View Full Version : What is on your mind
Gemme
03-14-2010, 08:51 PM
Are they legal? :police:
As far as I know, they are. :blink:
Do you know something that I don't? :worried:
As far as I know, they are. :blink:
Do you know something that I don't? :worried:
No. Do you? :|
Gemme
03-14-2010, 09:08 PM
No. Do you? :|
Not that I am aware of. :admin:
Miss Scarlett
03-14-2010, 09:17 PM
Ummmmmmmmmmm trying to think of why my bathroom sink had to decide to stop up just now? No problem I won't let that mess up an otherwise WONDERFUL weekend. I'll fix it when I get home from work tomorrow.
When you finish with yours can you fix mine? LOL
Miss Scarlett
03-14-2010, 09:21 PM
I know how it feels I am so sorry for your loss.... (((((((MISS SCARLETT))))))) My mom as been gone for 9 years. I still miss her everyday. Some days are harder than others. I have the memories. And most of them are good. Thats what I hold on too. Good luck to you :)
Me too. (((((bigbutchmistie)))))
JustLovelyJenn
03-14-2010, 10:54 PM
One to many worries, insecurities, and doubts...
UofMfan
03-14-2010, 11:36 PM
Life, and the overwhelming feeling of sadness that just came over me.
Enchantress
03-14-2010, 11:36 PM
Life, love and the pursuit of happiness...
Kenna
03-15-2010, 12:05 AM
What's on my mind?.....
...........WAY TOO MUCH STUFF to allow my brain to shut down and sleep...before we leave at 5am for an ALL DAY trip West. Thank goodness I'm not drivin'!
What else is on my mind?.... How that something special and important that happened today, washed away my pain: Open, Honest, Sincere, Appreciated Communication.
Kenna
03-15-2010, 01:04 AM
Okay.... I'm finally going to bed...*making effort to SHUT DOWN BRAIN AND COMPUTER*... but Mom will be here very shortly. How about a power nap? LOL
AtLast
03-15-2010, 02:55 AM
Why can't I sleep? :sigh:
Not that I am aware of. :admin:
I love when you fix your hair like that. You know I love those blue scrungies. :tongue:
Miss Scarlett
03-15-2010, 04:08 AM
It used to be that once the election was over there were no more of those horrid, often fear inducing and/or misleading, political ads. But they haven't stopped! Now the lobby groups, political groups, industry groups and anyone that has enough money, are running "Contact your Representative/Senator" spots about everything from taxes to dog catchers. They are as numerous as those horrible drug ads.
Just can't seem to hit that "mute" button fast enough sometimes.
Andrew, Jr.
03-15-2010, 10:16 AM
The lack of compassion by some people. It really bothers me in my heart and soul.
Queerasfck
03-15-2010, 10:52 AM
Trying to decide if I should stay put at my job and see if things get better
Indian food
Soft*Silver
03-15-2010, 11:19 AM
whether or not to get the 1949 refrigerator for my house (well, my sister is getting it if I want it) Its so dang cute and I want to paint it pink but its not energy efficient....
Kimbo
03-15-2010, 08:37 PM
Dinner...yum!
Soft*Silver
03-15-2010, 08:40 PM
that I am finally going to sleep well tonight...
sylvie
03-15-2010, 08:50 PM
my father -
i want to see him feel well again, & i also hope he'll grasp some love for life again, and find the will to fight his addiction that will allow us more time with him, while he still has some chance..
violaine
03-15-2010, 08:52 PM
the strangest thing ever-
Pixie
03-15-2010, 08:55 PM
false intrusion.:training:
moxie
03-15-2010, 09:04 PM
Having insomnia even though I am dead tired. :|
Enchantress
03-15-2010, 09:10 PM
I'm wondering if it's too early to go to bed and if I go to bed this early, will I be awake at 2:00am? And if I'm awake at 2:00 am will I be forced to purchase non essential items from infomercials?
Strappie
03-15-2010, 09:12 PM
How moving really sucks!! Packing boxes going through old boxes and throwing out old shit!
And in that mix I can't find last year taxes grrrrrrr!
Lusciousblondefemme
03-15-2010, 09:44 PM
that i do not need anyone to define who i am or who i will be ..
and i wish i could reconnect with someone who has meant alot to me over the years...
Strappie
03-15-2010, 10:14 PM
that i do not need anyone to define who i am or who i will be ..
and i wish i could reconnect with someone who has meant alot to me over the years...
why can't you?? Just like "Nike" says.... Just Do It!
Random
03-15-2010, 10:21 PM
Love is not just the romance..
It's the dirty stuff... It's the sweat and tears... It's digging in and doing the work.. Even when it's less painful and easier just to walk away..
Love is telling the truth even when you know it's going to rip someones heart out.. It's talking and talking and talking and talking... It's going over something till everything is clear.. Until you honestly know what is going on with that other person.. What triggered a response, why did that fight happen, why is that a boundry... Love is learning your partner inside in out..
Because Love is about trust... To trust someone fully, you have to know who they are inside.. You have to know.. This is a truth.. I can depend on this.. I can rely on this..
You build love... layer on layer.. the more work you put into it, the deeper, richer it becomes..
Love isn't fantasy land.. It' not a trip to disneyland... That's easy...
Love is coming home from that trip to a backed up septic tank, and the furnace not kicking off... Hard work, sometimes ugly.. oh but the reward is so very sweet...
firie
03-16-2010, 12:00 AM
how is it that he can eat beets this late at night? and love every last bite?
omg.
triquetra
03-16-2010, 01:37 AM
There are some days that it is not worth getting out of bed, there are situations that scare the heck out of us, and there are things that we would allow ourselves to be derailed from; but in the end, the price we pay for putting things off is higher.
Still i wonder, if the side trip, and experiences acquired were worth the price or not.
**sighs** i so miss having that raw attraction to a girl whom i just can not get enough of and who can not get enough of me. Who values sensuality and passion as much as togetherness and a good book!.
Oh well... off to bed.
layla
03-16-2010, 06:38 AM
:weightshock:
...no more chocolate!
and no I am not imagining... it's not only in my head... or is it.... :?
bigbutchmistie
03-16-2010, 08:32 AM
I wanna go back to bed. Im so exhausted. I cant wait for vacation in april...
But it doesnt help me with my exhaustion this morning... Maybe I need to run by Starbucks on the way in??? hmmmm
morningstar55
03-16-2010, 09:09 AM
heavy on my mind today
.. my best friend i grew up with here, whom has the horses and moved to NC.. well her parents have always been like second parents to me..
i just got word that her mom , is in ICU and may not make it , giving her maybe a day or so.. not sure. she is 90.
she has been in my life since i was 14.... wow about 40 yrs..
my heart, thoughts and prayers go out to her today.
bigbutchmistie
03-16-2010, 09:16 AM
heavy on my mind today
.. my best friend i grew up with here, whom has the horses and moved to NC.. well her parents have always been like second parents to me..
i just got word that her mom , is in ICU and may not make it , giving her maybe a day or so.. not sure. she is 90.
she has been in my life since i was 14.... wow about 40 yrs..
my heart, thoughts and prayers go out to her today.
(((((((((BARB)))))))))) prayers for her and her family as w ell as you
NJFemmie
03-16-2010, 10:16 AM
... that I am in an odd mood today. Of course I am going to let itself play out, but I can't help but wonder what "surprises" come of it.
*thinking about it*
Eek. I has a scared now.
Apocalipstic
03-16-2010, 10:19 AM
I ache all over. Even my skin hurts.
MissItalianDiva
03-16-2010, 10:22 AM
How life is really rather ironic....ohh and how I wish I could be in bed right now
Butterbean
03-16-2010, 10:36 AM
I want Einstein's "Everything" bagels. All I gotta do is drive halfway around the lake for them. Yet, I can't get myself in the car. I seem to be experiencing motivational issues these and must snap out of it.
