What is on your mind

[Daktari]

Chilling out and getting over the last teeny bit of last weeks total exhaustion. :fart:

[KCBUTCH]

Finding work now that I am state certified it ought to be easier.
a long time friend and a new perspective
a new friend
lunch
mtg
yoga

[sierragirrl]

WIOMM
I am sore, my legs ache and I thought we were tracking how far we walked last night because she had her cell phone with us...nope it was cause she was texting.MEH next time

trying to talk to someone who has there mind set one way is like talking to a wall...there is no explaining my side and it sucks

food shopping later today! yum, move over protein shakes!

my car needs a bath but as soon as I wash her it will rain I just know it!

figured out the next tattoo I want, but my list of needs far out way my want list.

I keep waiting for the day I miss having my cell phone....so far I am good without it.

the child is home and dang is she getting big, as of the other day she is taller then my 20 yr old soon she will be taller then me..yikes! what happened to my sweet, innocent, non mouthy little girl? oh if I could rewind the clock back to when she was a 2 yr old and do it all over again I so would!

[Daktari]

Anyone under the misconception that's is easy to play guitar, you are wrong, wrong wrong. My fingers are sore and tired. I am plucking out Iron Man like a true beginner...Just sayin'

No pain, no gain.

Try soaking your finger tips in surgical spirit to toughen up the skin.

Keep on practicing through the hurties, yer fingers toughen up the more you play.

Go you! :cheerleader:

[WingsOnFire]

Wishing I could express my feelings, my fears, my needs, my confusion in better words that didnt sound so cruel. (w)

:seeingstars: :watereyes: :sorry: :hiding:

:sadangel:

[o'queery]

Sunsets

and

tie downs.

:blink:

[SirLucian]

stay with the same paint colors on the house and deck or....?

[lilapache]

sometimes changes of pace are good...

stay with the same paint colors on the house and deck or....?

[lilapache]

awww sis... we all have this issue sometimes... you of all people know how my mouth can be

Wishing I could express my feelings, my fears, my needs, my confusion in better words that didnt sound so cruel. (w)

:seeingstars: :watereyes: :sorry: :hiding:

:sadangel:

[Daktari]

F&E Minutes as yet untyped.
The workshop - where I aim to be in a quarter hour

[Bad_boi]

Gonna sell a sword and make some money :P

also 2 bois are on my mind.

[Electrocell]

Woke up to a small tree on top my cargo van this morn in Edmond , OK.

[laruss]

Life choices and the cost of those choices.

[SirLucian]

The house is a Tan w/brown trim

I think I shall paint gray
w/dark gray w/blue hint for the trim

[EdenBella]

....where i'm going to live once my lease expires at the end of September, and if i'll find work by then.:praying:

[LeftWriteFemme]

BW30WslahMc

[rustedrims]

is on my mind.Going on the yearly camping trip with the kids my mom,sister and sister-in-law.We have been doing this for many years.Now the kids are adults it is hard to get everyone together.Missing 1 kid and the other one is just going to visit.

Going on "The Zip Line" !!

Took Monday and Tuesday off !!

This is going to be a Great Weekend !!

ineedthis

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

If I will find a place to live in less than 60 days
The misconception some have of me
Am I tracking down the right path
Should I after all move back to Illinois since it would be easier on her
Crushes that make me smile and laugh
How much physical pain I am
How little sleep let alone quality of sleep I am getting
That I am sorry doesn't begin to express how I truly feel
How intense emotions of any kind are draining and how much I have needed a recharge I need
School work always school work and how well I want to do
Thinking it is thread bumping time I feel the need to express myself right now
How much I miss Riley and it's been less than an hour

[Teddybear]

Thinking we alway have more time then we have

Wondering Y

Can it b fixed or not

Is it worth it, I think so however its not just me who has to look at it

Love can b wonderful and heart breaking at the same time(I know it's hard but i hope y'all make it).

[SirLucian]

BW30WslahMc
This say about the Human race

[lilapache]

shakes head in disgust

BW30WslahMc

[Hollylane]

Tomorrow is the company picnic up at Mt Hood. I've been looking forward to this for weeks.

I planned to go horseback riding (the only part that is not free):

p80HIpf287A

Ride the 800 ft zip line:

QHnx2n9qAlo

Ride the ski lift (I've never been on a ski lift)to the top of the mountain and then do this (a few times):

8KK1tz_-ScE

Go down the Summer Tube Hill a few times:


pndGaiu9bc8

But what is really on my mind, is the weather forecast....I don't want rain or wind on my day of fun!!! NOOOOO!!!!!

Saturday A 30 percent chance of showers and thunderstorms. Mostly cloudy, with a high near 80. Calm wind becoming north northwest 5 to 8 mph in the afternoon.

[Random]

Racism and bigotry...

My own...


While job hunting I am finding that about 50 percent of the jobs that I am techn qualified for required the employee to be bilingual in spanish...

It's logicalre

We live in a area where a large percentage of the population is hispanic. Of course busns are going to want to make it easier on customers and employees to communicate...

In my mind it's just another skill set like Sales Force or Excel..

Except it's a skill set I don't have and can't learn it in 48 hrs like some of the basic computer programs...

Today after seeing several jobs that I would love to apply for I had THE thouht...

*Why should I have to speak a foreign language to work in a country where the offical lanuage is the one I speak"

*SHAME* red hot burny shame hit right after I had that thought..

Am I becoming one of those people? Is the next one going to be.. Well, the wages suck because so and so will work so cheap and they take all the jobs anyway....

SHAME....

The fact is... The job market I am interested in requires me to be bilingual in spanish in this area... There is nothing negitive about this... (except the fact I don't have the skill set at this time) It is simply a fact.

I am a racist... I was conditioned, raised and reinforced...

But I don't have to like it, I don't have to give into it and I always must strive to reprogram that white privilage tape

[WingsOnFire]

How numb I am... how much irreversible pain the past 24 hours caused... pissed at myself that I could not get myself together enough to go to work... soooo not happy about that... 5 hours of sleep that didnt touch the exhaustion I feel...

An offer to get away for the weekend and how appealing it looks...

Most of all... friends who always lift me up... even though I felt lost having them there at the leather event helped me... you dont know how much it meant to me... thank you...

[NorCalStud]

earlier I was hatin on haters...ya know bein like them and then I realized how good I am and how loving and giving. I AM Not willing to be walked on.......karma may be nicht so gut for those who hate near me.

All that is on my mind now is the life we are building together...how we stayed one night together and are staying forever. We are blessed with love and family and friends who love us. We talk all the time Not holding back anything builds trust. My mind is free. My psyche is at rest.

No one is taking up space in my head.

I have you and you, my love, are my reward for many years of labor in fruitless love.

I have US on my mind, me Reigna.

[PoeticSilence]

(What is on your mind)

I spent quite a while today working on my website. I realized after a few hours, that I first started working on that site ten years ago exactly today. It took me a few moments to consider how I felt about that and it felt good to be doing something that productive again.

[Hollylane]

Tomorrow is the company picnic up at Mt Hood. I've been looking forward to this for weeks.

I planned to go horseback riding (the only part that is not free):

p80HIpf287A

Ride the 800 ft zip line:

QHnx2n9qAlo

Ride the ski lift (I've never been on a ski lift)to the top of the mountain and then do this (a few times):

8KK1tz_-ScE

Go down the Summer Tube Hill a few times:


pndGaiu9bc8

But what is really on my mind, is the weather forecast....I don't want rain or wind on my day of fun!!! NOOOOO!!!!!

Saturday A 30 percent chance of showers and thunderstorms. Mostly cloudy, with a high near 80. Calm wind becoming north northwest 5 to 8 mph in the afternoon.

The day turned out to be 98% beautiful, but even the pounding rain and hail that drenched me on my way to the car after TONS of exhilirating moments, was beautiful in its own way.

