What is on your mind

[JustLovelyJenn]

Its time to start some new to-do lists and take my life back again.

[cinnamongrrl]

I was driving somewhere new today, and saw this big ol building surrounded by high fences and looking all official. I figured it must be a prison; a minimum security prison but still. As I was going by though, I noticed there were school buses...and sure enough it was a school.

It just made me so sad...in today's world we need that kind of security in schools. So much for innocence and having complete trust in our fellow man...it is an epic loss.

[Mel C.]

Read the following today:

"Everyone grieves. Everyone in life is going to experience profound disappointment. We all have the opportunity to walk beside someone in crisis."

I have friends and family members going through "stuff" so this statement resonated with me. I would like provide the support my loved ones need. Actually, strangers can use support too...you never know how much an act of kindness can lift someone's spirit. I would also like to be better at letting other people show support to me.

This is what is on my mind...

[EnchantedNightDweller]

All the work I need to be doing but am too tired to do now.

[BrutalDaddy]

Hurry. The. Fuck. Up. With. My. Truck.

Seriously, how long does it take mechanics to do a maintenance on my damn truck.

No Patience,
Brute.

[Trev]

Too much to do. Not enough hours in the day :seeingstars:

[clay]

Our upcoming journey....:).....:praying:

[EmJay]

Thinking about how I'm not the only one going through a rough time, an ill loved one affects the whole family and I think I've been living in a bubble only thinking of myself. I need to change that.

[bobbi46]

Why do some ppl change when they get a partner??
Very strange:(

[~ocean]

~ I need an inspection sticker for my car ~ and I HATE the smell of gastations ~ the end of the month is in 3 days and 1 is a reg working day ~~ I don't want to goooo ~~ yes I am whining about this task......

[JustLovelyJenn]

There has been a lot on my mind lately. My summer has been a fast pace whirlwind of new folks and new experiences. As I have met all these amazing new people and talked with them and listened to them tell about their beliefs and their experiences it has helped me better define some of my own.

So... on my mind lately... are my ideas about religion.

I have for some time identified religiously as a Druid. Calling on the original meaning of the word "one who learns", believing that the journey of a truly spiritual person is never ending. That it is our responsibility to continually learn and adapt to new understanding and new experiences. I have also leaned strongly on something I was told early in my own journey. One of my first mentors told me "there are many paths that all lead to one end." This single piece of information has grown and changed as I have but it has continued to influence my beliefs. One conversation I had this summer came back around to this and for the first time in all my years of study I truly understood its importance.

In talking with an older trans gentleman I met this summer, our conversation was turned towards religion. While he is a Christian he has a very open mind (Yes, I know, many do. However, even more, it seems, do not.) The result of the conversation went something like this.

If there is one truly loving and all-powerful god, would He not choose to appear to each of his children in the form that would most benefit their existence? Therefore, the Gods of all cultures may be the same. If God tells his children that they can become as He is, then does logic not follow that there would be others who are like him, already? Does he not have a mother and father of his own? Brothers? Sisters? Aunts? Uncles? Cousins? Therefore, there may be more than one "god". And, if it would benefit His children to see deity through more than one form, would He not allow His brothers or sisters to help Him raise his children? Because we are "made in the image of god" we also know that there must be a Goddess, because it takes both male and female to create. On that logic, does it not also make sense that God would choose to protect the Goddess when a human society treats women with disrespect (Anglo-Saxon) and watch her flourish in a human society that reveres women (Native-American). Every religion tells stories of “miracles” and “magic”. There are stories in each culture of abilities that cannot be explained through science or current knowledge. Can we not then conclude that each of us contain a potential for the “unbelievable” that we choose to embrace by one word and shun by another.

The conclusion I came to as I went over this conversation in my mind is that we all believe in something. If we can take away the words, and the suspicion, and the stigma, we all believe the same. If more of us can open our eyes to the wonder that exists, no matter what it is called, perhaps we can learn to love as “god” intended, and embrace our brothers and sisters, and reach our greatest potential.

[EnchantedNightDweller]

I love my new job but I dislike working 12-hour days.:smileywhip:

[Kenna]

Going under the knife....

[JDeere]

Being proud of my college football team even if they lost, they played like hell against florida state

[Jesse]

My dad passed away this evening after a long difficult illness, so my thoughts are on him I guess. It's a double edged sword... I'll miss talking with him, but I am happy that he is no longer in pain. Journey well, dad!

[Kenna]

On my mind since late last Thursday thru the entire long weekend....I'm anxious for my doctor's office to open tomorrow so I can bug them by a phone call as soon as they open for a followup and a few other questions.

[Luv]

leaving my cousins house in Gallup,New Mexico and headed to Amarillo,Texas to see her mom who is my 1st cousin.Family time again!:byebye::byebye:

[Rockinonahigh]

Wishing I was sleeping instead of up on the puter but my back is grumpy,I took my pain pills and a mucle relaxer but i'm still up.

[cinnamongrrl]

Ive been thinking.....

As grateful as I am for this Asheville experience, being alone in it makes it feel very hollow....

[clay]

my sweet partner....who is with her mother...who is very, very terminal. I hurt for her and wish I could be there with them both....this is a very difficult aspect to life....but the positive is she is able to spend this quality time with her as she transitions.....

[MsTinkerbelly]

My dad passed away this evening after a long difficult illness, so my thoughts are on him I guess. It's a double edged sword... I'll miss talking with him, but I am happy that he is no longer in pain. Journey well, dad!

I am very sorry for your loss Jesse(f)

[Talon]

[I]Who ingested some "Frontline plus", early this morning..and is at the the local animal E.R..:olive:


And hopefully, his seizures will stop, soon./I]

[Kenna]

I want to shave my hair...buzzzzz cut!! So tired of this mess

[Kenna]

...the moon...
....the quiet stars...
...sitting on my private second floor deck...
...the cold night air kissing my bare skin....
...a New Year's celebration and what it previously meant to me....

[JustLovelyJenn]

Well... where to start.

... I need $3200 for a custody lawyer.
... We have to move in 3 weeks.... to I have no idea where.
... Someone needs to approve me for a home loan.
... First week of school went ok. But, how the hell do I balance everything now that the shit hit the fan?
... OH, and theres always the teaching program I need to start... that I am postponing now, again.
... Good things on my mind, too. Like the amazing woman I have been seeing for a little under a month.
... I need xanax...

[Kenna]

OMG!!! It's 3AM!! ...it felt more like midnight...

[clay]

who got a call early this am that her mother had passed away! She had just been with her for 8 days!! She has been quite ill for 2 weeks, while knowing her passing was imminent, it still hurts, dammit!....:candle:...:praying:
R.I.P. Ms. Lillian...I shall miss you!

[Kenna]

My new doctor requesting a spinal tap and a few other tests...I hate spinal taps so much that when I gave birth twice, I refused to have the spinal block.

[nekohl]

I found my dream home. A geodesic dome on 5 acres. Not far from my mom, same commute to work as I have now (just from a different direction) and with in the price range.
Called up the realtor, she gave me the skinny on the history and that it needs some repairs (excitement because I'm a DIY kind of girl)
I went up to peek in the windows today. And by "peek" I mean I climbed through one of the windows and went in. Hey, it was unlocked!....
"Some" repairs means total water damage, mold, no floors and the list goes on. This would go way out of my price range and know how.
Disappointed.

[Bèsame*]

I found my dream home. A geodesic dome on 5 acres. Not far from my mom, same commute to work as I have now (just from a different direction) and with in the price range.
Called up the realtor, she gave me the skinny on the history and that it needs some repairs (excitement because I'm a DIY kind of girl)
I went up to peek in the windows today. And by "peek" I mean I climbed through one of the windows and went in. Hey, it was unlocked!....
"Some" repairs means total water damage, mold, no floors and the list goes on. This would go way out of my price range and know how.
Disappointed.

I'm disappointed for you as well. However, your efforts of excitement, climbing thru the window were adventurous! Just watch...the real dream will show up when you least expect it.

[Mel C.]

My mom...Hoping she recovers from surgery soon.

people....some I expected to step up didnt. some I had no expectation of did.

perhaps I havent made the right choices for priorities.

[JDeere]

My mom...Hoping she recovers from surgery soon.

people....some I expected to step up didnt. some I had no expectation of did.

perhaps I havent made the right choices for priorities.

I will pray for you and your Mom. I hope she gets better really soon!

[JDeere]

What is on my mind?

The fact that my own birthmother acts the way she does, same goes with my half sister's. I am so beyond pissed at how they are acting about certain things, where the hell is the love?:blink:

And I need some chocolate!:eatinghersheybar:

[Kenna]

Hurry up September 17th....

[MasterfulButch]

- An insistent urge to distract myself with chocolate from...
- Preoccupation with whether or not it's realistic to dream of a single, compatible femme wandering into my life and welcoming my attention
- and Mental nagging that I should be working and not pontificating in a thread on Butch/Femme planet

[Queenie]

What is on my mind?

Well, damien rice has a new album out in like two months! Its been 8 years since his last album. Its like the best news ever!! Happy queenie!

[Charmingbutch21]

The loss of my dog, feeling helpless because I couldn't 'fix' him
How to remove negative people from my life "gently"
Questioning my faith in a higher power since I've been through so much this year and wondering if I'm being tested
Should I work from home today.
Work. So much if it.
School. Returning to finish.
Dating. The frustration of it.
Getting off my ass and doing something about all of the above.
Where to start with the aforementioned.

