What is on your mind

[WingsOnFire]

How much Sir and i have grown over the past two months..Changes discussed and adventures planned. Looking forward to O/our future together.

[TheMerryFairy]

Floating is on my mind - it's peaceful. I needed this.

[always2late]

I so need a retreat. First I thought cabin, fireplace, mountains, now I am thinking beach or desert oasis. Blazing heat, sunshine, Palm tree's, good music, a hot tub, peace.

Ohhh a retreat sounds good! I can't wait until it gets warmer and I can head off into the mountains.

[Contessa]

So there I was at the nail salon today watching the Barefoot Contessa with the nail girls while getting my nails done and she [the barefoot contessa] was making a greek meal and she kept referring to hummus as "hoom-is" when I've always, always heard it pronounced "hum-is" and now because she's a professional, I'm thinking WTF ... who is right and how is it REALLY pronounced and how can I EVER ask for it in public again without being unsure? I can't. I can never eat hummus in public again. Damnit.

Forget how she says it. Yes, I like some aspects of her show..But trust me, she doesn't always get all things right. Don't sweat the small stuff. Be a Texan (and a lesbian) and feel free to HUMMM away...

[Spirit Dancer]

Travel time, new chapters, old friends,
the feeling of home.
Eagle Spirit, Lil Spirit their love and smiles.
Road trip that will begin a new path:moonstars:

[grenade]

I'm stressed. I'm arguing with HR over something I should have just let pass. I guess I still have plenty of life lessons to learn. I really need an occupation change. I'm already bored.

[DamonK]

I woke up rather suddenly.

[spritzerJ]

Irritable, feeling dull and grrr....

I want to paint a house, walls, something. oohh if only I knew someone who needed this type of help. hmmm...

[TheMerryFairy]

I am thinking about everything I've accomplished and experienced since NYE and the resolutions I made. I wonder how many of them I've stuck to.

I have a few people on my mind while I float in my feel good energy today.

[femmeInterrupted]

So there I was at the nail salon today watching the Barefoot Contessa with the nail girls while getting my nails done and she [the barefoot contessa] was making a greek meal and she kept referring to hummus as "hoom-is" when I've always, always heard it pronounced "hum-is" and now because she's a professional, I'm thinking WTF ... who is right and how is it REALLY pronounced and how can I EVER ask for it in public again without being unsure? I can't. I can never eat hummus in public again. Damnit.

If you do mispronounce it, you can distract the waiter with fabulous nails. Plan and a half, sister!

[DMW]

The sequester. http://www.whitehouse.gov/blog/2013/02/22/what-sequester

and this...

“Whatsoever you do to the least of my people, that you do unto me.”
(Matthew 25:40)

[StrongButch]

Ummm truth be told ive got a mad crush on the Barefoot Contessa. Can we talk about Martha Stewart? (lol)

[TheMerryFairy]

How much space "stuff" actually takes up.

[TheMerryFairy]

Taking back control

[FourLeaf83]

Why hasn't the old chat been restored, or an alternative one provided until they figure out how to run the new chat?

[Library_girl]

Questions. Several questions are on my mind. I wish I could say that at least some of the answers were on my mind too! <sigh> I'll get those eventually.

[DamonK]

My to do list. I did mark 2 things off though that were extremely important. And one cost less than I anticipated. Unfortunately, the savings got swallowed by the bill for the other.

I get a whole whopping week and a half or so between terms.

Appointments.

Preparations.

More phone calls to be made, probably tomorrow since I'm trying to devote today to homework as much as possible.

Dinner. I'm hungry.

[~ocean]

So there I was at the nail salon today watching the Barefoot Contessa with the nail girls while getting my nails done and she [the barefoot contessa] was making a greek meal and she kept referring to hummus as "hoom-is" when I've always, always heard it pronounced "hum-is" and now because she's a professional, I'm thinking WTF ... who is right and how is it REALLY pronounced and how can I EVER ask for it in public again without being unsure? I can't. I can never eat hummus in public again. Damnit.

it is pronounced hoomis :) here in the US we have a tendency to call it hummis ~ either way enjoy ~

[dixie]

bacon..........

[Wrang1er]

bacon..........
A woman after my own heart. :)

[BowtiePrincess]

Adjustment to deep country living. It is an amazing place but at times way too quiet. I was ok in the busy part of town when my butch had to be away. However, now I want to crawl up the wall.

[jac]

Been working on presenting myself to the world around me as someone they have known all along but really don't know me....

The other day I was in the kitchen at work with all the kids. One of the kids miss-pronounced my given name. Others said that he needed to get it right. I felt the need to lighten the moment and said, "I'll just change my name." One kid asked, "and what would that be?" I said, "Jac." The room got quiet, all eating stopped, and heads tilted as if they were all taking it in. One kid finally said, "Will you be changing your last name to Mayo?"

With all the "ewwwww," I instantly put two and two together and accessed that he was referring to jackin' off.

Errrr ummmmm... speaking of.... ??
Today in staff meeting I had to bring up a discusssion some guys had in the kitchen a week or so ago at lunchtime. Relaying one kid's concerns to staff was just way more complicated than it should have been.

Please let's be adult about this... Bwhahahahaaaaaaaa :superfunny: Not in our staff meetings!!

In all fairness... it was the end of the day when we had this meeting :thud:

[TheMerryFairy]

Just because I see a potential pot hole further along my path, doesn't mean I WILL end up hitting it. Enjoy the ride and breathe everything in. There will be potholes but there's no need to freak out about them from a mile away.

My figurative vardo isn't in that bad of shape.

Besides, I've been floating above my path *smiles*

Hello moment of clarity. Where have YOU been all week?

[girl_dee]

2500 piece puzzle. 2000 of them are sky. :|

[WingsOnFire]

How much today has royally SUCKED... How I just want to go to bed and forget everything that happened today and hope for a better day tomorrow. So not in a good mood today.. :seeingstars:

[Ginger]

O M M .... listening to my radio when I was a kid, sleeping with it under my pillow.

[Jean_TX]

I was going through my bookmarks today, basically cleaning house. I found the bookmark below and revisited the site. I found the messages insightful, inspirational, and comforting ...just what I needed today.

http://www.theinterviewwithgod.com

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

How much Sir and i have grown over the past two months..Changes discussed and adventures planned. Looking forward to O/our future together.

Well now I am thinking about all the changes that have happened in the last 5 months and slightly smiling...thank you for that girl. W/we have grown since I arrived...you however have made some giant strides towards your own goals. Making Me a very proud Sir

[Leigh]

I have too much on my mind: being now officially flat broke, no job & putting in anywhere from 5-20 resumes in a day with hardly any response :(

Can we say i'm super stressed out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[TheMerryFairy]

I have too much on my mind: being now officially flat broke, no job & putting in anywhere from 5-20 resumes in a day with hardly any response :(

Can we say i'm super stressed out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so sorry to hear you're doing through a difficult time finding work. It does suck BUT take a deep breath and hold on, I am sure something will come your way. I will keep my good thoughts with you and sprinkle some fairy dust happiness your way.

[TheMerryFairy]

I am floating happily in my thoughts today. I go back and forth between serious thoughts and fun, daydreaming I wish would happen NOW. I am patient but I am really excited to get started with this project and to embrace all of the life changes coming my way!

I am thinking about plans, ideas, a conversation, friends, needing caffeine and business details.

I am also wondering if this nice weather will hold up and trying to figure out if I can walk to do my errands without ripping my arms off holding bags on the way back. I think I will just carry a few reusable ones over my shoulder instead.

I really love being able to get out in the fresh air and sunlight and realizing that my dreams have already been cast.

[TheMerryFairy]

Is it just me or does it seem as though the more hangers you have, the less likely it is that you'll be able to find them?