Yesterday is still on my mind. I did things (all of the videos above, were things I did) that I had doubts that I would be able to convince myself to do (ski lift, zip line, sledding), and I loved every moment of it, even the moments where I was convinced I was going to die. :) I think what made it spectacular for me, is that no one talked me into any of it (as if someone could ;)), I did those things because I chose to. IT WAS FUCKING AWESOME!

I've said it before, and I'll say it again, it would have been 1 million times better with Gaige there with me. But, now, I know it is somewhere that Gaige and I will have a total blast, the next time she is in the Portland area with me during warm weather!

Another thing that is on my mind, is that I am going to do more riding, a lot more riding. After I got home, Gaige kept commenting about how happy I looked, and I know that it was mostly about spending time on horseback. Other than the last 12 or so years, I have been riding all of my life, and yesterday it became very clear to me, how much I missed it.

[deathbypoem]

Where is the needle in the haystack?

I've been lost in this for far too long.

[DMW]

Dammit!http://rasica.files.wordpress.com/2013/03/46880_534219483283005_2038529074_n.jpg

What is the truth? Whole countries have banned Monsanto's GM crops.
Cancer causing poisonous crap. What the hell is the FDA for?

http://rasica.files.wordpress.com/2013/03/300721_197355307006426_1467003844_n.jpg

Food inc. 2Oq24hITFTY

5TTWwOWvPzA

[Elijah]

Today is a good day, indeed. Grateful and happy.

[Kobi]

Serious question here. Given the list of Monsanto do not buy companies....who's left?

[Hollylane]

I dropped off my car at 8:15am this morning for repairs, and I asked them if I could get an estimate by 12pm. The answer was yes. No call at 12pm. I called them at 1pm, they said they'd know by 3pm. I called at 4pm (an hour before they close), they said they are just so busy during the summer, that the mechanic had just gotten to my car at 4pm to run diagnostics, and that they may have an answer in the morning. !#(@#@)@!!!!!


So...after posting this in the "pissed off thread" last week, today, I went to my regular mechanic, for the things that these jerks missed on their "bumper to bumper check"...I still had a wheel hub that needed replacing (some of the bearings were literally broken, and this problem could have caused an accident), an oil sensor that was bad, and I needed an oil change.

The price (another $400+, after just having spent $500+) did not bring me joy, but I know these guys earn it, and charge minimal labor fees. What did bring me joy, is that I popped in without an appointment, asked them to take a look, they took a look, gave me an estimate, gave water and pets to my dog, and completed the work within 2 hours. I will never go to the "other guys" again. Ever.

I'm glad I popped in. These repairs mean that I will have a safe trip up to Timothy Lake this weekend (a 3000+ elevation gain), and a safe trip over to Astoria next week.


While I was at the mechanics, talking about the car, I mentioned that my car had stalled after I had driven it up the mountain this past weekend (at least a 2000ft elevation gain in a short amount of miles), and he asked me when was the last time I had a tuneup on the transmission, but then we went back to talking about the hub that needed replacing.


My "Check Engine" light just came on while accelerating on an incline....For the love of #$@#$#@@#!!!! SERIOUSLY???? :|

I should have asked him to do the transmission tuneup, but I didn't... I was probably distracted by the first estimate of $400+ that turned into $500+....So, here I am, wondering if I'll have a trip up the mountain this weekend or not. Most likely not. :(

[sierragirrl]

its a quiet night tonight
therapy got my wheels turning. processing things, coming to terms with other things, realizing I may never get the answers I want from the lady who birthed me.
As of now that is ok with me.
I do have it lined up that at anytime I can grab my girls and go out to dinner with my brother and the mother of my birth mother. I am not sure I can get all the answers I want from her but at least my kids would get to meet there blood great grandmother.
baby steps I say

toss that in the salad spinner along with the rest of the stuff to process give it a good spin! :byebye:

[PoeticSilence]

Knowing that by the end of the week, I'll know if I'll be in a wheelchair for the rest of my life or not.

[SirLucian]

after years of making My own coffee it had stopped bothering Me but this past week it's become a problem again
:sunglass:

[JustLovelyJenn]

Lets add another thing to that overwhelming to-do list.... shall we?

[sierragirrl]

she made it thru the first day of school
only complaint is "we have home work everyday" I told her it is going to be like that from now on.to that I got the groan.
AND she likes her first male teacher..woohoo
:praying:

[Breezy]

Life.
Death.
Love.
Fear.
Health.
Illness.
Making the decision.
Coming to believe.

You know what's important? Love. It is all that matters, all that exists.

:rrose:

[Metro]

Serious question here. Given the list of Monsanto do not buy companies....who's left?


Non-GMO foods and brands by category:

http://www.nongmoproject.org/find-non-gmo/search-participating-products/

[DMW]

"Seeds of death" movie.
http://fuckmonsanto.org/seeds-of-death-full-movie/

Too bad the food inc. clip wasn't the whole movie. Didn't have time to
verify. It is a great documentary.
I just found this documentary.
The FDA ?... Obvious that big pharma wouldn't want this fixed.
Smh at how far out of hand this has gone.
We are the lab rats. And it has just gotten worse.
The buck has gotta stop somewhere.
As I said before...reminds me of " Tuesday is soylent green day "

[always2late]

Serious question here. Given the list of Monsanto do not buy companies....who's left?


Link to a list of 400 companies that do not use GMOs

http://www.realfarmacy.com/400-companies-no-gmos/

[JustLovelyJenn]

I have a lot to do this weekend... my mind is buzzing with costuming patterns and yard sale plans and rearranging ideas... oh, and getting the kids out of the house and to their dads for the weekend.

[Talon]

BW30WslahMc





....There are no words for this...

[Joness]

Ok . . . just a quick rant but feel its much needed. Feel so frustrated that every time I get into something good with a girl the moment it becomes 'normal', 'the norm', 'conventional': groceries together, dinner at the table dinning table, seeing if the cats get on . . . .brrrr, boom! I feel the need to immediately do a runner . . . . 34 years old / / / is this it?! Run run as fast as you can and find a new Pillow Princess . . . brrrrr! Pfffftttt.

Thank you for giving me the space to vent.
Frustrated Stone Boi xx

[Elijah]

Dear Kaya (My cat),

While trying to share your lunch with me is a kind gesture, yacking it into the middle of my bed is not the way to go about it. Thanks Anyway.

Love,

Your Dad

[sierragirrl]

What is on my mind..well we shall not go there but I do have a question.
when honey bees get into the hummingbird feeder how does it affect the honey?
is it bad for the bees?
:hk17:

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

The weekend I am having and boy was it NEEDED although no studying, homework, and very little sleep has been going on.....I am repeating this weekend and damn was it needed and gone beyond expectations.....

[agape]

If I kiss her and then run away... am I brave or coward? Thinking...

[WingsOnFire]

If I kiss her and then run away... am I brave or coward? Thinking...

brave as Fuck for kissing her.... One lucky person if she catches you before you run away and wants more :)

[sierragirrl]

I hope they get this fire out..no I am not in danger thank goodness.
tonight the moon is a beautiful hue of orange-ish yellow.

[JustLovelyJenn]

I forgot to take my lactose pill before I ate that cheesecake... big mistake... now I am going to pay for it.

[GraffitiBoi]

I'm wondering how much damage the newbie did to me on Saturday night and when the nightmares will end and I can sleep once again...

[Massive]

*mumbles something about dreaming about comfy talking beds and stumbles towards the coffee pot*

I'm sure sleep used to mean waking up feeling vaguely human not long ago... Damn CFS

[Miss Scarlett]

Someone very special...