[Daktari]

Uke chords for lyrics by my bestie.

[uglyboi]

I avoid getting lettuce between my teeth when eating in public by swallowing it whole.

[SirenManda]

Lately I've been thinking a lot about death and passing over. I think the holidays coming up reminds me how many people I've lost and I can't speak to them (In the sense they can reply) and it gets to me. I have a firm belief in my faith that pain and suffering ends, and those left behind are to learn something from it. That's the hard part, finding a silver lining after someone leaves. Especially for those of us left behind.

[LeftWriteFemme]

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[TruTexan]

Sloppy Joe's and french fries for supper. Nom nom nom !!

[MasterfulButch]

I'm waiting for news on something important to me and have been since the start of August. At this rate I may have to wait for a while longer so need to find some patience from somewhere. Hmm.

[Bèsame*]

I'm waiting on baby news! Today is the day. Yay! Amazing what we can do with our phones...family and friends are on a group chat. It's like we are there. So today, I have the sound on..lol

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[Kobi]

My Mom. She is in the ER with a suspected heart attack. My brother who is there with her is the only living person in the USA who refuses to own a cell phone. The waiting is annoying.

Also on my mind is how much I despise lying in all its forms. It is something that makes me see red. I dont understand why people have the need to do it.

[Sweet Bliss]

The changes I'm making. :fastdraq:

[MasterfulButch]

I'm waiting for news on something important to me and have been since the start of August. At this rate I may have to wait for a while longer so need to find some patience from somewhere. Hmm.

Well, I found the patience but still didn't get the answer I wanted. Bummer. Tomorrow I'll start thinking about a plan B but for now... pah.

[Kenna]

I've been going full steam ahead each day this week, to get upcycled projects done and house/farm chores... and I've got my sleep patterns off path from staying up all night last night to star gaze and watch the eclipse...

I got too carried away with projects-n-stuff, and didn't take care of myself very well, by neglecting to eat correctly during the day...tonight's dinner was great but I am feeling the effects of neglecting my self care. My new doctor is gonna kick my butt.

I need to start to balance things out better, since I'm trying to be more active (pushing past the physical pain my back causes) to get things accomplished. I can't live on sweet tea during the day!

[Kenna]

I wanna go back to bed...
The sun is streaming through my window, the only sound is birds singing, my hand stitched quilt is heavy, soft and comforting...even the dogs are quiet...
Kitchen still smells like pecan honey butter and toasted English muffins...
Ummm...I'm gonna lay back against my pillow, pull my quilt back over my air-chilled bare skin...and totally relax to the thought of your warm hands caressing my entire body, starting at the tender places under my breasts...slowly working your way to.....more tender places ;)

[Kenna]

Firefly Theme Song

Main Title Theme Written by: Joss Whedon
Performed by: Sonny Rhodes

Take my love, take my land
Take me where I cannot stand
I don't care, I'm still free
You can't take the sky from me
Take me out to the black
Tell them I ain't comin' back
Burn the land and boil the sea
You can't take the sky from me
There's no place I can be
Since I found Serenity
But you can't take the sky from me...

[ONLY]

Again..... SS if you have started to read, STOP!!!! , you can read after the wedding lol

Well we did get the validation from the province and they grant us permission to marry :) (I won't believe we are married until we officially say I DO! and even then....with all the crap we have to go through to be together is insane, probably always be worried that someone/something will take it away :( )

Also have to continue with all our immigration papers so SS (f) can become a permanent resident (THAT is a whole other story, complicate AND overwhelming)

Hotel room is booked :)

Had my eye surgery and so far so good :)

My work contract, well the position has become permanent but I will still have to apply and HOPE that I get it (all depends on seniority and I have plenty but still......never know)

Still have to get our "script" to our officiant, we still want to relook at it before we send it in.

Okay I will leave it at that, it enough for now ;)

Feel free to read now SS (f) :)

What is on my mind......I AM FINALLY MARRIED TO THE WOMAN I LOVE :) as of Saturday, September 20th. It will be a day/night I will remember for the next 65+ years ;) I will say, I did not get to see SS (f) until she stepped through that fence.....WOW! She was absolutely STUNNING!!!!! She took my breath away and made my heart skip a beat, BEAUTIFUL!!!!!


also on my mind is how GREAT it is to now be PERMANENT at my job :hangloose: I have benefits, paid holidays, pension etc SO GREAT!!!!

Always on my mind is when will my WIFE (f) & I be living in the same home.....immigration....so much do to and LONG wait time.....:(

[nekohl]

My sister's foster kids stay is up. The court said they go back with their grandmother. So she packed up all their stuff and and the social service girl picked them up. We are all pretty sad about it :(

My sister said the hardest part was watching her son cry when they left. He had become pretty attached and reveled in having "little brothers"

I hope those two boys take all the love we gave them and carry it with them as long as they can. Bless them.

[JDeere]

Glad being back in my hometown! Enjoying much needed quiet time!

[Bèsame*]

How did I become an infamous member?

[JDeere]

Wanting to get another tattoo!

[firegal]

Sometimes life isn't so easy!

Sometimes life is good when it's challenging

Sometimes I love life when I don't announce it.

[Kenna]

Damn new pain pills with caffeine in them...all week my sleep patterns have been thrown off...now this. No wonder the bottle says don't take more than 2 in 24 hours..

[Kenna]

I should not have taken that benadryl earlier today...it made me sleep...now I'm exhausted and can't sleep.

[Blaze]

Visited a old friend on another site. Why do people post 5, 10 year old pictures? I'm in the moment now, I never understood why you can't just show you as you are now. Your still beautiful.

[JDeere]

Having to go back to Durant tomorrow, I truly don't want to go.

[Kenna]

Self care.....

[Blade]

The white squirrel I saw at the Angel Tree yesterday. It's very rare to see one in the wild. He wasn't an albino, just white. I want to go back with the big camera and try to get some pictures of him.

[Rockinonahigh]

Finely feeling better after three days of feeling like crap,please let it stay this way...I don't like being sick.

[QueenofSmirks]

Poker! :)


...............

[JDeere]

Moving or taking another trip to see family back in Texas

[Smiling]

Things that ought not be and are naturally are the most captivating. ;)

[Leigh]

Just thinking about my future: the new job I start on Monday, getting my health back under control, starting back to the gym and loving the changes I've started making so far are all on my mind tonight

[cinnamongrrl]

My little sister...

She's having so many life troubles...and she and my mom are doing the love hate dance that I went through in my teens....

Theirs is a complicated relationship and my sister has a LOT going on....most of which I disapprove of... but I won't be our mother and say that (to her) I just tell anyone that will listen I love my sister. I may not unseratand whyvshe doea what she does but its her life not mine....and I lovr her no matter what. And i told her that tonight....

[JDeere]

She is but that happens often nowadays!

Yup just that !

[grenade]

Wondering what crazy dream I will have tonight. I had a nightmare last night. The night before it was a coworker telling me to swallow a button and I would get better. I woke up confused and looking for a button to swallow.

[Bèsame*]

ummm...hello...was I suppose to get a number? Am I next in line?

[JDeere]

Wouldn't you like to know? :p

[Kenna]

I'm really worn out.
My batteries need recharged.
I need to surround myself with positive energy.

[JDeere]

Tattoos and piercings!

Thinking about what font I am going to use for my quote tat and what gauge I need to restart gauging my ear with.

[AnnRkey]

My paper that is due at noon that is almost done and my paper that is due at midnight...that I have not started on. I just need to make it through today and the rest of the week should be easy beans.

[Kenna]

I'm exhausted. Hope I get to sleep in tomorrow.

[Sweet Bliss]

Roomie picked out a yellow lab puppy today. Even more work for me....geezus.:|

[Kenna]

1 early morning doctor apt tomorrow then an MRI at the hospital...thank goodness the offices are just a couple miles apart...
A specialist apt on the 6th...
A different specialist for a different part of my anatomy next week...
Yet another different doctor the following week...

Then for December, so far, just 2 appointments with my new pain management doc and primary care...

My new doctor really ROCKS!! She doesn't dilly-dally or wait on fighting insurance approvals for a 3 minute visit, and is intent on getting things moving fast with lab work and specialists, to focus on everything I need (instead of just brushing things off). ...

On my mind ...how much is happening, how fast, and I may need a scheduling specialist to help me keep up. But I feel awesome about it, and how I found someone I really click with!

[JDeere]

HA! I can't tell but I like to tease people about what is on my mind!

[Talon]

I helped a guy friend of mine get a job and a car...if he fucks it up this time...I love ya truly, but I'm done...:formalbow:

[Daktari]

The responsibility of walking alongside another.

[Kenna]

Where's my cuddle buddy? I wanna lay down for a nap and I need someone (human or furbaby) that's like a hot rock to warm me up. ;) ;)

[JDeere]

Having to move back in with my folks, health issues with my dad is the main reason and my mom can't do it all.

[Okiebug61]

Hoping everyone that is registered to vote, understands how important tomorrow is. Please let you voice be heard and vote.

[Gemme]

Pressure.

I love that my supervisor seems to think that I've got super powers or skills that allow me to be in multiple places at the same time, but I am but a mere mortal and there's no. fucking. way.

