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Arden
07-21-2016, 12:04 AM
Sometimes it seems the things placed upon our hearts, that we want to do or feel we ought to do.....are beyond our ability to do.....frustrating...and yet, I feel compelled to ask myself why would it be on my heart if it is not for me to do? Which then quickly leads to more questions......Who placed it there? What purpose would (if I could act) it serve for me? others? Not just on the surface, but digging deeper...
to get to the heart of it.....and there yes, there it is....the answers. The why....

and....

what glorious freedom can be found in the answers.....

Gemme
07-21-2016, 05:59 AM
...that having two days off in a row always makes me want to have a third.

:blink:

Chad
07-21-2016, 11:42 AM
My lunch, that leftover conference sandwich looked a little sketchy. Good thing that I only took a couple of bites.

:doh:

Bèsame*
07-21-2016, 04:24 PM
The appointment I had for tomorrow was rescheduled. And it was about 24 hours within the appointed time. What's the rule for discount vs the charge for a no show?

But hey...it will only be a half day on a Friday!

Brooklyn
07-21-2016, 04:35 PM
Right now I am thoroughly confused. :|

Orema
07-22-2016, 04:52 AM
Work. Getting ready to start another marathon weekend.

Gonna eat my Wheaties, paint my face, put my shoulder to the wheel, and get this party going.

:bow:

candy_coated_bitch
07-22-2016, 05:06 AM
This coming weekend and not being able to sleep more than a couple hours at a time.

Gemme
07-22-2016, 05:55 AM
It's supposed to be hot, like hot hot today. And humid. Ugh. Weather like this just seeps the energy from my bones. Hopefully, we won't have to do too much outside today.

clay
07-22-2016, 01:12 PM
Last week my lil baby started to have seizures (had 3 in 2 days). Started her on Phenobarb Fri PM...so none since. BUT she wasn't acting quite right....so was a watch & wait game.

Needless to say I have been on alert, watching her closely. She got worse first of this week, by Wednesday I had resigned myself that I was going to have to put her down. I made an appointment with our old vet to be seen tomorrow for evaluation & possibly having to say goodbye. Many sleepless hours & tears later, yesterday, she did a 360 degree turn.

So I talked with our vet this am, cancelled the appointment I had for tomorrow, and said..I want to give her every chance now, and this could well be the "calm before the storm" scenario. At any rate, I am just going to wait & see what transpires. If need be, I will take her in to see the vet & go from there.

With a pet & as several of you here know, it is a roller coaster sometimes...with any kind of neurological issues going on...you can just never know what/where/when. There is a suspicion she has a brain tumor...and their little brains are wired so funny, it is impossible to "predict" any given set of circumstances.

So she had never stopped eating, pottying.....she would engage in social interactions with us. She did have lots of trouble keeping her hind legs under her...I have a mobility cart coming today, should we need it.

So, I have breathed a small, ever so small sigh of relief in this positive turn of events. It isn't far from the recesses of my mind to know things can change in a heartbeat. I do have options & I will give her every.single.opportunity I can...so long as she isn't in any despair & has quality of life in her..which she does.

Thanks for the texts, user reps, & PM's asking about my baby!! Your words & concern mean so much to us. I am certain I am again rambling...it has been such a difficult & heartbreaking week for us, esp. for Heidi. Keep her in good thoughts please...thanks...clay & Heidi........

Brooklyn
07-22-2016, 01:52 PM
I hate when I second guess myself. It is like I say or do something and then think -- should I have? I get inside my head so much about it that it ends up making me feel foolish and from that --out of sorts. Bah. I guess I also need to work on having expectations --which is not always a good thing--sometimes it is like setting yourself up for a letdown. Bah, again.

candy_coated_bitch
07-22-2016, 03:00 PM
My diabetes and lack of success with my new fast acting insulin. I'm getting frustrated.

JustLovelyJenn
07-22-2016, 03:23 PM
kittens are too damn cute...

Kobi
07-28-2016, 03:02 PM
https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/564x/38/d6/51/38d6516dfebad58160801857429e1137.jpg

Little Guy received an exam this morning and continues to improve and show great progress. The eaglets flying skills have become more coordinated and is using both feet to land and no longer favorites the right leg.

As part of his rehabilitation, the eaglet will continue to receive daily conditioning and live prey training (will spare you the video's of that :)

Once he successfully completes the live prey training, a release will be scheduled.

Brooklyn
08-05-2016, 06:45 PM
On my mind: I have realized that I do not do rudeness very well. (right now you are likely saying "well, duh") but it is more than that. I am a pretty low-key person. That is to say I can let things roll off me--and I consider the whole picture (meaning: does this person impact my life in any way?, do I hold them dear?, etc.) before I make comment on the situation at hand.

However, when it comes to just blatant rudeness --the kind that just happens for no reason at all other than the person just wants to "be that way" and hands it out as though it is a nicely wrapped Christmas gift --and then when you catch the rudeness and question it-- they either ignore you-- or better yet-- respond as if they have no clue what you are talking about --At the very least --OWN your rudeness.

Yes-- I do not do rudeness very well and find that I have less of a "let it roll off me" stance anymore.

Sometimes, it makes me want to get more intro versus extro -verted.

(end of the vent)

homoe
08-05-2016, 06:54 PM
Interesting above post and I do not do rudeness well either! Well to say that I don't handle rudeness when someone is rude to someone else and I witness it I guess I should stipulate!

More than once, I'v stuck my nose in when I felt someone was being rude to a retail clerk or some other similar situation and perhaps some day I may get a bullet between my eyes but I just can't stand back and not speak up!

Kobi
08-12-2016, 01:29 PM
Lil Guy has been cleared for release by CROW's veterinary staff and will be returned to the wild in the near future.

He has been successful during live prey testing and continues to improve on the skills needed for catching live fish.

His stay at CROW was extended to ensure vital hunting skills were effectively developed. In Florida, approximately 80 percent of a bald eagles diet is fish, so this will continue to be the focus for the remainder of the eaglets rehabilitation at ‪#‎CROWClinic‬.

We will be filming the release and will share all the details at a later date.

Arden
08-13-2016, 09:55 PM
I feel like I’ve been in a play and following along with the script and sometimes adlibbing as unexpected action transpired. The show has been running for a long time allowing the actors to grow comfortable with the script to even change things up and to add new a actor to some scenes.

Then one day the play changed. Initially I didn’t realize it; I kept doing my part, playing my role…Once I realized the script was no longer useful I attempted to learn the new lines, to catch on to the action but the other actor wouldn’t share the script. I found myself confused, bewilder and at times rather frustrated. Expressing my thoughts and feelings resulted in blame, anger and no changes.

I asked for some adjustments to the show and the roles being played….but both parties have to want the changes to occur in way that allows the play to continue, if it will or even can….

So I’m leaving the play formally ending my contract. It was not part of the plan, not what I thought I was signing up for that is for sure. It seems the other actor wanted to do a different show altogether than I had thought we’d agreed upon.

I’m starting over and this time I’m going to write more of my own script, have a bit more say in the direction action goes, at least for some of the scenes I’m writing them all on my own…other scenes are going to written alongside someone new…with laughter, love, negotiation and playful banter….

Gayandgray
08-14-2016, 09:05 AM
Some of the choices I have made, both in the past and the here and now. The sacrifices my spouse has made for me in the past and how strong our marriage is right now. Her getting sick years ago actually made our marriage stronger. I'm thinking about my lack of help and support from her family. Don't people realize you only get ONE MOTHER in your life???? And when she is gone, that's it.......

BullDog
08-14-2016, 08:59 PM
Trying to decide whether or not to go camping with friends in a bit or forgo it and work on my book business. I can probably do both if I get my butt in gear. I'm not much of a camper but it's a beautiful area and I know I would have fun with my friends.

femmeandstrong
08-15-2016, 04:23 AM
how soon I can go back to bed lol...

good cup of java though is making chance of survival til then more likely lol

Talon
08-15-2016, 11:06 AM
I hate you.

Kätzchen
08-15-2016, 05:08 PM
An over night birthday party in late September....

easygoingfemme
08-15-2016, 05:47 PM
Sometimes there are just some really special people out there who pop up out of nowhere.

Just got a call from a woman who was an assistant teacher when my daughter was in preschool. My daughter starts college in two weeks- so- that's the time between. She called to tell me she had always had a strong connection with my daughter (She did, in a sweet grandma way- and we lived in the same neighborhood for a couple of years) Anyway- we haven't seen her in over 12 years. She called to tell me she has been setting aside money to give to my daughter when she goes to college and wanted to check our address to send it to. She is widowed now and on her own and has her own art studio in her house. I asked her to make sure she includes her return address so we can send her something in return. It's a lovely re connection and out of the blue true kindness and generosity.

JDeere
08-15-2016, 07:22 PM
How much longer my relationship will last, things are getting tougher the further along we go.

