What is on your mind [Archive] - Page 39

laruss

12-12-2012, 03:54 PM

How much my head hurts...I have a migraine, luckily I only get one every couple of years.
I have been thinking a lot about past relationships and how everything we do and every decision we make moves us in new directions.
I have also been thinking about what I want in a relationship, what I expect and will accept.
It's hard to focus though when your head is pounding.

Nomad

12-12-2012, 11:43 PM

Those Winter Sundays

Sundays too my father got up early
and put his clothes on in the blueblack cold,
then with cracked hands that ached
from labor in the weekday weather made
banked fires blaze. No one ever thanked him.

I'd wake and hear the cold splintering, breaking.
When the rooms were warm, he'd call,
and slowly I would rise and dress,
fearing the chronic angers of that house,

Speaking indifferently to him,
who had driven out the cold
and polished my good shoes as well.
What did I know, what did I know
of love's austere and lonely offices

Talon

12-13-2012, 11:21 AM

My sweet friend who is in the hospital...I'm worried about him.

DamonK

12-13-2012, 12:37 PM

I washed bedding yesterday.
Today I get to wash clothes.
And think.
And work on a project.

grenade

12-13-2012, 01:20 PM

Christmas gifts. How this holiday will play out. How long I will have to work this evening. If I can sneak out the side door and go shopping unnoticed. I need a new job. I'm bored.

SoulShineFemme

12-13-2012, 01:34 PM

Wishing I knew with more certaintly what was going to happen after the beginning of 2013. So much is still up in the air and it's been weighing heavily on my mind.

DamonK

12-13-2012, 02:05 PM

Laughter and a lot of it

Both pups made me carry them to bed

Breezy

12-13-2012, 02:32 PM

How things can improve as quickly as I improve my attitude!

Guy

12-13-2012, 09:10 PM

What are the cockles of your heart and why do they need warming?

Ginger

12-13-2012, 10:10 PM

I don't care how many nice dogs there are, in the room. If there is one dog that bites in the room, I don't want to go in there.

Miss Scarlett

12-13-2012, 10:19 PM

51840
.....

DamonK

12-13-2012, 10:24 PM

How good a shower felt

pajama

12-13-2012, 11:14 PM

How fleeting life is. Found out Monday an old co-worker from Sbux was back home on hospice because her cancer had returned. I was going to visit her this weekend. She is gone. *sigh*

I love so many of you on here and you mean the world to me. Just wanted to make sure I said it to y'all.

Prudence

12-14-2012, 06:02 AM

Every Christmas, I buy tree ornaments for friends I have that I can't visit. This has been a tradition with several of us for years. I am thinking I may have mixed up my ornaments. I have a "Babys First Christmas", 2012 floating around out there.... oh dear. Tradition is, we call each other on Christmas eve to open the presents. Haha , so I will not know till then. Thats whats on my mind.

WingsOnFire

12-14-2012, 07:03 AM

What is on my mind today....

My Daddy... my Sir... I am with You .... I love You... You will do just fine throughout Your surgery.. Your too stubborn to do anything else! I wish I was able to be there with You when You are wheeled into recovery.. I wish I was there to take care of You after..

Remember I love You.

girl

JustLovelyJenn

12-14-2012, 09:55 AM

History repeats itself... hopefully with better results
I have grown a lot in five years.
so have you.

Sparkle

12-14-2012, 10:09 AM

My BestBear's surgery this morning.

Hoping it is swift and uneventful and that the recovery is smooth.

Talon

12-14-2012, 11:14 AM

The feeling of an incredible heaviness within. Deep inside the recesses of my heart..over some very major realizations. :sadangel:

MegBluEyz

12-14-2012, 12:43 PM

I have a seven year old son in Elementary School and I can not even put into words how devastated I am about the shootings in Newtown, Connecticut. I see bullying in my sons school, I see shootings all over the country. It starts at the beginning with teaching love and acceptance instead of hate. So sad. My heart is with those who have lost their children. I will hold my son extra close tonight and forever.

My quote today:

“Be the change you want to see in the world.” Mahatma Gandhi

DamonK

12-14-2012, 05:12 PM

Kisses in the rain

DMW

12-14-2012, 05:42 PM

Googled what was on my mind...up there on the title...and this is what...
remains...always...remains.

“There's always going to be bad stuff out there. But here's the amazing thing -- light trumps darkness, every time. You stick a candle into the dark, but you can't stick the dark into the light.”

― Jodi Picoult, Change of Heart

clay

12-14-2012, 07:57 PM

SleepyButch

12-14-2012, 09:11 PM

I am sitting here lying on my bed just thinking about life.. my dog's life... my old girl is lying here snoring next to me... for now.. she is peaceful.. resting... happy.. but her heart is not good, she gets four meds twice a day and it makes me sad to think about all of that.

I try to be positive most of the time and think about how she's doing well and how I still have her.. I tell her I love her daily... give her love...but sometimes, it's hard not to think of the alternative. I always hate having to make the decision to help one of my pups cross over to a better place and I hope with everything in me, that I won't have to do that anytime soon with her. Her heart will never get better, all we can do is make her comfortable. I keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best.

I'm rubbing her soft ears.. she is so damn cute!

Daktari

12-15-2012, 04:21 AM

Today's NA Chrimbo event. I hope to goodness they don't play 'clubbing' music later.

I wanna hear this instead

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and this

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and this

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Kenna

12-15-2012, 05:10 AM

my kitchen smells good... wish my son was here

jac

12-15-2012, 05:16 AM

What is on my mind....

Christmas shopping and how I have not started it yet.
Wondering what to get my children and grandchildren.
The fact that I absolutely adore the Christmas season.
How I so wish my middle child was home for the holidays with my granddaughter.
Looking forward to joining family and tradition with my Spritz and the General.
Have I mentioned Christmas shopping?
:blink:

Prudence

12-15-2012, 06:51 AM

----Getting up and away from the computer ---starting on my day.

DamonK

12-15-2012, 09:36 AM

I startled awake.

I woke myself up. I was giving instructions in English at ASL speed, which, if fluent like me, is very fast. It was odd.

The dream before that was better. I'd be happy to dream it again.

Canela

12-15-2012, 10:15 AM

My Badass Biker Bf...giggles, and our conversation this morning and how he laughs with us and gets such a kick out of us like we do him...He's such a Daddy, in more ways than one...

Ebon

12-15-2012, 10:17 AM

Finding a place for my man cave, classes, the woman in my heart.

DMW

12-15-2012, 10:37 AM

Above all else...Choose Love...always try to be a better Man... no matter what
the cost. Choose the path of love, compassion and light.

starryeyes

12-15-2012, 10:37 AM

Justin is driving to LA to pick up her son and bring him back for the weekend. We adopted a family from a non-profit Deaf organization and he is going to pick out all the toys we buy. I can't wait to hear how many toys he wants. This should be a good learning experience! :)

Also, I am pretty sure we are going to an LGBT families Christmas event tonight. Looking forward to meeting new families!

Miss Scarlett

12-15-2012, 12:06 PM

How heartbroken I am over yesterday...How can anyone hurt children?

macele

12-15-2012, 12:12 PM

when my heart is broken, i want everybody to stop. feel what i feel and cry with me. but i know that that is not possible. but even when the body doesn't stop for the broken hearted, ... the spirit can. i know that my spirit has stopped, ... silence is needed sometimes. i don't pretend to even know the grief. in jesus' name i pray.