[Blade]

Counting sheep goodnight

[starryeyes]

My girlfriend!! I got home from my trip to a very sick girlfriend and she's now in the hospital. She should be out in a few days. She's lucky I came home because her stubborn ass wasn't going to do anything.

At the same time, my work is working me to the bone :/ Today, 13 hour day, tomorrow 14 hour day. I was able to go to the hospital at 6am for a few hours, but I don't know if I can make it tomorrow. Totally sucks. I feel like a bad girlfriend but I just took a week off my reg job for my side job and I can't afford to take more time off. She understands though. :(

This is absolutely crazy, but I am seriously considering a career change.

[EnchantedNightDweller]

As I was getting ready, I began thinking about one of my students. I've been thinking about him a lot. Several times, when I'm trying to teach him to read or write, he tells me, "My dad says I can't read," or "my dad says I can't do it." Each time he says it, it's like someone is driving a knife through my heart. And just now, it occurred to me why. I was that same kid.

[Talon]

That I could *never* date an actor.....I'm sorry, but.....yeah, no.

[ProfPacker]

Love my job but I see that I won't have a life until December 31. I am for the first time where I am supposed to be professionally, respected by my superiors I go to work without angst (is this possible in the Jewish community to be free on angst somewhere in your life?) thought it came with the territory.

Need to work all weekend but problems keeps on coming up with registration for next Spring and the Chair and I have to fix them immediately. Plus preparing for classes and everything else. Hard to find the femme of my dreams with so little time...lol:readfineprint:

[A. Spectre]

cat is as old as methuselah, mom left him to me when she passed. he is not moving well today and not able to keep his food down.

age is somewhere between 16 and 20, not me the cat

[A. Spectre]

taxidermy. what is it good for - absolutely nothin

[SleepyButch]

So I'm lying here on my bed and got to thinking about the important topic of the day... why are my eyebrows still dark when the top of my head is almost all white? I know... you were thinking the same thing right?

So I looked it up and found a podcast called Ask the Naked Scientist. I started listening and it said that the reason we lose the color of our head hair is because the hair follicles that color the hair contain melanocytes and these are the cells that add melanin, the dark color to hair.

For some reason and not uniformly across the head, these melanocytes clap out after awhile and stop adding melanin to the hair so hair reverts back to its natural color which is white because it's made of keratin and the color of keratin is white.

So their theory is that the eyebrow hair grows more slowly than your head hair and are under less pressure so the melanocytes don't expire as quickly.

It's interesting. I guess I never really thought about it but it makes sense.

[Redsunflower]

I'm sat here pondering the last couple of weeks and a certain individual who has entered my life.

I always wanted a relationship where we could take our time and get to know one another. I craved something more slow paced and a bit more civilized than the head-spinning madness that usually happens at the start.

Now that I have it, I appear to have changed my mind. Apparently I now want to be pursued, adored and have silly, unmanageable amounts of attention lavished upon me.

God I'm fickle.

And not a little confused.

:seeingstars:

[JustLovelyJenn]

Having your heart broken hurts like hell... I feel kind of numb right now.

maybe retail therapy and a night on the town will help.

[JDeere]

A lot is on my mind but too much to post!

[cinnamongrrl]

The treatment of our elderly in this country...

I won't go into details and get all soapboxy...but...I will say...

Please cherish your elderly parents and grandparents. If you have family members in assisted living or a nursing home, please visit. Send cards, bring snacks. Take them out to lunch if they're able. These things matter SO MUCH to them. They need to not feel forgotten. And they want to know they still matter.

That is all...

[ProfPacker]

thinking of ways to be true to myself and others and loving and caring.

[Jae]

I am looking for friends in Georgia cuz it sure is lonely down here

[Orema]

Work. It's my busiest time of the year and there are less that 8 weeks left till January. I'm already turning down requests, but people are being unusually gracious. I hope this lasts for the next few weeks.

Music. I want to hear holiday music and I never want to hear it before Thanksgiving. Not sure what's up with that but I'll probably play Charlie Brown holiday music when I get in the office.

Ferguson, Missouri. Governor Nixon is only making things worse.

[Gemme]

This. (http://autos.aol.com/article/parents-angry-after-motorist-who-ran-over-3-year-old-has-tickets/?icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl7%7Csec1_lnk2%26pLid%3D561969)

A motorist in NY ran over and killed a toddler. The motorist was issued two tickets at the scene and has since had BOTH tickets dismissed. Unless the wrongful death suit pans out, there will be no repercussions for this person killing a 3 year old.

That's what's on my mind; the cost of human life nowadays.

[Daktari]

How impatient I am when waiting for something

The wonderful ways of the universe.

[Wrang1er]

My cousin.

She's been gone 3 years but I had a dream about her Sunday night. In the dream I ran into her and although I thought she had died she hadn't but had been in hiding for 3 years. I asked why but didn't get an answer. She seemed to be in a hurry. I woke up feeling yucky and it's been on my mind since.

[JDeere]

My dad. He is being non compliant with his medical team.

[Logicaly]

I know that feeling. My dad won't even see a medical anything.

My dad. He is being non compliant with his medical team.

As for what's on my mind...I hope I have all the tools I need in order to build my dresser.

[JDeere]

I know that feeling. My dad won't even see a medical anything.



As for what's on my mind...I hope I have all the tools I need in order to build my dresser.

Glad I'm not alone. It's starting to take a toll on my mom, she is beyond mad.

[Smiling]

Approximately a hour ago, I awoke to a telephone call inviting me to an interview this Friday morning.

[Kenna]

After today's long drive through crazy Charlotte...a draining, emotional, stressful meeting with a new specialist...then long drive back through crazy Charlotte ....I'm ready for a few days of movie marathons and activities to help me "zone out"...

[Sassy]

Cold weather, autumn breezes and I've got the blues. This time of year hits me harder than most. Holidays are coming up and I can't decide what would be worse, seeing my family and enduring the drama, or not seeing my family and feeling estranged. Ugh.

[Bèsame*]

The power of words, backed up with actions.

[JustLovelyJenn]

Work is on my mind.

Change is coming. The teacher I have been working under for the better part of the last five years is retiring... in the middle of the year. Its going to be a difficult transition, both for the team (there are 5 paras in our program, including myself) and for the autistic students we work with. Its a brand new program. We just started it this year and so many of our staff members are new to us.

I am pretty worried about who her replacement will be. Her last day is in a week and a half, and they havent hired anyone new yet! How scary is that!!

I am the only para in our program who knows everything for every student and every para schedule. So, when push comes to shove... if someone new comes in late... I have to teach them the ropes.... no pressure or anything.

[Blaze]

The number 9, and tomorrow the number 8 and so on. .. once it gets to number 1, she will find out what being the One really means.

[JDeere]

Not being able to travel to go to my godfather's funeral. It is weighing very heavily on my mind and heart, I am thinking that I shouldn't let it bother me so much, but it does.

[Blade]

Big day tomorrow, need to get a lot done

[JDeere]

Too much to really type, my brain is overactive at this moment!

[Bèsame*]

Somehow the upcoming shopping days I need to prepare for are pale to the Holiday activities that are on my mind.

[MysticOceansFL]

A few things.

[SleepyButch]

When I got up this morning, while entering the bathroom, I saw myself in the mirror, which got me to thinking. What the hell am I doing when I am sleeping to get my hair/bedhead to stick up in odd places? Hmmmm

[ProfPacker]

good question, SB

On my mind is up coming holiday, 4 days of rest (OK, Thursday cooking might not be rest to some, but it is for me)

End of semester is like 4 weeks away, yay.

[Cailin]

the now, double thanksgiving meal preparing for 2 different sets of the family.

[nekohl]

I'm running in the "Drumstick Dash" 5k on Thursday. It is supposed to be snowing that day.

Soooo, am I dedicated enough to run in snow????

But, am I dedicated enough to run in the snow at the crack of dawn on Thanksgiving??????

[Talon]

Being asked by two of my friends to be their daughter's godmother.
I'm just incredibly touched and honored.

[Tommi]

I'm going to skip Novembers from now on. Go from Halloween to Christmas like the retail world.

My Tigger girl kitty of 17 years crossed the Rainbow Bridge Nov. 21
Novembers past, my Mom passed away, Nov.2'nd, my Gramma Nov. 11', and my brother committed suicide at 16 the day before Thanksgiving, then the old man died the day after Thanksgiving the following year.

Probably some finite cosmic string connecting the lives of those once In my life.
Hmmm, wondering what it's all about Alfie.

[Kenna]

Hopefully the sun comes out so I can grill dinner

[Jesse]

The storm that seems to be sitting just over the top of my house.

[MsTinkerbelly]

A lot has been going on, but i felt awful when i remembered that i had forgotten our 12 year anniversary of our first date.

Twelve years...so much has happened in those years...life, love, loss, sadness, and such incredible joy.

May we have many more years together. :hangloose:

[Gemme]

The storm that seems to be sitting just over the top of my house.

Don't be silly.

It's sitting on top of I 95.

Eventually it will head my way. I'd rather you kept it.

At least you only get rain.

We'll get rain and snow and freezing weather.

Sure you don't wanna keep it just a lil longer?

