What is on your mind

[Lazy Daze]

That one of my favorite country groups (Big N Rich) are coming in May and I would Love to go! But since I still haven't landed a job, and Guy doesn't like country...guess I will have to say No.

[Leigh]

Reading my horoscope for today, it rings so true of my life lately:

"Put everything you've got into personal gain. Invest in you and what you can do to improve your situation. Don't let anyone deter you from engaging in a project, activity or plan. Taking action will shut down any opposition you face"

I've been putting alot into myself the last week and a half since I said enough is enough. Learning to love myself is a huge project to engage in, but this investment is well worth it and in the long run I will be much happier than I've ever been ~ I'm starting to work on myself, and its more gratifying than I ever thought it would be :)

[luv2luvgirls]

Planning another trip to Austin,
how beautiful she is,

[bkisbutchenuff]

some people make me shake my head,yup your clueless I guess

enuff said....
Thanks

[luv2luvgirls]

enuff said....
Thanks

youve no idea,the good news is I do now and whew!!!

[Hollylane]

28 days :)

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: Your co-workers might misread your actions today if they don't understand your overriding philosophy of life. Unfortunately, you can contribute to the confusion if you don't take sufficient time to carefully explain yourself before you head off in a new direction. Let everyone know that you're not really abandoning them; you just need a little time to pursue some current interests on your own.

[StoneOne]

massage and scratch

[WingsOnFire]

wondering if I drive hym crazy. Lol. I know I can be a handfull. I really enjoy the conversations. :waitinggirl:

[Canela]

He is...and i'm wondering if i'm on his...

[jac]

The fact that I am up at 2:22am and not asleep :blink:

[scootebaby]

Its been a trying and somewhat rough 3 weeks. 1st i had to settle my WC case because i refused to do the triple fusion..That meant having to resign from my job of almost 16 yrs. Then tonight on my way home from Papa Johns where i was visiting and getting food I was sitting at a stoplight and some woman in a nice 2012 Infiniti thought it would be nice to ram her car up my ass. She hit me so hard that the PJ driver next to me said he could feel the "vibration" of the impact so hard he thought she hit him too. Luckily none of us was hurt too bad..
Soooooo..in 3 weeks times i have become unemployed with no prospects at the moment,literally broke,denied unemployment bc i was a lil less than $2000 shy of requirement,body aches horribly,and no car.Yet,despite all of these setbacks i find myself surprisingly optimistic. I have a smart,wonderful son. My girlfriend is the most loving,caring,wonderful,amazing person i have ever had the pleasure of meeting and the few REAL friends i have are absolutely awesome.

I dont know what tomorrow will bring,but i do know with the people i mentioned being in my life and loving me that everything will be ok.

To all of them i will be forever grateful! Thank you ALL!

[MissItalianDiva]

Hmm to sleep I took some benadryl but apparently much too early so now I am up too early...go figure lol

[Daktari]

...absolutely nothing!

[luv2luvgirls]

everything that was talked about lastnight, how much I like the way she is
looking forward to whats to come

[jac]

The freakin neighbor somewhere in my building with their music going! Base at 7 something in the morning... Really? It's Saturday for fks sake and you're in a single's apartment building :rant:
I see the sherrif may have to lay down the law in these here parts...
:fastdraq:

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: You might not be able to easily jump into a new project today because the sensible Taurus New Moon activates your 6th House of Habits, prompting you to stick closely to your regular routine. It's not that you're lacking ambition now; it's just that it's more important to finish what you already started before beginning something else. Keep things as simple as possible until you know where your commitments will take you.

[Leigh]

Watching so many Planeteers pairing up, hoping that one day I will find that one for me

[Mr Nice Guy]

Nothing really. Just hanging with my cat. :)

[Hollylane]

A nap is sounding loverly...

[luv2luvgirls]

she is and all we talk about. so easy to talk with

[Breezy]

Whether or not I want to learn to crochet. My daughter keeps telling me it helps relieve stress. I think it will end up in a corner from frustration. lol.

[Mr Nice Guy]

Wondering what's love got to do with it.

[ruthie14]

I'm pensive and sad. Someone who I thought was my good friend has pulled away. I have no idea why. Known her a long time... I think it's time to give up this friendship. I seem to be the only one who wants it at this point.

sad
Ruthie

[TIMBERWOLF]

Just finished one test of 7 to be able to take my National Certification test for MLD. My real test is class from the 28th to the 1st at 10 hr days, but I have to take this pre tests to even be able to take the class. So far i have passed the first one.............

[girl_dee]

todays Language test. It's a necessary step in the immigration process. It took me 2 months to get a test date and the closest venue was 4 1/2 hours away in Ottawa. SO this means a night in hotel plus me and A missed worked today. The test was a grueling 4 hours plus a 2 hour wait for a speaking test. My class had a 100 people in it. Each test cost $350.00. This part cost us about $1,200.00 between missed work, hotel, food, gas and test. JUST at this venue they give the test twice a month to a room of 100 people. Someone is making out pretty damn good on this whole process. Just another hoop in this whole process, i'll be an immigration expert by the time i'm done! i am just so grateful for Syr and A. !

[WingsOnFire]

The gorgeous weather that we had today. I went to the library this morning and found lots of fun things... then we went into town to the specialty bread store and sampled all of them. giggles.. not sure what is on the agenda for tomorrow.. maybe walking the dogs..

[luv2luvgirls]

lots of things are on my mind

[thedivahrrrself]

Wish I could sleep, big test tomorrow....

[ruffryder]

she is on my mind. wishing she was here to cuddle with.

[Breezy]

Work, my gf, the kids, the grand kids are all on my mind this beautiful Sunday morning. I am trying to figure out the best time for a Disney cruise. I don't know who would be more excited, the kids and grand kids or my gf. lol. Toss up!

[Julien]

Why is it that so many things I read seem to apply to my relationship? And not in a good way. It could be that I'm intuitive/thoughtful or too damn sensitive. Trying my best to work things out. Sometimes you just need a little help. I just hope that I can get back to solid ground.

[girl_dee]

That i'm looking at about $950.00 for my next flight to NOLA. Jeeeeze!

[jac]

This fun fact from a friend of mine who's an Egyptologist...

"Did you know that you can't do an MRI on a mummy.... MRI's use hydrogen molecules in water, and since a mummy is desiccated (all moisture removed), there is nothing for the MRI to detect."

*singing* Walk like an Egyption... :dance2:

[Quintease]

Under duress I finally showed my husband a DVD of my last wedding. It was really strange for me to watch it again. The actual day was very colourful and amazing, but I still hold a lot of bitterness over what happened afterwards, even though I've long since forgiven my ex.

He watched the whole thing and when it ended I asked him 'What did you think?'.

He thought for a moment before saying 'I think you're a dick, why didn't you dance with her?'

Despite outwardly coming across as an extrovert I really hate dancing in front of people (sober at least) so I'd refused to do the first dance with my ex wife and attempted to refuse it with him as well. Luckily he managed to change my mind, so there is now a video of me, in a white wedding dress, dancing with my husband but not my ex wife. You'd think he'd be pleased! But no, it just reminds him of how annoying I am :rolls eyes:

[Leigh]

Just thinking about life in general :)

[WingsOnFire]

Hy is... as always..

[Corkey]

Tomorrow and what the CT scan will reveal.

[girl_dee]

How short life really is and why truly wasting a moment of it is just kinda stupid

[puddin']

if der is only 1 person in chat, how does dat work?!! lol

[SoulShineFemme]

Ahem. we need a song. It's on my mind again...... ;)

[Leigh]

Just thinking about how sore I am today from walking around the mall 4-5 hours with one of my best friends, but I know in the long run it can only do my body some good :)

[Daktari]

The nature of pissed up (drunk) hat rustlers.

[luv2luvgirls]

how fortunate I am at this time in my life, I can make changes w/o the hassle of worry.How happy I am that I have that to fall back on.

[scootebaby]

i can finally get a hold of my ins...i hope its not a long,drawn out process..i do not wanna have to deal with another lawyer

that no matter how bad i think things are now they could be a lot worse

[morningstar55]

what is on my mind ....................

is Fla justice system is stupid.... i just can NOT believe they let this idiot out on bail......... i mean WTF!!!!

http://usnews.msnbc.msn.com/_news/2012/04/23/11343304-george-zimmerman-released-on-bail-in-trayvon-martin-shooting-case?lite

[Breezy]

Decisions, decisions, decisions.

Also, I may not talk to people here but I have a place to come read and work out some of what I need to work out internally.

[starryeyes]

Justin <3 <3 <3

[Leigh]

How easy the conversations are :)

[WingsOnFire]

conversations that began with frustration and ended with understanding and a new outlook on how to make it bloom again.