[DamonK]

Equality.
Trust.
Give and take.

[TheMerryFairy]

A curly haired, bright eyed toddler *S Maybe someday I will have one of my own.

[TheMerryFairy]

Projects, business plans and technical details of getting it all set up the way I want. There's also a fantasy or two but don't get too excited reading this, it's mostly innocent LOL

[StrongButch]

I need to search craigslist. I want a donkey.(lol)

[Katniss]

I need to search craigslist. I want a donkey.(lol)

I know an ass or two here at the office I would love to send your way. Oh wait, you mean the four legged kind? Whoops! My bad.

Katniss~~

[cinnamongrrl]

I got my first Saturday off in forever....to attend an event with Teddy....and now his work isn't giving him an early day like they said they would....they make it easier to call out than to get a simple accommodation....makes NO sense.....sigh

:confused:

[JustLovelyJenn]

On my mind are plans...

... plans to help my brother over the next month
... plans to start making my dreams a reality
... plans to make things happen
... plans that a friend is working on
... and plans for future projects

[TheMerryFairy]

On my mind are plans...

... plans to help my brother over the next month
... plans to start making my dreams a reality
... plans to make things happen
... plans that a friend is working on
... and plans for future projects

That is a LOT of plans. You are like me, you like to keep busy LOL


Good luck with all of those plans! I am sure they will all come into place *S

[TheMerryFairy]

My projects, what to do with myself tonight for fun and my friends. I have been daydreaming a lot today about travel and all of the wonderful things I think is in store.

[WingsOnFire]

A walk down memory lane where my mom would roll her own cigarettes in that brown little contraption that I thought was so maddening one cigarette at a time. Technology has really changed lol.

And no I don't smoke lol.

[Greco]

Una Angel...inteligente, sensual, pelo como la noche, ojos igual de negros...una angel que follare, no suavemente, pero con toda mi vitalidad...!Que Dios me la bendiga!

An Angel...intelligent, sensual, with hair like the night, and eyes deeply soulful black...an angel that I will F..., not gently, but with all of my vitality...may G-d bless her...

not an exact translation...Greco

[TheMerryFairy]

Multi tasking

[Venus007]

BOTH of my toilets are broken.
Mine spews water out of the bottom when I flush and the other one runs constantly and the water won't go down.
Here is the problem, I am a renter, my landlord is my honey lamb
This means that I have to wait whenever I need anything fixed or she tells me to fix it myself.
SO FRUSTRATING
Tonight I am going to unseat my toilet, remove and replace the wax ring and change out the tank guts. That is once the foul water goes down. E.coli is my bathroom floor's best friend at the moment.

On the other toilet I am going to change out the guts and just deal with the problem of not going down with good ole plunging.

I really wish I could afford to call her maintenance guy and just have him fix it and pay for it myself but I don't have enough money for that.

It makes me angry and frustrated that the other tenants get stuff fixed immediately and because of my special status, oye, I have to wait.
I also understand that money is really tight right now, I know this intellectually. However don't ask me about my feelings of good will when I am smelling the disgusting smell that comes out of that damn hole when you pull the toilet off or I am covered with gross goo.
Grumble, grumble grumble
I am not feeling very full of gratitude about this, matter of fact I am feeling down right surly.

(I am glad that she is not a member here and I can get this out somewhere so when I see her tomorrow I will not be all snarly. ugh)

[KCBUTCH]

essays drafts,
chapters to read
MBK
April
OH and get this so I'm waiting to get my hairs cut and a gentleman in a wheelchair just finishing up and his card wont go through, they try over and over and the employees just keep asking well dont you have something else and just keep waiting for him to figure it out
So I walk up and say I'd like to offer to pay for his cut, and NOW they all were like oh it's ok its on the house. It pissed me off, how come they only offered once I offered it seemed more like a bruised EGO that being generous. Its bugging me. I've been getting my Hairs cut there for about 15+ yrs. I may change location after that.

[BowtiePrincess]

I need to search craigslist. I want a donkey.(lol)



Oh a donkey is a stubborn creature!

[TheMerryFairy]

essays drafts,
chapters to read
MBK
April
OH and get this so I'm waiting to get my hairs cut and a gentleman in a wheelchair just finishing up and his card wont go through, they try over and over and the employees just keep asking well dont you have something else and just keep waiting for him to figure it out
So I walk up and say I'd like to offer to pay for his cut, and NOW they all were like oh it's ok its on the house. It pissed me off, how come they only offered once I offered it seemed more like a bruised EGO that being generous. Its bugging me. I've been getting my Hairs cut there for about 15+ yrs. I may change location after that.

That really upsets me too, seeing as though I am in the trade. Sometimes things happen and cards won't work or sometimes people just don't have the money for what they need. It wouldn't have hurt their business to give a cut on the house but on the other hand, if it was a situation where an employee is depending on every single cut to make ends meet, it could be frustrating on both ends.

I cannot speak about the intent of their offer but it seems as though you would be correct in guessing they felt guilty after somebody else offered to step in and take care of client needs instead of them doing the right thing from the start.

Personally the money is the least valuable piece of that story. Thank you for being generous and offering to help somebody else. I am sure we've all been there. I have when my card wouldn't work at the gas station after I pumped. Now and then we all just need to remember that we are all connected and paying it forward instead of only thinking about yourself is part of what keeps us going.

[TheMerryFairy]

I have so much research to get done this month and it may mean relying on friends to help or taking shorter hours to make sure I can get as much finished as possible before starting this project!

[BowtiePrincess]

How to fix the chicken coop!
Why cant the poor little coyotes just go make a nice home on the other side of my land? I really dont enjoy shooting an animal....well maybe a deer cause they are super yummy.
I can change the tire on a car, a 4 wheeler cant be that different can it?
Im pretty sure the neighbor cut it! That took alot of effort on his part to make the 5 mile trip so I sure hope he feels better. Either way hes not gonna get my lower parcels, he can forget it.
I really need human interaction lol can you tell?

[LOQUI]

Humm on my mind: a lot + nothing = "vacant"

[meridiantoo]

Humm on my mind: a lot + nothing = "vacant"


:deepthoughts::thinking:

[LeftWriteFemme]

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[TheMerryFairy]

I am wondering if my mind will calm down enough to focus for just a little while. I need to put the projects DOWN

[Hollylane]

I may, or may not be feeling a little rambunctious this evening...

[NorCalStud]

I see the thread title TRUE BELIEVERS and I feel irritated and those old feelings I used to have being raised SDA begin to creep in. It really gets under my skin bcuz in caps and bold type it exudes another statement : that christianity is the real and only way. Hate that bcuz it kills. I have to say it is wierd on here...not wierd that there are christians. I love my family and they are christian...just the notion that christians are the TRUE BELIEVERS. Ya know?

[DamonK]

Home stretch...

[TheMerryFairy]

A couple of people who encouraged me to go out and have some fun tonight! How badly did I sing? I hope my drinks offset how badly I butchered those songs.

I am thinking about plans, ideas, projects, market finds, the womyn who was mistaken for a boy at least twice tonight (which I think she liked because it meant she wasn't having attention drawn), my friends, floating and now because of a quiz cookies!

[Daktari]

Being so damn tired at ASC today.
Finding the place I'm being picked up to get to ASC.

[StrongButch]

Where did the damn sun go!

[Ginger]

Merryweather's post gave me a flashback to last night. I was waiting to cross Second Avenue in the East Village and this guy was standing obliviously in the bike lane. Sir! I yelled. Sir, you're in the bike lane! The bike was getting closer, coming down the long block. Sir! I yelled. Sir! Sir! Then the person turned to look at me. Woops. Sorry, Ma'am, I yelled. But you're in the bike lane. At that point she suddenly focused, saw the bike, and stepped backwards up the curb just in time. And gave me a huge smile.

