What is on your mind

[DaddyNik12]

hmmm... satisfied at the moment where im at ..... relaxed ... at piece with in

[ONLY]

Wondering when it will be that I no longer have to say "bye" to my girl (f) and waiting to see each other every 2 months or so, but not knowing exactly when.

Thinking how she is such a good woman, amazing. That all the things she has been through (still goes through) and the way she has treated people in her life, always thinking of others first, that she deserves to rest, relax and be happy now and for the rest of her life.

I am more than happy to spend the rest of my life with her, giving her all she deserves.

It's her time :)

I love you SS (f) xo

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Right now thinking how much I wish that I had more late night friends that had my digits so I could text and maybe stay awake or laugh or hell just b.s. about nothing and lose track of time doing it.....

[Cid]

Same old, same old...tired of being lonely.Somehow
the holidays make it more amplified than any other time of year.

[JustLovelyJenn]

How to handle my kid telling me she doesnt want to live with me anymore...

I understand her reasons, and I get that in some ways it would be a lot easier on her, her brother, and me... but damn that shit hurts. A lot.

[RockOn]

I need some rest and am so ready to go to work in the morning and write some software. Among other things, I moved 19 pieces of plywood off my truck and into the back yard today. They were all 6' to 8' long and an average of 2 1/2' to 3' wide. I need to pick a couple of splinters out of my hands but will wait - they are not going anywhere LOL ... and I am so sleepy.

[Cid]

I watched a show on bullying tonight. These kids were getting bullied because of their looks and were given the opportunity for corrective surgery. There were some questions about whether this was helping them? Or was it giving in to the bullies. One thing that made sense was the fact that many kids are given braces to straighten their teeth. Isn't that the same sort of thing?
One thing I'd like to see is someone doing a piece on adults who get bullied. Especially in the work place. It's happened to me more than once and to others that I work with and the bullies get away with it. I hate that.

[C0LLETTE]

daughters that rage at their mothers cause it's tough out there and who else would put up with that kind of abuse.

[Okiebug61]

2014 is on my mind. Will celebrate 10 years with Red. Red is 5 1/2 years from retirement. I am on a mission to be debt free in 3 years and still enjoy life. I am very focused on every opportunity I have in my job and have learned how to set myself apart from all of the office drama!

I am making every effort to make sure I participate in all of my families celebrations. Red and I have committed to a date night. We realized we didn't have a junk night to do whatever we want. I am excited about the unknown!

I am drinking hot cup of tea before bed. It relaxes me and I sleep better.

Tomorrow is what I make of it and what I give back is more important.

Motivation is what you bring to your day!

[Bèsame*]

on my mind...I need a hot drink. Hot chocolate? Decaf chocolate raspberry coffee?

http://img4-1.myrecipes.timeinc.net/i/recipes/su/07/01/hot-chocolate-su-1571510-l.jpg

[little man]

it's cold outside, i'm tired, maybe i should go to bed, the painkillers have kicked in, why do the dogs cover the entire heat vent when they lay on it, maybe i'll go have a quick smoke, hot chocolate sounds good...but too much work, what day is tomorrow.

that pretty much covers it

[Daktari]

My missing Bubba mug...a gift from a very kind Planeteer.


Gutted!

[Ginger]

Flying to Dallas this afternoon.

It's going to hit over 40 degrees today, no more planes sliding off the runway.

It's raining, a cold grey rain.

I'll take a shuttle to the C to the A to the AirJet. Better take an umbrella.

[DaddyNik12]

that I need to go outside and clean off my truck , then go shovel out the end of the drive where the damn snow plow closed me in :blink:

and how damn cold it is outside that it takes your breath away


and how a good morning Daddy! (text) made me smile

[Bèsame*]

on my mind...

I am not going to wear my watch. I can't watch the clock today!

[DaddyNik12]

on my mind...

I am not going to wear my watch. I can't watch the clock today!






excuse me ?
do you happen to know what time it is ? *smirks*

[Kenna]

Damn...I want a glass or two of wine...but I just took a strong pain killer....dammit

[JustLovelyJenn]

Today, my thoughts have been dominated by the future... and preparing for things that may happen. I have been feeling the urge lately to insure that I am indeed headed in the right direction in life. I feel like I am at a fork in the road, with many choices. Among those choices are dark and dangerous woods, treacherous waterfalls ending in deadly, jagged rocks, and rickety bridges with gaping holes over pits of poisonous snakes. But, I know there is also a challenging path that will lead far and high, that will test my resolve but ultimately fulfil my dreams.

Some words and actions from my family, my biggest support system, today have brought the path I am on into higher question in my mind. Am I depending too much on their support to make it to that mark where I can take off on my own? Are they in fact keeping me back from that goal? Is there a way that I have not considered that is a better option?

I need to reflect on all of these questions, I need to look at the direction I have chosen and also look at the other paths that are available. I need to make some big decisions… and soon.

[Daktari]

Friday....

[Kenna]

It's beautiful sunny out but numbing cold. the dogs are content and warm...the chickens and baby guineas are busy and enjoying their warm water and sunny spots ....I have a ton of chores to do ....wish I could curl up in a sunny spot

[JustLovelyJenn]

Dreams are...

... how vivid they were, again. How much they said, without saying anything at all. It helped to clear my mind, to refocus me... I still know some changes need made, but I am feeling more confident again.

[JustLovelyJenn]

The power of positive thinking...

... I know everyone’s life goes through ups and downs... and recently mine has been very crazy and stressful. Not bad, not sad... just stressful. I have had a lot on my plate and finding time for the every day things that make life easier has been getting harder and harder.

Well... after a complete breakdown last night, a listening ear, and a pretty long nights reflection, I started to remember a few things I used to do, years ago, when I was having some serious self-esteem trouble. I used to start every morning with affirmations. They were posted on my mirror, in my car, on the front door, the fridge, and the dresser. Everywhere I went I saw positive things about myself and pretty soon I started to think them even when I couldn’t see them.

So... This morning I got up, came to the planet with my cup of coffee, and went to an old thread... inactive for months now... and posted my daily affirmations. I started my day with positive thoughts and what happened today was amazing. I had a wonderful day at work, I didn’t feel stressed, overwhelmed, or frustrated even in difficult situation. I came home and finished a task I have been trying unsuccessfully to complete for over two weeks, I had a wonderful conversation with a friend, and I ended my evening with a smile.

I needed a swift kick to get myself in gear, but whatever it took… I am very thankful for the power of positive thinking.

[MsTinkerbelly]

I'm going to a women's lunch meeting at our new Church today, and i'm really nervous. I have a VERY hard time going alone to new places/events, and even though the Chuch family has been the most welcoming folks we have ever encountered in a Church anywhere, my fear is nearly overwhelming.

I must push through this fear, i must.:praying:

[Daktari]

*sings* Sins of the f-lesh

[Daktari]

http://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2014/jan/22/ohio-mcguire-execution-untested-lethal-injection-inhumane
:|

[C0LLETTE]

My car's been sitting in the driveway for 3 days now in way sub zero weather while Ive been playing word games and posting on BFP. Tonight it's dropping to -27. Ive an early appointment in the morning. I'm worried it wont start though I suppose it's too late to start worrying now.:praying:

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

I am thinking how ironic life is or is it the Gods and Goddesses testing my staying power once again. When I had all the free time in the world I was single it was not funny. Now my part time job has officially turned to fulltime plus. Which would be no big deal usually but then throw into the mix that said job is on graveyard and 10 or 12 hour shifts. All grand and don't get me wrong I am more than grateful to have the job. Now the ironic part is I am no linger single as my status and flirting obviously makes clear. I am one lucky bastard to have the two special women that I do in my life (yes they know about each other for those wondering). However both of them if course work first shift which normally compliments graveyard bcs we are sleeping. Yet with the longer shifts I work my schedule is get up eat get ready go to work. Now that my life is falling into place I sure don't want to loose either of them due to this crazy schedule. So life is ironic it seems to be nothing on any front or all fronts are hitting me at once.

[Kenna]

On my mind...sleep ...sleep was not successful last night ...

[Tommi]

Cinnamon toast and tea.:tea:

It is 2:30 AM>
WHY did it make me get out of bed and "cook" in the middle of the night
:seeingstars:

[Kobi]

My uncle died yesterday. My mother is now the last remaining person of that generation.

[Ginger]

Some fool shared with me that my ex asked HER ex out (but her ex declined), at some point last year.