I love you Sir....

[asphaltcowboi]

listening to the breeze blowing the japanese wind chimes.. remembering "mom" brought those home from a vacation.. letting my mind relax an wander all over. praying my family has a safe ride down here for bike week. thinking im a week away from the 3rd aniversary of my ex passing.. wow i never though i could live alone this long. never though i would still be feeling it. wondering if the woman ive never met could be the next one for me maybe im making a mistake by not talking with her. thinkin i was lucky the doc gave me my injections in my back today(he usually only will on thru) so ill be able to ride this week. lol my mind is all over the place this eve.. does that mean it will be empty tomorrow?
ha ha duno!

[Just_G]

I am getting back to what I used to do...thinking good, positive thoughts, and looking forward, not back. It is time for my life to keep moving on a positive path....I want to be successful, I want to be kind, I want to be loving, I want to make people smile, and I want my heart to be happy.

My heart is very happy..it is my mind that is so busy trying to avoid that left at the fork in the road...I must stay positive, I will continue to tell myself every day that I am on the right path, and no one or no thing will deter me.

My life is good. I am thankful.

[starryeyes]

The yummy smells coming from the kitchen!!! Thanks Breathless!! :-D

[JoSchmooze]

It hit 101* here in Tucson yesterday.....and I thought of this from 15 years ago......

Go Where It's Warm

Ask yourself
what are you really
getting
out of your behavior
are you full
or are you empty
trying to empty others
I did not know a kind person
from cruel
long ago
so I asked my friend
how do I know
where to go
who's nice
who will treat me
right
go where it's warm
she told me
I had to stop asking
why they were mean
distant cold shitty
and start asking
why am I here
what am I getting out of this
no one is a victim
everyone's a volunteer
it may take a moment to
figure out how
to dodge the bullet
but so long as you're trying
you ain't a victim
if I bang my head on a brick wall
five times
and get five lumps
why am I surprised if I
bang it a sixth time
and get a sixth lump
insanity
doing the same things over and over
expecting different results
they may not treat you as you deserve
are you making the choices
you desesrve
that's where
backbone and spine come in
I took her advice
went to where it's warm
started holding myself responsible
for where I found
myself
my life
if you have to wonder if you are loved,
it's too cold
if you have to sit in darkness too long,
it's too cold
if you are hurt, more than you are nurtured,
it's too cold
if you don't feel whole full secure
it's too cold
go where it's warm.

[Leigh]

Got alot on my mind right now, but all good :D

[Kenna]

I was sleeping so sound... now wide awake before alarm is due to go off... the thoughts on my mind are less overwhelming today, especially since a bank deposit has been made. ... I'm thinking how good it will feel to get home to my Peaceful Pond Cottage for a three day weekend and to meditate on my "fork in the road". ..things might feel overwhelming at times, but I must remind myself of just how much more positive things are than a couple years ago... thanks G, for reminding me to step back and be thankful for the positive.

[Tommi]

Knowing the lawn needs a haircut, and so do I~

, the roses big and beautiful, cut and arranged for a shut in, the kitten asleep on my foot, and knowing that I can do this, one day at a time.

[bright_arrow]

We should be closing on our house VERY soon now..
Our wedding is in 32 days.... :blink:
Excited to see what our chaplain comes up with for the ceremony :rrose:

Just sometimes it still surprises me... my sister texted me earlier "Dude...You're getting married in a month!"

Hell to the yeah I am :cigar2:

Now what the hell will I post about after we have purchased the house and gotten married? Egads.....

[Gemme]

I should be sleeping.

:|

[Kenna]

The hotel ...so far away from home... feels so cold and sterile tonight ...not a comfy luxury welcoming familiar feeling ... with working so hard and spending so much time on the highway, how can I bring a bit of that home comfort with me? All wrapped up in my warm, fuzzy bathrobe missing my puppies and my own bed... the sounds of the country as I walk outside barefoot under the crisp clear sky... the comfort of my own surroundings and home, familiar sounds, feelings and sensory inputs .... .being free to walk about as I please without disturbing my neighbors ... I need to find temporary housing here, but am very hesitate to give up my farm house because of how safe and comfortable it is... good thing the airplanes aren't too noisy tonight and there's no rowdy neighbors slamming doors..

[girl_dee]

That i can never sleep when She is out on a call, especially a fire call.

:fireman:

[puddin']

nsdj9NRzqC4

[VintageFemme]

remind me to clean up. tomorrow.
today, we're dancing.

[Breezy]

One more time or no more chances? This is the question that begs, no demands an answer.

[bigbutchmistie]

How sometimes love is never enough. And how royally it sux when that happens

[spritzerJ]

that the sappiness of the last few months has really started to take hold in my live. When one reads a biography about Karl and Jenny Marx and starts to go ahhhh how wonderful you know sappy has gotten you bad.
and yes a giant book on the Marx's is what one checks out when the sprout rushes the book selection time at the library.

[bright_arrow]

That i can never sleep when She is out on a call, especially a fire call.

:fireman:

Your rep: Funny lady! :) Perhaps!

I know the feeling, when Bard gets a call at work :police:

[StoneOne]

cold can bring to mind and how my brain hid the off switch.....

[Hollylane]

How proud I am of her. She works so hard, putting in so many hours with her new promotion. I know she is looking forward to our vacation, and deserves it, completely. By the time she reads this (she is working hard at this very moment), we will only have 23 days left until we meet in VB. :)

http://www.world-guides.com/images/virginia_beach/map2_virginia_beach.jpg

[StoneOne]

and what it can change
what it can bring
how at times it can slow as if waiting for just the right moment
or speed up to show you just how precious it is
or stand still giving you the glimpse of what has always been right there......

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Maybe I need to rethink this college path I am on! Do you think the banks will just forget how far in debt I am getting just so I can finally be what I want to b when I grow up. Nope me either so on I go and on and on

[StoneOne]

you will have an answer
you may like the answer
you may be confused by the answer
you may dislike the answer
but it will come
It happens as it should

[luv2luvgirls]

whatelse but that late night call... Woman Im crazy for you and all the things you do

[Talon]

That I really need to get myself to bed earlier, and stop staying up so late into the night. :candle:

[justkim]

On my mind...
Court this afternoon for the restraining order that is currently in place against the father of my grand baby...

Medical testing that is necessary... That should have been done 5 years ago...

Changes at my job that have many wondering what the hell is going on...

[Tommi]

My life's changing course, sometimes cut short or winding long , I course the rivers without a map, and dock when I can and then move on.

http://www.riveroflifemidwifery.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/11/river_of_life_midwifery05.jpg
http://images2.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20110506075047/mysticgrove/images/f/fb/Grove_water2opt.gif

[StoneOne]

will all shake out......
sometimes I would Love to see into the future...
sometimes not...

[Turtle]

My door is open - and the smell and sound of the rain is good for my soul...

http://www.thegardenerseden.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/05/Spring-Rain-at-Ferncliff-%C2%A9-2010-Michaela-at-TGE.jpg

[Justin]

Getting back home to my girl tonight :ambulance: I will have the sirens on !!!!!

[starryeyes]

Getting back home to my girl tonight :ambulance: I will have the sirens on !!!!!

hahah! Well, you only have the sirens on cause you know whats waiting for you when you get here Big Daddy! And that's on my mind! :1femme:

(which will likely include the dogs jumping on you, ferret licking you, smoke break with Morgan, ironing and a shower, and passing out on bed with an infomercial on.. lmao)

LOVE YOU!

[clay]

sending lots of healing energies for a very dear friend.....wishing her the very best!!! Know you are so loved and needed here.....big hugs...I am holding your hand...all the way!!! Godspeed my friend!!! I love you!!!....:bunchflowers:

[MsTinkerbelly]

Looking forward to next week and my surprise (I don't know where) Birthday trip, and to vacation in a few weeks.

Gotta love being married to a Travel Agent!

[bigbutchmistie]

I wished my heart would stop breaking. I love her so much. It sux when love is never enough.

[girl_dee]

That all i want to do in life is help people and be a good person. i hope i'm succeeding.

[Hollylane]

In Maryland right now, there are only 22 days remaining until "shore time" with my butch...;)

[Sunny]

Absolute Frustration........Why is this happening!!!!!!!

[SnackTime]

My two finals next week...

The results of Mom's checkup in a few hours...

[girl_dee]

Rainbows, unicorns and the meaning of life.