[TheMerryFairy]

My senses are taking over my brain and I am floating in thoughts while I eat delicious food.

I am thinking in general about plans and artistic skills of the trade

[TheMerryFairy]

I think I just figured out what I wanted to do to celebrate my birthday this year.

[JustLovelyJenn]

I think I just figured out what I wanted to do to celebrate my birthday this year.

Well, are you going to share??

[TheMerryFairy]

Well, are you going to share??

Can I quote a ruffles commercial? "If I share it with you, I'll have to share it with everybody else" *Laughs*

I will tell you if you'd really like to know? It's not a huge secret or anything.

[TheMerryFairy]

How long will it take me to go through all of the stuff in the shed? Can I get it done by tomorrow to take more things to the flea market? Maybe I will just have to go again in a couple of weeks as I keep organizing and sorting through what I really need to take with me.

[Talon]

What comes to mind is..that NO ONE can make you feel inferior without your consent.

[TheMerryFairy]

Why do stores advertise WEEKLY or even 3 day sales and then not stock up on the inventory of these items? I am not talking about the stores that sell more than they are expecting, but to only have 3 or 4 of a particular item when you put it in the flyer is just frustrating!

[starryeyes]

I'm working a 4 hour shift (8pm-12am) tonight and I don't wanna bring my laptop so I'm slightly tempted to go buy a new iPad mini. I sold my ipad 3 a while back with the intention of buying one, but haven't gotten it yet. I know I don't need it, but the temptation is there.... Hmmmm. Lol.

[TheMerryFairy]

I'm working a 4 hour shift (8pm-12am) tonight and I don't wanna bring my laptop so I'm slightly tempted to go buy a new iPad mini. I sold my ipad 3 a while back with the intention of buying one, but haven't gotten it yet. I know I don't need it, but the temptation is there.... Hmmmm. Lol.

I want one too! They are quite useful for traveling and times like those LOL I am not trying to convince you or anything, but I like the way you think.

[Blue_Daddy-O]

A King size bed, more room for the Dogs... and I'm not falling off the edge of the bed! Been waken up tired lately.

[TheMerryFairy]

Life isn't just about coping or surviving. It is about thriving and embracing all you are to fulfill your own happiness. Coping and surviving is just the first step (or perhaps a series of pitstops along the road).

[WingsOnFire]

wondering if a 60 pound dog on my chest can kill me...

[ruffryder]

Did today go by fast?

[TheMerryFairy]

Two people that I would love to curl up on the couch with tonight for comfort and movie watching.

[MaggieBluIze]

April ...
April ... April ...
Ummm ... Did I mention ...
April!!!!!

April is heavy on my mind!!!!

:seeingstars:

:waitinggirl:

[TheMerryFairy]

I cannot believe I just heard my brother actually say he completely forgot when my birthday is. LOL I don't want gifts or anything but little brother you better be more careful!

[Italianboi]

-just one word...HARD......

[TheMerryFairy]

The rest of the evening and tomorrow

[maryam]

How badly I need a massage. I am very quasimodo tonight.

[Sun]

My San Francisco bay area BF friends and the party that awaits.

Mr S Leather

The Eagle

A retreat back east and photo indulgence.

Cooking for my Femme bff's Wedding in July. What an honor.

[TheMerryFairy]

A movie before bed and how quickly my energy has swirled back to normal.

[Hollylane]

I have just discovered that there are five Alex Cross Novels (James Patterson series), that I have not yet read. WIN!

[rustedrims]

Early hours in the am and cant sleep.Thinking about going shopping and getting my stuff for my lunch at work the rest of the week.Ran out of ice-cream to.A little bit of snow on the roads.Take the truck or car?? Not a good night for decisions.I would go to bed and pull the covers over my head but i cant sleep.

[deb0670]

i had to call 911 to take Ethan to the er tonight. Be is really sick and his blood sugar was 465. They say he has http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/000320.htm
They are admitting him to ICU.. I'm scared, tired and trying to be strong and brave for both him and my daughter.

[StrongButch]

Riding horses and sitting by a creek having lunch. The simple things in life make me happy!

[DMW]

Have to go to work today...eventhough we are not open. Damn that is not how the day was supposed to go. Get her done.

Internet connection is intermittent...telling me I don't have time to play.

[Daktari]

Being a numpty and leaving my laptop power lead at the ASC venue. If I get it back it may take a while. :|

[MissItalianDiva]

Well I am thinking with all this technology we have that it is pretty ridiculous that someone has not invented a washing machine that can be done in ten minutes but we can tap phones pay or exchange money....priorities people

[Blade]

That house, it has my name written all over it...:cigar2:

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Things I could have sworn were settled for me over a month ago. Yet other things I had to put on the back burner that will just have to stay there for now. At least until I figure out a permanent fix to this obstacle that keeps getting in my way this year.

[Bard]

its Sunday that means I go to work tonight and that we have to take Goose home

[TheMerryFairy]

The tent trailer friends helped me find. It's soon in my reach! I am thinking about the flea market today and how good it feels to have been able to pass on some of the things that other people will get use out of.

I am really tired today but in an extremely good and calm mood.

I need to cook and prepare myself to get back to work tomorrow.

I am thinking about friends, floating, tea and all of the cooking I need to do between multi tasking.

[TheMerryFairy]

If I were a John Hughes movie character , who would I be? Rather if I were to be portrayed as one of those characters, who would I be? This is deep thinking.

Did you know John Hughes also did Maid in Manhattan, home alone and other classics and not just the 80's teen movies?

[StrongButch]

My art and I need to start dating. Honestly waking up next to a cat is cool but theres more to life!

[Degotoga]

The strength, integrity, and compassion of the two beautiful women I had dinner with last night. They are as beautiful on the inside as they are on the outside and I am grateful to have them in my life.

[TheMerryFairy]

I am thinking that it is time to get changed out of my good clothes and into pajamas after a hot shower.

[Hollylane]

My 5 boys just decided unanimously, that they dislike their wet cat food (they only eat wet). The only one that I can find locally and affordably, that is in the large can, is the one they have decided to dislike (they eat 2 large cans between the 5 of them, daily). I'm certain that the recipe must have changed drastically, without any information provided to the consumer, or they would not have made a unanimous decision on every flavor of this food.

I have spent the last 2 hours scouring the net. I think I may have an alternative, that can be shipped, and will only cost me about $8 more per month. They better fucking like it, or I will be buying a meat grinder and spending the rest of my days in my kitchen, making pet food from scratch and pressure canning it. I'm certain that this would seal the deal on my "Cat Lady" status. :|

[TheMerryFairy]

Artwork for my business projects/ideas

[Turtle]

http://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ash4/c104.0.403.403/p403x403/285235_590301887664919_212210319_n.jpg

[TheMerryFairy]

Kittens have such sharp claws!! I can see how this one got the name "trouble"

[Angeltoes]

This shift ending at midnight just will not do. I wish my life wasn't so complicated.

[sierragirrl]

top of my noggin is this:
i wonder if #24 is gonna be feeling that slam dunk when he wakes up later today
i got some great information tonight my birth grandmother is willing to sit down with me and give me any information i want on my medical history..i think i am going to grab one of those family history questionares that you get from the doctors..i have an appointment at noon so it comes at a perfect time.

i also got told the guy who i was told earlier is my birth father might not be him i felt defeated for some reason when it sunk in.
the birth grandmother is trying to remember but she is 84 i believe.
guess i should be at ease..but i am not..i am scared :nailbitin:

[~ocean]

~ so easy to remember ~ and yet so hard to forget ~ some things that is ~

[StrongButch]

Im gonna take off with my camera for a year. Where are the best places to go?