Switching gears, there is an albino shih tzu for sale for 1000.00$. Blossom wants a sibling really bad. This puppy is all white with pink eyes and a pink snout. Adorableeeee. It's the snout that gets me. I battle with calling them because when I think about housebreaking...ughhh.
UofMfan
03-16-2010, 10:55 AM
Sleep deprivation.
fiercegrrl
03-16-2010, 01:04 PM
i hate that going out for a little while or visiting with someone for the afternoon puts me in bed for hours after. and i hate that right now i'm doing more than i should be- cause at the end of the day i pay for it by feeling like hell. this just doesn't work well for me.
end pity party.
layla
03-16-2010, 04:41 PM
never was and never will be....
Gemme
03-16-2010, 04:50 PM
How fast someone can ruin their life. In a millisecond.
Blade
03-16-2010, 05:57 PM
Just wondering, thinking, reflecting, looking forward, planning....have things really changed that much?
Thinking about Daddy coming home, Yes Moma is an amazing woman, I could never forgive lying or cheating
Planning my 4 days off this weekend, work, work work, on my property.
sylvie
03-16-2010, 07:03 PM
taking some steps to better the quality of our life (me & my children) ..
it feels good, to move forward and to have found strength to get myself out of some bad situations from the past. life has been a struggle, but it's all uphill from here!
JustLovelyJenn
03-16-2010, 07:19 PM
How much I love my job. I finally get to do what I have always wanted to, and what I am really good at. I get to teach. I took the long route to get there, and the journey isn't over yet... back to school for me now. Educational Assistant is but a stepping stone to life long teaching AND LEARNING. see... by teaching I can be the student forever. I learn so much from my students every day.
Spirit Dancer
03-16-2010, 08:02 PM
Visitors
Tests
Kiddos
Piggies
Spirit Dancer
03-16-2010, 08:03 PM
Pink Lace
Hot Tea
Kimbo
03-16-2010, 08:28 PM
Approved vacation requests,
trip/s,
&
Mariners baseball and if they will suck this year or rock!
It really pisses me off when I see someone displaying an American flag that is all ripped, torn, tattered, shredded and faded. What kind of respect is that??
I seriously want to pound on their door and tell em to take it down, put up a new one and stop being a jackass. :rant:
Gemme
03-16-2010, 11:00 PM
It really pisses me off when I see someone displaying an American flag that is all ripped, torn, tattered, shredded and faded. What kind of respect is that??
I seriously want to pound on their door and tell em to take it down, put up a new one and stop being a jackass. :rant:
I can understand your feelings and I might agree with you, except do you know the story behind the flag? Maybe it was passed down in the family and has been through a house fire or maybe it's just 20 years old and the family loves it so much they still keep it though it's not in the best shape or maybe they are disrespectful pricks. Before I got too upset, though, I'd ask them about it. Learn the story behind it and, if there is no story and they are just ignorant or disrespectful, then be angry about it.
UofMfan
03-17-2010, 01:03 AM
The giant pre-history moth that was in my room for the last hour,and woke me, and the desperate meassures that had to be taken.
I can understand your feelings and I might agree with you, except do you know the story behind the flag? Maybe it was passed down in the family and has been through a house fire or maybe it's just 20 years old and the family loves it so much they still keep it though it's not in the best shape or maybe they are disrespectful pricks. Before I got too upset, though, I'd ask them about it. Learn the story behind it and, if there is no story and they are just ignorant or disrespectful, then be angry about it.
That's a good thought........but.........I read an article about proper display of the flag, and it said that if a flag is worn, torn, faded, shredded, etc, the correct thing to do is to take it down and destroy it or put it away. Never display a worn flag. :wwii-veterans:
Unless the artlicle was full of poop. :worried:
Leigh
03-17-2010, 05:53 AM
Don't even go there, My poor mind is aching badly from all of the thinking that I have been doing lately ........... too much is on My mind, make it stop for awhile :rant:
amiyesiam
03-17-2010, 06:31 AM
http://i801.photobucket.com/albums/yy296/amiyesiam/crap/jakethecat.jpg
the loss of one of our work kitties yesterday.
he had gone to the vet last week and they gave him fluids and
didn't know what was wrong with him
I called them back mon and they said they could not get him in till wed
WTF he wasn't eating or drinking
I called a different vet and they got him in tue morning
the boss called me at home yesterday
Jake was put down
feline lukemia (sp)
he was 3 years old
Leigh
03-17-2010, 07:00 AM
http://i801.photobucket.com/albums/yy296/amiyesiam/crap/jakethecat.jpg
the loss of one of our work kitties yesterday.
he had gone to the vet last week and they gave him fluids and
didn't know what was wrong with him
I called them back mon and they said they could not get him in till wed
WTF he wasn't eating or drinking
I called a different vet and they got him in tue morning
the boss called me at home yesterday
Jake was put down
feline lukemia (sp)
he was 3 years old
Awwww ami that really sucks, I'm very sorry for the loss of Jake
:ballcat:
Queerasfck
03-17-2010, 08:07 AM
Nothing. Waiting for coffeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
My beloved elixir.
bigbutchmistie
03-17-2010, 08:29 AM
That this week is supposed to be the biggest comission week that I have had since the lay off's.... Excited to say the least....
Butterbean
03-17-2010, 11:18 AM
It's such a beautiful day in Minnesota today. The sky is blue and the birds are singing. :farmtree:
KayCee
03-17-2010, 11:47 AM
....can't tell...it's too nasty!..LOL!
Odarlin
03-17-2010, 11:59 AM
Lol... whatever's on Kat's mind! :cheesy:
Dylan
03-17-2010, 12:14 PM
Surprise Surprise
It's Saint Patty's Day
Dylan Michael Kelly
Jesse James / Sandra Bullock
moxie
03-17-2010, 12:43 PM
How much I loathe having time off in the middle of the day and having to go back to work.
afixer
03-17-2010, 12:47 PM
...her, I do that way too much sometimes.
My cat Sassy who's pretty old and has been pretty sick... and it isn't looking good.
layla
03-17-2010, 12:58 PM
why one way tickets are always twice as expensive as round trip ones... airlines and their strange profit games.... :confused::blink:
Gemme
03-17-2010, 01:03 PM
That's a good thought........but.........I read an article about proper display of the flag, and it said that if a flag is worn, torn, faded, shredded, etc, the correct thing to do is to take it down and destroy it or put it away. Never display a worn flag. :wwii-veterans:
Unless the artlicle was full of poop. :worried:
No, no...the article is right. I'm just saying that there might be a *reason* other than ignorance or stupidity that the flag is being displayed in that state.
http://i801.photobucket.com/albums/yy296/amiyesiam/crap/jakethecat.jpg
the loss of one of our work kitties yesterday.
he had gone to the vet last week and they gave him fluids and
didn't know what was wrong with him
I called them back mon and they said they could not get him in till wed
WTF he wasn't eating or drinking
I called a different vet and they got him in tue morning
the boss called me at home yesterday
Jake was put down
feline lukemia (sp)
he was 3 years old
He was so handsome!
Ellen revealed new stamps on her show today for the ASPCA. The ten subjects (one kitty and 9 pups....one's a Frenchie! I love them!) are actual pets that were adopted through a shelter.
In other news, a man kidnapped two children from the Ft. McCord military base today. I was okay...sad, but okay...until they got to the description of the children's clothing. Pajamas with space ships on them. I don't know why, but that makes me extraordinarily sad...even more than I might usually feel when hearing about a situation like this.
Has anyone else used their laptop in the bath?
UofMfan
03-17-2010, 01:51 PM
Has anyone else used their laptop in the bath?
Not unless suicide, for you and the laptop, is on your mind.
