What is on your mind

[lilapache]

laying here listening to the complete soundtrack from the wall.. and thinking... wow... so much in my life started out reflecting this music... and still does... wow i'm such a freak... lol

[TheMerryFairy]

Daydreams and lots of them. I am not awake enough to think about other things. Maybe herbal tea.

[Sparkle]

My Best Femme has been diagnosed with breast cancer. She's going to be okay. It's been caught very early, she has the dream team of oncologists and plastic surgeons, her wife has worked in oncology for most of her career and she's chosen a course of treatment with a 99+% positive outcome. But its going to be a tough summer of recovery for her. I'm all ready to be 100% strong and organized and useful for her, and for her family. But I am still a little scared.

[TheMerryFairy]

I am just floating in my daydreams as the sun begins to set and wondering what I should cook tonight. Maybe I will grill and sit in my tent for a little while to enjoy some self-care time!

[Blade]

Since I didnt win the lottery, I guess I better set my alarm for work tomorrow

[LukeCian]

On My Mind: Her, always. I adore her more than I can put to words. She is My world and the Sun that shines on Me each morning.

I love you, My babygirl. (f)

[TheMerryFairy]

Why is it so hard to find a decent phone plan that will work for what I need???

Is it going to stay nice enough to use my tent tonight?

I hope today is a good day, for everyone.

I am thinking about certain people, random project things, making lemonade and that I still have laundry to fold.

[Daktari]

Tomorrow's 'official' medical. I'm crappin' m'self. Those that know about these things in the UK will know why I'm crappin' m'self. :|

[maryam]

The midwest is on my mind today. Scary tornadoes.... Hopin' all our friends and family are okay. My Oklahoma rellies had all checked in as of 8 am this morning, but this afternoon looks worse than yesterday.

[JAGG]

5 tornadic storm cells poised to hit us in 30 min!!!!!!!!!!!!! One right after the other. lined up in a row. SHIT!!! Don't think we will dodge this one.
Famous words of Chesty Puller " They are on our right, they are on our left, they are in front of us and behind us, they can't get away this time!

[Daktari]

Eeekorama! I hope you and yours are safe Jagg.

The folks of Oklahoma and wherever else in the path of the tornado (which was briefly mentioned on the BBC 10o'clock news) are on my mind.

[JAGG]

Eeekorama! I hope you and yours are safe Jagg.

The folks of Oklahoma and wherever else in the path of the tornado (which was briefly mentioned on the BBC 10o'clock news) are on my mind.

Thank you Limey!!!! One storm down 4 to go that one didn't hurt, just pea size hail and a little windy. A little rain. Ready for the the next one bring it !!!!!!!!!!! Nothing for a hard charger like me. :)

I am betting the home owners assoc. meeting at 7pm in cancelled . lol One good thing came out of this so far. hahahaha

[Soft*Silver]

I am frightened for all the people in the path of this storm....

[jac]

What's on my mind....

How things are happening for the shelter kids since the feng shui has been started... and enhanced. Kids are coming in with jobs, finding housing, and even having success with medical needs.

And I haven't even gotten the four directional animals on the walls yet... or smudged. :)

Just think what successes will take place when I get those things done... :cheer:

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Work *sigh* and everything under the sun!

[girl_dee]

Tornadoes and how much weather can affect Earthlings....

[Cailin]

a dark and cold room, a light sheet for a blanket.... maybe some bad b rated movie.... and some company to hold and sleep with.

[~BluEydFemme~]

Being in Hys nice warm bed with the A.C. on....Watching a good movie....And snuggling....Hoping and praying I can visit Hym soon.......

[maryam]

Wondering what I'm doing wrong at work, promotion-wise. I'd be more obsessed about it, but the rest of the managers from the Program That Went Boom are in a worse spot than me. I still have a "leadership" position and 3 of the others are collecting unemployment. The other two are working solely as reps again.

I try to tell myself that it's clearly not me; it's like the PTWB kind of contaminated all of us, and I came out the best out of the 6 of us. But still, I'm tired of applying for equivalent positions and having them come to nothing.

[nanners]

The tornadoes....all the devastation in OK. Wondering if Sleepy is OK?

Thinking about how happy a friend is after a great first date last weekend, and how happy I am for hym.

Thinking about how much I really am NOT looking forward to my dental appointment today....arghhhhhhhh!

On the bright side, thinking about how much fun this summer is going to be, the road trips I can take with my new SUV, and how much I've learned in the past year.

[Katniss]

Thinking about how I *really* don't want to go to jury duty this morning and how trivial and lame that thought is compared to the below.

Thinking about all the people, especially Planeteers, affected by the storms yesterday and last night. Hoping all are ok. Sadden by the pictures I have seen, especially those of parents waiting for a child's name to be called that never was.......


Katniss~~(sending out positive energy and a donation to the Red Cross)

[DMW]

No doubt the tornado. The one was an F4. They are eerie. An aspect of spring and summer that i am not so fond of.The search and rescue have found over 100 people. I hope that they can get to them and find more. So sad.:vigil:
I wonder if it was an F5. Hope for no more.

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind....

It's been 1 month since my dad passed away. I didn't wake up sad... instead at peace. I know he had something to do with that.

[cinnamongrrl]

I watched the news this morning...the terrible devastation in Oklahoma is definitely on my mind...the many souls lost...fearing for the well-being of BFP family in the area...prayers are being sent your way...just wish I could do more...

:praying:

[BoDy*ShOt]

what is on my mind?

human nature
friendship integrity
forgiveness
community

[Queenie]

What is on my mind?

Well, I am wondering how many shoes should I take for a month away, 8 pairs or more?
And don't even get me started about how many handbags I want to take.

Also I am starting to get stressed out about seeing my loveable but insane family.
Cause in their eyes I will always be the baby of the family. Just lovely being the youngest!

[maryam]

Today I'm thinking about how loving this community is. I appreciate the words of kindness and support from my post above, especially in the light of all dreadful stuff that's happened this week. I've got it good compared to our Oklahoma peeps, both here and at work. Sending prayers and good thoughts to all of those in the path of the storm system as it moves eastward.

[MaggieBluIze]

It's Wednesday!!!!
Just 2 more days!!!!!
I'll be in WA soon!!!!!!
Come on Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(a bit excited, in case you can't tell) ;)

:happyjump:

[LukeCian]

Haunted thoughts, that I need to just put away. I have to have faith and believe. Everything happens as it should. However, that does not mean one has to accept things as they are. Especially if that acceptance makes one unhappy. Just focus on the positive, that is what is on My mind presently.

I miss her, A Lot, more than I thought I was humanly capable of. It is a wonderful surprise.

[TheMerryFairy]

I am wondering if I will be able to spend tonight alone with company, enjoying quality time after having a little bit of fairy fun.

[StoneOne]

No Leaf Clover

And it feels right this time
On this crash course we're in the big time
Pay no mind to the distant thunder
Beauty fills his head with wonder, boy....

Says it feels right this time
Turn around, found new high lights
Good day to be alive Sir
Good day to be alive, he said.....

Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just a freight train coming your way
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just the freight train coming your way

Don't it feel right like this
All the pieces fall to his wish
Suck up for that quick reward boy
Suck up for that quick reward they said.....

Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just a freight train coming your way
Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
is just the freight train coming your way......
It's coming your way
It's coming your way......
Here comes

Yeah, Then it comes to be that the soothing light at the end of your tunnel
Is just a freight train coming your way.... Yeah...

[LukeCian]

I am finding it hard to even put to words what is on My mind right now. Words fail Me completely. To sum it up, I feel sad and have a heavy heart today.

[nekohl]

You know what's on my mind? Thigh gap and pigeon toe.

I've never had a gap between my thighs. I've seen people, have friends, had lovers, who have gaps between their thighs and I never thought anything of it. I figured that's just how they are made. I've gone my whole 34 years and never knew my lack of thigh gapage was a problem until recently. Apparently, I am "supposed" to have a gap between my thighs!! And if Pintrest is any indication, every other woman out there besides myself is doing "thigh gap" exercises. "Get thigh gap with these 3easy steps" "want thigh gap? Try this!!" "Hey, your thighs are fat, do this exercise and get the gap"
Screw that. I'm perfect just the way I am. And if I'm exercising, its to get the health, not the gap.

And another thing, what's with the pigeon toe? Why do girls pose and point their toes inward? I don't get it. I just don't get it. I see it on Facebook, pintrest, instagram, everywhere. Locked knees, toes in, heels out. Does this have something to do with thigh gap??