My ex and I were broken up for a few months during the first year I moved out of her house. We both had feelers out there during that broken-up time, but it still shook me up and hurt me, to hear that news. I began to remember things, and wonder how much I don't know about my ex.

The person who shared that news (why???) didn't know my ex has been in intensive care for months, is still not safe, and that she broke up with me again from her hospital bed, through her sister, not even to my face, after our sweet visits, and her loving emails right up to that time, which I'll always cherish.

Whatever happens, I want to remember her in the most positive light possible.

Don't share gossip with people, that can hurt them. That's what I'm taking away from this. I woke up in the night reliving things I have been making progress letting go of. It stirred me up, that person's little bit of news. People are so stupid sometimes.

[JustLovelyJenn]

Things I saw this morning while I was taking a peek in someone's mind...
... I liked it in there.

[JAGG]

Some tough cookie.

[Bèsame*]

All you need to do is click the button, and you hear it over and over again.

[Kenna]

I really have been thinking about making a big breakfast...but I'm feeling a bit blaaaah and blue. Thinking I may go back to bed.

[C0LLETTE]

I'm looking at the huge snow on my steps, walk driveway ..and wondering what I did to deserve this.

[ONLY]

I'm looking at the huge snow on my steps, walk driveway ..and wondering what I did to deserve this.

I hear you there....and this was the same as last weekend, WTF??!!

Son and I cleared the driveway last night (took about half hour) figured get a start on it so it won't be as much today. Have not been outside yet but it looks like a little less. At least it stopped snowing :)

[C0LLETTE]

Whenever you don't see me posting in here, I'm out there shovelling.

[Daktari]

Holibobs...

[Oiler41]

Punxsutawney Phil saw his shadow,,,six more weeks of winter!

Glynn

[C0LLETTE]

http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-baqvYTj8iTU/TbXyQxUTjLI/AAAAAAAAAUk/k8VnlQjlDTA/s1600/stew02.jpg

Bet groundhog made it even tastier.

[SirLucian]

Broncos
or
Seahawks
:pile::happyjump::yesno:

Love Them Both
:goodluck:

[Leigh]

Broncos
or
Seahawks
:pile::happyjump::yesno:

Love Them Both
:goodluck:



i'm still a Seahawks girl :praying:

[KayCee]

What's on my mind? If that obnoxious guy upstairs will ever shut up! I just want some peace and quiet..dang!

[SirLucian]

i'm still a Seahawks girl :praying:

Was Always a fan even at their worst
but love Me some donkos

:fastdraq:

[Bèsame*]

on my mind...

How my mom and dad are separated from each other right now. ( medical reasons)

[SirLucian]

foot in front of the other
:fastdraq:

[Kenna]

After hearing from a local friend in the last few days ....I'm very happy and relieved I don't have to go back to Raleigh. .

[Jar]

I'm thinking some people ask way too fucking much and I'm tired of being Mr. Nice, generous guy. I'm all out of favors:explode:

And NO this isn't about anybody on this site!

[JustLovelyJenn]

I am thinking I would like a day with no major problems...

... no students throwing punches
... no sons melting down
... no unexpected expenses

... I'm also thinking about what I am going to pack!

[C0LLETTE]

February marks my one year anniversary since joining BFP. I supposed I should remember the exact day but I don't. It's been quite a learning curve and I'm grateful to a number of people for helping along the way.. for everything from explaining terminology in the Community, tech help with posting images, willingness to discuss personal experiences,and even some for exposing me to more sexual positions and possibilities than I had ever imagined. (Thanks hp, lol)

[Candelion]

SUMMER!!!!!!!

[ONLY]

Wondering what is on my girl's (f) mind.......

[~baby~doll~]

i am trying to decide what to make for dinner. i don't feel like even moving but alas we will need to eat.

[Sweet Bliss]

Wondering what is on my girl's (f) mind.......

I'm not. In fact, I have a pretty good idea. :rofl:

[grenade]

I should get out of this bed and be productive.

[deb0670]

What is on my mind?
*sighs* I am trying so hard to keep positive and not freak out right now. We have four checks coming to us this month. Once they get here, bills will be paid, food will be bought for us and our food babies.. Other things we need will be taking care of, Valentine's Day will be amazing.. debts will be paid..
BUT.. they are not here yet. Food is running low, debtors are getting restless, Valentine's Day is fast approaching.
They will get here.. please let they get here soon?

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind...

I've watched a few youtube videos about the documentary "Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead". I'm wondering if I have the willpower & stamina to try a juice fast.

[C0LLETTE]

FaceBook is 10 years old today.

[JustLovelyJenn]

What is on my mind today is scheduling and budgets and future plans... making everything fit and everything work... lots of good things on my mind.

[Jet]

Philip Seymour Hoffman is on my mind and, like many of you, I am saddened by his passing. I have spent the last few nights with Philip Seymour Hoffman and his work on film. But if I could have a few more hours with him, it would be to spend an evening with him on Broadway watching his interpretation and portrayal of Willy Loman in Arthur's Miller's Pulitzer Prize winning play, Death of A Salesman written in 1949.

Willy Loman is one of the greatest roles handed to an actor who is capable of intense character studies. Philip Seymour Hoffman is one of those actors and I envy anyone who had the rare privilege of seeing his performances within a theater's length of him. Lee J. Cobb is known for launching the role on film, but Philip Seymour Hoffman undoubtedly finishes one of Arthur Miller's greatest works on stage. I can't imagine anybody stepping into this role or equaling Hoffman's metamorphosis as the worn-down Loman; it is the perfect role for this actor who handled intense characterizations seamlessly.

For me, Arthur Miller is one of the greatest dramatists of his time and in the ranks of Eugene O'Neill and Tennessee Williams. These writers were brilliant in their intense studies of personal and social issues. Most memorably, The Ice Man Cometh, O'Neill, Williams' Glass Menagerie or Michael Gazzo's Hatful of Rain, from 1957, which exposed drug addiction.

My favorite work of Miller is the film All My Sons featuring Burt Lancaster and Edward G. Robinson. I have also read The Crucible as a script and as Miller's genius to expose McCarthy-ism as a witch hunt of the early 1950s. Although set in the 17th century, Miller's uses this vehicle to lambast the McCarthy hearings on anti-American activities and Communism in the early 1950s. Brilliant allegories.

Sidebar: this is not a political post, but my own take of Miller's work as a dramatist only.

Miller was incredible in his challenges of his own characters to examine themselves. Willy Loman is that kind of character in Death of A Salesman as as a weary, bitter, hard-ridden, working class salesman who examines and re-examines his life. Although produced on film with Lee J. Cobb and Dustin Hoffman, this role is really written for the stage. I can only imagine that the the mix of Miller and Hoffman together must have been an incredible experience. I would have given anything to see Philip Seymour Hoffman close up as an actor—just that far away from me—with Miller.

My thoughts, today, are on the accounts of Hoffman's death and my own private time viewing of his works on film from the last 15 years. If I could have experienced Hoffman on stage—it would have completed his repertoire for me and given me yet, another new dimension of this incredible actor on stage. I'll miss him.

[Daktari]

My gippy tum

[SirLucian]

Greer SC
(f)(f)(f)

[Bèsame*]

delivering the Super Bowl bet

[storyofmylife]

my pup :candle:

[Ginger]

Dad trying to rip out his drainage tube in the night
Mom sleeping in a chair
Who will get my mail while I'm gone
I hope that pastor gets back to me
I hope mom isn't mad I got in touch with him
I hope I sleep tonight
I hope my flight leaves on time
I hope the shuttle works out
I hope D catches that wild dog

[~baby~doll~]

i woke up this morning on the couch and wondered why i was there. i could no remember where i was my Sweetheart told me. i have been trying to regain my footing all day. i hate this never knowing when i will lose a moment or a minute or more. my health is on my mind

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Work is on my mind.

Well really more like the lack of responsibility others seem to have. I work with the medically fragile developmentally disabled in a home setting. Which means they depend on us for everything 24 hours a day and I mean everything. I love my job and how good I am at it even if it is a stressful job. My two girls help with that (smile). However this last weekend really pissed me off. Not that I had to work 36 hours straight but the reason behind it. I had to because so many people agency wide not just my house called in that they weren't even able to relieve us after 24 hours. Okay I understand car troubles I do but damn it the busses were running and the ones that got to work got there by bus. Well my fir brought me but I would have taken the bus if I had too. I tell you there is something wrong with peoples work ethics hell ethics period when workers at Wendy's can show up to work ( thank you btw) but caregivers responsible for the very lives of someone else can't!!!