Spirit Dancer
03-17-2010, 01:57 PM
Doctor/patient
Mitmo01
03-17-2010, 02:01 PM
I work in an office that is akin to a military bunker and I was just outside with the full light of the sun on me and I had to fight the urge to play hooky...lol
Strappie
03-17-2010, 02:55 PM
Getting less stressed over the moving thing. Still going through my things trying to figure out what to send to Good Will, cause you all know we tend to "think" we will use or wear that shirt/sweater again, sometimes it's hard to part with things.
AtLast
03-17-2010, 03:06 PM
So much is on my mind, I have a chronic headache!!:sadangel:
UofMfan
03-17-2010, 05:14 PM
I'm wondering what is going to keep me up tonight.
Gemme
03-17-2010, 05:35 PM
Is there some kind of psychotic or stupid germs floating around in the air here? Or both? I'm seriously worried about the mental health of a few people I know. :blink:
apretty
03-17-2010, 05:47 PM
fortune cookie :)
layla
03-17-2010, 05:48 PM
fight and fight and fight to prove that I care... and fight to hang in there... I fight I stay I care despite everything.... what happens when we get tired of having to prove things that some ppl just won't believe in and won't accept no mater what we do.... :dozey:
today I fall too tired no more will to fight with walls of disbelief.....
tomorrow....tonight... in a minute.... I'll care again...I'll heal again...
I'll fight again..... until one gets broken... doubt, fear, or my soul....
The Unique triangle of women who have impacted my life in the past year. each in thier own special way have enriched my life and I am better for the fingerprints they have left on my soul
My Father died fifteen years ago; I miss him so very much.
layla
03-17-2010, 06:31 PM
oh sweetie... I so am sorry...mine died 3 years ago will always miss him...
ppl are with us as long as they live on in our memory... today must be hard day for you ... *hugs*
The Unique triangle of women who have impacted my life in the past year. each in thier own special way have enriched my life and I am better for the fingerprints they have left on my soul
A Cowgirl A Angel A princess
JustLovelyJenn
03-17-2010, 07:27 PM
Whether or not it is time for a change, whether I am ready for that change, whether it is giving in and not fighting to allow the change... if I am fighting for something that doesn't want me...
Butterbean
03-17-2010, 09:38 PM
I finally got cowboy boots today. I've been looking for a pair to match my hat and there was a 25% off sale (= $30.00) today so I went for it.
Here's the pair I got. Yee haw!
http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/41yvMf15%2BwL.jpg
Soft*Silver
03-17-2010, 09:53 PM
I am afraid...
Spirit Dancer
03-17-2010, 10:38 PM
This vast diverse world, and knowing everyday there are lessons to be learned.
Thinking the when friends are different we need to educate ourselves to better understand each other.
Missing homemade cilantro topped goodies, the smell of fresh coffee and conversations
violaine
03-18-2010, 08:40 AM
in spirit i am there -
morningstar55
03-18-2010, 03:51 PM
wondering how is it.... that when your in a relationship with someone or even just dating steady, and you break up with that person, how can they just move on soo fast and get involved with someone else?? within a couple or few weeks???
another thing to ponder about it is........ dating someone for just a couple months , geting to know each other and then they show up one day to see you sporting your name tattoo'd on there arm...
is that scarey or ??? flattering orrr??? or run for the hills???
hmm this would make a great voting pole for a thread.. lol
Blade
03-18-2010, 03:57 PM
Maybe a fire in the yard tonight.
morningstar55
03-18-2010, 04:32 PM
Maybe a fire in the yard tonight.
i'll bring the marshmellows.. lol
hmmmm have some yellow peeps here...
Leigh
03-18-2010, 05:06 PM
Some pretty male chauvenistic things that My father said last night, ten days until I turn 30 and wondering if I am right in making the decisions that I am about to make :blink:
The population of California is larger than the entire population of Canada.
(by about 3 million)
Leigh
03-18-2010, 05:43 PM
The population of California is larger than the entire population of Canada.
(by about 3 million)
Wow really? Maybe someday I need to move to Cali *chuckles*
:happyjump:
Gemme
03-18-2010, 09:24 PM
another thing to ponder about it is........ dating someone for just a couple months , geting to know each other and then they show up one day to see you sporting your name tattoo'd on there arm...
is that scarey or ??? flattering orrr??? or run for the hills???
hmm this would make a great voting pole for a thread.. lol
:runforhills:
Now. :blink:
AtLast
03-18-2010, 09:52 PM
Thinking a lot about a friend's feelings being hurt by supposed other friends. Sometimes the level of shallowness of other's amazes and just plain saddens me. I am especially taken back when this happens within our own community.
:ohm:
Soft*Silver
03-18-2010, 10:12 PM
after I get the goat, I want a rabbit....
Wryly
03-18-2010, 10:18 PM
Softness -
I think it would be easier to start a virtual farm!
:playingcat:
:doghead:
:duck:
:goat:
:sheep:
:cluck:
:fishswim:
:dogwalking:
Leigh
03-18-2010, 10:52 PM
Virtual farms RAWK
And thats whats on My mind :p
moxie
03-18-2010, 10:59 PM
I wish I could shut the thought center of my brain off.
Gemme
03-18-2010, 11:14 PM
The body of the 8 year old boy who went missing with his mother a couple of days ago washed up on shore today. They expect his mother's body to have traveled farther and are keeping an eye on the tide patterns to gauge where that might be. The cause of death is undetermined. It's just so damn sad. :(
True love story (http://all4yourfun.com/lifestyle/true-love-story.html)
JakeTulane
03-19-2010, 08:26 AM
Did you ever wish you had a crystal ball?
Leigh
03-19-2010, 09:00 AM
I've been mulling over making some tough decisions in My life for months now, and it scares Me to death to make them but I know that I have to ~ why Me???
:overreaction:
Greyson
03-19-2010, 11:21 AM
The population of California is larger than the entire population of Canada.
(by about 3 million)
Really? Why did I never put that factoid together in my Planner mind?
Spirit Dancer
03-19-2010, 12:42 PM
Slow Dancing......
It's just the beat and essence of this song....
YouTube- Changing Faces ft. R. Kelly - Stroke You Up 1994
Strappie
03-19-2010, 01:22 PM
how my every Friday afternoon nap will feel real good in about an hour!!
People that can't "live and let live"
Leigh
03-19-2010, 02:35 PM
Wanting to go out somewhere, anywhere, but not being able to due to financial restraints grrrrrrrrrrrr
Snow, snow and more snow!
WolfyOne
03-19-2010, 05:28 PM
I should really sleep good tonight
R just opened a second bottle of wine and she doesn't want to drink alone
So, the nice person I am just couldn't let her drink alone, right
We need to road trip to the wine warehouse in San Marcos
The ride is long, but the prices are worth the ride
I'm guessing we'll be too busy though with the warm weather getting here
R has doctor appointments and I want to fish
So, how can I be in two places at one time
I can't. R ought to be thankful she's my best friend
I mean........fishing or doc appointments......hmmmmmm
JakeTulane
03-19-2010, 06:50 PM
Maybe, just maybe it will be alright.
WolfyOne
03-19-2010, 07:58 PM
We just finished bottle number 3......good thing we're out of wine.
bigbutchmistie
03-19-2010, 08:02 PM
Movies In bed weekend...
How funny tomorrow is the first day of spring however dfw is expecting snow
klm is on my mind, so i best go to bed so the thoughts will go away, until tomorrow.
Gemme
03-19-2010, 09:06 PM
It's going to be a very busy weekend for me and I have double back for tomorrow's shift (leave here at 11pm and be back before 7am). I offered to switch with the less experienced person who will work the mid-shifts for the next two days and she declined. Oh, well. She's not good enough to handle the influx of guests we'll have coming in. She'll learn. Trial by fire. I can handle the lack of sleep just fine; I just hope we don't lose business because of her.
WolfyOne
03-19-2010, 10:52 PM
I need to go pass out.
I shall wake with a mega headache although some may call it hangover.
