lately. I'm thirsty. That's an easy one to fix.

[jac]

The rainbow needs polishing
I have the crud kicking in
I'm here at work pulling an overnight with much on the brain
and I have been appointed the keeper of the logs

I need 8am to be here like 5 minutes ago

[spritzerJ]

Keeping focused on disconnecting the heart from the mouth and letting go. Savoring my own feelings privately. Staying open to joy and space to nurture.

A hot bath... yep I need one of those... candles and oil that smells good.

[DamonK]

My mind is very....very evil to me...
Very

[girl_dee]

that i will never get anything done with this lovebug in my lap!!

[~ocean]

waking up in hys arms ~ knowing hys strength fullfills me ~ hys someone I can look up too ~ never loosing hys stare ~ hy appreciates .... I melt into hym ~ hy leads us ~ I love you ~~ (((( U ))))

[JustLovelyJenn]

I should go to the hardware store today... for some shelving brackets, to look for the Christmas things my mom wants... and... well... just because I love the hardware store...

Also, I should buy a few powerball tickets today... *nods*

[bright_arrow]

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.

When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full.

They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.

The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was
Full.

They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.

Of course, the sand filled up everything else.

He asked once more if the jar was full..

The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand.

The students laughed..

'Now,' said the professor as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things---your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car..

The sand is everything else---the small stuff.

'If you put
The sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.

The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.

Spend time with your children.

Spend time with your parents.

Visit with grandparents.

Take your spouse out to dinner.

Play another 18.

There will always be time to clean the house and mow the lawn.

Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter.

Set your priorities.

The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the Beer represented.

The professor smiled and said, 'I'm glad you asked.'

The Beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of Beers with a friend.

Credit: The Idealist

[Hollylane]

That there are less than 40 days until Gaige arrives in Portland...We (me and the fur kids) cannot wait to have her here loving us all up!

I'm also thinking about how awesome it is that she knows all 6 of my pet's names, and sometimes sings Chewy's song to him, on the webcam, when I am not in the room. Adorable, delicious, scrumptious...I love her!

[DamonK]

Sighs wearily

Oops

[Hollylane]

That there are less than 40 days until Gaige arrives in Portland...We (me and the fur kids) cannot wait to have her here loving us all up!

I'm also thinking about how awesome it is that she knows all 6 of my pet's names, and sometimes sings Chewy's song to him, on the webcam, when I am not in the room. Adorable, delicious, scrumptious...I love her!

I kept thinking about this post, and had to come back and check it...and sure enough...Ha! I have 8 furry family members, not 6! Apparently it is time for bed!

[Bard]

my life and just how very blessed I am I have a wonderful wife who is my best friend who stands by me and is unwavering in her faith in me ... my daughter Goose who will be 9 on Dec 4th and the wonderful young lady she is becoming .. our furbabies Phoebe Gracie and Jules .. our hose that we have made a home and all the dreams and memories we are and will be making there our familys love and support .. and my guys here at work supporting me and rooting for me .. so very meany blessings


and well

nookie dates at home with my wife

[Talon]

Decisions...Decisions...Decisions.

....And that incredible moon last night...:moonstars:

[SelfMadeMan]

Weighing VERY heavily on my mind... our sweet baby Pixi, who we lost in a tragic accident yesterday. My heart is broken.

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[starryeyes]

I had a job interview yesterday. It was my first in over 8 years, so it was kinda weird. I think I was too stiff, lol. I am normally a very easy going person, but I was nervous. I really am not that excited about the job (staff interpreter position in a school district) because when I applied, they told me it was a 4 hour position, but now they upped it to 6 hours. I love working for myself but having steady income and benefits (which I have not had in 4 years) is sooo important. It also is the highest paying school district job in the county and right near my home. I can still do my freelancing at night too. We will see if I get a call back, and then weigh my options. :)

[starryeyes]

I am SO sorry. My heart goes out to you. :(

Weighing VERY heavily on my mind... our sweet baby Pixi, who we lost in a tragic accident yesterday. My heart is broken.

http://pic100.picturetrail.com/VOL900/3537512/21474029/404816622.jpg

[Bard]

I do not feel good and I am being a total baby woke up drenched in sweat lovely now I have chills and aches I feel very guilty about calling out but I spent last night with a runny nose and going from hot to cold so now I am going to let my wonderful wife baby me DESD>>>>> I need you :hamactor::seeingstars:

[morningstar55]

Mr Leonard and a stuck zipper ..... ** giggling**

[morningstar55]

Weighing VERY heavily on my mind... our sweet baby Pixi, who we lost in a tragic accident yesterday. My heart is broken.

http://pic100.picturetrail.com/VOL900/3537512/21474029/404816622.jpg

wow.... im soo soorry to read this .. (((((((((SMM))))))))))) you have my deepest sympathies.

ya know.... I use to raise australian shepards , my pride and joy was my Heidi,
and Heidi has been gone for wow 22 yrs now. But i gotta tell you , sometimes she comes to me in my dreams... TO THIS DAY!.. seriously she does.. and when she does she is always happy and bouncy. she will run to me out of no where.
and ya know.... your lil Pixi will too. you can bet on it.
she will always be with you in your heart and spirit, she will return to you.
and time..... time for your heart to heal.