VintageFemme

12-15-2012, 01:28 PM

I am still wordless & numb from yesterday's horror. I can't seem to bring myself to talk about it & this is the most I've even said about it. And I'm done.

Tony

12-15-2012, 06:00 PM

My Badass Biker Bf...giggles, and our conversation this morning and how he laughs with us and gets such a kick out of us like we do him...He's such a Daddy, in more ways than one...

I enjoy the hell out of those conversations with you two. So much laughter. Two beautiful women. I'm a very lucky guy. ;-)

kittygrrl

12-16-2012, 12:08 AM

there is a price for everything

DamonK

12-16-2012, 01:47 AM

Laughing until I cried...

Jrio91

12-16-2012, 04:26 AM

What's on my mind right now? Honestly, the fact that I can't sleep and I'm horny. lol Also, that I LOVE being in Seattle! :)

morningstar55

12-16-2012, 06:37 AM

whats on my mind?? 'a lot of things..... the life of a ADHD person.. lol
have to laf at myself sometimes.... i guess.

ok on a serous note here.....
: the loss of such such young lives in CT ... having tears in my eyes, reading watching and listening to the interviews, video.. of the tragic event .. the fearful faces of the kids having to close there eyes and being lead to safety..
people we all don't even know and how this tragic event has touched our lives.

something on my mind too....
why do we as a gay community everywhere... places that have so called pride/gay stores, where we can buy rainbow items , books gifts .. why do a lot of thee shops have sex toys and other smut books videos on hand in plain view??? I mean .... the gay community want to be treated as equal in society but yet have these kind of items mixed into the same stores.
i dont see Hetrosexual have dildo's / strap ons f**K videos and books in a store near you. when i g into a pride store and i see them items i feel kinda embarassed , i could never bring a small child into a pride store... thats for sure. i can see going to cash something out and there is a nice lil display of key chains and or candy that look like a dick. I have how ever in my travels been to a couple places where such items were NOT in a gay/ pride store. but not to many .

and another thing on my mind......
having a smile in my heart , knowing how happy I made Dutch Leonard's Christmas with that huge soft fleece blanket with hys mustang on it .. :)
:heartbeat::heartbeat:

DamonK

12-16-2012, 07:43 AM

Time spent with a Bear
Time spent with you

Both left laughter on my face and peace in my soul. And that's a beautiful thing.

GPS

12-16-2012, 08:44 AM

my mind is on the tragedy

Gemme

12-16-2012, 09:57 AM

What's on my mind right now? Honestly, the fact that I can't sleep and I'm horny. lol Also, that I LOVE being in Seattle! :)

Are any of these things related?

*curious*

In other news, I'm simple this morning. I got my breakkie out like I wanted and I'm pretty content right now.

girl_dee

12-16-2012, 06:14 PM

putting on my apron and starting some gingerbread cookie baking

:cookielove::chef:

PaPa

12-16-2012, 06:18 PM

putting on my apron and starting some gingerbread cookie baking

:cookielove::chef:

Awwww!! I wanna help!!! You know how much I love to bake and spend time in the kitchen.....
Any openings for cooks or bakers at Crones Cradle? *Smile

gotoseagrl

12-16-2012, 07:19 PM

i am wondering what puppies dream about.

Blade

12-16-2012, 07:52 PM

Ice Cream, but I'm not sure if it is going to be coconut ice cream or vanilla with strawberries and chocolate syrup

Duchess

12-16-2012, 08:13 PM

Thanking the universe for sharing her abundance.:cheer:

JustLovelyJenn

12-16-2012, 09:06 PM

Chicken wings and steamed veggies make everything better...

Soft*Silver

12-16-2012, 09:53 PM

no one ever gives fruit cakes anymore. I love them! But they have gotten a bad rap and I cant even find them for sale! of course, I rarely go out to buy anything. My grocery shopping is even minimalistic. I hit the meats, grab some pasta, some sauce, head to the milk and bread isle, go get the frozen vegetables and fruit and grab some animal food on the way to the check out. I dont brows or "window shop". I go in and go out.

I guess I have to browse to find me a fruit cake..lol

DamonK

12-16-2012, 10:22 PM

Chocolate milk... And how I never seem to make it out of the kitchen with a glass if I have it. The same goes for apple juice.

Dumb dog playing in the rain... I'm glad she had fun. I, on the other hand, did not.

A girl.

Music.

The other dogs.

A wall.

GPS

12-16-2012, 10:38 PM

a certain woman. weird. *shrug* life. intelligence. likable. smart. great conversationalist.

Breezy

12-16-2012, 11:00 PM

Taking someone by the wrists and pushing them against a wall while pinning their arms above their head and kissing them senseless.
:eyebat:

macele

12-16-2012, 11:05 PM

clay

12-16-2012, 11:11 PM

the NEW year....hopes & dreams...making this journey together....hand in hand...I love each new discovery, how well we "fit", that fateful moment when we came to be...she lights me up inside...and my heart just glows

DamonK

12-16-2012, 11:26 PM

I may have forgotten how to breathe yet again for a few moments there....

Greyson

12-17-2012, 12:55 AM

Well, sleep was on my mind. That is until I read Blade's post. Now I have coconut and strawberry ICE CREAM on my mind. :| If only it was not so late and cold to leave my home and drive to the grocery store. Good night.

Angeltoes

12-17-2012, 01:03 AM

Honestly I'm so horrified by the CT tragedy that I'm trying not to become paralyzed by fear so I can send my son to school tomorrow. As a parent and an American, dear God, I cannot understand why automatic weapons are legal. I support my President in saying gun reform is long overdue!!! I cannot identify whatsoever with a gun mentality, BUT if you must have a gun, you cannot have a gun that was designed to murder human beings. The Constitution never guaranteed that right. The laws must change.

Hollylane

12-17-2012, 01:30 AM

I was trying to sleep, and listening to the weather on the roof. Since I work for the power company, it starts to occur to me that the sound of the wind and pounding rain is escalating. So, I look at the weather online, and now I have this on my mind....Hello Winter, welcome to the Portland Metro area...I have a feeling there is some overtime in my future...:|

http://i45.tinypic.com/hu366d.jpg

DamonK

12-17-2012, 01:37 AM

I am more in love with music than I'd been before. That song absolutely soothed my soul. And the video was fucking HOT!

I've had to remind myself several times in the past 3 hours how to breathe. Something takes my breath away, and I'm lost in it.

It's been awhile since any music has caused that. Or any simple words. It usually takes action for that to occur.

deb0670

12-17-2012, 02:21 AM

I am going into work and telling them that i physically cannot keep doing this job. I just started it not even three weeks ago but it is killing me. I have had 20 hernia repairs.. seriously.. and last one was in April of 2011 where they cut me open, repaired too many hernias to count, cut my abdominal muscles on the left and right sides, pulled them in front and sewed them up with mesh above and below that, then closed me up with 49 staples from my sternum to pubic bone. It took so long to recover from that. Well, Saturday, not even half way thru my work, i felt the old familiar pain in my lower abdomen on the right side and panicked.i prolly should have stopped right there, but i had to finish my day.. at the end of my work, i had to walk home. which is only about a 5 min walk.. but i was hurting so badly by the time i got home i could hardly breathe.
Sucky thing about all this is.. this will be the second job i lost in less than 6 months. i am gonna ask them if there is any other positions that i could work in .. cause i so want to work.. but if not.. then i will give my two week notice.sighs..
so many other things on my mind too.. but this is one of the biggest.