I can't drink like I used to in my younger days,
but damn the wine tasted good :)
That is all
Butterbean
03-19-2010, 11:04 PM
I think I'm going to devote 8-10 hours at Itunes picking out songs.
Gemme
03-19-2010, 11:21 PM
http://www.aolnews.com/crime/article/abc-news-paid-casey-anthony-200000/19407085?icid=main|main|dl1|link3|http%3A%2F%2Fwww .aolnews.com%2Fcrime%2Farticle%2Fabc-news-paid-casey-anthony-200000%2F19407085
:wtf:
Write14u
03-20-2010, 12:13 AM
That I need to get over my anger at being given the shaft by the bosses. Not gonna fix anything and that's not me. That's not who I am. (Although I am still busting my butt and doing a kick-a** job.)
JakeTulane
03-20-2010, 03:48 AM
Wondering where I should go for a camping and/or backpacking trip this coming Summer or Fall.
UofMfan
03-20-2010, 07:52 AM
The pancakes I just ordered from McDonald's.
how thrilled I am that the sun is coming up!!
and I have things I am looking forward to today...
and that I am eating carrots for breakfast...yummy and crunchy...
oh la-de-da....
other things since I'm smilin'
Gemme
03-20-2010, 08:59 AM
My day came waaaay too early (5:20am) and I have no idea what I'm going to do with myself this afternoon. Right now, a short workout and a nap sound good. Assisting my annoying coworker is not high on my list of priorities today and I'm okay with being bitchy like that.
Tomorrow, with more sleep under my belt, I should be more of a team player.
Maybe. :blink:
moxie
03-20-2010, 09:03 AM
I feel like I am going to fall over and writhe in agony.
Good times good times.
Soft*Silver
03-20-2010, 09:25 AM
whats on my mind is that after only four days on my new meds for my spinal disease, I no longer have any signs of the so called hip bursitus I was diagnosed with in the 80s. None. I dont have hip bursitus.I have this disease that Drs misdiagnosed for decades...
whats on my mind is how grateful I am to get rid of some of this pain I have been lugging around unneccesarily!
:happyjump:
fiercegrrl
03-20-2010, 03:21 PM
i've had such a long and rough week. so many tears. i just can't get them to stop. granted some of the tears have come from people doing amazing things to help me. i keep finding out about fundraisers in the works to benefit me. sometimes i feel guilty about all that though.
i finally reached the anger. the anger that i'm so young and so sick. i should be out with my friends. i should be looking cute scoping out the single butches who have emerged from winter hibernation. i should be making art and finding shows for it. i should be hating my job still. i should be laughing. and playing in my garden.
but i'm not. and i can't change that. or i could but i will die. maybe not tomorrow but sometime soon. and i'm not ready for that. so i have to spend the next 21 weeks fighting and feeling like hell.
i hope when i wake up tomorrow i feel better. i feel like such a burden to anyone i cry to right now..
JakeTulane
03-20-2010, 03:59 PM
That sometimes One should listen to the advice they are given.
layla
03-20-2010, 04:05 PM
...all the ppl in my life... they are so few....but I so love all the ppl in my life! :)
Leigh
03-20-2010, 04:23 PM
i've had such a long and rough week. so many tears. i just can't get them to stop. granted some of the tears have come from people doing amazing things to help me. i keep finding out about fundraisers in the works to benefit me. sometimes i feel guilty about all that though.
i finally reached the anger. the anger that i'm so young and so sick. i should be out with my friends. i should be looking cute scoping out the single butches who have emerged from winter hibernation. i should be making art and finding shows for it. i should be hating my job still. i should be laughing. and playing in my garden.
but i'm not. and i can't change that. or i could but i will die. maybe not tomorrow but sometime soon. and i'm not ready for that. so i have to spend the next 21 weeks fighting and feeling like hell.
i hope when i wake up tomorrow i feel better. i feel like such a burden to anyone i cry to right now..
(((((((((((fierce)))))))))))) It sucks to see anyone so sick, regardless of age, but I agree that you should be out there enjoying life (even though right now your not able to). Hopefully you will feel better soon and know that even if you feel like a burden your not, people are there for you because they care and if you need them I have no doubt they are all there for you :)
If you need an extra shoulder or just a friend, know that you can message Me anytime :rose:
Wryly
03-20-2010, 04:27 PM
sometimes being coy really isn't anything more than cruel teasing.
sweetfemme247
03-20-2010, 05:05 PM
How my cousin is a lazy ass who does nothing, and gets mad at me for locking my computer so he cant burn illegal things on it, Im sorry Im not stupid enough to get myself involved. how my toe hurts really bad.
Corkey
03-20-2010, 05:35 PM
The vote on health care tomorrow, and who I'll be voting for/against in the next election cycle.:worried::deepthoughts:
Butterbean
03-20-2010, 05:42 PM
I'm going to make a garlic onion cube steak and O'brien potatoes heavy with peppers and watch Cops and America's Most Wanted.
It's going to be a beautiful Saturday night!
:amsmiling:
Kimbo
03-20-2010, 09:36 PM
On my mind is why I am having such a hard time finding a bathroom sink that I like? It's just a sink!
bigbutchmistie
03-20-2010, 09:42 PM
That since my tumble down seven stairs yesterday morning the amount of pain my body is in is plus one hundred
I never thought bones could bruise... Im so thankful I didnt break anything since I fell down concrete stairs onto concrete
hpychick
03-20-2010, 09:43 PM
Do you have someone to help you? Are you sure you're all right? Did you go to the doctor?
That since my tumble down seven stairs yesterday morning the amount of pain my body is in is plus one hundred
I never thought bones could bruise... Im so thankful I didnt break anything since I fell down concrete stairs onto concrete
bigbutchmistie
03-20-2010, 09:45 PM
Do you have someone to help you? Are you sure you're all right? Did you go to the doctor?
Im fine just really really sore :) ty I survived worse and lived to tell believe me... Just the soreness I feel like a truck ran over me..
Miss Scarlett
03-21-2010, 12:39 PM
Im fine just really really sore :) ty I survived worse and lived to tell believe me... Just the soreness I feel like a truck ran over me..
Hon, are you feeling better today?
bigbutchmistie
03-21-2010, 12:42 PM
Hon, are you feeling better today?
some yes Miss Scarlett :) ty for your concern
Miss Scarlett
03-21-2010, 12:47 PM
Why did I decide to indulge my masochistic side by working out this morning with Gilad?
Miss Scarlett
03-21-2010, 12:48 PM
some yes Miss Scarlett :) ty for your concern
OK, just making sure you are taking care of yourself. (f) Feel better.
bigbutchmistie
03-21-2010, 12:50 PM
OK, just making sure you are taking care of yourself. (f) Feel better.
Yes maam :) Tyvm
TROOPER
03-21-2010, 12:56 PM
People that can't "live and let live"
DITTO !!!
:harley:
.
A new Ben and Jerry's ice cream flavour based entirely on someone's personality.
haha!
Lusciousblondefemme
03-21-2010, 01:21 PM
That i have met some really amazing people on this site in the last few weeks.... I am glad that this community is so loving and excepting...
To my new friends .. you will always be in my heart ...
WolfyOne
03-21-2010, 04:44 PM
Sitting here sipping on hot tea because it's a little chilly outside. Was thinking how nice it is that we have so many different kinds of tea to chose from. Made it hard to decide which one to use to make a pot. Finally decided on the strawberry surprise. Made with black tea, strawberry pieces and red peppercorns. Blended together and steeped, it's an outstanding combination. Yay for loose tea and chilly nights.
Spirit Dancer
03-21-2010, 05:39 PM
Baking Cookies with homemade blackberry preserves.
Soft*Silver
03-21-2010, 06:10 PM
how incredibly hungry I am..havent eaten since 6PM yesterday and cant eat until 2 PM tomorrow...damn tests...
WolfyOne
03-21-2010, 06:14 PM
Baking Cookies with homemade blackberry preserves.