[Femmadian]

Lately, spurred on by what's happening in Ferguson and also within the human world at large, I've been thinking a lot about the role of media in my life as well as the need for hope and perspective.

bi2RJdKTHC0

I was re-watching some clips of an old interview with the late, great folk singer and activist Utah Phillips (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Utah_Phillips) by Democracy Now's Amy Goodman and it both stimulated my mind and helped me regain a bit of perspective in the whirlwind and make it through the day. While I may not agree with everything he says and certainly respect everyone's right to disagree, I still wanted to share it with anyone who may be interested and hopefully extend a teaspoon (http://www.shakesville.com/2008/06/teaspoons.html) to anyone who needs it. :)

[JDeere]

How I really don't want to spend time with family tomorrow.

[Cailin]

How I really don't want to spend time with family tomorrow.





it depends on the family for me. I cherish every moment with my sister and her family. My brother, not so much.

[Cailin]

all the cooking that has to be done tomorrow.

i'm really hoping to get most of it done tonight.

[Kenna]

This time of year is always hard for me...I miss Momma D and both my boys so much

[nekohl]

One of my patients recently broke up with her girlfriend. She came in yesterday not looking too good. Turns out her ex beat her up the night before.
I didn't know what to say to her.
I let her tell me what happened, but I had no wise words of wisdom to offer.

I wish I knew what to say.

[SleepyButch]

I cannot believe it's Thanksgiving! How did we get to this point so quickly? The next thing you know, it will be the December Holidays and then 2015.

I'm thinking about a lot this morning. We have a very small family here in Oklahoma. Last year our Thanksgiving consisted of my parents, my two sisters, brother, brother-in-law, nephew, niece, and her fiancé. That's not a bad turnout. My sister cooked the turkey and the stuffing and I cooked everything else. It was a good time.

Well, this year is much different. It will just be my parents, myself, and my brother My older sister, my brother-in-law, and my nephew hit the road last night to go camping in Galveston for the long weekend. My twin sister has gone off the deep end this year and now lives in Houston as of last month. My niece and her fiancé will be at her father's house. I don't think it's ever been this small.

I told my mom that I would cook everything this year and as of last week, that was going to happen. But she informed me this past weekend that they wanted to go out to dinner instead. I was a bit disappointed because who doesn't love eating all of that homemade food? But it's really not about the meal as it is about the people you are spending it with.

So that brings me to what I am grateful for... I am most grateful that my parents are still here with us. I am grateful for the rest of my family as well, even though I may not be very happy with one of them right now.

I am grateful for my friends, especially my BFFs C and L. (you know who you are). Without you two, over the last three months, I would have been a permanent visitor in a padded room. I am grateful for my Austin friends who have taken me under their wing and shown me what true unconditional friendship is.

I am grateful to have a job in which I can work at home and make my own hours. I am grateful for my two pups who give me unconditional love every single day, no matter what I look like or the mood I'm in. I am grateful for my own health. Last but not least, I am grateful for this site and the people on it, which is a place I can come to where people actually get me. Not sure what I would do without it. I may not know most of you in person but a lot of you bring me joy through your posts of in chat. So thank you for that.

I'm sure I'm missing some things but I think this is long enough already and breakfast is ready so I have to go eat.

I'll leave it and say Happy Thanksgiving. Be grateful for what you have even the smallest of things as you never know when things might change.

[Daktari]

Where to find an adult scooter with larger, pneumatic tyres, and a handlebar brake.

[KayCee]

That I finally need to finish the song I composed...somehow the lyrics don't fit..hmmm

[JDeere]

it depends on the family for me. I cherish every moment with my sister and her family. My brother, not so much.

I apologize I didn't see this till now!

I cherish my family but it brings to light that I have another family, I have yet to spend a holiday with along with my birthmother!

[Candelion]

...the more you like pears, the longer they take to ripen.

[Vivacious1]

What is on my mind is that my feet are freezing and I am looking for my fuzzy socks, I think they are in my covers somewhere... oh brother!

[SleepyButch]

I remember as a kid watching Rudolph the red nosed reindeer. I could never understand why there was an elf who was a dentist and why they had the island of misfit toys. Those toys kind of freaked me out actually. As an adult, I get why they used the misfits because after all, wasn't Rudolph a misfit? I never wanted to watch it because of that island. Not sure why I am thinking of this but I am.

http://www.sherv.net/cm/emo/christmas/3d-rudolph.gif

[kittygrrl]

http://www.sherv.net/cm/emo/christmas/3d-rudolph.gif

Is it ok if I borrow him?? He's very cute!

[Candelion]

A wolf in sheep's clothing is a pleasant surprise! Hooooowl!!

[SleepyButch]

http://www.sherv.net/cm/emo/christmas/3d-rudolph.gif

Is it ok if I borrow him?? He's very cute!

Sureeeee... Here is another one if you want it...


http://heathersanimations.com/xmas17/rte45.gif

[firegal]

My election.

[CherryWine]

I always try to watch the old Ruldolph TV special every year. It brings back some of those great childhood Christmas memories. Never too old for that. :)

[JDeere]

Trying to find peace within myself was harder than I thought.

[firegal]

SHEESE you got an hour :|

[girl_dee]

How i am finally feeling better after being so so sick and feeling like that episode may have finished me off. I've never been so sick in my life.

How life is too short to live with regrets

How i must have more work to do

I'm tired.

Time for work.

[jools66]

Thinking about all those ppl I cherish, and have lost touch with over the years.
And all the ppl I have in my life that I cherish now. Even those I may not agree with but love just the same.
Love to all of them xx

[JustLovelyJenn]

I'm thinking about how awesome my date went last night.

[starryeyes]

I saw that Michigan house passed another fucking religious freedom bill that gives Christians the right to discriminate anyone that isn't christian (mostly aimed at Gays) the headline stated "Bill will give EMTs the right to refuse treating Gays". Seriously!? It's now going to the senate where it will hopefully die.

I am just so throughly disgusted right now. I don't even know what to say. With everything happening in our country at this moment, I feel like we have regressed 100 years. It's an extremely sad time, but also a very important time to keep on fighting. We can make this stop.

That's on my mind.

[Gemme]

A man crawled into bed with a woman and pretended to be her husband. She played along and said she had to go to the bathroom and then snuck out to the living room where her actual husband was sleeping and they creeped out of the apartment. The guy still hasn't been caught yet.

The moral to the story?

Lock your damn doors, people.

Seriously.

The guy waltzed in through the unlocked front door.

They both could have been killed.

[Kenna]

Lidoderm patches...why can't they stay where you put them?

[girl_dee]

How imperfect i am. Seriously, 50 years of fuck ups and bottoming out all wrapped up here. My life has been jumping out the pan into the fire, maybe I like the burning part, but I sure don't like the dusting myself off part.

How I make the wrong choices, but live with them, and should learn from them, not sure about that part, but I do move on. I am grateful for the help I've received along the way.

How happy i am living alone, and need to stay that way, and maybe I should adopt a friend for dixi.

How I will always strive to be a better me. Work in progress. At least I can admit when I make mistakes, I've had a lot of practice!

How I just don't care what anyone thinks anymore. Life is too short and I want those who I care about to know I do. People who know my heart know that I am at least a good person, who makes stupid mistakes and is at the very least, good hearted.

That I need to enjoy my peace before my sister comes to live here!

[starryeyes]

Another beautiful child has committed suicide for being relentlessly taunted because of who they are. When is enough going to be enough!?

I don't even know what to say :(

http://www.queerty.com/bullied-to-death-12-year-old-male-cheerleader-commits-suicide-because-of-classmates-20141205

[EnchantedNightDweller]

I'm so tired of observations and mentoring - I feel like I'm being poked and prodded endlessly. :seeingstars:

[Bèsame*]

I have been stopped dead in my tracks. I've broken three sewing needles. I suppose that's a sign I need heavy duty ones.

That means I have to get dressed and go get them. No one around here is offering..lol

[CherryWine]

This morning I tried to be nice and strike up a conversation with one of my coworkers by asking her if her house had sold yet. It had. Congrats was given.

She then carried on for quite a while about how stressful the process of selling the house was for her and her husband, how stressful it was finding the perfect private school for her son to attend, and how stressful it will be finding the perfect house close enough to the perfect school. All the while, I am nodding along. Then she says, "It is just stressful being a grown up! One day you will understand!" Oh really, now? Will I? Boy, I sure do appreciate this sage reassurance from a person who is ONE year older than me. I just bit my tongue, smiled a big smile, told her good luck with everything, and retreated back to my sandbox...er, I mean office.

The same coworker has previously insinuated that until a person has a child, he or she cannot possibly know what it feels like to experience a fulfilled life. To her, maybe that is what makes her feel like she has a fulfilled life. If so, then good for her! Although, I am not so sure how fulfilled she really is considering that I always see her comparing herself to the only other coworker close to our age. A coworker who has a bigger house, nicer car, thinner body, two cute kids, and is always dressed up to the nines. For me, that has always proven to be a surefire way to make me feel unfulfilled and unhappy...by comparing myself to others. I don't do that anymore, and it sure is freeing.

It troubles me how so many women look down on themselves or others because they haven't achieved the goals that society has set for them since they were little girls. It troubles me that so many of them did not even give these preconceived goals a second thought. Never even questioned them, just reached for them at all costs to the detriment of who knows what. Maybe they really are happy. I certainly know many who are! I also know some who just put on the happy face and go through the motions of what is expected.