GPS

12-17-2012, 09:51 AM

My mind is wandering. Sometimes i just cant grasp why others are so cold.

Daktari

12-17-2012, 10:10 AM

Tonight's meeting and the unfairness of insisting on going out to eat. Not everyone can afford to do that and despite reassurances of no-one going hungry it is still unfair to make folks either choose to 'accept charity' or not go at all.

We should have had a Jacob's Join like other meetings are doing. At least they're inclusive of all.

DMW

12-17-2012, 02:14 PM

1 Corinthians 13:4-8

New International Version (NIV)

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

:candle:

DamonK

12-17-2012, 04:51 PM

Cuddles and a nap....

cinnamongrrl

12-17-2012, 05:41 PM

My oldest daughter turned 19 today. So bear in mind, my mindset is stemmed from there...

I remember being a kid. Sitting at the breakfast table with my little brother and sister before school...or on weekends. Sitting there in our jammies and slippers. Eating and talking and laughing together. That's how we started out every single day.
It never occurred to me then that things would ever change. That there would come a time when we WOULD NOT be all together. That we would some day have to arduously PLAN to have time together.
Now that my girls are grown, it's become the same premise. I have to plan to see them. They come over around their work schedule and what-not. But it's just not the same. And I know it never will be. And part of me knows this is how it's SUPPOSED to be...the other part wants them to be 5 again...

the melancholy that is motherhood...:rrose:

GPS

12-17-2012, 05:58 PM

hitting the auction tonight, so i can nosy around..

Lazy Daze

12-17-2012, 08:15 PM

The same thing that is always on my mind this time of year... worrying that everyone likes their presents and that I gave enough.

Missing my Dad... He always LOVED Christmas, and would be beside himself with excitement about only having a week left to wait! lol

JustLovelyJenn

12-17-2012, 08:23 PM

I am wishing today that I could invite in some of my friends that live here... that I know will be cold and hungry for Christmas. I am acquainted with a lot of the street kids here, the underprivileged, and the homeless. I want to be able to just invite them in and feed them...

However, I moved in with my parents... and their spirit of charity... doesnt extend that far... That's a hard thing for me. I believe the ones who need it most... aren't going to be just like you, they are going to have problems... its not my job to judge how they got where they are, or if there are things they should be doing differently... its only my job to give, because I can... Going to have to find a different way to do that this year.

jac

12-18-2012, 07:42 PM

What is on my mind....

I have so much to be thankful for and yet all I can do is think about the crap, the sad, the disappointing. I really need to get a grip on it. One more sad note before I try to reverse the process... My sweet grandson was sickie last night. My daughter said he threw up 5 times in a 3 hour stretch and had a round of diarrhea in bed (with his sidekicks, mom and dad) and didn't say anything. Okay a chuckled at that just a little :giggle:

She hasn't answered me back since and I wanna know how the little guy is doing tonight. :eyebrow:

Now to think of fun and happy to reverse this crap mood I have fallen into... My Spritz and the general will be coming on Friday and we have a holiday to enjoy together!!

Excited for all the plans we have made so far... tree hunting. tree decorating. gift buying. gift wrapping. breakfast out with a BFP friend. Christmas Eve with the family. Christmas morning for the Little Family. And so much more............

Yes I will sleep on this and - reverse the curse - of diarrhea on the brain. :blink:

DamonK

12-18-2012, 08:14 PM

Change.
Music.
Plotting and planning.

Leigh

12-18-2012, 09:33 PM

Planning my future :)

PaPa

12-18-2012, 09:49 PM

Tonight my mind is busy...
I think of what the job has in store for me tomorrow; the vet appointment that Ginger needs so badly; the picture I need to get done by week's end for my license; the cookies still unbaked; the way my Father sat forward in his seat all night as if he had pain; the tired look on my Mother's face; the thoughts that this Christmas may be the last one shared with them. For some reason, all of these thoughts keep me overwhelmed. It builds anxiety, uneasiness, and tension. They are not thoughts conducive of sleep which is what I need more than anything. For that reason, I must put thoughts on the shelf for the night. Right now I will focus on the present. Ginger is ready for bed. Mom and Dad are already there. Tomorrow will be here soon enough, but every ounce of my being needs sleep. Therefore. What is on my mind?? Sleep. Good night BFP Friends and Family.

grenade

12-18-2012, 10:42 PM

I think I have the flu. I hate sleeping alone. I dont wanna work tomorrow. I'd whine and cry but I dont think the dogs care. I need softer tissues. :(

JustLovelyJenn

12-18-2012, 11:24 PM

Bring on the snow day...

LoyalWolfsBlade

12-19-2012, 02:04 AM

The storm heading my way
The inner storm I am experiencing
The beauty and intensity of some storms
I really dislike, nope I hate sleeping alone

PinkieLee

12-19-2012, 09:23 AM

What's on my mind right now...

I am having my first mammogram on Friday. Not gonna lie, not really looking forward to it.

Talon

12-19-2012, 09:59 AM

See Me...keep it for Me...feel Me.

Light Me up. :candle:

kittygrrl

12-19-2012, 10:08 AM

cookies are on my mind, flour on my apron..it's a tradition I bake every yule..it's a goddess thing:candle:

JAGG

12-19-2012, 10:38 AM

I think I have the flu. I hate sleeping alone. I dont wanna work tomorrow. I'd whine and cry but I dont think the dogs care. I need softer tissues. :(

Puffs with lotion are awesome. Puffs with vicks work great too if you are congested. But not so good if you have to wipe your eyes. Don't ask me how I know. :)

LoyalWolfsBlade

12-19-2012, 11:53 AM

The apt. I have in two hours

The apt. I have on Friday and oh how I am wishing to much snow will fall between now and then to justify a reschedule of that one.

The lack of sleep I have had this week and how I am hoping that is going to change again soon.

Wow can you believe Christmas is only 6 days away.

Kobi

12-19-2012, 01:50 PM

So much has happened in the last 2 weeks.

Im tired. My body is tired. Brain is tired. Emotions are tired.

Just want to sleep for a few days.

Gemme

12-19-2012, 02:53 PM

Puffs with lotion are awesome. Puffs with vicks work great too if you are congested. But not so good if you have to wipe your eyes. Don't ask me how I know. :)

Don't wipe your glasses with them either.

:glasses:

BoiJen

12-19-2012, 09:12 PM

-wondering what's in my box that my girl is sending to me :deepthoughts:

gotoseagrl

12-19-2012, 09:18 PM

sometimes birthdays end up being better than you were even expecting.

MissItalianDiva

12-19-2012, 09:19 PM

I am so excited for Christmas this year....yikes 6 days!!!! I have only six more days of throwing away advent calender chocolate!!!!

Also wondering when my soggy balls are coming in the mail from Gren....I get all teary eyed knowing Gren cared enough to send me her soggy balls..wipes tears. Wondering now if I can return the favor with an extra kick. Thinking coconut flakes might do the trick for the extra texture lol

grenade

12-19-2012, 09:30 PM

Nomad

12-19-2012, 09:30 PM

"...i did my best, it wasn't much
i couldn't feel, so i tried to touch
i've told the truth, i didn't come to fool ya

and even though it all went wrong
i'll stand before the Lord of Song
with nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah..."