[sierragirrl]

I finally got 2 yrs worth of pictures off my camera.
fun to see how much my girls have grown, to see memories of the past, some good, dogs I miss. and beach pictures.
I don't think of my dog being that small until you see her next to a 20oz soda bottle.. she is polly pocket cute!
grocery store after I drop Libby off at school this morning, veggies and fixins for dinner.
Tomorrow the City where you can make no left turns :fastdraq:
Giants and BoSox! night game bbrrr
dentist Thursday, house sitting for the weekend, along with Chico pride!
oh and the carpets get cleaned tomorrow as well!
almost sounds like I have a life woohoo! :blink::
anyone want to wake Libby up for me?
she doesn't do Mondays :| :byebye: :bouquet:

[WingsOnFire]

The changes in my life... good and bad... up and down... and in between... and what they mean for the future.. :deepthoughts:

[Hollylane]

I have an impromptu additional day off (thank you to my awesome supervisor), and I'm talking to Gaige, and trying to work up the nerve to try out my new blow torch after she goes to bed...

[MsBluem]

Today has been such a yucky Monday. I'm trying to forget everything on my mind. And to top it off, I just realized I forgot to take my medicine.

So, should anyone feel like helping me out, I need some good things on my mind.

[mountainbikedyke]

This coming weekend.......

[DMW]

sjJOzzu9nd0

[Soft*Silver]

I am trying to save a horse from going on a slaughter truck...she is the exact twin of my beloved mare Chellsie who had to be put to sleep 9 years ago after stepping in a ground hog hole and snapping her femur in half...this is killing me. Its like losing Chellsie all over again

[sierragirrl]

Mondays!
I actually don't mind them.
however the child is in melt down stage :whine: she is tired and has homework she is fighting to the core.
she just tossed a note to me that says 4th grade sucks.

:|

[JustLovelyJenn]

It is silly silly silly to have an anxiety attack over a spider.... BUT... it was a very very very BIG spider... time for xanax now. *nods*

[SirLucian]

My darkness will come out
:grindevil:

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

This year and how different it is from last year yet not what I had expected. The most recent few weeks and what they may mean for my future. Perceptions and how they can be wrong but when understood can be changed. How I really do not want it to be Tuesday yet since I am in no mood to give myself another shot. Maybe I will be up to it after a nap. The pain I am in physically and hoping the nap will help that too. Rest is on my mind before I go face math class...

[JustLovelyJenn]

What is on my mind?

I got my new job!! I get to work with a teacher I worked with when I first started working for this school district, in a room that is the exact focus I am looking at for my own teaching degree!!

I get to work FULL TIME... I get summers off... WITH PAY... and I am going to love every day of my job!!!

This is a great way to start the new school year! I am so excited.

[Leigh]

Just thinking about how in less than a month my Daddy has to go home and won't be back until xmas ~ its gonna be so lonely around here without Hym :(

[Hollylane]

How much I wish Gaige was able to go with me to meet my parents, and hang out with us in Astoria...:stillheart:

[WingsOnFire]

I have an impromptu additional day off (thank you to my awesome supervisor), and I'm talking to Gaige, and trying to work up the nerve to try out my new blow torch after she goes to bed...

inquiring minds want to know if anyone was injuried during your experiment. Lol

[Hollylane]

inquiring minds want to know if anyone was injuried during your experiment. Lol

There were no :fireman: on scene. I was successful! :)

[SirLucian]

boy Praying over his Syr's Leather
:bdsmslave:

[Cid]

What is on my mind are the amazing people on this planet.
I put in the confession thread that my ex is now living with the 'other woman' and I got the most remarkable outpouring of support.
I don't ever underestimate the kindness and generosity of the people
here, but I'm always amazed at the love that generates from one post.

Thank you, my dear friends, for the words of support.

Big hugs to you all!!

[Miss Scarlett]

Hy is......

[Soft*Silver]

the zucchini casserole thats in my oven...

[jac]

What's on my mind...

My mom... and her mom.

[JustLovelyJenn]

many many many things...

[sierragirrl]

What is on my mind

life can be so diverse, one must take the good with the bad. however it is what you decide to do with the bad that matters.
i have learned from it, evaluated, dissected it, dismissed what wasn't mine.

Trust is so important, all the facets of trust not just the cheating part of trust. you have to be able to trust your partner to always love you thru the good and the bad.
you should be able to count on each other thru EVERYTHING not just pick and choose what you like.
your partner MUST be your best friend, be able to speak your mind about the present, past, and future. :cheer: i can't wait to have this in my life it has been years.

while my life is far from perfect i am enjoying the ride
and i am actually looking forward to the future
2 yrs ago i would of NEVER said that.

:hk1:

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Right now how much my leg hurts I really need to pick a new spot for my Tuesday "ouch" ritual....

[Queenie]

What is on my mind?

When I was visiting my mother and sister this summer I came across an old cassette tape. I took it back to london with me and forgot all about it till this afternoon. I popped into my husband's cassette player and to my utter surprise it still worked and to an even bigger surprise it had the voices of me, my sister and my father on it. Me and my sister had to be little real little when my father made this tape of us. What made me really, really sad was, the last time I heard my father's voice I was 13. It was just painful hearing his voice again. He was so sweet and gentle to me and my sister on this tape. Asking us who are friends were, if we liked school. I don't think I will have it in me to ever play it again. I'm just glad my husband wasn't home to see me become a sobbing mess!

[cinnamongrrl]

On my mind....

People in Syria are facing genocide from their own government. Our government is hesitant about sending help. These poor people are on their own, escaping from their own homes and country, with no where to go. Everything in my own life seems so trivial by comparison...

[JAGG]

Dance lessons. Maybe.

[JustLovelyJenn]

How many things are changing in the world... wondering what will happen in the next decade or two...

[deb_U_taunt]

CIJS tomorrow begins 10 days of being completely unplugged!

CIJS I am looking forward to spending time with friends.

CIJS I love burning man!

[ONLY]

My girl (f) is having a rough couple of days at her job :( and there is nothing I can do for her :( besides listen and remind her that she will be here in a couple of weeks for a few days off and that I love her and I miss her so much.

[JustLovelyJenn]

What is on my mind right now is a lesson I am learning from several friends who attended my bbq this weekend...

... just because you are liberal... does not mean you are open minded.... and it certainly doesnt mean you are right...

... by deffinition, if you believe one thing to the complete exception of all other possibilities you are CLOSED minded... even if that belief is an enlightened one... if you do not leave room for new information, new possibilities, and other peoples beliefs and ideas... you are NOT open minded... just because the end result of a current action is not satisfactury, does not mean that all the parts, ideas, and basis of that process are flawed or without reason... revolution, if that is your intent... should be meant to preserve the pieces of our existance that still work... and are WORTH saving... not to completely change the world as we know it and anialate everything that is... that, is simply finding a different form of destruction for society...

compromise, passion, and loyalty are the keys to change and understanding...

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Unfortunately since it is late way to many things are on my mind right now. Like how people think that respect is automatic and not earned. How easily you can loose respect of others if you loose sight of who you really are and don't stick to it. How much I am missing people right now and although I am not "alone" just how alone I feel sometimes.
How much I have laughed today and scratched my head because of this site and a thread or two. How grateful I am for those times and those threads. More importantly how appreciative I am of the very real people on here that have touched me and continue to do so.
How I need to shut my brain off so I can go to sleep since I have to be up in 6 hours and I am so a 8 hour sleep kind of guy....

:moonstars:

[SirLucian]

How quite the world is right now
One can almost feel the Love and Harmony

[DMW]

Your behavior is Not Attractive

[VintageFemme]

What is on MY mind? The question begs, what ISN'T on my mind...

I can't stop it, it's like a runaway train in my head. World events and the ad nauseam that is this pop culture crap I keep reading about everyfreakingwhere. Seriously, we're one thin hair from going to war with Syria but the big news is Miley Cyrus? Little minds with little thoughts. And what IS twerking? I could Google it for myself but short of this passing thought, I'm really not that interested in knowing. And on the lighter side of the same coin [thank Goddess!] I have a brand new heartbeat that is really a friendship caught on fire and isn't that just the hottest kind of fire there is? Yes it is. And the pièce de résistance though... we're having a wedding this weekend! And there just isn't anything in all the universe I would rather be doing than that. See? Monkey mind. My only wish is that sleep would find me. And now I'm thinking about that too.