[Butterbean]

The frittata for dinner tonight was fantastic. I think I want seconds but I'm trying to resist the urge.

[storyofmylife]

my very loved dad :candle:

[JustLovelyJenn]

What is on my mind is that this week is going to be either excruciatingly slow... or entirely too fast... only one week left!!!!

[RockOn]

Correcting a ContextSwitchDeadlock error in my software ... this app is very processor intensive and probably only need to turn off the Managed Debug Assistant (MDA)and tune my SQL code ... Hope it is only a case of the MDA yelling fire and in reality, there is not one ... Otherwise, gear up for some ugly code! :(

Hope all of you are having a swell morning!

[Daktari]

That last 'difficult' couple of weeks.

So damn grateful for the love and support of the chosen few.

[Butterbean]

That deadline tomorrow night. I've grown tired of deadlines. When I complete this portion of my grad school in about 10 months, I need to take a big hiatus and go back to work for awhile.

[C0LLETTE]

A comprehensive new study has found that an estimated one in 14 women around is sexually assaulted by someone other than her partner – with real numbers likely higher, given that many victims fail to report the crimes out of shame or fear.

The research, published in the medical journal The Lancet, found that 7.2 per cent of women 15 years of age and older report being sexually assaulted by someone other than an intimate partner at least once in their lives. In Canada and the United States, that number jumps to 13 per cent. And nearly all countries – including Canada – aren’t doing enough to compile data on sexual violence by different predators.

Sexual-assault rates are highest in countries such as the Democratic Republic of Congo (21 per cent), Namibia, South Africa and Zimbabwe (17.4 per cent) and in the Australasian countries of New Zealand and Australia (16.4 per cent), says study co-author Naeemah Abrahams with the South African Medical Research Council in Cape Town. Countries such as Turkey (4.5 per cent) and India and Bangladesh (3.3 per cent) had the lowest incidence.

“Sexual violence is a common experience for women worldwide,” concludes Prof. Abrahams, who pored over studies conducted in 56 countries over a period of 13 years, with assistance from colleagues from the London School of Hygiene and Tropical Medicine, as well as the World Health Organization. “In some regions, it’s endemic.”

The research highlights the need for countries to start aggressively implementing their own population-based data on the levels of sexual violence by different predators. Hard data is desperately needed, Prof. Abrahams says, so health-care professionals can get a better grasp on the magnitude of the problem to put in place improved prevention interventions, as well as more comprehensive services to treat victims of sexual assault.

Sandra Diaz, vice-president of communications at the Canadian Women’s Foundation, echoed Prof. Abrahams’ plea for governments to get more aggressive on compiling data on domestic and sexual violence in Canada.

“We do not have our own population-based data and it’s something we desperately need,” Ms. Diaz says. “The last seminal study on domestic violence in Canada was in 1993. The government simply is not investing in this kind of research. It’s a huge challenge to make it a priority.”

A 2013 study by the Canadian Women’s Foundation found that 67 per cent of Canadians know a woman who has been physically or sexually abused. “This research doesn’t replace incidence data, but it does give us a sense of the magnitude of the epidemic in Canada,” says Ms. Diaz, who adds that less than 10 per cent of sexual assaults in Canada are reported. “They don’t report because of the victim-blaming culture, and out of shame and fear.”

Also last year, Ms. Diaz says, the foundation did a public-opinion poll on Canadians’ attitudes toward sexual and domestic violence and found that 19 per cent of Canadians believe a woman encouraged or provoked sexual assault when she was drunk, while 11 per cent believe she encouraged or provoked sexual assault by wearing a short skirt.

[Kenna]

On my mind...one of my favorite memories of a trip to the beach on Valentine's weekend, sitting in my fuzzy pjs on the cold sand dune to get pictures of my first beach sunrise...and all the fun moments of exploring and discovering beautiful things. Laughter and shared wonder. I loved that trip and cherished quiet beauty of a secluded beach sunrise.

[Bèsame*]

http://i1324.photobucket.com/albums/u616/tyndev/a-little-salty-pinthis_zpsd31ff6fd.jpg

[JustLovelyJenn]

I so don't want to go to sleep tonight... and its just very silly... you see... everything thats coming up hit me today... all the very wonderful and exciting things that are happening in just... 4 more sleeps... and, well... I am just... going to sleep in the wrong damn bed... so I don't want to do it.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

What else her visit....the first time she looks into my eyes....our first kiss...
and of course what I am going to wear but solved the I have to work 10 hours before I get that first glance....keep it simple right hence wear my work clothes and bring the first meeting breakfast clothes to work with you.....

[JustLovelyJenn]

What else her visit....the first time she looks into my eyes....our first kiss...
and of course what I am going to wear but solved the I have to work 10 hours before I get that first glance....keep it simple right hence wear my work clothes and bring the first meeting breakfast clothes to work with you.....

Giggles...... that's just cute!!!!!

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Giggles...... that's just cute!!!!!

Ok we have to set a new rule no public use of that word associated with me I do have a rep to uphold after all *chuckle*

[JustLovelyJenn]

Ok we have to set a new rule no public use of that word associated with me I do have a rep to uphold after all *chuckle*

*hides another giggle* Yes, Daddy....

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Great now I am thinking about how soon you will be close enough to actually feel my response to that last post!

[Bèsame*]

http://lifeisfunbeingme.files.wordpress.com/2013/01/tumblr_m4r464setd1r6pvc3o1_500.png



Just breath, and fight watching the time!

I will be smiling later!!!!!

[JustLovelyJenn]

I'm sitting here watching Him sleep and thinking about how lucky i am...

[ONLY]

The next step to her saying "YES!!!!"........

[SoulShineFemme]

The next step to her saying "YES!!!!"........

:D :D We have some plannin' to do my Sugarbear!!

[theoddz]

I've been shaking my head, it seems, constantly, these days. What is wrong with people these days???? Are we so frippin' short-tempered and out of sorts that we need to just get a gun and shoot someone else who annoys us?? Dammit.

This latest case of the guy who shot the young black man for "loud music" just sends my mind and my good senses spinning. What happened to the days when, if someone was playing their music too loud, we'd just walk over, smile and ask them to turn it down a notch or two??? What fosters such anger that one needs to shoot another??? What is wrong with us??? :thinking:

I'm not getting into the politics of the situation, because that's another can of worms that's hard to figure. We can say that racism, guns, is the cause, and it is, all that considered and aside, I'm talking about our R-E-A-C-T-I-O-N response to whatever is bothering us, be it right/wrong/justified/not justified/assholism/decency etc.

People just aren't decent towards one another and it's gotten very, very violent. We're so quick to violence and it's a disturbing trend. We've completely abandoned rational thought and humanity, it seems, and just opted for killing each other. I mean, WTF???? :|

My mind spins. :(

~Theo~ :bouquet:

[Kenna]

At 5:15...I thought is it only 5:25...
At 5:59...I thought is it only 5:59...
I looked at what day it was...Only :( Thursday February 20th....
I slept good, but it's only the 20th....

Le sigh....I roll over to look at the curtains for any sign of sunrise....pick up my phone,, contemplating sending a message...put it back down, sign again recalling it's not the same time there...I will be good and wait.

[Kenna]

At 5:15...I thought is it only 5:25...
At 5:59...I thought is it only 5:59...
I looked at what day it was...Only :( Thursday February 20th....
I slept good, but it's only the 20th....

Le sigh....I roll over to look at the curtains for any sign of sunrise....pick up my phone,, contemplating sending a message...put it back down, sigh again recalling it's not the same time there...I will be good and wait.

Just moments after posting this...not even two minutes after... My paitence was rewarded. Especially with the reward of being addressed as Lady Kenna....life is full of surprises

[C0LLETTE]

The roof drains are covered in ice and now it's going to rain heavily. There will be major flooding unless I get out on that roof and chop that ice away...ugh

[Bèsame*]

Perhaps the Christmas drama will end tonight?

[Jet]

This sucks big time. The government WILL NOT supply California's drought-ridden farmers with its water reserve this year. California produces more than 50% of the nation's fresh produce. Cherries, tomato, onion, melon, broccoli, celery and cauliflower crops are depleted. I don't get the government's lack of priorities at all. Prices will more than double and some farmers may be forced to hang it up after generations of farming.

http://www.cbsnews.com/videos/california-produce-suppliers-feeling-the-heat-after-feds-halt-water-deliveries/

[QueenofSmirks]

My Final, which is technically due tomorrow night, but I want to finish it by this afternoon because I have stuff I want to do tomorrow! So, I guess sitting here procrastinating probably isn't the best idea right now!