Do you send care packages?
The mail person couldn't run fast enough to get them to me hot out of the oven.
If I close my eyes, I could smell them baking
OK, maybe I can only see them in my mind
bigbutchmistie
03-21-2010, 06:17 PM
oooo care packages are always fun to get :) especially with lil goodies in them like Spirit is making
WolfyOne
03-21-2010, 08:39 PM
oooo care packages are always fun to get :) especially with lil goodies in them like Spirit is making
See, I agree....you think if we use telepathy, she'll come back here and see this before they're all gone?
Corkey
03-21-2010, 08:51 PM
The House passed health care! 219-212
Queerasfck
03-21-2010, 09:00 PM
The House passed health care! 219-212
Unreal!!! I can't believe it!!!
Corkey
03-21-2010, 09:01 PM
Unreal!!! I can't believe it!!!
I'm doing the happy cane dance!!!!!
LotusFlower
03-21-2010, 09:02 PM
I am worried about the new house care bill. I wanted universal health care! I pay 2-300 dollare a month for mine now and I work for one of the top five medical schools in the country.
Darn.
:slapfight:
Butterbean
03-21-2010, 10:12 PM
I stopped at the Mazda dealer today and looked at the CX-7 AWD in "Stormy blue mica." That might be my next car but I need to research it on Cars.com.
Leigh
03-22-2010, 12:14 AM
With less than one week left until My 30th birthday (officially), I am realizing that its now or never ........... I need to live My own life, not how anyone else thinks I should but how I want to. My first 30 yrs on this earth have been filled with too much influence from others, so much so that I've completely lost who I am (though coming out as FTM has helped some). I'm ready to make some very hard life-changing decisions and while I'm scared to death of making them, I am tired of watching life just pass Me by and if that means finally grabbing life by the "balls" (aka taking control) then that is what I am going to do!!!!
Miss Scarlett
03-22-2010, 04:11 AM
I am worried about the new house care bill. I wanted universal health care! I pay 2-300 dollare a month for mine now and I work for one of the top five medical schools in the country.
Darn.
:slapfight:
I understand. I wanted Universal too but this is a start.
It's funny, the original Obama proposal was similar to one Nixon was trying to get through but was derailed by Watergate. Very similar and it had Republican support. They had this on CBS Sunday Morning yesterday. After learning that I began to wonder if the GOP was using this as a political tool to try to regain some of the ground they lost in the election to try to tip Congress in their direction this fall...Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm......
Miss Scarlett
03-22-2010, 04:15 AM
With less than one week left until My 30th birthday (officially), I am realizing that its now or never ........... I need to live My own life, not how anyone else thinks I should but how I want to. My first 30 yrs on this earth have been filled with too much influence from others, so much so that I've completely lost who I am (though coming out as FTM has helped some). I'm ready to make some very hard life-changing decisions and while I'm scared to death of making them, I am tired of watching life just pass Me by and if that means finally grabbing life by the "balls" (aka taking control) then that is what I am going to do!!!!
Braedon, this is a very big step but well worth it. You're doing this a lot earlier than many of us, 13 years earlier than I did as far as my family is concerned. This is YOUR life and you need to live it for you and only YOU!
I'm here for you my friend if you need a shoulder or an ear.
Miss Scarlett
bigbutchmistie
03-22-2010, 07:29 AM
See, I agree....you think if we use telepathy, she'll come back here and see this before they're all gone?
Nope :)
NJFemmie
03-22-2010, 07:36 AM
I really don't feel like being here today.
I want to be home curled up under a blanket sleeping the day away.
Random
03-22-2010, 08:59 AM
Truly letting go this time...
Spirit Dancer
03-22-2010, 10:25 AM
Do you send care packages?
The mail person couldn't run fast enough to get them to me hot out of the oven.
If I close my eyes, I could smell them baking
OK, maybe I can only see them in my mind
oooo care packages are always fun to get :) especially with lil goodies in them like Spirit is making
Okay but I need addresses:peacelove:
Spirit Dancer
03-22-2010, 10:28 AM
The rough week ahead for Hym, and not losing my faith:praying:
SassyLeo
03-22-2010, 05:39 PM
http://28.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_kybdkuxcRN1qzr04eo1_400.jpg
What sort of "shit-for-brains" moron would cheat on Sandra Bullock?????? :|
What an ass.
JustLovelyJenn
03-22-2010, 05:55 PM
Emotions and Decisions
fiercegrrl
03-22-2010, 06:49 PM
tomorrow is round 2.
i feel like an elephant is on my chest (despite an extra dose of anxiety meds).
and i'm hoping that i'll get some sleep despite the huge doeses of steroids.
oh and 5 days in the hospital $38,508.00
can't wait to see the charges for the team of doctors and nurses!
SuperFemme
03-22-2010, 07:07 PM
tomorrow is round 2.
i feel like an elephant is on my chest (despite an extra dose of anxiety meds).
and i'm hoping that i'll get some sleep despite the huge doeses of steroids.
oh and 5 days in the hospital $38,508.00
can't wait to see the charges for the team of doctors and nurses!
hang in there lady. :)
you've got lots of people praying for you and i'm going to ask the elephant on my chest to take the elephant on your chest to dinner.
fiercegrrl
03-22-2010, 07:11 PM
hang in there lady. :)
you've got lots of people praying for you and i'm going to ask the elephant on my chest to take the elephant on your chest to dinner.
i hope my elephant eats all the food i can't lately!!!
Buzz Aldren should never Cha Cha Cha..... :|
Soft*Silver
03-22-2010, 07:18 PM
that there is a cold water creek store in the mall one county over....WOOT!
layla
03-22-2010, 07:22 PM
why things get to me... why I have to take all things to my heart.... why do things that do not even matter get to me .... why can't I change and just be less sensitive and less emotional and just .............. why I never learned to be like rest of ppl in this world... just cold, and inconsiderate... *stupid girl*
Butterbean
03-22-2010, 09:39 PM
My blood sugar dropped to 44 tonight. I must say that was rather uncomfortable.
I'm told this is a side effect of bowel obstruction surgery and I'll have it for life. They will teach me how to "manage" it at the clinic. Hooray. (Wry tone).
Soft*Silver
03-22-2010, 09:54 PM
that I am really sore...my back and my arms....
bigbutchmistie
03-22-2010, 10:00 PM
that I am really sore...my back and my arms....
awwww Miss Softness hugs :) Im sorry you are sore
moxie
03-22-2010, 10:06 PM
I wish this insomnia would motivate me to do paperwork....not working out that way.
Gemme
03-22-2010, 10:29 PM
I just interrupted a couple of sailors getting it on. :blink:
Oooopsie.
apretty
03-22-2010, 11:20 PM
if you live at home, in your 30s and don't have a job--you might need to put romantic relationships on the back burner (just till you get your shit straight).
these are my thoughts, ymmv.
apretty
03-22-2010, 11:23 PM
if you're a mom and your kid is screaming right in front of you but you don't seem to notice, i'll let you know.
AtLast
03-22-2010, 11:46 PM
The new western boots I am going to buy with the BD gift card my Grand Daughters gave me! All leather soles including the heels for CW & Swing dancing!
:cowboihorse:
Seriously, it could stop snowing and I would not be offended!
Gemme
03-23-2010, 06:33 PM
A sailor is missing and I am hoping, for her sake and her family's sake, that she's gone AWOL and hasn't run into trouble. :(
Soft*Silver
03-23-2010, 07:01 PM
how much I love to slow dance to the song "when a man loves a woman"...currently being sung on American Idol...
Dylan
03-23-2010, 10:08 PM
Ellen is trans
Dylan
Soft*Silver
03-23-2010, 10:20 PM
Ellen is trans
Dylan
really????
Dylan
03-23-2010, 11:55 PM
really????