Signed,
Mother of the Groom

[Novelafemme]

Saying goodbye to the sweetest little brown bundle of doggy ever.

She slipped out a side gate that the wind had blown open and was hit by a car.

I held her against my body the whole drive to the vet....trying to drive and comfort her through the tears.

She loved riding in the car more than anything, so I kept whispering that we were in the car! Going for a ride! And that it was ok for her to go to sleep if she needed to.

I thought maybe she would make it. But the vet came out after only 15 minutes to say she had passed.

I still can't believe my little Rue is gone. A piece of my heart has gone with her.

[sierragirrl]

what is on my mind::
early morning phone calls, me being cranky this morning oy just bleed already! after some sleep I am back to my sweet sassy self.
weight loss has halted due to pony time and its ok.

texting off and on all day getting to know each other slowly, learning the quirks
of each other.
sometimes LDR's ain't so bad

NO need to worry bout me

life is fucking great I am in a great space, getting to know a good guy, I am healthy, my bills are paid and my kids are happy.

[Leigh]

knowing that in just over a week, my Daddy will be going back to the States and i may not be able to see Hym for 3-6 months or even longer ............ how does one deal with that kind of heartache? i will be one big mess of a little girl when Hy goes away :'(

[PoeticSilence]

Since I've been declared disabled I decided to let my body find a natural cycle, because the only things I HAVE to do are usually doctor or PT appointments. After three months, keeping in mind I have four pain meds and a pain patch, and sleeping disorders.. my body chose to go to bed around four to five AM and wake up around one to three PM. I would prefer to wake up earlier and go to bed earlier as well, but I'm allowing my body to make choices because I think some of the healing and dealing with the pain will be easier if I'm not fighting my self in the process. What I'm trying NOT to think about is that some of my favourite places to eat stop serving breakfast at ten a.m.

[Daktari]

Sharing my 'vision of hope' at tonight's meeting.

[JustLovelyJenn]

31 years... of experiences, lessons, laughter, tears, joys, fears, and discovery... and I am just starting to see the beauty that is inside of not only me, but every living thing around me... I am blessed to have so much before me...

[Hollylane]

Jewelry making...So many ideas....So little time...

[Smiling]

Jewelry making...So many ideas....So little time...


Hi Holly,
Do you do any lampworking? I'm asking because I bought a kit a while ago and just dug it out. I'm excited to get creative and give it a try! Any advice for a beginner? :).

[mountainbikedyke]

A sexy blonde...:cool:

[Hollylane]

Hi Holly,
Do you do any lampworking? I'm asking because I bought a kit a while ago and just dug it out. I'm excited to get creative and give it a try! Any advice for a beginner? :).

I don't, but it sounds like fun! I hope you have a good time with it! Post pictures! :)

[Smiling]

I definitely will! I am really excited about it. :). I'm eager to play with the blowtorch, too; lol. Maybe I should up my insurance before I start....

[Gemme]

6 days without internet/email/connection to outside world.

Luckily, I will have something to keep me occupied!

[girl_dee]

Floors, walls, plants, mowers, mirrors, tables, sinks, shelves, gloves, books and hot water.

[Hollylane]

In less than three hours, there will only be twenty days left until I meet my baby at Dallas Love Field for the flight into Little Rock...I cannot believe how time is flying by!

[girl_dee]

Chat with Syr, coffee at the kitchen table (what is substituting for a kitchen table), my puppy running around and "borrowed" internet, all in my own new place.
WOW.

[PinkieLee]

Chat with Syr, coffee at the kitchen table (what is substituting for a kitchen table), my puppy running around and "borrowed" internet, all in my own new place.
WOW.

I am so very happy for you! Congrats on your new home!

[Queenie]

Okay, most of us know that getting older can suck at times! It is just me that's been getting these weird little white hairs on my eyebrows and on places on my face? They are really starting to bug me. And some of them aren't that little! My fave is the one that likes to grow on the right-hand side of my nose. And the only time I notice it is when I am in the sun and I have a face full of make-up! Ugh! I am sorry for the butch or ftm that is looking at my post with an odd look on hys/his face.

[PoeticSilence]

So last night, I was working on the computer and chatting with people til around 3am. I finished working on some coding for my blog and realized my AIM was blinking, at 4:15am? and when I switched over, I saw random letters blipping along. So I realize my friend Wayne or his wife might be up, so I ask Wayne? No answer but some more blips. I ask Wayne, are you okay? Nothing. So I'm trying to decide if I wake up my wife to get his phone number because I know she has it somewhere. After a few minutes Hi comes across the AIM. so I'm like Hi! Are you okay? other end reads Yeah, I'm good. and then a few moments later, he tells me it's my friends Wayne and his wife's boy. So we talk and talk, he's twelve mind you. Talked til his bus got there at 6:20 for school (ungodly hours). Before he left, he gave me his email and asked me to email him later. Later his dad logged in and we had a great laugh about it, he had read the history. Kids are so brave these days, with so many opportunities to do so many amazing things. I'll email him tomorrow I think. I could use a new penpal.

[Miss Scarlett]

Next weekend!! Planning his birthday surprises...he's going to have a very "interesting" week!! ;)

[DMW]

How a very calculating, cunning and deceptive person confused the heck out of me and I let it happen. I am disappointed in myself. In addition,not only did I hurt myself...I hurt others because I couldn't see through the fog.
I made a really terrible choice. Sorry for the negative share. Just the truth.
Needs to be acknowledged and honored.

[Kobi]

Today was the first time my insulin dependent cat bottomed out her blood sugar. That was not pretty. She was staggering around, stumbling in circles, looked confused and lost.

The honey was not working to get her blood sugar back up. So, off to the emergency vet we went. Her blood sugar was down to 30. So she got some dextrose, was a little perkier when we left there.

Now she is looking sluggish again and just not acting like herself. I'm thinking we are heading back to the emergency center soon.

[Kobi]

Glad I didn't second guess myself about bringing the cat back to the emergency center. She started twitching before we left and was in full blown seizures by the time we arrived there.

It's been a long freakin day.

[o'queery]

On my mind..

Service to Syr

my Leather F/family

my heart and how the cracks are slowly filling in

His smile and laugh (infectious)

foofoo and her arrival right into my arms

Wondering if this is my ULTIMATE test of patience.

~ le sigh... boy style.

[Kobi]

The emergency vet called the am. I love when they do the good news/bad news thing.

Kitty apparently had a decent night with just one episode of dropping her sugar again. But they have been maintaining her on dextrose iv and she is eating, and peppy with a bs of 200 this am.

The bad news is they don't know why she keeps dropping her sugar and want her to go directly from their icu to my local vet. They also want to leave her iv port in for the 20 minute trip. This way, if I have a problem along the way, I can administer a shot of dextrose. :|

When they told me this, my mind suddenly flashed back to that tv commercial....I am not a doctor but I play one on tv.

My tarotscope this week said:

SAGITTARIUS FOUR OF BLADES Rest. Please rest. You are going to need the down time at the beginning of this week. Heed your body. Time out.

Love the irony Arwen. :)

Ok time for me to play Marcus Welby.

[Kobi]

Thank you to all who have inquired about and sent well wishes for my lil buddy.

She spent the day at the vet and has done well. Her blood sugars are up and holding. She hasn't needed any supplemental dextrose. She is eating, drinking, and fighting with the cone around her neck. I have never been able to keep a collar on this cat. Not sure how she hasn't found a way out of the cone yet.