Leigh

12-19-2012, 09:39 PM

Thinking about the future & what it holds ~ wondering where i go from here

LoyalWolfsBlade

12-20-2012, 01:34 AM

The nightmare that woke me

she is as always

You are actually

Wow this just may be one hell of a storm

Think I am going to try sleep again but wish I could take a pain pill right now.

MaggieBluIze

12-20-2012, 02:30 AM

My lovely daughter is heavy on my mind.
The kind of thinking that is making sleep a wish, not a reality.

I love her. I always will.
I worry. I always will.
I care. I always will.

I don't understand some things.
I really wish I did.

*putting love, support, inner peace
and light out into the universe to her*

Prudence

12-20-2012, 04:47 AM

Why I keep getting up at the ass crack of dawn.

GPS

12-20-2012, 05:17 AM

i'm sitting here wondering if i should spew out whats on my mind, or should i just let it go..
i would like to trust that the truth will set you free, i'm thinking sometimes im not sure if doing the right thing may end up in a demise of sorts...

i just dont know what to do..

JustLovelyJenn

12-20-2012, 10:21 AM

My son is having nightmares. He is waking up screaming and crying, frantically calling my name... Its so hard to get him settled down after and he is so scared. I don't know whats causing them or how to help.... he ended up in bed with me last night, and neither of us slept very much.

Talon

12-20-2012, 12:32 PM

Ten trillion things...my mind is racing today.

Daktari

12-20-2012, 03:58 PM

Step three. Worship. Open-mindedness, honesty, courage. Pringles.

kittygrrl

12-20-2012, 05:17 PM

hmmm does this avatar make my eyes look too big?

Miss Scarlett

12-20-2012, 07:01 PM

It's a cold, rainy night...perfect for snuggling in front of a nice fire...

DamonK

12-20-2012, 08:07 PM

My fever broke.

Then it came back.

DamonK

12-21-2012, 06:38 AM

She is...

A lot. A whole lot

Talon

12-21-2012, 10:35 AM

How I can put my whole entire foot into my mouth at the most inopportune moments....:goodluck:

PinkieLee

12-21-2012, 10:49 AM

What's on my mind right now...

I am having my first mammogram on Friday. Not gonna lie, not really looking forward to it.

Just a lil' FYI.... the mammogram was a piece of cake! Thank goodness for new technology!!!!

The other poking & proding... that's a whole 'nother story!

laruss

12-21-2012, 12:10 PM

I am thinking I want a iPad mini for my birthday. What do people think of them? My MacBook Pro is heavy so I thought it might be easier to carry around the iPad. Can I do all the same things with it? Does anyone know the answer to these questions? This is what is on my mind.

kittygrrl

12-21-2012, 04:09 PM

wish came true, it snowed:rubberducky:

Blade

12-21-2012, 04:42 PM

Date night....:byebye::firetruck:

cinnamongrrl

12-21-2012, 05:15 PM

I had to get up early today...and luckily I have an internal alarm. But I woke up at 4am (I think) when Teddy got up for work...but I managed to get back to sleep....I was having a dream...don't remember what it was about now....but all of a sudden the brain alarm started going off. But instead of saying wake up....it kept saying " you need to grow up now! You need to GROW UP!" That got me thinking....my brain is capable of misspeak?? It's all so very odd to me...

But I did wake up regardless of my brain being silly and strange...and just in time to hear my ex knocking on the door, which was the reason I was having to get up early.....so my brain was right...in a sense...and maybe more than I know...hmmm Much to ponder....

:glasses:

DMW

12-21-2012, 11:19 PM

That a holiday room can be filled with family and friends and one can still be lonely. So odd life is. That if the right person is not sharing the room with you on the holidays... that nothing else really matters much. Not complaining at all. I am very grateful for my friends and family. I know some that will be both lonely and alone...and oddly..laughing...I may just vacillate between which setting I would or will prefer over this holiday.laughing I am. So, alone and lonely sounds pretty darn preferable to me. I am still a very lucky man.
I am hurting and sorry for those who suffer just the basic needs. The cold the hungry the homeless and the lost. I pray they receive what they need.

And happy holidays planet.

cinnamongrrl

12-22-2012, 12:08 AM

I'm thinking seriously of getting a French press for my considerable coffee needs, rather than trying to replace the Keurig we got that has FAILED and disappointed me.....
My employer is a chef and I talked it over with him and it seems rather easy and straight forward and takes no mechanical skill whatsoever. Which is good, because I am AWFUL at making coffee. I always get the ration of water to coffee wrong. The only coffee I DIDN'T mess up (besides a Keurig) was percolator coffee...there's definitive lines for coffee and for water and properly ratioed. As an often hyper logical and analytical (BFP spell check says that is spelled wrong but I double checked and it's RIGHT...go figure?) person, I like specifics.
Long story short, since my brain is finally tired and I'm rambling.... we are getting a French press...yayyyyyyyyyy!!!!

:hangloose:

Breezy

12-22-2012, 01:23 AM

My intuition.

Kenna

12-22-2012, 02:38 AM

Sleeping bags, camp gear, New Year's Eve and fire trucks

Gemme

12-22-2012, 07:12 AM

Sleeping bags, camp gear, New Year's Eve and fire trucks

That all sounds great, until you get to the fire trucks.

:blink:

Happy camping!

StrongButch

12-22-2012, 07:20 AM

Pancakes and checking out the cook!

JustLovelyJenn

12-22-2012, 12:18 PM

I'm worried about a friend

I need to finish wrapping gifts

The tree still needs decorated

And there is some cleaning to be done

Teddybear

12-22-2012, 03:36 PM

JoSchmooze

12-24-2012, 10:41 AM

I feel like I really had to share this one because, well because it shows how much respect that I have for some members of my family.....

I do not often get to be with my family for the holidays. This year, because my younger sister has become so frail with MS, I decided that I needed to be at the family gathering. The last time I made the occasion was 7 years ago when I met my brother-in-laws' cousin Paula. Paula is about 10 years older than I, but also a lesbian. The last time I was here for this occasion I brought my then gf who shamelessly flirted with said cousin! I think it was the beginning of the end for that relationship because I called her on her behavior and she saw nothing wrong with it.

Now, here is where the respect aspect comes into the story....
On Saturday, as soon as she saw me, Paula came over to me and gave me a big ole hug and says " this has been bothering me ever since it happened. I just want you to know that it was not me, flirting with her." All I could was grin and reply, "Oh, I knew it wasn't you, it was always about her and her behavior!"
We both had a good laugh about the situation.
But I am still in awe of how it could have stayed in Paula's mind all these years and that she had to make sure to mention it, apologizing profusely if it appeared that she had been in the wrong....her respect for my relationship because I'm "family" in more than just one way! We parted that evening with another big ole hug and a promise to keep in touch....

:cigar2:

GPS

12-24-2012, 11:51 AM

to say the least, if all this rain was snow. we would be buried alive

its thundering/lightning on xmas eve...

DamonK

12-24-2012, 11:58 AM

...situations
...feelings
...ideas

Breezy

12-24-2012, 02:47 PM

Alzheimer's.
Alzheimer's and family members.
Being in my skin right now.

starryeyes

12-24-2012, 04:42 PM

After a call from my Dad this morning, I am heading to Tucson with Justin for an intervention. He is suffering from major mental health issues since my grandmother passed away 6 months ago. I am hoping I am not going to have to put him in the hospital to get stabilized. I am so grateful that Justin is here and being my support. She went through losing her mother as well, so she can talk to him. My friend from San Diego also recently lost his mother two months ago and is in Tucson as well and said he can talk to him too. So, hopefully we can get him some help.