It's my prediction for the future
Dylan
AtLast
03-24-2010, 12:05 AM
It's my prediction for the future
Dylan
AHHHHH!!! Well hell, how long do we have to wait??? Waiting is not my best attribute..... LOL...
:3stooges:
Miss Scarlett
03-24-2010, 04:34 AM
Just pondering over the latest GOP generated healthcare reform hysteria...the AG from SC is screaming about State's Rights (BTW - that is what started the Civil War and in SC no less....geez, is it the water?)...
They better be careful with these legal challenges because if the courts rule in their favour and decide that the government has no place in non-military healthcare there could be an unwanted and catastrophic impact on Medicare and Medicaid.
morningstar55
03-24-2010, 04:57 AM
on my mind..........
this health law .. Obama signed over..... and worried about going to jail and others if they cant afford insurance..
MrSunshine
03-24-2010, 05:07 AM
a damn headache....:seeingstars: and so early at that...
KayCee
03-24-2010, 05:21 AM
It's a beautiful, warm and sunny day today. Kam and I are having a picnic at a nearby sea, snuggle up on a pink blanket and watch the sailing boats pass by. We're taking some cheese and crackers, red wine, some fruit along, and perhaps something...sweeeett?...:giggle:.....
...uh huh!
Kat
socialjustice_fsu
03-24-2010, 05:55 AM
one screw-up can cost me in a number of ways and this has nothing to do with money. When will I ever get it right.
morningstar55
03-24-2010, 06:21 AM
Ellen is trans
Dylan
.. LOL ..... you are just too darn funny.....:huhlaugh:
bigbutchmistie
03-24-2010, 07:42 AM
How I dont wanna get up... :)
How its gonna be beautiful this weekend and I got so many errands to run...
How I can believe its almost April :)
violaine
03-24-2010, 09:19 AM
walking with a friend yesterday and noticing a gorgeous owl perched inside of gigantic oak limbs. he was the second owl sighting within a few weeks, and an extraordinary gift it was-
Queerasfck
03-24-2010, 10:13 AM
walking with a friend yesterday and noticing a gorgeous owl perched inside of gigantic oak limbs. he was the second owl sighting within a few weeks, and an extraordinary gift it was-
How awesome! We've heard an owl by our house several times in the last few months, but we've yet to see him since it's dark when he comes around. I did find an owl pellet by apretty's car too. There were little bones in it. Really fascinating creatures.
I believe one day I will become a more avid bird watcher since we live near some great places to view them.
Butterbean
03-24-2010, 10:14 AM
My morning routine isn't complete until I have managed to spill coffee down the front of me. LOL
violaine
03-24-2010, 10:36 AM
[QUOTE=EzeeTiger;72477]How awesome! We've heard an owl by our house several times in the last few months, but we've yet to see him since it's dark when he comes around. I did find an owl pellet by apretty's car too. There were little bones in it. Really fascinating creatures.
I believe one day I will become a more avid bird watcher since we live near some great places to view them.
thank you for responding to my post about the owl sightings :)
i hope that you will have many opportunities to spot birds of prey during the day. i think people might see owls [in flight], and confuse them with hawks. there is a northern hawk owl.
further info with photos, if you are interested:
http://www.barnowltrust.org.uk/infopage.html?Id=1
http://urbanhawks.blogs.com/urban_hawks/2009/11/index.html
http://www.peregrinefund.org/Explore_Raptors/owls/nhawkowl.html
they are very fascinating birds, and how lovely you are in a spot to have such visits-
:moonstars:
Soft*Silver
03-24-2010, 11:06 AM
I posted a photo of my new house in my gallery...
apretty
03-24-2010, 11:23 AM
test in anat/phys today and after class tonight, i'll be finished with skool for the week.
can.not.wait. -rough, rough week over here!- :zombie:
apretty
03-24-2010, 11:28 AM
How awesome! We've heard an owl by our house several times in the last few months, but we've yet to see him since it's dark when he comes around. I did find an owl pellet by apretty's car too. There were little bones in it. Really fascinating creatures.
I believe one day I will become a more avid bird watcher since we live near some great places to view them.
thank you for responding to my post about the owl sightings :)
i hope that you will have many opportunities to spot birds of prey during the day. i think people might see owls [in flight], and confuse them with hawks. there is a northern hawk owl.
further info with photos, if you are interested:
http://www.barnowltrust.org.uk/infopage.html?Id=1
http://urbanhawks.blogs.com/urban_hawks/2009/11/index.html
http://www.peregrinefund.org/Explore_Raptors/owls/nhawkowl.html
they are very fascinating birds, and how lovely you are in a spot to have such visits-
:moonstars:
belle! i have to tell you that ez picked up that pellet and handled it and i was freaking out over the possible diseases he was getting on his bare hands. ;)
Apocalipstic
03-24-2010, 11:36 AM
why do people leave threads when you ask them a question? I do not get it.
fiercegrrl
03-24-2010, 11:43 AM
i feel like a burden today trying to find rides to all the doctor appts i have the next few days and right now i'm not able to drive myself due to extreme fatigue. i hate not being able to depend on myself. this is not how my world works.
AtLast
03-24-2010, 12:44 PM
Today is the 12th anniversary of my Mom's death. I miss that straight talking, fierce little woman! If I am one quarter the woman she was, that is one big blessing. Talk about guts and determination. And there was also that pure nurturing she gave that simply made the world make sense. Hail, Asunta!
May you be riding the Harley of your dreams among the angels!!! You, GO, Momma!
violaine
03-24-2010, 01:39 PM
[QUOTE=apretty;72502]belle! i have to tell you that ez picked up that pellet and handled it and i was freaking out over the possible diseases he was getting on his bare hands. ;)
you can buy some too [through 31.march.2010]!
http://www.pelletlab.com/barn_owl_pellet
Soft*Silver
03-24-2010, 01:48 PM
I am so glad you were so loved by your mother. How sweet and endearing...my mother passed away in 1996. And my dad in 1998. When one loses a parent, you spin into the universe...part of your life cord has frayed...but part of their job was to make their children functional adults and if they did right, you didnt need that cord to last anylonger...
I also take note she passed right after your birthday...she stayed, in other words, for just one more...
Today is the 12th anniversary of my Mom's death. I miss that straight talking, fierce little woman! If I am one quarter the woman she was, that is one big blessing. Talk about guts and determination. And there was also that pure nurturing she gave that simply made the world make sense. Hail, Asunta!
May you be riding the Harley of your dreams among the angels!!! You, GO, Momma!
Apocalipstic
03-24-2010, 02:03 PM
If not now,
when?
After my cupcake :)
Greyson
03-24-2010, 02:09 PM
After my cupcake :)
This made me laugh. Thanks I needed a good laugh. I so empathize with your sentiment.
Andrew, Jr.
03-24-2010, 02:12 PM
I have several owl families living behind my home. It is just precious watching the small ones learn to fly, hunt, and learn to use their talons and beak. Amazing.
I want to know why people leave rude comments or repeat what they post in threads on the reps they are suppose to be leaving you. That makes no sense to me.
Is it toaster time? :freetoaster:
Queerasfck
03-24-2010, 04:29 PM
test in anat/phys today and after class tonight, i'll be finished with skool for the week.
can.not.wait. -rough, rough week over here!- :zombie:
You're telling me.
:tiger:
Mindy
03-24-2010, 11:34 PM
Today I was thinking..... Do you think that they guy who invented the vibrator had these little voices in his head saying "if you build it, they will come."
AtLast
03-25-2010, 01:49 AM
I am so glad you were so loved by your mother. How sweet and endearing...my mother passed away in 1996. And my dad in 1998. When one loses a parent, you spin into the universe...part of your life cord has frayed...but part of their job was to make their children functional adults and if they did right, you didnt need that cord to last anylonger...
I also take note she passed right after your birthday...she stayed, in other words, for just one more...