If her next blood sugar is ok I get to take her home for the night. Then she is back to the vet tomorrow for another day of monitoring. I swear if one more person tells me "no insulin until further notice" I will be forced to hurt them.

If her next blood sugar is not ok, it is back to the vet hospital for overnight monitoring.

Good thing there was nothing on my credit card. Last nights treatment alone was more than my mortgage.

[rustedrims]

that is what is on my mind,

Have I made the right ones in my small world of happiness.??

I don't know..?

Now, it is comfortable and satisfying..?

Another choice I made I do not like..!

Not comfortable and satisfying..!

What is left now is the waiting..?

Then I will know/feel if I made the right choice..?

time..?

how much is there..?

:candle:..?

[Kobi]

I watched the movie 42 last night. Still cant figure out how I feel about it. And its bugging me.

On the one hand, I like baseball movies, especially historical ones. And, this one has made me look for more info on Jackie Robinson the man, not the ballplayer.

On the other hand, it felt very much like a movie to make white people feel good about a white man who gave a black man the opportunity to break barriers in an all white game clearly in an effort to win a World Series.

And, it showed how the white guy put in some safety nets but overall left it up to the black man to deal with the crap and basically prove himself worthy of acceptance.

The reality turned out well but I cant help but think Jackie Robinson could have just as easily ended up swinging from a tree.

I dunno. Maybe it was just to sanitized for me.

[deb_U_taunt]

What is on my mind?? I am questioning my sanity. I have a dishwasher for the first time in YEARS and I am still washing my dishes by hand. I am such a creature of habit.

[MsBluem]

Coffee is wonderful. But coffee does not take away the fact I thought about how long it's been since I've been on a real/true date. Bummer city.

[sierragirrl]

What is on my mind::
Life is NOT about flowers and everything sparkly as much as I would love it to be.well maybe.

we took our 9 yr old to therapy Tuesday I believe it will be something that is going to benefit her. She is so sad sometimes, cries talking about her older sisters and some of the people who were very important in her life but are no longer there due to death or relationships ending. Sad when kids get drug through it. I would take back the past 6 yrs for her if I could. Sadly I can't, hopefully it will turn her into a stronger girl.
to hear my daughter tell her therapist that she did what she did because no one cares anyways broke my heart :(
harming herself before she is 10 freaks me the fuck out.
so glad she didn't succeed
:praying:

[alexri]

The concept of karma.

Knowing that eventually, people will get what they deserve. Their actions will come back to them.

[sierragirrl]

The concept of karma.

Knowing that eventually, people will get what they deserve. Their actions will come back to them.

this is why you do as much good stuff as you can!
I don't want karma biting me in the ass!

[Chad]

Coffee is wonderful. But coffee does not take away the fact I thought about how long it's been since I've been on a real/true date. Bummer city.

I have the same thoughts Ms Bluem.

The last date I had was in 2007 or was it 2006? Who can remember ?
Of course I was in a relationship for a long time. Still I do miss dating.

[Hollylane]

I had some thoughts while in the shower a little bit ago...

I really don't mind sharing my bathroom with the resident spider, but I prefer it be where I can keep my eye on it...

Also...

It occurred to me again today, how much I love Gaige's current relationship status...:stillheart:

[agape]

I often wonder how much is too much...
when is something consider broken beyond repair?
is everything fix-able?

[Bèsame*]

Listening to the rhythm of the falling rain. ... wishing you weren't so far away .

[JustLovelyJenn]

Life is feeling a little overwhelming again. It seems that as soon as I feel like things are settling down enough that I can do a little something for myself... the whole world explodes around me. Life is hard right now... emotionally and financially... and I am feeling like my support system is almost non-existant.

I just have to remember to take a deep breath and keep moving. I can get through this, just like I have gotten through everything else the fates have thrown at me.

[MsTinkerbelly]

I'm bone weary tired...tired of being sick...tired of just being today.

I know, I know, do you want some cheese with your whine?

[Daktari]

A layer cake of spiritual awakenings


:tinfoil:

[cutiepie]

The colors of the leaves as they start to change. My drive to work is beautiful. I will miss the colors later. Yet right now, the colors are just beginning.

:praying:

[SirLucian]

Pain I Bring

[Bèsame*]

Can I just say...

I don't like stitches in my mouth. Knowing that they are there makes me feel ugly.

[Miss Scarlett]

Have to take my baby to the vet this morning...she's 16 and has been an in excellent health all her life. But the other day she started having trouble going to the bathroom and there's some spotting. I'm really scared that this might be more than a UTI and from what I've been told that could be very serious for cats.

[Gemme]

I hope my obit is like this. (http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/09/17/william-freddie-mccullough-obituary_n_3941406.html?icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl6%7Csec1_lnk2%26pLid%3D376772)

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind right now...

reminding myself with every breath I take, not to let ANYONE or ANYTHING steal my joy!

[JustLovelyJenn]

Teaching....

I always seem to end up in a position where I am asked to teach someone something... I have decided this is both a blessing and a curse.

[lusciouskiwi]

*sigh

So much needs to be done right now that I can't plan ahead - like, apply for jobs.

Thank goodness I have my own (company) car but it's tough living with someone else in their house.

I need a holiday. A proper holiday that consists of cocktails and a big fat novel.

[Random]

Sex....not quiet in the middle of the night tame stuff, but loud, sweaty, Gatorade needing , putting holes in walls,wild middle of the afternoon where ever the impulse strike sex....

Must have our own place soon or rent a freaking hotel room..

[Miss Scarlett]

A dear friend who passed away 16 years ago today.

I love you and miss you buddy.

But when I watch you in this video, I know that you happy, home and at peace.

Until we meet again...

WtrpvkWigmw

[easygoingfemme]

After a few "can't find time to breath" days of juggling a heavier than usual work load (yay!) plus the teenager, school, etc, I'm sliding into the easier part of the week.
Which means that this morning is paperwork time and cleaning my house, and then, at noon, taking my daughter to her first day at her new volunteer job. Which is a dream job, working at the coolest historic theater in the world, then picking up my mom for her birthday to take her to see the play that my daughter is working, then home for a little regroup time. Then take the kid to her new late night dance class (makes me feel really old) and then home by 9pm to collapse.
Tomorrow is our homeschool group day which we love. Then it's the weekend with my guy! My daughter is working at the theater again Friday night so we get a little date night time. This whole working teenager gig isn't so bad!:hangloose:

[JustLovelyJenn]

My son. He is having such a hard time in school... he's so very smart, but its just not an environment he is comfortable in he doesn't understand how other people think or what is appropriate socially. Every year its getting worse... I really just don't know what to do to help him any more.

[Soon]

reconnecting with some family
future plans
butch sweetness

[LeftWriteFemme]

this pretty picture

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/8/8c/Femmes_%C3%A0_la_fontaine.JPG/640px-Femmes_%C3%A0_la_fontaine.JPG

[JAGG]

I hate that it's already dark at 7:45 pm . :|

[Bèsame*]

Sometimes the things you think are scary become very intriguing after some thought. And you wonder if these thoughts were trapped or what made them scary in the first place.

[DMW]

The extreme tea party republicans insist on shutting down the government, using the Affordable Care Act as one of their excuses to do so.

well, why not add an amendment to take away each members of congress government issued health care,which is paid for by the people, and then let em pass a continuing resolution bill that shuts down the government.

And then add another amendment that takes away their paychecks since they
won't be working.

And then add another amendment that takes away their retirement paid for by the people. Example...like what they did to the us postal workers and the threats to
our social security.

So many ways to do this.

Heck those little kids banking adds make more sense than this spin.

Get real congress. This is our country and our future. It is beyond our future
that they are messing with or our grandchildren's future and beyond.
And gotta love the hypocrisy of the flags that they wear on their lapels.