I feel certain that I am preaching (or rambling) to the choir here, but this is what has been on my mind today.

[JDeere]

How someone can just dismiss other people's feelings so easily.

[girl_dee]

What is on my mind is how awesome this little community is.

Chatting last night and how 2 of us went back over 12 years and have now met in real life...

How i can't wait to see everyone again

[~ocean]

It troubles me how so many women look down on themselves or others because they haven't achieved the goals that society has set for them since they were little girls. It troubles me that so many of them did not even give these preconceived goals a second thought. Never even questioned them, just reached for them at all costs to the detriment of who knows what. Maybe they really are happy. I certainly know many who are! I also know some who just put on the happy face and go through the motions of what is expected.

I feel certain that I am preaching (or rambling) to the choir here, but this is what has been on my mind today.
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hi cherry ~ I agree some woman do dismiss the alternative and yet some are living there lives to their fullest ~ what I would like for YOU to know is I respect you and every woman who knows their own selves ~ as to what they want in their lives ~ I wanted to be a mother so I became one ~ non conventional ~ is it the only life I ever wanted ?~ absolutely not ~ I also achieved a career ~ as the ole saying states to they own self be true ~ enjoy your Holidays w/ your beautiful smile ~ spread that smile around grl ! ~

[JDeere]

My sister's wedding and my high school 20th year reunion coming up in April and June of 2015, I have not prepared for this but I guess it is time for me to do so.

Gotta find some money to pay for everything for the reunion and get the correct fitting shirt for the wedding.

[RockOn]

sex ...... all night long ..... is there any other kind?

[Kenna]

Thinking....bagels...cream cheese and strawberry jam...
But damn it's cold

[JustLovelyJenn]

We get to look at our new house today for the first time...

[cinnamongrrl]

My brain is a busy place....but what I need right now is to just breath.....my brain can make me crazy if I don't just take moments to just zen out....

[bright_arrow]

An airline ticket in January :ohm:

[JDeere]

Needing more opportunities to talk to my birth mother.

[girl_dee]

the holidays are not a good time for everyone

For some it can be hard and isolating

For some the financial burdens are too much

no one really knows what a person is struggling with

[Bèsame*]

A big visit at work today. I'm so ready, but I always get that visit anxiety. Then later, I think, piece of cake!


Also, looking at the calendar and counting down the days....

[Orema]

The next International Jazz Festival in Panama.

http://www.pancanal.com/eng/pr/press-releases/images/310-lge.jpg

I'm also thinking about work, but thinking about live music is more fun.

[KayCee]

How much I miss a really good conversation :/

[Daktari]

Whether to risk going out for a pot of tea and tonight's meeting for the first time since being 'proper poorly'.

[Logicaly]

The millions of bags and boxes around my room. I need to wrap presents, and unpack some more boxes to make more room. Oh, and I need to do laundry, but this rain, it just won't quit!

[SleepyButch]

With the holidays upon us, I've been thinking a lot about what the next special person in my life will be like.... physically and non-physically. What color will her hair be? How tall will she be? Will she have nice feet? Will she be funny and witty? etc...

I imagine if she is going to be special to me that she will laugh at my stupid jokes, find my sarcasm charming most of the time, and find me cute, even first thing in the morning when she may have wanted to sleep in and yet I accidentally woke her up.

It can sometimes be hard being single during the holidays. I wax and wane with it. Sure I will save money on gifts but I enjoy making someone feel special in this way.

I think about when we will find each other knowing that when and if it's meant to happen, it will. Wonder if I'll be single next year at this time. Just a lot of hmmmms going on in my head.

Anyway, that's what I've been thinking. Once the holidays are over, I probably won't give this topic as much thought.

[JDeere]

the holidays are not a good time for everyone

For some it can be hard and isolating

For some the financial burdens are too much

no one really knows what a person is struggling with

So true dee, not everyone really knows who is struggling with what.

[JustLovelyJenn]

someone I am seeing... who is a bit of a conundrum to me... I wish I had a little window into his head sometimes.

[Bèsame*]

A big visit at work today. I'm so ready, but I always get that visit anxiety. Then later, I think, piece of cake!


Also, looking at the calendar and counting down the days....


http://www.myhappyenglish.com/x9walos9f/uploads/2014/06/Episode-19-A-Piece-Of-Cake-English-Idioms-Lesson.jpg


and 14 days

[MysticOceansFL]

A few things

[Daniela]

With the holidays upon us, I've been thinking a lot about what the next special person in my life will be like.... physically and non-physically. What color will her hair be? How tall will she be? Will she have nice feet?

LOL, your description was vague until the oddly specific "Will she have nice feet?" Is there a foot fetish you want to confess to? :sock::sock:

[SleepyButch]

LOL, your description was vague until the oddly specific "Will she have nice feet?" Is there a foot fetish you want to confess to? :sock::sock:

The fact that I love feet is no secret, which is why I threw that in there lol.

[Talon]

I just do not know how I'm going to get everything done by Christmas Eve...between all the cooking, shopping, socializing, and planning...ect. :seeingstars:

[Kenna]

I miss Hershey Park's Christmas lights....and taking my son for hot chocolate and cinnamon buns after we did the walking tour through Boiling Springs.

[Daniela]

Apropos of nothing:

I'm wondering how people ride the subway without removing their coats/scarves/etc. Even when it's below freezing in the dead of winter, it gets so hot on subway platforms. I'm jealous of people who don't turn into a hot mess, because I always do.

NY people – how do you do it? I'm an Atlanta transplant, so all tips are appreciated!

[cinnamongrrl]

My eldest daughter turns 21 today.....I was her age when I had her....just seems like yesterday she was just a baby....and had to hold my hand to cross the street....I may be a bit weepy today....

[LeftWriteFemme]

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[Kenna]

Had a visit with my primary care doc today. I am much relieved that she reversed the decision of the specialist and will not be putting me on Plaquenil at this time (one of the frequent, serious side effects is blindness... that's very scary to me)....however, she has decided to send me to a new specialist that's over three hours away. She's a damn good doctor and is doing everything she can to help. I trust her...but am frustrated at the last specialist.

Tomorrow is a long morning with a different doctor for a different issue...I need strength and patience.

[Talon]

That I am conflicted....and yet oddly detached from the outcome.

[MysticOceansFL]

Many things and excited about the new year

[TIMBERWOLF]

http://indiancountrytodaymedianetwork.com/2014/12/16/video-proves-santa-claus-coming-town-best-sung-navajo-158322

[Daniela]

I hate the name of Pantone's color of the year for 2015

http://www.pantone.com/images/COY/2015/pages-Main/Pantone_Introducing_Color_of_the_Year_Marsala_bann er.jpg

[Kobi]

Canadian driver jailed for deaths caused by stopping for ducks:

OTTAWA (Reuters) - A Canadian woman was sentenced to 90 days in jail on Thursday for causing two deaths in 2010 when she stopped her car on a Quebec highway to help a group of ducklings crossing the road.

Emma Czornobaj had been convicted in June of two counts each of criminal negligence and dangerous driving causing death.

According to media reports on Thursday, Czornobaj stopped her car abruptly in the passing lane of a highway south of Montreal when she saw the ducklings. The motorcycle behind Czornobaj's car then crashed into her vehicle, killing the 50-year-old man driving the motorcycle and his 16-year-old daughter.

"I just wanted to pick all these ducklings up and put them in my car," Czornobaj had testified during her trial. "I know it was a mistake."

The jail time will be served on the weekends. Czornobaj was also sentenced to 240 hours of community service, probation and banned from driving for 10 years.

Prosecutors had sought a nine-month jail sentence.

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I want to know what happened to the ducks.

[CherryWine]

It is awful that two people were killed, but I don't know a single person who would just plow over a group of ducklings. Most people would instinctively stop. I'm sure the lady would have done differently if she had known it would cause a fatal accident. Seems a bit harsh. And, yes, hopefully the ducklings were okay, too.

[Gemme]

It is awful that two people were killed, but I don't know a single person who would just plow over a group of ducklings. Most people would instinctively stop. I'm sure the lady would have done differently if she had known it would cause a fatal accident. Seems a bit harsh. And, yes, hopefully the ducklings were okay, too.

I have to disagree with you on this.

She was in the LEFT lane on a busy highway. She could have moved her car to the right lane, parked on the shoulder and then tried to help the ducklings. But she stopped her car. Suddenly. In the LEFT LANE. No warning.

You can't tell me she didn't know the shit storm she was starting. Two innocent people died because of the natural selection moment that should have been hers.

A motorcycle has a better chance of maneuvering around small, fast moving creatures than a four wheeler does anyway.

Even though speed was a factor, I feel hard-pressed to believe that they would have died if her car wasn't there.

I think the 90 day sentence is laughable. I like the 10 year driving ban though.

I'm with Kobi. I want to know what happened to the ducklings.

[girlin2une]

Family....

[girl_dee]

Waking up at exactly 12:34 and being so wide awake

[Smiling]

lol, well I can forget about getting that job. I didn't anticipate being so thrown off by a phone interview; ugh. Mercifully, I was put out of my misery quickly.