Yes, I believe she held on for a couple more days for my BD. Makes total sense with who she was. You mention the life cord- I was holding her when she died and upon her last breath, I felt a sharp pain right under my navel. The umbilical/life cord was severed between us at that very moment, I believe. It was different with my Dad, but we were close also. Yes, I was blessed with her (their love)love and never doubted it. Something I know that others do not have the pleasure (and joy) of knowing.
JakeTulane
03-25-2010, 08:22 AM
"It is necessary to go
through dark and deeper dark
and not to turn.
I am looking for the trail.
Where is my testing-tree?
Give me back my stones!" - Stanley Kunitz.
morningstar55
03-25-2010, 08:34 AM
wondering if my kiddo found the blue recycling box yet
moxie
03-25-2010, 08:37 PM
the flood of memories a 3-minute song can bring.
Stacy
03-25-2010, 09:31 PM
Michael is on my mind. I miss him. :(:crybaby:
SuperFemme
03-25-2010, 10:16 PM
assisted suicides
i have a kevorkian gift certificate. i am keeping it for me.
Charming Texan
03-26-2010, 12:26 AM
vacation. It's been wonderful...
Andrew, Jr.
03-26-2010, 08:58 AM
Easter Cards
Helping out with the soup kitchen over the Easter Holiday
Kenna
03-26-2010, 09:20 AM
Daffodils...
their beautiful splash of color all over the yard of an abandoned old farmhouse and under big graceful ancient old trees... not the kind of abandoned property that everybody dreads, but the kind that the beautiful quaint old house feels like it's just waiting for you to come sit on it's old porch to watch the squirrels play in the flower beds... the kind of old house that makes you feel like time stands still....
Daffodils and a gentle, kind spirit....
http://hankinslawrenceimages.files.wordpress.com/2008/04/jumblie_daffodils.jpg
sweetfemme247
03-26-2010, 09:44 AM
getting my nails cut down today
MsTinkerbelly
03-26-2010, 12:02 PM
Waking up next to my love this morning...and wishing I was back there!:devil:
firie
03-26-2010, 05:28 PM
Starting my Friday off with a bomb threat at work.
And it was particularly unique because it must have been detailed enough to be taken really seriously, given that we had fire fighters prepared for explosion/fire, and city policy making us clear the place well beyond our typical emergency plan.
Oh joy!
Gemme
03-26-2010, 06:57 PM
Why must other coworkers make my shifts so damn difficult? I'm tired of remedying their mistakes and lack of know-how. I'm also getting antsy to get away from everything. :ninja:
Miss Scarlett
03-26-2010, 07:10 PM
Today was day from he**...and I still love my job!
Sunny
03-26-2010, 07:13 PM
My vacation is almost over boooooo
I am blessed with good friends Yayyyyyyy
When I get back to work I have to give a review to someone that is not good
boooooo
I am going to see a comedian this Sat in AC Yayyyyyyyyyyyy
"You better wake up before we break-up the one that really loves you"
Love that song
Just rambling Sunny
Kenna
03-27-2010, 08:34 AM
Today: Lupus Lupus Lupus and painful arthritis
To take the focus off today... think of "yesterday" and the good days I've had recently... especially enjoying blueberry pancakes and watching the sunrise all curled up cozy in my fluffy sleeping bag.
JustLovelyJenn
03-27-2010, 09:17 AM
Being back in Everett, finding what I thought couldnt possibly exist, what happens next?
Soft*Silver
03-27-2010, 12:45 PM
My sister is clearing out her country house to sell it. It is where she and her husband and 4 children lived for many years. They recently bought a home in the suburbs and have been living there with most of their possessions. What is left in the old home is alot of "stuff". Well, we all joined in over there today to go thru the "stuff" and sort out who wants what yet, and what needs thrown away.
I cannot believe how much stuff a family can gather in a lifetime. Stuff that went on credit cards. Stuff that they had to have and now sits wadded up and forgotten. Stuff that needs a home so it does not become landfill, yet more than likely, will end up just that.
How sad...and how loud a noise it makes against my universal spiritual shield...you know..the barrier you have up so that you can co exist as a human on a planet you have barely any connection to anylonger. I can feel the implication of all this stuff ramming that shield of mine, wanting to make a dent. I feel torn between wanting that shield to be broken and wanting it to hold up.
I am taking alot of it, because I have very little "stuff" and what I dont want, I am going to sell on ebay. Lots and lots of clothes..clothes that never had the price tag taken off. Lots of make up that never was worn. Lots of jewelry all tangled up in piles.
there was decades of books on working with people who are HIV. My sister is a nurse and a therapist...and together she and I have worked in the HIV community for years. She still does. I do not. But I ached when I saw those books. I remember the history of this disease. I remember losing someone almost weekly from it. I remember the trauma our community dealt with as it exploded all over America. I remember the fear and panic that first came before it moved out of our community and into the culture at large. I thought of the many many many souls we lost way too early...and I realized that the majority of these books are going to be thrown out if I do not salvage them. And yet I dont know if I should..they are mildewy. Who would want them?
I found presents I had given to them over the years. Forgotten. Unwanted. Disregarded. I remember taking such effort to pick out special gifts for them and now they lay lost and discarded in piles on the floor.
and these are not bad people. I consider them pretty average folks. Its just that we accumulate so much stuff...and yet not enough to consider them hoarders. Just enough to feel Americanized. We Americans need to have "stuff".
I am feeling a bit sad by all this stuff...their stuff. My lack of stuff. It makes me want to go out and get stuff just so I can have that feeling of history I felt when i was walking amongst their piles today. My stuff is so limited. I use to have "stuff" but in all the losses, and many moves, I got rid of or lost much of my "stuff". I am "stuff-less" almost. I wonder if I should feel bad or relieved..or both. Both could be true at the same time. Maybe I am just caught in that, like bookends to my feelings.
I have to go back out there tomorrow. My car is loaded from today. I have to take out the stuff I took today so I can get more stuff tomorrow. Then I have to pack this stuff so I can take it with me to my next place..the new old house. So i am packing up my stuff and getting more stuff to pack. It doesnt feel like I should be adding more work to my already full plate.
But I cant let some of this stuff go. Like shovels. And rakes. And sheets and blankets. And lamps. And watches.
You can never have enough sheets. Or lamps. Or watches...or...
I am tired. I am tired of thinking about all this stuff. I am tired of thinking about the family history. I am tired of thinking about who isnt here to be part of this..the ones who died and now we have to go thru their stuff again. Stuff we kept because we couldnt keep them. Their stuff became them to us and now alot of it is in piles and we (my sister and I) both look at it and say nothing. We just look. Our grief process says its ok to let these things go now but then we think, what if we will regret it later? What if the grandkids want some of our parents things? What if we get rid of it and then we cant remember them anymore because we dont have their stuff? My guess is that stuff will get stuffed back into a bag and find its way to our houses.
a family of stuff was my meditation for the day...
morningstar55
03-27-2010, 01:19 PM
Easter .......
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morningstar55
03-27-2010, 01:22 PM
My sister is clearing out her country house to sell it. It is where she and her husband and 4 children lived for many years. They recently bought a home in the suburbs and have been living there with most of their possessions. What is left in the old home is alot of "stuff". Well, we all joined in over there today to go thru the "stuff" and sort out who wants what yet, and what needs thrown away.
I cannot believe how much stuff a family can gather in a lifetime. Stuff that went on credit cards. Stuff that they had to have and now sits wadded up and forgotten. Stuff that needs a home so it does not become landfill, yet more than likely, will end up just that.
How sad...and how loud a noise it makes against my universal spiritual shield...you know..the barrier you have up so that you can co exist as a human on a planet you have barely any connection to anylonger. I can feel the implication of all this stuff ramming that shield of mine, wanting to make a dent. I feel torn between wanting that shield to be broken and wanting it to hold up.