[~ocean]

strongbutch a cruise to Yemen ? open seas ~ old architecture ~ just an idea ~

[Smiling]

Festival of Lights in Thailand or the Aurora Borealis! :)

[~ocean]

Festival of Lights in Thailand or the Aurora Borealis! :)

yummm thai food ~ bright lights ~ festivals ~ its far far away ~ good choice ~

[TheMerryFairy]

My mind is a bit of a scary and confusing place right now but beyond those snippets of thoughts is my source of strength and wisdom.

[TheMerryFairy]

I am thinking about my friends while I make supper and do more organizing. I am also thinking about how to bring up a topic of conversation without knowing the reaction.

[FeminineAllure]

Turning 50 next Monday. I have lived half of a century. Aging has been pretty kind to me though. Can I graduate from the school of life yet?:cheer:

[Fancy]

Tomorrow morning 7am.
Diagnostics on "the lump."
Oy. My brain needs a rest on this one.
:blink:

[maryam]

blankety blank stupid effing email hijackers.

So sorry I accidentally went over to a law enforcement buddy's house (I'll take computer forensics for 500, Alex) so I could use a secure system that's not linked to me, followed your breadcrumbs home, dl every darn thing I could find about you, notified IT at work, and turned the resulting mess over to said law enforcement buddy to play with. The scope and depth of your sleazitude will make for hours of entertainment.

[JustLovelyJenn]

I sat down for a minute between my house work and saw this video. This is making me think...

What is shown here is a feudal system. Where the wealth "lords" determine what is right for their "serfs". This system doesn't work... and somethings got to change.

QPKKQnijnsM

[TheMerryFairy]

I sat down for a minute between my house work and saw this video. This is making me think...

What is shown here is a feudal system. Where the wealth "lords" determine what is right for their "serfs". This system doesn't work... and somethings got to change.

QPKKQnijnsM

A complete turnover would be nice. Thank you for sharing the video.

[TheMerryFairy]

Words and the power we attribute to them.

I am also daydreaming and thinking about the impact of my decisions (mostly for the best)

[NorCalStud]

On my mind

Things really can turn on a dime. Much to my amazement friends and business associates from the past have stepped in to become business partners so I have Not lost my business. Even more surprising they insist on my not moving and have made it possible for me to stay living and working by the sea. While I was looking forward to returning to the mt; this is better for now.

On top of that one or two new customers makes a difference in production business. That happened too. I gained a customer.

Thankyou for listening and thank you to those who left me notes. Very nurturing and unforgettable. Bowing down.

[TheMerryFairy]

Last night and the feelings/energy that surrounds me today. organizing, sleep, coffee and lunch. My friends are always on my mind and so are my projects and plans.

[Talon]

Giovanna, my Boston terrier...she is not doing too well, health-wise.

[Sun]

Giovanna, my Boston terrier...she is not doing too well, health-wise.

Aw, really sorry to read this. I hope that she feels better soon. Love her name.

[~ocean]

yesturday , today and tomorrow

[s0litude]

I'm sitting here, tear-stained face after having just seen my ex. She looks great, dressed well, but she's not healthy or happy inside either. I can see it in her eyes. I know her that well. And while I still hold love for her and always will, seeing her made me realize without an ounce of longing that I do NOT want her back. So WHY does it still hurt so much? What can I do to get through this?

I look on Facebook, see a picture of a rain-soaked rose and the directions to share the image if you have a brother or sister that means the world to you. Kim; my only sister, my older sister, the one who protected me against a woman who was mentally, physically, and sexually abusive-- and at times neglectful, my biological mother; is gone as of January 17th this year. I love and miss her so much, and the reality that she is truly gone comes and goes and eats away at my already fragile heart.

I feel like less of a person and less of what a man is supposed to be-- despite the fact that I am a transman AND content with THIS aspect of myself-- as my ego is crushed because of my medical needs. I am struggling because I am not the strong one this time who others can rely on, but rather, the one in need of help. And I am grateful and blessed that I do have a few good friends who support me and look out for me and don't look down on me when I crumble. I never pretended to be "Superman"; I'm simply "Clark Kent" with good intentions and the willingness to be hurt if needed. So why do I hold myself up to such standards when everyone, everywhere sometimes needs help? Why can't I let go of my ego and be okay with it?

My life feels like a bad country song right now: have to redo my semester because I was in the hospital and will not be able to make up the work in time, lost my girl (time and time again, but this time-- and somewhat thankfully as she was manipulative and abusive-- for good, lost my apartment, my dog and cat, and she has my car.

Needless to say, I'm in a bad place at this moment, and while I know it'll pass and in a few days, my mind will sort through the funk and leave me smiling and hopeful again, I just wish I could be hugged, really hugged-- a real, genuine hug. While online hugs are great reminders that people care and I always value the sentiment, it's the warmth of skin I crave, of a friend or loved one holding me, assuring me that I'm still strong, that I'm going to be okay. I'm normally the one holding others, tightly in along my chest, my lips resting along their brow, stroking their backs, reminding them that life never gives us more than we can handle. Just wish I had a bit of that for myself right now.

[Cid]

Ever have those moments where you have way too much time to think and you come up with the weirdest thoughts? I had that today, so here goes.....the phrase now and then as in I do that every now and then. What the hell does that mean? It just doesn't make sense when you really think about it. Trust me, I had a lot of time to think about it. I work in a factory doing the same thing over and over (2,384 times today alone!)
So that was what was on my mind :blink:

[sierragirrl]

Steriods
i have been on on them for 3 weeks
and will be on them for at least another
2 weeks, this little pill is kicking my ass
it amazes me while yes making my body do what it
is supposed to do to make it better
but in turn is making me feel like pure crap

[MissItalianDiva]

A nice relaxing movie tonight with awesome company

[TheMerryFairy]

I'm sitting here, tear-stained face after having just seen my ex. She looks great, dressed well, but she's not healthy or happy inside either. I can see it in her eyes. I know her that well. And while I still hold love for her and always will, seeing her made me realize without an ounce of longing that I do NOT want her back. So WHY does it still hurt so much? What can I do to get through this?

I look on Facebook, see a picture of a rain-soaked rose and the directions to share the image if you have a brother or sister that means the world to you. Kim; my only sister, my older sister, the one who protected me against a woman who was mentally, physically, and sexually abusive-- and at times neglectful, my biological mother; is gone as of January 17th this year. I love and miss her so much, and the reality that she is truly gone comes and goes and eats away at my already fragile heart.

I feel like less of a person and less of what a man is supposed to be-- despite the fact that I am a transman AND content with THIS aspect of myself-- as my ego is crushed because of my medical needs. I am struggling because I am not the strong one this time who others can rely on, but rather, the one in need of help. And I am grateful and blessed that I do have a few good friends who support me and look out for me and don't look down on me when I crumble. I never pretended to be "Superman"; I'm simply "Clark Kent" with good intentions and the willingness to be hurt if needed. So why do I hold myself up to such standards when everyone, everywhere sometimes needs help? Why can't I let go of my ego and be okay with it?

My life feels like a bad country song right now: have to redo my semester because I was in the hospital and will not be able to make up the work in time, lost my girl (time and time again, but this time-- and somewhat thankfully as she was manipulative and abusive-- for good, lost my apartment, my dog and cat, and she has my car.

Needless to say, I'm in a bad place at this moment, and while I know it'll pass and in a few days, my mind will sort through the funk and leave me smiling and hopeful again, I just wish I could be hugged, really hugged-- a real, genuine hug. While online hugs are great reminders that people care and I always value the sentiment, it's the warmth of skin I crave, of a friend or loved one holding me, assuring me that I'm still strong, that I'm going to be okay. I'm normally the one holding others, tightly in along my chest, my lips resting along their brow, stroking their backs, reminding them that life never gives us more than we can handle. Just wish I had a bit of that for myself right now.