[morningstar55]

never thought a game of words with friends could be sooooooo ahh exciting ... in fact its getting a lil warm in here.. lol

[Trev]

Today, yesterday, and all the days before those. Looking forward to tomorrow and I can't ponder it too much

[dixie]

Why is it that I only get soooooo tired and start wanting a nap when it's too late in the evening for a nap (that whole, can't sleep now or won't sleep tonight, thing)? I may just be a rebel and nap anyway. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz


Edited to add: wow...after hitting the submit button, I realized just how boring my life has become, when I am "rebelling" with a 7pm nap :| *sigh*

[durrrrrrrr]

wouldnt you like to be a gamer to?

[DMW]

Greasy diner food. Well, 2 fried eggs over hard, a BIG stack of buttermilk blueberry pancakes and maple syrup...coffee...good conversation...or maybe just a little conversation...and an all nighter until i couldn't sweat no more. And some water.

[JustLovelyJenn]

right now... run run run... deep breath... relax... dont get overwhelmed... its all good, just super busy

[spritzerJ]

I am thinking... my boss sucks. I work in crazyville. I am not a lemming.

[cinnamongrrl]

I am thinking... my boss sucks. I work in crazyville. I am not a lemming.

It's not every day I have to look up a word I don't know....kudos Ms. Spritz! :)

[DamonK]

An image put in my head

[Soft*Silver]

chrissy in playing Santa in a local community theater production. I have to figure out how to attach fleece to the top of his boots without doing so permanently yet making sure the fleece doesnt fall off during the 7 shows he has to perform

how??? :|

[clay]

chrissy in playing Santa in a local community theater production. I have to figure out how to attach fleece to the top of his boots without doing so permanently yet making sure the fleece doesnt fall off during the 7 shows he has to perform

how??? :|

wrap duct tape with sticky side outward...lay fleece backing to it. Duct tape keeps going and going and going..lol.

[DMW]

chrissy in playing Santa in a local community theater production. I have to figure out how to attach fleece to the top of his boots without doing so permanently yet making sure the fleece doesnt fall off during the 7 shows he has to perform

how??? :|

Velcro strips that come with the tape on the back of each corresponding piece. I think you can buy the strips...ugh radio shack. I gonna have to go find now...
Oh...and I can't sew. I have used dental floss before..for a hammock..
I can sorta do it. Good luck

And what Clay said..maybe easiest




http://www.officemax.com/office-supplies/tape-glue-adhesives/tape/velcro/product-ARS24793

http://http://www.officemax.com/office-supplies/tape-glue-adhesives/tape/velcro/product-ARS24793

[clay]

Velcro strips that comes with the tape on the back of each corresponding piece. I think you can buy the strips...ugh radio shack. I gonna have to go find now...

And what Clay said..maybe easiest

thanks DMW. The velcro would be a great idea, too. They are available at WalMart in sewing dept.
I just wonder what the residual would be with the whole strip being sticky...hmm...ponder...ponder...

[Tcountry]

Rocky Road ice cream
cucumbers & melons
A very sweet walk
& a morning song

:)

[Hollylane]

I hate being home sick (just a cold), I'd much rather be home feeling fine (mental health day of fucking off).

[DamonK]

..a dream..

[starryeyes]

I'm going to Santa Barbara tonight, but not for a good visit :(

My grandma died from cancer on June 30th, and my family was not able to keep her house because of her reverse mortgage. So, it went on the market and was sold in 3 days. The buyer is cash, demanded a 2 week escrow and my family agreed :(

So, off we go to clean out the house and sell her possessions in a garage sale tomorrow morning. I don't know how I am going to feel about this. We can't keep them, I know this. She has a house full of trinkets, furniture, clothes... But it's still my grandma's, and I don't know how I am going to handle everyone rummaging through our memories.

I am going to stay strong and help my family, because it's the right thing to do. But, it's still going to SUCK.

That's on my mind.

[Miss Scarlett]

How is it possible that I went to bed last night with ten perfectly manicured and polished nails only to wake up this morning with a broken nail?

[ruffryder]

work.. jobs.

[chakra]

Is numerology for real?
Is there any significance to the date Dec 21, 2012?
Will my legs ever truly heal?

[dixie]

Not sure why I let such little things get under my skin and affect me so negatively. I guess I am just sensitive about certain things and/or situations. I really wish I could stop though. I'm beginning to get highly aggravated at myself.

[dixie]

Today was a pretty good day. My client product consult went well. The client ended up ordering 67 prints plus scheduling another product consult for this last session plus scheduling another portrait session. She also wants to pre-order a ginormous 40x60" gallery wrap which I usually charge around $450. That makes me happy. I like when clients are happy with my work.

She also made requests for a number of other products, some of which I offer and some I haven't been offering. Sooooo....instead of the free weekend that I thought I would get, I will instead be designing and putting together a new catalog of products and services. I also have to update my client order forms, because apparently the one I have is confusing and not very effective.

Gonna be a long weekend in front of the keyboard. Oh so worth it though...:hangloose:

[cinnamongrrl]

If there world really ends on the 21st I will be sooo upset that the government took the money I was intending to use to hike the Appalachian Trail with....however, seeing how the Mayans thought the sun wouldn't rise without sacrificing virgins.....how right can they possibly be? However, I will be in school in March of this year...so no AT again this year....sigh....