Merry Christmas!

DamonK

12-24-2012, 09:56 PM

I'm contemplating what to work on....
I've several projects in the works.
I'm contemplating on dinner.
I vaguely remember breakfast some 10 or so hours ago.
This summer is on my mind as well.

Jesse

12-24-2012, 10:13 PM

Last year at this time, I spent Christmas Eve and all Christmas day holding my dog, bear bear, trying to keep him alive. The morning of the 26th of Dec. I had to let him go. He was not just my pet, he was my service dog, and my friend. I miss him still, and not a day goes by that I do not think of him and how much I loved him. :vigil:

Today, I have my Sadie and she is wonderful. Shortly after Bear passed, I discovered that Sadie was in a high kill shelter and due to be put to sleep the very next day. I got her and brought her home with me. She was in pitiful shape but I could see the love and kindness in her eyes and knew I had done the right thing. I think somehow she understands about Bear.

Hollylane

12-25-2012, 12:43 AM

FB Holiday weirdness...My biological father just said "Merry Christmas" to me on FB...He has been on my FB for 5 years, has never responded to any messages I have sent him, and has not said "Merry Christmas", or even "Hello" since I was 16 years old (25 years ago) ...I'm stumped.

Apparently, the Ghost of Christmas Future has visited him recently...:|

Canela

12-25-2012, 01:13 AM

My day, today.

I spent it cleaning and preparing for tomorrow. Then after a long hot bath and some tylenol, I was persuaded to go to my mom's where the big "tamalada" was going on. My aunt's were there, my mom's friend and me. I took my place at the table and started spreading the masa onto the husks and just leapt right in to the conversation like I've done for so many years throughout my life. The only thing missing was my beautiful Guelita.

I missed her so much today. They were speaking of her and saying all sorts of things she didn't ever say...lol...it makes me sad that they didn't know her like I knew her. Then I sigh and I thank God that I got to know her in her last, best years. That she was my best friend, my mentor, my counselor (not that I listened much back then) and most of all, my mother. For all the years I complained about my lot in life at being left to my grandmother because my parents were off seeking their own goals...I would give my right arm to have her here one more day...to share in this holiday and the great Christmas present I'm getting...I sit here and realize how blessed I've been.

La extrano, Guelita...en paz descanse. Feliz Navidad

DamonK

12-26-2012, 01:45 AM

Every second of every day.

Miss Scarlett

12-26-2012, 05:36 AM

How beautiful and unique my Christmas was this year...

DamonK

12-26-2012, 08:29 AM

Her energy is felt

GPS

12-26-2012, 09:37 AM

day 5, im hoping..

Boots13

12-26-2012, 10:48 AM

...a little bit of everything I suppose.

GPS

12-26-2012, 10:53 AM

thinking this tree is coming down today.

Ms. Tabitha

12-26-2012, 11:36 AM

His sister and niece will be helping me take down the tree and decorations today.
We have shopping to do and then at some point hit the commissary.
We are also making plans to change up the two guest rooms and make the front room my office/craft room.
So much to do.

WintergreenGem

12-26-2012, 12:04 PM

I made it through Christmas. I made it through all those 4am mornings! Now waiting to see what the next week will bring me. And I have to make it through the few days my roommate's family will be here. Ugh! I hope I don't have to get up at 4 or that will be so hard. Did I mention I am a light sleeper?

Now onto the new year.

Talon

12-26-2012, 12:32 PM

Just that certain things that may hurt or bother us at the time, always serve the purpose for our greater good in the end.

Leigh

12-26-2012, 01:43 PM

What this next year will bring for me.

TheDreadPirateRoberts

12-26-2012, 03:01 PM

lots...but it seems like i cant find the words...or maybe the courage to let it out? ....it may require some patience...just feeling like i need to find a way to get my confidence back before i spiral downward....my dysphoria is absolutely crazy right now...im feeling like i can't even do what im usually good at & worried that eventually it will create tension enough to cause disaster within myself & relationships i care about

GPS

12-26-2012, 03:17 PM

was really hoping for change or something.

MissItalianDiva

12-26-2012, 05:03 PM

Hy is on my mind...watching the clock til he is off work and walks through the door

Also trying to figure out what family activity we will all do tonight and what good movie we will watch after the lil bits go to sleep

DamonK

12-26-2012, 07:55 PM

Images and thoughts put in my head

little_ms_sunshyne

12-26-2012, 08:10 PM

Lesson Plans...an upcoming trip...The Water Cycle (yes lesson plans)...hys tie....Photosynthesis (more lesson plans)...and kisses. My mind never turns off!!!

Bard

12-26-2012, 08:30 PM

The snow falling right now and how much we will get I won't be home in time to dig out Desd before she has to go to work.. not that she is to delecate to do it her self she is more then able but I like to be able to do this for her. but she has to be to work at 530 and I don't get off shift until 6 :police: and while the snow is right purtty falling it is going to make my drive home umm harder

SleepyButch

12-26-2012, 09:45 PM

My nephew started coughing and had a high fever on Christmas eve, now my sister has the cough and the high fever today. I am starting to feel slightly feverish and my throat is scratchy. We all live together and I am not happy right now. I don't like being sick so hopefully I can fight off this virus.

Soft*Silver

12-26-2012, 10:00 PM

Republicans...

JustLovelyJenn

12-26-2012, 10:22 PM

my comfy bed with all its pillows and stuffed animals...

GPS

12-27-2012, 11:18 AM

thinking i got my answer. i guess this was a test for me, i failed.

Prudence

12-27-2012, 11:39 AM

----Mike. I hope he wasn't alone.

JustLovelyJenn

12-27-2012, 12:25 PM

https://sphotos-b.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ash3/63758_411256915621911_643136544_n.jpg

Talon

12-27-2012, 12:28 PM

That I really want to blow off NYC for Vermont this New Years...they just got major powder up there and I am drooling...

cinnamongrrl

12-27-2012, 01:29 PM

What is on my mind....

Is how some people can treat others with such disregard...that is what is on my mind....right....now....

SleepyButch

12-27-2012, 03:24 PM

With the end of this year coming up rather quickly and the passing of one of our own, I've just been thinking about how life is too damn short and how we take a lot of things for granted. I know I do anyway. I'm a little feverish today so please forgive my potentially overly emotional post that is about to be written here.

It sometimes seems like I never take the time to just tell people how I feel about them, whether that be my family, my friends, partners/gfs/dates/etc. I mean you can say I love you and it can become just a force of habit. Right?

I find myself asking... If they passed on or simply left your life completely, would they know how you felt just because you assume they do? If I was to go, would I be missed? Would someone feel sad that they didn't tell me how they felt?

I know if I lost someone who I loved and yet they never knew or I never told them, I'd have regrets, deep emotions regarding that. I know.. I know.. things happen for a reason.. right? I truly believe that but don't people generally like to know that someone cares about them? Loves them? Why not stop everything right now and tell someone, anyone.. how you feel?

Anyway, I just don't know... all I do know is that life, all life, is too short. I can only imagine that what I don't get right in this life, I hope will be worked out in the next.

IF you feel the same way, please forward this to 1000 of your closest friends... (just kidding).