[Jet]

Big billionaire with a big idea to divide California into 6 states deeming it as currently "ungovernable." Right now, the initiative is gaining some ground.

I hate this for a lot of reasons, but I'm wondering what you think.


http://news.yahoo.com/plan-split-california-six-states-gains-ground-222139687.html

[Talon]

Just currently drooling over the mirror-chromed Hennessey Venom GT sports coupe...the fastest accelerating car in the world...with a top speed of 270.49 mph.


:tongue:

[WingsOnFire]

Today what is on my mind... is knowing my boy will be sleeping in our bed when I get home from work. It always makes me smile when I know he is safe and sound where I can watch over him.

[Canela]

The monumental decision to overturn the ban here in Texas of same sex marriage. I'm so happy that Texas is finally coming into a season of tolerance and acceptance of the LGBTQI culture.

WE are finally on the precipice of equality in this state!

:cheer:

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

There is not enough time in the day for anything including listing what is on my mind!

[JustLovelyJenn]

I have a lot more growing still to do... and a lot of things I thought I had dealt with that it appears I just buried... self growth is a never ending process.

[Queenie]

Is this...

I want to make some home made chocolate chip cookies with toll house chocolate chips. Cause really what else would you use for chocolate chips?
Sadly toll house chocolate chips aren't sold in the supermarkets here in the, UK. I can buy em on-line for £4.99 ($8.34) plus £2.10 ($3.51) for deliver.
I love living here but times like this I don't!

[C0LLETTE]

I'd like to sell my house, buy a house in another city, move. After 30 years in the same home, the whole prospect seems overwhelming.

[JustLovelyJenn]

What is on my mind... I feel extremely unattractive tonight... despite all my efforts to accomplish the opposite.

[Kenna]

I went to bed early...with a hot pack on my back...
woke up just a bit ago to find hot pack around my belly :|

It's very peacefully quiet inside and outside the house...
I'm so cozy nestled in my 2 fleeces and big heavy quilt...

but I'm craving something sweet from the kitchen ...
I wonder what kinda ice cream we have ?

I'm also craving a certain kind of attention ...
it's good to crave sometimes ....makes me appreciate what I have, knowing my needs will always be met.

Life is good and I'm gonna have a small bowl of ice cream to celebrate!!

[Sweet Bliss]

Well, for starters, why would you use nasty american brown lumps of wax for your cookies when the best chocolate in the world is made in Europe?

Melt some, spread on parchment paper to cool, and when solid again, chop it up into bits. Easy.

I would kill for French dark chocolate right now.... a little red wine...oh ya

[ConCrtAnge1]

what's on my mind.... Well packing packing packing.... I can't get it off my mind. I am so excited yet so scared to take this next huge step in my life.. I will be living in my own home.. this is something I haven't done in many years.. Oh to face my fears head on is what I shall do.. :-)
Have a wonderful afternoon all.

[Ginger]

I just got another text from the OR. My mom's surgery is going well. She buried her husband of 60 years, my dad, on Saturday. She deserves more time; to recover from her loss, and to be happy again. She deserves some good news. I could use some as well.

[WingsOnFire]

Oh joy... as if the office noise and chaos wasnt enough I have been asked to work overtime... Of course I will help.. sigh.. but could we please have the hammering stop?????

[Jar]

I just got another text from the OR. My mom's surgery is going well. She buried her husband of 60 years, my dad, on Saturday. She deserves more time; to recover from her loss, and to be happy again. She deserves some good news. I could use some as well.

I hope all goes well. Take care of yourself ... You have a lot on your plate! I'm so sorry....

[Ginger]

I just got another text from the OR. My mom's surgery is going well. She buried her husband of 60 years, my dad, on Saturday. She deserves more time; to recover from her loss, and to be happy again. She deserves some good news. I could use some as well.


Mom out of surgery now, and the outcome was very positive. On my mind ... how time is a gift.

[ProfPacker]

Well it is weird that my nose and sinuses are such a mess without symptoms, other than last week: major deviated septum, sinus so occluded that there probably hasn't been an air passage for 10-12 months and a possible chipped bone in the eye orbit. Surgery April 1.

[Bèsame*]

yay! Vacation in 2.5 weeks.

[Ginger]

Well it is weird that my nose and sinuses are such a mess without symptoms, other than last week: major deviated septum, sinus so occluded that there probably hasn't been an air passage for 10-12 months and a possible chipped bone in the eye orbit. Surgery April 1.

Geez that sounds painful. Did you have a bike accident or something?

[ProfPacker]

It's weird, because with all these symptoms Yu would think I would recall some trauma, but no and basically if I hadn't gotten high BP last week and had a CAT scan I would never have known. I mean I guess it might have gotten worse.

I'mswim and have problems breathing, just weird.

[WingsOnFire]

My poly sister is on my mind a lot today.

[Bèsame*]

mmmmm some chocolate fudge on ice cream....

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[cinnamongrrl]

on my mind....

my eldest and how happy shes been....does my heart good....

plans.....change.....and plans for change....

St Patricks Day aka as my cousins burial day....bittersweet.....

things to come....the unknown....and leaving behind the old familiar......trading it in for a clean slate....(the song lyrics "a brand new soul and a cross of gold" just popped in my head...lol)

strange dreams Ive been having.....remembering....some bad some good....

and most of all......spring.......let it be soon...[object Selection]

[C0LLETTE]

I truly dislike the word "bitch" except in reference to female dogs. I've never understood why women use it to apply to others and particularly to themselves. In my opinion, it's essentially derogatory and used as one of the ugliest sexist insults extant. I just don't see it as a word worth reclaiming.

[morningstar55]

why is there 35 and 186 guest then members on here ???

[fatallyblonde]

unfortunately, money woes. it's been a streak of very slow, quiet weeks and I am extremely stressed. guess I just gotta let it go and try and think positive? ugh.

[Talon]

I wonder why listening to the cello... always brings tears to my eyes.
Not sad tears, just that feeling of your heart being gently caressed by intense beauty.

[C0LLETTE]

Moving. Packing up after 40 years and 4 wives isn't easy.

[Cid]

I had something on my mind but with
menapause it doesn't stay there long....hmmm.

[JustLovelyJenn]

What is on my mind is how much my life changes how quickly... A month ago it was more good days then bad, right now its more bad days then good. I know it will change again, but this part of the cycle is exhausting.

[Bèsame*]

my dad....

[Cid]

The government. They talk about the separation
of church and state so that they don't have to have prayer in
schools, but when it comes to gay marriage that bible comes out
awfully fast! hmmm...how convenient for them to be able to decide
when it read and when it can't.

[COR FORTE]

I wonder why listening to the cello... always brings tears to my eyes.
Not sad tears, just that feeling of your heart being gently caressed by intense beauty.

Why? Because intense beauty "knows" intense beauty, and no, I am not partial. You are one of the single most beautiful people I have ever know. Inside and out - and I am proud to not just call you my love - but my friend- but my best friend. The beauty of your presence in my life - causes me "intense" happiness. always - and as a popular song once said - if you love someone - say it out loud - so...to you this morning, my love - this is me - saying it out loud- and yes, Yo Yo Ma is especially intense and talented and has a way of making anyone who listens with a heart of music such as you possess feel deeply - intensely and most beautifully.

[uglyboi]

I’m inattentive to verbal requests due to past hearing damage. That, and I don’t want to do what you’re asking me to do.

[JAGG]

Next weekend !

[bokster]

A cold bottle of beer would be good right now.

[morningstar55]

think i lost ... Blaze's balls thread .. mmm mmmm

[Bèsame*]

Me too!

Countdown..5 days..lolNext weekend !

[WingsOnFire]

thoughts that wont stop... emotions that betray me...

thankfully my single cup coffee pot brings joy to my sleepy body with more coffee at work.... their coffee here is NASTY....

[Bard]

Got the stitches out today and things are going good I have another month at home and I really want to get back to work to feel like I am contributing desd is working hard and taking care of me I guess the bottom line is I feel guilty:|

[Ginger]

I don't think I identify as "femme" anymore. I always claimed the ID because I wanted to attract butch partners. But now I'm thinking I want to be open to a wider range of women. I think "sporty," "fit," "active," "kind," "brainy" etc. are the common denominators for me, not degree to which the person exudes masculine energy. I still veer toward those opposite of me on the spectrum, but I want to be open to a wider "opposite" range. I also want someone as financially stable, attractive and accomplished as I am. I'm hoisting up that goddamn bar.