Next up...failure to raise the debt ceiling, via the tea party republicans.
USA future...city of Detroit is an example...and Greece.
Detroit is working hard to come back with no help of the republicans.

[Scots_On_The_Rocks]

Thinking about my mom and her declining health these days. :(

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

My health is on my mind lately. The good news that there is no pneumonia in my chest however there was bad news from the xray. Isn't there always bad news when a doctor gives you good news. My T levels are where they should be at two months with no real "bad" or unwanted side effects. Of course I am inpatient with the slowness's of some of the effects I want. I know be patient Alix, all in good time. At least the sore throat went away, finally. I don't know if I could have handled it on top of this nasty as chest cold.

Now there are present things on my mind. Like this handsome boy from another site that is making his presence known and felt. I don't know where it will lead if any where he is a tad young and not in Oregon. Not that that has stopped me before....chuckle. Did I say he was handsome and service oriented. I can't forget the girl that is on my mind either. I know bad Alix.....

Throw in school and my bio-family and you get half the picture of what is on mt mind these days. No wonder there are not enough hours in the day and I some times forget to breath.....

[sportyspice95]

kW3Hzedn7D4

[SirLucian]

who seek help and get it
but offer nothing in return
as I watch it happen to others


I look inside Myself for all I need
I am never disappointed
:superman::superman:

[Scots_On_The_Rocks]

How much shit (sewing and all) I have to get done before Steamcon V next month. :blink:

[spritzerJ]

I worry that our community is loosing its ability to support members when they have a tough time.
How can we discuss our pain openly and receive support from each other? I understand the TOS and not posting drama.

However, when a member is at their wits end where do they go to share their hurt? Yes, for some counseling is a luxury they should access. Yet since it is a luxury it isn't always an option.

It is just on my mind. Some of folks are intensely private and even our BFP "friends" don't know they need help until it boils over.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

My upcoming finals. At least I don't have any double days this quarter however I do have one day where I have a final and then a presentation afterwards. I do not do good standing in front of a group of people and speaking not even people I have known like in this situation. At least it is a subject I know about and should be able to pronounce all the medical words involved. If I can get an A on the anatomy final I will actually pass the class. This makes me happy since I know the material and the only reason I have such a poor grade in it is because well life got in the way this quarter and the instructor is a hard ass that does not allow you to make up any missed exams no matter the reason.

I hope everyone has safe travels back home from the reunion today and tomorrow. That is also on my mind.

[DMW]

The house republicans have had ample chances to pass a continued resolution to allow the government to stay in operation. A blank slate continued resolution to keep government funded systems running is once again in their hands.

They have refused to vote to keep the government systems running.

Nowhere in the constitution of the United States does it say...congress can choose not to vote for the people. Not to my knowledge and memory.
The hastert rule is not part of the constitution.

“Hastert Rule,” which saith that no House Speaker shall bring to the floor any legislation not supported by “the majority of the majority” (i.e., the majority of the Speaker’s caucus). The tea party minority is controlling it.

The majority of the republican congress did not win by a majority of the people
voting for them. They got elected because the way the districts were redrawn.
Yes, Remade for the repubs in the minority( of those districts) to get elected.

Just in regards to fiscal policy:
Shutting down the government will increase the deficit by 30 billion dollars
over a ten year period.

Obama has decreased the deficit by 50 percent since he has been in office.

The last time we had a budget with a surplus and created more of a surplus,
was with Clinton.

Solution. Congressmen and women who refuse to vote, for the majority of the people, should be labeled "Non essential" government workers and thrown out of congress.

Non Essential. Really a nuisance.

[butterflykisses86]

Finding a job, I thought I had a caregiving position and I got a email today saying they would rather wait on hiring anyone right now..


Making new friends and then them turning out not to be what I thought.


making plans for my 27th birthday

[SirLucian]

A Homo Depot Trip

[Softquietfemme]

*My To Do List for tomorrow *My regret that it is almost bedtime *plans for the weekend and *of course, where did I put the remote????

[Jar]

A weekend of wonderful memories, reconnecting with old friends, making new ones and being back in my community.

[SirLucian]

Love, Respect, Honesty and Integrity

:cigar2:

[jac]

What's on my mind...

My mindset and my priorities. Time to get back to where I once was - pain or not, I have priorities and they all need tending to... with love and affection.

[hagster]

My life is divided into two sections, that's all I have room for right now. When one event is over I have another chomping at the bit to take its place. So many serious life 'things' going on and I've had to push a couple to the back burner to deal with others.

Today I'm reflective about my words. In one case I'm pleased that there is nothing I've left unsaid. In another, I wish I'd kept my shit to myself. C'est la vie, what is done cannot be undone.

[Scots_On_The_Rocks]

Been thinking about the government shutdown and how so much that the current administration (exception being the POTUS) has chose to NOT do is affecting the general populous.

Also thinking about those who struggle to find work and balance expenses when the economy is such shit right now.

Thinking about how I fit into this all, and what I can do on a macro as wel as micro level to help.

[SugarFemme]

I really believe that you are making a blanket statement about community members not being able to support each other. I have been supported through A LOT of health issues that I have had in the recent past. TOS does NOT say that we cannot discuss our lives when we are having a rough time. It says that if you are having personal drama with another member of this site that you cannot make it public and air your "dirty laundry". I totally agree with this TOS because I have personally witnessed some pretty ugly stuff when people break up. It becomes actively aggressive and passively aggressive shit slinging. It is unproductive and serves no purpose in the long run that everyone knows about the drama between exes. That is just my opinion.

As far as where do people go when it "boils over", TOS does not prohibit someone from privately discussing whats going on. It can be done in PMs with "friends" here. The whole site does not have to be privy to it. And if someone is "intensely private", why would they want to air all of this private stuff anyways?? That line of thinking for me makes no sense.






I worry that our community is loosing its ability to support members when they have a tough time.
How can we discuss our pain openly and receive support from each other? I understand the TOS and not posting drama.

However, when a member is at their wits end where do they go to share their hurt? Yes, for some counseling is a luxury they should access. Yet since it is a luxury it isn't always an option.

It is just on my mind. Some of folks are intensely private and even our BFP "friends" don't know they need help until it boils over.

[Scots_On_The_Rocks]

A lot, but the most pressing of them is how much I could use a cocktail.

[JustLovelyJenn]

There is always a lot on my lately. But, something amazing has happened as well. I finally feel like MOST of the time I can handle what I am handed... Its not that what I have to deal with has gotten any easier, its only that I have finally put my foot down and insisted on doing a few things for me. Its amazing how the time at the theater, or a night out with my friends each week really makes it possible to get through each week without feeliking like I am loosing my mind.

Self discovery is never ending, and I am just beginning to understand who I am again... after all this time.

[Hollylane]

My baby's injured finger. I wish I could kiss it better, and take the wicked cold away too. :stillheart:

[Scots_On_The_Rocks]

Getting through the rest of the week when I have hit my wall at work.

Spending some much needed alone time with my partner this weekend while my step-daughter is in Canada with her dad.

How I need to get more of Ace Brewing's Pumpkin Hard Cider

And sleep

[MysticOceansFL]

Many things .........................

[NorCalStud]

I feel so loved. Everyday I am humbled with the incredible gift of gaea's Love. We just "get" each other. So we Get each other. We are walking hand in hand into our forever.

[Kobi]

This article 2 girls arrested in Florida bullying case. (http://news.yahoo.com/2-girls-arrested-florida-bullying-case-164108414.html)

[MaggieBluIze]

During hard times it is so nice to be able to have happy thoughts ...

The Divine Miss Miranda turns 20 today!!!!!!

We have had a day full of smiles, laughs and words of :heartbeat:!

I cannot believe it was 20 years ago that my beautiful daughter
came into this world to bless us all!!!

She is an amazing mother, incredible daughter and a true survivor.

I could not :heartbeat: her more!!!!!
I make sure that she always knows we are so very proud of her
and all she has over come in life!!!!!!