Chris

laruss

12-27-2012, 04:24 PM

A friends mother died this week and the funeral is tomorrow.
This got me thinking about the year my mother died. January 2 it will be nine years. The first few years were the hardest, as we rushed her to the hospital on Christmas eve and then brought her home late Christmas day so she could open presents with the kids. She died at home, but those next few days were hell. We had the funeral on the 5th as my birthday is on the 6th and the family didn't want to ruin my birthday. I think it was already ruined.
It took many years before I celebrated the holidays at all.
So anyway... I've been thinking about that.

clay

12-27-2012, 05:34 PM

I agree with you totally, SB. I am a HUGE beliver in telling folks just how much I care for them. I always think of "today could be your last day, and if you felt it, but didn't share it, then it meant nothing".
I always believe in calling my close friends often, and saying that to them, so they DO know how much they mean.
I am one who gets attached very easily, deeply, and wholly. Time waits for NO ONE...so I am usually always the first to say "I love you" and majority of the time, I am the one who loves the deepest. That is okay, too, for each has their own ways.
This morning I saw Medusa's post about Mike, almost 2 minutes after she posted it. His death hit me hard...for I "felt" his sincerity, his gentleness, and his huge heart...and he has been on my mind all day. I tried to nap a bit this afternoon ( I am with the beginnings of a dang cold) but couldn't relax enough to get there.
I want my GF to always be able to "know" and to "feel" what I feel for her. I end the day with her, and I usually always text her when I get up to let her know I am thinking of her.
In my own huge heart of hearts, I am also easy to "forgive" others...because I want to let that "negativity" of bygones go. Of course, some things I can't "forget" but for most part I do.
Most of my posts I will end with "I heart you all"...for I truly do heart most people I know.
When that sun sinks, I want to have my heart be whole, clean, and pure...and I want my people to know they ARE loved..beyond all measure...and especially that one special gal...:).
So yes, love and showing people is on my mind.
The song If Tomorrow Never Comes, is always my last thought at night, so "she" will know..I always did..I always will. I do so now...

DamonK

12-27-2012, 07:55 PM

Several random things.

Most pressing is.. do I want crystal light or tea? Or both?
And... what's for dinner?

And... random music from my playlist.
And... random projects being worked on.
And... a potential sketch idea.

PaPa

12-27-2012, 08:19 PM

What's on my mind??

My frustrations with a prison system that sometimes fails it's people...I received a letter today from an old high school friend who I have not talked to since 2005 when he went to prison for something he did not do. That was 7 years ago..and right after he was sent up, his step-father died and they refused him to go to the funeral. I know things we experience change us...I just hope his change has not been for the worse...and I hope it has not hardened his heart toward others. *Sighs. He was such a nice guy too...just makes me feel badly that his path led there. I guess this calls for a re-read of the book entitled "When bad things happen to good people". :-S

Gemme

12-27-2012, 10:58 PM

Today has been such a difficult day.

Between the afternoon phones calls back and forth, unexpected bad news, Mike, not eating between 1:08pm and 9:51pm, a massive headache for most of the day and a few crying jags here and there, I am spent.

Really and truly.

I haven't been this happy to see a day come to an end in a very long time.

MissItalianDiva

12-27-2012, 11:04 PM

I am not even sure right now...sitting in a fog or at least it feels that way

TheDreadPirateRoberts

12-27-2012, 11:47 PM

staying in & watching the snow fall ...curled in blankets watching a movie ..& maybe even sharing hot chocolate & exchanging soft smiles with someone special

cinnamongrrl

12-27-2012, 11:50 PM

A friend.....and what happens next....

Daktari

12-28-2012, 07:59 AM

Spending twice as much as I anticipated on a ukulele. :|

falloutmk

12-28-2012, 09:38 AM

My mind is running through the different shades of polyamory that 3 people can make and how to make them work and function for everyone involved. Also kitties~!

Breezy

12-28-2012, 04:37 PM

I am monogamous. It's staying that way no matter who comes along.

Daktari

12-28-2012, 04:50 PM

Ukuleles ...still! However, I think it's narrowed down to 3 or 4 models now and two in particular.

DamonK

12-28-2012, 05:54 PM

I'm not really sure. I can't really make any sense out of the mess in my head.

sylvie

12-28-2012, 06:53 PM

Inhaling. Exhaling.
Learning to breathe and find the positives in things.
i miss my daughter terribly, right now. i am holding her close, regardless in hopes she will make some good decisions and turn her life around. i continue to worry about her, daily - that will never change.

However, i know eventually she will learn through life's lessons, and i am focusing on being grateful for her being safe, healthy and that she still calls me every night to tell me she loves me very much before going to bed.

She's 16 - beautiful, intelligent and very much loved with support all around her when she's ready for it. And i will continue to *try* and understand in the meantime, but sure do miss having her around. So i'm planning a girl's night, sleepover, with food, movies and girl stuff & can't wait!

deb_U_taunt

12-28-2012, 07:00 PM

fiscal cliff

Gemme

12-28-2012, 11:31 PM

My privacy was violated. I'm not sure how to feel about it.

Dash

12-29-2012, 12:18 AM

Working late tonight, but would really like to be sleeping.

VintageFemme

12-29-2012, 12:20 AM

...what to do, what to do, what to do

I'm off for the entire weekend with nothing to do. Quite a conundrum...

Bella~Vita

12-29-2012, 12:39 AM

lately it seems my mind never shuts off .... i realized something tonite , after a friend and I talked . I need new surroundings ... what to do ... I feel like I should be somewhere else. Mostly back in NY:seeingstars:

ruffryder

12-29-2012, 09:08 AM

thinking this tree is coming down today.

Looking at ours and wondering when this one is coming down! Ready for the new year!

Blade

12-29-2012, 09:48 AM

All the things I need to busy myself with today, especially outside while it is nice out. I have plenty to do inside as well but it can wait until the weather isn't suitable to be outside or dark.

girl_dee

12-29-2012, 10:32 AM

Paddywhacks :|

Andrea

12-29-2012, 10:39 AM

Thirteen young people in Missouri.

QueenofSmirks

12-29-2012, 11:23 AM

How drastically things can change in the blink of an eye

VintageFemme

12-29-2012, 11:47 AM

I dreamt I had tea & smoked a hand rolled cigarette with the Dalai Lama.

What could that possibly mean?

cinnamongrrl

12-29-2012, 12:03 PM

Just when I think I can't love that man of mine any more......

This morning, I was leaving for my super busy day and had a list of things to do so I could get back for the cable guy...So..first I couldnt find my keys...then luckily the dogs knocked over my work bag and there they were...I never put them there..I never would've looked there...thanks pups :)

SO..then I have my keys I'm ready to go cash my check..I can't get out of the driveway. It iced overnight and the landlord has NOT touched it....nor will she since she doesn't have a car...so I had pulled in and I thought if I turned it around I could pull out going forward instead of backing out. BAD IDEA. I got stucker. I tried everything even put a board under the tire...and dirt that I dug up spinning my wheels... sighh...the yard is a MESS....