[JustJo]

Sitting here....tv is on...another ad "FDA warning....those who have taken Januvia for diabetes are at increased risk for pancreatic cancer."

I took that for 3 years.

Before that it was Actos...FDA now says no one should be on it for more than a year....due to increased risk of bladder cancer.

I took that for 6 years.

I'm not on either anymore, but it makes me wonder what may be down the road for me. And also, how safe are the things I'm on now? Doctor and FDA say they are safe....but they said the same about Januvia and Actos too.

Diabetes sucks...big time.

There are days when I'm tempted to stop taking all meds and take my chances with my sluggish pancreas. And then I think about my eyes...which already were showing damage when I was diagnosed.

I tell myself I know now that I'm diabetic...so I won't be eating the things I used to. But I know from experience that's not enough...so there would still be damage.

Would the natural damage of diabetes and careful eating be better or worse than being a guinea pig for the pharmaceutical industry? I wonder...

[GreeneyedMe]

Sitting here....tv is on...another ad "FDA warning....those who have taken Januvia for diabetes are at increased risk for pancreatic cancer."

I took that for 3 years.

Before that it was Actos...FDA now says no one should be on it for more than a year....due to increased risk of bladder cancer.

I took that for 6 years.

I'm not on either anymore, but it makes me wonder what may be down the road for me. And also, how safe are the things I'm on now? Doctor and FDA say they are safe....but they said the same about Januvia and Actos too.

Diabetes sucks...big time.

There are days when I'm tempted to stop taking all meds and take my chances with my sluggish pancreas. And then I think about my eyes...which already were showing damage when I was diagnosed.

I tell myself I know now that I'm diabetic...so I won't be eating the things I used to. But I know from experience that's not enough...so there would still be damage.

Would the natural damage of diabetes and careful eating be better or worse than being a guinea pig for the pharmaceutical industry? I wonder...

WOW, I just was taken off Januvia two weeks ago....was on it for almost two years....great...I feel for you as I am there also. Diabetes definitely sucks. Hang tough!

[Miss Scarlett]

A question...

[girl_dee]

How well behaved Syr's pack is. 7 dogs and it's quiet as a church in here.

[DamonK]

Words said.

[JAGG]

One awesome dream I had last night!!!!!!!!!!! MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
MY MY !!!!!!!:grindevil: Why did I have to wake up . Still it was sweet !

[JustLovelyJenn]

the weekend to do list...
wanting to spend some time on the things i love... like painting and cooking
more christmas decorating
friendships... new and old.

[Mistress]

I am at drill right now and they have a full day of boring classes but I have to have them for the army... This sorta sucks.

[DamonK]

A wide variety of things....

[Hollylane]

Cold medicine is evil, I slept about 10 hrs, and I'm still drowsy. Also, why do they need to use petroleum based dyes (Blue No. 1, FD&C Red No. 40 (http://www.cspinet.org/fooddyes/)) in my cold medicine? Is it going to make me feel better if it's red vs the natural color of the ingredients? I'm really kind of tired of seeing petroleum based coloring in things I may ingest. WTF (why the fuck) isn't the FDA protecting me from that?

[JustLovelyJenn]

Cold medicine is evil, I slept about 10 hrs, and I'm still drowsy. Also, why do they need to use petroleum based dyes (Blue No. 1, FD&C Red No. 40 (http://www.cspinet.org/fooddyes/)) in my cold medicine? Is it going to make me feel better if it's red vs the natural color of the ingredients? I'm really kind of tired of seeing petroleum based coloring in things I may ingest. WTF (why the fuck) isn't the FDA protecting me from that?

Very very good question... so I decided to do some research, I found a dye free option!! YAY!! Now I know what I will be buying next time...

http://www.vicks.com/Assets/Images/en-US/Products/PrimaryProductImg/IMG_P_NF_Cough_Congest_A.png

[Leigh]

My heart being home again & how happy i am :heartbeat:

[WintergreenGem]

*chat
* my friends
* the parade tomorrow
* painting these ceramic Christmas decorations

[JustLovelyJenn]

Today is World AIDS Day... and as I see all the posts and comments about it today it has been on my mind. There are so many suffering, and so much that could be done... and still so much stigma... It makes me sad... but at the same time... attitudes are changing and work is being done... and that makes me hopeful.

These statistics were have been on my mind...
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[DamonK]

The three textbooks open beside me
Dream from last night
Memories that stay vivid, yet slowly are fading
Desires I have

[JustLovelyJenn]

Some nights are about internal investigation, discovery, and insight. Tonight just happens to be one of those nights for me.

I have always believed that there would be nothing in my life that I was not given the strength to overcome. In some moments, it was this knowledge alone that kept me moving forward. Just understanding that no matter what happens I WILL come out the other side. It is that same knowledge that has prompted me to take the big steps in life... the ones I was not sure about, the ones whose outcome was uncertain. I knew that I was a strong person, and that the powers that be would not place more in my path then I was capable of conquering.

Lately, as I look at those around me, I find it so hard to understand why others don't have this same conviction and determination. Why is it that some people have so much trouble looking past what is to what might be and moving in a forwardly direction?

We are all amazing and resilient creatures, and it is only through testing our boundaries, our abilities, and the limits to which we can survive hardship that we find our fullest potential and happiness in life.