That's what's been on my mind.

[Bèsame*]

I'm on my way home from vacation, spending time with my parents. You know, some things in life are hard. It's been a very trying week. It's sad to see the rock in your life crumble. I have had support from my brothers. I also would like to thank all my friends who have reached out to me this week.

You should know I have appreciated all of you.

http://www.bluebell33.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/08/BB0811.jpg

[morningstar55]

ever feel like cinderella ...... the part where .. you felt on top of the world , and so so special .. then poof everything falls apart ... and your a lone again , and like no purpose .... ??
i miss my job .. my life before my injury.
anyways thats whats on my mind.
gonna head for bed..... gd nites.

[Bèsame*]

My sweet neighbor.

[LeftWriteFemme]

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[Daktari]

Clean time and the very select folks in my 'We Crew'

[morningstar55]

on my mind.... is Electrocell ... dealing with hys most favorite sister in law whom has cancer and in a hospital.
My thoughts and prayers go out to her / Electro and family.

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[Bèsame*]

on my mind...

I wore gladiator sandals today, they're really cute.:) Goes great with my new black maxi dress. However, my toes aren't used to being strapped in. All I want to do is take them off. Nothing beats bare feet in the afternoon.

[firegal]

The pix I received of Easter package sitting by their front door,

[Bèsame*]

On my mind...

Remembering...I don't need a warm body. I need a good person. Stay focused on qualities.


This shouldn't be that hard :)

[VintageFemme]

Rubin "Hurricane" Carter left this universe this past Sunday. He was 76. And I don't know why but I'm kinda sad about it. I tried to find Bob Dylan's, Hurricane on YouTube to share but all of the audio there has been distorted or removed. If anyone would like to hear it, it is on Spotify though. Here is the direct link: Bob Dylan – Hurricane (http://open.spotify.com/track/1lqMLr9Wj7SM2F9AikGcxN) ... it should open your Spotify by clicking it to play immediately. Denzel Washington did an awesome job portraying him in the movie version as well. Rubin Carter is on my mind tonight.

How can the life of such a man
Be in the palm of some fool's hand?
To see him obviously framed
Couldn't help but make me feel ashamed to live in a land
Where justice is a game.

[Smiling]

On my mind - Exactly how much I do not want to go to work tonight. Someone please make it go away.

:overreaction:

[WildHorses]

A better question might be WHO is on your mind.

[Jet]

St. Therese of Lisieux
St. Teresa of Avila
St. Anthony of Padua
St. Bernard of Clairveaux

Our Lady of Mt. Carmel and the Basilica.

[Okiebug61]

I woke up today and was given the gift to make difference!

[starryeyes]

My lil guy smude is really sick :( he is severly allergic to fleas and unfortunately he was bit and now having a huge flair up. I tried to get his medicine transfered to a closer vet so I could get his meds but they couldn't do it right away, so I had to leave him and go to work knowing he was suffering with his rash. When I got home, I gave him 1/2 a benedryl so I hope it gives him some relief. I hope I am able to get him his meds tomorrow. I hate seeing my little guy like this. :((

[Queenie]

I wonder if the window fixer dude will really come in the next 55 minutes. Its like 3:05 and he isn't here yet. He was going to come a few weeks ago, but that got canceled and moved to today. I hate waiting!

[Talon]

I'm disappointed at not getting the property in CT that I wanted...but trying to tell myself that it just means that there's a better one out there.

[~baby~doll~]

i'm trying to focus on what this evening will bring. It's noon and i am still fiddling about in the bedroom getting dressed. i may just settle on the bath robe i have on.

[Cole]

I'm wondering when allergy season will be over...Jeez...

[JustLovelyJenn]

What is on my mind right now is what to do with a whole week to myself.

[Barb42]

What is on my mind... A much needed break from the stress for a dew days...

[WingsOnFire]

I just got a call from my father that my brother is dying from cancer and his kidneys are failing. I won't know until tomorrow how long he has or if I can even get to Florida in time to see him. I didn't see my mother before she passed away so this will devastate me if I can't see him

I'm just so sad right now

[Bèsame*]

my phone doesn't seem to be working. Its really quiet?


Testing 1 2 3

Hello?

[WildHorses]

I am sorry for what you and your family are going through. I will pray that you can get there in time and that the news you hear tomorrow is better than what you know today.

:bunchflowers:


I just got a call from my father that my brother is dying from cancer and his kidneys are failing. I won't know until tomorrow how long he has or if I can even get to Florida in time to see him. I didn't see my mother before she passed away so this will devastate me if I can't see him

I'm just so sad right now

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

The memories that being around my bio-family unfortunately bring to the surface....memories I wish would just stayed buried...I paid my dues and accepted them as unchangeable long ago...so I think it's past time for these ghosts to stay buried...that is one of many things on my mind these past few weeks.

[QueenofSmirks]

All of the things I want to accomplish today while I enjoy a full day off from work and school! So much to do, but having a wonderful day anyway :)

[RockOn]

I was supposed to go over to a friend's for dinner and watch a movie but she called early this morning from out of state and said she was staying an additional night at her brother's. Not a problem ... I can get round 2 of her wonderful spaghetti another time.

Now I am trying to decide about dinner ... narrowed it down to pizza, Mexican, hamburger steak plate from local mom n pops or BBQ plate from BBQ restaurant.

Hmmm ... now pondering which can I get home with the quickest and eat.
;)

[Mormegil]

Sitting in my room wondering why everytime I try to actually go out and socialize something comes up and I cant. I end up in my room listening to music .
Im never gonna get a date by being in my room listening to music playing xbox lol

[Bèsame*]

Wondering why people make up some devastating stories, faking a terrible illness, and playing on people's hearts? Sometimes I wonder about the way some peoples minds work. Breaks my heart. Now I will be skeptical...

[Cole]

It's so nice to share a bed with another person.

[JustLovelyJenn]

I have to get up early... but I really dont want to sleep...

[Kenna]

....the antonyms of gullible...

[Talon]

How friendly they are in CT....so strange for me...I'm used to my salty bastards.

[cinnamongrrl]

Today I held a month old baby boy......made we wish Id had a little boy......

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

What is on my mind....chocolate
How much I want it
The different types
Did I say how much I want some
How frustrating it is that I don't have any

[sportyspice95]

XGWTN_0pKFg

[Charmingbutch21]

Softball, softball, softball!

And maybe a heatstroke...:worried:

[JoSchmooze]

How easily some people come in and out of our lives......

[Smiling]

Not at all surprising, but deeply disturbing....

Facebook Doesn't Understand the Fuss About its Emotion Manipulation Study

Link (http://www.forbes.com/sites/kashmirhill/2014/06/29/facebook-doesnt-understand-the-fuss-about-its-emotion-manipulation-study/).

"This gives more fodder to academic Ryan Calo who has argued that companies need to get their psychological studies of users vetted in some way that echoes what happens in the academic context. When universities conduct studies on people, they have to run them by an ethics board first to get approval — ethics boards that were mandated by the government in the 1970s because scientists were getting too creepy in their experiments, getting subjects to think they were shocking someone to death in order to study obedience, for example. Interestingly, the Facebook “emotional contagion” project had funding from the government — the Army Research Office — according to a Cornell profile of one of the academic researchers involved. And the professor who edited the article said the study was okayed by an Institutional Review Board. That approval has led most academic commentators’ jaws to hit the floor."

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

On my mind is the doctors appointment I have tomorrow. Not because of what might be discovered but because of how I might be treated. I will definitely have to keep telling myself to relax....breath...after all if the worst happens I can always continue to look. As long as I get the two scripts I need the appointment won't be wasted.

[AnAwkwardAccident]

On my mind is the doctors appointment I have tomorrow. Not because of what might be discovered but because of how I might be treated. I will definitely have to keep telling myself to relax....breath...after all if the worst happens I can always continue to look. As long as I get the two scripts I need the appointment won't be wasted.

I hope your appointment goes well, man. I hate going to the doctor's...

[Gemme]

How excellent and such a long time in the making this is:

First 4 Star Female Admiral (http://www.aol.com/article/2014/07/01/u-s-navy-names-michelle-howard-the-first-4-star-female-admiral/20923370/?icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl26%7Csec1_lnk2%26pLid%3D496078)

[Kenna]

There's a lot on my mind today...some good...some mischievous... some naughty...some happy with big smile...some with pride for accomplishments.. and some for planning the near future...