[JAGG]

My morning run! And how much I love to sweat! It feels so good. 70 degrees at 4 am with 100 % humidity. I feel so good right now . I love feeling so fit and healthy, makes my heart smile. I'm grateful my body is strong and keeps humming along now matter how much I pile on it. I am very lucky and I don't take it for granted. I'd love to be able to still do this when I'm 70.

[Julien]

She is on my mind, as always. :flowers:

[QueenofSmirks]

My final - due this weekend
But more importantly, 2 poker tournaments this weekend! Okay, maybe not "more importantly" but certainly more exciting!

[Leigh]

What's on my mind is the smile that i had the other day ~ it was so big, and now its just gone *poof*

I want it back! :(

[Breezy]

I am just so grateful for everything in my life and everyone in my life. We've all had some big losses over the years and more to come but a new birth is so exciting and overrides the losses. Each new grand baby is welcomed the same way with the same intensity of excitement. He will be so loved by all of us! He already feels like an old soul returning.

[StoneOne]

need to be
it is just like you going about your day and
BAM
how does the Higher power do that ? How does she know what you need way before you do ?
<--- stunned but Smiles BIG
it's been awhile

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: Recent confusion may trigger open conflict today, yet a passionate discussion can clear the air of ill feelings and lead to an unexpected agreement. However, you might develop resentment if being stuck in a debate prevents you from reaching your goal. Trying to sell your solution now only widens the gulf. When you acknowledge the differences instead of avoiding them, antagonism will morph into cooperation and common ground can be established.

[jac]

What is on my mind is my niece and her first pregnancy with all the differnt complications she's having along the way. My family is worried and upset the baby may not be born, dare I say, "normal" or "healthy?" It's taken me years to get to where I am in my thought process and understanding of the challenges life presents us, and it could also be because it's technically "not happening to me," but let's just pray that we have the strength, love and energy to care for this baby in whatever way it is born to us.
My heart is with you, little angel to come :heartbeat:

[WingsOnFire]

Wishing I had a bed instead of an air mattress that has a big bubble in the middle that just might explode soon..:blink: :| this happens to be on DamonK's side of the bed... giggle...... it makes life...ummm... difficult...

Hoping that I can find a cheap bed after I get paid.. anyone know of a good place in Portland?

[luv2luvgirls]

that was a wierd dream :blink: on a better note its amazing what a couple hrs can do for your mood .. now I wish my baby was up I miss her :)

[firegal]

My lil sis is at her 7 hour chemo now...thinking of her,her courage

[starryeyes]

It's only 9:50am!? Ugh this is the day that never ends..... Yes it goes on and on my friends... :( :explode:

[Gemme]

I haz 2 phones and neither of them are ringing.

[WingsOnFire]

I actually have money and can go on a date tomorrow!

[Daktari]

More naval gazing stuffs :|

[WolfyOne]

I spent my day off mowing lawns at my mobile home park for a lot less money than it's worth. The sad part is I did 30 lawns, still have 2 to go and won't get paid until I finish. I work 2 shifts tomorrow, so I won't finish until Sunday. I felt bad for the park manager because the new owner won't let her hire anyone for more than $50, so she asked if I could do it. The lawns haven't been mowed for at least 3 weeks and the lawn mower the owner left us is not self propelled. I have at least 3 blisters on each hand, exhausted and hungry, but don't feel like cooking or going back out for food, so my only other option is to order a pizza or scrounge in the cabinets and fridge. Oh and did I mention I'd never do this lawn mowing gig ever again. It was so not worth the amount of hours I've already used on it today and the 2 hours I spent weeding yesterday. Saying no and walking away will be my only words next time. Why oh why am I so nice most of the time.

[sylvie]

Growth, of an amazing kind..
i have always said throughout the journey of parenting, that i gain lessons from my children as much they do from me.
And i always appreciated seeing the world through their beautiful, innocent eyes..
Today was no exception - as teenagers, they have the ability to still teach me things about them, life & myself.

Sometimes we forget to listen, really listen to their feelings & they way they perceive things..
Even if it isn't how we mean it as parents, it's important to know how they see it as young beings..
Communication is so important - & it brought my daughter and i that much closer today..
And hearing her tell me that i am her best friend and the one person in the world that she feels close enough to share anything with..
That meant the absolute world to me.. And i appreciate her feelings, thoughts and honesty from the bottom of my heart, even with the hard stuff..

< ---- a more mindful, understanding & proud momma..

[Leigh]

I just sometimes wish that things would finally work themselves out ~ it gets annoying after awhile :p

[Abigail Crabby]

500 stands between me and sanity right now nuff said

[starryeyes]

I get off work in 10 min..... Yayaya! Im ready for the weekend!!

[Breezy]

I just put my boss on my prayer and healing list. He injured himself and is too stubborn to seek help.

Work has me slammed again.

[Dominique]

Gee whiz! I'm slightly bummed out. I've been working towards a fun goal of being a tour guide in Pittsburgh. I love this city and want to help show it off to others. I thought maybe I'd work for *just ducky tours* the amphibi boat truck things....and just love Pittsburgh even more.

Well, it turns out, I need a dual license to do this. A class B, CDL, with passenger endorsements (OK I have that) but now, after applying...they tell me, I need a maritime license. My kayak license (small watercraft) doesn't count. I need to captain a ship for a thousand hours to get a maritime license.

Comparing *just ducky* to a tour bus just doesn't have the same appeal.
I'm going to have to process this for awhile.:vigil:http://cache.marriott.com/propertyimages/p/pitok/phototour/pitok_phototour34.jpg?Log=1

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: You are receiving a burst of positive energy now, but it's not without complications. You're ready to take a trip -- in the real world or within the realms of your own mind. Either way, you have something to learn and are eager to get started. But first, you must take care of your chores. You won't be able to step into the next adventure until you finish what's already on your plate.

[StoneOne]

times before and you all are prolly over it but

the Higher Power speaks to and if you choose not to listen it's on you

[Random]

One rose bed done, one to go and about 50 MILLION weeds to pull in the big flowerbed...

The sun is not out playing today, making what is generally a good time into more of a chore...

[luv2luvgirls]

wishing I was on the phone,needing to hear her voice

[Rook]

I need a kick-ass hybrid bicycle, and a few warm sunny days....
consecutively....

[SoulShineFemme]

My 16 year old niece and her friend are sleeping peacefully upstairs.... I'm wondering how long I should wait before I give them an obnoxiously cheerful wake up call.... Muahahah!

[pajama]

wishing I was on the phone,needing to hear her voice

Yeah. What hy said. Only with my own "her", not hys "her". :)

[luv2luvgirls]

Yeah. What hy said. Only with my own "her", not hys "her". :)

its always the perfect way to start my day :cheesy: congrats paraja

[Sparkle]

London is on my mind.

[QueenofSmirks]

Poker tournment in 2 hours!! :)

[Miss_J]

So I was laying in bed, half asleep still just trying to open my eyes and focus on the day when I begin to listen to the news... something about how Obama can't blame bush anymore for the economy and as long as he can keep saying the economy is getting even a little better, then he is in the clear.

The economy is getting better?? hmmm... This is what I see in my neck of the woods and frankly everywhere I've been in the past couple of years....
Small business is losing out and fading into history, fewer stores for people to spend money at means they have to go where they can get what they need, larger stores that sell it all and the mass majority go to for thier goods. So the larger stores show a better bottom line but its at the cost of the small business...
Such a vicious circle we spread to thin and then have to regroup to the mass build ourselves up just to spread out again. When will we find that perfect balance to sustain our society?

[Miss Scarlett]

This weekend with Clay...a most wonderful day yesterday...a bench...a beach...having a "half-goat" at lunch (lol...not the actual animal, we're talking cheese)...frozen custard surprises...:winky:...perfect shells...that beautiful feather we found...horrid traffic in St Augustine was way worse than in Jacksonville...the strange Shih Tzu man...small gator in the canal...the pod of dolphins we saw on Friday...my car now 75% safer to drive...lol...weiner dog wake-ups...laughing together about a certain picnic menu...pics taken...ugh, now we have to unload my car but we'll be doing it together and that makes it enjoyable...

[Leigh]

My future, possible career and just life in general

[Cid]

So I was laying in bed, half asleep still just trying to open my eyes and focus on the day when I begin to listen to the news... something about how Obama can't blame bush anymore for the economy and as long as he can keep saying the economy is getting even a little better, then he is in the clear.

The economy is getting better?? hmmm... This is what I see in my neck of the woods and frankly everywhere I've been in the past couple of years....
Small business is losing out and fading into history, fewer stores for people to spend money at means they have to go where they can get what they need, larger stores that sell it all and the mass majority go to for thier goods. So the larger stores show a better bottom line but its at the cost of the small business...
Such a vicious circle we spread to thin and then have to regroup to the mass build ourselves up just to spread out again. When will we find that perfect balance to sustain our society?