Definitely not one of my finest moments. (w)

[Daniela]

lol, well I can forget about getting that job. I didn't anticipate being so thrown off by a phone interview; ugh. Mercifully, I was put out of my misery quickly.

Definitely not one of my finest moments. (w)

Maybe you would've hated working there, so really it's just a blessing in disguise? And this only leaves you available for the job you really want.

:flowers:

[theoddz]

Okay, so I've been a Respiratory Therapist for 26 years now. For all these years, I've worked to help people to breathe better. I've held handswith scared patients and family members, used ventilators as "bridges" to save lives from respiratory and cardiac crisis/disease and as end of life life support. I've educated patients and family members about respiratory and heart disease, held babies as young as 24 weeks in my hands while delivering serfanctant therapy and maintained their ventilators. I've also sat through countless patient care plan meetings and been a part of the discharge planning team. I've been a key member of an Advanced Life Support/Code team, done countless chest compressions, inserted many, many endotracheal tubes, arterial lines and bagged thousands of patients, both young and old. I've been at the deathbeds of adults, children and babies. I've held many a cold hand as the last breath of life escaped a patient's lips. I've lost count of how many "flat lines" I've seen on a monitor. I've been puked on, coughed on, grabbed, kicked and hugged. I've lost a lot of shoes and clothing to everything from chest/pleural fluid, to vomit, feces and urine.

I am now retired from all that. Away from the death, dying and suffering. Away, to, from the joys of seeing folks recover and go back to the business of living. Away from the friends I've worked alongside for so many years and all the smiles, laughter, tears, frustrations......and hugs.

Thing is, I'm not done YET. :twitch:

Our 9 y/o sweet male blond tabbycat, Henry, has asthma. Looks like I'll be returning to the world of Respiratory Therapy!!! I now have to teach Henry to use a Metered Dose Inhaler, or AeroKat. :|

This should be very, very interesting, indeed. :twitch:

dH4k_dOdNbY

~Theo~ :bouquet:.....Retired???? Who's retired???? :|

[Kenna]

I want to go camping by the lake for several days for my birthday...enjoying a hot spiced apple cider while cuddled up next to a nice fire...watching the eagles scoop fish from the lake, soaking up the sunshine and listening to the water lap at the rocky banks of the lake as I watch the stunning sunset...the sounds and scents of nature and forest around me...and maybe getting to watch fireworks over the water as someone celibrates the new year.

[Daniela]

This makes me so angry:

Someone Wrote 'Erotica' About a Video Game Designer Getting Gang-Raped
http://i.kinja-img.com/gawker-media/image/upload/s--cZ0yW_3G--/c_fit,fl_progressive,q_80,w_636/w9jfbojw2esolyabeejl.jpg

http://jezebel.com/someone-wrote-erotica-about-a-video-game-designer-getti-1673233184/all

[grenade]

I'm being a cry baby today. I'm remembering those I've lost.

[Kenna]

I looked at a house today that has soooo much POTENTIAL for being something great!!
13 acres with a barn/stables... detached garage ...FIVE bedrooms/ 3 full bathrooms...HUGE open kitchen with open dinning room/built in china cabinets..at least 3 fireplaces...HUGE living room and "formal" room off the kitchen...a massive, hand-laid brick patio out back, big enough to park a dozen cars...two round, brick firepits and a fenced in back yard...

All for $169,000 !!!! I'm in shock at such a low price!! Too bad it needs so much work. It would make an AWESOME Bed and Breakfast....or Camping Retreat or Equine Therapy Haven for disabled children.

I can think of many possibilities for such a great property.

The kitchen and dinning rooms are so large, they could double as an "underground bistro" or bakery....
Or instead, there's plenty of other space to run a Doggy Daycare and Grooming business.
For the acres in front of the old stables, I can imagine a few "rustic" cabins to run a "Spiritual and Camping Retreat"...

Sigh....hopefully I hit the lottery tonight

[MrSunshine]

So...I didn't register the snow machines because there was no snow. Now that I haven't and cant ride for a while its going to dump snow. Wtf universe!?

[MrSunshine]

Son of a.....

Ok, I really like my iPad but, I am constantly clicking on things I didn't mean too.

Errrrr

[FlaFem84]

I could see why that'd be a hard career to be in. My sister has cystic fibrosis. I worry about her a lot more about her last couple of years. She's 30. She was really healthy until last two years have been rough for her. I'm sure you touched the families though that you helped.

Good luck with your kitty. :-)

Okay, so I've been a Respiratory Therapist for 26 years now. For all these years, I've worked to help people to breathe better. I've held handswith scared patients and family members, used ventilators as "bridges" to save lives from respiratory and cardiac crisis/disease and as end of life life support. I've educated patients and family members about respiratory and heart disease, held babies as young as 24 weeks in my hands while delivering serfanctant therapy and maintained their ventilators. I've also sat through countless patient care plan meetings and been a part of the discharge planning team. I've been a key member of an Advanced Life Support/Code team, done countless chest compressions, inserted many, many endotracheal tubes, arterial lines and bagged thousands of patients, both young and old. I've been at the deathbeds of adults, children and babies. I've held many a cold hand as the last breath of life escaped a patient's lips. I've lost count of how many "flat lines" I've seen on a monitor. I've been puked on, coughed on, grabbed, kicked and hugged. I've lost a lot of shoes and clothing to everything from chest/pleural fluid, to vomit, feces and urine.

I am now retired from all that. Away from the death, dying and suffering. Away, to, from the joys of seeing folks recover and go back to the business of living. Away from the friends I've worked alongside for so many years and all the smiles, laughter, tears, frustrations......and hugs.

Thing is, I'm not done YET. :twitch:

Our 9 y/o sweet male blond tabbycat, Henry, has asthma. Looks like I'll be returning to the world of Respiratory Therapy!!! I now have to teach Henry to use a Metered Dose Inhaler, or AeroKat. :|

This should be very, very interesting, indeed. :twitch:

dH4k_dOdNbY

~Theo~ :bouquet:.....Retired???? Who's retired???? :|

[JDeere]

Why can't I just fall asleep and stay asleep.

[cinnamongrrl]

I have fussed (mostly internally) about the trials and tribulations of my life outside of Asheville.. but I know I will miss having my own little happy, clean, utopic bubble. I just miss socialization more. It's funny how isolation can make a people person out of an introvert. :)

There's a lesson to be learned in all things. I think I learned several. Sometimes it's more than ok to know what you do and do not want. You don't have to leave your comfort zone to know that other things exist outside of it. And always trust your instincts...they won't steer you wrong in most things. (just not in love..)

[Talon]

This really frightening nightmare that I had last night....it's still hanging around my head....it just seemed so very real.

[Bard]

Watching the snow falling outside and hoping we do not get to much cause I am not really feeling up to going out to shovel it..:blink: Well at least it keeps my mind from other things

[MysticOceansFL]

A few things .

[Clyde]

Rainbow carrots.

[Keep Smilin]

warmer places...

[Gemme]

Alabama Woman Gets 219 Years for Her Role in Sex Ring (http://www.aol.com/article/2015/01/15/ala-woman-sentenced-to-219-years-in-prison-in-sex-ring-case/21130358/?icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl10%7Csec1_lnk3%26pLid%3D599290)

I'm torn between rage and sadness. I'm so glad she's not even up for parole for 50 years but I wish the others got equally long sentencing. Actually, I wish they all died long and painful deaths. There are victims that are still missing. Children.

smh

[Logicaly]

Spent a good portion of my day trying to do a self evaluation for my quarterly review. I am in the process of being promoted to manager and so these reviews are extremely important. I sat for an hour staring at the empty boxes for what went right last quarter and what went wrong. It's due tomorrow.

I am also thinking about our first family game night. I am super excited to finally have the opportunity to follow through with it. I love that my girl gets to be a part of it and that she is part of the family. Also having my sister and nephew live with me has made family game night even more possible. I wonder what games we are going to play. What we will eat for dinner or will we order take out. All I know is that it should be an awesome night of fun.

[PatrickIver]

Listening to Avril Lavigne's "When You're Gone" and it is doing something to me. It always amazes me when you listen to something you have heard so many times before still gives you goose bumps.

[JDeere]

Whether or not I should attend the services on Saturday. I don't want any issues between myself and her folks (they don't like me one bit) nor do I want to hear the religious rhetoric either.

[FlaFem84]

No matter how much time goes by every time we hang out together it all comes flooding back. Past 9 years I've told myself she'd never try again, that she doesn't feel the same or if she does that she'd never admit it to me.
People in our lives say I'm wrong. I didn't let myself believe them but the other night I know she felt the same as me and was thinking the same thing as we were sitting there talking and watching the movie. Then her not wanting me to get off the phone once I got home that night.

If only I knew the right words to say to explain things in the right way.


*Sigh*

[PatrickIver]

Someone NEEDS to make me go back to work because I can see this site becoming very addicting. Cripes I just got shot back to posts made in 2009 and I just kept reading and reading. I REALLY need to put an alarm on my computer or something.

Next thought was wondering if the Ghost of Admin wrote up the instructions and how to's in the Newbie section, because they ROCK !!

[WildHorses]

Someone NEEDS to make me go back to work because I can see this site becoming very addicting. Cripes I just got shot back to posts made in 2009 and I just kept reading and reading. I REALLY need to put an alarm on my computer or something.