I am so sorry for all of the hurt you are experiencing right now, Solitude. I wish I could give you a real genuine hug because I too and I think a lot of us here, have felt the same kinds of pain and the same need to be told things will be okay.

You have support here and you WILL be okay. I don't think you are any less of a person, of a man or less strong. Sometimes to really BE strong, you need to do what you just did. You need to let it out and trust that you are provided with the tools you need. Guess what, you already have been. You are still here. You sound like such a wonderful person and somebody is going to appreciate that someday.

I know it's always harder when we are the ones in the position who need help, especially when our ego rarely lets us admit it. I am here. If you need somebody else to talk to, please feel free to pm me? I know online hugs aren't the same but aside from being here to listen and sending you comforting thoughts while keeping you in mine, it is all I can do. (((Hugs))))

[TheMerryFairy]

I had a strange little connection and I am not sure if it is just in my head or not. It wasn't anything bad and I am just waking up from a long nap.

I am thinking about my friends, my projects and showering.

[sierragirrl]

i have the local news on..
winter storm comin snow up higher,rain,thunder,messy
then there is what is really going on:
rural 14 yr old girl missing,found dead days later right behind the high school
guy is caught that did it.
everyone is still on high alert
now it seems another child in another rural town was followed.
here in my town 3 people were struck by cars in less then a week.
one was found dead, hit and run about a week later they found the guy that did it..56 yrs old..
the world just seems like it needs to S-L-O-W down!
stop for just a second.look around you..observe...take it in!
:countpetal: :wine:

[TheMerryFairy]

I am wondering how much camping gear is actually in my storage unit. I will have to add that to my list of things to do next month.

[KCBUTCH]

On my mind is the dreams I've had the last few nights
Sunday Night I dreamt I was digging through pieces of of peoples crap (literally) looking for little pieces of Gold
Monday night I dreamt of being panicked and searching all over for my EX and once I just decided to go home -there she was.

And of course homework-I am taking very similar classes were dealing a lot with heavy issues. discrimination, hate, culture and communication biases.
seems every night I'm reading, writing or researching.
Fricken tired...

[TheMerryFairy]

On my mind is the dreams I've had the last few nights
Sunday Night I dreamt I was digging through pieces of of peoples crap (literally) looking for little pieces of Gold
Monday night I dreamt of being panicked and searching all over for my EX and once I just decided to go home -there she was.

And of course homework-I am taking very similar classes were dealing a lot with heavy issues. discrimination, hate, culture and communication biases.
seems every night I'm reading, writing or researching.
Fricken tired...

I hope your dreams lighten up soon, KC.

Either I go into a deep sleep and forget what I am dreaming or my dreams are really vivid and usually comforting. I almost always wake up smiling and feeling a really strong happy energy.

Lately (the last 2-3 days) I have been having strange dreams. This has happened before and I think it's related to not getting a lot of sleep at night.

I cannot tell if these dreams are supposed to mean something or whether it's just a way for my mind and body to process the emotions that have been lingering.

[StrongButch]

Gonna take off tommorrow. Why wait?

[KCBUTCH]

I hope your dreams lighten up soon, KC.

Either I go into a deep sleep and forget what I am dreaming or my dreams are really vivid and usually comforting. I almost always wake up smiling and feeling a really strong happy energy.

Lately (the last 2-3 days) I have been having strange dreams. This has happened before and I think it's related to not getting a lot of sleep at night.

I cannot tell if these dreams are supposed to mean something or whether it's just a way for my mind and body to process the emotions that have been lingering.

For me I think it's the latter just processing what needs to be processed.
I hope you can get some more sleep soon-
I have not recalled my dreams in quite some time

[dixie]

I hope things go well tomorrow at the cardiologist. Ultrasound and other tests. They are disturbed that I am having this kind of pain and swelling, 2 months out of the initial procedure. Not cool. Wayyyy not cool.

[BowtiePrincess]

The roomie is going to cause me end up in a home, on strong medication or possibly in prison (just kidding) if I dont find a way to get her out. Poor girl hasnt even completely unpacked. I feel terrible. However it is like she morphed into annoying little thing. I made a very detailed application and a long list of questions that I asked to everyone. Im looking at both of them right now and I think the girl has a twitty twin that she sent in her place. Its like I am swarmed with 30 teenagers. So far she has left 3 pair of shoes in the middle of the floor in the den ( 3 I say you can only wear one pair at a time), a spoon caked with mayo in the sink( I checked the water isnt frozen), the fridge door standing wide open (it has hinges for a reason) and if I hear a 30 min conversation in text talk again my head may explode ( no, Im not near her or listening Im on the opposite end of the house behind closed doors with my TV on, shes that loud). UGH!! :blink:

[TheMerryFairy]

I am thinking about just packing it in and doing what I need to do for me right now.

I have a lot on my mind and today stress has very little to play in it.

I cannot help but see glimpses of energies and emotions and I have to really ask myself the difficult questions.

I am hoping I get to just sit with a friend and be distracted for awhile. I have tried to work around this for hours and I am getting nowhere.

[sierragirrl]

bills :|
paying bills and going grocery shopping
cleat and helmet shopping
all done on friday
first night of ball practice was good
so glad the time is changing on sunday right?
woohoo for being a grown up :mohawk: :vigil:

[Okiebug61]

Red's mom is on hospice!
Our 15 yr old dog is on his last leg!
My nephew is turning 14 this month and that freaks me out!
Sometimes you have just have to say fuck it!

[TheMerryFairy]

I am thinking about all kinds of things today and there are some things I am trying not to think about.

I am wondering if I should prepare myself for being on the road by taking some time away.

[TheMerryFairy]

I cannot believe I actually didn't think that far ahead.

[KCBUTCH]

Thinking this last dream was a true nightmare, full of fear and violence... I woke up sweaty and anxious and called in...

I have a lunch this Sunday with a former EX it'll be the first time we've had any contact in almost 9 years, I am extremely curious as to why she asked to meet up to catch up out of the blue.

The speech I have to write for class
The test I have tmrw
and the chapters I have to read

[SleepyButch]

In about 45 minutes from now, the vet will be here to put my little girl to sleep. She's had severe heart failure for several months now and just has not been doing well. So many things are going through my mind right now. Part of me wants to cancel the appointment and the other part knows it's right.

We have been together for 12 years now, not long enough. She has been with me through thick and thin... through good and bad times. I am so afraid, afraid to lose her, afraid that it's not the right time, and afraid that I will never emotionally get over this. She has been my "child", my pain in the ass, I could always count on her. How am I going to go through this? I can only hope I have the strength to do this for her.

[Nurse Darlin]

My heart goes out to you. I was just tellin my girl yesterday that its not fair that we live longer than our pets.

[Daktari]

This weekend's fellowship convention.

[TheMerryFairy]

What comes next?

[dixie]

Ok, so good news....the ultrasound looked good, as for the artery and veins. I do have a large bundle of scar tissue which causes a type of hematoma and swelling. This in turn presses against the nerve, which causes the pain and numbness I've been feeling in my groin/leg area where the heart cath was inserted. I am not allowed to exercise for at least a week, supposed to take ibuprofen to reduce the inflammation, and just see what happens. They said it may correct itself in time, or......it will be something I will have to deal with for the rest of my life. Go figure. I guess we'll see. I'm just very glad that it wasn't something more serious, such as a clot or leakage. At least now I know. :)

[KCBUTCH]

Just got a call from someone with a heavy accent asking me if I want any prescriptions? I dont know who to be pissed at the pharmacy of my insurance for releasing information that I take meds to begin with and my cell number?