After an interesting travel day yesterday...I landed in Texas and got to see the Mississippi River from a really cool aerial view. LOVED THAT...
My next two weeks will be filled with lots of interesting travels, choices and decisions affecting my future. Also thinking of inviting a friend from San Antonio to brunch one day. ;-)

[QueenofSmirks]

Playing an excellent game of poker and winning a ticket into a big tournament in August!

[cinnamongrrl]

on my mind.....

how life can change in the blink of an eye.....
my youngest daughter and I were in a pretty bad car wreck last night....my car is totaled. We are SO LUCKY that we are only badly bruised....
when my mother got to the hospital, she told me she had been visiting the spot where my cousin was hit by the car and thrown....and ultimately died. Thats where she was standing when she found out about our accident. Its the first time shes ever been there in the 5months hes been gone. How ironic.
All I can say is thank the universe and god that it wasnt worse, we are both walking. Im just kind of in a haze....but feeling blessed and thinking its just another sign that I have more left to do on this planet.

[Orema]

On my mind: I have the week off and am staying home. Want to make a creative visualization collage to help me break some bad habits and re-establish some good ones.

[Medusa]

On my mind is how much it PISSES ME OFF to see straight women being interchanged with Femmes in the "desire olympics", especially when done by Butches who, in other spaces, purport to love them some Femmes. (and no, this is not about anyone here and not even a specific context)

Like, we've had this conversation a million times and I can't understand it. I can hear the loud exclamations in my head if Femmes started drooling over photos of George Clooney or Denzel Washington and were like "OMG, this Butch is so hot!!!"

I mean, FOR REAL??

[starryeyes]

Needing to clean my house before I go on a work trip.... But it's sooooo hard to get motivated on a Sunday!!! Lol :)

[Kobi]

On my mind is how much it PISSES ME OFF to see straight women being interchanged with Femmes in the "desire olympics", especially when done by Butches who, in other spaces, purport to love them some Femmes. (and no, this is not about anyone here and not even a specific context)

Like, we've had this conversation a million times and I can't understand it. I can hear the loud exclamations in my head if Femmes started drooling over photos of George Clooney or Denzel Washington and were like "OMG, this Butch is so hot!!!"

I mean, FOR REAL??


I'm confused.

If I am reading this right, you are pissed off because in the "desire olympics" it appears Butches interchange straight women and Femmes.

And, you think Butches would be pissed off if Femmes started drooling over biological men like George or Denzel.

But, it is ok for Femmes to see Butches as a garden salad of female, male, trans, two sexed, inter sexed and whomever I forgot, AND who may be lesbian, queer, straight and whatever I may have forgotten?

I dont know if it is "for real" but it sounds a lot like the proverbial double standard. :)

[Medusa]

I'm confused.

If I am reading this right, you are pissed off because in the "desire olympics" it appears Butches interchange straight women and Femmes.

And, you think Butches would be pissed off if Femmes started drooling over biological men like George or Denzel.

But, it is ok for Femmes to see Butches as a garden salad of female, male, trans, two sexed, inter sexed and whomever I forgot, AND who may be lesbian, queer, straight and whatever I may have forgotten?

I dont know if it is "for real" but it sounds a lot like the proverbial double standard. :)







Yes, FOR REAL.

I've rewritten and deleted this response about a dozen times because I'm angry.

I'll be back to respond to this when I cool down.

[Mel C.]

I can hear the loud exclamations in my head if Femmes started drooling over photos of George Clooney or Denzel Washington and were like "OMG, this Butch is so hot!!!"

I'm not sure I understand, perhaps because I drool over male, female, tg, butch, femme, etc. I don't mean I want a relationship with anyone from certain gender identities, but I do find examples of "hot" in each group. There are some damn fine people out there, including George and Denzel.

Medusa - Since the thread is about what is on your mind, no explanation is necessary, but I would love to hear more about what you are thinking if you want to share.

Added: Is the issue calling straight men (like george and denzel) "butch"as if they are examples of what butch "should" be? If so, I totally understand why that would piss people off.

[Medusa]

I'm not sure I understand, perhaps because I drool over male, female, tg, butch, femme, etc. I don't mean I want a relationship with anyone from certain gender identities, but I do find examples of "hot" in each group. There are some damn fine people out there, including George and Denzel.

Medusa - Since the thread is about what is on your mind, no explanation is necessary, but I would love to hear more about what you are thinking if you want to share.

Added: Is the issue calling straight men (like george and denzel) "butch"as if they are examples of what butch "should" be? If so, I totally understand why that would piss people off.


Mel-

Thank you for getting it. Sincerely. Yes, my issue is with using a random celeb straight woman as an example of "Femme", not with following your desires to whatever gender they happen to inhabit.

That is one of the things I have always appreciated about you, that you willingly and openly talk about your desires without a caveat or an ounce of shame. And I think finding examples of "hot" in each group is a good way to put it!!

I think the thing for me as a Femme is that our invisibility is really specific. Maybe not as much as it was 10 or 20 or 30 years ago in some cases (because the world seems to be "getting it" on some tiny level about how gender isn't always about sex) but even today, I am asked what my "husband" does for a living when encountering strangers.
It's the "assumed accessory" thing.

So as a Femme when I rub up against "Lady Gaga is a Femme" or "Beyonce is a Femme" or "Damn, I wish the Femmes I know were as fine as ... insert a celeb who is not Queer, Lesbian, Gay, or for that matter who IS STRAIGHT, THIN, WHITE, or RICH" it makes me want to scream, "NO. NO. NOOOOOO."

Most days I just dance over it but yanno, sometimes you just wish people would evolve already.

I appreciate you, Mel. Thank you for the respectful dialog. :rrose:

~M

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Way to much right now. Even through the extreme pain I am in my damn mind won't shut off for even a second. Most importantly it is all crap that I can do nothing absolutely nothing about. Except for one that is which is to finally hey around to giving people my new number. That really is a pain in the ass chore but hey I have enjoyed the peace and quiet of no one having my number for a few days

[MsTinkerbelly]

Ugggg

I better get ready to leave for the funeral. :(

[Kenna]

I'm very tired but my brain won't shut down.

[EmJay]

You. And how much I miss you at times. Right now being one of those times.

[Medusa]

What's on my mind??? The dog just scared the living hell out of me and I'm contemplating wringing her neck (not really).

I was at the back of the house playing an audiobook and organizing some clothes in the closet. Where I was standing in the closet I had full view of Gracie as she lay on the edge of the bed. All of the sudden, she stands up on the bed and starts barking and growling with bared teeth and pointing down the hallway as if someone is there.

And of course there was nothing out there but my heart is still pounding!!! LOL

[WingsOnFire]

what is on my mind is how wonderful it felt to be completely stress free and relaxed this weekend during a BDSM self identified womens camping event. There was a wide variety in attendance.. trans, gay, queer, bi, femme, butch, leather dyke, boy, boi, girl, grl, Daddy, Sir, Maam, Mistress, he, she, they... you name it there was representation...

It was so wonderful to be able to be that open and free... I saw people I hadnt seen in a year and some I had seen just last month.. I am so super stoked to get out and meet people more often now.

I also met some wonderful people from California.. so I want to get to visit them soon as well..

[SirenManda]

Time. I feel like I'm constantly running out of time. I need more time in the day, or something. I don't know how to explain it, but more time or less things to do would both be amazing.

[JustLovelyJenn]

Even though my kids are going to be gone most of next month, I still have SO much to do. I really hope I can do it all without feeling overwhelmed.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Late night decisions are on my mind. Do I fall asleep listening to It on Audible or do I fall asleep with a Netflix horror movie on in the background. Also I can't believe I finally have a girl that wants to watch horror movies with me...now to figure out the distance thing or learn patience. The later as some of you know has never been one of My better qualities*chuckle*

[ONLY]

SS if you have started to read, STOP!!!!, you can read after the wedding lol





What isn't on my mind nowadays :blink: lol

My girl (f), our wedding, getting everything done (8 weeks away), a letter that had to be sent in the province I live to validate her US divorce, which if for whatever reason we don't get anything back from them/or they don't validate, we can't marry (that letter is sitting in a post office waiting to be claimed UGH!!!!), hotel room misbookings on the management end, the script for the ceremony and our input, a surprise I wanna try to do for my girl (f) at the wedding, my surgery (remove a cyst/abscess from my eyelid that I have had for 3 months), will I still have this job (contract) at the end of the year (hope to become permanent), so many things are on my mind but will stop at that.......