Next thought was wondering if the Ghost of Admin wrote up the instructions and how to's in the Newbie section, because they ROCK !!

GO BACK TO WORK! :firetruck:

[Bard]

Results of the test done today. Waiting to see when they figure out what caused the blood clots:|
Going up to the In Laws tonight and it is suppose to be bitter cold however Dad said to make sure we bring warm clothes and boots ya know in-case we want to go play in the snow.. My goose will love that he also informed me that he got us a case of beer... Cause he is just awesome like that and I think Mom is making me a cake for my Birthday :cigar2: lucky Bastard am I

[PatrickIver]

Ok so here is the current thought thing going on - how come people come and LQQK at my "profile page" but NONE of them ask to be friends? So you LQQK and then think "Nah, nope just wanted to glance around, check out the décor" and then flee?

blinks.

Note to the Ghost of Admin: from now on can we make it an auto thing that if someone visits your profile page they are auto-added as a friend?

;)

(p.s. I have had A LOT of Bustelo today)

[Gemme]

I'm so happy for folks when they have a positive coming out experience (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/01/14/gay-twins-come-out_n_6474068.html?icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl13%7Csec1_lnk2%26pLid%3D599959).

[SleepyButch]

Ok so here is the current thought thing going on - how come people come and LQQK at my "profile page" but NONE of them ask to be friends? So you LQQK and then think "Nah, nope just wanted to glance around, check out the décor" and then flee?

blinks.

Note to the Ghost of Admin: from now on can we make it an auto thing that if someone visits your profile page they are auto-added as a friend?

;)

(p.s. I have had A LOT of Bustelo today)


Just think of it this way PatrickIver, you have to "win them over" just like you do in real life. Looking at your page is just the introduction. Give them time, they will come back once they get to know you better and ask to be your friend.

[Cailin]

So.. originally i was thinking about life, the hopes of my nrw career and the prospects of actual sleep tonight..


But


Then i saw Patricks post, so now im curious about thd profile page. Imma go check it out :p

[bright_arrow]

Things that did not make it into my boxes..

Jewelry that meant a lot to me, bits of clothing, a book series I had just started.

Hm. :|

[bright_arrow]

Ok so here is the current thought thing going on - how come people come and LQQK at my "profile page" but NONE of them ask to be friends? So you LQQK and then think "Nah, nope just wanted to glance around, check out the décor" and then flee?

blinks.

Note to the Ghost of Admin: from now on can we make it an auto thing that if someone visits your profile page they are auto-added as a friend?

;)

(p.s. I have had A LOT of Bustelo today)

I personally do not add people if I haven't interacted with them often first and established a relationship. Most of the folks on my friends list I've likely met at Reunion once or twice, and/or have seen them on forums and interacted with since I joined years ago. This also extends to my FB - I do not add people simply because we have mutual friends or they're in the same community as me.

[PatrickIver]

I think I need to clear up what I meant in the post above. It was just a joke that is why I mentioned I had A LOT of Bustelo today.

I also do not add someone just to "add them". I am very selective and cautious, which I explained in my very first post here on the site.

I think there is some confusion as to my post above.






I personally do not add people if I haven't interacted with them often first and established a relationship. Most of the folks on my friends list I've likely met at Reunion once or twice, and/or have seen them on forums and interacted with since I joined years ago. This also extends to my FB - I do not add people simply because we have mutual friends or they're in the same community as me.

[bright_arrow]

I think I need to clear up what I meant in the post above. It was just a joke that is why I mentioned I had A LOT of Bustelo today.

I also do not add someone just to "add them". I am very selective and cautious, which I explained in my very first post here on the site.

I think there is some confusion as to my post above.

I have never heard of Bustelo.
And I've never read your first post.
My apologies, that went right over my head :)
Welcome to the planet!

[MysticOceansFL]

Still a few things

[Orema]

Im up for a promotion and it's on my mind this morning. Have been waitng since November-ish, and should know something soon. I'm incredibly impatient, so I have some anxiety and nervous energy ... I know there will be some talk, or maybe even grumblings if I get it. My manager has my back on this, but she's a decision maker and I'm part of her team that executes her decisions. I have to work with the grumblers to execute her decisions and am now wondering if it's worth it.

For me, it almost doesn't matter what daily challenges I face in my work, but what is really important is if I can get people outside my department to work with me in solving problems. It's easier to get people to work with me if they aren't angry or annoyed.

This is in the context of me working in a department that doesn't generate revenue--all we do is spend money and we spend lots of it, so we're already getting cock-eyed looks.

I'll be glad when this is over and I don't have this concern flittering on the edges of my consciousness

[PatrickIver]

I am thinking that without inflection and tone, words can be inferred however one "hears" them. So that makes me think of a good word for the day: clarification. I am also thinking about last night and convos that I had. Finally, about having a family dinner tomorrow and that I am really looking forward to it, and in the end that is what is truly important. In the words of a chat mate: Shake it off!

[theoddz]

This, from cnn.com this morning:

http://www.cnn.com/2015/01/16/world/china-food-safety/index.html

This brings to mind something my father talked to me about, on several occasions. When I first moved to Las Vegas with my ex, Pop cautioned me about eating at the various Chinese restaurants in town. Dad was full Chinese (2nd Generation from Canton, China), the youngest of 7 children, raised in Hawaii. and an absolutely excellent cook!!!! No, he didn't do it for a living, but let's suffice to say that, over the years of my childhood, I got to eat some really GREAT Chinese cooking, most of it home style!! My grandmother and aunt would come from Hawaii to our home in Savannah, Georgia, and stay for, sometimes, 3 months at a time, cooking most every day. My grandmother, who taught my dad and his siblings to cook, was second to none in the "chef" arena, and could, via Chinese homestyle cooking, feed 9 people with one chicken (and everyone had their fill!!)!!! Chinese food, in itself, is good, nutritious, economical and healthy. BUT..........

Dad said that one had to be very, very careful about eating in Asian restaurants. Why?? Well, basically, because in restaurants owned by many native Asians (those who come from the "old countries"), the standards of cleanliness that we usually enjoy here in western restaurants, is not maintained in some of the Asian restaurants. In some Asian restaurants, here in the U.S., cooks are brought over from the old countries and, even though they may have to be educated in the use of proper food handling techniques, they don't always employ them in their day to day operations.

Here in Las Vegas, as in may be the case in other big cities, the local newspaper, the Las Vegas Review Journal, carries a column in the Wednesday edition of the newspaper. One of the local television stations also does a broadcast version of "Dirty Dining". This column and show expose local restaurants to the public and maintain a "demerit" system that is used to either force local eating establishments to clean up or simply close them down for unsanitary conditions/food preparation. Incidentally, the #1 reason that restaurants, here in the LV valley, are cited is for "failure to maintain food at adequate temperatures" to prevent spoilage. There are many other reasons, too, and I remember reading about one Vietnamese pho (noodle soup) restaurant getting immediately closed down for that reason and for also thawing a chicken out in the friggin' mop sink!!!! Anyway, here's the link to the RJ's "Dirty Dining" web site, so you can see it for yourself:

http://www.jrn.com/ktnv/news/dirty-dining

As for Dear Wife and me, we make it a practice to not eat at places that are not well known to us, via personal experience or our family/friend's recommendations. Still, we do try to eat at home, most of the time, where we know how our food is prepared and that our groceries are fresh and stored properly. My dad taught me to cook quite a few Chinese dishes, along with other kinds of foods, like eggs, steaks (I'm great with a BBQ) and I do okay. I'm not him, of course, but I do well enough for Dear Wife and myself. One thing I don't eat, and would not eat, is any kind of raw seafood. I will NOT eat sashimi/sushi or raw oysters. Seafood spoils extremely easily and I don't trust restaurants to keep these foods fresh. Dear Wife is an excellent cook and does most of the cooking at our house. That's mostly because she enjoys trying new recipes and she has some really wonderful dishes that are her own. She does enjoy my cooking, as well, and loves the respite that my cooking brings, from time to time.

I just wanted to share Pop's message about being careful about eating out at restaurants, particularly ones that you don't know much about. The food may taste good, but you never know how it was prepared, or under what conditions. Getting sick from food poisoning is something I don't ever want to do, and I'm certain that you all feel the same way!!! :winky:

Bon apetit!!!

~Theo~ :bouquet:

[Medusa]

Things that did not make it into my boxes..

Jewelry that meant a lot to me, bits of clothing, a book series I had just started.

Hm. :|



bright_arrow-

On October 25th I made contact with you and asked you to "please please please do NOT post anything that an ex could even remotely think is about them." (my exact words)

And you have been around long enough to know that this is just not ok.

Breakup drama *in any form* does not belong on the Planet.

Because we have already issued a warning about this very type of posting, you are now on a 30-day time-out.

When you return, please keep in mind that referencing a break up, an ex, or any sideways-type of statements that invite ugliness need to be kept off-site.

Thanks,
M

[JDeere]

Finding a way to get the hell out of this town and state AGAIN!

[PatrickIver]

There was a coyote in my mom's back yard this morning and she has feral cats that she feeds. I am afraid for them. :(

As a side dish, I feel like a fool. But, I will get over it. Onward and upward.

[Daniela]

There was a coyote in my mom's back yard this morning and she has feral cats that she feeds. I am afraid for them. :(

As a side dish, I feel like a fool. But, I will get over it. Onward and upward.