The worst part is that many of these stores are buying their goods from third world countries, not the United States (or Canada) so they aren't even putting their own country to work. So not only are the small businesses closing, but the factories that make the goods to be bought in these stores are also closing. It sucks all the way around.

Wouldn't it be nice if Obama made it a law that at least 1/2 to 3/4 of the merchandise has to be from your own country? Imagine how many people would be working then. Not only that, but more would be buying too.
Why is it so hard to figure that out?

[Hollylane]

Her deductive reasoning skills turn me on ;)

[luv2luvgirls]

1440.. yep that is what is on my mind ;)

[Gemme]

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/04/29/averys-bucket-list_n_1462637.html?1335726556&icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl1%7Csec1_lnk3%26pLid%3D156342

This baby with SMA and her parents, who are blogging her Bucket List.

She's not expected to make her 2nd birthday.

So sad, but I love, absolutely love what her parents are doing to raise awareness of Spinal Muscular Atrophy.

[pajama]

You know, I really enjoy being a loner. I enjoy the quiet solitude of my head. While I like hanging out with friends and can be social with the best of them, I do not require constant company. Also, like my Mother, I don't have many people that are close friends. I don't have anyone, even my one closest friend, that I require or even like to talk to every day. But very, VERY rarely there are days like today. A day that I wish I had that someone that I could just go to, lay my head on their shoulder, feel their arm around me and just get lost in my grief. A friend that would reaffirm what I know, but am having trouble grasping in the moment. That for everything there is a time and a purpose. That patience, while not my friend, can be a companion. That if it's meant to be, it will be. Just to help remind me of my joy, that will return quickly, while I wallow in my despair for the short moment.

*sigh*

[Ginger]

You know, I really enjoy being a loner. I enjoy the quiet solitude of my head. While I like hanging out with friends and can be social with the best of them, I do not require constant company. Also, like my Mother, I don't have many people that are close friends. I don't have anyone, even my one closest friend, that I require or even like to talk to every day. But very, VERY rarely there are days like today. A day that I wish I had that someone that I could just go to, lay my head on their shoulder, feel their arm around me and just get lost in my grief. A friend that would reaffirm what I know, but am having trouble grasping in the moment. That for everything there is a time and a purpose. That patience, while not my friend, can be a companion. That if it's meant to be, it will be. Just to help remind me of my joy, that will return quickly, while I wallow in my despair for the short moment.

*sigh*

Pajara, I loved what you wrote and really related to it, especially this part:

"That patience, while not my friend, can be a companion."

I think patience is stronger for me when I look back and admit that there's a cycle—things went up, went down, went up again, and so on. Yeah, based on what I've already experienced, I can say with some confidence, It gets better—sometimes not as fast as I'd like, but in general, I turn it around. I always called it "resiliency," that ability to outlive the bad parts, but I think it's also a function of "patience." :)

Thanks for your post!

[clay]

Waiting for her to get home tonight, from our wonderful weejend (though always wayyy too short)
Going for my Scans with contrast and labs the 8th, wishing I had someone who could go with...:(.
Meeting a new friend for luncg Thursday
Wondering about a dear, dear friend of mine...
Wishing we didn't have to say goodbye each Sunday
Knowing this will be a longgggg, longgg two weeks...:(
Missing someone...very much...
HOW could they have done that?????
Hoping for comfort for the family affected by that accident we saw last night...:(...just horrible...:(

[Kenna]

A certain friend and wanting to help them survive their hardships ...I've been in his shoes.

[sierragirrl]

Wishing i could zoom down to So Cal for memorial day weekend so i can visit with my soon to be 92 yr old grandmother,as i wont be able to be there for her birthday in July. Instead we get to go to Pope county at the end of July..woofukinhoo :|

[genghisfawn]

I have an alarm clock that's got to be about 12 years old, and every time I set it I get all paranoid that it won't work. The little Alarm light doesn't always come on when I set the switch, and I can't leave it alone until I can see that it's shining steadily. Then I usually wake up a few minutes before it's due to go off and just watch it until it does, then I wonder, "If I'm waking up this early, anticipating my alarm, am I actually sleeping or is my body ticking away seconds unconsciously until it's sure it'll beat this infernal clock I keep forgetting to replace?"

Sleep is complicated sometimes. A friend said, "Just get an alarm for your phone." Although I've just spent a paragraph describing my distrust of my alarm clock which is so deep that it obviously manifests all the way to the level of subconscious... it's still older than my phone and thus more trustworthy.

I never said I was completely sensible.

[luv2luvgirls]

I have so much to do and 34 days to get it done, well I got a couple things done that counts right :|

[Miss Scarlett]

Waiting for her to get home tonight, from our wonderful weejend (though always wayyy too short)
Going for my Scans with contrast and labs the 8th, wishing I had someone who could go with...:(.
Meeting a new friend for luncg Thursday
Wondering about a dear, dear friend of mine...
Wishing we didn't have to say goodbye each Sunday
Knowing this will be a longgggg, longgg two weeks...:(
Missing someone...very much...
HOW could they have done that?????
Hoping for comfort for the family affected by that accident we saw last night...:(...just horrible...:(


Yes Honey, our weekends are definitely wayyyy too short...

i wish i was able to go with you on the 8th...it's killing me that i cannot and my boss will just have to deal with me being completely distracted that day until i hear from you...

Sundays are truly rotten! On the plus side, my new, safer route means i can leave a little later...

i cannot stand the thought of being apart for 2 weeks! We'll have to do what we did the last time...

They're just bad people Honey, just very very bad people and the Universe will deal with them accordingly. Not very comforting, i know but it will...

The image of that accident victim is burned into my brain...i feel horrible for them to be lying there in the highway for who knows how long while the police work the accident scene...i pray the family is never aware of that. i also pray for comfort for their family...

[Miss Scarlett]

Thinking about Saturday and how difficult it was for Clay...wishing i could have helped more...both angry and sad at what hy lost due to the selfishness, greed, laziness, apathy and dishonesty of "friends"...even though it impacted our time together for the next 2 weeks (among other things) i'd do it all over again to help hym and be there for hym...

How hy transformed a heartbreaking and stressful day into something so beautiful for us...THE conversation we had at Flagler Beach...this weekend further strengthened our commitment to each other...thank you for such an amazing weekend Baby...i love my Sexy Silver Butch!

[~ocean]

** wishing some who don't have a peacefull mind .. inner peace **

[StoneOne]

When do you say stop
When do you start living the dream again
When do you forgive
When are you paid in full
When do you open your arms
When

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind right now.... the list is endless (damn you ADD)

I feel nekkid today because I ran outta the house forgetting to put on my jewelry.

Is the sea of moving boxes multiplying... and where did all this crap come from?!

What's for lunch because my stomach is growling?!

Wishing that the laundry fairy would make a stop at my house today.

[WingsOnFire]