Kobi
08-16-2016, 02:23 PM
Little Guy has successfully been catching fish during the remainder of his live prey testing. CROW's veterinary staff is pleased to see that he is using both the left and right talon to catch the fish.

He is almost 7 months old and the mortality rate for eagles during their first year of life is greater than 50%. But once they have learned to hunt and forage successfully their chances of reaching adulthood are improved.

CROW’s Wildlife Rehabilitators and hospital staff have worked diligently to ensure the eaglet has the basic hunting skills needed to survive when returned to the wild.

Prudence
08-16-2016, 05:53 PM
I would like to figure out why the hell I can not seem to get the electric bill in the mail on time. Its not like its not hanging out in my handbag...stamped and all. Just gotta drop it in. BUT NO... I now have to drive the thing to the electric company drop box or its an extra 15. ..Irresponsible cuss.

anotherbutch
08-16-2016, 06:25 PM
Pondering taking my new truck on a little road trip this weekend and maybe do a little camping too..... hmmm...

JDeere
08-16-2016, 07:06 PM
How impatient I truly am.

Degotoga
08-16-2016, 08:30 PM
Evidently I need to double up on my workouts since sneezing leads to pulled muscles. :| Why, oh WHY, couldn't I pull a pec muscle at work? It wouldn't be as humorous, but it would be far less embarrassing. Despite the embarrassment, I can't stop laughing about it.

Orema
08-17-2016, 04:36 AM
Halloween is on my mind. I have love/hate relationship with it. Sometimes it's cool and fun, other times it's stupid, racist and hurtful.

The company where I work loves to have party and they go all out for Halloween. There are contests for best costume, best team theme, scariest, hardest to recognize, etc. Most years I've been able to avoid it, but my current manager and teammates loves it, so I've participated a few times since I've been with this group. But they know I'll disappear in a second if I see some shit I don't like (now you see me, now you don't).

Well, we're already talking about the theme we'll use this year. Ghostbusters is the favorite so far. I'm not feeling that so I'm hoping we come up with something else. I'm also coming up with an escape plan... just in case.

anotherbutch
08-18-2016, 02:27 PM
Hurtful behavior from people that should know better.

Gayandgray
08-19-2016, 06:55 AM
Too much!!!!! But mostly how I wish my crappy insurance would pay for me to see a holistic Doctor, a naturopath or something.:|

Kobi
08-20-2016, 08:49 AM
Little guy was released back into the wild on aug 18th. He was banded prior to release.

Cant figure out how to post the u tube using kindle. Was kind of sad to watch him go off, flying very low cuz that was the height he had to work with in rehab for the last 3 months.

Hopefully, he will defy the odds and do well. And, hopefully he has already learned he can fly as high as he wants.

JDeere
08-20-2016, 01:24 PM
Doctors appointment next week. Not knowing what he is going to do, ie more lab work or tests.

Smiling
08-20-2016, 04:40 PM
I've surely got a ton of homework. Of course, I don't know; because I haven't even looked yet. :glasses:

A very wise person once gave me a great bit of advice: "When you feel like you don't know where to begin, just begin."

Of course, I'm not feeling overwhelmed. I'm being lazy (lol, just keeping it real). So, that particular pearl of wisdom may not be applicable in this case, but it's still excellent advice which bears repeating.

Bubala
08-20-2016, 05:41 PM
Meditation...new paths to a single moment of inner peace...

Gayandgray
08-27-2016, 11:22 PM
A lot of things!!!!!!! :seeingstars:

Bèsame*
08-28-2016, 10:56 AM
The scent coming from the kitchen...a special request this morning...

German pancakes
http://images.bigoven.com/image/upload/v1419075246/german-pancakes-aka-dutch-babies.jpg

~ocean
08-28-2016, 11:15 AM
what's on my mind ~ just that undercover farting should be extinct like the electoral vote ~

MitchM42
08-28-2016, 12:00 PM
A petite blonde.

Orema
08-28-2016, 12:37 PM
A sage green dress with black circles that would look adorable on me.

kittygrrl
08-28-2016, 12:41 PM
A sage green dress with black circles that would look adorable on me.

it's sounds adorable..i hope you bought it!

Orema
08-28-2016, 12:44 PM
it's sounds adorable..i hope you bought it!

No, only because someone else was wearing it, otherwise it would be mine. LOL

Smiling
08-28-2016, 04:19 PM
I feeeeeeeel like if I could just have an ice-cold, really crispy club soda that my bad attitude would disappear just like the bubbles. I love intense bubbles that sting my throat just a little bit - it's so refreshing.

That and I think I'm going to take a short time-out to do some yoga. I believe I will be well-served to do those things prior to submitting any assignments this evening, lol. The rant helped, though. lol, I never rant in real life - I'm so mellow in person; but I do love putting a good diatribe to paper.

Gayandgray
08-29-2016, 05:10 PM
How I kinda want to be spontaneous and maybe take some crazy chances? Nothing dangerous! Just branch out and try something new...... Take steps to change what I don't like in my life and do what I feel will make me happy. I need to stop letting fear, worry, etc hold me back and just go for it!! LOL! Easier said than done.:|

Smiling
08-29-2016, 05:46 PM
I've been a little bit food-averse lately. And for me, that is definitely not normal. Everytime I eat, I feel like utter garbage for the next few hours. I mean serious bloat, sometimes nauseous, and so dog tired that I can barely keep my eyes open.

And I haven't been getting really hungry which is also unusual for me. I'm not really hungry right now, but I can tell I will later and if I eat then I won't be able to sleep comfortably (heartburn), so I'm thinking about what to have that will be just enough.

Also, that a full-body wax would be nice. I'm sorry - that entire post was way TMI. :)

Wrang1er
08-29-2016, 06:18 PM
I've been a little bit food-averse lately. And for me, that is definitely not normal. Everytime I eat, I feel like utter garbage for the next few hours. I mean serious bloat, sometimes nauseous, and so dog tired that I can barely keep my eyes open.

And I haven't been getting really hungry which is also unusual for me. I'm not really hungry right now, but I can tell I will later and if I eat then I won't be able to sleep comfortably (heartburn), so I'm thinking about what to have that will be just enough.

Also, that a full-body wax would be nice. I'm sorry - that entire post was way TMI. :)

Reading what's on your mind is always enjoyable. Even the ranting maybe especially the ranting. ;)

Smiling
08-29-2016, 06:52 PM
Reading what's on your mind is always enjoyable. Even the ranting maybe especially the ranting. ;)

Thank you, Wrang1er. :)

Jesse
08-31-2016, 05:31 AM
What is on my mind? I am hoping that the impending tropical storm holds off until tomorrow to make landfall because I am scheduled to teach an intermediate canine trick class this afternoon. I would hate to have to reschedule on such short notice.

Bèsame*
08-31-2016, 07:09 AM
On my mind...one small unworthy associate, had her Mother come in to fight her battle. Who has their parent come in? She is 20! tisk tisk..., if she only did what was asked of her, paid attention to schedules and didn't demand I run my business around her....lol...
Her mom, actually threatened me, but not to my face. I'm not really scared, just worried about my pretty new car getting keyed!

Said associate has yet to talk to me, just to everyone else. Hello? I'm the supervisor..lol

And yesterday....a dead body was found about 50 yards from the store....
(Key up scary music)

Rugged
08-31-2016, 08:35 AM
How do I successfully get out of an afternoon staff meeting???
It's mandatory because I'm the head of security.
But when this guy talks, I want to rip my ears off and start
Eating them to make people think I'm crazy.
Not crazy, just don't want to be in a boring meeting.

Zimmeh
08-31-2016, 09:48 AM
Starting my new job on Monday. It freaks me out and being single, really hard. Four shifts left at Starbucks and I can exit this emotional train wreck that job has put me on.

Zimmeh

firegal
08-31-2016, 01:32 PM
booking a flight to see someone!

Gayandgray
09-01-2016, 04:50 PM
Family issues.:vigil:

homoe
09-01-2016, 04:52 PM
American Airline's and their stupidity!

LoyalWolfsBlade
09-09-2016, 08:56 PM
Below is an example of the random thinking that occurs in my head and how it leads to other thoughts. Sometimes sharing those thoughts are the only way to derail them.

Oddly enough insects are on my mind right now. I have now pretty much lived in almost all of the USA time zones and while most people would expect each to be different I wonder if anyone else notice the vast difference in small things, like insects. Sure there are similarities like flies, bees, ants, and spiders but even in those common ones there are huge differences. So if insects are different in each time zones and we accept that even expect it then why are so many humans I have encountered through out my years suprised/shocked that someone might just be different than themselves. If only bcs of the time zone they live in never mind any other factors.

Maybe I should have a drink after all. *chuckle*

Bèsame*
09-09-2016, 09:33 PM
I hope I don't get points taken away for all my deletes tonight! Lol

Kenna
09-10-2016, 06:40 PM
Ever since I watched the preview for Morgan Freeman's upcoming episode of Through The Wormhole, I'm more than curious to see what they will present (as they have the opportunity to reach a huge audience)
"Are There More Than Two Sexes?
Season 7 - Sep 13, 2016
Science reveals the line between male and female is blurred, and the battle of the sexes happens deep within our cells."