[LukeCian]

How very fortunate I am to have the people that I do in My world. Whether it is family, friends, or My girl - I am truly blessed and grateful to have them near

[Dominique]

When did change stop being recognized as money?

I had a H2O jug full of change, it was so heavy, I was unable to move it. I've been spending the change as I go. This morning, I stopped at the service counter of the grocery store I was going to shop at. I attempted to *sell* them some change.

I have a nice little system worked out here. Instead of rolling the coins, I have them in baggies in the denominations of the rolled coins. This way, merchant can see they are coins, and can count them. At the service desk, I was asking them to exchange twenty dollars in quarters, five dollars in dimes and two dollars in nickels. The teenager working the desk had to call somebody to ask if she could do this. WHAT??? The answer was No, change ain't money:seeingstars:

OK, don't shoot the messenger. Who was that you were speaking with? I want to speak to them. So she calls them and tells them I want to talk to them. After a 5 min. wait another teen age looking person shows up, his shirt was all wrinkled and his tie was loose. Not to mention his pants were on his hips and needed to be pulled up. I asked him if he was the manager. He said yeah. I rolled my eyes and didn't even try to hide it. So I tried to explain, I was going to shop in the store AND i WAS GOING TO USE THE COIN CURRENCY, it's easier if I redeem it at the service desk. Thats our policy he said. We don't take change. HA! I laughed in his face, show me where that is written because change is money. I can pay with all pennies if I want to. He just walked away. Piss poor excuse of a manager.

So, I went to the deli counter and had two types of cheeses sliced. Then to the seafood counter and got shrimp and scallops. Not much, but stuff that would be hard to return to stock if they refused my coins at the register. I also got a bottle of contact lense solution and to the check out I went. I got in the line with an older
woman (close to my own age).

When it came to my turn to check out, I told her ahead of time I was paying by coins. She said *OK* with skepticism in her voice.The order came to $23.27. I gave her the two baggies of quarters and the dimes. She began counting them while I told her about what happened at the service desk. She shook her head and said I'm surprised they didn't text you a message, and I just took your change.......................

The moral of the story, there is no service at that service desk. I'm going to write an old fashioned complaint letter to the store manager. Change ain't money. My gosh, can you at least speak properly. UUUGH!

[Queenie]

What is on my mind?

That I am over the moon that all I have to do is pack!
I might not be toooo happy about packing when I am
doing it tomorrow afternoon and I end up in sheer pain.
Or that I wont be able to pack all the shoes and handbags
I want to take.

[Gemme]

When did change stop being recognized as money?

I had a H2O jug full of change, it was so heavy, I was unable to move it. I've been spending the change as I go. This morning, I stopped at the service counter of the grocery store I was going to shop at. I attempted to *sell* them some change.

I have a nice little system worked out here. Instead of rolling the coins, I have them in baggies in the denominations of the rolled coins. This way, merchant can see they are coins, and can count them. At the service desk, I was asking them to exchange twenty dollars in quarters, five dollars in dimes and two dollars in nickels. The teenager working the desk had to call somebody to ask if she could do this. WHAT??? The answer was No, change ain't money:seeingstars:

OK, don't shoot the messenger. Who was that you were speaking with? I want to speak to them. So she calls them and tells them I want to talk to them. After a 5 min. wait another teen age looking person shows up, his shirt was all wrinkled and his tie was loose. Not to mention his pants were on his hips and needed to be pulled up. I asked him if he was the manager. He said yeah. I rolled my eyes and didn't even try to hide it. So I tried to explain, I was going to shop in the store AND i WAS GOING TO USE THE COIN CURRENCY, it's easier if I redeem it at the service desk. Thats our policy he said. We don't take change. HA! I laughed in his face, show me where that is written because change is money. I can pay with all pennies if I want to. He just walked away. Piss poor excuse of a manager.

So, I went to the deli counter and had two types of cheeses sliced. Then to the seafood counter and got shrimp and scallops. Not much, but stuff that would be hard to return to stock if they refused my coins at the register. I also got a bottle of contact lense solution and to the check out I went. I got in the line with an older
woman (close to my own age).

When it came to my turn to check out, I told her ahead of time I was paying by coins. She said *OK* with skepticism in her voice.The order came to $23.27. I gave her the two baggies of quarters and the dimes. She began counting them while I told her about what happened at the service desk. She shook her head and said I'm surprised they didn't text you a message, and I just took your change.......................

The moral of the story, there is no service at that service desk. I'm going to write an old fashioned complaint letter to the store manager. Change ain't money. My gosh, can you at least speak properly. UUUGH!

I would send it in email form and cc the corporate office in on it too. That's ridiculous.

In other news and on a personal note, because it's good to make note of moments like this, I may have just purchased a pair of satiny purple Lulu Townsend heels.

:blink:

Carry on.

[VintageFemme]

Why does LOGO show this knockoff Hairspray? When I look on the menu guide at it's description it says that it's the one with John Travolta and Michelle Pfeiffer, Christopher Walken, and Nikki Blonsky but it's not. Not at all. I keep falling for it too and I'm getting a little pissy about it now. This is the third time... I'm over it.
[insert mean pouty look that I'm really good at]

[ruby_woo]

Moving and packing suuuuuucks! I'm keeping myself going by thinking about the $700/month I'll be saving on rent, but man this sucks. I just want to throw everything I own in the garbage and be done with it.

I have so many clothes. How am I going to pack all of these clothes? They're going to take up all that's left of my moving boxes. I guess I have to hit up the UPS store tomorrow for giant boxes.

[alexri]

What to get accomplished today

How to fill the remaining spots on my virtual race and maximize the donations going to charity

How long my cat will make it and how to keep her comfortable/how to know when it's time

When will I race again

How do I re-figure out the eating/exercise formula to lose some weight and get back into shape

[Ginger]

On my mind...

I'm about to get on a motorcycle. A little nervous.

Wondering if this will be my dad's last Veteran's Day. He's an old retired pilot.

Gotta get in the shower.

Feline pheromones in a jar. Really?

Nothing too exciting on my mind I guess. Just the usual "drunken monkey" as they say in meditation, going from one thing to the next.

[StoneOne]

a ambulance remember to turn off the light bars if your going to
get some in the front seat

[QueenofSmirks]

Delighted to have the day off
Leaving for poker heaven (Vegas) in a few days
Family reunion
Housework
Homework

[DMW]

Well, now I am pondering why an EMT would get down in the front seat when they have an alternative? And then...who knows.
I forget why I came in here...
I have laundry and catch up to do from this past weekend.
I am grateful for a lot. The spring is so pleasant for starters.

[Queenie]

What is on my mind?

That I found out this afternoon that the husband and I are going to get a new kitchen, a new bathroom and new windows! I do love living in social housing in london!

And what is also on my mind is, this time tomorrow I will be on a plane, hopefully sitting next to my handsome husband! And hopefully I wont be in a lot of pain for the whole bloody flight.

[DMW]

It is a gorgeous day outside today. Sunshine, rolling puffy white clouds and a breeze to go along with them. The leaves are green and soaked bright light with the chlorophyll neon yellow. The leaves make a wonderful soft noise ...almost like water rushing along a rock laden riverbed. Grateful that the noise polluters have evacuated the area and all I hear is the cooing of the mourning dove and a disturbed black capped chickadee and...smiling.

Oh, and I love London.

[PinkieLee]

What is on my mind right now...

forgetting about all adult responsibilities, turning off my phone, and spending the day laying on a float in my pool just soaking up the sunshine & working on my tan.

chocolate & caramel... damn I want either a Caramello or a Simply Caramel candy bar!

[LukeCian]

On My mind:

How life can change in an instant. It always seems to happen that way whether it is for the good or the bad. However I feel very content and accepting of how things change no matter how they do. Acceptance is key. Also, on My mind is when wonderful words come to you and confirm what you have thought all along. Just out of the blue like that. Gives you a pause and a reason to smile.

I am so looking forward to starting My new adventure on June 18th !! Truly excited. I will also be starting a new venture with the American Red Cross next week.

My life is full of work, volunteerism, and soon college again .. friends and family to share it with.. who could ask for more?

Everything truly does happen for a reason. :glasses:

[Blue_Daddy-O]

...we were on the beach in Destin, Florida, right now, for a week.

[Random]

In my mind shy is not knowing your work and being not so confident..
In my mind it means missing out on a lot of things you might have enjoyed because you couldn't ask for what you wanted..

Yet, on the rare occasion that I turn shy and blushfull, my partner really likes it...