[SoulShineFemme]

Sometimes I wish all the pieces would just fall into place without having to fight so hard all the time.

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind..

Breathing in the positive and exhaling the negative!

[Jar]

Friday!:cheer:

[Softquietfemme]

My ever growing To-Do List and the fast pace of the ticking hands on the clock.... Yikes!

[Gemme]

The contractor addressing me as 'Miss'. Considering he was here to fix a mess up of his company, I'm not sure if it's a manners thing, an age thing, a company thing, or a 'fuck you for calling my company out but in the nicest way possible' thing.

No matter.

I like it.

[Gemme]

My ever growing To-Do List and the fast pace of the ticking hands on the clock.... Yikes!

I'll trade clocks with you. Mine is running extremely slow and time is absolutely dragging.

[Softquietfemme]

This isn't any better... I am so sorry for you. Abracadabra??? ....I'll trade clocks with you. Mine is running extremely slow and time is absolutely dragging.

[ruffryder]

Getting this work week over with and spending some time with friends Saturday!

[Nat]

I love my job. But lately I hate my job. I love it, I hate it. I want to run away. I want to be in the mountains, I want to be in the forest, I want to swim in the ocean, I want to be free. And I want more time with everyone I love. But my job is my safe harbor, it keeps me sane, it keeps me from all that running wild I wanna do. I love it. I hate it.

[MsTinkerbelly]

Watching someone make a huge mistake, and knowing there is nothing i can do to stop it....it makes me sad.

[GeeGina]

God, I need to get laid.

[Smiling]

After I finish my coffee, I will go to pick up the ashes of my beloved cat. And as eager as I am to finally bring her home, I find myself drinking it very slowly.

[DaddyNik12]

trying to make sense of a lot things.

[Jar]

Thinking that patience is not one of my strong points :hammer:

[Leigh]

The possibility of taking a chance, letting my heart have a shot at true happiness and the hope that something new will blossom :)

[QueenofSmirks]

My final, which is due Sunday night. UGH

[cinnamongrrl]

The possibilities that spring will bring...new beginnings....decisions to make...travels to undertake....prayers answered....starting over and doing things the right way...reclaiming my life

(f)

[rustedrims]

trust.......

[Blaze]

opulence I wish this for someone that has influenced my thoughts lately...

[musicman]

Having major surgery done on Wednesday seems to be on my mind lately.

[Gemme]

The possibilities that spring will bring...new beginnings....decisions to make...travels to undertake....prayers answered....starting over and doing things the right way...reclaiming my life

(f)

Love this. I'm feeling similar to this now. I do feel as if I am taking my life back, one day at a time, and it feel marvelous.

[Leigh]

I have a few things that have been on my mind lately ...........

~ Signing up for the gym again because I wanna truly lose weight this time

~ Closing one chapter in my life to make way for a brand new one

~ How good it feels to be at a job for longer than 6 months and to enjoy what you do as well as the people you work with

~ Looking into the future and how it looks very bright from where I am sitting

~ my mom and best friends who are my world and are the most amazing people in my life

~ Reconnecting with someone who has been utterly amazing to me; allowing my heart to love again and letting Him in was the best thing I could ever have done ........... I can honestly say that I am happy again, floating on cloud 9 and believing in love one more time :blush:

[JustLovelyJenn]

My son has an appointment on Tuesday for testing... the second of three appointments that may finally get me a diagnosis of high functioning autism.... and hopefully, the resources to really help.

This trip is long, almost 3 hours drive one way, and I am going up with my mother. I havent had the time to finish ale the paperwork yet and I really just wish I could wave a magic wand at that daunting pile.

I really hope its all worth it in the end.

[girl_dee]

Way too much is on my mind ......

[Jar]

Sleep ..... Which doesn't seem to be happening :|

[Jar]

Way too much is on my mind ......
Hope you got some sleep. I finally took a benedryl and that seemed to do that trick

[cinnamongrrl]

on my mind....

a friend who is ill....just waiting for news...praying all will be well....and soon...

(f)

[kissinfemme]

It's amazing what a good nights sleep will do for your emotional well being & put things back into perspective.

[LeftWriteFemme]

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[theoddz]

Today would have been my father's 85th birthday.

Rest in peace, Dad. You are loved and missed so very, very much.

:heartbeat:

Z26BvHOD_sg

:heartbeat:

~Theo~ :bouquet:

[girl_dee]

my body is doing weird things and not in a good way!

[selty]

ARRRRGH I am so tired of pretenders, sometimes I think its better to stay single when living in a small town where people are afraid to admit who or what they are..

I hate having to be someones dirty little secret...

I refuse to be, so if that means being single for life than that's how it will be.

ARRRRRRGHHHHH

[Bard]

I keep going back and looking at the pictures of desd's car they make my heart stop then I look at the guy who she hit the guy who ran a red light and is now fibbing about it.. how my heart stopped when she texted me that she had been in a accident.. how I just had to get to her and hold her in my arms how she was shaking when I got there how I wanted to go confront the guy and now I am pissed more then ever at him.. I have guys at work that are getting the police report for me ASAP.. then I am just glad desd is all right that she is sleeping in our bed safe and sound round and round my mind goes(f)

[Bèsame*]

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[LoyalWolfsBlade]

What is on my mind is just how stupid this movie is. However, I feel compelled to watch it since I recorded it....

[asphaltcowboi]

my nephew fell off a roof two weeks ago. he is still in the hospital... he was in icu until two days ago. he was in bad shape with broken ribs and punchured lung.. they have all that stabelized but he has a serious brain injury and just doesn't seem to be pulling out of it. his wife and family that lives close to him are going threw training to learn how to care for him when he comes home... my sister (his mother) called last night to ask if I would be willing to come up there and help with his care. of course I will. the only problem is him and I got into it a few months back ending in him calling me a dyke lesbian, that didn't offend me other than the tone he used and the fact that he wasnt raised with hate.. in fact its just not allowed in our family. he has been hanging out with some people that are haters and taking on some of there habits.. but reguardless ill be there for him and the rest of the family.
he believes he is in a hotel and nothings wrong and wants to go home.

[bright_arrow]

Doctor did X-rays and then some today when I went in for a general check-up. He asked if I knew i had a mild case of scoliosis in my spine up between my shoulder blades and said it might explain why I have pain where I do. The weird thing is, well, I have never had to have an X-ray done before so I don't know if this is pre-existing or not. It kind of boggles me but he didn't seem concerned in the least, so..

He did give me some meds - an anti-inflammatory, vicodine and flexirol? I am trying to wrap up my already late homework and submit and hope she will give me an exception, then pop one and hope to be dead to the world.

I need some sleep, and need to get my sugar back under control.

... While waiting in the waiting room, we even settled on a girl's name, and it feels so right to me that it makes me feel all warm, fuzzy good vibes. A boy would be Michael Thomas in lieu of our father's, and a girl would be totally more unique - Taryn Elizabeth. I just looked at the wife and said "Dude, that is a kickass name.. She is going to rock it!"

[rustedrims]

taking off my rose colored glasses....

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

How much pain I am in and the only answer I keep coming back to for how to deal with said pain.....

[Medusa]

The French Quarter!

[RockOn]

Sleep

Went to bed, slept a couple of hours ... now wide awake. I finally gave up and came here. Staring over at the clock beside my bed every 15 minutes was not helping. So much to do tomorrow. Must get a load of wood off my truck before I go in to work in the morning.

It will work out. :) I think so.

[BrutalDaddy]

The French Quarter!

I realize you made this post a while ago but O.M.G. are you talking about N'awlins?????? Julie and I love going there. We're fortunate enough to live only a few hours from there so go as often as we can. Have fun!!


N'awlins Rules,
Brute.