I hope the cats are ok. Your mom, too!

99% of my life is feeling like a fool, so you've got company. I don't know if it's good company, though. :bow:

[Ginger]

There was a coyote in my mom's back yard this morning and she has feral cats that she feeds. I am afraid for them. :(

As a side dish, I feel like a fool. But, I will get over it. Onward and upward.


They will definitely eat the cats if they can, but it's cat or dog food left outside or open garbage that might have attracted them in the first place (I'm not saying in your mom's place, just in areas of human habitat in general), or the smell of fast food deep fat fryers, or the dumpsters behind restaurants, etc.

If you google coyote and fast food restaurant, tons of stuff will come up. They've been videoed going into fast food restaurants and snatching food from tables without the patrons even noticing. The "wily" coyote nickname is apt.

My friend in L.A. lost her cat to a coyote. They come down from Griffith Park and the canyons around Santa Monica.

They're hungry and their habitat is shrinking. They eat, then go back to their pups and regurgitate the food for the litter to eat.

The animals that survive our destruction of the earth the longest will be the ones who can adapt to eating our garbage—or eating our pets.

House cats are the safest of course, but I think indoor/outdoor cats have more interesting lives. The best of both worlds, and the worst. And feral cats really have it hard, I guess.

Toddlers left alone in backyards are also not so safe from coyotes, though they aren't the most aggressive canines out there.

[TruTexan]

llɐ ʇı ʞɔnɟ

[Cailin]

Finding a way to get the hell out of this town and state AGAIN!

I think you need a night out. No one "wants" to leave texas.. tsk tsk..... you just need a new city. nods. I wouldn't fare well over yonder either.

[Cailin]

on my mind... so many things, but I'll keep it sweet


as in, I need to do something with all these apples. thinking apple crisps and send them off to my mom, grandma, and my clients wife that i'm going to go see.


also, I need to make my biscotti's nom nom

why is the cat ALWAYS on me.. always... eternally always.. I sit down, and she creeps up and BAM! she's on me within 2 minutes. she's a white cat. I wear dark clothes. this is not a good relationship.

[JDeere]

I think you need a night out. No one "wants" to leave texas.. tsk tsk..... you just need a new city. nods. I wouldn't fare well over yonder either.

I actually want to leave Texas. I am not a native Texan.

[SleepyButch]

They will definitely eat the cats if they can, but it's cat or dog food left outside or open garbage that might have attracted them in the first place (I'm not saying in your mom's place, just in areas of human habitat in general), or the smell of fast food deep fat fryers, or the dumpsters behind restaurants, etc.

If you google coyote and fast food restaurant, tons of stuff will come up. They've been videoed going into fast food restaurants and snatching food from tables without the patrons even noticing. The "wily" coyote nickname is apt.

My friend in L.A. lost her cat to a coyote. They come down from Griffith Park and the canyons around Santa Monica.

They're hungry and their habitat is shrinking. They eat, then go back to their pups and regurgitate the food for the litter to eat.

The animals that survive our destruction of the earth the longest will be the ones who can adapt to eating our garbage—or eating our pets.

House cats are the safest of course, but I think indoor/outdoor cats have more interesting lives. The best of both worlds, and the worst. And feral cats really have it hard, I guess.

Toddlers left alone in backyards are also not so safe from coyotes, though they aren't the most aggressive canines out there.


When I lived in MN on five acres, I had a coyote problem. Saw two at the most but usually just one. There was a pond with ducks, geese, and various little offspring out in the front of the house. I also had dogs and no fenced yard.

Two experiences come to mind.

The first was in the middle of the night. I got up to let the dogs out and it was pitch dark aside from the light on the house. I let the dogs out and they stayed close to the deck and I could see them. All of a sudden, a coyote howled. It was extremely close and very loud. Scared the hell out of me because of course, I couldn't see if there was more than one. So I got the dogs in quickly.

Another time, I was out on the riding mower and as I came around the side of the house, it was creeping down to the pond. Well, I turned off the blades and hit the gas and took off after it and chased it to the back woods. Went about my business and came back around and it was there again! I went and got a shovel out of the shed, got back on my lawn mower and chased it again, screaming at it to get. The lawn mower was really old and really loud so I doubt it could hear me but still. So it went into the brush of the property line where I couldn't go and turned around and looked at me. We had a staring contest and then it took off.

A few days later, I was working in my office and heard the geese squawking. I jumped up and went to the front door and saw the coyote had something in its mouth. I took off out the door towards it and as I got closer, it dropped it and went off a little ways. I stopped, looked to see if the animal was alive and it wasn't. I thought it was a rabbit. So I left because it shouldn't die in vain. The coyote needed to eat. Later I learned it was one of the goslings. I was upset already but that just upset me even more as the parents came back every year to have their young.

I know that animals of prey need to eat other animals to survive and I'm sure she was feeding young, but that didn't need to happen to my wildlife! Anyway, I asked the landlord for a BB gun to scare it away with the noise and he gave me this rifle that shot pellets. I had no idea how to use it, never shot a gun before so watched YouTube and learned how to load it. Went out side to load it and shoot a can and as I was loading it, the coyote came out of the woods right by me. It saw me with the rifle and took off. I never saw it again. I would have never shot it but it must have thought I was going to.

They are definitely smart and cunning animals and how stupid was I to chase after the damn thing? lol. Oh well.

[starryeyes]

The Grateful Dead are doing a final farewell show July 3, 4 and 5 in Chicago at Soldier Field. I am constantly thinking about getting tickets!!! Only a few more weeks until they go on sale!!!

[Ginger]

When I lived in MN on five acres, I had a coyote problem. Saw two at the most but usually just one. There was a pond with ducks, geese, and various little offspring out in the front of the house. I also had dogs and no fenced yard.

Two experiences come to mind.

The first was in the middle of the night. I got up to let the dogs out and it was pitch dark aside from the light on the house. I let the dogs out and they stayed close to the deck and I could see them. All of a sudden, a coyote howled. It was extremely close and very loud. Scared the hell out of me because of course, I couldn't see if there was more than one. So I got the dogs in quickly.

Another time, I was out on the riding mower and as I came around the side of the house, it was creeping down to the pond. Well, I turned off the blades and hit the gas and took off after it and chased it to the back woods. Went about my business and came back around and it was there again! I went and got a shovel out of the shed, got back on my lawn mower and chased it again, screaming at it to get. The lawn mower was really old and really loud so I doubt it could hear me but still. So it went into the brush of the property line where I couldn't go and turned around and looked at me. We had a staring contest and then it took off.

A few days later, I was working in my office and heard the geese squawking. I jumped up and went to the front door and saw the coyote had something in its mouth. I took off out the door towards it and as I got closer, it dropped it and went off a little ways. I stopped, looked to see if the animal was alive and it wasn't. I thought it was a rabbit. So I left because it shouldn't die in vain. The coyote needed to eat. Later I learned it was one of the goslings. I was upset already but that just upset me even more as the parents came back every year to have their young.

I know that animals of prey need to eat other animals to survive and I'm sure she was feeding young, but that didn't need to happen to my wildlife! Anyway, I asked the landlord for a BB gun to scare it away with the noise and he gave me this rifle that shot pellets. I had no idea how to use it, never shot a gun before so watched YouTube and learned how to load it. Went out side to load it and shoot a can and as I was loading it, the coyote came out of the woods right by me. It saw me with the rifle and took off. I never saw it again. I would have never shot it but it must have thought I was going to.

They are definitely smart and cunning animals and how stupid was I to chase after the damn thing? lol. Oh well.



Interesting SB! I think what you describe is the dance that a lot of people go through as they negotiate space with the creatures that were there first or were somewhere else and got pushed into our territory.

I saw coyotes now and then when I had a house upstate with my Ex. Coyotes look like smaller, more down-and-out versions of wolves. They have that crouching, furtive kind of trot, heads down, sidelong looks left and right, constantly on the watch.

I read that when wolves chase them, they go uphill, then race downhill. Apparently they can run downhill with a lot more skill and agility than the larger wolves or bears.

I also read that when wolf populations are low, they will mate with coyotes. But when wolf populations are high, they kill coyotes.

Sorry for going on so much. But coyotes kind of fascinate me.

[Kätzchen]

http://www.themoosestore.com/images/decal_love_moose.jpg

[Daktari]

Insanity :tinfoil:

[Bard]

Work and the upcoming accreditation team that will be here, everyone in command staff is going crazy. The political BS is getting deep and the road patrol is paying the price. Just have to remember to come in do my shift and stay out of the line of fire... :seeingstars:


And yeah lots of stuff :moonstars:

[satindoll]

I have been thinking a lot of my "hometown", and sharing it with the people I love. I was born in Minnesota, but I miss the magic of being in the south. Being able to hear the trains as the last sound that I hear at night and the first sound that I hear in the morning. The Smell of peaches at the end of the summer. The cicadas and crickets while sitting on the drive port at dusk. What I miss MOST is being able to climb the tree in my Grandmother's front yard. Magnolias, are magnificent!
I can't even express how excited I get when I see Magnolia branches. Yes, I think a trip "home" is in order. I am HOMESICK:|

[cinnamongrrl]

How quickly good can turn to bad....

My own personal black cloud

How the mouse plays when the cat is away