I often wonder why that is.....

[~baby~doll~]

i am thinking of my LOVER who is away. i am excited as SHE is enjoying her weekend away watching what SHE loves. my mind is on magical moments and joys deep in the heart. i love YOU my QUEEN.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

My doctor appointment on June 6th it has been a long time coming and still to far away.

[LukeCian]

On My mind: Sometimes your intuition is dead on. Scarier still, when you receive confirmation from friends (old and new) that you were right. It can be a blessing and a curse to have that intuition I want to have faith and believe. Yet in the end you can not ignore what is plain to see.

Acceptance again and drive on!!

Focus on the good..re-read those notes that make you smile and feel some type of way.

Then check that dance card..and answer your friends texts..*laughs*

Oh and if I hit repeat on My iPod one more time I might become convinced that I NEED to dance to this song.

[rockybcn]

getting involved in some volunteering and attending the Asheville Shambhala Meditation Center.

[Miss Scarlett]

How to rearrange the furniture in my living room to make it more warm and inviting.

[~baby~doll~]

...at the moment, massive amounts of confessed thoughts...

[Rockinonahigh]

What's on my mind.Vertago straight up,whay I have it I am still trying to figure it out.The ent says I have calsium christals in my ears,to do rotational exersises to reset my gyro.B.S I say cause even tho I do them(exersise ) and take meclazine I still feel like a drunk some of the time,this is not cool.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

What's on my mind...simple You are .....:blush:

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind...

As of this Wednesday, I'll be all alone for 7 days! Whatever shall I do?! I guess a whole lot of lounging in the pool, spending evenings in my pjs reading and watching trash reality tv :)

[Cid]

I went on a road trip with my friend Terry on Saturday. She had to bring her sister some things left behind. While we were leaving, her sister happened to mention something about spirits. When we got outside she said that she was reading people again. Apparently she did it many years ago but stopped because her husband didn't like her doing that.

Long story short, I asked her if she saw anything good happening in my future. She immediately went to my abdomen. She said that I was going to have some problems there. She knows nothing about my history of cervical cancer.

I could really tell that she was actually seeing things. Most psychic readers that I've met never really convinced me, but she really did. I asked if it was cancer and she said that she wasn't sure, but they would be keeping a close eye on me. Now I'm wondering if this is going to be soon, or far into the future.

Another thing she told me is that my mom came to me in a dream and she was touching my hair. The last psychic told me the exact same thing. The last one also told me about problems that I'm going to have in my abdomen area. I'm guessing colon since I had an obstructed bowel last year, but you never know.

[LukeCian]

On My mind - recent conversations - and how when you have them they open doors to your own thoughts. Sometimes they dredge up things you have not thought about for a long time. Conversations that make you pensive and smile. I like having conversations that make you think of good things.. that make you smile.. that make you realize it is good that you woke up today... and no matter what comes down your path... you were still given the day.

I am pretty damn happy to be alive !!! Life is good !!

[tonaderspeisung]

can i call myself pajama rich
or is that something others have to think about me

[Tuff Stuff]

So many events,fees to be paid,permits,uncle Sam. :bedfuck::dogwalking::playingcat: YES in that order

[LukeCian]

How notes (no matter how you receive them) can make you smile. :)

What a relief it was to get some snail mail from a friend of Mine who has been going through a rough time. I hate the feeling of being helpless and wanting so much to help and realizing sometimes all you can do is be an ear to listen. Sometimes things are truly out of our hands. That when you think that everything happens for a reason, you have to believe it and not just say the words.

Also how thankful I am to have experienced what love feels like. To know what it feels like to say those words and mean them. To know what it feels like to be loved back whether that love stays or goes.

I woke up this morning thinking I am pretty happy and that no one nor nothing can touch that unless I let it happen. I refuse to let it happen.

[laruss]

On my mind...
Everything I have to do for Thursday and than next Wednesday and Thursday.

It is Pride week next week and we are building a 35 foot float in our backyard. People coming and going and trying to get my own stuff done and organized for shows during all the stress my girlfriend is under. It keeps my mind spinning.

[nekohl]

My cell contract is up the 6th of June. I want to switch carriers, but I can't decide who to choose. Sprint, AT&T, Tmoble, US Cellular. Do I want to sign up for a two year contract? What about those prepaid/monthly plan thingys?

What to do, what to do
:phonegab:

[Gemme]

My cell contract is up the 6th of June. I want to switch carriers, but I can't decide who to choose. Sprint, AT&T, Tmoble, US Cellular. Do I want to sign up for a two year contract? What about those prepaid/monthly plan thingys?

What to do, what to do
:phonegab:

TMobile's got it now where you don't have to sign up for a contract anymore. I'd check what companies have the best coverage in your area, then look at deals and go from there.

[femm_cb]

Lately I have been in a seriously grumpy ass mood. I don't even want to be around me. I know I am PMS'ing. :whine:

Even my wife is annoying the f*** out of me. I know "this too shall pass", however, lately, she has me wanting to poke her in the forehead!

[Bèsame*]

on my mind. ..
Change.

Do i want it? Am i willing to give up what I've done? Do i want a challenge? Is this the right time? I've been thinking about this for days now. What will people think? Will i be happy? What do i have to lose by just looking? Maybe this is exactly what I'm looking for. .. this is what is on my mind.

I've seen some of that change going on here. It's given me things to think about. Thank you :)

[JAGG]

VACATION!!! This day can't be over with soon enough!

[luv2luvgirls]

Whats on my mind.. The saying people come into your life for a reason, how many times have I heard that and thought that myself. It is true they do.. so that leaves me with so many things on my mind.. do I take that chance? Do I do what I really want to do and trust it? I feel like it is right but then in my mind I know all things come to an end .. the only question is the when and why,not if it will end,all things end!
Sometimes I worry myself,I am so easy to just follow my path where ever it takes me.. I know I will be all right I always am. Then I remember that death is quick, who does my child have if something happened to me. The ones I have chosen to care for her if something did happen to me, but dang I am way down here away from anyone close to us
Every since my bestie passed, I am more cautious now.. it reminded me I am all my kid has that's it just me. But then their words enter my head.. I think it is coming from the heart and sometimes it feels like just what I need. I have a lot of thinking to do on this I feel. But all of me just wants to throw caution to the wind and take flight.. I know who I am I will always be alright.
funny how someone says something not truly being serious, then the more that seed takes hold in their mind the quicker they mean it and want it.
That is how I feel like it was just being funny and friendly then all of a sudden it became real.

[LukeCian]

On My Mind....it seems to be a theme...change. Some fear it..others embrace it. To Me it is inevitable....while we might not always be ready for it....we need to have acceptance of it...and deal with it as it comes...sometimes the best things in Life are a complete surprise. :)

[Bèsame*]

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[luv2luvgirls]

On My Mind....it seems to be a theme...change. Some fear it..others embrace it. To Me it is inevitable....while we might not always be ready for it....we need to have acceptance of it...and deal with it as it comes...sometimes the best things in Life are a complete surprise. :)

Too true buddy! All things change, it's how you embrace and accept the change that counts.

I for one am completely floored and honored by the surprise that popped in my life and I am going for it! I have made my mind up. Now to break it to my best bud here, He is really upset at the thought lol And that was just me casually mentioning I want to do it. I am blessed by good people in my life

[WingsOnFire]

what 2 days from now represents...

[cinnamongrrl]

Can't sleep....clowns will eat me :|

[MysticOceansFL]

Can't sleep....clowns will eat me :|




Someone should tell you a good bedtime story so you can fall to sleep!!!!

[MsTinkerbelly]

If you're the praying kind, please pray for my daughter.

We were in emergency all night, and still no answer as to what is wrong...hard time breathing, chest pain. She's 19 God, please help us find what is wrong.

[GraffitiBoi]

Lately I've been doing a lot of thinking. I'm not quite comfortable talking about some things, but I need to get them out. I need answers. I know there are no answers.

I want to know why, no matter who I meet or date, they always say they are fine with me the way I am. But inevitably they leave or lose interest stating that I am not trans enough, not lesbian enough, not straight enough, not male enough, not female enough, etc. I get it. They had a preconceived idea/expectation of who and what I am. I don't like it, but they are being honest in what they want. I lay no blame.