If you have that chance to grab for something you want, stop hesitating, step out of your comfort zone, and allow yourself to be more then you are, and all that you can be.

[DamonK]

Song lyrics reverberating in my head and fits completely in this moment...

"'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away and I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today 'cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right and though I can't be with you tonight, know my heart is by your side" --Daniel Bedingfield "If You're Not the One"

[FeminineAllure]

Making changes in myself and my life for the better.

[Leigh]

Thinking about the future and how wonderful it will be ~ I have a great job right now, my heart is home where it belongs and I'm just a much happier person :D

[Bard]

decorating the tree tonight with my love with our pups playing around us

[Breezy]

Kidney failure extent.

[Tony]

What's on my mind....

She really is something else.
Everyday I realize more & more what she means to me.
And it's true; when a door closes, a window opens. Often with a much better view. ;-)

[JustLovelyJenn]

Thinking about the future and how wonderful it will be ~ I have a great job right now, my heart is home where it belongs and I'm just a much happier person :D

Its good to see you truly happy Leigh!!!

[DamonK]

I was minding my own business taking my final for one of my classes.

Then someone had to come check on me. And I felt her.

Now I have 2 things trapped in my head...

A wide variety of numbers and rules and formulas and laws
And nails.

Nails....

Evil you are.

[DamonK]

Numbers, laws, rules, equations, formulas, techniques for simplifying actions and finding errors.

Images. Thoughts. Ideas. Conversations.

[~ocean]

loving SB brings happy tears to my eyes ~

[Bard]

9 years ago today I was holding my daughter for the first time. Today I went to the EX's house to see my Goose and so I could give her birthday huggs and kisses I am so very proud of the young lady she is becoming. And yet she is still not to big to want to come and sit on my lap and just cuddle. Happy Birthday to my sweet wonderful smart amazing Goose your Mama and your Desd and the pack Phoebe Gracie and Jules love you so very much
:surpriseparty:
:pinata:
:openprez:

[Duchess]

The dinner invitation I turned down. Could have saved me some kitchen time.:)

[Electrocell]

Going to take a Shower just hope they don't call me in the middle of it like they did that one time lol.

[DamonK]

1. I've been studying too long. I just spent an hour trying to total numbers that... I knew better than to forget that... And forget I did! *had a HUGE duh moment* Just because you think it should add up to equal the final number, don't mean it should add up to equal the final number.

2. I'm pondering on an idea. I'm not sure how I will put it together, but I'm starting to get close to a solution.

3. MBE and Bear have both promised I get to sleep soon. For more than 5 hours at a time.

4. I have a final that must be taken tomorrow.

5. I have one image in my head, like a snapshot.

6. Your presence is felt. A lot. A whole lot.

[Breezy]

Creating positive outcomes.

Changing the things I can change and letting go the rest.

[Soft*Silver]

I am weary. I had three days off but worked during them. Physical work. And not housework. Work work. Weary. Now I have to go to the shop to work. I need a day off...

[Talon]

A dear friend of mine, who is in some real pain right now...:watereyes:

[DamonK]

I have heard from the rational part of my brain.
I have heard from the irrational part of my brain.

Rational is mostly winning.

I got this. I can do it.

[PinkieLee]

I need a nap, a massage and a margarita... in that order please!

[StoneOne]

The move over the rockies with snow and it's been a long time coming ...... what awaits Me......

[Miss Scarlett]

All the wonderful things that make me smile more, hold my head up just a little bit higher and the deep appreciation I have of all the gifts the Universe has seen fit to bestow upon me...

[starryeyes]

Seeing an ugly side of me that is not pleasant. Learning from my mistakes. Growing as a person and not letting emotions overrule my sanity.

[DamonK]

It can be startling how quickly things can become clear. I had a dream last night and didn't understand it at first. Then it dawned on me what it was really about.

I was floored.

[jac]

What's on my mind...

Our future day-to-day living that will happen for us and how it all just feels so right.
I get lost in daydreams quite frequently these day :fan:

[SFvince64]

(Trigger warning: abuse)
I'm a little apprehensive about going to Colorado for Christmas to see my family. My family hasn't seen me since I started my physical transition from F to M and I'm anxious about how they'll react. Although one of my brothers is very supportive, the rest of my family is struggling and hasn't spoken to me in over a year.

I have a particularly strained relationship with my parents, as there was a lot of abuse while I was growing up. Now that I have a goatee, sideburns and my physical transition is quite noticeable, I'm afraid that they will be physically abusive with me again. I only see my family once every couple of years, but my Mom still hits me from time to time. I would never hit my Mom and I've never called the police over it. I don't like it but I don't know what to do about it.

My stomach is all tied up in knots.

[GPS]

thinking about my upcoming surgery dec 14th. its coming up quick and i have so much to do before hand.

[Ginger]

(Trigger warning: abuse)
I'm a little apprehensive about going to Colorado for Christmas to see my family. My family hasn't seen me since I started my physical transition from F to M and I'm anxious about how they'll react. Although one of my brothers is very supportive, the rest of my family is struggling and hasn't spoken to me in over a year.