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

On my mind

The same thing for the last few bed times. I miss the pups even thier bed hogging ways at bed time. Riley curled up at my feet on top of the covers and peppa between my legs under the covers. That is until she decides there just isn't enough room and she moves to stretch put by her momma causing Riley to move between my legs so I can pet her head until she falls asleep.

I try to fool myself by surrounding my body wih a body pillow on ine side and a smaller pillow on the other side. Just not the same!!

I miss those damn dogs

[Talon]

So, I'm throwing this surprise birthday party for someone....the party planning? No problem...now the gift is another story...I mean, I'm beginning to sweat because it's this weekend and I still haven't even figured out a present for this picky prick...:twitch:

[~ocean]

So, I'm throwing this surprise birthday party for someone....the party planning? No problem...now the gift is another story...I mean, I'm beginning to sweat because it's this weekend and I still haven't even figured out a present for this picky prick...:twitch:

~ Talon, get hym a mirror ~ perhaps antique ~ ** winks ** ~

[JDeere]

All this research, that I so graciously volunteered for, to help out my Uncle with our family tree!

[grenade]

My new baby nephew. He was born yesterday. 9 lbs 5 oz. :) He's just so cute and chubby. I have baby fever.

[WingsOnFire]

what is on my mind is the changes in my life over the past 8 months. I cant believe it is August already. Making healthy choices ranging from eating better to cutting out negativity in my social interactions to getting a membership at our local community center to continue my pool physical therapy.

It is all coming full circle with the job promotion I received at work about a month ago. I havent been able to begin the job yet because we are still finding a replacement for my position, but I have my first official meeting tomorrow and I am so looking forward to it!! And I am already making the new pay grade so I am a happy girl.

I moved to my new office space today and that was great. It is quiet and peaceful.

I am getting to know someone I have been friends with for years. I am getting more active in the kink community in my area in fact we have our Pride Leather competition this weekend and I hope to be there for most of the events.

Life is really good. They say if you surround yourself with goodness you will get goodness in return. So far it seems to be working.

[JDeere]

How I am going to get a break from work! Without sneaking around to get it.

[WingsOnFire]

What is on my mind... I'm supposed to be asleep.. but I can't sleep. .. maybe it's the 2 hr nap I took... maybe it's the 2 hours we spent on the phone... maybe it's storytime and the way the chapter ended and I know I have to wait until Tuesday to hear more. Ugh I hate not being able to sleep.

The dogs went crazy when I was almost asleep. That didn't help. I didn't bother getting out of bed I knew it was the upstairs neighbor taking his dog out. She challenged Riley once and that is all it took. Now they go crazy when she goes down the stairs.


I just want to close my eyes and go to sleep.. hopefully that will happen soon

[JDeere]

What is on my mind... I'm supposed to be asleep.. but I can't sleep. .. maybe it's the 2 hr nap I took... maybe it's the 2 hours we spent on the phone... maybe it's storytime and the way the chapter ended and I know I have to wait until Tuesday to hear more. Ugh I hate not being able to sleep.

The dogs went crazy when I was almost asleep. That didn't help. I didn't bother getting out of bed I knew it was the upstairs neighbor taking his dog out. She challenged Riley once and that is all it took. Now they go crazy when she goes down the stairs.


I just want to close my eyes and go to sleep.. hopefully that will happen soon

I feel for you, I can not sleep either. I hope you get some sleep soon.

[WingsOnFire]

I feel for you, I can not sleep either. I hope you get some sleep soon.

thanks you too!

[JDeere]

thanks you too!

You are welcome and I will soon!

[deb0670]

a lot is on my mind. I have been sick for the last week with an acute sinus infection and bronchitis,our youngest has been sick for the last couple of weeks with what we thought was just a cold.. but nope.. sinus infection and ... Mono. .
Ethan has been feeling bad lately but He is a trooper and is taking care of both His girls
I feel badly for not being able to care for our youngest like I should, but, being so sick myself it is dang near impossible.
On top of this, our daughter-in-law tripped and fell this week while holding our almosy 3 month old granddaughter, and granddaughter's head hit the cement floor so hard it fractured her skull and made her brain bleed a little.
She was rushed to CHOA and is home now.. but.. still not out of the woods..
On top of that,
The future is unclear in some things, a bit scary, a bit exciting, a lot of uncertainty. .
So yeah, a lot on my mind.
Come on pain meds.. ready to be knocked out for a bit to stop thinking.

[Medusa]

It's a bad feeling when you come across a photo of someone you went to high school with in a friend-of-a-friend way on Facebook and you go to check out their profile and friend them and realize they died last year.

She was 35. Thirty fucking five. Cancer? At thirty fucking five.

I still have photos of us together in high school in all manner of fuckery. Photos of borrowing each other's prom dresses and doing each other's makeup. She was my friend and I can't fucking believe Cancer got her.

MJ. I remember you.

[theoddz]

It's a bad feeling when you come across a photo of someone you went to high school with in a friend-of-a-friend way on Facebook and you go to check out their profile and friend them and realize they died last year.

She was 35. Thirty fucking five. Cancer? At thirty fucking five.

I still have photos of us together in high school in all manner of fuckery. Photos of borrowing each other's prom dresses and doing each other's makeup. She was my friend and I can't fucking believe Cancer got her.

MJ. I remember you.

Wow, that's sad. I'm so sorry for your loss, 'Dusa. :(

I have a subscription to the web site, beenverified.com and I've been looking up my former classmates on that. I know, I'm nosey, but I'm not doing it out of malice. I just want to know where many of my old friends (whom I hesitate to "catch up with" because I grew up in the "bible belt" and I know that most of them come from conservative backgrounds) got to.

I've found a LOT of them to be "deceased". Now, I know that my generation (later years of the baby boom, mostly born in early/mid 60's) isn't nearly as healthy as the generations before. We tend to have more cancer and chronic disease than the folks before us, but heck.......I'm 53 y/o and so many of my contemporaries are DEAD??? Jeesh, my 92 y/o Mom still has friends, who, at their ripe old age, are still alive and mostly healthy. :thinking:

It's depressing. I've got to stop reading the obituaries in my hometown newspaper.....and looking up folks on beenverified.com. :confused:

Either that.......or get a prescription for Prozac. :twitch:

~Theo~ :bouquet:

[JDeere]

Finding out the truth about my ancestors

[cinnamongrrl]

A shifty event yesterday....

I went to see about buying a car from this guy.... The whole situation seemed...odd. He wouldn't tell me where he lived exactly. He had me meet him at a house that looked empty... He wanted to drive with me to go where the car was ACTUALLY located.. I insisted on following him and he took me here there and everywhere down these country roads.

He stopped for gas and while he was inside I just took off...the something-is-wicked-wrong feeling wouldn't leave me. I could be wrong, but I didn't want to find out that I was right...better safe than sorry is my motto.

[ONLY]

SS if you have started to read, STOP!!!!, you can read after the wedding lol



What isn't on my mind nowadays :blink: lol

My girl (f), our wedding, getting everything done (8 weeks away), a letter that had to be sent in the province I live to validate her US divorce, which if for whatever reason we don't get anything back from them/or they don't validate, we can't marry (that letter is sitting in a post office waiting to be claimed UGH!!!!), hotel room misbookings on the management end, the script for the ceremony and our input, a surprise I wanna try to do for my girl (f) at the wedding, my surgery (remove a cyst/abscess from my eyelid that I have had for 3 months), will I still have this job (contract) at the end of the year (hope to become permanent), so many things are on my mind but will stop at that.......

Again..... SS if you have started to read, STOP!!!! , you can read after the wedding lol

Well we did get the validation from the province and they grant us permission to marry :) (I won't believe we are married until we officially say I DO! and even then....with all the crap we have to go through to be together is insane, probably always be worried that someone/something will take it away :( )

Also have to continue with all our immigration papers so SS (f) can become a permanent resident (THAT is a whole other story, complicate AND overwhelming)

Hotel room is booked :)

Had my eye surgery and so far so good :)

My work contract, well the position has become permanent but I will still have to apply and HOPE that I get it (all depends on seniority and I have plenty but still......never know)

Still have to get our "script" to our officiant, we still want to relook at it before we send it in.