Then there are the ones who seem to be interested but then leave after having sex. They just wanted to 'try out' a trans person. They wanted a story. They treat me as an object, a toy, a novelty. They don't want to get to know me. They don't want to take the time to see what a great person I am or the type of relationship material I am. Those are the ones that hurt. Those are the ones who never cared or were interested in the first place. I *rarely* do casual sex anymore thanks to those people. You have to be pretty damn special to me for me to jump into bed with you and even more special for me to want to take the time to get to know you, or let you get to know me. I may flirt a lot, but unless you really have my attention, it doesn't mean anything.

I guess I'm tired and a little bitter or discouraged. I almost want to give up trying to catch someone's interest. Almost. I'm not intending for this to be a pity party. I just needed to vent and get it off my chest.

[Duchess]

My assignment with Estee Lauder is wearing me out.:blink::|

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Working on my list. I have all the things written down that I would like to do for me. Whether they be things that are good for my soul, health, or just make me feel beautiful. Some days you just have to give yourself some love!

[prettyboyreg]

I'm finally settling into my new house and relocating. I'm really missing my San Diego peeps and would love to fly back there for pride. I just can't find anyone that I trust to tak care of my dogs. I have a little while... But they are my priority....

[Elijah]

"Suffering is a great teacher because you never know what you might become after you work through it… Which is why every life is worth saving."

[WingsOnFire]

the worry that is heavy on my heart and knowing I could have made better choices to influence less worrying. (w)

[Venus007]

I am training my dog, Lily, to rise above her natural predator drive.
I think it is starting to work. This morning she started to go after the neighbors cat and I was able to stop her and ask her to sit. It took a couple of corrections but she was able to maintain. This is progress because before we started formally working on the issue she couldn't even hear me when there was a small fast moving thing about, let alone a cat.

I think that there is no short cut to this. I just have to keep putting her in situations where her predator drive is triggered and ask her to focus on me instead of what all of her nature is telling her, oh and carry high reward treats with me.

It is a big responsibility having a dog with a high predator drive and a lot of bite force, I guess the training and refining never stops.
(She is an American Bulldog/Boxer mix)

[cinnamongrrl]

On my mind...

My brain says sleep....

My body says breakfast...

I have been up for 3 hours already... I could really use both..but not at the same time....

[luv2luvgirls]

what isn't on my mind lol I missed her I am glad she is back. I know I was missed too :)

[WingsOnFire]

Ughhhh... On my mind is how tired I am. Waking up every hour on the hour until 2 am then getting up at 5 doesnt bode well for my 9 hr work day. I need a nap...

[Cid]

I don't know how many here are on the political track of what's going on with the government or the police brutality, but my son sent me a video that he made on youtube and it's absolutely mind boggling how bad things have gotten over the last 10 years.
I'm frightened for the teenagers of today and the parents of tomorrow. What they face is scary at best.
I pray for our future and the future of those being born today.

[MsTinkerbelly]

If you're the praying kind, please pray for my daughter.

We were in emergency all night, and still no answer as to what is wrong...hard time breathing, chest pain. She's 19 God, please help us find what is wrong.

Thank you all for your lovely comments and your concern.(f)

We found out that my daughter is Anemic! She is receiving medication to remedy the problem, along with Iron supplements on an on-going basis. Who knew it could cause so many problems!

[LukeCian]

On My mind..customer service...or lack thereof. I am trying to be patient and wait for this return call. However, I have a deadline..and it impacts My dream taking place. I know, I know if the deadline is missed it will only push Me back a week...but god, I have been looking forward to this. I hope the return call comes soon.

In the midst of it all...I still smile...I have good reason...I am blessed beyone measure....and the best part of it it all...is that I realize it. :)

[LeftWriteFemme]

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[luv2luvgirls]

whats on my mind?? it's just after 11 am and I want to get drunk!

I am not a drinker.. Today I am going to get good and drunk, If it's possible,I haven't been able to get drunk before bet hey maybe I just wasn't drinking enough fast enough right?, I am going to do it.

[Bèsame*]

I will be happy when it's 9am tomorrow. It will be over.

[JustLovelyJenn]

What is on my mind is keeping positive through hard times...

... getting this house in order... finally...

... what to do with my time since my summer visitor is no longer coming...

... songs from RENT...

... how excited I am to be in this production, and how rewarding it is already...

... disappointments... but those will settle eventually.

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Apparently everything!

[LukeCian]

On My Mind:

First, that the delay in starting the University is fixed. So, My start date will be pushed back just a week. A minor setback. However, it had Me feeling some type of way (and not in a good way). But, all is well now.

How truly fortunate I am at this spot on My life. I could not ask for more, nor will I. I just take things as they come. Good or bad. It is all in what you do with it.

A recent conversation of how money is not the important thing in our worlds.. it is about quality time with those you love. Sometimes you just need to have that perspective. Money is just that.. money. What happens when you lose that time with those you love? That money that you have in the bank will not bring that time back... nor the ones you love that you may have lost.

Also, I was chosen to chaperone some kids to camp at the end of the month at the place where I volunteer. I am pretty excited. A peaceful day at a huge lake.. and well.. like I said in the other thread.. we shall see how I feel after hanging with a bus load of juiced up kids excited to hit camp. :|

As Michael Buble says.. it is a new dawn, it is a new day, it is a new life .... and I am feeling good. :)

[Medusa]

Things I'm obsessed with lately:

* Horticulture - I've always had a "black thumb" when it comes to plants and now I understand why after reading lots of books on plants lately. Plants are living beings and require care and balance. Imagine that.

* Archiving and organizing all of my old photos.

* Keeping in better touch with people I love.

* Getting ready for a little girl time in a couple of weeks.

* Documentaries about people living in super remote cabins in Alaska for years at a time.

[Kätzchen]

Up until this year, I've kept my list of regrets to a bare minimum and just this past week, after I got an email notice instructing me that my first payment due on all my college loans (for both bachelor and masters degrees) for the mere price of: $1,700.00/month.

I bought into the idea, over ten years ago, that earning an education would help me transcend my life of poverty. If anything, even if I WAS lucky enough to find a job or career earning at least $5K a month, I'd still be poor, after paying a monthly loan payment - with only enough left over for bare, basic living expenses.

Lesson Numero Uno 1 & my only Regret of the Century (so far)
(a lesson I won't forget, ever - literally).

[Greyson]

Up until this year, I've kept my list of regrets to a bare minimum and just this past week, after I got an email notice instructing me that my first payment due on all my college loans (for both bachelor and masters degrees) for the mere price of: $1,700.00/month.

I bought into the idea, over ten years ago, that earning an education would help me transcend my life of poverty. If anything, even if I WAS lucky enough to find a job or career earning at least $5K a month, I'd still be poor, after paying a monthly loan payment - with only enough left over for bare, basic living expenses.

Lesson Numero Uno 1 & my only Regret of the Century (so far)
(a lesson I won't forget, ever - literally).


When I was getting my Bachelor's degree, it was still possible to get one without loans. Now for poor, working class and middle class, it is highly unlikely.

Private loans, Government loans with interest rates that are not fixed. The interest rate will go up before you finish your education and it is time to pay. Back in the day, some future doctors and lawyers would file bankruptcy in order to get out of paying back the loans. Then the U.S House and Senate passed legislation forbidding bankruptcy against school loans. ( I wish I had the stats for the doctors and lawyers who filed for bankruptcy. I doubt they were first generation college graduates and from a background of poverty.)

When will enough be enough? Many are trying to get an education, secure housing, healthcare and a living wage from their employer. The rich get richer and the poor keep getting deeper in debt or without essentials.

I do not hold the "rich" entirely responsible for the state of affairs in the USA and frankly globally. I do however know, they control much of the power and resources. I know we all have responsibility for our life choices. I also know some are born with better choices without having to earn it.

Good luck to you Katzchen. You are a strong, intelligent woman that can and will prevail. (Even if it is in your legacy and not the present.)

[LeftWriteFemme]

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[Bèsame*]

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[blush]

It's the first (and probably only) summer Goof and I both will have off. No classes for him.

Game of Thrones-I'm late to this party, but you could make a drinking game out of how many times someone gets beheaded

Projects and the DIY Network

Gov. Perry and his shitball Merry Christmas bill
Gov. Perry and his archaic veto of same pay for women legislation (but the veto is not official yet)

Oh, and Pinterest

[starryeyes]

I have now 22 ASL interpreters I have recruited for San Diego Pride. My excel spreadsheet is out of control. I want to give everyone the opportunity to volunteer, so I am revamping the WHOLE schedule to fit everyone and give them at least 5 hours (there are perks if you work over 5 hours)

I think there is only 27 days left until Pride??

Yay!!!