JDeere
09-10-2016, 10:23 PM
That I am still hungry after eating kettle corn.

Gayandgray
09-18-2016, 06:56 PM
My stepdaughter and her battle with addiction.:vigil:

JustLovelyJenn
09-18-2016, 10:39 PM
My 5 year plan... or maybe 10?

FireSignFemme
09-18-2016, 11:26 PM
Old hurts
New hopes
Bad plans

LoyalWolfsBlade
09-19-2016, 12:22 AM
This time of year always makes me think to damn much
Death of love ones
Loss of family holidays
Way to many memories assaulting my senses

My favorite upcoming holiday Halloween
Experiencing my favorite season Fall
Decisions I have made

This time of year makes me think way too much

Gayandgray
09-19-2016, 06:25 PM
My sick little dog, family, a former friend, my job.

LoyalWolfsBlade
09-19-2016, 08:36 PM
The saddness that other people are feeling, empathizing with them, recalling my own similar experiences.

Wrang1er
09-20-2016, 03:50 AM
French toast and bacon!

Lyte
09-20-2016, 02:24 PM
She who picked another. *shrug*

LoyalWolfsBlade
09-22-2016, 02:44 AM
Why exactly am I awake

Lyte
09-22-2016, 05:05 PM
My three day weekend ... that starts tomorrow!! Woo hoo!!! :koolaid:

Gayandgray
09-22-2016, 06:59 PM
Thinking about coulda, shoulda, woulda's even though I know that is pointless. :blink::blink:

Kobi
09-24-2016, 10:11 AM
Yesterday, my family doctor said it would take 3-4 months for me to feel like myself again. :|

I see the surgeon on Tues. I'm hoping he has a more patient positive time frame in mind. :praying:

Either way, somebody owes me 5 weeks of tanning time. :sunglass:

Demure
09-24-2016, 12:33 PM
That I am still hungry after eating kettle corn.

What's kettle corn?

afrcnqueen
09-24-2016, 12:47 PM
What's kettle corn?

kettle corn is popcorn seasoned with sugar and salt while cooking, to give it that sweet/salty taste :-)...very delicious

Stud_puppy1991
09-24-2016, 01:58 PM
A plethora of things. Everything from old memories of me and my ex, to potentially new flame, to my everyday stressing, to family, to....food, sex, you name it

Shystonefem
09-24-2016, 05:47 PM
Wondering what the next question is going to be and thinking of all the songs that I know. Lol

Nattih
09-24-2016, 07:23 PM
Wondering who I should hire to correct this business plan that I have slaughtered in the income and outgoing projections section lol.

Shystonefem
09-24-2016, 08:28 PM
I have a bit on my mind right now. Palm trees being one of them. Who would go with me to a tropical palm tree paradise is another. Lol

Shystonefem
09-24-2016, 08:29 PM
Wondering who I should hire to correct this business plan that I have slaughtered in the income and outgoing projections section lol.

I can help you if you would like, no charge. If you want me to look at it, pm me and I will send you my email.

MsTinkerbelly
09-24-2016, 10:07 PM
Lots of this, a little of that, and my daughter's upcoming birthday.

I'm thinking of going to see her for Christmas.....shhhhhhhhh. Lol

candy_coated_bitch
09-24-2016, 10:32 PM
Wondering if my piercing is healing properly.

C0LLETTE
09-24-2016, 11:38 PM
I'm haunted by the fear that I have now seen every Law and Order episode ever made . What's left to live for?

Gayandgray
09-25-2016, 09:23 AM
Those same coulda, shoulda, woulda's, and feeling really down hearted. But at the same time I'm thinking of taking chances and making some big changes. Maybe I should just say F*** It and go for it?????????:jester::jester:

Gemme
09-25-2016, 03:51 PM
I'm haunted by the fear that I have now seen every Law and Order episode ever made . What's left to live for?

Stay strong! Never fear, Collette. There's always Criminal Intent, SVU and Trial by Jury. There's also a L&O LA and a L&O UK.

Whew.

We almost lost for a minute there.

:blink:

Gayandgray
09-26-2016, 09:04 PM
Way too much. :seeingstars::seeingstars::seeingstars:

JDeere
09-26-2016, 10:02 PM
Making life a bit better. Not being so serious all the same and trying to relieve stress.

cinnamongrrl
09-29-2016, 08:00 PM
I'm wondering how the blob in the bread machine will ever resemble anything remotely edible. I think I musta done something terribly wrong...:confused:

cinnamongrrl
09-29-2016, 08:01 PM
Making life a bit better. Not being so serious all the same and trying to relieve stress.

Yoga and masturbation. You're welcome. :)

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Jesse
09-29-2016, 09:25 PM
Of course, if you find that you are unable to do yoga while masturbating, there is always the latest yoga craze; Goat Yoga. You may want to give that a try as well. ;)

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Yoga and masturbation. You're welcome. :)

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JDeere
09-30-2016, 01:00 AM
Yoga and masturbation. You're welcome. :)

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Ahahaha Yeah masturbation is a good one. I might need a full body massage soon after restarting work.

cinnamongrrl
10-02-2016, 06:13 AM
A whole lot of stuff

LoyalWolfsBlade
10-02-2016, 11:45 AM
It's October so of course to many depressing memories/anniversaries. That it seems wrong to call death dates of loved ones anniversaries.

My current situation and if I made the right decision. If I will be able to continue dealing with the consequences of said decision.

My response to a message I received. The potential of making a new friend.

That if I would put on my glasses or at least zoom out my phone screen I just might have fewer typos to correct.
And
And
And
Did I say it is October?

Smiling
10-02-2016, 01:49 PM
Well, I'm having a problem; hmmm...maybe "block" is a better word. Anyway, it is significantly impacting my ability to move forward in the way that I need to and I'm not exactly sure how to go about fixing (or working with) it. It's not the sort of thing that has a cut and dry solution.

Luckily, I know someone who might have some insight. In the meantime, I will just keep going.

Anyway, I had fallen asleep and when I woke up I saw I was still logged in and that was on my mind and here was this thread. So, there's that.

LoyalWolfsBlade
10-02-2016, 06:34 PM
How cold it feels compared to how cold the weather man said it would be. Yep, I must be getting old bcs my circulation sure isn't reaching my extremities!

Gayandgray
10-02-2016, 07:29 PM
The application I'm going to put in tomorrow after my spouse's doctor appointment. An old school paper app, not online app! Ive decided to just go for it!!!!! Take a chance!!!!!! Im scared but I'm excited too. I need a change......:blink::blink::blink::blink::blink:

cinnamongrrl
10-02-2016, 08:04 PM
It just now occurred to me..

My dogs probably don't know my name. They know their own names and each others..but no one calls me by my name. The girls call me mom when they're here. And no one else is really around.

Stud_puppy1991
10-05-2016, 11:57 AM
The fact that is October, which means a lot of deaths and death anniversaries for me. I had a lot of loss in this month, so it can be hard for me to deal. But, I do my best. Also thinking about how I have made a couple new friends on here and that makes me rather happy. Then also of course, everything else. My YouTube channel, and how I need to get back on track with my videos.

LoyalWolfsBlade
10-05-2016, 10:02 PM
Today my niece would have turned 26. So what's on my mind is how unjust this world can be. Since my niece only lived to see her 1st birthday and I can't imagine how painful her last 6 months were. She had a rare muscle disease and the last 6 months of her to short life was filled with her slowly loosing control of her mussels till finally she just couldn't breath anymore. Yet, to many asswholes thatr also my buofamily ate still breathing and hurting others

JDeere
10-06-2016, 12:41 AM
Hoping to get over this hump in my relationship.

Jesse
10-06-2016, 05:01 AM
Cinn,
When I read this, I realized the same was true with Sadie. So I tried having a discussion with her the other night. I asked her if she knew who Jesse was and drew a blank stare from her. Then I realized that maybe she knows my name as daddy because that's how I refer to myself when talking to her. So when I asked her if she knew who daddy was I got puppy kisses. Lol

It just now occurred to me..

My dogs probably don't know my name. They know their own names and each others..but no one calls me by my name. The girls call me mom when they're here. And no one else is really around.

Chad
10-06-2016, 06:41 PM
Tonight my friends in Florida are on my mind. Hunker down friends and stay safe.

Please check in when you can.

Chad

Bèsame*
10-06-2016, 09:20 PM
I talked with my friend and he has packed up and left his beach cottage. It will be interesting to see what shape it ends up in. He isn't expecting it to survive. Not far from the coast in Melbourne. Let's see if their will be enough power tomorrow for a check in.

JDeere
10-06-2016, 11:22 PM
My friends in Florida and my girlfriend flying out tomorrow to NY.