Okay I will leave it at that, it enough for now ;)

[Queenie]

That I feel like crap from my period! Its like someone pulled out my battery. *blah*

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

That I honestly just forgot what I was going to post....oh well either I will recall or it wasn't all that important

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

That I honestly just forgot what I was going to post....oh well either I will recall or it wasn't all that important

Knew I would recall,,,,seems I have been mistaking someone having the wrong perception of what I write to selective reading instead of selective hearing. Not with everyone of course but I am running into it more and more. Can't even blame it on my ablity to be long winded bcs the phenomenon occurs no matter the length.
However, this type of selective listening is more irritating bcs it dosen't seem to be as easily corrected as the active verbal selective hearing is. Maybe I'm just more irritated by it due to how long it takes me to type (especially on the phone keypad) and bcs of that I seem to feel more intensely about the words I am communicating.
I can also feel my depression level rising due to my pain level and that tends to make me more impatient sometimes. Lovely how it all feeds each other then add in what is turning out to be an unhealthy living environment (should have seen that coming since my family is involved), lack of a supportive non family environment (again shouldn't be surprised mid size town in hickville Georgia afer all), and then throw in a fucked up sleeping pattern topped with a truck load of stress. Got off topic blame it on having to much on my mind.....

[JimmiJ]

I havent watch tv or seen any news in months. love it.

[JDeere]

Getting another tattoo, yes or no!

[JustLovelyJenn]

Getting another tattoo, yes or no!

the answer to that question is always yes...

[Gemme]

Getting another tattoo, yes or no!

See below.

the answer to that question is always yes...

Exactly!

[MsTinkerbelly]

My training as a caregiver came in handy today.

Our neighbor has alzheimer's disease, and his caregiver did not show up today or call. His wife had to leave for work as today was the first day back for the schools in our area, so she ran over and asked for my help.

I only had to change one diaper and sit with him on the patio for 1-1/2 hours until the daughter could get there, but i gotta tell you, it felt so nice to be needed.

What is on my mind is...i want to go back to work so badly and i can't. Maybe this should go in the what made you sad thread.

[cinnamongrrl]

the lack of logic in this world/ country.....

Yep....I spent the majority of my day (off) at the DMV.......

Im also wondering if its possible for a brain to liiterally explode....or implode.....

[JDeere]

the answer to that question is always yes...

Then I will be going to get one soon!

[JDeere]

See below.



Exactly!

Since Gemme and Jenn said yes then it will be a go on getting another tattoo!

[MysticOceansFL]

A multitude of things ..............

[Gemme]

Since Gemme and Jenn said yes then it will be a go on getting another tattoo!

Fantastic! You'll have to let us know what you get.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

How that when one door closes in my life another opens. That when you are not trying/looking Karma and or the Gods/Goddesses will open the right door. The right door at just the right time, the right place, and the correct need is usually opened when you least expect it and are just about to give up. Now all that is needed is the courage to follow the path and actually go through the unexpected open door.

[JDeere]

Fantastic! You'll have to let us know what you get.

I shall post a pic when I get it done.:jester:

[JDeere]

Ummm what is on my mind, the fact that my favorite pig is going to slaughter, next round up. Not happy over here.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Nothing stressful for a change

[JDeere]

How nice tonight is outside, just hanging with the dogs and my cousin.

[ProfPacker]

the tooth that just cracked, finding a more competent dentist and thinking about the $$$$$$ it will cost even after insurance:seeingstars:

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Work...Work...Work...life...and more work.

[Gemme]

I hear you.

If you put too much into work, strange things will begin to happen.

I woke up from a dream this morning based on my work and involving a strong man, some stampeding antelope and beads.

:blink:

I'm so glad I have this weekend off!

[cinnamongrrl]

I hear you.

If you put too much into work, strange things will begin to happen.

I woke up from a dream this morning based on my work and involving a strong man, some stampeding antelope and beads.

:blink:

I'm so glad I have this weekend off!

Wow.....my dreams feel normal now........ ;)

[amiyesiam]

what is on my mind. Our manager has retired and is gone. She wasn't a very nice person. By her own admission, not even she wants to work with her. I should be over the top happy. mostly though I feel shell shocked,want to curl up in a ball and want to cry. Coworkers say she is evil and a lot of other things. Really though she is a testimony to what can happen to a human when they have horrible childhoods and don't seek treatment. Most of my coworkers make it about right VS wrong, good Vs bad. for people like me it is much harder. How do you hate someone who is so broken, so alone? Conversly how do you excuse a 67 year old adult, who choses to say this is how I am I cant change. How can I feel anything but pity for someone who must absolutely control everyone and everything around them. I realized one day, She can not let go of control or her world (mentally) will collapse. How do I care at all about someone who can and will lie, manipulate and cover her own ass at everyone else's expense. Some say she is a sociopath. I don't think so. she cut me deep(mentally) 2 times and I returned the favor, both times I hurt her badly, so soft on the inside and hard on the outside. Does she live her entire life in defense mode?
I wonder if people like her, realize how much damage they cause to the people around them. Some weeks it is all I can do to get through the week. It is going to take time to return to normal, to breath again, to not constantly mentally justify every action I do at work.
It is over, Our new manager has been named and will be starting in the next week or so. He is young and well respected and liked. I want to cry. J is getting a dream team. We know this, our managers supervisor says we walk on water, and honestly we do. We are older and work well together. We have one of the lowest if not the lowest error rates in the agency. We have earned our new manager.
first though, we have to heal. And breathe, must remember to breathe.

[SirenManda]

Compassion.

As I get older I realize we are teaching other people to be less compassionate and its heart breaking. Showing any emotional response can be viewed as a weakness and its sad seeing how open people could be if that judgement wasn't in the way. I'm going to support people no matter how much care it takes, I'm not going to let other people's lack of empathy be why I don't help those who need me.

I don't care, I'm going to be me.

[EnchantedNightDweller]

Compassion.

As I get older I realize we are teaching other people to be less compassionate and its heart breaking. Showing any emotional response can be viewed as a weakness and its sad seeing how open people could be if that judgement wasn't in the way. I'm going to support people no matter how much care it takes, I'm not going to let other people's lack of empathy be why I don't help those who need me.

I don't care, I'm going to be me.

Amen, sister! :cheerleader:

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

What's on my mind...more like who is on my mind

He is has been a lot lately

she is as I get to know her

Sometimes poly isn't all that complex. It is time consuming though. Think I'll take a nap!

[Kenna]

The traffic on the road right infront of the house I'm staying at...I don't dare let the dogs out without leashes...I'm in the country but people use this little road like it's a super highway! ...not 2 miles from here yesterday several big deer jumped out infront of my car...thank goodness I was going the speed limit or below...that woulda been a mess. Some people just take their ability to be a lead foot for granted.

Also...I had forgot what it was like to live in/stay at a Fireman's/First Responder's house...until the other night at Oh-dark-30 when all the scanners and alarms went off...making me and poor little 6 pound Theodore (aka. Teddy) jump like electrocuted frogs!!

The first scanner report was for a vehicle flipped upside down laying on it's roof not far from here...speed was a factor. Sad.

[Kenna]

Thinking...even tho I had a great dinner, I'm craving a huge bowl of dark chocolate ice cream....but I just realized how much I've been binge eating this week. I had done so good curbing and controlling my portions...my recent "I'm hungry but I don't know what I want" is bothering me...especially since I am aware of the root cause.

[Gemme]

I am so damn proud of these guys (http://www.aol.com/article/2014/08/20/coach-inspires-team-after-little-league-world-series-loss-with-i/20949589/?icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl5%7Csec1_lnk2%26pLid%3D517707).

[Smiling]

An unexpected 8 week deadline has filled me with a simultaneous sense of dread and excitement, and has also left me wondering exactly how in the Sam Hill I'm going to pull this one off.

Fortuitously, urgent situations that require a bit of "creative finesse" are my specialty.

But it's still going to be interesting to see how this bad boy plays out, lol.

:deepthoughts:

[SirenManda]

Telling me I "won't do" something just fuels me to do it. Thinking I'm that predictable shows the divide between us.

[JustLovelyJenn]

All the changes in my life in the last two weeks... so many that are not resolved yet...

[AnAwkwardAccident]

Sex. Food. And sex.

[JDeere]

That next week is pig round out for slaughter, this go round my beloved pig goes, I am still upset about this.

However, I know some of the slaughter goes to needy families in our area.

[AnAwkwardAccident]

I have to stay awake for two and a half more hours to catch my shuttle at 3:50 am to go to the airport to go home. ...BFP, keep me awake!

[Trev]

A new opportunity proposed to me yesterday by my supervisor and manager. Working for the company almost 10 years, I never pictured myself in the position they're offering. "With growth comes great opportunities." So many things to ponder considering the turn of events over the last year.

This occupies my mind....