phone conversations with hym in the garden with the dogs playing like the silly pups they are. Smiling ear to ear. Beautiful weather. Happiness.

~~~~~~~~~

Talking with him about life in general. Plans for the week, time set aside for both of them. Undying love and understanding.

Happy girl :waitinggirl:

[Turtle]

Last weekend -
http://t0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTeUw7b3lAmFvVdfpR0aJq93eUMYCAqX j_mU8u93EA-VhB315VA

Yesterday -
http://t2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQqDqmj0vLOH4lXuQvmO_6QkynURvT0B Iun6y2sAH1OxBxW8i0k
http://t2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRas6WDSctGNVfDQ8jvUB7olmidafU5t 2oFgw_s1lut5OkblKmkrw
http://t0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcTs409lG_EMCjpkiZR0DihnMa3uhP8_m UOMQRd0gHitCAAFz2SKGg
Blessings Abound

[Julien]

Flirting and flirtatious behavior. Been weighing the good and the bad, thinking about parameters of flirting and imposed boundaries.When does the flirt become something else, more concrete, an action, an agreement? I guess the question is what is considered flirting? I have a feeling that it is different for different people. Do we come to some type of "agreement" as to the boundaries of flirting? Just musing the concept of flirting.

[Talon]

Some major life-altering decisions that have to be made within the next several months.

[Cid]

Why is it that when I go to the see the doctor, I have to pay to park my car in the parking lot? Haven't the vultures (owners of the buildings) extracted enough money from the doctors for rental space? Do they really have to go to the elderly and the ill to consume more money? How disgusting one must be to take advantage of the elderly and the ill in that way.

I really hope Karma kicks their greedy asses!

[Sassy]

Sagittarius: You're all dressed up today and ready for the show. It feels as if your time has arrived and you need to swing into action to maximize your potential. You are riding a wave of positive planetary cycles that leads you to believe you can accomplish anything you desire. Obviously, you can get a lot done now, but it's still not a smart idea to bite off more than you can chew.

[RockOn]

Be glad when 5:00 p.m. is here. I think I have experienced the clumsiest day of my life.

I poured 7-UP in my shoe and on the base of my khakis at lunch. Soaked my socks and had to put on a fresh pair. Shot a squirt of that germ killer hand lotion on the other trouser leg around 2:00. Just a little while ago, I dropped a clump of peanut butter into my keyboard. :(

[Daktari]

The sponsor/sponsee relationship.

[Gemme]

How something lovely can come from something quite hateful.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/04/30/college-dropout-jason-pad_n_1464835.html?1335816706&icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl1%7Csec1_lnk3%26pLid%3D156624

[jac]

Two things actually:

Losing my Presidential Pin and still not being able to find it. The most prestigious honor one can achieve from the university... and it's gone. :sigh:

Trying desperately to let go of that dream I had a couple of days ago and still not able to shake it no matter how hard I try... :blink:

[Ginger]

Two things actually:

Losing my Presidential Pin and still not being able to find it. The most prestigious honor one can achieve from the university... and it's gone. :sigh:

Trying desperately to let go of that dream I had a couple of days ago and still not able to shake it no matter how hard I try... :blink:


That sucks about the pin. I wonder if the loss of the pin and the dream have any connection at all. Not asking you to share it, just putting it out there. Losing a significant object can be really loaded, emotionally. But you didn't lose the thing that got you the pin, you just lost the pin. And I don't mean "just"—it's AWFUL to lose things that mean a lot to us. Maybe the school can replace it? Just a thought.

Hope it clears up soon.

[girl_dee]

How cool it is to be getting dark so late!

[Gemme]

I am trying to keep it simple right now, so I'm just thinking how yummy this margarita candle smells.

[Hollylane]

I'm waking up properly, with my butch on the phone enjoying coffee with me, and I'm thinking about how much more she is showing me of herself every day. It wasn't enough that she is handsome, smart, and responsible...Now I'm finding out she's romantic, sweet, thoughtful and absolutely scrumptious. I apologize, but I am also compelled to mention her biceps...YUM! :) Even better, she is into me. How lucky am I, that I get to experience all of this in person in 17 days? :)

[luv2luvgirls]

32 more days and I just did a couple more things... Im on a roll

[spritzerJ]

I am just not seeing how to get it all done in the evenings. Seems like it is one nag fest after another and a race to bed time with the sprout. gggrrr... and sometimes when the other teachers at school gripe about how parents don't do enough with kids at home I wonder why they are so judgmental. Many of them parents them selves. Haven't they a clue? I could go on and on about the minute by minute of the evening but I won't. suffice it to say i am on guilt overload.

and I know this will be massively unpopular if I said it at work, but come one home work should be significantly limited, or eliminated. Can we switch homework to be read to enjoy and learn, connect with each other/community and organize for the next day? Sigh...

[WingsOnFire]

Hy is... worried about hys pneumonia... hoping hy gets to rest soon so hy can get better... that is nasty stuff and not to be messed with...:tea:

[sierragirrl]

My nieces mother is upset that a corgie who was 9 yrs old is getting put down as i type this. Seems when he was a wee pup a heavy table landed on him,everything healed cept for his head.Evil lil sausage dog he was,he ended up bitting her brother in the face last night..while i am sad this happened im glad it wasn't my niece who is 2.
RIP Peety.:praying:

[girl_dee]

How well rounded my life feels right now. i still have some healing to do but i am so headed in the right direction.

Syr, School, work, play, pups, family, home

[sylvie]

How good it feels to be getting everything back on track .. i am starting a Weight Loss Support Group at work this week, and i'm excited, full of ideas but scared too.. i hope i do okay, i've never done anything like this before.. Not to mention college, trying to get everything together, for taking such a big step in my life at 39 years old.. Working towards my LPN, that's exciting and scary too..
my exercise, working with a personal trainer soon to up my program - and really just all the positive changes i am making in my life.. Putting my foot forward and pushing myself in ways i never have before - and having the confidence to say i can do this ..

It feels damn good!

[luv2luvgirls]

I am hungry :blink: I never wake up wanting to eat but dang my stomache is grumbling and I am hungry... what to eat hmm

did I just sound like pooh bear :| theres a rumbly in my tumbly :cheesy:

[Silverseastar]

My ex who is a friend is looking for a home in my neighbourhood for her current gf and her 3 kids. She is seeing a place this morning and called me up to have coffee.

Thing is, her new(ish) gf of one year has never met me and says my ex can hang out with me but doesn't want to know about it. This might become weird if they live a few blocks from my house.... :|

So I'm thinking about how odd the whole thing is, that I never want to go back to this ex (I left her) and that really we might make awesome friends if you can stop being worried about who I am. Otherwise....awkward!

[Silverseastar]

Aaaaand, she just rented the house. This should be interesting.

[luv2luvgirls]

Hoping her day starts to get a little better.. I always have her on my mind. how amazing she is, how much I like all her many layers and just who she is. everyday gets better and I cant wait to see what tomorow brings.. its a different flavor everyday of the week ♥

[Julien]

The arthritis in my shoulders, can't lift my arm to wave hi to everyone. :byebye:

[luv2luvgirls]

Aaaaand, she just rented the house. This should be interesting.

well dont let the ex's new gf get to you its her hang up.. and what an odd comment you can hang as long as I dont know about it :blink: I dont know about anyone else but I like full disclosure. I would like to think my girl could trust in telling me anything like that and know I wont get crazy over it. Why should I ,she is bieng transparent,its when they dont wanna tell ya stuff that causes issues IMO and this is just my thoughts on it.

[girl_dee]

a boy named Jessie that i wonder if still has his arrowhead hanging on his wall.

[jac]

I FOUND it!! I fooooooooooooooouuuuunnnnndddddd my Presidential Pin!! :cheesy:

Doing the Happy Dance!! Woop Woop!!
:ymca: Village Peeps style!!

[Daktari]

Programme, programme, programme. :deepthoughts:

[jac]

I was thinking of doing a Master of Social Work degree online through BU in about a year from now. The thing is, I really don't have my heart in getting a degree in social work. I want to study either LGBT Studies or Gender Studies. So I'm wondering if anyone knows of an accredited online Master program in either of these studies?

I just feel more strongly toward earning my next degree in one of these programs. Not to mention it works so much better with my plans to open a queer homeless shelter someday...

I'll be doing some research on this but I was just wondering if anyone knew of anything that I could look further into. Thanks! :)

[puddin']

dat i need to get me silly ass outta bed and go cook some bacon & eggs...

[Ginger]

I FOUND it!! I fooooooooooooooouuuuunnnnndddddd my Presidential Pin!! :cheesy:

Doing the Happy Dance!! Woop Woop!!
:ymca: Village Peeps style!!


That must feel SO GOOD!!!! :)

[Silverseastar]

I dont know about anyone else but I like full disclosure. I would like to think my girl could trust in telling me anything like that and know I wont get crazy over it. Why should I ,she is bieng transparent,its when they dont wanna tell ya stuff that causes issues IMO and this is just my thoughts on it.

Oh my goodness, me toooooo! I would rather know hands down what is going on. It feels so odd to have it be awkward like this. My ex keeps pushing her gently towards acceptance. It isn't about me as she has never met me. I guess it's more of what I symbolize based on some sort of past experience or something.

[bright_arrow]

Alotta stuff! Honestly can say I am looking forward to June 1 - our chaos will finally settle a bit (until you think about the fact that we will be moving too.. lol)