*nose to the grindstone!*

[Cid]

I'm going camping this weekend at a gay campground and I have no idea what to expect.
Right now I'm just going over everything that I need to bring, but inside I'm really nervous and I don't even
know why. :blush:

[Bèsame*]

on my mind....August ;)

[Cailin]

same thing thats been on my mind every night pinky.. try to take over the wor.... no no, thats not right.



my baby.. there we go, thats what I was looking for

[DMW]

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Tell me what's gone wrong?
I tilt my head there, under the faucet when I turn it on
Dry as paper, call the neighbors
Who's to blame for what's going on?
In the dark without a clue I'm just the same as you

Oh, they tell us there's poison here in the well
That someone's been a bit untidy and there's been a small spill
Not a lot, no, just a drop, there you are mistaken you know you are
I wonder just how long they knew our well was poisoned
But they let us just drink on

Oh, they tell us there's here poison in the well
That someone's been a bit untidy that there's been a small spill
And all that it amounts to is a tear in a salted sea
That someone's been a bit untidy they'll have it cleaned up in a week

But the week is over and now it's grown into years
Since, I was told that I should be calm, there's nothing to fear here
But, I drank that water for years, my wife and my children
So, tell me, where to now
If your fight for a bearable life can be fought and lost in your backyard?

Oh, don't tell us there's poison here in the well
That someone's been a bit untidy, that there's been a small spill
All that it amounts to is a tear in a salted sea
That someone's been a bit untidy, they'll have it cleaned up in a week

But the week is over and now it's grown into weeks that I
Was told that, " I should be calm theres nothing to fear here

[VintageFemme]

Where are the Twitter'ers???
I need a new tweetheart ♥ https://twitter.com/faireunvoeu (https://twitter.com/faireunvoeu)

[sierragirrl]

thinking bout going over to the hospital after my child's father gets off of work..
I am not feeling so hot
my body is not liking its new way of life
thinking I need some IV fluids
I have lost over 20 pounds in less then 10 days
sure sounds great right?
ya not so much

[Butterbean]

:koolaid: They used to give away cool koolaid pitchers if you saved enough stamps from the koolaid packs. I deeply regret I never sent away for one.

But that's not what I intended to post about...I saw the avatar and became distracted.

[wahya]

Mind? My mind is officially on vacation. I hope my body can catch up with it soon. lol

[wahya]

Cijs- I don't understand why people complain about people judging people Then turn around and judge someone so quickly. Did that make sense?

[Blade]

my full truck that needs to be unloaded. Spent the day at auction yesterday.

[puddin']

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[cinnamongrrl]

I got to thinking about some of my old client's from South Carolina yesterday...I couldn't remember the last name of one, and the spelling of the last name for the other. I finally did figure it out, and I found the obituaries of all four people.

It deflated me so much...One person actually passed 2 months after I left. He was in fairly good health (for mid 80s) when I left...His wife died in a facility nearly 2 years later, not in her own home as was hoped. My other couple, my lady died in February, her husband didn't make it quite 2 months without her. They were so devoted to each other...

It made me realize, as much as I love what I do, it can be heartbreaking. I miss working in the hospital where I see people get well and go home.(for the most part)..I think once my license is up to date, I will seek a hospital position. It's given my heart a change of mood, to say the least.

[LukeCian]

On My mind: How we really do have freewill. I woke up this morning feeling sadness given the day it is. Then I was struck by the thought of freewill. That we truly can choose. We can let in the good, and keep out the bad. We can make choices, without someone holding a gun to our heads. What comes from the choices is why we should have the process of decision making beforehand. Granted we do not always make the best ones, but we are human afterall. But, I think if we realize that sometimes we create our own bed.. then we have to remember we have to lay in it afterwards. I say let go, and move on.. no matter the choice that you made. Live and learn. Why carry the nonsense in your head? What purpose does it serve? In the end it just ends up being a very BIG Louis Vuitton. :|

[Diablo]

whats on my mind....isss..how i continue to let you manipulate me and convince me that when YOU are selfish...uncaring and cruel..i some how deserve it..or brought it on. I shouldnt need to ask my wife/gf/partner to be there for me in a stressful time. You knew exactly how stressed i was and yet..you couldnt bother yourself to be there for me...yet..somehow..this is all my fault. Im done making excuses for you...and done making excuses for me, as to WHY i keep letting you back in after you run away. Run away....run as far as you can...i have chased you....taken you back in 2 times!! I love you, im sure i always will. But today...im moving on...without you.

[rustedrims]

Turning in my boss for being an Ass.

Yep that is what is on my mind.

[o'queery]

How beautiful a North Dakota sunset is <3

[wahya]

Cijs- I don't understand why people complain about people judging people Then turn around and judge someone so quickly. Did that make sense?

Oh boy..My mind has been in a fog lately. Sorry wrong post :)

[JustLovelyJenn]

SUMMER starts in just... 2 1/2 days!!!!!!

[Kenna]

on my mind ...I shouldn't have done it. but I did.

[JustLovelyJenn]

2 1/2 months off... and I am so excited.

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind....

Last week, there was a home invasion right around the corner from my house. Then they carjacked someone on the next street over. One of my friends that's a police officer, called me last night to tell me that they had caught 3 of the 5 guys involved. Come to find out, all the the guys live on my street... seriously only 10 houses down from me.

2 guys are still on the run...

[Bèsame*]

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[s0litude]

... and thank God for the femmes who appreciate them! :)

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[luv2luvgirls]

Is that I think it is a good thing what happened, because now I see .. I was feeling things I shouldn't have lmao WHEW!!!
Now to think about why I shouldn't to help let it go, right :winky:

isnt that how it is hindsight right? I knew a enjoyed em but hell SMH lol

[little_ms_sunshyne]

Hmmmmmmmmmph!

[MsBluem]

While I am super content with the relationship dynamics of what I have with my best friend/primary partner, I really need a date. They've been going out and meeting people and I'm just here...working all the time with little to no social life at all. I try to connect with people around here but nobody seems interested. I'd like to think I'm a good conversation partner/friend/lover...but my lack of meeting people nearby is starting to make feel otherwise. Not a very good self esteem day for me.

[DMW]

The Uncle's Day Party. Happy to be one and lucky too.
Gratitude is on my mind.

[DMW]

The Uncles Day celebration was started, and invented by my niece and has become so popular that we now need her to start an annual Aunts Day. She started it because "Uncles need a day too".

[luv2luvgirls]

I have decided to do whats on My mind.. I am playing hooky and going to the pool instead! I need more Me time for sure!

[girl_dee]

That its gonna be an interesting ride home!

:blush:

:|

[Greco]

How on earth to begin dating...Christ this is not easy!


Greco

[MissItalianDiva]

A freakin bra emergency

[RockOn]

First, want to tell MissItalianDiva, I wish you fast resolve with your emergency.

Now I am wondering exactly what type of emergency can one have with one of those.

*would kindly offer my assistance but thinking probably not one of my better ideas*

Here is what's on my mind ...

hmmm ...

Well ... tell you what ...I'll come back and tell you my stuff when I am able to get my focus off the emergency
:)

[barnes]

my oldest daughter is 18 and very pregnant! she is living in another state but not too far drive about 5 hours or so . so she is due in September, and she is living with her boyfriends brother and wife. she called crying cause she doesn't have a room for the baby's crib.(yes she is welcome here. I have her old room available but her boyfriend cant live here as he has a record and they do background checks here.)

[ONLY]

I was just thinking how lucky I am.
I have a mom who loves me for who I am, who is always there for me.
I have a son who means the world to me. He is a sweet and caring boy.
I have a beautiful lady (f) who will do anything and everything to be with me.

How did I get so lucky ?

[Cid]

There's something on my mind that I really can't talk
with anyone about so it's making me crazy.
I got an email from my ex. I know people say 'an ex is an ex' for a reason,
but I wasn't the one that chose for her to be an ex. It's much harder
when it happens that way.
She just asked how I was doing and told me about a new job that she
has, but that's about all that's going on in her life. She didn't mention
the new g/f (the one that replaced me) but didn't really say that
she is still with her either. And I know either way it really shouldn't matter.

The thing is that part of me wants to write back and tell her that
I'm doing well, and another part of me that wants to ignore it and
hit delete.
This is giving me a headache.

[RockOn]

Oh gosh, I sure do feel for you.

Here is a suggestion ...
Write out the very best and the very worst scenario if you chose contact. Look within yourself, be honest with yourself and decide if you are prepared to accept and will be okay with either outcome.