JustLovelyJenn
10-07-2016, 05:26 PM
I am getting really tired of everyone deciding whats going on in my life without consulting me... GRRRRRRRR....

... I play all the fucking bills for EVERYONE... yet... my things are free for anyone to use without talking to me... and my time and space are not really mine at all...

I AM SO PISSED RIGHT NOW...

Brisa
10-07-2016, 05:34 PM
My Sis is on my mind :(

Chad
10-08-2016, 08:26 AM
We are planning a family party and the menu is on my mind. Smoked brisket, sausage, and ribs are my job. Veggies and fruit are my sweetheart's job. Oh and dessert.

Lots of work to come.

:cowboy:

Orema
10-10-2016, 04:59 AM
Having drywall and shelving added to the garage.

Bèsame*
10-14-2016, 10:52 PM
Having my co-manager get promoted to her own store. Funny, she didn't like me at first. She thought I was to quick to correct her. She realized, I was teaching her the correct way to do things. She is sad it's happening so fast. We didn't even get to prepare for this. Again, tis the life of retail. I will miss her as we have become good friends. It just won't be the same spending so much time together.

She is the fourth person for me to promote since I've been here!

JDeere
10-14-2016, 10:59 PM
The amount of money that will get spent tomorrow on the truck.

Tuff Stuff
10-18-2016, 12:23 AM
Death...and music by Rob Dougan-Clubbed to Death (kurayamino variations)..I don't know, they just kind of go together.

"snort"

Chad
10-21-2016, 08:47 AM
My stomach is on my mind. I am having a little medical procedure this morning so I can't eat and that part stinks.

My lady is having too much fun teasing me about being a baby. Haha!!


:annoyed:

stargazingboi
10-21-2016, 09:35 AM
Mon i came to the hospital for a "routine" surgery .. I should have been home sameday. However, it became an emergency surgery and here i am Friday still at the hospital with 36 staples instead if 4-5 stitches. The hospital, doctors, nurses, ans cna's have been wonderful. I couldn' t be in better hands..In my option.

So, alot of things are on my mind ...encluding being released tomorrow if all goes well

femmeandstrong
10-21-2016, 09:56 AM
My stomach is on my mind. I am having a little medical procedure this morning so I can't eat and that part stinks.

My lady is having too much fun teasing me about being a baby. Haha!!


:annoyed:

Rockaby baby ...Lallalala:toothache: :onebutch::hk9:

clay
10-21-2016, 11:09 AM
pontificating life...people....that sort of stuff....heavy thinking....:blink:

storyspinner70
10-21-2016, 11:20 AM
I'm thinking about finally saying goodbye and having it be for real this time. My butch and I aren't what we used to be.

candy_coated_bitch
10-21-2016, 01:47 PM
A good friend whose grandma just died. I'm worried about him and haven't heard from him.

Chad
10-21-2016, 03:39 PM
Mon i came to the hospital for a "routine" surgery .. I should have been home sameday. However, it became an emergency surgery and here i am Friday still at the hospital with 36 staples instead if 4-5 stitches. The hospital, doctors, nurses, ans cna's have been wonderful. I couldn' t be in better hands..In my option.

So, alot of things are on my mind ...encluding being released tomorrow if all goes well

Best wishes for a speedy recover. You will be in our thoughts.

Chad & FAS

stargazingboi
10-21-2016, 05:14 PM
Best wishes for a speedy recover. You will be in our thoughts.

Chad & FAS

Thanks! I am recovering faster than expected. I went in for a basic surgery but had an issue with an artery. So, the cut from sturnum to pelvic to repair it. Im up and walking..great team taking care of me and good visits from my crew. It causes a great deal of reflection

Gayandgray
10-21-2016, 06:09 PM
The weight I'm gaining even though I'm eating the same amounts of food I been eating all summer, doing all the same cleaning and scrubbing at the dog kennel, all the same running around at the nursing home, etc. The only thing different is I'm not sweating like I did in the summer when it was so hot. I wonder if that's it? Or maybe just hormones??

cassiopeia67
10-22-2016, 08:38 AM
Frustrated at how long it is taking, for the 27th to get here.

Orema
10-22-2016, 08:41 AM
Thinking bout moving furnture to get the area rugs cleaned. I need to stop thinking about it and just do it because the steamers will be here in a couple hours.

MsTinkerbelly
10-22-2016, 10:27 AM
We have several contractors coming out next week for painting, flooring and other improvements so that we are ready for holiday parties, and the selling of the house sometime next summer.

I HATE to have messes, so I am already stressing on all the mess we will have during the next few weeks; maybe I'll go stay in the travel trailer!:pirate-steer:

Gayandgray
10-22-2016, 10:45 AM
Also thinking about what the ortho doctor said about my hands. First he did X-rays and said I have osteo and he suspects rheumatoid arthritis in both hands, pretty bad. Some carpal tunnel but no need for surgery. Then after blood tests and a nerve test, he says NO rheumatoid, SOME ortho, but SEVERE carpal tunnel in both hands and I need surgery right away. He wants to schedule it for next month. I told him hell no!!!!!!!! I'm starting a brand new job and can't be out of work that long! Plus he said one thing, then a few weeks later something different. So I will get a second opinion before I let some doctor I just met cut my hands. I've been dealing with the pain for a loooooooong time, so I will deal with it for another year before I have any surgery.

FireSignFemme
10-22-2016, 11:58 AM
"I will get a second opinion before I let some doctor I just met cut my hands"

Absolutely!

storyspinner70
10-22-2016, 12:06 PM
All the people who sent me well wishes about what I was going through. It made me cry. I really needed it. I ended it with my Daddi yesterday, but since I'm visiting her in FL right now I'm here until Wednesday. It's so awkward. I thank every one of you for helping me with your comments. Hugs to every one of you.

Greco
10-22-2016, 08:51 PM
the cold North...

Greco

stargazingboi
10-22-2016, 09:10 PM
how much I enjoy the smell of my own pillows

Bubala
10-22-2016, 09:21 PM
https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/95/35/14/953514865bf6b8007762ec3ac2403446.jpg

~ocean
10-22-2016, 11:13 PM
https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/95/35/14/953514865bf6b8007762ec3ac2403446.jpg

other ppl's ignorance is not your pain it's allll theirs ~ now stop looking backwards and face front and move on ~ (f)

cassiopeia67
10-22-2016, 11:35 PM
sleep and wondering if I will get enough of it..... :praying: :moonstars:

knight
10-23-2016, 12:13 AM
sleep has yet to find me tonight...

stargazingboi
10-23-2016, 08:09 PM
Tomorrow I start getting staples removed from my abdomen!! I'm thinking that will help with the discomfort. The fluid build up has started to reduce and has made a difference in my legs but I look forward to it reducing in my stomach area...because I feel like a weeble. I think it would have been better if they put in drainage tubes..but no such luck. I'll have a little chat with them tomorrow when I see the doctor.

The kids did a great job taking care of the dogs and the house while I was in the hospital for a week...I'll have to find a way to thank them outside of just saying thank you. I know they went above what they do to help their mother take care of things around here.

I have an agency coming in to help me with my recovery so that the impact is minimal. They have enough to do with taking care of themselves because I can't help around here, than having to take care of me. I know I have to take it slow..but it would be nice if it could be fairly quick

Bèsame*
10-23-2016, 09:35 PM
Going to the doctors. My online Doctor license is just not calling this one.

Canela
10-23-2016, 10:42 PM
Thunder...

I just heard a very loud, powerful rumble and know that rain is soon to follow.

I love it when it rains but that dang thunder, ugh!



Oh! There it goes again!

WingsOnFire
10-24-2016, 11:47 AM
Thinking about how for the first time in many years I am looking forward to and enjoying my birthday.

Going to a Japanese Steak House tonight Benihanas with my sister from another mister.. Love her sooooo much! ❤

Stone-Butch
10-24-2016, 11:57 AM
A very HAPPY BIRTHDAY Wings

Bèsame*
10-25-2016, 07:20 PM
My Dad.

I was in the doctors office today, and was asked, are both your parents alive?

First time I had to say no.

My foot hurt, but my eyes were tearing up.

knight
10-25-2016, 09:11 PM
Thinking about how for the first time in many years I am looking forward to and enjoying my birthday.

Going to a Japanese Steak House tonight Benihanas with my sister from another mister.. Love her sooooo much! ❤

Hope you had a fantastic birthday.
From your neighbour in British Columbia
Knight

Orema
10-26-2016, 06:29 AM
Work is on my mind.

Gonna be really busy when I return from the desert. I'll have 7 or 8 back-to-back deadlines. Will probably have to work Thanksgiving week. Was hoping I could book a quick trip to the D for Turkey day, but will have to put that off till next year.

easygoingfemme
10-26-2016, 06:39 AM
Work- and wishing we had more security and or a metal detector at the door. Tension among the youth has been mounting as the colder darker weather is bringing more of them into the drop in center and we're getting crowded. A fight broke out last night. We managed it quickly and effectively, but a lot of that was pure luck and it could have gotten much worse very quickly. :| <- me in charge of guarding the front door during a lockdown face.

stargazingboi
10-26-2016, 07:42 AM
Thinking about how you learn who care and who doesn't when you're struggling or need help.