I have a particularly strained relationship with my parents, as there was a lot of abuse while I was growing up. Now that I have a goatee, sideburns and my physical transition is quite noticeable, I'm afraid that they will be physically abusive with me again. I only see my family once every couple of years, but my Mom still hits me from time to time. I would never hit my Mom and I've never called the police over it. I don't like it but I don't know what to do about it.

My stomach is all tied up in knots.


Maybe you thought of this, but in case you haven't, I wanted to mention, it might be a good idea not to stay at their house, not to be dependent on them in that way.

If you have a friend to stay with, that might be a good idea. Or it might be smart to stay in a motel if you can afford it.

[DamonK]

My thoughts are burning... Consuming

[rockstar lover]

All the paperwork I still need to do...

The upcoming dance on saturday...

The weight loss bet that I'm currently losing (but only by 2 lbs)...

Just life & love in general....

[DamonK]

*raises an eyebrow*
That was a very odd dream... Very

[girl_dee]

Wondering if my iphone emoticons are showing up!

😍😝✌💘👯

Can you see them???

[clay]

Wondering if my iphone emoticons are showing up!

����✌����

Can you see them???

No...this is what they look like 4 tiny squares with some kjind of a face in middle of them...real tiny size face

[girl_dee]

No...this is what they look like 4 tiny squares with some kjind of a face in middle of them...real tiny size face

ok thanks, i see them as they should be. Freaky!

[JustLovelyJenn]

Today I have a lot on my mind, being sick in bed gives one plenty of time to think... One thing that is occupying a great deal of this think time is the idea of fate.

I am a strong believer in the Fates. There are lessons in life one is destined to learn and the Fates have been given charge of leading you to those lessons. Sometimes, our stubbornness and free will means they have to lead us back to the same lesson many times. In the same way that we must continue to live through the same life lesson until it sticks, sometimes we overlook the blessings that are meant for us as well. In these cases, the fates then must lead us back to these blessings... but even the Fates do not have infinite patience. If we continue to overlook the good that may be present in our lives and refuse to take a risk in accepting it and pursing it (even happiness and blessings must be worked for an maintained) then eventually, it will no longer be on our path.

Its never enough to wish for happiness, blessings, and gifts, we must seek them out, work for them, and make them happen. Opportunity is the greatest gift we can be given, but even if the door has been unlocked, we must still turn the handle, open it, and walk through it to the future we are offered.

[Ginger]

Nutella is on my mind.

[DMW]

Today I have a lot on my mind, being sick in bed gives one plenty of time to think... One thing that is occupying a great deal of this think time is the idea of fate.

I am a strong believer in the Fates. There are lessons in life one is destined to learn and the Fates have been given charge of leading you to those lessons. Sometimes, our stubbornness and free will means they have to lead us back to the same lesson many times. In the same way that we must continue to live through the same life lesson until it sticks, sometimes we overlook the blessings that are meant for us as well. In these cases, the fates then must lead us back to these blessings... but even the Fates do not have infinite patience. If we continue to overlook the good that may be present in our lives and refuse to take a risk in accepting it and pursing it (even happiness and blessings must be worked for an maintained) then eventually, it will no longer be on our path.

it's never enough to wish for happiness, blessings, and gifts, we must seek them out, work for them, and make them happen. Opportunity is the greatest gift we can be given, but even if the door has been unlocked, we must still turn the handle, open it, and walk through it to the future we are offered.

Fin I pad

This post is Brilliant and beautiful. Thank you

[Electrocell]

Sleep or lack of lol.

[Greyson]

The near future and not so near future.

[DamonK]

Various music
I actually watched TV today
The pups
School....
Did I mention music?
Images put in my head
I just realized I never got around to eating today
Considering taking a walk

[Kenna]

filing a missing persons report on my son.
deep sadness

[cinnamongrrl]

A very bad dream...I'm not sure I can get back to sleep.... :(

[Ginger]

http://www.latimes.com/news/local/la-me-la-poet-laureate-20121207,0,154103.story

[Teddybear]

A very bad dream...I'm not sure I can get back to sleep.... :(

U hope u were able to my love

[Rook]

Wondering if I should rent a movie called "Tomboy"{2011}..

[Greyson]

http://www.latimes.com/news/local/la-me-la-poet-laureate-20121207,0,154103.story



Thank you so much for posting this. Back in the 80's I would attend the Lesbian Writers Series at the now closed "A Different Light Book Store" in SilverLake, a neighborhood in the City of Los Angeles.

Eloise Klein Healy read there many times. I remember she was also a professor at California State University, Northridge, CSUN. Her poetry moved me and what touched me even more about her is the time she took with her audience. After the reading was over she was always so engaging and kind with the people who lingered to speak with her. I know she also mentored younger lesbian writers.

Here's to Eloise Klein Healy. Job well done.She has earned this honor.

[Talon]

How truly fortunate I am...on so many, many, levels...I always want to remember that....Life is *Truly* the most profounnd gift ever bestowed upon me.....:present:

[DMW]

very odd...did not see previous posts...cheers

Cranberries - Little Drummer Boy - YouTube

Frank Sinatra - The Little Drummer Boy (Best version ever) - YouTube


Karen Carpenter (The Carpenters) - Christmas Portrait (19 Dec 1978) - Ave Maria - YouTube

[Talon]

My :heartbeat:...and where it *truly * stands with you.


It is a true mystery to me.

God, help me.