I am taking alot of it, because I have very little "stuff" and what I dont want, I am going to sell on ebay. Lots and lots of clothes..clothes that never had the price tag taken off. Lots of make up that never was worn. Lots of jewelry all tangled up in piles.
there was decades of books on working with people who are HIV. My sister is a nurse and a therapist...and together she and I have worked in the HIV community for years. She still does. I do not. But I ached when I saw those books. I remember the history of this disease. I remember losing someone almost weekly from it. I remember the trauma our community dealt with as it exploded all over America. I remember the fear and panic that first came before it moved out of our community and into the culture at large. I thought of the many many many souls we lost way too early...and I realized that the majority of these books are going to be thrown out if I do not salvage them. And yet I dont know if I should..they are mildewy. Who would want them?
I found presents I had given to them over the years. Forgotten. Unwanted. Disregarded. I remember taking such effort to pick out special gifts for them and now they lay lost and discarded in piles on the floor.
and these are not bad people. I consider them pretty average folks. Its just that we accumulate so much stuff...and yet not enough to consider them hoarders. Just enough to feel Americanized. We Americans need to have "stuff".
I am feeling a bit sad by all this stuff...their stuff. My lack of stuff. It makes me want to go out and get stuff just so I can have that feeling of history I felt when i was walking amongst their piles today. My stuff is so limited. I use to have "stuff" but in all the losses, and many moves, I got rid of or lost much of my "stuff". I am "stuff-less" almost. I wonder if I should feel bad or relieved..or both. Both could be true at the same time. Maybe I am just caught in that, like bookends to my feelings.
I have to go back out there tomorrow. My car is loaded from today. I have to take out the stuff I took today so I can get more stuff tomorrow. Then I have to pack this stuff so I can take it with me to my next place..the new old house. So i am packing up my stuff and getting more stuff to pack. It doesnt feel like I should be adding more work to my already full plate.
But I cant let some of this stuff go. Like shovels. And rakes. And sheets and blankets. And lamps. And watches.
You can never have enough sheets. Or lamps. Or watches...or...
I am tired. I am tired of thinking about all this stuff. I am tired of thinking about the family history. I am tired of thinking about who isnt here to be part of this..the ones who died and now we have to go thru their stuff again. Stuff we kept because we couldnt keep them. Their stuff became them to us and now alot of it is in piles and we (my sister and I) both look at it and say nothing. We just look. Our grief process says its ok to let these things go now but then we think, what if we will regret it later? What if the grandkids want some of our parents things? What if we get rid of it and then we cant remember them anymore because we dont have their stuff? My guess is that stuff will get stuffed back into a bag and find its way to our houses.
a family of stuff was my meditation for the day...
YouTube- George Carlin Talks About "Stuff"
Gemme
03-27-2010, 06:43 PM
softness, be careful with the make up, even if it's never been opened.
Wow. That sounds like one heckuva day. :blink:
sweetfemme247
03-27-2010, 06:48 PM
sitting at home playing online and watching my bella play with her boyfriend harley
casey35
03-28-2010, 10:46 AM
There is something i have on my mind and it not a happy thought. I have been thinking of the past because i have a friend who is going thru the same thing. People who has not lost a partner or is going thru losing a partner have no idea what it like. Can u imagine watch your soul mate passing before your eyes and having no way to stop it. To pray to god to keep them and knowing it for not. Having friends and family not there being alone. Telling the doctors to let them go and sitting on the bed holding your soul mate while she passes to the heavens. For those who has not endure this then do not think u can judge those who have. My feeling on this is very raw and do not mean to be rude if it appears so. So that what i have on my mind today.
Miss Scarlett
03-28-2010, 12:24 PM
What tommorrow at work will be like...hoping my boss got my text message about a conflicting court appearance in another county. It's been on her schedule for over a month and she does download her schedule onto her iPhone...but we didn't discuss it before she left for the weekend on Thursday. Not to mention having to go over what happened Friday...
Sometimes I think I worry far too much. In my defense, I have had some very bad work experiences in the past 5 years and that can leave you a bit shell shocked...
I'll just be glad when tomorrow is over and done with. I hate the unknown.
Gemme
03-28-2010, 05:02 PM
I've got the rainy Sunday but not the snuggles. Unfair, I say. Unfair!
moxie
03-28-2010, 06:18 PM
Why do I watch this horrible schlock?
It kills brain cells with how horrible it is, yet I keep watching it.
Soft*Silver
03-28-2010, 06:19 PM
I need some tools. I need a power screw driver. I need a drill. I need one of them saws that can cut out patterns.
Ever since I lost control of a hand held gas powered fence auger and almost took off my right arm, I vowed not to use power tools again. And I havent. But I need to if I am going to have my own house and be self sufficient.
I think I have risen past the past....
bigbutchmistie
03-28-2010, 06:38 PM
Love true love. You can tell when you are couples who has it. If its genuine and easy between them. Natural, if you will. Watching some friends tonight and smiling at how much in love they are. How they compliannt each other. Theyve been moving for three days and both are so exhausted while some couples would be bickering they just make each other laugh and smile.
How nice it must be to be loved like that and love like that...
JakeTulane
03-28-2010, 06:57 PM
I changed all the music on My iPod today. Out with the old, in with the new. I love it when I have a fresh selection of music to jam to.
Kenna
03-28-2010, 06:58 PM
gentle Rain on a tin roof....
I think I might get cozy in the upstairs bedroom just to listen to it all night.
Soft*Silver
03-28-2010, 07:05 PM
I am procrastinating. I am not packing. I am not working on my crafts. I am in limbo. I have baked cookies and cooked a wonderful meatloaf. I am nesting. I am in denial. I am trying not to leave this trailer. I have been so happy here and I am a bit afraid to move..to the unknown...even if it all looks so good...its still unknown...
sighing...I hate looking at my own behaviors and analysing myself...no wonder people get pissed off at me when i do it to them....
Spirit Dancer
03-28-2010, 07:08 PM
Big Hugs my friend and an even bigger thank you:rose:
There is something i have on my mind and it not a happy thought. I have been thinking of the past because i have a friend who is going thru the same thing. People who has not lost a partner or is going thru losing a partner have no idea what it like. Can u imagine watch your soul mate passing before your eyes and having no way to stop it. To pray to god to keep them and knowing it for not. Having friends and family not there being alone. Telling the doctors to let them go and sitting on the bed holding your soul mate while she passes to the heavens. For those who has not endure this then do not think u can judge those who have. My feeling on this is very raw and do not mean to be rude if it appears so. So that what i have on my mind today.
apretty
03-28-2010, 07:36 PM
starving and the garlic, olive oil, basil and onion smells coming from the kitchen are torturing me!!
:smladybug:
WolfyOne
03-29-2010, 07:56 PM
I have the house to myself until Saturday
I'm bored, no one to talk to, no where to go, no one to visit around here
If I could make a day trip somewhere and come back home I would
Why must everyone I know live so far from me
Just me and all the kitties
I am thinking I'm a slave to them
Wished they could learn to pick up there own messes
At least with kids, you can get them to do it
And don't think cats won't talk back to you but kids will
I suppose it will be me doing some spring cleaning
because someone in this house has to do it
Duchess
03-29-2010, 08:11 PM
Grilled KFC is sooo damn good..:girleating:
Corkey
03-29-2010, 08:12 PM
I have the house to myself until Saturday
I'm bored, no one to talk to, no where to go, no one to visit around here
If I could make a day trip somewhere and come back home I would
Why must everyone I know live so far from me
Just me and all the kitties
I am thinking I'm a slave to them
Wished they could learn to pick up there own messes
At least with kids, you can get them to do it
And don't think cats won't talk back to you but kids will
I suppose it will be me doing some spring cleaning
because someone in this house has to do it
I donna know buddy Slick talks to us every morning about 8 AM, then noon and not til she is well fed at 5 PM does she give it a rest. Her voice changed when her bottom teeth came out. Yea you may want to thank your kitteh's for their stealth. :amsmiling:
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