Each day I try to do a little. I get so exhausted and I've been sweating a LOT. I read that after surgery sweating a lot is common. I don't have a fever, so, I'm not worried about infection at this point.

After each little thing I do, do I find myself falling asleep. I've been given the ok to drive..so, I went to the store for rice (not even a mile away) grabbed a bag and dog treats and went home..fell asleep for two hours *smh* I've had surgeries before but nothing like this...

Even though I am able to drive I am considered home bound because driving actually wipes me out. The first time I tried, I drove around the block and was to tired to actually get what I needed. To be deemed not home bound you actually have to be able to complete much more than what I have been able too. For example...because driving exhausts me I can not make it to a physical therapy appointment and actually do what is asked of me.

I had no idea until this was explained to me by the nurse from the home health agency. So, I qualify for services..a nurse to check my incision, PT to maintain and regain muscle mass that I loss...and the flexibility in my joints to help me walk better, and OT just to discuss how I can do personal care a different way so not to be a high fall risk. I could use the help.

My spirits are not shot...I feel pretty good considering...just tired.

JustLovelyJenn
11-01-2016, 07:32 PM
So much that I don't even know where to begin...

JDeere
11-01-2016, 07:46 PM
My two doctors appointments, tomorrow. I am not ready for another ultrasound, I am tired of being poked in the cervix, with no answers!

I hate it when they book them back to back as well, it frustrates me to no end, I hate traffic in this town so this is what is on my mind.

Jesse
11-01-2016, 08:28 PM
Wood

:blink:

of the 2x4 sort.

Gayandgray
11-03-2016, 08:04 AM
A lot right now. The choices I may have made a bit too quickly concerning my employment. :seeingstars:

Chad
11-03-2016, 08:40 AM
Headed to the doctor for my poor stomach with a list of complaints. Ugg

:worried:

Talon
11-03-2016, 11:23 AM
I just feel like I'm being pulled in a million different directions with all the responsibilities that I have right now.
I want to make everyone happy, but It's like I'm just running through life.
I'm not complaining about it, they are good responsibilities...I'm just feeling a bit overwhelmed at the moment. I think that I need to restructure my schedule.

Medusa
11-03-2016, 11:47 AM
Trying to figure out how to take over the world by January. :koolaid:

FireSignFemme
11-03-2016, 08:34 PM
Tonight I’m thinking about how fortunate I am to have a gotten good advice from our Board of Nursing, to have money coming in while on leave from work, and to still be employed by a company not only eager to have me back but also willing to provide reasonable accommodations for me when I do.

JDeere
11-04-2016, 01:41 AM
How damn hot the house is the air conditioning is out and I can't sleep.

Plus mental notes are running through my brain.

Orema
11-17-2016, 11:56 AM
If they call Michelle Obama an "ape in heels" what on earth do they call someone like me?

kittygrrl
11-17-2016, 12:30 PM
If they call Michelle Obama an "ape in heels" what on earth do they call someone like me?

yeah, I heard her explanation for it was "she was tired"..it's ignorant red neck jerks like this that make me wish I could live way up north..but you can't escape it, even there.

Gemme
11-17-2016, 08:35 PM
yeah, I heard her explanation for it was "she was tired"..it's ignorant red neck jerks like this that make me wish I could live way up north..but you can't escape it, even there.

There's no such thing as a 'progressive North' anymore. There have been some serious racial issues in diverse areas even like Boston and NYC. Since Nov. 8th, it's been one hurt after another.

bright_arrow
11-17-2016, 09:50 PM
My grandfather passing, and how I am grateful and at the same time sad that there is no funeral. Instead he will be cremated and his ashes scattered.

deeds
11-17-2016, 10:42 PM
If they call Michelle Obama an "ape in heels" what on earth do they call someone like me?They fear strong women, black woman especially.

It is of my opinion, after reading the Bible thru and various other ancient text ,that slaves were lied to and their history stolen from them..That black folks are in truth descendants from Egypt and are indeed a so-called "lost tribe" of Israel..And that's why they fear you and lash out with their sneaky snake tongues..

nhplowboi
11-17-2016, 11:24 PM
If they call Michelle Obama an "ape in heels" what on earth do they call someone like me?
I find the two women who engaged in this social media conversation to be (plain and simple) disgusting white trash. When they think Melania is going to be a classy and dignified FLOTUS I can only shake my head. I feel Michelle Obama's time as our First Lady was reminiscent of the Kennedy era.

~ocean
11-18-2016, 12:13 AM
There's no such thing as a 'progressive North' anymore. There have been some serious racial issues in diverse areas even like Boston and NYC. Since Nov. 8th, it's been one hurt after another.

there are ppl (youngins) with loose gun fingers everywhere ~ I TOTALY disagree with you when it comes to back and white prejudice in the northeast. I live here and there is no hate .

Gemme
11-18-2016, 06:26 AM
there are ppl (youngins) with loose gun fingers everywhere ~ I TOTALY disagree with you when it comes to back and white prejudice in the northeast. I live here and there is no hate .

I live in the NE too and yes, there is. Go into Andrea's thread about the events that have occurred since Trump was elected. I think it's called 'so this is how we make America great again' or something similar. It's illuminating.

It's everywhere. To think otherwise is irresponsible. You're going to have to lift your head out of the sand at some point, ocean. Hatred is contagious and is running rampant right now. Even in the NE.

For example, a teacher was just fired in Boston for screaming racial slurs at students in the classroom. That is in the Northeast and sounds like hate to me. :blink:

I'm glad that you haven't personally witnessed any of this but to declare that there is 'no hate' is inaccurate and quite cavalier.

BTW, what do 'loose gun fingers' have anything to do with what I said or what kittygrrl (to whom I was addressing) said? We were referencing the women that commented on Michelle Obama.

homoe
11-18-2016, 06:34 AM
I find the two women who engaged in this social media conversation to be (plain and simple) disgusting white trash. When they think Melania is going to be a classy and dignified FLOTUS I can only shake my head. I feel Michelle Obama's time as our First Lady was reminiscent of the Kennedy era.

Very well put, I totally agree!

easygoingfemme
11-18-2016, 07:05 AM
There's no such thing as a 'progressive North' anymore. There have been some serious racial issues in diverse areas even like Boston and NYC. Since Nov. 8th, it's been one hurt after another.

Absolutely. This is a map (http://pix11.com/2016/11/17/map-tracking-hate-crimes-in-new-york-new-jersey-connecticut-since-election-of-donald-trump/) where Cuomo has started documenting and tracking hate crimes. Mind you, these are only ones that are being reported and then seen as an actual hate crime. That's a whole other set of issues. Like this woman (http://usnews.nbcnews.com/_news/2012/10/23/14646977-louisiana-woman-set-on-fire-kkk-smeared-on-her-car-police-say) and the crime against her not being determined instantly as a hate crime.

Brisa
11-18-2016, 08:14 AM
There has been hate long before DJT was elected. That is all I have to say.

Bèsame*
11-18-2016, 10:14 AM
No spoiler here..


Grrrr....Grey's Anatomy!!!!

Gemme
11-18-2016, 06:19 PM
Absolutely. This is a map (http://pix11.com/2016/11/17/map-tracking-hate-crimes-in-new-york-new-jersey-connecticut-since-election-of-donald-trump/) where Cuomo has started documenting and tracking hate crimes. Mind you, these are only ones that are being reported and then seen as an actual hate crime. That's a whole other set of issues. Like this woman (http://usnews.nbcnews.com/_news/2012/10/23/14646977-louisiana-woman-set-on-fire-kkk-smeared-on-her-car-police-say) and the crime against her not being determined instantly as a hate crime.

OMG, how can they NOT?!?!?

I'm officially horrified.

There has been hate long before DJT was elected. That is all I have to say.

True. There was also gasoline and fire for a very long time but it took one person to put them together.

Trump is fuel on the fire of hatred, of all kinds. He does nothing to stop what he started. One day, it will come back to him. Sadly, not soon enough for my taste.

Brisa
11-18-2016, 06:22 PM
Obama is still in office..why doesn't he do anything about the violence?

easygoingfemme
11-18-2016, 08:59 PM
OMG, how can they NOT?!?!?

I'm officially horrified.



True. There was also gasoline and fire for a very long time but it took one person to put them together.

Trump is fuel on the fire of hatred, of all kinds. He does nothing to stop what he started. One day, it will come back to him. Sadly, not soon enough for my taste.


Exactly. It wasn't a perfect world before- not by a long shot. But before this, Trump's name wasn't painted on the churches being burned or being chanted while women and non-white/not hetero/non christian/non "gender conforming" folks (quotes because folks prefer a variety of terms for this area and I'm trying to not be too wordy) are being harassed.