[DamonK]

I'm the man to hold my ground
I'm the man who sticks around
I'm the man to hold you tight
I'm the man in love with you
I'm the man to make it right
I'm the man you kiss goodnight
I'm the man that won't let you down --chorus and verse from "I'm the Man" by Elliot Yamin

Leave it to me to get that stuck in my head whilst reading a business textbook

[TheMerryFairy]

I am going to need something to eat soon and I am thinking about my friends and if I will get a chance to have a needed conversation tonight.

[PaPa]

The exam and the logistics about the routes getting there, what to take, how to prepare, and how to get the results in the quickest fashion afterwards. It seems the school gets the scores before we do! Wth!

[WingsOnFire]

dishes are done... I am officially sleepy... Nap time... Hmmmm someone stole my pillow... Wonder who that might be? Hmmmm... Lol

[Sassy]

Every time I get my bearings my job description changes. Suddenly I'm a video producer? oh dear ...

:blink:

[StrongButch]

It been a long day!

[DMW]

Everybody has so much goin on....dang. And goin' on in their minds. Dogs and health. so much.

I am thinking about Kim Novak and how she is on AMC or TMC? right now and I need to go watch some of that beautiful.
Yummy Yummy Woman

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

The only thing that can get through the fog surrounding my brain is pain and just how many different types there are. The different ways I feel pain and just how sick and tired I am of doing it.

[Leigh]

moving forward, that's all i can do.

[sierragirrl]

this show weed country
i can't really watch it watch it cause duck dynasty is on.
hope to catch it on again later tonight
what is with the law putting up cameras on the trees
chicken shit way to do it.

[Sun]

Insensitive people

[DamonK]

Where I'd rather be.

[TheMerryFairy]

My floating energy and how to change directions just enough for smooth sailing until I land on my path.

I am also thinking that today would be a good day to do something for me. I should cook a really nice breakfast and hope that I can eat it.

Friends are also on my mind. I care a lot. They are really my outter strength and support through all of this.

Feeling free. It has already happened but I am hoping soon it can be fully embraced.

[Massive]

How much I hate losing friends and getting myself mentally prepared for the funeral

[JustLovelyJenn]

I have a terrible tummy ache... working on day two... but there's still so much on my to-do list.

[TheMerryFairy]

I have a terrible tummy ache... working on day two... but there's still so much on my to-do list.

I hope you feel better soon, Jenn! My stomach isn't so hot today either

[WingsOnFire]

upset at myself for not.doing what i was supposed to do worrying Him unnecessarily.

[CA_BabyCakes]

I really need to make local friends...... which is really hard with my insanely busy schedule.

[TheMerryFairy]

Can a small nap and a bit of makeup make THAT much of a difference in my mood and outlook? I am pretty sure it did *Grin*

I am thinking about projects and a friend suggested using free coupons to stock up on some food items to take on the road. I think I may just do that

[ButchEire]

Should I be concerned if my girlfriend is excitedly awaiting the premiere of "Wives With Knives?"

[TheMerryFairy]

Should I be concerned if my girlfriend is excitedly awaiting the premiere of "Wives With Knives?"

This piqued my interest. I'm going to have to see what this is now LOL Personally I'm excited for Worst cooks in america

[TheMerryFairy]

I want an 80's throwback birthday bash next year. Horrible clothes, classic john hughes movies, girly drinks and pat benetar/heart music! LOL

[TheMerryFairy]

I am thinking over a lot of things tonight. This is scary.

[StrongButch]

What am I gonna wear to the christian conference tommorrrrroooowww? Wondering will there be any bikers for Jesus if so ive got just the outfit! (lol)

[WingsOnFire]

How much i really don't like myself right now.

Realizing just how selfish i can be and the pain that i caused because of it.

How i wish i didn't have to go to work so i could make up for it.

[DamonK]

This paper is going to kill me.

[sis]

.... the job, that is! However, I need to REPACK my suitcases due the lovely gift of art I received from my co-workers :| This journey in Viet Nam has been a challenge but I have learned about myself - I do have inner strength and I can make a difference in the lives of others. Now, just to psych myself up to teach 4th graders! I thinking I will be drinking a lot of :tea: lolol

Deb

[DamonK]

This paper is going to kill me.

I typed this an hour ago I think.

I'm turning in damned paper.

If anyone says business plans are easy to write, they are wrong!

[TheMerryFairy]

The thought that my floating has been able to bring new hope and just maybe that hope trickled elsewhere into the universe and created these last few days.

Holding onto the wish to float, just a little longer until I can touch down on my path.

[Kenna]

damn Landlord ..
it shouldn't be that hard to replace a bathtub spigot but I'd waited long enough ..then the damn thing wouldn't thread correctly. as someone used to say.. aga-damn-vating!
Where's my peanut butter and jelly DIY buddy when I need them?

[TheMerryFairy]

I haven't had blackberry arbor mist in ages, I could not find it anymore until tonight somebody mentioned it again. I have to see if it's possible to get some. That would make having cramps this weekend/on my birthday much more managable LOL

[KCBUTCH]

Some questions that were proposed via my source of spiritual guidance
-What good is here I presently cannot see?
-What opportunity am I presently blocking out?
-What grace is happening here that I am presently ignoring?
-What manner of magnificence is trying to happen in my life that I cannot even contemplate yet?
-How can I expand my perception?

[MarquisdeShey]

...it was the past. Lets leave it at that...If I mean don't touch me...i mean don't... Stone is for a reason...

[Sun]

Gratitude for friends that have made the last few months much more livable than they would have been otherwise. A painful breakup is one thing, but losing what was once a beautiful relationship and family life, is something else entirely. My concept of love has shifted and grown, I can look back and love her, love what she gave to me, love that she brought a magnificent daughter into my life, love the memories, and even in many ways, still love her. Yet the type of love has shifted and I am more at peace each day. What I desire for us both is health and happiness on our separate journey's. A few months ago I never thought I would say that. Those who knew us in real time or got to know us as a couple on Facebook always said we seemed like the perfect couple.

For a moment in history in this vast universe, there was perfection. Perfect love casts out fear. I was fearless. I would have done anything to make her happy. It was nice to have been there. Now I am glad that I am in the place in my life that I am at. I can look back, smile at the memories and wish her all the best.

Letting go was beyond brutally hard, it seemed impossible.

Thank you friends who walked with me through the darkest nights of my soul.

I love you all.

[Elijah]

The future, possibilities...

[TheMerryFairy]

Gratitude for friends that have made the last few months much more livable than they would have been otherwise. A painful breakup is one thing, but losing what was once a beautiful relationship and family life, is something else entirely. My concept of love has shifted and grown, I can look back and love her, love what she gave to me, love that she brought a magnificent daughter into my life, love the memories, and even in many ways, still love her. Yet the type of love has shifted and I am more at peace each day. What I desire for us both is health and happiness on our separate journey's. A few months ago I never thought I would say that. Those who knew us in real time or got to know us as a couple on Facebook always said we seemed like the perfect couple.

For a moment in history in this vast universe, there was perfection. Perfect love casts out fear. I was fearless. I would have done anything to make her happy. It was nice to have been there. Now I am glad that I am in the place in my life that I am at. I can look back, smile at the memories and wish her all the best.

Letting go was beyond brutally hard, it seemed impossible.

Thank you friends who walked with me through the darkest nights of my soul.

I love you all.

It feels so nice, so free to be able to float along as you still walk your path and it's even nicer when friends or even lovers can join you sometimes before going their own ways. I am happy you have found peace.

[Sun]

It feels so nice, so free to be able to float along as you still walk your path and it's even nicer when friends or even lovers can join you sometimes before going their own ways. I am happy you have found peace.