Anyhow...as I was trying to rock out of the ice hell, I umm...kinda rammed into the snow plow (ironic, I know) that the landlady's bf uses as a lawn decoration apparently. The handle went RIGHT through the grill and cracked the bejesus out of it...I had to break it a little more to disentangle it.,,oh...and if that weren't bad enough, the power steering pump that I suspected was going, DID. So trying to fenagle out of that tiny place got even FUNNER. :)

Long story short, my ex was around and helped me get it out AFTER I got it mostly done...but still thanks to Chris :)
But...when I called Teddy...and told him what happened to the car, he said to me... "as long as you're ok that's all that matters to me...are you ok?" Sigh....Ive never known a love so good in all my days... <3

Daktari

12-29-2012, 12:50 PM

Tonights gathering of women at my sponsor's house for her imminent clean time birthday. :hangloose: :tea:

StoneOne

12-29-2012, 02:48 PM

whats left of the unpacking
the need to get the hose to the hot tub to fill it and get it heated
the trip to costco to fill the house with food and such
what the future holds

Scuba

12-29-2012, 03:21 PM

The struggles of a 15 year old...

Kenna

12-29-2012, 03:24 PM

a lot of heavy stuff...

DamonK

12-29-2012, 04:18 PM

Music.
Fiscal cliff.
Looming headache.
Projects.
Did I remember music?
School.
More music.
Visiting puppy.
Bed.
Conversations.
Possible food.
And finally... Music.

TheDreadPirateRoberts

12-30-2012, 01:07 AM

lots ....kinda rippling around in the pool....im not really sure if im ok right now but maybe a drink will help

firegal

12-30-2012, 01:23 AM

......a lot of stuff....too much

puddin'

12-30-2012, 01:42 AM

how sometimes your first impression o' somone is horribly, terribly wrong...

sierragirrl

12-30-2012, 03:26 AM

What is on my mind:
the jerks that fly down my road.and how lucky they are that no deer have jumped out in front of them..yet

that nothing will get me up quicker then the sound of the cat coughing up a fur ball.

i love listening to my youngest singing along to Adel

baby talking my pup

how im diggin life..it's really pretty fantastic

DamonK

12-30-2012, 03:33 AM

Now that I've downloaded lots of more music....

My playlist is now up to 259 songs....

And now it may be bedtime... I think.

DMW

12-30-2012, 08:34 AM

wondering what little munchkin stole the box of kleenex that was in this room?
Anyone want a beagle?

JustLovelyJenn

12-30-2012, 09:29 AM

I really can't believe I am up right now... However... I can't seem to go back to sleep.

Guy

12-30-2012, 09:31 AM

wondering what little munchkin stole the box of kleenex that was in this room?
that dog is not a pet and should be euthanized...seriously...there is a reason
that no one wants to keep her. Anyone want a beagle?

I really can't believe what I just read.

Wow

Seriously ?????

Talon

12-30-2012, 09:44 AM

Not a damn thing. And that's just the way I like my sundays.

TheDreadPirateRoberts

12-30-2012, 12:23 PM

deep cleansing breaths ....remembering to hold onto the good & letting go of what i cant control .....wishing for something i cant have.....though i may very well have a version of it the next few days ....determined to find peace in the rest of my day.....smiling thinking of good times & hoping that while im taking steps towards my own happiness...i can make others smile & happy as well ....that i can offer comfort & friendly affection .....
.....then i wonder about smaller details ....what she smells like....if i'll get my thai food tonight *laughs* ......what my dear ones are thinking....if im in a good enough place to be what she needs right now to help calm her anxiety about changes....if i'll randomly get a txt saying im being thought of....
im on my path....i have growing to do ....and im seeing things more clearly
im going to be the guy i want to be....and embrace who ive become in the last 2 yrs...im a better person because of those i have close in my life & their support gives me strength

DMW

12-30-2012, 02:39 PM

I really can't believe what I just read.

Wow

Seriously ?????

The dog is spoiled and taken well care of. Sadly, I have never not liked an animal...this one is exceptional and I am not alone in this sentiment. That is why it has had so many homes. And yes, seriously, this dog is that bad. I have had many dogs...this one is a Lucky dog.

Euthanize ...I wouldn't. So...no worries. I can understand why you asked.
It's a harsh post of mine.

Blade

12-30-2012, 04:07 PM

Mom texting me says..."your Dad has been gone a while" I hope this doesn't mean I'm going to have to go find him. Geez guess I should put a tracker on his van, so it's easier to hunt him down. Course it would be much easier if he would keep his phone turned on and answer it. He only turns it on to make calls.....yeah it's true he doesn't take calls only makes them.

DamonK

12-30-2012, 04:10 PM

...energy...

Electrocell

12-30-2012, 04:43 PM

Having to get back out on the road and not having a mom here to give my kitties love while I'm gone. The neighbor tries lol but they just aren't ready to give their love to her yet.

DamonK

12-31-2012, 02:05 AM

The song currently playing. A couple of simple verses make me ache.

...I should've kissed you. I should've pushed you up against the wall. I should've kissed you like I wasn't scared at all... ...You should've kissed me. You should've pushed me up against the wall. I was right on the edge and ready to fall...

JustLovelyJenn

12-31-2012, 11:36 AM

New Years is on my mind. Today is an important day. Its time to clean, everything, whether it needs it or not. Some traditions believe that by cleaning a home on the eve of the new year (or other holidays) you prepare the home and its residence to experience positive change and blessings.

So today I am how much cleaning and cooking I can cram into a single day!

I am also thinking about my resolutions for this year, and my bucket list... Where will my path lead in the coming year? What can I accomplish? And how do I stay focused on my long term goals?

TheMerryFairy

12-31-2012, 11:57 AM

What is on my mind? Boggle in the brain I tell you. I wonder much time I'll have to explore here. I keep changing the outfit I'm putting together for this evening but I've been told my plans aren't set in stone.

Talon

12-31-2012, 05:18 PM

Just getting through tonight...:seeingstars:

Prudence

12-31-2012, 05:59 PM

--Why do people call me and say "well, I was bored, and I can't reach anyone, so I thought Id call and talk to you." WTF! Here is what you can do with your plan C--- :thefinger:

DamonK

12-31-2012, 06:37 PM

The weather changed again. My ears are telling me quite painfully and sharply.

LeftWriteFemme

12-31-2012, 09:27 PM

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Jesse

12-31-2012, 10:00 PM

http://hansiriley.files.wordpress.com/2012/12/im-outstanding.jpg?w=300&h=300

DamonK

12-31-2012, 10:09 PM

Several things spinning around in my head.

TheMerryFairy

12-31-2012, 11:34 PM

I'm sitting here with a drink (okay a 6 pack), a stack of movies and blowing a party blower to celebrate the new year. I had a fantastic night out with a friend and now I get to come home, relax and enjoy having the bed to myself. What's on my mind? I never thought I'd be looking forward to a night away from my domestic partner. At least not like this. Tonight I feel free. I feel like the old parts of myself are starting to collide with the new woman that's about to emerge.
I'm thinking I'm greatful to have found new friends and a new way to interact with interesting people who can talk about random things and still manage to hold an intelligent conversation.
I wish I had my puppy for company. There's still no feeling quite like couch cuddles on a cold evening.

Spirit Dancer

01-01-2013, 01:12 AM

Renewal~Harmony~Health~Happiness~Love:moonstars:

DamonK

01-01-2013, 01:29 AM

The future.

TheMerryFairy

01-01-2013, 11:20 AM

Renewal, intimacy, a dream. Plans for the future both immediate and down the road. How much did I drink last night? :wine:

Daktari

01-01-2013, 12:11 PM

Cycling in the chilly wind and rain to the meeting very shortly. :cold:

clay

01-01-2013, 02:29 PM

The Pita Pit, dolphins, and.....ahemmmm....:)

girl_dee

01-01-2013, 02:52 PM

"Please respond the house is fully engulfed in fire and people are trapped inside"

worrying, wondering and waiting .....