In other news of what's on my mind. I'm glad my daughter asked me to go see a play with her tonight. It was entirely crafted by high schoolers and the script was rather painful. But she knew the whole tech crew behind the scenes and I enjoyed seeing her run off to be with them during intermission and after the play was over.

candy_coated_bitch
11-18-2016, 09:17 PM
Thanksgiving and wondering how it's gonna go. Thinking about seeing my sister and having some one on one time with her.

clay
11-18-2016, 09:42 PM
Winter weather.......:(

Gemme
11-18-2016, 09:51 PM
Obama is still in office..why doesn't he do anything about the violence?

Hey, how about the idiots doing the damage and vandalism NOT do it? How about people taking responsibility and accountability for their own actions?

Oh, yeah. The new president elect says they don't have to. Who do you think a bunch of racist, homophobic, xenophobic bigots are going to listen to? Certainly not the logical, even tempered African American boss on his way out of office.

What would you like Obama to do, Brisa? I honestly want to know.

Kobi
11-20-2016, 07:46 AM
Having been sick for months, I have lost an impressive amount of weight. It didnt bother me until I had to go to a doctors appointment and discovered none of the pants I own fit. They either looked like clown pants or they slipped right down to the floor as soon as I fastened them.

So I did an emergency clothes order of multiple sizes trying to find something that fit. I found the general size range but am in between sizes, complicating things.

The nurse suggested I resort to leggins until my weight stabilizes. Leggins? Me? Really? Not my thing but they do fit. Of course I didnt know some leggins come with pockets and some dont. So I bought the no pocket ones. Then I had to buy a purse to carry stuff in. A purse? Me? Oy. I wanted a fanny pack but with surgery, I cant have anything around my waist.

I look in the mirror now and I dont see me anymore. My face is now a combo of my Mom and Grandmother. My body feels and looks foreign and strange to me. It's a very weird and odd thing.

Hopefully, solid soft food will be tolerable soon. Thickened liquids are not my favorite form of nourishment.

Absolutely bizarre experience.

cinnamongrrl
11-20-2016, 07:56 AM
I hate my once a week (today) job....a lot.

I just pull in and anticipate 4 hours of non literal tooth pulling that results in my also non literal hair pulling.

With any luck I'll have won the Powerball and never have to return again. Ever. Like keep my check even. I won't be back.

Meh

easygoingfemme
11-20-2016, 08:23 AM
Then I had to buy a purse to carry stuff in. A purse? Me? Oy. I wanted a fanny pack but with surgery, I cant have anything around my waist.




How about a small backpack for carrying your things? If a purse isn't your style?

Kobi
11-20-2016, 08:35 AM
How about a small backpack for carrying your things? If a purse isn't your style?


Thanks for the suggestion. Didnt think of that. Doh.

Bèsame*
11-20-2016, 10:00 AM
We were just reminiscing about our Thanksgiving date, two years ago. We didn't have reservations, it was a spur of the moment thing. We ended up sitting at the bar, eating a family style Thanksgiving meal.

We were still early in our dating, stealing kisses and handholding. We are smiling huge with memories of that day.

And of course he just had to remember the burnt marshmallows last year!

Gayandgray
11-20-2016, 10:04 AM
I hate my once a week (today) job....a lot.

I just pull in and anticipate 4 hours of non literal tooth pulling that results in my also non literal hair pulling.

With any luck I'll have won the Powerball and never have to return again. Ever. Like keep my check even. I won't be back.

Meh

I feel for you, my friend. I have been there too and this new gig isn't turning out as expected. Hang in there!

SnackTime
11-20-2016, 11:24 AM
Last night, I went to a gala event. The event was benefiting our one and only true no kill shelter in the area (10 year anniversary). I felt blessed to be around so many generous people.There were several local artist who donated some of their masterpieces. There was this one painting of a large paw and inside of it was an ocean scene (below and above the surface). It was an amazing piece. That painting alone brought in 4100.00.

The food was out of this world with choices of Asian, Greek, Italian, and American. There was an open bar, I MAY or may not have had one too many vodka/cranberry juice drinks (lol)

It was an amazing event! I am looking for to volunteering for this shelter.

cinnamongrrl
11-20-2016, 11:25 AM
I feel for you, my friend. I have been there too and this new gig isn't turning out as expected. Hang in there!

They're all pretty much the same when you really get down to it. I can't wait to start and finish school and have a fresh start of things in a newish career. Definitely a step up.

Kenna
11-23-2016, 07:47 PM
Planning a big trip, and taking 2 dogs including all their luggage.

Gayandgray
11-24-2016, 05:10 PM
The talk I had with my boss today.

Orema
11-25-2016, 03:53 AM
Hats. I used to wear them but stopped. I'm gonna start wearing them again. Saw a black hat yesterday that would be cute on me. I'm gonna find one just like it.

https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/236x/0a/b0/bf/0ab0bffccae062c45346d67327fad9ec.jpg

Gemme
11-25-2016, 08:41 AM
Hats. I used to wear them but stopped. I'm gonna start wearing them again. Saw a black hat yesterday that would be cute on me. I'm gonna find one just like it.

https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/236x/0a/b0/bf/0ab0bffccae062c45346d67327fad9ec.jpg

I love hats but don't have a 'hat head'.

I'm deliberating on when to advance into society and the shopping frenzy today. I was lazy on the 23rd, when I should have done it and now I'm here because it needs to be done before the store opening tomorrow morning.

Bah.

Gayandgray
11-26-2016, 06:12 PM
Too much right now! Time to find my beach!! :wine::wine::wine:

JDeere
11-26-2016, 08:55 PM
Too much right now! Time to find my beach!! :wine::wine::wine:

I agree with this, too much on the mind.

EmJay
11-26-2016, 09:58 PM
Just thinking that maybe sometimes I don't give someone enough credit for the role they play in my life. How when I'm feeling pretty close to the lowest of lows, they've always been able to pick me up. Kind of silly but it actually made my eyes a little watery, thinking about how much they truly mean to me. I think you can count yourself lucky to have someone like that in your life. xox

Soft*Silver
11-26-2016, 10:31 PM
how I just found out one of my former AA sponsors died two months ago and I didnt know it until now. We had had a falling out (my fault) and never were on good terms again but I owe this woman so much. If I had to say who was the one person who most influenced me positively in my life, it would be her.

Glenn
11-28-2016, 04:05 AM
On my mind... a profound and truthful conversation I had yesterday with a Rabbi, an Artist, and a Poet, regarding an amazing, and beautiful, spiritual, experience, we all had shared.

Amulette
11-28-2016, 04:31 AM
Fret not dear one there is a warm loving hand up waiting for you. I love you like my own child. Spread your wings, become one with the wind and your desires and fly. Glide into life with all the courage your heart can muster, and live in beauty.

clay
11-30-2016, 10:58 AM
Concerned about some not so good changes I am seeing in my little dachshund, Hope. Dammit! I have only had her 4 months today.

Jesse
11-30-2016, 11:22 PM
As I stood in line at check out in a local store today, the person standing (rather closely) behind me sneezed. There was no way to see if they had bothered to cover their mouth/nose; I was immediately grossed out wondering if they had just sneezed all over my back. Now I am wondering if there is some sort of protective garment to wear when in stores/public areas especially during flu season without looking like a complete idiot. Lol! :sunglass:

Gemme
12-01-2016, 06:17 AM
A washable jacket?

What's on my mind this morning is that I think I need to work on my relationship with my bed more. We definitely need more time together.

easygoingfemme
12-01-2016, 06:56 AM
I have an unexpected job interview tomorrow. One that could lead to great things if it comes together. The interview includes a written piece and I need to turn in two essays. I'm writing and editing and am nervous and excited!

clay
12-01-2016, 02:53 PM
salacious thoughts...oh my gay

legally_b10nde
12-01-2016, 03:10 PM
Recently realized I have an oil change due... Why do they always show Date and Miles? What if date is over due but miles is lower than suggestive mileage?

legally_b10nde
12-01-2016, 03:12 PM
salacious thoughts...oh my gay

Salacious thoughts eh?

Shystonefem
12-01-2016, 04:31 PM
Last night, I went to a gala event. The event was benefiting our one and only true no kill shelter in the area (10 year anniversary). I felt blessed to be around so many generous people.There were several local artist who donated some of their masterpieces. There was this one painting of a large paw and inside of it was an ocean scene (below and above the surface). It was an amazing piece. That painting alone brought in 4100.00.

The food was out of this world with choices of Asian, Greek, Italian, and American. There was an open bar, I MAY or may not have had one too many vodka/cranberry juice drinks (lol)

It was an amazing event! I am looking for to volunteering for this shelter.