Thank you. There are days when I miss her very much and yes I am at peace because I know that we are on different paths and that is ok.

[clay]

122 hrs OR 7320 minutes

[MissItalianDiva]

Just got done watching "The Neighbors From Hell" segment on 20/20 and let's just say not only am I shocked but I have a new appreciation for my neighbors who occasionally argue loudly.

[TheMerryFairy]

Thank you. There are days when I miss her very much and yes I am at peace because I know that we are on different paths and that is ok.


I have the same feeling now and I really don't think I'd change things if I could because it's obviously what is meant to be. *S

[Angeltoes]

Even though my job is not prestigious and it doesn't earn a lot of money it is very satisfying to me in ways I never expected. For example, someone will call in about a phone that can make but not receive phone calls. Initially the customer is angry and all business, but if my tone is empathetic and I promise to stick with them until we find a resolution their tone changes. Before long they're telling me they need this phone to keep track of their elderly mother with Alzheimers. At that point I can connect by relaying my own experience with a relative who had the same condition. By the end of the call the customer is asking for my direct line and almost in tears because a technical support agent had never cared so much or done so much to help.

It makes me feel that even though I did not complete college I can positively influence someone's life and help...So that's what's on my mind right now.Of course I get some weirdos too, but they keep it interesting. I can handle so much more than I thought I could a year ago.

[Trev]

Do I or don't I? Seems like when I do, it goes unnoticed. Keep on working at it, it's what I do best....work. Maybe it isn't the little things after all.

[TheMerryFairy]

The future, possibilities...

This is on my mind too. A lot.

[TheMerryFairy]

I am thinking that there's not a whole lot to celebrate right now so I should just climb back into bed and wait a little longer.

My friends are on my mind along with so much business related stuff and traveling idea questions that I should probably put on some kind of protective gear.

I am not sure how to think about anything else. Maybe I just need to stop thinking.

[Cid]

I have a very dear friend that was told a couple of weeks ago that she has to have her gall bladder removed. She's been sick for such a long time, they're finally going to do something about it.
Now yesterday she was told by a neurologist that she has to have surgery on her neck. She's had really bad pain in her hands and arms for a long time and now it's getting into her legs.
She also told me that things aren't going well at work and she's having a hard time working with the pain. They're giving her a hard time about it and writing her up.
Why is it that some people (really, really good people) get pounded on all at the same time?

[DamonK]

...things I wish I could say without having to say a single word
...no, I don't mean sex
...nor signing
...entertaining a couple tattoo ideas again
...homework
...work

[KCBUTCH]

My cars potential buyer took it out for a test drive an hour ago and has yet to be back- is very much on my mind...
glad I have the title with me and a copy of her license

[kannon]

I'm thinking about going to my parent's wedding anniversary. I should have been there earlier to help them prepare.

[Trev]

It's raining out... I'd like to dance..in the rain.

[KCBUTCH]

It's raining out... I'd like to dance..in the rain.

DO IT BROTHER!!!!!

[KCBUTCH]

Hockey tonight live in person KINGS vs. CALGARY
meeting up with a former "ex" well F*# Buddy is more accurate from about 9 years ago of whom I have not seen since nor really had much contact with tmrw for lunch and catching up ??? it'll prove interesting Why she asked to meet and catch up out of the blue baffles me-

[Bèsame*]

how things can go in a different direction.

[SoulShineFemme]

Getting back home to ONLY and her sweet boy where I belong.

[Smiling]

I saw a cat get run over about 1 hour or so ago. The poor little thing tried so hard to run fast enough to make it and the vehicle practically went over the median trying to avoid it, but to no avail. :(

[DamonK]

I woke up a few min ago
Apparently I'm still paying for my all nighter to finish a term paper
I foresee at least one more before term is over
I was highly confused when I woke up and had no idea where I was
I was disappointed when I figured it out

[always2late]

Well, here it is....the wall. I hit it every semester right about midway through, and it's come again. It's at this point that I start feverishly hoping the semester will end soon, and start questioning myself and second-guessing my decision to return to school. It never lasts long...and I know that I'm doing the right thing. I KNOW it. But right about now, I find that I have to work harder to convince myself of that. I think about the time I spend in classes, and studying, and writing papers...time that I could be spending doing something else. I think about the fact that my breaks (I'm on spring break now) never seem to coincide with my son's breaks from school and therefore, we can never make plans for a vacation. I keep telling myself that I'm doing this for the both of us...to make BOTH of our lives better. But right about now, in the grip of the "school blues," I wonder if what I'm doing is the right thing.

[clay]

what a gorgeous evening...made even more so..thanks to technology.
Lord of The Dance Wednesday night...escorting TWO beautiful ladies....mmmm
Next weekend...hanging with someone really amazing....my besties from the Planet I will be hanging out with..and the fuckery & fun we will have...and those amazing new snuggles...mmmm....:sunglass:

[TheMerryFairy]

There are many things on my mind including floating and feeling the warmth of fire. Mostly though just friends, ideas, birthday celebrations, company, a smile and hopefully a conversation to end the night.

[StrongButch]

I better get off here before I say naughty things! :koolaid:

[~ocean]

I better get off here before I say naughty things! :koolaid:

** makes u pancakes and coffee ** eat dear, now keep ur MOUTH full ~

[Cid]

I was watching this show called Life Story Project. Its a show where a guy brings a purple couch to a busy area of a city and asks people about their lives. Today was about falling/being in love and what it's like losing love. It made me cry. I really miss that feeling of being in love. Really hoping I find it soon before it's too late.

[jac]

A McDonald's soft serve cone!!

http://img9.imageshack.us/img9/7674/icecream01.jpg

Oh yeh baby... one of these would be even better!! :clap:

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[TheMerryFairy]

There's so much to do! I'll be a busy fairy today and the rest of the week. I'll have to try and remember to take a few breaks. I'm wondering how many more boxes are left to sort through before I can finish organizing everything else.

I am thinking about coffee, my friends, daydreams and decisions to make for tomorrow.

[Leigh]

Reading my horoscope this afternoon & knowing that i made the right decision :heartbeat:

[dixie]

- great conversation over delicious food :chef2: and not so delicious beverages :wine:
- delightful theatre productions :blueheels:
- artsy historic districts :artist:
- blooming lilies, crisp white ribbons, and blue Tiffany boxes :givingarose:
- charming smiles, beautiful eyes, heartfelt sentiments :hk32:

- flickering candles, hot oils, churning water ;)

What a wonderful weekend it has been! *le sigh*

[TheMerryFairy]

I can't help but wonder what the heck I'm going to be surprised with tomorrow. I know there is something happening.

[spritzerJ]

I've been good. I am good. Just not sure how much longer I can be good! :blueheels:

[KCBUTCH]

Essays and speeches.
Classes and internships
Bummed my ex of almost 9 yrs back cancelled lunch not because I didn't get to see her but because I am super curious why she asked to meet for lunch after not seeing each other in almost 9 yrs- my curiosity is killing me.

THIS FRICKEN SCOOTER-I WANT IT BAD- DECIDED TO COMPLETELY NERD OUT AND GET A SCOOTER RATHER THAN NEW MOTORCYCLE AND THIS b#&*h IS CALLING MY NAME

http://www.arpem.com/motos/modelos/sym/flash/2007/sym-hd-200-evo/sym-hd-200-evo-li1.jpg

[grenade]

I'm dreading that I have to teach a CPR class tomorrow.

[ruby_woo]

Modcloth.com. Ridiculous I know, but there are these two dresses I cannot get off my brain. I might just have to indulge myself.