[StrongButch]

My grl and I going to bed early tonight!

[Ginger]

Thank you so much for posting this. Back in the 80's I would attend the Lesbian Writers Series at the now closed "A Different Light Book Store" in SilverLake, a neighborhood in the City of Los Angeles.

Eloise Klein Healy read there many times. I remember she was also a professor at California State University, Northridge, CSUN. Her poetry moved me and what touched me even more about her is the time she took with her audience. After the reading was over she was always so engaging and kind with the people who lingered to speak with her. I know she also mentored younger lesbian writers.

Here's to Eloise Klein Healy. Job well done.She has earned this honor.

I knew Eloise when I lived in L.A. and was just starting out as a writer. I worked at The Woman's Building and she was involved with the writing program there.

I had my very first reading ever, in about 1983 at A Different Light Bookstore in Silverlake. I still remember what I wore (white culottes, red blouse), and some of what I read. My friend Tommy (he has since died of AIDS), brought me a bouquet of flowers with a card that said, "I'm bustin' my buttons with pride."

Interestingly, a woman taped that reading, unbeknownst to me, and a few years ago got in touch with me through a publisher of mine and sent the cassette tape. Later she came through NYC and we met at a diner in the West Village. She's a butch out in San Francisco.

Eloise wrote a letter of recommendation, helping me get into graduate school. I haven't stayed in touch with her so much since I moved out here, but I have followed her work somewhat. A close mutual friend is the one who alerted me that she was getting the laureate.

Sometimes I miss L.A.

[JustLovelyJenn]

I really want to get up today and do things. I want to put away boxes, finish decorating for the holidays, and get into the kitchen... but I know if I can just stay in bed another day or two it will help so much with my recovery from whatever nasty I have caught... *sigh* I really do not like being idle...

[Miss Scarlett]

A tearful phone call from a colleague who lost her job today...business at her law firm has slowed down so she was laid off.

It reminded me how fortunate I am. Because when that happened to my office last year I only had my hours cut from 40 to 32.

[DamonK]

One year ago. I believe this exact date. If not, very close.

[SleepyButch]

My sister got a call today from a fill in nurse at her doctor's office. This nurse proceeded to tell her that she had untreatable cervical cancer. I can't even imagine what my sister was going through. The nurse told her all about her condition, then told her someone would call her because they needed to refer her to a specialist. The nurse verified my sister's phone number and guess what?? It wasn't her number! The nurse fucked up and called the wrong person. Being a nurse myself, this is inexcusable. Not only did she scare my sister half to death, but the nurse also told my sister the name of the person who does have the cervical cancer.
Just has me thinking now about the poor person who did have to hear that news today. Life is just way too short.

[Rook]

I'm missing GRIMM...because they chose to give SNL....on a FRIDAY night !!! {puerto rico doesn't observe DST}

[Gemme]

My sister got a call today from a fill in nurse at her doctor's office. This nurse proceeded to tell her that she had untreatable cervical cancer. I can't even imagine what my sister was going through. The nurse told her all about her condition, then told her someone would call her because they needed to refer her to a specialist. The nurse verified my sister's phone number and guess what?? It wasn't her number! The nurse fucked up and called the wrong person. Being a nurse myself, this is inexcusable. Not only did she scare my sister half to death, but the nurse also told my sister the name of the person who does have the cervical cancer.
Just has me thinking now about the poor person who did have to hear that news today. Life is just way too short.

WTF???

What happened to, "Hello, may I speak to Jane Doe, please?"

That would have caused one less anxiety attack, anyway.

[Ginger]

My sister got a call today from a fill in nurse at her doctor's office. This nurse proceeded to tell her that she had untreatable cervical cancer. I can't even imagine what my sister was going through. The nurse told her all about her condition, then told her someone would call her because they needed to refer her to a specialist. The nurse verified my sister's phone number and guess what?? It wasn't her number! The nurse fucked up and called the wrong person. Being a nurse myself, this is inexcusable. Not only did she scare my sister half to death, but the nurse also told my sister the name of the person who does have the cervical cancer.
Just has me thinking now about the poor person who did have to hear that news today. Life is just way too short.


What's also shocking is that a) such horrible news would not be delivered by the person's doctor and b) that it would not be delivered in person.

I hope it wasn't a cruel hoax of some type...

creepy. And your poor sister.

[SleepyButch]

WTF???

What happened to, "Hello, may I speak to Jane Doe, please?"

That would have caused one less anxiety attack, anyway.

That's what I thought as well. You always ask for the person... always.

[SleepyButch]

What's also shocking is that a) such horrible news would not be delivered by the person's doctor and b) that it would not be delivered in person.

I hope it wasn't a cruel hoax of some type...

creepy. And your poor sister.

I don't think it was a hoax... sometimes on a Friday late... we have to deliver bad news like that so that they can get going on their treatment or decide what they want to do. I've had to deliver bad news like that. Sometimes I think I'm more compassionate as well. Just my thoughts.

[Ginger]

I don't think it was a hoax... sometimes on a Friday late... we have to deliver bad news like that so that they can get going on their treatment or decide what they want to do. I've had to deliver bad news like that. Sometimes I think I'm more compassionate as well. Just my thoughts.