[JustLovelyJenn]

I spent a lot of time deciding who I was and creating a life I love. I had to remember what I was passionate about and bring it back into my life. I chose to make goals and set myself up to make them happen...

I did a lot for me... and I am happy with what I have... now... I am sad... I want to share my joy for life with someone... and see it excite them as much as it does me...

[cara]

As morbid as it sounds, i really need to get my will and power of attorney stuff put together.

[Leigh]

realizing after the hell I've been through again today, that it was my fault and now that I'm on my own again i need to concentrate on my health and my sanity before i ever let anyone get that close to me again!

[Teddybear]

As morbid as it sounds, i really need to get my will and power of attorney stuff put together.


Its not morbid to have this done. Thanks for the reminder. I changed my life insurance today then had to make the appt for the lawyer to do my will.

Everyone should look at these thing at leaset once every 5 yrs. Things change ppl. Make sure YOUR wishes r carried out not someone elsees.

[Bad_boi]

I write tons of short stories and poems yet I never share them with anyone.

[Teddybear]

As morbid as it sounds, i really need to get my will and power of attorney stuff put together.


Its not morbid to have this done. Thanks for the reminder. I changed my life insurance today then had to make the appt for the lawyer to do my will.

Everyone should look at these thing at leaset once every 5 yrs. Things change ppl. Make sure YOUR wishes r carried out not someone elsees.

[Daktari]

Unicycle cranks
Step work
New Jersey

[bright_arrow]

Someone reaching out that I swore I would never speak to again.
Deciding if it's worth the pain to forgive.
I don't want to be the bigger person.

And I don't think I will.

[StrongButch]

I made the right choice! Life is wonderful!

[WingsOnFire]

How out of breath I am just walking to the next building for lunch... I really need to start my exercise routine

[DaddyNik12]

lts see what is on my mind ..... well if this isn't a loaded question ? lol and damn it .. where do I start ?

lolol

[uglyboi]

I'm wondering if anyone has ever purchased a piece of furniture with the criteria of being sexually functional?

[WingsOnFire]

The stress induced headache I have even with the lights off... grrrr :seeingstars:

[WingsOnFire]

I'm wondering if anyone has ever purchased a piece of furniture with the criteria of being sexually functional?

well.... ummmm.... yes... grins evily...

[StrongButch]

How wonderful life is when you have positive and supportive people in your life.

[PinkieLee]

What's on my mind....

making a list for everything we need for our New Years Eve party!

missing some really great friends and wishing our distance wasn't so far.

hoping that my coffee starts working it's magic very soon.

[Kätzchen]

What's on my mind this morning is how quiet it is:

The veil of fog, ensconcing the tree line and how its obscurity provides a peaceful beginning for my day;
nuanced by intermittent birdsong and the smoke rising from my neighbor's chimney (across the street).

And preparing for today's schedule of events
(choosing what to wear, etc).


And, coffee: French Roast + cream + honey + sprinkle of cinnamon.


*Good Morning*

:)

[Queenie]

What is on my mind?

That I have an appointment with my hospice doctor tomorrow afternoon. I get to tell him that I have taken a higher dose of my morphine pills that is prescribed.
I am so not looking forward to telling him this. Will he yell at me? Or be pissed off at me? No. As he and all the doctors at the hospice are very understanding to me and my pain. Why have I taken more pills? Because I am in P-a-i-n! I am sick to death of being in pain from my tumor! They will be putting me of methadone tomorrow. I don't really have any high hopes in this new drug working for my pain. As nothing really has over the five years I had my awful pain.

[Smiling]

I would really like to have some chocolate pudding pie right now, lol. With cool whip. Not whipped cream! Cool whip, in my humble opinion, is a far superior product in both taste and consistency.

Okay; and not "some." I'm gonna need a lot of it. And a giant shot of espresso to wash it all down, lol.

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

Right now the return call from my doctor I am expecting in 15 minutes. How long it took two friends to badger me into making this call. They should have to suffer the consequences of this call not me. I didn't want to know....

[laruss]

Expectations, holidays and health. I was hoping for an upswing in 2013, it will definitely be a year of changes again.

[RockOn]

My best butch bud has been on my mind. She put in a two week notice of resignation as director of a drug treatment center and has been working nights as a drug counselor at her new job. She is totally exhausted. After Friday, she will be finished working her two week notice and will be able work her one new job and not two. She is in dire need of some rest right now.

I am so thankful she switched jobs. As director, she had to fire two male counselors this year. They were not doing their job by corporate rules so she had to come down on them. Both became physically threatening to the point her nurses called the police. She was not physically harmed but I need to add "YET" to the end of my previous sentence. Heck, the clients (drug addicts) were like gentle lambs compared to her male counselors.

[StrongButch]

I miss my cat. Until weather clears up cant fly her home. They dont heat cargo areas im not leaving my baby in the cold for 8 hrs.

[FemmeSkyWolf]

Why does life have to hurt so bad some times

[uglyboi]

My fact for the day, The way Chuck Norris can satisfy a woman is by pointing at her with his finger and saying "Booya"

[WingsOnFire]

Thinking about the weight I have gained and how I want to start losing it... starting my yoga work out today.

[ProfPacker]

Thankful for little things. Learning a lot about myself as a single woman after a 34 year partnership. Navigating thinking about getting to know other women without having dinner and renting the you haul the next day. Wanting to date with velcroing myself to someone or visa versa. Liking my space. Feel like online stuff and meeting on dating sites is not my cup of tea but I feel too old to go to a bar like I did in the early days. Not sure that bars in NY exist like I used to go to..anyone remember Sahara, La Femme, all of a sudden can't remember the name of bar on Sheridan Sq. Oops senior moment. I feel socially inept. Any suggestions.:deepthoughts::nailbitin::nailbitin:

[TheLoneStranger]

Empty, filler conversation.

[uglyboi]

I was thinking this morning about the time I saw the movie Bambi. It changed my life! When Bambi’s mother died, I vowed to myself that I would never ever EVER live in the forest. Too dangerous.

[Medusa]

On my mind: Years ago, a woman at my old job transferred to another department and proceeded to broadcast loudly and widely to everyone in her new department how bad her old boss "sucked" and how evil he was and also talked mad shit about almost everyone in her old department.

Well, lo and behold, the department she transferred to abruptly shut down a couple of months after she transferred there because the managers in her new department failed to properly manage the place and the entire department was just basically a fucking mess.

She had to do the walk of shame and reapply for her old position in her old department knowing that her old boss knew all the shit she talked and knowing that alllllll of her old coworkers knew what a gossipy, negative asshole she had been about them. Good thing for her that her old boss allowed her the grace of returning but God, can you imagine having to eat your own pile of dog shit like that?

Heavy on my mind lately how people's actions come back to bite them squarely in the ass. :glasses:

[girl_dee]

Medication insomnia.

[StrongButch]

That babysitting an 8yr old boy can be exhausting. But Grandma and mom needed to shop.

[Bèsame*]

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[JustLovelyJenn]

Lately what's on my mind is how much I am craving the feeling of being held in someone's arms... how that act can feeling can fill a void you don't realize is there... and how that void can exist no matter how happy you are with the rest of your life.

[Yew]

WOW my day was so made when a really sexy, beautifully blue-eyed (trans)guy messaged me on a dating site...totally unexpected, very welcome and really flattering- instant crush material to the MAX!

[JustLovelyJenn]

WOW my day was so made when a really sexy, beautifully blue-eyed (trans)guy messaged me on a dating site...totally unexpected, very welcome and really flattering- instant crush material to the MAX!

I am thinking I might be a little jealous... my dating site pages never get hits...

[LoyalWolfsBlade]

How bad my right hand hurts right now after boiling water jumped out of the pot making homemade chicken soup and attacked me.

[uglyboi]

I just watched a program about Charlie Sheen and all I can say is Charlie Sheen is the Keith Richards of Lindsey Lohan's.