[Diablo]

the cute barista i went out with lastnight....hmmm...she ha the most amazing smile and dark brown eyes.......cant wait to see her tomorrow at my starbucks......

[TheMerryFairy]

Tomorrow - it's only a day away!

I will admit that I was tempted to sing just now but opted to hold back my dramatization.

I am trying my best to look on the bright side of getting older LOL

[Kenna]

thinking about how I've reverted to my binge eating habits again lately ...how emotions can affect many aspects of my life not just my positive mental health...a big part of me wants to live a healthy life and change a few unhealthy habits but then I get so exhausted it's just easier not to care anymore ..
I procrastinated bad this weekend about my chores.. I slept too much today but forced myself to get up and clean my kitchen ...once I started, I found the activity and heat from the water very therapeutic. I wish life could be as organized, clean and neat as my white kitchen counters...
after the good feelings my cleaning gave me, I think I'll dispose of the leftover cheesecake that has been my binge eating focus this week. I don't need or want those last two pieces. ..

[TheMerryFairy]

thinking about how I've reverted to my binge eating habits again lately ...how emotions can affect many aspects of my life not just my positive mental health...a big part of me wants to live a healthy life and change a few unhealthy habits but then I get so exhausted it's just easier not to care anymore ..
I procrastinated bad this weekend about my chores.. I slept too much today but forced myself to get up and clean my kitchen ...once I started, I found the activity and heat from the water very therapeutic. I wish life could be as organized, clean and neat as my white kitchen counters...
after the good feelings my cleaning gave me, I think I'll dispose of the leftover cheesecake that has been my binge eating focus this week. I don't need or want those last two pieces. ..

I am happy you were able to do something to make you feel better. It's not easy when your emotions affect everything else like sleep, productivity etc. Good for you for wanting to make changes that are the best for you!

I will happily take the cheesecake, even though I do not need it also.

[Kenna]

I am happy you were able to do something to make you feel better. It's not easy when your emotions affect everything else like sleep, productivity etc. Good for you for wanting to make changes that are the best for you!

I will happily take the cheesecake, even though I do not need it also.

thank you kindly for your support and encouragement. yes, I didn't even think of it affecting my sleep and productivity but that certainly fits. I'd be happy to share the chocolate cheesecake. I've been disappointed in myself for binging so much lately. tonight instead I had a handful of pecans and a nice salad.

[WingsOnFire]

sigh... So many things...

[Ginger]

thank you kindly for your support and encouragement. yes, I didn't even think of it affecting my sleep and productivity but that certainly fits. I'd be happy to share the chocolate cheesecake. I've been disappointed in myself for binging so much lately. tonight instead I had a handful of pecans and a nice salad.

Kenna I don't know if you like grapes, but I've freezing red seedless grapes for snacks. I love sweet, cold treats! I actually wash, dry and bag the grapes in little snack bags.

I also like to freeze bananas (peeled).

You've probably tried those ... but in case not, I thought I'd share because like you, I have a wicked sweet tooth.

Another snack I really like (that isn't sweet) is baby carrots and hummus. And kosher dill pickles!

I guess I'm saying, if you're going through a binging phase, you could keep things that are healthy to binge on, around. I can't always keep up with food shopping but it's sort of reassuring to have good stuff there to eat when I want something or even if I'm just eating out of boredom or anxiety.

Oh yeah pop corn is another great snack.

[TheMerryFairy]

thank you kindly for your support and encouragement. yes, I didn't even think of it affecting my sleep and productivity but that certainly fits. I'd be happy to share the chocolate cheesecake. I've been disappointed in myself for binging so much lately. tonight instead I had a handful of pecans and a nice salad.

That sounds like a great meal!!!!

If you like chocolate but want something healthier try freezing chocolate almond silk into icecubes. It's like eating a fudgesicle only better for you!

[TheMerryFairy]

Hot tubs, drinking with friends and just having a good time.

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Bed...cold sheets...sleep...lots of it!

[Sun]

The happiest place on earth.

[deb0670]

24 years ago today, i held my oldest daughter for the first time. i had the easiest pregnancy with her, and i believe i prayed her into existence. She was the first baby girl born in that hospital for at least 3 months, so she made a big scene and was a favorite among the nurses.
I wish i could be with her today to help her celebrate.

[peachy]

She is :-(

[~ocean]

~ love me for who I am ~

[imadiva]

[SIZE="5"]
Being HAPPY ! Just feeling good and looking forward to the new people ,places and things that will come my way ! I had a very difficult year this year with having cancer and going thru a divorce from my husbutch ! My one year check up is in a few weeks and I feel so strong and clear . This time last year I was so scared and just broken but wow what a difference a year makes ! I will still have 4 more years of check ups to go but heyyyyyy ! Xo

[Lucian]

It feels good to be getting some work done.

[WingsOnFire]

how the weather matches my mood and that's not good.

[Kobi]

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[TheMerryFairy]

This is probably one of the best birthdays I have ever had - if not THE best.

I am greatful and truly lucky.

[grenade]

I'm thinking about everything I need to do before vacation. I know I'm going to forget something.

[TheMerryFairy]

It's a full moon on my birthday. That might explain a lot, including how busy it was at work.

Should I put this wine away before I get myself in trouble?

[BoiJen]

-tons of stuff about school and moving
-my girl
-getting things back on track
:pirate-steer:

[jac]

Holy! My OCD tendencies are raging.............. I have this massive need to put things in order. Been like this ALL day!! It's wearing me down :confused:

Time to put some old school 70s tunes on and mellow the F*** out...............

[Sun]

A video of a local girl crying and talking about her parents being deported. This immigration system is so sick and twisted and it has torn apart so many families it is just wrong. The President talks and nothing changes. A crazy Sheriff raids homes in the middle of the night, arresting people who have children..then he has Border Patrol deport them sometimes within 12 hours, other times they stay in detention centers with no legal aid. For profit prisons get in on the action too. You never see this happen to white people who are here with no papers, but its ok to just fuck with brown skinned people especially if they speak Spanish. Fuck this. When are the people of this country going to get outraged and speak up for real?

Worse? Evidence of children being deported and dropped off in Nogales Mexico. Documented cases (Tucson based No Mas Muertes, documented it) of over 800 people deported, some were kids. The reports were handed over to the Feds. Nothing has changed.

This stuff makes me sick to my core.

What has this nation become.

[bright_arrow]

Holy! My OCD tendencies are raging.............. I have this massive need to put things in order. Been like this ALL day!! It's wearing me down :confused:

Time to put some old school 70s tunes on and mellow the F*** out...............

I totally get the raging tendencies! I did not go to bed until 4am yesterday due to cleaning house.. Case and point! I try to mellow the fuck out as you put it.. Life gets in the way and stuff.. Wine helps! :wine:

[StrongButch]

Its time to make some changes in my life!

[~ocean]

being awake all night w. a daughter and a grandson with high fevers ~ not gonna be a good day :(

[morningstar55]

on my mind......

Little Rock
reservations
Dutch meeting me there , yay :)

[Miss Scarlett]

Today is the 6th anniversary of Mom's death...feeling very sad this morning...not the kind that makes you cry but the kind that makes you want to hide...at least for the moment...hope this makes sense because my thoughts are somewhat jumbled at present...

[KayCee]

something's gotta give

[TheMerryFairy]

I just keep peeking at my cake and thinking about how appropriate it would really be to eat the entire thing tonight. It probably sounds a lot better in my head.

[Smiling]

I just keep peeking at my cake and thinking about how appropriate it would really be to eat the entire thing tonight. It probably sounds a lot better in my head.


Appropriate is overrated. Do it, lol!

[ONLY]

Getting back home to ONLY and her sweet boy where I belong.
aw baby..I think of that everyday also. The house is not a home unless you are here with us