DamonK

01-01-2013, 03:08 PM

She is......

Daktari

01-01-2013, 03:22 PM

The good -
My sponsee-sister and her 5yr clean time celebration today.

The bad -
The parlous nature of some friendships.

The ugly -
Working out what's your 'stuff' and what's 'their stuff' in a given situation.

TheDreadPirateRoberts

01-01-2013, 04:05 PM

whats on netflix 2 watch .....lol

TheDreadPirateRoberts

01-01-2013, 04:12 PM

Renewal, intimacy, a dream. Plans for the future both immediate and down the road. How much did I drink last night? :wine:

....as long as u had fun ....and u got home safe its what matters eh?

Sun

01-01-2013, 06:40 PM

Being peaceful is not an option, it is a way of life. I had to set a good example for the kids. My ex went from our relationship right to her ex and now they are a couple. They kids are totally confused. I made peace with the situation and wished them the best. Our 23 year old college diva's boyfriend said to me "you are like some kind of Saint to me because I could never do that".

I said to him "No, son, trust me, I am no Saint, but I am someone who loves deeply. I love her and I love this family. I do not approve of her choices but I can still love her enough to have peace. Peace, health and happiness.

If I am going to be selfish, I will be in anger. If I am going to walk my talk and practice what I preach, I am going to be in love. So by remaining in a place of love for all of us, I chose peace."

The young man who is 25 and a Navy veteran just stared at me and said "but I know I could never do this I don't understand"

I said "I am practicing Buddhism. None of this is about me. This is about her journey and she is on her path. It is not my job to try and change the direction of her path"

I am not sure that he or I fully understood this conversation but I am not living through my ego I am living through acceptance and love.

LeftWriteFemme

01-01-2013, 07:14 PM

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I'm thinking of a live I don't live anymore. I miss that life.

DamonK

01-01-2013, 07:32 PM

Passion
Hunger

TheMerryFairy

01-01-2013, 07:45 PM

I have terrible timing.

Kenna

01-01-2013, 07:49 PM

cranberry cheese ....

pajama

01-01-2013, 08:08 PM

The Boy's oral surgery tomorrow morning. It's the first time he'll have anesthesia since his surgery 11 years ago. All the docs seem to think it won't be a big deal. So I'm trying not to borrow trouble.

Then I have to worry about what to feed a 6'7", 17 y/o, male for at least three days that's liquid and filling. bwahahahahaha I'm thinking I'm just going to keep him heavily sedated.

jac

01-01-2013, 08:25 PM

How yummy these grape licorice straws are... :eyebrow:
I'm gonna have to try the strawberry ones soon :blink:

http://img341.imageshack.us/img341/3646/slicorice.jpg

Boots13

01-01-2013, 08:37 PM

but to narrow it down :

work, play; work so I can play...
friendships, not so friendships
finances, splurges, work so I can play.
retirement, salt mines, gerbil wheel, work so I can play
health and wellness...throw in some buffalo wings for good measure
fiscal cliffs, bungee jumping
wallowing, climbing
living, dying, reincarnation; living, dying, reincarnation....deja vu or groundhog day.

you know, thinking about regular stuff.

TheDreadPirateRoberts

01-02-2013, 11:51 AM

daydream thoughts.....i couldnt rlly get 2 sleep last night so i meditated for a lil bit n once again when i got up....i feel rlly good & now im jus kinda floatin in my mind.....its a good balance between thoughts directed toward self & others.....
my new resolution is to focus on the kind of guy i am...n i wanna b ..... not to worry so much about what the others have or where theyre goin ....or when ...we all have a different pace & once again im greatful for my dear ones to teach me that lesson ....my body is still goin thru a lot of changes wit hormones & my mind is too....but im determined to keep that balance & the duality i started out with before any of my evaluation started ... ill always be here for u ...that will never change ....& part of who i am is havin an open mind & open arms ...to listen...to care...to support & love unconditionally ...i will celebrate happiness in the lives of those i love because seeing them smile is the best gift i could ever receive

ruby_woo

01-02-2013, 11:56 AM

A friend who left me a message at 7:30 this morning asking me to call him, with a weird edge to his voice. I haven't been able to get a hold of him for the past two and half hours. He worries me sometimes.

DamonK

01-02-2013, 01:41 PM

Needs
Musings

PinkieLee

01-02-2013, 02:09 PM

What's on my mind...

how not so patiently I am having to wait until we can actually bring the new puppy home from the Humane Society. Application was approved (which was like signing my life away), now we just have to wait for her Heartguard test to come back all clear so they can have her fixed. THEN, the sweet baby will be all mine :)

DamonK

01-02-2013, 02:59 PM

A message received and understood

durrrrrrrr

01-02-2013, 03:55 PM

a cold , wet , winter day here today.

I am feelin somewhat better today

I have a fire going on in the fireplace, feels really comfortable right now

a nice talk with the boss man. I still say I have one of the best boss's I ever had in my life.

just a relaxing day, but I am startin to get somewhat bored...lol

Daktari

01-02-2013, 04:08 PM

The nature of friendship...again.
The subjectivity of reality.
Step three.

Bèsame*

01-02-2013, 04:18 PM

Congratulations!!

Is there a name for this new sweet baby yet?

What's on my mind...

how not so patiently I am having to wait until we can actually bring the new puppy home from the Humane Society. Application was approved (which was like signing my life away), now we just have to wait for her Heartguard test to come back all clear so they can have her fixed. THEN, the sweet baby will be all mine :)

durrrrrrrr

01-02-2013, 04:49 PM

laruss

01-03-2013, 12:56 AM

Life... and what I want, and how to make it happen, and how to balance that with what everyone else wants.

JustLovelyJenn

01-03-2013, 01:19 AM

My goals for the coming year are strong on my mind. I have planned many changes to help myself feel grounded and in control in situations that may be chaotic or out of my control.

Tonight, for the second day in a row, I made time to meditate. The experience was so fulfilling, so grounding, and so joyous that now I find myself awake and energized. When I finish meditation, I often write about the experience. Tonight's entry took two and a half pages and as I reread what I wrote, I was filled with peace and hope for the future.

Lazy Daze

01-03-2013, 07:45 AM

Lots on my mind..but most importantly I hope He enjoys His birthday :rrose:

PinkieLee

01-03-2013, 08:55 AM

Congratulations!!

Is there a name for this new sweet baby yet?

they are gonna name new baby "durrrrrrrr jr" :)

Hardy har har har.... Durx8 is so funny! (I know where you live mister!!)

The new baby is a chiweenie, with the biggest floppy ears I have ever seen! She is so clumsy looking, she is cute :) Her name is Ellie Mae!

durrrrrrrr

01-03-2013, 09:12 AM

Hardy har har har.... Durx8 is so funny! (I know where you live mister!!)

The new baby is a chiweenie, with the biggest floppy ears I have ever seen! She is so clumsy looking, she is cute :) Her name is Ellie Mae!

whaaaaat? I am shocked, y'all told me you was gonna name new pup after me :readfineprint:

PinkieLee

01-03-2013, 09:18 AM

whaaaaat? I am shocked, y'all told me you was gonna name new pup after me :readfineprint:

Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.... you must have had hallucinations during your flu/broncitis episode :winky:

Ginger

01-03-2013, 09:39 AM