[Kenna]

Trying to compose my thoughts ....
my mind is scrambled after the past few days...
I wouldn't be able to express my thoughts cohesively ... someone might read me wrong and think I'm flirting :)

[Kenna]

Note to self... charge battery and get more whipped topping for my strawberries

[puddin']

how spot on da dvd set o' series 1 o' game of thrones is. a lot o' it is quite how i'd imagined it...

[Ginger]

how spot on da dvd set o' series 1 o' game of thrones is. a lot o' it is quite how i'd imagined it...

Game of Thrones possible spoiler related to Season Two

I love Game of Thrones! I love it that a little person has a seminal role (and that he is kind to prostitutes), that women kick ass from time to time, that a giant, tall, blond butch plays a no-nonsense, swash-buckling, sword-fighting royal guard (oh when she gets down on one knee and swears her allegiance to the queen, swoon!), and that there is a baby dragon who cooks pieces of meat with his breath.

Season One was riveting and Season Two continues to be visually majestic, magical, and just great story telling.

[pajama]

Game of Thrones possible spoiler related to Season Two

I love Game of Thrones! I love it that a little person has a seminal role (and that he is kind to prostitutes), that women kick ass from time to time, that a giant, tall, blond butch plays a no-nonsense, swash-buckling, sword-fighting royal guard (oh when she gets down on one knee and swears her allegiance to the queen, swoon!), and that there is a baby dragon who cooks pieces of meat with his breath.

Season One was riveting and Season Two continues to be visually majestic, magical, and just great story telling.

OMG I know exactly what you mean. When she kneeled....that was one of the hottest damn things I've ever seen. I kept thinking "I wonder if Lady Stark knows how lucky she is." And yes, I love the dragons. I just hate that they killed off Kal Drago. He was kinda sexy too.

[puddin']

i'm into book 4, but can only get season 1 dvd set hea in nz. so no spoilers, jus' serious anticipation now...

[Point~Of~No~Return]

trying not to forget keys pieces of evidence to take down a dirty corrupt executive

feel like santa clause making my lists

:police::cigar2:

[Prudence]

Wonder if I'm trusting to much. Am I leaving myself open. Am I taking everything as truth. If I am, it will be to late when I find out.

[puddin']

what a georgeous, phat full moon it be...

[luv2luvgirls]

That its only 27 and a half days left
I still have quite a bit to do before then.

[Ginger]

OMG I know exactly what you mean. When she kneeled....that was one of the hottest damn things I've ever seen. I kept thinking "I wonder if Lady Stark knows how lucky she is." And yes, I love the dragons. I just hate that they killed off Kal Drago. He was kinda sexy too.


And I can't wait for that king, the sadistic little prick, to get what's coming to him, LOL

Do you notice how strong the youngest women are? The little girl dressed like a boy for a while, and the teenage queen-to-be engaged to the little prick?

I like for those characters to be out there in the world counterbalancing the ditzes little girls are encouraged to model themselves after.

[Ginger]

Wonder if I'm trusting to much. Am I leaving myself open. Am I taking everything as truth. If I am, it will be to late when I find out.



Trust is always a risk, IMO. You don't trust too much or too little, you either trust or don't trust—it's like being a little pregnant, as they say.

If you think you're trusting too much, that's distrust (again, IMO).

I think it's almost always worth it, though. Each time I trust unwisely, I realize I wasn't listening to my own inner warning system. I wasn't trusting myself.

Of course I'm not talking about the kind of encounter one might have with a skillful sociopath, who is able to disarm a person's inner warning system without that person knowing it.

I'm just talking about, regular people engaged in the usual struggle to be close.

I'm not trying to advise you, Prudence. Your post just got me thinking.

Wishing you happiness.
IslandScout

[StoneOne]

up and back on 85

[BrutalDaddy]

The fact that we're watching episode #4,893,094 (okay that might be a teeny bit overblown) of House Hunters......

I think we've seen every single house in the United States now....

[WingsOnFire]

How much I love him and how he takes such excellent care of me. Even when I am an emotional girl he still loves me....not sure how I deserve such a wonderful Sir.

[Hollylane]

I had a wonderful weekend with my Butch, talking, laughing, watching movies, and doing domestic things as if we were in the same house. I woke up this morning wanting more than ever to be in her arms. There are only 11 days left until that happens. :)

[bigbutchmistie]

How much I love her and am trying like hell to get over her. How much she has shaken me to the core of my soul. And how none of it matters at the end of the day.

How I dont understand how she can just push her feelings aside for me.

And how what did I ever do to deserve this? I am so tired of hurting, and missing her romantically.

[genghisfawn]

This week is going to be intensely brutal. There have been major changes to the project on the client's side, to which we've had to respond with major changes of our own. Still everything rolls forth as originally planned, yet we're still in change management.

Bronchitis doesn't help. *wheeze*

I just need to get through this week. After that I'll be far more comfortable and more than mildly happy at work.

[Ebon]

Apparently it's everyones birthday today.

[NJFemmie]

I hope they like what they read and call me!
*no stinkin' thinkin'*

[Leigh]

Whats on my mind is that it would be nice for someone to take a genuine interest in me, and not fall out of interest as fast as it happened :(

[funkyfemme]

Hot and Sour soup. That is what's on my mind at this very minute.

[Silverseastar]

Today it's that some people are not good communicators like they seem to think they are. That it erodes my trust in humanity each time someone plays these sorts of childish games.

[NJFemmie]

My thoughts are with Mare - hoping she deals with a very difficult and sociopathic employee with some detachment and calm today.

[ruby_woo]

I hope the nice weather hangs around- I ripped all of my winter tights (I might be a klutz), and don't feel like buying more.

[Sweet_Amor_Taino]

Thinking about how great it feels to not have to compromised
not feel on the edge worrying if I am saying the right thing.
Moving forward and leaving friendships that brought me sadness and hurt behind.

[Charming Texan]

Being out sick today I wanted to put an out of office on my Outlook for work sorta like this:

Today, I am sick. Take a deep breath. CALM THE FUCK DOWN PEOPLE. You will survive and the earth will keep moving, and not fall into an apocalypse if I do not respond to your email today. If you're lucky, you'll hear from me when I want to get back with you. Laters.

[Leigh]

Just thinking about the future!

[femmsational]

wal-mart....and how much I really do NOT want to go there today.

:seeingstars:

[NJFemmie]

I wonder how Mare is doing at work today... I know she dreaded going in ...
The day is dreary and kinda blue....
I find Maxwell arguing with a bird amusing....
I wonder where that beautiful bengal cat that has been lingering around our yard came from ....
There's far too much pollen on my car and I am wondering if I should hose it down or wait for the rain that's supposed to come ....
I think I'm hungry, but I'm not sure ....
I could use a nap ....

[puddin']

dat i really need to re-stock da glucosamine now dat cold weatha is hea...

[Mr Nice Guy]

That I really like making new friends on this site. That's why I'm here. :)

[~ocean]

whats on my mind !!! space and time, knowing...

[Leigh]

Having fun in the chatroom, getting to know many cool members of the Planet :)

[MrSunshine]

Old age creeps up like a bad set of fucked up undies.

[girl_dee]

How amazing my butch is, She fought the fires all day and still made my birthday so very special. :fireman:

[Soft*Silver]

I am taking high doses of pain meds to deal with the tooth infection I have. I am seeing the dentist on Weds. But while I am waiting, the razor sharp pain in my mouth is wearing me down. I cant even put my tongue on that tooth. Thus, the pain meds.

Pain medication does a number on my personality. I am not so much fun to be around. I have to give it to chrissy for understanding how to deal with me. he darts in and out of the room, bringing me items, checking on me, then giving me space. I hate being fussed over when I am in pain. I am likely to chew someone's arm off.

I remembered today, some of my exes and how they dealt with me when I was in pain. Some did rather good. And a few, deserved Worst Partner of the Century awards. Glad those days are over. Glad the one here is a good person, and reads me well.

Weds is just a day and a half away...we can do this...

[luv2luvgirls]

WOW that was a hell of a lot easier than Ebay.. people coming a little later to pick it up all done and free for me to sell :blink:
thanks baby

[WingsOnFire]

how sweet hy is and how hy worries when he hasn't heard from me. I am blessed to have two special people in my life.

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind.... wishing this horrible headache would go away. It's a throbbing pain at the base of my head... OUCH :(

[StoneOne]

what will it be ? what will we need to do ? will we have to go on defense ? will we be able to breath easy ? I guess the answer is not the point it is not knowing ......

[Breezy]

How to help one of my co-workers? :seeingstars:

[TimilDeeps]

Wednesday Night Baseball

[girl_dee]

a long chat with my old boss and friend, he sounded like he did the last time i talked to him, burnt out and tired. i worry about him.

[dixie]

I'm relieved that my financial aid for fall and next spring came through. I'm happy to have only one class this summer rather than a full load, because it will allow me to have more time with my honey. I miss her something fierce. (f)

[princessbelle]

What great men i raised, who are pro women and respectful and stand up for our rights.

I had wanted girls, honestly, but was given boys. I thought OMG what do i do with them, how do i teach them, how do i relate to them. Somehow along the way they turned out pretty dad gum wonderful. Now, that they are men, they are so in tune to the gay world, our struggles, our daily fight with prejudice, and they recognize the misogyny and will stand up for our rights.