I certainly would not try to direct your show but I do want to say I wish you the very best on your decision.

Sometimes that is such a hard freaking choice to make!

[spritzerJ]

How Jac can close the bags of food with out clips/ties etc and things stay reasonably fresh? This method of hys I am curious about and happy that hy does it.

How easy it is to make dinner with a helper. And even laundry. Etc... It is weird that things are easier right now.

[Cid]

I'm supposed to go get my hair cut and coloured and I don't know if I should wash it first or not. I know if you do it yourself you don't wash it. I've never had it done professionally so I really don't know if it's the same or not.
That's the only thing on my mind right now. It's a good day! :waitinggirl:

[Soon]

I'm supposed to go get my hair cut and coloured and I don't know if I should wash it first or not. I know if you do it yourself you don't wash it. I've never had it done professionally so I really don't know if it's the same or not.
That's the only thing on my mind right now. It's a good day! :waitinggirl:

no need to wash it!

[StoneOne]

Thank you, I really needed that

[Cid]

I really want to know why people use "how are you?" as
a greeting rather than a general inquiry. If you're walking by me and ask
how are you?, then stop for a second while I say "fine thank you, how are you?"
Otherwise, just say hello.
Trust me, if you're not close enough to me to wait for a response,
I'm not going to share with you exactly how I'm doing (fantastic or not so much)
because clearly you really don't care.
That's what's on my mind.
It's a slow day.

[RockOn]

I skipped lunch so I am really needing a shower and then MUCH FOOD!

I made a little green step up stool this afternoon and just posted a photo of it in the gallery. It is cute (well I think so anyway) and will be very serviceable out in my storage room.

[Gemme]

I'm supposed to go get my hair cut and coloured and I don't know if I should wash it first or not. I know if you do it yourself you don't wash it. I've never had it done professionally so I really don't know if it's the same or not.
That's the only thing on my mind right now. It's a good day! :waitinggirl:

Most color adheres better to dirty hair.

[MsBluem]

How nice it would be to come home to someone.

[Trev]

So much left to do at work, 12-14 hour days and I still can't get it all finished. Being down 4 coordinators in the department is a real strain. I think sometime, I could sleep the whole weekend if domestic chores didn't need to be done or I had to work.

[Kenna]

POURING DOWN RAIN AGAIN! !!
I need an Ark! ....


good thing my Orange Supreme cake is done baking ...lights might go out again

[tndoc]

On my mind, is this crazy weather pattern. We are expecting some heavy rains over the rest of the week.

[Soft*Silver]

I am getting married in 11 days. Count down time. But I am so busy moving my store that I have no time to ponder about the wedding. LOL

I am on my 4th wedding dress. I keep changing my mind. Thats what happens when you own a clothing store....

[MissItalianDiva]

A fun conversation with a hilarious person

[Newfiefemme1978]

Years of being in this community I struggle with finding women who really do appreciate the curves.

Was really nervous about writing this post but finally said what do I have to lose.

I want someone to want me for more than my curves but can accept me for the beautiful sexy woman I am inside.

I make a statement that in 2013 I will find my sexy butch who will think I am the sexiest woman alive LOL

Anyway strange rant might not even be appropiate but here is goes LOL

[luv2luvgirls]

A sexy voice,laughing and a cell that needs charging :sunglass:

[GraffitiBoi]

I really want, and possibly need, another night like that one *points at calendar*. I really needed it then and could really use it again. :)

Also, I am thinking a lot about my grandpa who passed away this weekend. I didn't think it was a big deal and wouldn't upset me, given his history with my family and the fact that I haven't seen him since 1991. I was wrong. Very wrong. I'm more upset than I want to admit (and those who know me know I do not admit when I am upset or hurt). I just kind of want to be held for a little while (and that is not like me either).

[prettyboyreg]

Ok, I just have to get something out! I belong to another website where some butt head decided to ask everyone if transition is too easy now. His rant was Ridiculous and judgemental... My piont is... Don't we face enough judgement without being judged by each other? Yes, my boxers are all twisted and pissed!

[DMW]

That way too many Americans are without healthcare. The privatization of the healthcare industry means that most people are not immune from the lack of the best healthcare; regardless of health insurance.
Also, there is a big difference between hearing loss and vertigo.

[Elijah]

Getting back to meetings, getting my head straight. Feels good to be back, in many ways.

[LeftWriteFemme]

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[Cid]

Both my kids are out for the night and here I sit alone..sigh.
The thing on my mind is the ghost that visits my daughters room every so often.
Just hoping she's busy somewhere else tonight. :|

[Bèsame*]

on my mind. ..

Come Monday I'm going to become a sweaky wheel. Let's see what that does.

[Sweet Bliss]

I've been wondering, how many times do we read a post, don't "thank " the poster because we don't want to look like a stalker, or busy body, or we have a secret crush. I know I am guilty of that at times. Sometimes it's because I am reluctant to admit I feel the same.

Sometimes it's because the poster seems annoyed with my attention. In my excitement to share or be supportive I seem to be a pest.

Yes, just like in person. Oh well. Que sera sera.

[KCBUTCH]

Job interviews. applications and life

[sierragirrl]

my therapist
my life and where I am at right now
where will I be in 3 months?
my moody almost 9 yr old
orange juice
needing smaller big girl panties

[Butterbean]

Today is the big moving day. Right now, it's quiet and calm and I'm having coffee but it's going to hit the fan in hours.

[Daktari]

Why the hell I get soooooo exhausted after what I class as 'normal' activity for a regular, active person.

[luv2luvgirls]

about what has happened this last week
funny what all you can learn by not saying what you really see.
what else on my mind is .. if My trust is gone whats the point?

[StoneOne]

soooooooo tired
yet soooooooo worth it

[sierragirrl]

my youngest turns 9 next week and she is having such an emotional time right now..feels like no one loves her except my other daughter, her dad, and myself. I try to explain to her that people are just stuck in their own shit..breaks my heart when she just starts sobbing I wish I could fix it for her

[rustedrims]

A new job within my work place. I was told last night about this opportunity. I have been waiting for this for months! Time to get out of the stressful and lazy people work area. With a small pay cut I will happily be on my way! Waiting on the process to catch up with itself I will be out of there in about 4 weeks. My small flickering light at the end of my dark work place tunnel.:candle:.

[sierragirrl]

my family is getting together down in So Cal tomorrow to celebrate my grandmothers 93rd birthday my youngest was born and her birthday we were going to do a dual birthday party.
but we are home instead..
GAH I hate depending on others..broken promises..job next month I can't wait!
saving up to go down at Thanksgiving now :)

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Pain!!!!!!???!!!!

[SassyLeo]

I love the sound of my quietly snoring dog :stillheart:

[Kenna]

starting early Friday, I had many many glasses of tea apparently loaded with caffeine ...My mind won't shut down.

[G Snap!]

I accepted a position working for a real estate agent doing administrative work today. I am excited as the realtors I will be working for are two bright, energetic and driven girls, and the atmosphere will be fun but they get sh!t done.

I am kind of freaking out right now though. They said my taxes will be 1099... Where do I find out about this? I am looking online and can't find much. Ugh.

[Gemme]

I accepted a position working for a real estate agent doing administrative work today. I am excited as the realtors I will be working for are two bright, energetic and driven girls, and the atmosphere will be fun but they get sh!t done.

I am kind of freaking out right now though. They said my taxes will be 1099... Where do I find out about this? I am looking online and can't find much. Ugh.

That means you'll be an independent contractor. Save EVERY receipt on ANYTHING you spend for this job from tolls to gas to clothes, etc. Tax time will be annoying as you will have to break everything down but it sounds like you'll be in a much more positive environment than you were before and that's worth its weight in gold.

[Greco]

In awe of how music, a melody, a singer's voice plays such a large
part in creativity...to ride the notes, the tones of a voice full of life
into the zone...music...riding into images...grateful for music

Greco

[DMW]

That I should share this interesting article that i came across before I don't.

http://www.autostraddle.com/beyond-lipstick-143202/

[Bèsame*]

on my mind..

Thinking about a new car. Trading my 2010 with low miles for a newer car only if I can get a lower payment. Think I can do that? My friends just did it. I'm just not that car savvy. Any advice?

[DMW]

https://encrypted-tbn1.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcREkKb0gpA68AawIza47OlC6mftooxOg _zYxhU3bPngmQ-pmtDb

This color...diggin it. Usually like dark merlot and red and the French one...
Love a woman with good nails...yummers! Hot hot hot!