That's so disheartening. I mean that people have to get news like that over the phone but yeah, I see why it has to be that way, given how expensive time is, how hard it is to make appointments, etc., and what you said about moving quickly on treatment.

But it just seems... I don't know. I think of how it would feel to me, even with a smart, compassionate medical professional who is not my doctor, breaking that kind of news to me. I guess I have been pretty sheltered from knowing these things.

[clay]

One year ago...today...my surgery to save my life!!! I am both very blessed & very grateful!! To my BFF...THANK YOU for walking this journey with me...I heart you...always...

[txdoc]

Contemplating my aging parents and their health after spending the day with my Mom in the hospital. This woman who is a pillar of strength and does yoga and swims and only eats the right things is facing the possibility of a stroke diagnosis. Today she is like a little girl and I'm not showing her my fear.

[DamonK]

Now that is a conversation that is gonna stick in my head.....

[Sun]

I don't think it was a hoax... sometimes on a Friday late... we have to deliver bad news like that so that they can get going on their treatment or decide what they want to do. I've had to deliver bad news like that. Sometimes I think I'm more compassionate as well. Just my thoughts.

I have heard from many who have received bad news but never heard of it being delivered on the phone. It is in the best interest of the patient to have news of a life threatening illness delivered in a physicians office where appropriate referrals can be made. What if the person was driving? What liability implications are there in such a situation?

Then there is the potential referral to counseling. I can understand a follow up call if a life threatening illness has previously been diagnosed and there is a change or tests show that something alarming is going on, but a diagnosis over the phone just sounds wrong to me. I am sorry for anyone who is directed to make such a call.

[1PlayfulFemme]

My sister got a call today from a fill in nurse at her doctor's office. This nurse proceeded to tell her that she had untreatable cervical cancer. I can't even imagine what my sister was going through. The nurse told her all about her condition, then told her someone would call her because they needed to refer her to a specialist. The nurse verified my sister's phone number and guess what?? It wasn't her number! The nurse fucked up and called the wrong person. Being a nurse myself, this is inexcusable. Not only did she scare my sister half to death, but the nurse also told my sister the name of the person who does have the cervical cancer.
Just has me thinking now about the poor person who did have to hear that news today. Life is just way too short.

Oh good gravy! As a nurse, you know that violates every Hipaa Law ever made! The legality of it is HUGE all by itself!!! The ignorance of that fill in nurse, at any point in her career..is so very inexcusable!!!

Your poor sister! The shock and dismay it must have caused!! I can't imagine hearing "INCURABLE". The C word is scary enough..on any level, but to add the I word?!

And, while I am relieved it's not your sister, my heart bleeds for the person getting this news, especially in the midst of this season. I know, the world doesn't stop because the holidays are upon us..it's just such a bad time of year to hear such devastating news. (not that there is a good time)

And you're right..life is far too short...we are never blessed with the knowledge of what tomorrow will bring!

WTF???

What happened to, "Hello, may I speak to Jane Doe, please?"

That would have caused one less anxiety attack, anyway.

*not only courteous...it's the law*

I have heard from many who have received bad news but never heard of it being delivered on the phone. It is in the best interest of the patient to have news of a life threatening illness delivered in a physicians office where appropriate referrals can be made. What if the person was driving? What liability implications are there in such a situation?

Then there is the potential referral to counseling. I can understand a follow up call if a life threatening illness has previously been diagnosed and there is a change or tests show that something alarming is going on, but a diagnosis over the phone just sounds wrong to me. I am sorry for anyone who is directed to make such a call.

I totally agree Sun..this level of bad news should always be face to face..I just can't imagine a doctor or situation where an "inoperable cancer" diagnosis couldn't wait until they could make it to the doctors....(unless they had mobility issues?)... I could understand it if there were something that could be done that day..that night...the next day...etc.

Seems so..heartless..in a field that most people get into because OF their hearts...

Just my 2..wait 3...maybe 4 cents... :)

[SleepyButch]

Oh good gravy! As a nurse, you know that violates every Hipaa Law ever made! The legality of it is HUGE all by itself!!! The ignorance of that fill in nurse, at any point in her career..is so very inexcusable!!!

Your poor sister! The shock and dismay it must have caused!! I can't imagine hearing "INCURABLE". The C word is scary enough..on any level, but to add the I word?!

And, while I am relieved it's not your sister, my heart bleeds for the person getting this news, especially in the midst of this season. I know, the world doesn't stop because the holidays are upon us..it's just such a bad time of year to hear such devastating news. (not that there is a good time)

And you're right..life is far too short...we are never blessed with the knowledge of what tomorrow will bring!



*not only courteous...it's the law*



I totally agree Sun..this level of bad news should always be face to face..I just can't imagine a doctor or situation where an "inoperable cancer" diagnosis couldn't wait until they could make it to the doctors....(unless they had mobility issues?)... I could understand it if there were something that could be done that day..that night...the next day...etc.

Seems so..heartless..in a field that most people get into because OF their hearts...

Just my 2..wait 3...maybe 4 cents... :)

I guess as a patient, I would want to be told this type of news ASAP, like as soon as the doctor found out about it. So getting a phone call would be okay for me. Not only that but I imagine such news would get me extremely upset and I would not want that to happen in the doctor's office. Then I would have to walk out into the waiting room in front of all of those people? I don't think I would like that at all.