I am just so darn proud i could bust. :)

[pajama]

I've had so much on my mind lately. Enough that it's kept me tossing and turning the last two nights. But today, some of it got resolved. Some of it money, some of it logistics, and some of it relationship.

And while I knew it would come, and I knew it would be painful for Her. I still hate to see Her go through it.

I love this community that gives me an outlet and a support system.

[BrutalDaddy]

Just wishing like hell that I wasn't so internally torn when it comes to what is best for everyone versus what's best for me.

Ever since I've been able to think for myself, I've had no issues with going down paths less used by those like me. I always tried to put the good of others in front of my own selfish wants/needs. Yet here I sit now struggling because of what I've learned in the past few hours.

Why can't I just have it my way and their way? It's not like I can just ignore the facts and do what I feel like I want. Just doesn't work that way anymore.

Maybe I'm evolving. Maybe I'm just getting cranky with each passing year. Maybe I just need to sleep on it. Maybe I just need to realize that it'll never be easy to decide which will take priority. Damned if I do, damned if I don't.

It's just so hard to understand. Having one foot in one part of this world because of my beliefs and the other foot in the other part of the world because of who I am. That makes it so much harder. One side judges me because of where my left foot is planted and the other judges me because of where my right foot is planted.

Why can't everyone else just come out of the dark ages so EVERYONE can be happy and feel like they belong.

Bleh,
Brute.

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind...

a long overdo vacation. Daydreams about someplace tropical, floating in a pool, shutting the whole world off for awhile. And a cabana boy & girl wouldn't hurt either :)

[Ginger]

I am taking high doses of pain meds to deal with the tooth infection I have. I am seeing the dentist on Weds. But while I am waiting, the razor sharp pain in my mouth is wearing me down. I cant even put my tongue on that tooth. Thus, the pain meds.

Pain medication does a number on my personality. I am not so much fun to be around. I have to give it to chrissy for understanding how to deal with me. he darts in and out of the room, bringing me items, checking on me, then giving me space. I hate being fussed over when I am in pain. I am likely to chew someone's arm off.

I remembered today, some of my exes and how they dealt with me when I was in pain. Some did rather good. And a few, deserved Worst Partner of the Century awards. Glad those days are over. Glad the one here is a good person, and reads me well.

Weds is just a day and a half away...we can do this...


I hope you felt better after seeing the dentists. (I think your appointment was yesterday.) I wish you hadn't had to wait, that seems so cruel.

[ruby_woo]

Allergies, unfortunately. I never had them until I moved to BC. I sneezed so loudly in the bathroom at work a minute ago that it actually echoed.

[Point~Of~No~Return]

next steps in the cause of action

who to bring in who to leave out

pictures speak volumns

which course of action for phase 2

:pirate-steer:

[Talon]

I'm just really worried and concerned about a very close relative, who may have to have one of her eyes removed...(the good one).

I truly love her...and it's really killing me to see her emotional anguish, and dealing with so much physical suffering.


....:watereyes:.....:heartbeat:.....:worried:

[shiagirl]

If i told ya then i'd have to _ _ _ _ Ya! ;)

and get Your mind outta the gutter please. tee hee

[Luv]

I just found out that all three of my brothers kids got Baptized this past Sunday..we were at their house Saturday and they didnt say anything to us about it..Im kinda frustraited cause that sucks..so much for the family huh ? :(

[sylvie]

The other night, walking home from an OA meeting, a man attempted to attack me..

As i came to the corner and started to turn, he stepped out and pushed me against the building with his arm across my chest, holding me tight so i could barely breathe.. He kept yelling in my face, and i could barely understand him..i remember trembling, and thinking what do i do.

In any situation i feel threatened in, my first instinct is to kick.. i have strong legs, and given the chance i kick like a mule.. He was pressed hard against me, yet i managed to lift my leg enough to get my foot on him and push him off me, i admit i was aiming for his nuts, but whatever worked at that point.

Once i pushed him a bit off me, i grabbed my bag full of recovery books, and swung with all my might, connecting my bag to the back of his neck/head and i screamed while doing so, and took off running... Once i got myself to a more open and populated area, i turned and was ready to take him on again if need be, i was seriously ready to kick his ass i think...Not sure where it all came from, but he had ran in the other direction..

Once i got home, after calling the police, etc....i had my meltdown followed by a hot shower and Daddy helped calm me down.. The upset doesn't hit me until i am safe, i was scared, SO scared...

And be darn if that jerk will make me paranoid and scared to walk like i do.. i am happy that i 'can' defend myself now, and very happy that he wasn't behind me when i turned back around. The last couple of days, i have been petrified at every corner i turn. i have been looking over my shoulder and glaring at every passerby.. i don't want to be this way!

But seriously, counting my blessings that he didn't get whatever he was after, and that i wasn't hurt..that's what counts..
(well okay, that AND the fact i clobbered him with recovery books!!)

[Cid]

OMG Sylvie, you're amazing! I'm not sure how I would have reacted. So many times I've thought...if this ever happened, this is how I would react. Until the day that it does happen and I react totally different from what I thought.

You were a hero! You stepped up and took care of yourself and defended yourself to the point where you had him running away from you! You did so good!! You should be so proud of yourself.

I'm sorry that happened to you and I'm pretty sure you wished it didn't. But at least you know that you can defend yourself when confronted.

What you might want to do now though is find someone that you can talk to about this. This is really a traumatic event and should be treated as such. Don't just shrug it off. You need to deal with this before it gets to you.

[Ginger]

The other night, walking home from an OA meeting, a man attempted to attack me..

As i came to the corner and started to turn, he stepped out and pushed me against the building with his arm across my chest, holding me tight so i could barely breathe.. He kept yelling in my face, and i could barely understand him..i remember trembling, and thinking what do i do.

In any situation i feel threatened in, my first instinct is to kick.. i have strong legs, and given the chance i kick like a mule.. He was pressed hard against me, yet i managed to lift my leg enough to get my foot on him and push him off me, i admit i was aiming for his nuts, but whatever worked at that point.

Once i pushed him a bit off me, i grabbed my bag full of recovery books, and swung with all my might, connecting my bag to the back of his neck/head and i screamed while doing so, and took off running... Once i got myself to a more open and populated area, i turned and was ready to take him on again if need be, i was seriously ready to kick his ass i think...Not sure where it all came from, but he had ran in the other direction..

Once i got home, after calling the police, etc....i had my meltdown followed by a hot shower and Daddy helped calm me down.. The upset doesn't hit me until i am safe, i was scared, SO scared...

And be darn if that jerk will make me paranoid and scared to walk like i do.. i am happy that i 'can' defend myself now, and very happy that he wasn't behind me when i turned back around. The last couple of days, i have been petrified at every corner i turn. i have been looking over my shoulder and glaring at every passerby.. i don't want to be this way!

But seriously, counting my blessings that he didn't get whatever he was after, and that i wasn't hurt..that's what counts..
(well okay, that AND the fact i clobbered him with recovery books!!)


Some people just have to be hit over the head with the power of recovery before they change their behavior.

Seriously...your instincts and actions were RIGHT ON!! What a brave woman. That fucker will think twice before he tries that one again.

[Reader]

The other night, walking home from an OA meeting, a man attempted to attack me..

As i came to the corner and started to turn, he stepped out and pushed me against the building with his arm across my chest, holding me tight so i could barely breathe.. He kept yelling in my face, and i could barely understand him..i remember trembling, and thinking what do i do.

In any situation i feel threatened in, my first instinct is to kick.. i have strong legs, and given the chance i kick like a mule.. He was pressed hard against me, yet i managed to lift my leg enough to get my foot on him and push him off me, i admit i was aiming for his nuts, but whatever worked at that point.

Once i pushed him a bit off me, i grabbed my bag full of recovery books, and swung with all my might, connecting my bag to the back of his neck/head and i screamed while doing so, and took off running... Once i got myself to a more open and populated area, i turned and was ready to take him on again if need be, i was seriously ready to kick his ass i think...Not sure where it all came from, but he had ran in the other direction..

Once i got home, after calling the police, etc....i had my meltdown followed by a hot shower and Daddy helped calm me down.. The upset doesn't hit me until i am safe, i was scared, SO scared...

And be darn if that jerk will make me paranoid and scared to walk like i do.. i am happy that i 'can' defend myself now, and very happy that he wasn't behind me when i turned back around. The last couple of days, i have been petrified at every corner i turn. i have been looking over my shoulder and glaring at every passerby.. i don't want to be this way!

But seriously, counting my blessings that he didn't get whatever he was after, and that i wasn't hurt..that's what counts..