[Boots13]

Too much work, too little play :seeingstars:

[deb0670]

Trying to decide what to do and not do on my two days off, today and tomorrow...

[WingsOnFire]

After my life changing weekend trying to decide on ways to center my life better and balance my play and work time...

There are so many things I want to do and explore I need to have a "I want to do this!" list... and a list of the things I am going to do this week...

[Bard]

thinking that now things have fallen into place and desd and I are going the reunion I don' know weather to write new pieces or read a short story I wrote for a authors challenge hmmm :|

[agape]

I'm thinking... that maybe it's too late... :(

[girl_dee]

225.00 a month for insurance.. Blah!

[agape]

That I should share this interesting article that i came across before I don't.

http://www.autostraddle.com/beyond-lipstick-143202/

wow! thank you for that! It was very interesting indeed!

[KCBUTCH]

on my mind is my afternoon with the financial advisor for grad school and my final MFT interview to complete my admissions process for grad school
:) woot woot

[bright_arrow]

thinking that now things have fallen into place and desd and I are going the reunion I don' know weather to write new pieces or read a short story I wrote for a authors challenge hmmm :|

I think you should read a short story :)

[Kätzchen]

4PN5JJDh78I&

[sierragirrl]

a great doctors appointment I have lost 50 lbs from my highest weight, I look down and I feel like I am melting! very interesting
my doctors telling me how proud she is of me and that I have worked harder then any of her other folks..most people get overwhelmed and give up..
and my little bewbees are bigger then my tummy! woohoo

I GOT THIS! :hangloose:

[Bèsame*]

http://www.commentwarehouse.com/gallery/albums/userpics/10014/wednesday-sending-happy-thoughts.png

[WingsOnFire]

CIJS.... falling asleep at 1 am and getting up at 5 does not make for a happy me.... Grumpy, frustrated, and irritable describes my mood today...

Shocked gasp... coffee isnt even helping! lol

[Mari]

Just had my evaluation. I was dreading it. I exceed expectations! Didn't think he noticed...

[sierragirrl]

my body is changing, I am shrinking
food is something I had wrapped my head around and being fat made me feel safe..
no extra attention was paid to me, I just like to blend in
now that parts of me are melting off I am starting to see people notice me

I am not sure I am happy about this.

I am a caterpillar morphing into a beautiful butterfly

I just need to wrap my head around this :blush:

[jac]

Listening to a newbie kid at the shelter share his story as to what brought him there... and not understanding the mindset of a parent kicking their child out of the house in favor of a girlfriend/boyfriend. :(

Trying to gently convince these kids that it is not their fault is never easy... :sigh:

[Elijah]

Sometimes the universe disguises favors in grave disappointments and heartache. Once you can recognize it as such, you should say "thank you" and move on to the next grand adventure...

~ERS

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

On my mind is why people take sides in anything without knowing the whole story. Unfortunately, I will have to admit that I have done it and I bet some where along the road so have you. I have come to realize it just is not a fair thing to do to someone. I am not saying the side you may have chosen is wrong or the person you are listening to is lying I am saying that it is completely unfair to the other person and yourself not to have the whole story especially when you use or have used the words love and care for. I just don't get it. Hell I don't get it when I have done it in the past and have decide that I will go out of my way not to do it again with only half of the information. Strange what your mind wakes up thinking.

[o'queery]

Simplicity.

Don't make it hard.

Make it hard.

Don't be delicate.

Be delicate.

Own it.

Let it go.

Eat it.

Raw.

[WingsOnFire]

where this step will lead me.... And what to do next

[Gemme]

I just adore these kids. (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/07/23/transgender-teenage-couple-arin-andrews-katie-hill_n_3639220.html?utm_hp_ref=mostpopular)

Good for them and good for their families.

[girl_dee]

That i need my long heavy metal stirring spoons!

[sierragirrl]

driving to the post office and seeing the big thunder boomer clouds up over the higher mtns. thinking it would be so nice if it would just down pour to get rid of all the yucky stuff..
the mood went down hill from there..thanks for the birthday "stuff" it will be donated to the salvation army at Christmas..
the words in the card hurt her,& made her cry.
I need to find better people in my life for my kids to look up to and love..
I did however get her to smile when we stopped by the taco truck to get her dinner.
a mommy bending over in front of a fan pretending to fart gets her every time!

being a mother to a moody 9 yr old is tough stuff and I know its only going to get harder I am glad she has some male roll models who are awesome now I just need to scoop up some more girl energy :blueheels:

[luv2luvgirls]

how lucky I am..2x4's .. and feisty bite.. I like it

[Queenie]

Okay, this morning I had to go to my doctors office to pick up my morphine prescription for the next month. I have done this a 1000th times. I go, I get it and that is it. But this time, they would not give it to me. I got so pissed off, I started to yell at the receptionist. Telling her that I will not leave till I get my prescription! So, she goes and talks to the doctor. (ugh I am still so fucking pissed off over this!!!)

Now, this doctor is a sub for my doctor. I have never met this doctor. The receptionist comes back and tells me that he still wont give me my pills because he wants to review my meds with me. I will be out of my meds tomorrow morning. If I do not take my morphine twice a day my pain will get worse and I will start to withdrawal. I told all of this to the receptionist and she just didnt care. So, finaly the doctor gave me a prescription for enough pills till I see him on monday. Why I got so pissed off over it was it hurts me so much to get my prescription and then to go and get my pills. So, now on monday I have to do the whole thing again! I am going to tell this doctor what I think of him on monday. Its just so fucked up!!!! I am 32 years old I should not have to worry about doctors and pills and so on!

[Breezy]

Taking my focus off other places, people and things and keeping it squarely on myself. When I work on my crap I don't have time to mess with other people's crap.

[Elijah]

The root canal I have to have tomorrow. Trying to use my powers of avoidance until the morning.

[luv2luvgirls]

I have a lot going thru my mind right now.. sometimes I wish my mind wouldn't go there *sigh* It makes me get on something and get quiet.. till I finally resolve it

[Bard]

How very happy and blessed I am my wife is a amazing beautiful kind woman:bunchflowers: we have a good life a great daughter very cute furbabies and a love I never thought possible
we also have wonderful friend many who we met on the planet they have enriched our lives and so much more I am grateful beyond words :loveBFP:
most of all what is on my mind is desd more then my wife more then my lover my soulmate she is my best friend and I would be lost with out her by my side:love1:

[NorCalStud]

It is challenging to be trashed everyday in my own community. I refuse to divulge the truths of my past relationship that would clearly place someone I still care about in a bad light in her community.

Please stop.

You know very well all the love and good attention and support given.

You know very well that for over two years you and your family gave me zero attention and now in making a decision to honor the love that the universe has given me...you at every turn blame me for mistakes you have made.

Please realize everytime you point a finger at me..that four fingers point back at you. You will feel better owning up to being a better role model for your child. I am clear that I am a very loving giving person.

You know this is true.

Please stop

[NorCalStud]

twice now I have confused
listening thread
with whats on your mind thread.

I apologize for that and for not having the knowledge to correct that error.

[DMW]

http://globalresearch.ca/monsanto-roundup-glyphosate-weedkiller-in-our-food-and-water/5339244

http://truth-out.org/opinion/item/17843-banknado

http://ajw.asahi.com/article/0311disaster/fukushima/AJ201307090059

[o'queery]

Lust at first sight.

.......

[GraffitiBoi]

I have a few things on my mind that I am trying to sort through.

My job. I need to apply to more places and get out on some interviews so I can get away from the unnecessary stress my current one causes me. I need to get away from working night shift asap.

My health. It's actually pretty good with one exception. I have some choices to make that are a little tough. I've discussed the choices with one person so far but could use another person to discuss them with... I'm just not sure who...

My ex fiance. I'm not sure why all of a sudden she is being all caring about me and my health. She's offering to be there for me and help out in ways that inconvenience her. That is not like her at all. At least it wasn't when we were together. She knows we will never get back together and she doesn't want to (neither do I) and she knows my heart belongs to another.... even if that person doesn't want it...

Her. I'm trying to not feel the way I do but I can't seem to stop. I don't know if I should try and pursue her or walk away. For now I'm not doing anything. I'm a strong believer in not competing for someone, but I want to compete for her. Normally I just let the person see who I am and if they want me they can choose me. This time I want to prove to her that she should give me a chance. I could blame it on the pain meds, but I felt this way before I was on them... Ugh. What's a boy to do! LOL

[Kenna]

Damn I miss my computer . Hope it can be saved .