In working with surgeons who had to diagnose cancer all the time, I had many many patients calling daily, wanting to know their results. I guess it's just a personal preference. Some people don't mind knowing over the phone and some people do. I think it seems heartless for some to have to wait until that scheduled appointment in a week or two to find out those results. Let's face it, doctor's don't have the time to work patients in at the drop of a hat and if they did, it's a few minutes of their time to tell you this type of news and they are on to the next patient.

[Leigh]

That must have been scary Sleepy - I've watched 3 family membersdie of that damn "C" word that must have scared her shitless :|

[DamonK]

Potential plans

[JustLovelyJenn]

I am going to venture out of bed today. My poor house has suffered unending cruelties in uncleanliness while I have been stuck in bed... I don't think anyone else knows how to clean around here...

[kittygrrl]

trying very hard to feel better today..

[cinnamongrrl]

Today is the 3 year anniversary of my dog, Matty, passing. I still miss her all the time... She was with me for 14 years. It's rather saddening to know I have to live the rest of my life without her. I still kiss her picture when I pass by and her box that holds her ashes...But it's not the same as the tangible. I miss having her with me while I hike. And the spots we shared... I feel like she's there sometimes...I only wish she were.
I will always miss that light that was in her eyes when we were in the woods...that spirit....That's about all I can manage at this time....

Much love and big hugs to my favorite furry girl...I will always love you <3

[sylvie]

Friendships.
The importance of people in my life.. i really cherish a new friendship made.
Very dear, thoughtful and i love when paths cross unexpectedly. She's a breath of fresh air, and her & her husband are such kind, selfless human beings.
Very grateful for new friendships as well as the seasoned friendships. The ones who have brought such joy through the years. The ones who took moments of their time to extend kindness, and care throughout the years. Friendships near and far. i have some really wonderful people in my life, online & offline. And Mtn & i are very grateful for Our dear Planet friendships as well ....Such blessings!

[Prudence]

Just name it.. I'm thinking about it.

[RockOn]

I am exhausted and cannot sleep. Here I sit in the kitchen eating a banana sandwich with peanut butter and potato chips. Chips must be in the sandwich and not on the side for it to be right. And have consumed almost a quart of milk. These sandwiches really bring on the thrist.

It is around 2:00 a.m. ...
WTF????

[DamonK]

Quite bluntly, sex.

Fantasies.

[Soon]

I don't want to go home.

[LeftWriteFemme]

nzpnWuk3RjU

[Blade]

uggg what to put in my empty, tender belly

[Lazy Daze]

We need to do our Christmas cards today.. and I don't want to! I would rather hit the beach and play all day!

[Morgance]

A lot of things are rushing into my mind right now. Homework, this girl, that movie and such.

[DamonK]

I would be more than happy to go back to sleep and dream THAT dream some more.

[LeftWriteFemme]

On Being Witness to Extraordinary History


http://www.huffingtonpost.com/gov-chris-gregoire/on-being-witness-to-extraordinary-history_b_2260451.html?utm_hp_ref=gay-voices

[cinnamongrrl]

Socialism....

[DamonK]

Various ideas

That Beagle that is staring at me, thinking I want her in my lap and trying to stare me down. I think she thinks I will obey... She is mistaken

Which of course made me think about obeying

[Leigh]

Too much, my brain wont turn off :(

[jac]

I'm always such a practical shopper when buying Christmas gifts. Why is this bugging me at 3 something in the morning? Ugh... I wanna give fun stuff this year. Time to rest in bed and think of things I can give that are fun...

Till I fall asleep. :hamactor:

[Reader]

I recently got a job that I feel woefully under-qualified for. The place is way bigger and more professional, as well as more highly regarded in the industry, than my last place, the place they hired me out of.

You can see the post here > http://www.butchfemmeplanet.com/forum/showthread.php?p=695887#post695887 < about my last (3rd) long interview just before they offered me the job, if you care to read it.

Occasionally, one gets to find out the answer to something that they usually would never find out.

I found out what it was about me that made them hire me. It was a sentence I said during my 3rd grueling interview.

Usually, I imagine that no one pays attention to individual sentences like I do. I love writers and good writing. I am an exceptional reader, hence my screen name, not because of the volume of reading that I do, but because of the quality of my reading and the attention I give to things I read, especially those things I like. It's like being a good listener.

I know a woman who is absolutely the best "listener" for readers who share their own work with her. She is a retired English teacher and she did the same thing with her 7th grade students when they read their poems and creative writing pieces to the class aloud.

She gets comfortable and then she closes her eyes and appears to be drinking in the sounds of the reading. She tilts her head as if to fine tune her hearing and she basically makes readers feel like they are the only sound in the room. She follows her listening with such great feedback.

So, I feel lucky that the "big" boss, my boss' boss said casually during a conference call that the reason they chose me was because of a sentence I said during that last interview, which he repeated verbatim: "I like to wreak order from chaos."

He works in pharma, but I bet one of his personal passions must be reading. I had been wondering why they hired me when I didn't know their software, systems or therapeutic areas. I still think they could have found someone better in those ways than me. But, sometimes, I guess, even corporate America still makes decisions based on things other than keywords.

Who knew?

[DamonK]

News reports
I'm hungry
A quote I saw
You... every day

[cinnamongrrl]

people and things....