Aren't you glad? Rescue is soooo rewarding

Shystonefem
12-01-2016, 04:32 PM
I need something different than I have right now. I fight for what? Idk

Soft*Silver
12-01-2016, 05:33 PM
not quite sure how to get some groceries over the next few days. Like many, we live check to check. And this check didnt last as long, dammit! LOL

Kenna
12-01-2016, 08:15 PM
This huge pack of medical records I brought home today....:seeingstars: :seeingstars: :seeingstars: :seeingstars:
Reading through it has made my gray matter almost turn to mush, but at the same time gave me positive feelings for the near future.

easygoingfemme
12-01-2016, 08:24 PM
I have to write an essay as part of the job interview I have tomorrow. It's about 90% done. Just need to fine tune and edit. It's stressing me out though!

firegal
12-01-2016, 10:12 PM
My sexy lady as i saw her in!

distance does suck!

Gayandgray
12-02-2016, 10:56 AM
My never ending employment drama......:blink:

SirenManda
12-02-2016, 11:09 AM
The holidays. I love Christmas.

easygoingfemme
12-02-2016, 03:02 PM
Decompressing after a VERY long and intense job interview. Going over it all in my head. It was a lot. There is some stiff competition and I'll know something, either way, end of next week.

Orema
12-03-2016, 06:56 AM
Replacing the dried spices in my kitchen cabinet.

Kätzchen
12-03-2016, 12:33 PM
I think you put your very best forward each time you engage with others, professionally or in more relaxed ways. I hope you treat yourself kindly, even if this position of employment is not offered to you. Sometimes, it's not about the so-called competitors. Let your blooms be the fragrance that attracts the best environment for your blooms to thrive. :)

I hope you have a lovely day, ahead. :rrose:



Decompressing after a VERY long and intense job interview. Going over it all in my head. It was a lot. There is some stiff competition and I'll know something, either way, end of next week.

~ocean
12-03-2016, 04:09 PM
I don't want to stop buying Christmas trees ~ being w/ my family & animals watching the branches fall into place ~ enjoying the simplicity of the evening as it turns to dark sky's ~ I'm suppose to be here till my hair turns all white and I have arthritis in my knees ~ this lump in my throat scared of the weeks to come if ~ tears burn.

easygoingfemme
12-03-2016, 04:45 PM
I think you put your very best forward each time you engage with others, professionally or in more relaxed ways. I hope you treat yourself kindly, even if this position of employment is not offered to you. Sometimes, it's not about the so-called competitors. Let your blooms be the fragrance that attracts the best environment for your blooms to thrive. :)

I hope you have a lovely day, ahead. :rrose:

You are so sweet. Thank you.

Chad
12-22-2016, 11:53 AM
Food, I am running out of ideas again. I always make soups, chili, enchiladas, picadillo, pizza, and stew. I am board with my food again.

Blade
12-22-2016, 06:04 PM
Wondering what to get the Christmas elf for Christmas this year. I have never not had anything for someone this late in the year. She's too little to give a gift card she wouldn't understand that. What do 6 year old little girls play with these days.

~ocean
12-22-2016, 06:08 PM
Wondering what to get the Christmas elf for Christmas this year. I have never not had anything for someone this late in the year. She's too little to give a gift card she wouldn't understand that. What do 6 year old little girls play with these days.

DOLLS always dolls ~ also lil kitchen ~ shopping carts w/ the pretend groceries ~ make up and hair dressing kits ~ there's a ton of gifts for girls

Blade
12-22-2016, 06:14 PM
DOLLS always dolls ~ also lil kitchen ~ shopping carts w/ the pretend groceries ~ make up and hair dressing kits ~ there's a ton of gifts for girls

Thanks! She has all that except hair dressing.kit and I did see a childs nail kit today also. Might go back and look for the hair kit

Gemme
12-22-2016, 11:17 PM
Wondering what to get the Christmas elf for Christmas this year. I have never not had anything for someone this late in the year. She's too little to give a gift card she wouldn't understand that. What do 6 year old little girls play with these days.

DOLLS always dolls ~ also lil kitchen ~ shopping carts w/ the pretend groceries ~ make up and hair dressing kits ~ there's a ton of gifts for girls

Thanks! She has all that except hair dressing.kit and I did see a childs nail kit today also. Might go back and look for the hair kit

Besides all of the usual gender specific gifts, there are always games and electronic gadgets. She's at the age when kids are really getting into all of that nowadays, if she isn't already.

And Frozen. Kids love Frozen stuff.

Here's some ideas (https://www.google.com/#q=christmas+gifts+for+a+6+year+old+girl&tbm=shop) and here's a list of the 10 best gifts (https://wiki.ezvid.com/best-6-year-old-girl-gifts?id=adw&gclid=CNG-0KnIidECFcdXDQodT10KOQ) for a 6 year old girl as well.

JDeere
12-23-2016, 01:58 AM
Anticipating what might happen later on today.

It's got me in knots.

Brisa
12-23-2016, 09:03 AM
Keep telling yourself it will all be ok, JDeere :)

anotherbutch
12-23-2016, 09:19 AM
8 grandkids... 2 gifts each... 1 big and 1 small each... sitting in the middle of my living room floor waiting for them to wrap themselves..... :blink:

Brisa
12-23-2016, 09:28 AM
LOL Better get to it!:eek:

anotherbutch
12-23-2016, 12:04 PM
LOL Better get to it!:eek:

I did not keep track, but I would estimate that I lost the tape 37 times, lost the scissors 24 times and the pen 177 times. .. all while sitting in the same spot on the floor. :|

easygoingfemme
12-23-2016, 12:07 PM
I did not keep track, but I would estimate that I lost the tape 37 times, lost the scissors 24 times and the pen 177 times. .. all while sitting in the same spot on the floor. :|

That is me- every single year. Except for this year! I've been congratulating myself every time I find them right where I remember leaving them. I don't know what caused the shift but I've been super proud of myself.

C0LLETTE
12-23-2016, 12:35 PM
I've got a megalomanic, narcissistic, lunatic on my mind...and he's just unavoidable.

Soft*Silver
12-23-2016, 03:04 PM
I am going over next years garden in my mind....

RockOn
12-23-2016, 06:12 PM
Trying to figure out what to eat for dinner ... so hungry and yet so tired of my cooking (nuking) ... this may turn into a real quiz. :(

Greco
12-23-2016, 07:40 PM
15 members 395 guests...wow.

and Christmases past, present, and future.

Happy Chanukah, and Merry Christmas folks

Feliz Navidad para mis amigas!

Greco

cinnamongrrl
12-25-2016, 06:51 PM
I had a really bad experience yesterday that left me emotionally raw...

Later that night I filled in at work for a wonderful lady. We had a great night and before bed she had me read an entry from her devotional book. (She's very religious) The entry I randomly turned to seemed to relate to my earlier experience...and helped me work through a lot of the residual...
I feel very lucky to learn something from nearly every person I meet. But I was so grateful for this woman and my time with her. She's the only one I've talked to about it. It's funny how the right people come into your life at the right time...

In short...I love my job

Kobi
12-27-2016, 12:29 PM
Getting the house done before the next surgery is weighing on me today.

Am taking half of Mom's furniture. The dump guy is coming today to empty my place. He is also the painter and I am hoping he can paint in the next week. The carpet guy is coming Friday and can install next week. Then the cleaning people to clean it all up.

If all goes well and there are no goofs or unexpected hospital trips, I will have 10 days to get the furniture moved and set up before the next scheduled surgery in Jan.

JDeere
12-27-2016, 11:48 PM
Job hunting again, I miss working, it kept me out of trouble.

Chad
12-29-2016, 12:58 PM
Travel is on my mind. We may take a family vacation to South America. We are chatting about it but mom has the final vote.

:flying:

VintageFemme
12-30-2016, 10:19 PM
It's always so lovely to know this place is here and that I can come back and see familiar names and threads and even some familiar faces in the galleries. No matter how long I stay away, when I do wander back in, I always feel that sense of "oh yeah, I remember you" and it's warm, friendly and comfortable.

kittygrrl
12-31-2016, 12:27 AM
It's always so lovely to know this place is here and that I can come back and see familiar names and threads and even some familiar faces in the galleries. No matter how long I stay away, when I do wander back in, I always feel that sense of "oh yeah, I remember you" and it's warm, friendly and comfortable.

Welcome back :heartbeat: Please stay awhile:rrose:

clay
12-31-2016, 09:50 AM
A brand new year.

New beginnings...

How incredibly amazing life is....

Friends...that are there in hard times...true friends...

Upcoming visits......

Sunshine, palm trees, & dolphins

C0LLETTE
12-31-2016, 10:50 AM
A brand new year.

New beginnings...

How incredibly amazing life is....

Friends...that are there in hard times...true friends...

Upcoming visits......

Sunshine, palm trees, & dolphins

Everything that Clay said except for the palm trees and dolphins...if we get that up here in 2017 ...even Trump is going to fall to his knees and beg forgiveness for being a climate change denier ( is that really a word ?).