(well okay, that AND the fact i clobbered him with recovery books!!)


Wow, Sister. Good job. Glad your instincts kicked in.

[Ginger]

OMG Sylvie, you're amazing!

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What you might want to do now though is find someone that you can talk to about this. This is really a traumatic event and should be treated as such. Don't just shrug it off. You need to deal with this before it gets to you.



Absolutely. Sylvie, the cops should have pointed you toward crisis counseling when you gave your report. I'm sure there's something in your town...often those services generate from a women's center (just as LGBT services start at a women's center, before they get their own).

(And tangentally, I might say, why is that so? Why do women's organizations give up their meager funding to take care of the world? Because we're trained to do so... let the Elks fund it out of their pocket for a change! Okay, my rant is over.)

[Reader]

Absolutely. Sylvie, the cops should have pointed you toward crisis counseling when you gave your report. I'm sure there's something in your town...often those services generate from a women's center (just as LGBT services start at a women's center, before they get their own).

(And tangentally, I might say, why is that so? Why do women's organizations give up their meager funding to take care of the world? Because we're trained to do so... let the Elks fund it out of their pocket for a change! Okay, my rant is over.)

Having worked a bit in the system, I think this might partly be because a lot of the same folks work (or volunteer) in places that have overlapping populations. So, folks who work or volunteer at the Food Bank also may work or volunteer at the Rape Crisis Center, etc., and they tend to advocate for the clients across agencies.

[StoneOne]

it that Doc's can forget everything and then look at you that you have lost your mind or even call you a liar???? when you say that you have been mistreated by some one in their office????

[sylvie]

Thank you so muchly, everyone..<3

Definitely proud today of how i handled it..
Thinking back to some years ago, i was beat up by two women who didn't like me because i am gay - i remember curling in a ball hoping they would stop, crying..not once did i defend myself, even with words..

And even being bullied over the years, i took it.. Every emotional beating.

< new confident girl feeling her worth & ready to protect self when need be.. i am mindful about what's going on internally about all of this, and will seek help!

[Daktari]

Unmanageability. I slept straight through two alarms and have missed the first session of a training course this morning...tsk!

[Ebon]

Thinking about all the crap I have to do for my birthday party.

[Lazy Daze]

The other night, walking home from an OA meeting, a man attempted to attack me..

As i came to the corner and started to turn, he stepped out and pushed me against the building with his arm across my chest, holding me tight so i could barely breathe.. He kept yelling in my face, and i could barely understand him..i remember trembling, and thinking what do i do.

In any situation i feel threatened in, my first instinct is to kick.. i have strong legs, and given the chance i kick like a mule.. He was pressed hard against me, yet i managed to lift my leg enough to get my foot on him and push him off me, i admit i was aiming for his nuts, but whatever worked at that point.

Once i pushed him a bit off me, i grabbed my bag full of recovery books, and swung with all my might, connecting my bag to the back of his neck/head and i screamed while doing so, and took off running... Once i got myself to a more open and populated area, i turned and was ready to take him on again if need be, i was seriously ready to kick his ass i think...Not sure where it all came from, but he had ran in the other direction..

Once i got home, after calling the police, etc....i had my meltdown followed by a hot shower and Daddy helped calm me down.. The upset doesn't hit me until i am safe, i was scared, SO scared...

And be darn if that jerk will make me paranoid and scared to walk like i do.. i am happy that i 'can' defend myself now, and very happy that he wasn't behind me when i turned back around. The last couple of days, i have been petrified at every corner i turn. i have been looking over my shoulder and glaring at every passerby.. i don't want to be this way!

But seriously, counting my blessings that he didn't get whatever he was after, and that i wasn't hurt..that's what counts..
(well okay, that AND the fact i clobbered him with recovery books!!)


So very very very proud of you Sylvie! You did a great job!

On a side note...THIS is why Everyone should take a self defense class of some sort! I used to volunteer and teach free classes when I was in Indiana. The free classes are out there, so take advantage!

[BrutalDaddy]

Fixing to change careers again.....lordy. This economy is making it hard to support family but I refuse to let it get me down!

So truck driving here I come!!!! Gonna suck being gone all week long and only seeing her on weekends but I am stoked that the money will start flowing right away. That makes it all worth it.

Kinda Worried About the Honey-Do on the Weekend,
Brute.

[WingsOnFire]

worrying about things I can't do anything about but wishing I could help in some way.

Also the chicken enchiladas for my anniversary dinner

[genghisfawn]

So...

This guy on my project team at work is a buddy of mine. His wife taught me Christian Ethics in my grade 9 year and she is a complete sweetheart - I won him over by sincerely saying so. He plays soccer and really tries to keep fit and all the rest.

He says to me the other day, "I'm trying this new diet cleanse. Basically all you eat for about a week is bananas, raw almonds and cruciferous vegetables. Greek yogurt is good too if you can't eat that many almonds. Want to try it with me?"

So yeah, I'm not rail thin like the other woman on our project team. I'm a curvy kind of baby deer and I affectionately refer to the podge on my belly and bum as "puppy fat" even though I'm a little past the age where it could still be true. But he's always got his foot in his mouth up to his knee anyhow and I like him, so I want to give this thing a go. Nothing he mentioned will poison me, and I'm a big girl and I'll either do it or give it up as I so choose...

... until I remembered how tenacious he is. So the determined streak in me began to show when I said, "Sure, let's do it," and I bloody meant it. He e-mailed me this diet sheet and all I could think was that it'll just give me gas and make me grumpy because you can't have cheese on ANYTHING, which to me is tantamount to misery.

See, when I was 9 my Baba offered me something to eat (which she did every 20 minutes, I swear to God, and now I am the same freaking way.) I said, "No thanks, I'm on a diet." SMACK up one side of the head and SMACK down the other, then she's yelling, "You must not diet! You will grow too thin and no man will ever want you!" Then of course I relented and she made me a snack, because at age 9 the idea of no man ever wanting you is so very empirical and absolute yet so grown up that you can't even wrap your head around it, so best not to diet... just to simplify matters so that worrying about men - or boys, even, for pete's sake - can come later.

So even when I adjusted my diet to suit living with celiac disease after my diagnosis, it didn't change that much. I still ate bread - just different bread. I still chow down on the pasta... just different pasta. And potato chips, Cheezies (Americans, do you know what you're missing there??) and Tostitos are gluten-free...

Thus I've never dieted to lose weight or feel better or anything. My diet is balanced but I can and sometimes do eat like a workhorse. I am sturdy and healthy and happy... but this little challenge stirred something a little odd in me. Maybe it's because I'm proving myself at work, or maybe it's because I was the kind of person in university who would do speed or coke or shrooms just once for the sake of knowing what it was like to be really screwed up. I'm going to put a positive spin on it, though... I think it's for the sake of team-building and because I want to try something I wouldn't ordinarily do that's a little more ethically neutral.

So here I sit, determined to see this thing out if only to see what kind of stuff an extreme diet will do to your body. I'm eating a bell pepper (which I've cored and pithed) like an apple and feeling more and more pissed off and hungry by the minute.

I want some cheese on this thing. Lots of it.

[Hollylane]

Gaige....Packing for our trip...what to wear, what to wear...OMG...what am I going to wear...


and now...thanks to genghisfawn...


http://www.nostalgiaholic.com/wp/wp-content/uploads/2008/02/newbag1.jpg

:|

[luv2luvgirls]

21days.. thats whats on my mind.. and her of course

Im thinking how long these next 3 weeks feel when I think about it being another 3 weeks. Then I think wow I have alot still to do and only 3 weeks :|

I am excited,the more I think about it the more excited I get

[luv2luvgirls]

Now I have my brother on my mind,I am helping him cut down 4 trees in his yard that have died,so far we got one down and cut up and piled near the fire pit. yesterday we tied the next one to come down off,and today we will cut it down and get it piled near the pit. I am really glad to have such a close bond with my bro. Im glad im the one he comes to when life gets to him. He's been calling me over alot the past few weeks,He was getting nervous about his job,and yesterday he came home early and called me over. I guess now we have all the time we need to cut down those trees.. im very thankful I am the one he leans on and vice versa.
I also lol when his wife and him fight she always says call Ri.. I calm him she says :cheesy: Hell she has called me and said call ur bro! lol

[girl_dee]

heading to work, bringing only good for me munchies and will keep my hands out of the candy bowl.

[Gemme]

Stupid phones and really bad customer service.

I loathe mediocrity.

[girl_dee]

That i can just imagine Gemme saying *LOAATHHHHH*


That i feel mothers day is a flippin Hallmark Holiday

[Julien]

Thinking wishfully....:sunglass:

[rustedrims]

Working on my 30th year at the same place..I make a comfortable living for myself..That isnt important to me anymore..
Kids are grown..
Think i need to start over doing something else..

Getting restless...