[SnackTime]

One of my best friends and her husband from back home. I am praying they get answers SOON.

[girl_dee]

My sister texting me from the living room!!

[GraffitiBoi]

Work seems to be sorting itself out a little bit but I am still job hunting. (15 applications in this week so far.)

A couple of you know I was hauled in for a disciplinary meeting recently regarding my bad attitude from an incident that happened almost 2 months ago. Saturday I called in sick to work. I was to be written up for both offenses, which leaves me with one more write up until I am fired. (We're allowed 3 in a 12 month time period.)

Tonight when I started my shift my manager asks to speak with me. I was prepared. This would be the write up for not working Saturday. Turns out he wanted to tell me that he is not writing me up for not coming in to work and he decided to not write me up for the disciplinary action.... so my record remains clean with no write ups....

He also told me they are willing to do whatever I need in regards to my current medical issue, including donating a few weeks of PTO if I need it for surgery. Apparently some coworkers had found out and want to donate their unused PTO to me. One of them is willing to donate a week's worth...

As far as my medical is concerned... I'm feeling much better and have an appointment with a specialist later this week. The specialist has some alternatives to surgery to discuss with me. I'm curious and hopeful. Surgery is not an option I really want to take. Anyone who knows me well knows I am terrified of having surgery again (and why) and that I won't even go see a doctor for any reason unless I have to.

[UofMfan]

August 15th.

[Bad_boi]

This lady talks a lot. Shes cool but I can't focus.

[WingsOnFire]

Thoughts of where my life is going and what directions I want it to take... moments of clarity and direction help get me through the moments...well days sometimes... of anxiety over the direction of my life...

I got this... rinse and repeat..

[WolfyOne]

Shower soon, doc at 2pm, hoping to go back to work...I am bored.

[WingsOnFire]

wondering what the new neighbors will be like. Glad to get the riff raff that loved their out

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Thinking about just how much it hurts to hear the words I don't need you no matter the reason

[sierragirrl]

reading a blog written by a stone butch daddy.
and it dawned on me
we failed each other
period
minds get closed,
feelings get hurt
we each process things differently

to bad you couldn't end it face to face
mind closed

[girl_dee]

Wide awake in this crazy hour.

[sierragirrl]

farmers market here in town tonight,looking forward to finding some fresh veggies, something for dinner and a walk after words
although live music will be playin we might just have to grab a blanket and enjoy that instead
we shall see

[GraffitiBoi]

It's been a rough night at work. Not really anything I'm not used to or can't handle so I'm not complaining about that. The only thing that threw me off is the newbie...

Those who know me know I am very open and it's hard to offend me or make me feel uncomfortable. The newbie decided she had to tell me a story about herself tonight. A very sexual story with very graphic details... at the same time she also felt the need to touch me while telling me this. It wasn't a sexual touch, but with how graphic she was getting it did not make me feel good. This is not the first time she has done this to me.

So now I have to decide if I need to take her to HR about this. She is 5 days away from being done with her probationary period and this might get her fired. She already is on the verge of losing her job due to performance and attitude issues. But I have to work with her three to four days out of every week and I am her direct superior for the majority of those days. If I don't report her I will have to continue dealing with it. I tried talking to her in the past about this but it only got worse.

I think I may need to relax with a drink or two at the bbq tonight... and maybe head out to the club afterwards...

[DMW]

http://cdn.polarisindustries.com/polaris/ind/2013/img/campfire/history/1900-1910.jpg

http://cdn.polaris.com/ind/2014/img/vehicles/cc2g293r9oiaarmdzcg/detail/topimage.png

http://sweepstakes.history.com/own-the-road/entry

[sierragirrl]

I am tired
tired of crying
tired of hurting so fukin bad
just tired of it all

[o'queery]

Cowardice.

There seems to be a lot of it around me lately. I sit here and I think about how many connections are lost because someone just cannot open their mouth. Is it that hard to be honest? What is gained by holding back? You will break more hearts by not being real than you would if you would just fucking say whatever it is that is making you feel. I am talking about any emotion. If you're happy. Say it. If you're angry. Say it. If you need something ask for it. If you allow fear to swallow you, the only person you are hurting is YOU. Build walls, carry resentments, break your fucking back carrying all that shit for christ's sake.

Geeze.

[lilapache]

why does my cat insist on dirtying the cat box i just cleaned out?
why my son has to be such a he-man that he hurts himself... constantly?
does my daughter really see how beautiful she really is?
does He know what He means to me?

[WingsOnFire]

lots of things... life in general... ready for a nap... reay for the beauty that is my life..

[Elijah]

Anyone under the misconception that's is easy to play guitar, you are wrong, wrong wrong. My fingers are sore and tired. I am plucking out Iron Man like a true beginner...Just sayin'

[cinnamongrrl]

My just fixed car is making an odd thumping noise when I go over a bump....like there's a body in the trunk or something... :|
I could swear I didn't leave a body in there....
hmmm I wonder if I should take a peekypoo...
If I can't go to the beach because of this, I will be one very unhappy girl....sigh

[Queenie]

That I dont want to go to my hospice appt. tomorrow afternoon. It hurts me so much to go there. Because it takes me two buses each way. I just hope I can get some help with my pain pills issues and maybe the doctor can help with my pain. I doubt she will be able to tho. Cause after a year of me seeing her she has done jack shit about it. So, I will go and sit and then be told that she cannot help me. And that will take 10 mins and then it will take me an hour to get home. And when I get home I will be so sore and tired that it will take me days to feel better. Lovely isnt!?

[agape]

That I dont want to go to my hospice appt. tomorrow afternoon. It hurts me so much to go there. Because it takes me two buses each way. I just hope I can get some help with my pain pills issues and maybe the doctor can help with my pain. I doubt she will be able to tho. Cause after a year of me seeing her she has done jack shit about it. So, I will go and sit and then be told that she cannot help me. And that will take 10 mins and then it will take me an hour to get home. And when I get home I will be so sore and tired that it will take me days to feel better. Lovely isnt!?

I'm really sorry about that Queenie :( I've had my share of pain and stupid doctors myself so I truly feel for you if it's of any consolation at all...
Wishing you strength and hope it will be ok somehow... :praying:

[SirLucian]

will not build it'self

[lilapache]

its not the easiest thing... i'm picking it back up again after almost 7 years of not playing... i feel Your pain

Anyone under the misconception that's is easy to play guitar, you are wrong, wrong wrong. My fingers are sore and tired. I am plucking out Iron Man like a true beginner...Just sayin'

[Hollylane]

My favorite market is having an event this Saturday that I am going to have to try to fit into an already tight schedule. They are having a "Meet Your Ranchers" day this Saturday. This is yet another reason why I shop there, because I can actually go and meet the PNW people who are providing me with sustenance, and ask them all of the questions that I am dying to have answered about their practices. YAY! I absolutely love that I can purchase a good portion of my food and sundries from locals. It just fits everything I believe in.

[luv2luvgirls]

my missing night is whats on my mind.. and what I am going to do about it

[PoeticSilence]

I'm wondering if when my beautiful Spanish wife goes to sleep, I could take a few sharpies and ink something really exciting and beautiful on her before she wakes...

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

That my phone is seconds from dying yet I am 30 min from home
Wondering if I will be knocked on my ass in that 30 min by a Riley happy to see her Daddy

[WingsOnFire]

a certain whiny ass Peppa who hasn't figured out yet that her hours of fun with her Daddy while I sleep are over... It's back to regular old bedtime with me. Now to get her to sleep through the night. Ughhhh

[sierragirrl]

my feet do not like wearing socks and shoes..i don't know if this makes since but it feels like the socks rub my feet raw...see what happens when you exercise! :blink:

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

a certain whiny ass Peppa who hasn't figured out yet that her hours of fun with her Daddy while I sleep are over... It's back to regular old bedtime with me. Now to get her to sleep through the night. Ughhhh

I am sorry really I am.....

[jac]

Having that certain someone return to work from vacation time since last Friday and knowing it's pointless for said someone to even be there as said someone doesn't pull her weight throughout the workday.

And I'm not the only one who feels like this.... :sigh:

[WingsOnFire]

what is on my mind..

Wondering what I want to do with.myself this weekend.. needing some "men" time.... Wondering if Peppa will ever get back in the habit of sleeping through the night... Wondering if I really need a roomate or if I want to be by myself for a while..

Last jghts panic attack and tears were not fun. But they were cathartic. Peppa licking my face forcing me to stop crying and laugh was priceless. I love that.dog.