Hoping 2017 brings rational, sane, humane thought back to our tiny little planet and to everyone who depends on it for themselves, their loved ones, descendants, and even those who we find it hard to love , on this fragile planet. Hoping 2017 works to make our only home, safe.

If you don't think about that, what are you doing here on this wee spinning globe?

easygoingfemme
12-31-2016, 11:30 AM
My brother and I don't always see eye to eye. We don't always like each other. But, he knows I'm having some trouble with someone and he's here in the freezing cold out on my front porch installing a security camera to watch my driveway and front door and installing apps on my phone that connect to it. My mind is feeling grateful.

RockOn
12-31-2016, 10:27 PM
I was reading the news when I saw an article where a gunman, dressed as Santa, entered a night club in Istanbul, began randomly shooting people. Some 35 dead and 40 injured. The gunman is dead.

These poor people are on my mind. They were just out with friends for a good time to celebrate the NewYear. In walks a dickhead and begins killing them for no reason other than being a mentally ill dickhead. What a coward!

"A dickhead with an important cause" I am sure! HA!
Sickens me!!!

It is all over the news. Here is the link where I read about it:

Just extremely sorry for all those people over there. 😓

http://www.cbsnews.com/news/istanbul-nightclub-attack-new-years-eve/

WolfyOne
01-01-2017, 12:20 PM
I've missed a lot of people here on BFP, those I know in real time and those I spent years online with. The last couple years have been up and down for me and I isolated myself from many. I think 2017 will be the year for me to reconnect with some of those I know in real time and I hope to spend more time on BFP reconnecting with those that know me and getting to know those that don't.


Here's to 2017, may the new year bring us closer together:rubberducky:

RockOn
01-01-2017, 05:17 PM
CORRECTION:

The Istanbul shooter is not dead. Authorities are still looking for the person.

(sorry, I misread the article last night)

JDeere
01-03-2017, 04:54 PM
Trying to find a decent price on tires for my truck.

Gemme
01-04-2017, 06:27 AM
Trying to find a decent price on tires for my truck.


If you have a Discount Tires near you, go there. I was able to get a whole new set and a full sized spare for a decent price but was also able to pay it off in 2-3 months using their card. You'll get free rotations and balances too and I was always able to make an appointment and come in for them to look at something if I had a question or if something didn't feel right. They have really good customer service, I've found.

Even though I don't have one near me now, I still use the card for gasoline.

girlin2une
01-12-2017, 09:02 AM
My wish is for everyone to have an amazing 2017. After the debacle that was 2016, everyone deserves new beginnings...

I have been considering how much words can impact someone's life lately. I can recall words spoken over me as a small child that had planted seeds of rejection, self-hate and insecurity. This reason has birthed in me over the years a desire to be more wholesome and encouraging in my words; perhaps because I knew what it was to feel inadequate and discouraged and that root still runs deep.

Pardon the Christian references for those of you who aren't religious...but,
Psalm 141:3: says: Set a guard over my mouth and keep watch over the door of my lips.

The mouth has the power of life and death. Growing up, I was taught something very useful when considering my speech: Is what you say useful? Does it build others up? Is it relevant?

We tend to speak words like daggers and sadly it is often to those we love the most. Part of my maturity has been to exercise self-control and I can honestly say for the most part I either don't speak at all or I deeply consider how I speak...

We need to be so careful that we are planting gardens of life and not seeds of destruction.

Words carry power and can completely shape how someone sees themselves. We need to heal and not hurt.

My morning inspiration and meditation.

Bèsame*
01-12-2017, 10:16 AM
on my mind.....

how one night of freezing temperatures can wipe out my entire garden. It's nothing short of slime. It's my day off and I'm going out to deal with that. Oh, and it's going to get to 80 today. I'm just amazed, being from So-cali, where the weather hardly changes, that here...anything goes. There is no planning your work wardrobe, yet alone shoe choices, in January? ??

And....cactus stands pretty tall and sturdy. It goes limp and mushy after a freeze.

knight
01-12-2017, 10:49 AM
My wish is for everyone to have an amazing 2017. After the debacle that was 2016, everyone deserves new beginnings...

I have been considering how much words can impact someone's life lately. I can recall words spoken over me as a small child that had planted seeds of rejection, self-hate and insecurity. This reason has birthed in me over the years a desire to be more wholesome and encouraging in my words; perhaps because I knew what it was to feel inadequate and discouraged and that root still runs deep.

Pardon the Christian references for those of you who aren't religious...but,
Psalm 141:3: says: Set a guard over my mouth and keep watch over the door of my lips.

The mouth has the power of life and death. Growing up, I was taught something very useful when considering my speech: Is what you say useful? Does it build others up? Is it relevant?

We tend to speak words like daggers and sadly it is often to those we love the most. Part of my maturity has been to exercise self-control and I can honestly say for the most part I either don't speak at all or I deeply consider how I speak...

We need to be so careful that we are planting gardens of life and not seeds of destruction.

Words carry power and can completely shape how someone sees themselves. We need to heal and not hurt.

My morning inspiration and meditation.

Thank you for posting your thoughts, it is an ongoing process to be responsible for words...

“Without knowing the force of words, it is impossible to know more.”
― Confucius

cinnamongrrl
01-12-2017, 10:53 AM
The universe is constantly fucking against me and I have no practical reason why.

cinnamongrrl
01-12-2017, 10:20 PM
The universe is constantly fucking against me and I have no practical reason why.

I was such a negative Nancy. Things are improving. Km lucky to have good people in my life that love me and look after me.

Tomorrow is another day. And even if it IS Friday the 13th....it's going to be a better day. Becaue I deserve that much :)

Kätzchen
01-13-2017, 04:23 AM
I was such a negative Nancy. Things are improving. Km lucky to have good people in my life that love me and look after me.

Tomorrow is another day. And even if it IS Friday the 13th....it's going to be a better day. Becaue I deserve that much :)

I hope you have a great day.... and, it's always a bonus when we've got family and friends who like and love us. :rrose:

tantalizingfemme
01-15-2017, 06:59 PM
Thermal ablation. Sick of having a period so I am going to talk with my gynecologist about scheduling an appointment to get this done. Even if my insurance doesn't cover it, I am getting this done. Over it!

Soon
01-15-2017, 07:23 PM
Thermal ablation. Sick of having a period so I am going to talk with my gynecologist about scheduling an appointment to get this done. Even if my insurance doesn't cover it, I am getting this done. Over it!

I got an ablation last year (I'm 47 now) and have had zero problems and zero blood! (insurance covered too)

Best decision ever. I can't believe I don't have to contend with periods any more! Seriously, life-changing lol.

tantalizingfemme
01-15-2017, 07:31 PM
I got an ablation last year (I'm 47 now) and have had zero problems and zero blood! (insurance covered too)

Best decision ever. I can't believe I don't have to contend with periods any more! Seriously, life-changing lol.

That is awesome to hear! A friend who is a nurse and works with doctors who perform this told me it is an easy procedure. I am 47 and so ready!! Life-changing. That is exactly what I am looking for. Thanks Soon!

PS. How much down-time did you experience? She told me to get it done on a Thursday or Friday and I would be good to go back to work that following Monday.

Soon
01-15-2017, 07:44 PM
That is awesome to hear! A friend who is a nurse and works with doctors who perform this told me it is an easy procedure. I am 47 and so ready!! Life-changing. That is exactly what I am looking for. Thanks Soon!

PS. How much down-time did you experience? She told me to get it done on a Thursday or Friday and I would be good to go back to work that following Monday.

Totally easy procedure. The day of (had mine in the morning), I had some pain but Tylenol 3s took care of it pretty good and I slept. I took the next day off too (so 2 days in total) and was completely fine to go back to work on Day 3. If you can schedule on a Thursday or Friday, even better!

Good luck! :)

Chad
01-16-2017, 12:29 PM
The dentist appointment today and on Thursday. Luckily I like both of my dentists.

:cigar2:

Kätzchen
01-16-2017, 03:25 PM
Too much.

One of the things I'm learning about, due to no experience with cancer, is that people who are very ill don't need more stress ....stress from complications of treatment, stress from all types of things that can go wrong (bad weather, transportation problems, the list is never ending it seems).

cinnamongrrl
01-16-2017, 06:34 PM
I'm curious as to why I'm smelling such odd things today...

I just made salmon and now I smell hot dogs...for no apparent reason I smell French toast in another room.

No I'm not hungry. I'm not crazy about hot dogs. But yes I love French toast. Idk...

VintageFemme
01-16-2017, 07:13 PM
I feel invisible most of the time.

JDeere
01-20-2017, 08:37 AM
Being nervous to start work again, but this time in an office setting. I'm grateful because it pays pretty good and has decent hours, not a long commute either.

Learning to live again is a new start too.

Chad
01-20-2017, 12:50 PM
I am very worried about the Trump dictatorship.

I am worried about our families, friends, and community.

I am worried about the potential lose of progress and freedom from this Republican dream team.

I am worried.